Letter(s) from Tatyana Gadzhimagomedova to Steven (Australia)

Letter 1

Greetings, my dear friend! Just give a few minutes and read my letter. I'm very excited and I do not know exactly how to start. Well, my name is Ludmila, and I live in the north of Rus. I am 35 y.o., have higher education and work as a tour agent. I write you now, because I’m alone, and I guess you are as well! I am a serious woman, and I want to find a man who is serious about relations as well. I want to find my true love and build a strong and happy family with my man. I have already had relationships with the man from the US or AU, I’ve met him through the Internet . That was the wrong choice, that guy was a great deceiver, so we didn’t make a family and whatever at all. That’s why I try to find a real honest man here again. My friend who now lives in America met her love on the Internet, she’s happy now and so she said that it bad things happens, but one shouldn’t try again! That’s why I am here! She says that her husband is very romantic and caring, this is a hope for my success as well! Last time I tried to find a man myself, this time I decided to use the International Wedding Agency, which connects lonely hearts around the world. I paid this agency some money for you and so the wedding agent sent you my letter. I really believe there’s much to learn about each other, so let’s not lose time! I guess you are quite an experienced man and have lots of stories to tell me! I don’t want to tell you everything about myself at once, just want to be a kid of mystery for you. I hope you will reply me. I attached some of my pic, so that you can see the way I look. Wish you a good day! Take care of yourself! My e-mail is: goooodwedding@yahoo.com Hope to get your answer soon! Yours Ludmila!

Letter 2

Hello Steven!!! I'm very glad to get your letter today! I want to say that I'm quite happy that you decided to write me to know each other better. I thought you would never write me back... so now I am confused and don't know how to start this letter to you! I'll tell you a few words about myself and if you get some interest you could ask me questions. I should confess, I'm not a beginner in the Internet so -called ,,dating sphere''. But I've met so many bad people there who were ready just to play with the girls and to ask them to send their naked pictures. If you are among such men and want to play only, please, don’t write me anymore.The man from America with which I communicated the beginnings speaks me any platitudes and to ask naked photos. I think that this man was the pervert and sick mentality. I will never send you my naked photos. I hope you'll remember it. I don't want you to play with me, please, understand me as well. I just write this all, because I really want to find my real love and to meet a serious man, with whom I could build a happiness. So, if you have another aims for now, I don't think it is worth while spending our time and energy. I hope you’re not offended by these words, but I just follow my views on this life, Steven! Look, I'm honest in each my word, I'll tell the whole truth about myself and I hope you'll be honest with me as well. Well, to begin with I should tell you I can speak English quite well, I mastered it while my trip to the Australia, I've been to NSW, in a nice city, called Sydney. I came there because I was in love with one man, but unfortunately that relations were not quite good. I’ve arrived to his place and spent there about two weeks with him, and then just went back home. But anyway a friend of mine, who lives in the A now says that people in the, USA and Australia seem to her more pleasant and tactful than Russians. She also noticed that there were more romantic and caring men there than in my country. So, maybe she is right, but that very man I told you about before, was definitely not of that kind. We've broken off quite tragically. The thing is that he told me lots of romantic words before my flight to him, he promised me a happy life, so I felt like in the fairy tale, but that fairy tale became a total disaster from the very beginning: in reality everything turned out to be just the other way round. That's why I ask you to be honest in your letters. I guess you realize it's quite hard to find an honest guy in the Internet, and what is harder is to build normal relations with him. So, now I'm quite cautious. I probably will tell you more about everything in my letters if we correspond further, my friend Steven!!! I hope you will trust me, I know this is also a problem for you. I guess you've heard there are lots of girls in Russia and in the other countries, who are looking for men with money, and such girls are called scammers. I hope you or your friends were not tricked by such bad people. But these mean things which girls do to foreigners were the ground for a total change of the opinion of all the other Russian ladies. I mean, probably you think that here all the girls are looking for money and tricking men. It's a pity, because there are still women in my country, who are looking for a man to build a good family and to be loved. Just like me, honestly! OK, let's give up sad things, I'd better tell you some things about me. So, I was born in 1976. My birthday is on the 25 February. I'm 168 centimeters high, my weigh is 55 kilos. So, I live in Snezhinsk in The Chelyabinsk area! Have you ever heard about this city? Tell me about your city as well, that’s quite interesting! As for my character well, it’s hard to say about myself, but I think I'm quite a communicative woman, open-minded. I like to talk to different people to know something new. My friends say I’m able to bring smiles on their faces. It's also flattering to hear, but they say it's boring when I'm not there:) Speaking about previous relations, I should confess, I've already been married for 10 years. My ex-husband died in the road accident. I didn't want to build new relations for a long time, but later I realized my life was going on and I shouldn't stay in black depression, but just be open for new people and events. So, I was trying to find a man in my town, you know, dating with some guys, nothing serious, so I didn't find anyone actually. I just felt some of that men I was trying to date with were not for me at all. The other men wanted to drag me into their bed, you know what I mean. So, I decided to find a man in the internet and I told you earlier how that all finished up. You probably want to ask me why I search in the Internet again then. Look, I was pondering over it and realized, that the Internet gives you a kind of protection: you may communicate with people there and to know them quite completely and only then to meet in the flesh and to confirm your theories about this or that. Naturally, chatting in the Internet has a lot of disadvantages, but I like it anyway. How about you? As for my work, I am a tour agent in the tourist agency. My duty is to prepare documents for different for my customers. I am following my specialization I studied in the University: my faculty is that of Service and Tourism. Frankly speaking I’ve worked not always according to my specialization-it was hard to find something like this in my city. Well, I worked as a shop-assistant, a waitress, a cooker in the cafe as well-so what not! Now I'm pretty glad with my job. I can use the Internet at work to write you, but only when the computer is free and I’m free from work:) My working week starts on Monday and finishes on Friday, so I could write you only these days. I’ve got no laptop of my own, so you see I am not able to write you on weekends. I guess, Steven, that won’t be a great problem for our communication. When it’s more comfortable for you to write? Well, as for my daily routine...after work I like to visit a belly-dancing club. Probably one day I’ll show you the way I dance;) I also like to walk around a lot and after working day I try to be on foot. Well, all right, I am finishing up this letter for today, and I'll wait for your answer with the greatest impatience, Steven!!! I hope my letter isn't too long and it was interesting for you at least a bit;) In turn I should say I am quite interested in you as well. I would be glad to get your letter soon, to know you better. If you have some questions, don't feel shy to ask me. Wish you a good day; take care of yourself, Steven! Sincerely yours Ludmila. I wish to tell how we have got acquainted with you and whence to you my letter with the information has come. I have addressed in International Wedding Agency to find the happiness and love. I have paid money for acquaintance to you. To me have told that you the lonely man which search for the relation and love. After that Wedding Agent has sent you the letter from the e-mail. To me have informed that you have written me the letter with details about yourself. You wish to have with me acquaintance and to learn each other more. To me a distance your data and e-mail. Now I have written you the letter from the personals e-mail and you should write to me on this e-mail. Now you know all history of ours with you acquaintances and my personal e-mail. Very soon I hope to receive the letter from you on this e-mail ludmila.touragent@yahoo.com.

Letter 3

Hi my friend Steven! How are you? I'm so glad to you get your letter! You know, it really makes me happy to read what you wrote there and to learn something new about you! I am also glad that you understood what I've mentioned in my first letter. I hope you don't mind me asking you some questions. So, I would like you tell me more about your job. Like what exactly do you do there and which duties fulfill? What do you usually do after work? What are your hobbies? Generally, what are your aims in this life, my Steven. Through these questions I could better understand you as a person. By the way , I use the Internet translator sometimes. Well, my knowledge of English is quite normal, but I still don't know much and that’s easier to use that. That's why there could be mistakes in my letters, sorry for it, really! You can ask me if you don’t understand something. One more thing is that sometimes I could miss this or that question you’ve asked me before, so don't be shy to ask it one more time. Thanks for yours of a congratulation in the Valentine's day and me are very pleasant. I hope that once we become enamoured and it will be our holiday. I also to congratulate you on this holiday and to find the favourite person. To me it is very pleasant that we have met each other in the Internet. I very much liked your picture of a rose. Thanks for your photo to me very much are pleasant to look as you and you have attractive appearance in my opinion. I am glad the nobility that now you know about a city in which I live. I lived at first in village near to this city. Then I have arrived to study and remained to live in this city. Yes we really to have the beautiful nature and it is a lot of lakes. Now across all Russia really it is very cold. I know about skype but I can not use it on work because it is forbidden by my boss. So, now I would like to tell more about my job. First of all I have to say there's much work during the touristic seasons. Ah, I need much attention and patience to my clients. As I told you before, I'm a tour agent and work in the tourist agency. So, among my duties there is preparation of the advertisement and the organization of different tours. From time to time I have good discounts for some tours, it’s about 15. Good enough, isn’t it? Well, the main thing in my work is to make my clients be glad and feel happy. I love my staff, my co-workers are nice people, we made really a good team. I also want to tell you more about my family. I am the only child in my family and had quite a lot of parents' attention. My parents live in the countryside, 40 km from my city. On weekends I try to visit them, they are old and need help about the house. My mom's name is Lyubov, and my dad's name is Victor. I live alone in my one-room apartment. I still have to pay for this flat, because I've got a mortgage for it. There is one year more to pay for it and the flat finally it will be mine. I love my flat and try to make it look cozy and modern. Home is associated with comfort and the smell of something delicious being cooked in the oven. I love to cook and spend quite much time on the kitchen. I know how to cook lots of delicious dishes, like Pekin-style duck and many other things dishes... I very much like a Japanese cuisine and sometimes I with pleasure do sushi and roll. Especially when to me my girlfriends and friends come. I also like to spend my free time outdoors- in the forest or in the garden. I always enjoy beautiful landscapes and fresh air. Especially picturesque our nature is in autumn, ah if you just could see it! It's very nice to do some jogging in the autumn forest. Speaking about sport I can consider myself to be quite a sporty person. I visit the belly-dance club, enjoy swimming and skating, in winter I like skiing. I'm a Christian and do believe in God. I go to the church once a month, sometimes with my mother. On the whole, I'm quite close with my mom, we are just like good friends, I'm not shy to talk about my private life with her, because she always gives good pieces of advice. So, I'm going to tell her about you, because you seem to me quite an interesting man, Steven, she would burn with curiosity, I swear! She always complains that I work too much and don’t think about myself. Frankly speaking, Steven, I have to be very responsible, serious at work, like each professional. But when I come home, I realize I just want to get some tenderness and care from a person that I like. But for now I'm alone, that's why I have a lot of free time that I can spend cooking ,doing sport, reading books, f.e. different novels. Some of the brightest moments of that books are still in my mind, while I'm quite romantic anyway and in a way I hope something like that could happen to me one day as well, though it sounds quite silly, while I'm not a young girl=) (Though my favorite color is pink, very girlish;) I don't have a big library at home, that's why I prefer to take books in the local library. In this way I'm a bit old-fashioned, you know, nowadays everybody reads books from the screen of the laptop or their phones. I'm also old-fashioned about music: classic music and old songs are adorable, but there are lot of modern ones which I enjoy a well. What else should I say about myself...I'm always trying to be busy. Boredom makes people feel bad, corrupts minds and brains, though rest is very essential, for sure. What is also important for me is to show respect the other people. I mean, I am not that person who like quarrels at all. I try to listen to the opinion of the others than to make them obey my will. The best thing is to come to a common decision, which will satisfy both sides. Critic is very good as well, but it should be definitely constructive one. I always feel well when people criticize me on the ground of envy or jealousy And I try to avoid contacts with that people, because it's a waste of time. All right, I told you something about myself, now probably get a better idea of me as a personality. I hope you'll t write me in your next letter something about yourself as well. You know, I found out to myself that I'm very interested in you. So, thank you for your letters and attention to me, you seem to be quite a nice person, Steven. OK, I'm finishing up here and hope to get your response soon! Yours faithfully Ludmila.

Letter 4

Hello my dear, Steven!! How are you doing? I hope, you are all right! I was so happy to receive your letter! You know, I couldn't wait to come to my work to read it! Actually the first thing I do when I come to my agency is checking my mailbox. And if there's a letter from you, I'm very excited all day long, Steven. So, now I'm writing this letter and smile, even my co-workers notice that=) Weather here very cold is a lot of white snow everywhere and a cold wind, brr. Practically last three days every day there was a snow and it is a lot of it. People go to go for a drive from hills on skis and on sledge. I also like to go sometimes to ski in wood and to observe of the nature. Air in wood very fresh and landscapes around very bewitching. It would not be desirable to leave on street in the evening for walk at all. In such evenings it would be desirable to sit simply at home and to enjoy book reading. It’s so pleasant to pick a nice day and to make a picnic in the forest, you know, to grill meet and play games When in the street summer.. Sometimes My co-workers or just friends and me go there to pick some mushrooms and berries, there are a lot in autumn and summer. Thanks for your photo and you really good expert. I like your work and your laboratory. Here in Russia too there are such masters engravers who does inscriptions on everything. My full name Ludmila Ryzyanova. To me it will be pleasant if you make my inscription of the initials. I think that you saw old data about my city and now it more than 100 0000 persons. Yes some clients try to flirt with me. But it does not leave far and only dialogue within the limits of my work. I was once in the city of Chelyabinsk and it very big. I to go to buy there sometimes things because there is more choice of clothes. I think that there are good Russian men but they or are occupied or hide. It is possible to find the company of women easily in Russia because women more than men. I would be glad to prepare for you a Russian cuisine, and I like to prepare a borsch. Peking Duck not but I like to prepare Russian dish sometimes if there is a duck. I very much like your taste to music and it is good music. I have already got used to such frosts and it is a pity to me Europe which suffers very strongly. When I was a child, I adored autumn and was spending all day long outdoors! As I told you before, I am the only child in my family, my parents tried to give me all their care, but anyway we couldn't spend much time together, because they had to work a lot. My mother worked in the kindergarten till she was pensioned off. She was a cooker there and she's still a master. She started teaching me how to cook when I was a little girl, from the simplest dishes to very difficult ones, like multistoried cakes or something from foreign cuisine, Italian, Japanese. My mom says even now that I should have been a cooker, because she thinks I'm progressing in this business from day to day and she likes to come to me to try something delicious I've cooked;) But I think every woman has to cook well, because she is to feed her family. The better she cooks- the better atmosphere is in the family. Joking, naturally, but still! So, you see, I'm still not a cooker, but a tourist agent. Going back to my mom, I should say she works as a janitor in that kindergarten. She says it's better than to sit at home. I know the pensioners in Europe and the USA start travelling a lot, but people in my country mostly don't have a chance to travel, lack of money or health problems, so that's why they continue working on any job they could find. But my mom isn't against of this job, because she' s kind of still in ,,her nest''. My father works as a mechanist in the collective farm, he's so hard-working! Well, well, well, Steven! Aren’t you bored by this long biography?=) So, at least now you know more about my family, my dear Steven! Now you'd better have a rest, because I'm going to continue it, hah=)) Probably I should tell you how I have a rest? So, for example when I wake up, I switch on my radio, my favorite radio station and start my morning with dancing and singing, while cooking or taking a shower. Probably it looks funny, and thanks God nobody sees it=) I would like to start my every morning writing to you, Steven, but unfortunately I don't have my own computer at home. I can do that only at work. If I just had a phone to call you sometimes, that would be nice, but it's totally dead for now;(( I was taking a bath, and my phone was in the bathroom as well. One of my friends called me, I took the phone and dropped it in the water somehow. After that it doesn't work and I took that to the repair. They don't call me from there, I guess it's impossible to bring the phone to life and I probably have to buy another one, but I don't have extra money for it for now, because all the money goes to my flat. So, it's a pity of course, because sometimes it's very uncomfortable to live without a self phone. You know, Steven, I would really love to talk to you one day, and then I think I'll go to the post office to order a call to you. As far as I get free money, I'll call you from there, because I really would like the way you sound, to hear your voice! So, give me, please, your full number with the code of your country. ( I hope I don't sound too annoying!) So, I think I'll finish up writing, my Steven. I feel very pleased that you answered me, so I hope for your quickest response! Take care of yourself, Steven! Your friend Ludmila.

Letter 5

Hello, my dear friend Steven! How are you? I hope you are fine! Today is a very good morning, because I see your letter again! It's really a pleasure to get it, because you are such an interesting person, Steven. So, I think that today I'll have a very quick day, because I feel so good now, and as it's well-known when your mood is good, you work better. Well, today I was going to my work and pondering over relations with men. I don't know why I didn't succeed with local men. A lot of men seemed so nice for the first time, but later they started to change strongly, and the only their side I saw that time was a bad side. Thanks for your photo to me are very pleasant to receive it and you have attractive appearance. Thanks again for your Russian words and you do the big successes in Russian. Your age has for me no value and I hope that mine for you also. I not to look at age of the man as an indicator. Me it is more to interest its private world and character. I think that you should not reflect in general on age or pay to this attention. There is such expression that all age are obedient to love. Will tell in Russian "I love you" "Ya tebya Lyublyu" "What's for dinner?" Will be "Chto budet na obed?" I wish to find the love and to be the happy woman near to the man. My friends are very glad that I have found the man which to me have liked. It is pleasant to me to know more about your family and it at you very big. It is a pity to me to hear about your parents and I understand your loss. Yes it will be better if it is written on Cyrillic character. It is not necessary to write my personal details. Write me a warm wish in all sincerity is better. I can give to you the post address but mail in Russia does not work well. I think that it can not reach me in general. But if you want that I will give you it in the following letter. I not to have house phone because he needs to be established. It is very a pity to me about your quinsy and I hope as it you will pass will give me the phone number. It is very amusing to me to hear about that that you disappear when there is a chamber. I also to have such acquaintances which are afraid of chambers or pull faces on the chamber. Some of men here ( and everywhere actually) are ready for only one-night relationships, and to have steady relations with such men means to suffer from their unfaithfulness. Moreover Russian men have some problems with alcohol and even drugs. I swear, you've heard of it a lot. Men in such condition could be very dangerous for the other, to say nothing of his girlfriend or wife. Such people are kind of lost for me. I feel sorry for that ladies whose second halves are drug -addicted or drunkards. As for me, I drink very rare, only in the company of my close friends, for example on their birthdays, and the only kind of alcohol I use is red vine. I also don't smoke, because it's extremely harmful. The most important thing in every relations is trust and mutual understanding. Probably it's quite common to say these words, but it's just the truth. I do hope I'll find my second half to build strong relations with him. I told you before I had relations with a man from the Australia. His name was Tony. The last time we talked to was probably it is less one year ago. So, I've met him in the Internet on the wedding agency. He seemed nice and interesting. We had a kind of romantic relations; we were talking for some time and then decided we need to meet in the flesh. Frankly speaking I was in love with him, I was blind with that feeling and didn't see obvious things. I trust his every word like a 15-year old girl who was in love for the first time. That was him who told me about scammers, I mean that girls or guys who are tricking foreigners and taking all their money for their own needs. Once Tony told me he wouldn't help me with money before our first meeting. He told me that time that if I loved him, I should find money to visit him myself. I realized he just didn't trust me, because there were many scammers that time, and mostly from Russia. So, he told me that he would give me the money back when I come, because he wanted to be a gentleman and to pay for his lady. So, that was quite reasonable and I got his position, found some money ( which was not a small sum, you know) and came to him. The money questions were the last thing I could think about that time. Money has never played a great role in my life, it's just the base to support your being. So, just imagine, when I came I found out that he lied a lot about himself, his job, his house. Generally I just came to someone else but not that guy we were corresponding with. We had some conflicts on this ground and as you see, these relations had a tragic ending, because they were based on his lie from the very beginning. That's why, my Steven, I ask you to be honest with me and to tell the truth only, even if it's bitter. I decided we should break off, Tony was so angry and didn't understand the reason for my decision. Funny, isn’t it? I just asked him to give me some money back to go home, because I didn't have enough, as far as you remember we make a deal that he would help me. And as you could guess he didn't give me anything and moreover he drove me out from his house like a dog… I called the director of my agency and asked him to order me a ticket to go back for the money of the agency. Oh, I lost so much money, energy and tears that time! The most painful was that Tony had a wife. He was just playing with me, he wanted to spend a good time with me- that was the only thing he wished, though he knew it was not easy to come to him, to organize visa, my vacation and the other documents. I was a kind of sexual toy for him. Well, naturally I was frustrated and broken totally, because I was in love with that cruel man. Nowadays after this experience, which I could consider to be useful as well, though very unpleasant, I' m very cautious with men, and with you as well. Don’t be offended. No, just believe, I trust you generally, but if you invite me once, I probably would never do the trip with my own money. This is my position and I'll follow it, Steven. I hope you understand me in this way and you're not suspicious and displeased with it, Steven. Look, I just hate that people who trick men through the Internet, I'm sure they 've broken real feelings of many of men. So, I would never ask you to send me money, sweet Steven, don't worry. That should be only your wish to help me. I think this is reasonable. I earn some money, that's not much, but enough for living. I don't think money is so important and doesn't deserve too much attention to it. Also I want to tell you that I would be glad to meet you also here! I would show you my city, we could meet with my friends and have fun. I think that will be nice. well, probably it's too early to talk about it, you know, but you should just know my position from the very beginning, my Steven. I think that I'm up with all men here in Russia. I am not interested in Russian men, because I saw some of my female friends' example of unhappy families, where husbands drink and do horrible things to their wives. I had a boyfriend in Russia, we were dating for 2 years after my ex-husband death. Well, he used my kindness and the fact I trust him a lot. So, once I had to make a working trip for a couple of days. When I went beck, I found out that he had sex with a girl on our bed. I didn't tell anything, just packed my stuff and left our flat. How could he?? After that I couldn't trust Russian men anymore and I decided to find a man in the Internet. Well, now I think I'm a quite happy to find you, my dear Steven. Our correspondence is very important for me, just know it! It's so cool that we understand each other. You know, I just want to write you some features I appreciate in men mostly : 1 Nobleness.2 Fidelity.3 Bravery.4 Honesty.5 Erudition.6 Propensity to romanticism.7 Care.8 Mercy.9 Sense of humour. My dear Steven, well, I perfectly realize it's so hard to meet a man who could have all these features, but I just start to realize you have some of them;) Taking into account I still don't know you well enough, it's very good for me to make these conclusions. Yeah, that's silly enough, I mean, all these lists of features and thoughts about an ideal man, but still! You know, it will be pleasant if I could find all of these features in you, I would be a surprise, frankly speaking, and I’ll tell everyone you're ideal=) Steven, I swear you have the same a list of the features of an ideal woman. Or you can make it, because it'll be interesting to know it for me. Who knows, may be our values are similar! All right, Steven, I've written too much already about this stuff Ok, Steven, sorry for this philosophical thoughts in this letter and sorry if I said something offensive to you. I'm honest in everything I say. Now I think I'll finish up my letter to you, my dear Steven. Thank you for reading it a lot! Waiting for your answer, hope to get it soon! Yours dear Ludmila.

Letter 6

Hi my dear Steven! I am so happy to receive your letter! I really start getting addicted to your letters, my dear Steven. I perfectly realize you live 1000 miles away, which is quite sad because we can’t meet easily, and that is why it's r twice pleasant to get your letters! Well, I should confess I find you a very attractive and interesting person. Steven , you know, sometimes you don't know someone not long, but you definitely have a feeling,that you are familiar for years already! So, that kind of feelings I've got to you, my dear Steven. This is very nice, because it's very essential to feel that it's easy to be with someone. Again thanks for your Russian also seem that you know already many words in this language. It is pleasant to me to hear your opinion concerning my thoughts. I also am glad to learn about your last relations with Russian women. Me name Luda, Ludochka, Ludka. Yes I understand that to you will be better to arrive to me in the summer. I do not know much about geology of my area and formation of lakes. But we really have many lakes nearby and you can investigate them. I will be glad to see your drawings and I will approve liked me. It is a pity to me that at you do not turn out Cyrillic handwriting. I think that a man and a woman should be equal in their relations, I can't allow a man to perceive me as someone worse or not so important, you see, Steven? It will sound so obvious, but I am sure when a man chooses his partner, he should love her and take care of her, respect on that way to make her feel protected and easy. I'll never allow a man to offend me like so many men here in Russia do! It's natural, Steven, that if you decided to built relations, that shouldn't be any suffering for her. People give a promise to each other to solve all the problems together and to grow the tree of the relations with love, trust, faith and respect. You know, that I continue this list further, but all these things are too obvious, though important,. Look, Steven, I just think that this meeting is not something usual. Probably, it could change our lives. It's hard to say exactly right now. I want to ask you one question, whether you want to have any relations with me or not? Answer honestly, no matter what the answer will be. I just wanted to know whether our aims and wishes similar or not. Well, if you say that you don't, naturally that will be quite unpleasant, but at least I will know the truth. On the whole, I really would like to know you better! I'm quite interested in everything concerning you! Since my childhood I have been trying to know this world better, so in a way it's hard to dothis completely, because life is so unpredictable! Though I like this fact, otherwise it could be really boring to live=) So, that's why I don't know what could happen to you and me next week or next month, but I'm very curious about it, dear Steven! All right, I 'm finishing up here. And I hope you'll answer me soon, my Steven! I really don't know what your next letter will be, but I hope it will bring good news for me! With all sincerity, Yours Ludmila!

Letter 7

Hi, my dear Steven! I was so glad to get your letter! How are you, I wonder? I really hope you are fine. I'm OK as well. Hey I was talking to my parents about you, I just told them about our correspondence. They were happy to hear I was interested in you. They wish me all good things and worry a bit , like all the parents, especially after not quite a good experience, I told you about earlier. The ground of their worry is that I couldn’t find a man for a long time and now I'm corresponding with you, such a nice and trustful man! How is your day, Steven? How's the weather there? Weather already very cold and everywhere is white white snow. The temperature always costs with a sign a minus and when it is not so cool, to me to like to go on foot through park. I go and I enjoy fresh and pure air after the working day. My dear Steven, I'm so glad to find out that you are such a good person. A far as I get from our correspondence, we even are quite similar in our desires and aims, which is incredibly important for me. Probably, Steven, you are that person I was looking for all my life! Sounds pompously, but who knows, who knows....The thing I like about you is that I could trust you and tell more then to somebody else. At least I feel this way. For me it's quite hard to find such a person even in a real life, because people couldn't keep what I said to them in secret, and some time later my private secrets could easily become well-known. My Steven, I start feeling that we are becoming closer and closer with each letter. I'm very happy of it, really! I wake up in the morning, and smile at once, because I realize I could get a letter from you today. This hope brings me energy and good mood, Steven. I'm so happy that I've found you!Thanks for your ridiculous photo and it look very mystical! Thanks for your gentle words in Russian. I will write to you on new e-mail but have received from you all two e-mail which you to me have written. I have spent the weekend at parents and helped them on the house. We with my father cleaned snow at first and then I have gone to help mum to make a supper. The father has flooded a bath and after a supper I have gone to take a bath. I transferred Hello from you and warm wishes. History which you have written to me really very sad. It is very a pity to me that all it happens with you my dear Steven. I understand as you it was sick and bad to receive so much troubles at once. Yes the person nearby which you was really necessary to you will support. Well that the woman which vein near to you has helped you and has dissuaded from suicide. I think that to you was very difficult because you thought of such bad things. But the most important thing that now all is good also you the happy and joyful man. I think with such a man like you I could probably be a happy woman. I see the harmony in our letters and that what I really love. I think we should send our relations on the right way to take the yield. Well, I hope you don't take me for an annoying girl, but I just want to express my feelings, and I don't care it's too early for it. I'm just already involved with you, Steven. I can't say I love you, you know, love is such a strong feeling and these three words are very important for me, but I think if our correspondence will continue, I could probably say it once;) Such feelings could give so much energy, make the blood run quicker and heart beat harder. It's a pleasure to experience such feelings, I can tell you. Some words in your letters make me experience these sweet emotions over and over, as far as I recollecting them after reading the letter! I do not whether love is real or not, what is real is that emotions which it brings. Now I am not really sure that I love that men before. As for that Australian man I told you earlier, well, I think I loved him in my dreams only, not in reality. I made a dream of his being, and when my dream left me finally, the feelings disappeared as well. Love is a difficult thing and it is worth while discussing, dear Steven! The most terrible thing is to lose a person you loved so much. But I am definitely proud of that who experienced real love in their life. I told about you to my friend. Look, we’ve been friends for such a long time, that I could tell her about everything! Earlier we lived in a house where were lots of families with kids. We were all good friends with that children, boys and girls, so we spent much time dreaming about out future. We definitely were sure that time that everything will be as we wished, but later we realized that's not so easy. So, there were lots of problems later, like how to get a good education and how to find a good job, how to build a strong family and to find a real love. Some of that guys have chosen the wrong way and start a criminal life. So, I've just hear some news from them, but naturally I'm not going to stay in touch with them. So but I have a friend of mine, her name is Kseniya, we've been familiar since our childhood. So, she could be considered to be my real friend. I guess you have your steady friends as well, so you know what friendship means. So, tell me about them as well, that's interesting! My Steven, you know, it's easy to tell you about my life, for sure, because I feel response in your letters, feel that that all is not nonsense and useless information for you. I am just start thinking more and more about you and feel more open writing to you. Look, Steven, you are very important for me now and I don't know how to tell it exactly, but I feel you are a very good person with a wide soul. I will never be able to make harm to you, so trust me, please. I wish you all best things in the world, with my open heart, my Steven! I feel a deep sympathy with you, Steven? All right, I will wait for your letter with the greatest impatience, and hope for your soon and honest answer! Sincerely yours Ludmila!

Letter 8

Hi my dear Steven! How are you today? I hope you are all right and doing well. I was glad to receive your letter, you know! And what is even more pleasant is that you are waiting for my letters as well, as far as I am waiting for your letters. You know, that you, my Steven, give me so much energy and positive emotions with each your letter! Thanks for your Russian and me are pleasant to see it in your letter. I have spent perfectly weekend at parents and helped them on the house. You to me very much flatter those that speak have found treasure. It is pleasant to me to know that you already understand Russian words. I know travel agency which you have specified but they are our competitors. Ours agency not to have advertising on the Internet and only in local newspapers. I have no to play chess unfortunately. I am not able to play any tools! I like to guess sometimes crossword puzzles on work. I really do not know about distinction of time between us and at all I do not represent how many them between us. I NOT to HAVE CHILDREN BUT WOULD LIKE to HAVE ONCE PROBABLY. But me to be convenient on the one hand without children when they will be there will be many problems. Thanks for your address and I will try to send you a card and you will see my handwriting. I will be glad to receive your letter in English and you too know now my address. Thanks for your phone number I will try to call to you as soon as I will have a possibility. It is forbidden to me to use an office number to suit the own ends. Calls are accepted by our boss and phone costs in its office. Also rather skype I also cannot use this program on work. Our boss forbids to stir to us on a network and speaks that we should work instead of stir. For me not a problem that you smoke also I will help you to stop to smoke if you want it. I understand as difficultly to stop to smoke and support is necessary. I think of ours with you the future and it will be better to live in your country. Because you will be surprised from small payments here in Russia. As your country more better also approaches for a life. We can go to visit my parents or they us. I also like architecture. It is pleasant to me to know about your preferences in meal and in it there is nothing terrible. It is pleasant to me more when me name Ludochka. I have received a photo of your inscriptions and I liked letter L on the second photo. It the greatest and very beautiful. To me you are pleasant to know about feelings which have to me though we did not see at all. I will be glad to receive your photo if you them take. Well,well,well. Love is such a strange thing, I can tell you. Do you agree, Steven? I don't know the only man who doesn’t want to love and to be loved. I do believe in love and as they say this feeling could break the mountains and dry the rivers. But on the other hand love can be very dangerous. So often people lose their heads and can even suicide because of the quarrel or breaking off with his second half. What a pity when it happens like this! I know for sure what pain is, but I am sure this is not the reason to die. Oh, this is a very sad thing to discuss, so let’s speak of something more pleasant. Or somebody!=) Dear Steven, I feel a deep sympathy to you, but I need time to make this sympathy stronger, you know! Time makes us stronger, so we are more and more sophisticated in this or that possible cases. So, that's why I just want you to be very careful in my words and actions about you not to offend you. I apologize if I said something wrong or offensive, dear Steven. You know, visited to the Australia was a great experience. I've noticed that the culture of our countries are absolutely different. It took me time to get used to this new surrounding, culture, language, people. And that was not so easy, but so interesting! I hope if once I find myself in your country, you'll help me to feel more comfortable. And I promise to do the same, if you come here, Steven! It's hard for many people to leave their country and to live somewhere else. And I'm sure that love is the best reason to overcome such difficulties- the best and the most pleasant reason. So, mutual support could make getting used to easier. So, I hope you understand what I mean, and now I think I'll go:)) I'll wait for your letter with the greatest impatience, dear Steven. Wish you a good day and good mood!! Your angel Ludmila is waiting for your letter!

Letter 9

Hi my dear my Steven! How are you? I really hope you are doing well, my Steven. Today weather was solar but temperature with a sign a minus. Trees in snow are very beautifully looked and these are winter landscapes. About my house there is a feeding trough for birds which hangs on a tree. Kind people have hung up it to feed up birds which winter in Russia. I bring there grain crumbs and fat that birds could attempt. Everywhere yard keepers strew sand that people did not fall because of ice. In the winter on roads there are many failures because on asphalt the frozen ice. Today the bus on which I went for work I have brought also very much was frightened. Well that the driver was skilled and took a situation under the control. Probably only therefore we did not run anywhere and were not traumatised. And how's the weather there at your place? Our spirit so often depends on the weather. My mood now depends also on you and your letters..I just wanted to ask you, what do you feel to me. It is very important to know your opinion, and I will tell you why later. Tomorrow in my country a holiday and many people will not work also as well as I. The holiday which will be tomorrow Day of the Defender of Fatherland is called. It is celebrated by all military people and men defenders of fatherland. You also my defender and consequently are your holiday also. We will congratulate our boss on a holiday today and we will give a gift. We were threw off by money all colleagues and a gift a ware set. I will not work tomorrow and I will spend the day of the house, I will look TV and to be engaged in an economy. I be able write to you only on Friday. I really do not know about distinction of time between us. But I sent you the letter to 8 o'clock in the evening therefore was late on work. I do not understand why my letter has come to you so late and you have thought that it is night in my country. I also am very puzzled by that that you to me have told about time. So, now I could tell you, Steven about my daily routine. Probably it's not so interesting to you, but you can get an idea of my life. I wake up at 6.30 a.m., do some working out, take a shower, take care of myself. Sometimes I use cosmetics, but not always, I think I look good even without it. Then at 7.25 I have a breakfast, usually it's just some coffee with toasts. My working day starts at 8 a.m. and finishes at 17.00. I told you before where I work, so my duties are to prepare the documents, to give recommendations and to consult the clients. My main aim is to make people be interested in a tour and to find the best variant for them. It's very essential to hear later that that the trip was something they really wished, it’s such a pleasure to see their shining eyes. I also have a rest for a lunch, somehow from 12.30 till 13.30. You know, my work takes so much time, but I always try to find a minute to you, Steven. After work sometimes we go with my co-workers to the cafe to have a dinner and to have fun there, to chat, something relaxing. I really adore my working team as well as my job on the whole, in spite of the fact it takes me much energy and moral power. Soon I'll have my vacation and have a little rest. Actually I'm waiting for this vacation strongly. I have a chance to go to any county I'll choose with a discount 20 . It's a great advantage of my work=) Dear Steven, I’m shy but I want to tell you some about my feelings to you and something which is going on between us. I don't know how to explain it exactly, but I'm kind of addicted to your letters and you. All the time I'm waiting for your letters and when I get them I become so happy! You are such a pleasant person, it's so interesting to talk to you. I swear you must be even more attractive in a real life. I think I'll never will be able to get rid of such a pleasure as corresponding with you. We've been known each other for quite a long time, and I've learned already a lot of you, as well as you about me. Though I won't tell you that I love you, because these words should be told in a very private atmosphere, and almost in a quiet voice, Steven, but my attitude to you is really very good, trust me! I feel something warm to you, it seems to me we've been known each other for ages! What is important that we trust each other, at least I do, and how about you, my dear Steven? In this letter I've almost opened my heart you, it was not hard, because there's noting shameful in what I feel, dear Steven. I will wait for your letter with the greatest impatience! Take care of yourself, please! With a tender kiss Ludmila!

Letter 10

Hi, my lovely Steven! How are you, sweetheart? I really hope you are all right! Today I had such a hard day, you know, lots of clients, much work. I'm quite exhausted. So, the only thing that saves me now is thoughts about you, my dear! I told you before that if I see a letter from you when I come to my work, it is easier to work, Steven! I am always trying to find some minutes to write you, and there are always so many thoughts in my head, when I'm just on my way of writing. But as far as I open the new page to write you, all the ideas escape from my head;) I have spent perfectly my day a birth on Saturday and it was a pity to me that you not with me nearby. My girlfriend and friends to my parents came. We have well sat and had good snack and red wine. Yesterday I have gone to ski and I liked to go in wood. With me there has gone my father and we had remarkably time together. I transferred Hello from you and warm wishes. It is very a pity to me to hear that your friends are adjusted sceptically concerning ours with you of the novel. I understand their alarms and your evil thoughts. I can confirm my reality and to take a photo with your name in hands. But you should make for me too most. I did not adjust a profile in agency through which bought yours e-mail. You know, I really appreciate what you do to me. You are a very important person in my life and I am very serious about you. I just want you to be serious as well, though I know I could arouse suspicious, like all the other girls from Russia, who corresponding to the foreigners, especially after what I told you, that I like you. I've heard a lot of stories about scamming. Yeah, that terrible cases happened to poor men corresponding with the girls from Russia, Ukraine, Nigeria, Armenia. The Internet contains lots of such news that this or that man was deceived. As you see, I was scammed as well. I went to the man in the Australia, because I was terribly in love with him and I did it for my money as well, because I wanted to prove I'm not that person to cheat. Well, my noble ideas failed me and I lost lots of money, 3000-4000 dollars or more, trying somehow to go back from this country, when I was tricked. It was really hard, because this money is not small, and it took me so much time to earn them. As they say, money doesn't grow on trees. So now I perfectly understand men who are in such situation and never want you to experience it! My experience was useful for me as well, otherwise I would never know the feeling of tricked men. So, now just understand me, that I trust you, but on the other hand I don't want to be fooled again, and my new rule is not to go abroad, I mean to a man, by my money, Steven. Naturally, I would be glad to meet you here, you probably just can't imagine how nice it is here right now! You would love it for sure! On the other hand, I won't be against to visit your place as well;) But I won't pay for it myself, so just know it. I think if decide to meet, we should find a compromise. May be something what I said sounds offensive and you could take it as distrust to your personality, but naturally it's not, I just won't ask you and be insistent and annoying about this question. Our meeting will happen if you want that. As for me-I want that for sure! Frankly speaking, that's what I am dreaming right now. I think if you are serious about me and your intentions are serious as well, we should meet! It's a difficult decision and it's probably hard to realize that, I think, because we live not in the nearby streets. You know, Steven, letters and telephone talks are good, I'm so addicted to that, but one meeting is thousand times better, of course! One thing I want to you to keep in mind is that I need only serious relations, and it's hard to build them with someone who's so far away, because we both need tenderness and warmth, care and spending time together. I think that one meeting will make us do the right decision: we match each other or not. For me now it for sure seems that yes, but a meeting will be a great proof, Steven. I probably sound really insistent right now, and these talks about soon meeting irritates you a lot, but I just don't like to waste time. I appreciate each minute of my life and I think you do as well, Steven. I am 100 sure our meeting will be incredibly romantic and nice! Do you sometimes imagine it? I do! I know we'll find the topics to discuss, if we need to talk;)) We will go to a cozy small cafe, eat sweet pastries, drink hot tea and watch each other eyes. Something in your letters and what you say makes me think you are very family-oriented man, and I'm mad of it, because so many men here are looking only for something for one night...this is sad, sad, Steven, because I want to have a family, to take care of my dear husband, to make family holidays, to buy presents, to make surprises, to cook.. Ah, that's what each woman really needs, though she could not tell of it directly. If everything is OK with us, we'll definitely have the most united family, I am sure of it. I am finishing up here and hope for the quickest answer. I pray you not to be too strict about what is written in this letter. Waiting for your letter, with tender kisses, yours true love Ludmila! I love you such as you are All the rest grows dim, into the background My heart belongs to you and now you it My heart is in your hands and I ask you not to break it My love goes from my heart to yours You have allowed me to love You I wish to tell to you thanks for it