Letter(s) from Marilyn Anna Lane to Cyril (Netherlands)

Letter 1

Thanks for your email, I am new to this Internet dating thing and don't know what to write or ask. However, I will tell you a little about myself.

I'm Rebecca 33 years, am 5feet 8inches tall and weigh about 60kg. I just graduated from reading Economics Major and Management with a bachelors degree.

I am looking for something real,true love and happiness.
I have always wanted something caring, loving, serious and respect. And i think i am able to get to know more about you when you bring me all of these.

I am loving, caring, serious and funny at times too. I'm down to earth, live a simple life and easy to get along, friendly but however more reserved and indoors and a little bit out going sometimes.
I like to watch Tv, listen to music, play volleyball and i love to swim in the swimming pool too.

I am sexy, loving and sensational in all of my ways. But true love and happiness is what makes me. I want my partner to be able to laugh and smile back to me. I need my partner to also be my best friend....one i can live the rest of my life with.

I am that kind that ones you get to know me, you are going to like me. I'm simple loving and funny sometimes and i like my partner to be wanting me always.

If you think you like me. Then you don't have to worry about anything. I will be waiting to hear from you.

Tell me about yourself and all i have to know...
Write back soon.
Rebecca

Letter 2

Good to hear from you again Cyril. And thanks for your photo, you are a very handsome man.
Thanks for appreciating my beauty too…though i don't look so beautiful in pictures.

However, unlike you, i have never been married and i don't have kids.

I've been single and lonely for sometime now too. I just haven't found the right man.

I was about 5yr then. Life was so good until in the year 2000 when i lost him to cancer.
He left us with a big house he had built when he died. Like that was not enough, i lost my mother in the year 2005 to that same cancer. It was a terrible moment for me.
Life became very hard. I had no choice but to continue my education. I was left with my grandmother who is now 85 years old and my younger brother in the house.
I then moved to London to have my education in Middlesex University. 4 Years later, i permanently moved back to Africa and started looking for a job. I still have not found a job here because of poor economic crisis. It was the same situation in London.
So, the only family i have now is my grandmother, younger brother and an auntie who lives in London with her husband and kids.

That is the story of my family. Now, i sell Ice-cream for my boss. I work in an Ice-cream shop here… while i write applications and send my resume out to companies in search of a job.
That is the root to mine being here in Africa.

Sometimes, my brother and i want to go back to Malta. But we often think that will mean the beginning of a new life for us, and thus will be very difficult for us to begin again.
My father was my everything and it hurt me so much anytime i remember. I believe that we will get to see our loved ones we lost when we also die someday.

I am looking for a serious relationship that will lead to marriage. A life-long partner who i can grow old with. A best friend ! Who will sure be by my side.

I may have written much already. Just trying to give you a glimpse of who i am.

Take care and be good.

Letter 3

Hello Cyril

sorry to hear about your two brothers and your parent as well..Yes i like children and would love to have some in future..I'm seeking a serious long term relationship and more. Someone who is responsible, respectful, can take care of themselves, and who is employed.special to capture my heart and knows how to handle it with care, one who will cherish me and be willing to share life's greatest joys and sorrows. Someone who's willing to spoil, pamper and love me unconditionally, whom is kind, sincere, honest, passionate, loyal, sense of humor, loving and wants a lifetime of passion.and also knows how to have fun but can be serious when needed., so only serious inquiries will be accepted.I hope to hear from you soon I'm looking for a soul-mate...a best friend for life! Someone I could talk to about anything....A good listener, smart and funny! I'd give the same to the ONE !! Who knows - may be you are my twin-soul..

Letter 4

Hey,are you there

Letter 5

Nope,i did not did you receive my mail here

Letter 6

I was born and raised in Valletta Malta...i didn't have my high school education in the my late father started a mining company in AFRICA,after a few years he forced my whole family,including my late mother and siblings to join him in there where he had his company...

Letter 7

Good to hear from you again Cyril, it is always a pleasure. How was your day today ?
Mine was fine. I just couldn't write you in the morning because of poor internet access.

So, have you been married before ? Do you have children ? Do you live alone ?

I have a few of my relatives around me. I live with my grandmother and younger brother.
What about you ?

It is ok for me to dance, but it is not a part of me. Whether i dance or not, that is no big deal. I rather enjoy listening to music.

Let me get to know you well. Tell me more about yourself.
For me, I like being with honest, down-to-earth, trusting individual that like to enjoy the little things in life.
Someone that is out-going and content in life. Someone who knows how to treat a woman and love at all times. Someone that is comfortable being themselves wherever they are.
I am low maintenance and like to enjoy the company of a special someone - whether it's just talking, watching a movie, swimming or doing activities together.
I don't ask for a lot, just someone to share some times and happiness together. Someone who can laugh and smile back to me .
If i ask for anything, it is complete honesty from my partner about what he wants from me and from life in general.
I just want to be happy for the rest of my life.

My weekend is going to be normal. I will be at work on Saturday. I would clean the house and do the laundry on Sunday, and then relax, read a book and do the cooking.
My weekends are normal and simple.
I must go now. Write back soon.
Rebecca.

Letter 8

Hello Honey

Oh yes,nice to still read your offline message,the light went off again..i will be going on Monday to pay my bills so that i will not been having problems like this again..wow wish am there to,i may be online around that time,...take good care of yourself for me and be safe okay...

Letter 9

Good evening Sweetheart

How did the party went,i hope you enjoy your day today..wish am there to play the CD with you,Lol...I'm feeling very sleepy honey,i think am feeling sleepy and would be going to bed,when ever you wake up please email me and let me know you are wake...sweet dreams and sounds sleep...

Letter 10

Do you know what it is like to look up into the velvet night sky, and yet not see the stars? Do you know what it is like to see the song birds sing their sweet music, and yet not hear their sound? Do you know what it is like to feel your heart inside you, and yet not feel it beat? Do you know what it is like to be in a crowd of people smiling, laughing, sharing their love together, and yet be all alone with no one around? Do you know what it is like when the light of your life has been extinguished, and you are left in absolute and complete darkness, frightened and alone? Do you know what it is like when the one you love so deeply and dearly is so far away? Your heart cries out their name and yet there is no reply.

All you want to do is hold them in your arms, and you cannot. All you desire to do is to kiss their sweet lips, and you cannot. You long to hear their soft sweet voice as they whisper words of love to you, and you cannot. You just want them near, and they are not.

Their absence brings with it frustration and sadness. You curse God that you cannot be with the one you love, and yet you thank him completely for bringing that person into your life, all the while knowing that no amount of dreams and hopes and prayers, can, at once, change the situation - the situation that is in the hands of the God that you curse.

So, what do you do in such times? How do you keep your wits about you? How do you maintain some semblance of normal life, when all you can do is think about is the person that you are so in love with and that you would do or give anything just to be with? You feel lost somewhere between the cruel reality of life, and the dream-like fairytale that you wish to live in, and the only salvation is to be found in the arms of your beloved and that cannot happen.

Friends cannot comfort your soul. Thoughts only make the pain in your heart worse. What do you do? You think about them - oh my God, how you think about them endlessly! You pray to God for the strength to see it through this situation, knowing that someday you will be with that person forever. But is that enough? No. Not always. Until you are in their arms, nothing really helps.

The mind is a whirlwind as your thoughts are tossed around like matchsticks in the wind. But the one thought that is all constant and eats away at the core of my soul is a simple one: "When will I hear from you again? Will I ever hear from you again?" Such silly thoughts are these. But time can cause such thoughts to occur. It is only human. I am only human.

And so, I wait. For how long? Only time and God can tell. And as I wait it seems as though the hands of the clock move in reverse instead of forward. Each second that passes seems as an eternity away from you. Time takes you further away from me instead of bringing you closer, and time is something that is beyond our control.

Oh to be an angel, and have wings that I may fly into your arms at this very second. To taste your sweet kiss and feel your warm embrace. To love you, to have the pain of needing you, vanish in your arms, as would snowflakes on a summer day. And to know that we would at last, be together for all our days. Days spent lost in sweet heavenly love, such as we have never known.

Oh God, my darling, how is it that love can be so wonderful, and yet hurt so badly? Such pleasure in knowing and feeling your love for me, and such mortal pain in being apart from the one that I love so deeply, so dearly, so passionately.

Darling there is an old saying that applies to being away from something. It goes, "Out of sight...out of mind." But, my love, every "old saying" has an opposite meaning. In this old saying it is also said, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder," and just when I think it is not possible to be more in love with you, a second ticks off the clock, and I discover that I am more in love with you then ever before.

"Do I Love You"

Beyond the shadow of a doubt,
As the mighty river flows,
As the meadow gale plays,
With the wind on summer days.

About as deep as deep can go,
From the canyons to the sky,
Like a mother as she cares,
For the baby that she bears.

Do I love you? Don't you know by now?
Do I love you? Must I show you how?
Do I love you? Do I have to say?
Do I love you? Yes in every way.

About as sacred as a hymn,
And a bible full of prayers,
From a whisper to a roar,
Very much and even more.

Let me show it with my eyes,
And I'll share it with the night,
If in death the Lord is kind,
You'll be the last thing on my mind.

Do I love you? Don't you know by now?
Do I love you, Must I show you how?
Do I love you? Do I have to say?
Do I love you? Yes in every way.

ENJOY YOUR DAY , my love. And never doubt that with each breath I take, I love you morE. I love you.

With all my love.VIVIENNE