Letter(s) from Ulyana Doshebaeva to Paul (Australia)

Letter 1

Hello my name is Vera. I received your message on RussianCupid. Yes, i would like to know you better.
I am 32 years of age, live on my own in Russia. I work in a private dental clinic.
I have never married or had any children. As a person I am almost always positive about life and by far my best quality is sincerity.
I'm here for serious relationship and hope to find my true love and my half.
Not for fun, not for penpal !!!
I like travelling and visiting new places and getting to know new people.
If you would be kind enough to write to me and send some photos I will reply with the same.
Anyway I hope to hear from you soon.
For now I send you my Warm Heart, Hugs and Kisses.
Sincerely,
Vera

Letter 2

Hey, what happens? You ask me to write to you on Cupid site, which i did.
What would you like to know about me? Write to me. Kisses, Vera

Letter 3

Paul hello, how are you? I'm so happy you found time to write to me. Maybe we can now become good friends or even more if we both so desire. I am sure, many women want to contact you and maybe I am not the most beautiful one, but I have a good heart, I am sincere, honest, caring, and I know how to please my man in very situation and make him happy. I am a mature and not spoiled girl, healthy and without bad habits. Paul, as you already know I'm Vera, 32 years of age, I hope my age is ok for you? What is your real age? I live in Russia in beautiful city. I work in private dental clinic. Yes, I'm a dentist. I have never married or had any children. As a person I'm almost always positive about life and by far my best quality is sincerity. I'm family oriented. I'm here for serious relationship and hope to find my true love and my half. Paul, I like travelling and visiting new places and getting to know new people. Yes, I have my passport. Have you been in Russia before? I'm freely speak and write in english and russian languages. Which languages do you speak Paul? I'm 168 centimeters tall and 53 kilograms weight. I'm active person and always full of energy. I regularly go to fitness. I like also yoga and tennis. I don't smoke. I live alone in my apartment. I have computer at home, so we can start to exchange letters as often as we want. What do you think of this? I'll give you my phone number when I know you better. Ok? It will be interesting to hear you on phone.
I've written to few men before, but relationships other than friendships have never developed. Now I am still looking for that dream Gentleman who become my partner, lover, confidant and best friend and my husband finally.
Maybe that person is you? I desire a kind, positive mature and stable person with whom I can share my life. I think we all want that! Why are you looking for your woman abroad? I will stop now and wait for your response. If you have any questions, please feel free to ask me everything and I will answer you truthfully as best that I can. I cannot promise anything about our future, but I want to get to know you. Let's see what happens between us now and in the future. In other words, I'm excited about having the chance to get to meet you. Have a nice day! It is really nice to meet you. I shall wait your answer! Sincerely yours, Vera

Letter 4

Paul my new friend, hello! How are you doing today? I know there are a lot of people who play games on internet but i hope it not about you. I want to give you chance. You should know Paul, I deleted my profile from the site.
I'm really serious with you! It would be unfair if I continue my search and at the same time will try to build relationship with you. Do you agree?
Before I tell you anything I must say that I am here not for exchange mails for many years. I'm not looking for penpal. I'm sure, the one month or two will be enough, that would get to know each other well enough and make the final decision whether we want to meet in real life face to face, or to break and try with another person. If this is unacceptable to you, you should tell me about it before we go on. ok? I still have not had vacation this year and I'll be happy to travel to your country, if we decide to meet.
But first, I want to know you better. Please tell me more about you. Paul, what woman can make you happy? What makes you angry and what makes you happy? Tell me about your family and your work. It's important to me. I want to see on the map the place where you live. So tell me the exact name of your city. I think you can find my city on the map without problems. I live in Russia in Cheboksary city. Really beautiful place. Why I seek a husband abroad? I believe that if a woman is really looking for her soul mate and doesn't have any hidden agendas, she won't limit her search by a certain country. The search is worldwide, including her home country. Most important is to seek everywhere and something absolutely great will come out of it.
It's not important where it happens, in your own country or abroad, because happiness has no borders!!!!! I am not that naive to think that things are some kind of "special" abroad but I believe one should be hopeful and keep searching, knowing you've done all you could. I would like to see next to me a man who is intelligent, successful and financially secure, as I am used to this level of life. Life is wonderful and precious, I try to enjoy and to live fully every moment of it. I feel that I want to find my life partner as I feel I am ready for the serious relationships. Paul, is this also what you want to find here???? Looking forward to hearing from you soon and of course i would like to see your new pictures. Sincerely, your new friend Vera.

Letter 5

Paul hi, what's your mood? what are your plans for this weekend? It's Friday and I and my colleagues had a dinner at restaurant after work. Was really hard week. Now too late, but I decided to write to you and ask you to do one thing. Ok? Please take some of your photos in your home, at your workplace and in other places. Ok? This will help me to present your life in more real. I hope you liked my today's photo. Now I want to go to bed. write me!
Sweet dreams Paul. Sincerely your Vera.

Letter 6

Paul my dear, hello! How was your day today? Are you thinking of me? I hope!
I miss you, cos I am always rejoiced when I see your mail. My weekend was fine. I spent one day in country house on the banks of the Volga river with my friends. I swam and sunbathed. Paul, do you like tanned women? Today I asked myself, why you? Why I decided to try with you? There are thousands of other men, and thousands of other women with whom we could try. But why exactly are you and why am I? I think, I do not know the answer to that question. Paul, maybe my heart told me to make a choice? Maybe it's fate?
God connected us? Paul, you know the answer to this question? Your letters really warms my heart! This is what I feel at this moment and I do not want to hide from you my feelings. I'm fine now, just a little sore leg muscles after yoga class. Smile, tomorrow the pain will go away. I poured my heart to you in my last long emails and so you know what I'm seeking. My last relationship lasted for more than 5 years and ended in 2012. We lived together but were not married. I loved this man and hoped it would last a lifetime. But at one point, he left me for a young girl and now we do not communicate. I think both of us were too keen on a career and did not give enough time to our relations. I think it was the cause of our break. Now I do not make the same mistakes again! Paul, my heart was broken and I wanted to be a while without wanting to have a boyfriend but I've decided to open my heart again because I feel very alone. When something like that happens, then you lose trust and even hope. Perhaps, one day I will find someone suitable for life and family values. Paul can you tell me what you find interesting on me? Hope hear from you soon and see your new photos. Kiss you! Sincerely your Vera.

Letter 7

Paul my dearest, good evening! I am very glad that you believe in us and we have many commonalities. You have the same desires as me and that to me is very important. I know a little about you, your culture, but I'll be happy to continue to get to know you better. I am open to new relationships and I'll be glad to give you a chance to win my heart. Paul you are ready to take that chance? We should not base it on previous relationships, because they are different situations, at different times, with different people. We should rather take a lesson from life all that passed in past relationships and not make the same mistakes in the future. Today I plan to visit my parents in their country house. My parents have big house, a few kilometers from the city. My mother has made a tasty supper and asked me to visit them.
Paul dear, I still have not told my parents about you. I think I'll tell them when I know you better. I do not want to rush it. Paul you told with your close people about me? what they think of your relationship with russian woman? How have you been? I hope all is well with you. I'm enjoying my relationship with yourself is through letters, because there are no boundaries for sincere friendships. Dear, here are a few questions for you.
Ok? You want, what your future wife was a housewife or she should worked?
How do you see your ideal family relationships? you will dominate in relationship? I really feel a need to hear your voice, but you should understand if i wish to wait. I'll tell you when I will feel comfortable enough that would give you my phone number. Ok? How many time difference between our countries? In my town we have moscow time. If I did not answer all of your questions, I'll do it later. Ok? Now I have to close down and go to my parents. My mother calls to me again this second. Always good feel free to ask me anything and also taking good care of yourself. Have a wonderful and lovely day there and always waiting for hear from you. You deserve all the best that life can bring. I miss you darling. A warm kiss, Vera

Letter 8

Paul my dear, it's too late here, but I can not stop thinking about you. I feel bad. Yesterday night I had an awful incident. Hey, why you were not with me? Tomorrow I'll write to you. Your Vera

Letter 9

Paul my dear, today my working day has ended earlier than usually so I have decided to write to you. Some days ago I had a terrible incident. After my work day I decided to visit my parents in their country house. I had supper with my parents. We talked about all things and I did not notice that it took time. Near midnight I sat in my car and have gone to city. When I was driving along by forest road, I punctured the tire of my car and could not go further. There is a spare tire in my car and I was trying to change a tire, but it was too large and heavy. I needed a strong male hands. At that moment, I was thinking about you Paul. I wished that you were with me. I tried to call my father, but my cell phone did not work in this area of the forest road. I was really scared. There were no other cars on the forest road at the time and I did not know what to do. Paul, it was really scary!!!
I closed in my car and waited for help. More than two hours, I sat in my car at night on forest road. When I saw a car on road, I ran out onto the road and began to shout and wave arms and ask to help me. A man who was riding in the car, he stopped and said he was very surprised to see a lone woman at night on the forest road. He helped me to change a punctured tire. I think you'll be surprised, but for the first time in my life, I punctured tire on my car. That night I realized that there are things that a woman can not do without the help of a male. Paul my dear, I want to ask you, you think you might fall in love on the internet? Some time ago, I received letters from men who after exchanging some e-mails telling me "I love you". I think they just were not serious with me. So relationships other than friendships have never developed. Paul you exchange letters with other women at this time?
How do you see your future life in the next year or two? Write to me! I'll be waiting for your answer with impatience. I kiss you! Sincerely your Vera.

Letter 10

Paul my honey, how do you do my special person? What is your mood in this weekend? I feel fine when reading your letter! Everything is ok with me.
Your letter is not boring, I'm sure you're a special man. You are so close person for me now and I like that we understand each other. I'm waiting for every your reply. I keep all our letters and I often read them. I'll be frank with you. I'm so glad that we met! Of course I want to tell you that all of your words are very important for me, I always try to find the inner beauty as I told you and I try to read between the lines when I read books.
It is so amazing! So the same with your. Paul dear, here are a few questions for you here. Are you religious? I'm Orthodox Christian and I'm not a fanatic. My religion will not be a problem for you? Paul, what is your dream? Today is a very nice day, this evening I am going to a restaurant for dinner with my best friend. I want to talk to her about you. Her name is Olga, she's my best friend for many years. You'd be surprised, but I still did not tell anyone about you. I want to share my news with my friend. I hope you do not mind? To be honest, I was overwhelmed with emotion.There are so many ideas in my head. Do you know that I enjoy our correspondence a lot??? I enjoy reading more about you. Please feel free to discuss any subject or ask me any question you wish to ask. Ok? My honey, my heart is ready for love and for wild feelings, I will be devoted wife or woman at first. I am not old but I am not young and I don't want to waste my time on internet for all my life!!! I'm for real. For real relations and for real love. I will be waiting impatiently for your answer tomorrow. Hope you will write me a thoughtful letter and explain your emotions and feelings. I'm missing you. With all my love and tender kiss, I HOPE OUR DESTINY WILL GUIDE US TOGETHER SOON. Sincerely your Vera.

Letter 11

Paul my darling, hello! Thank you for your nice letter and for your kind words. It's so easy to speak with you! and I'm very happy that we become soul mates now. So, how was your day? I hope that my letter help you to smile! On Sunday, I celebrated my 33 birthday. For a long time I could not decide which restaurant to have a party, but I found the perfect solution. I rented a small ship and organized my party on the water. My parents, my friends and my colleagues were surprised when I told them about the place of the celebration of my birthday. I had an amazing birthday and spent a great weekend on the Volga river. Were a lot of delicious meals, fun, music and dances. I love to dance! When you invite me on our first slow dance? Don't keep me waiting too long Paul! Smile! You're a good dancer? In the evening, when it got dark there were fireworks on a ship. It was beautiful! It was a great feelings! I was happy! Honey, but I was really sorry that you were not with us. Too bad you could not appreciate the beauty of my new evening dress that I bought on Saturday for a party. My father said I was the queen of the party. Smile! I think I can make your heart beat faster when I tell you that on Saturday I bought lingerie from the new collection "Victoria's Secret", this is really sexy! Honey, your pulse quicken? When the party is over and I went back to my apartment, I felt really sad and lonely. All my friends and colleagues are happily married and when the party is over, they all returned to their families and I think had a good night in bed. Do you understand me Paul? I'm sure they were not alone that night. I did not tell anyone about this, but I'll tell you. Tears filled my eyes when I came home and went to my big cold bed. I felt so lonely. I do not want to be alone more! Paul, my heart is full of love. I want a man to whom I will give all my love and tenderness. I want only to tell you that you are very dearest to me and I know that it's not fleeting feeling, I see that you are kind and understanding man, you can love and make happy people, whom you love. You are attentive and intelligent. I'm happy that I met you! and I hope that you are happy too. Dear, I want to tell you that I spoke with my parents about you. You know I love them very much and can't make a secret from our relation. They knew that I look for my beloved in internet and were agree and when I told them about you they were surprised of course but glad too!
They ask me who are you, where do you live? I think they have asked me one million questions. May be two million ..... Smile! They are my parents and they worry about me. I told them and my father said that his daughter can't find bad man ... they are right, aren't they? Dear, I feel that time come to make next step in our relations I want to know what do you feel? How do you see our future relation Paul? Waiting impatiently for your answer, darling!!! Don't keep me waiting too long, my sweetie! Wait for your letter as usual, my angel! Forever and ever with all my love your Vera.

Letter 12

Paul my dear, if destiny will unite you with the woman you fall in love and realize that you are made for each other and your feelings are mutual, you're ready to get married? or marriage it is not acceptable to you? Paul, your life is stable enough, what can start a new family? What do you think about this? Answer now, please! Your Vera.

Letter 13

Paul my one and only! night here, but I can not sleep. I'm lying in my bed and I can not stop thinking about you. I think things are going too well, that would be true. Sometimes I think that all of this, there is only a sweet dream. If this is a dream, then I do not want to wake up! Paul when you can take a vacation? Write to me, honey! kiss you! Only your Vera

Letter 14

Paul my sweetheart, hello! I want you to know that there is someone here who thinks about you. How are you doing today? It was really nice to get your letter and know that you are thinking about me. With every your answer it seems to me that we have more and more the common things, don't you think so? I really hope we will meet one day and want to tell you honestly that sometimes it seems to me that I'm already fell in love with you! I'm not sure of my feelings for one hundred percent, but this is what I feel at this moment. On Monday I will speak with my boss about my vacation and after that, we will discuss with you our further plans. Ok? Write me please how do you imagine our first meeting, my dear Paul? I have dreams and maybe they will happen with time which I hope. Please share with me your thoughts. If your future wife will have small tattoo, it is acceptable to you? I have small tattoo on my body in one special place. I think I can show you when we meet. Ok? I want to know how you pass your usual day? You wake up and what do you do next? Describe in detail. Ok? What are your plans for coming weekend? Today I have a fitness and yoga class. My sunshine, I will write you tomorrow and will be happy to receive a new letter from you with some photos. I will go now, I will take you with me in my thoughts. Have a wonderful weekend, my darling Paul! Sweet kisses for you, Vera

Letter 15

Paul hi, thank you for your very interesting letter but why didn't answer on my question? Why? Did you read my mail? I wait your sincere answer. Your Vera

Letter 16

Paul my sweet! I miss you badly!!! Why I get your letters with a delay?
there is problem on your side? Today in my family a little holiday. My father bought a new car Volvo XC70. You know this car? Father wanted to brag his purchase and he and my mother is visiting me now. I cooked chicken and we have dinner together. I think, me and my mother we will let us a glass of red wine in this case. Paul, maybe I'll get drunk? I'm joked!!! My father did not drink alcohol at all. My parents say hello to you. Tell me, do you prefer home-cooked meals or do you prefer to dine out? You do not have problem with alcohol? What your favorite perfume? Now I will close. I do not want to leave my parents without my attention. Ok? I'll be waiting for your answer with impatience! Write me, honey! Sincerely with all my love your Vera.

Letter 17

Paul my dearest, hello! I think about you day and night, I am so happy that I have found you and you are in my life now. I have good news! Today I spoke with my boss and he confirmed that I will be able to take 30 days off in August. My vacation will begin on 1 August, and I'll have to go back to work on September 1. This is the exact date and I can not take a vacation at another time. My dear, you're glad this news? These dates are acceptable to you? I can not give you an absolute guarantee that I will be able to visit you during my vacation, but I'll try to organize my trip to your country for two or three weeks. I'm sure it will be a great chance to get to know each other in real life. I think two weeks will be enough for our first meeting?
Do you agree? It is important for me to visit your country and see you and your life. Only after that we can continue to develop our relationship further. I'm for serious with you and I do not want to waste my time! I have to make sure that I will be able to adapt to life in your country, if we decide to unite our lives. Paul, it's really important to me! So any meeting in neutral country or in Russia, is meaningless. Of course, if you're not planning to come to live in Russia. Paul, are you ready to show me your country? There are many interesting places in your side? I'll have to visit a travel agency, what to find out all the details and then I will write to you. Please do not make any plans before I visit travel agency. Ok? I have international passport already. I traveled to some countries in my last vacation, so for me it will be no problem to get a visa again. Paul my dear, I'm a little worried when presenting our first meeting. I ask myself, how will it? Honey, are you ready to be a true gentleman with me? I can trust you? I will inform you about every step I took. I think it would be better if we plan our every move jointly. Do you agree? I have high hopes for you, so do not disappoint me my honey! Today I had hard day, so I will close now and will wait for your answer with impatience. I want to know what you think about our plans for the impending meeting. Kiss you hotly! I dream about you every night! Really ... Sincerely with all my love, only your Vera.

Letter 18

Paul my dear! How are you doing there? Are you thinking of me today, at least once? Last night, I saw a beautiful dream. I saw you and our first meeting. Honey, it was at the airport. You gave me red rose and hug and I felt your perfume. I gave you my hot kiss and you took my hand in your hand, looked into my eyes and said that from now on, we'll be together and forever. When I woke up in morning and realized that it was only dream, I was a little upset. I did not want to wake up, but was necessary run on a work. This dream was so realistic. I was sure that my pillow smells your perfume. Paul can you believe it? It was perfect! I can not stop thinking about our first meeting, all the time. To tell the truth, it prevents me to do my job well. Today my colleague asked me, what I think of all the time and why my behavior has changed? I asked him, how he knew it and he said that it's written in my eyes. Yes my Paul, our soon meeting took all of my thoughts. I do not know how it will be, but I'm sure it will be great. I will be happy if love and passion, will fire flashes between us, during our first meeting and we will realized that we are made for each other. I hope for it! More than month, we exchanged letters and now it's time to meet face to face! Only after that we can continue to develop our relationship further. Dear Paul, you and me we are adults serious people and we will not give empty promises each other before we can talk face to face. Ok? Here is my full details. My name - Vera. my surname - Kazakova. My full home address: country - Russia, city - Cheboksary, street - Peter Yermolayeva 2, apartment - 130. Please give me your full name and surname and your full home address. This is important! I want to have this information before I will begin any preparations my trip to your country. Write me as soon as possible. I'm waiting for your letter! I kiss you! Your Vera.
PS. Paul, I'm waiting for your details!

Letter 19

Paul what happened? Where you are? All it was just a game for you? Why do not you answer on my letters? Here is my full details. My name - Vera. My surname - Kazakova. My full home address: country - Russia, city - Cheboksary, street - Peter Yermolayeva 2, apartment - 130. Please give me your full name and surname and your full home address. This is important! I want to have this information before I will begin any preparations my trip to your country. Don't keep me waiting too long and answer now! Your Vera.

Letter 20

Paul my dear! How are you doing today there? I hope, you do not flirt with other girls? smile! I miss you so much!!! Please give me the exact name of the international airport closest to your home. I will tell to you if I will need the additional information from you. Ok? I do not stop to think about our soon meeting! I think on Monday I will start to find out details for my trip to you. Honey, my letter will be short today. I do not have any forces.
Today was really hard working day, I am tired and I want to go to bed. I worked 6 days in this week. Sweet dreams my darling! I kiss you! Your Vera.

Letter 21

Paul my precious! I wish you to be happy and to listen to the voice of your heart. "It is only with the heart one can see rightly. What is essential, is invisible to the eye." Ours young friendship, less than a year old, but it feels like we've known each other for ever. I am agitated every time I hear your wonderful name. I fly on the wings of my dream every time I hear from you. I feel we'd never run out of things to talk about. My darling! You give a meaning for my life. From the day when I first heard you my grey cheerless days changed into colour fantastic dreams. I'm so happy that I've learned you. You see, my whole life could pass away without you. And I feel such a big pain when I think that you can go away. Sometimes I look at you and I think to myself, no other person could have made me feel the way you do.
There is nothing that I cannot share with you, and this is something that I say with absolute pride. You are my true friend and you can be my lover which is one of the rarest combinations to find. Sunday here, how are you doing today? Rainy weather here and I did not want to go out. So, all day I was cleaning my apartment. My father say, I fanatic of purity. Paul, it does not scare you? Please give me your cell phone number with phone code of your country and city. I will call you. I want to hear your voice before I will fly to you. Ok? I'd like to give you all my tenderness, all the warmth of my heart and everything I have - all for you. No doubt we shall meet soon Paul.
Kiss you! With love, your Vera.

Letter 22

Paul my dear, today I lost my sweet doggie CHAPA. While trying to leash her, she saw another dog and darted into the middle of the street and was hit by a car. She had such a sweet, kind heart. She never barked, she never whined and I am so going to miss her greeting me in the morning and every time I came home. Anybody who met her understood how special she was… i referred to her as a little human. She was four years young. She loved me so much, she was just happy i took her anywhere i went. I will never forget the way she comforted me when i cried, kissing my tears so i would stop crying. CHAPA, you will always always be in my heart. I buried her under the big tree near my house and when the wind blows I can hear her talking to me. I really don’t know what I am going to do without her unconditional love. I have lost someone really important for me. I do not know what to say today. I hope tomorrow I will be better and I will write to you. Your Vera.

Letter 23

Paul my dear, how are you doing there? When I met you, my life was about to be turned upside down, but I am so happy that our paths crossed! Paul thank you! I am grateful to God that in my life there is you and I can share with you my joys and pain. I still can’t get over the loss. I doubt that i will ever find another one like her. I lost my doggie It's still very hard and yes I still have a lot of tears, but now there is sometimes an odd smile when I think of her. I know it will get better with time. I don't think i ever "get over it" but i do learn to live with it. I have so many good memories that one day most of the tears will turn to smiles. Try to remember as long as they live in our hearts they never really die. She always seemed to know when i was upset and needed cheering up. When i felt sick she would lay in bed with me until i felt better. She was not just a dog, she was a friend, a companion, a confident. She was everything and more. She didn’t need to talk she said everything. She will always be in my heart. I will miss her. I knew it when i decided to get pet that the end is always sad but never thought the end would be so quick. I am sure she is in a better place I am sure she is in a doggy heaven!
Paul my dearest, today is Thursday August 1, but I'm still not on vacation, one my colleague got sick and my boss asked me to replace my colleague in these days. Tomorrow is Friday and this is my last working day and finally my vacation will start. I cannot wait, when I will see you. I do not stop to think of our soon meeting!!! While I'm waiting, I'm daydreaming about you, I am anticipating our every care, every hug, every kiss ... it is so beautiful, so good thinking about you, but it is much better to find you in fact and to ear your voice, because your words touch my heart so much! I'm living very lonely without someone to love ... no one deserves to live in solitude ... when night falls, I look at the stars in the sky and then I dream that up there, in some starlet, a magical love is waiting for me.
Which star are you, my sweet love! Paul, here my cell phone number (+79674783897). You should ask your phone operator how you can call to Russia. Call to me when my working day will be finished. Ok? In this weekend I will call you too. Please be on the phone. Ok? Would be so nice to hear your voice. Now I will be closed and I will look forward your reply. Kiss you hotly!!! Sincerely, your future wife Vera.

Letter 24

Paul my darling, give me your correct cell phone number. Please write to me right now! Vera

Letter 25

Paul my darling, give me your correct cell phone number. Please write to me right now! Vera

Letter 26

Paul my dear. You are the reason why I can get up every morning with a smile on my face and a twinkle in my eyes. Since the day I met you every one wants to know about the reason behind my sunny disposition. Though I might smile and shrug them off, I know the truth is that I have you, which makes me feel so blessed and so alive. You are the reason why I feel like the sun is shining on me throughout the day and I love that feeling. Thank you for making all my dreams come true. I have always been proud of the fact that I am a very vocal person. I articulate each and every emotion that I feel.
However, when it comes to this and it comes to us do I fall short of words, for loving you has been a revelation for me. I have felt much more than I can put into words and it makes our love something beyond words that can only be cherished and not expressed fully. With every passing day, my faith in you continues to grow and I pray that we never change. I think of you more often than I'm like to admit. When did you from a stranger become such an inseparable part of my life, I have no clue, for all I know is that I'm glad to have you here by my side. You and I were meant to be together. How was your weekend? Interesting things happened in your life these days? I stayed the last two days with my parents in their country house and today I feel better after the loss of my doggie. My parents say hello to you. Honey, you'll be smiling, but I left my phone in my apartment and the whole weekend I was without a phone. Tomorrow the first day of my vacation and I plan to start preparing my trip to you. I go to travel agency and find out all the details. I will inform you about every step I took. Ok? Tell me the name of a good hotel in your place. I would feel more comfortable if I stay at a hotel during our first meeting. Do you agree with me? Or do you want, what I would have stayed in your house? Please be on the phone, I'll call you tomorrow. Ok? Now it's too late, but I decided to write you a few lines to say what I think about you all the time. I will close now and go to bed.
I'll wait for your answer with impatience. Paul soon we'll be together! Kiss you passionately! Sincerely with all my love, your Vera.

Letter 27

Paul my one only, today I saw unknown phone number on my phone. From what number you're called me? Because I don't answer to unknown numbers. Today I tried to call to you, but you have not answered. Tomorrow I will call you again. Thanks for being there when I needed a shoulder to lean on, for patiently listening to my personal problems. I just want you to know how happy am I to have you in my life and I thank God for that. Thank you for the love and the joy you bring. You've changed my life, Honey. You're the only boyfriend who gives my heart some excitement and thrills. You taught me how to handle life seriously, you taught me how to solve my problems and to face it without any fear. I have visited travel agency and have found out details. Tomorrow I will continue preparation of my trip to you. Paul, now I should be closed. Today I should have time to visit my parents. I should discuss some things with my father. Kiss you hotly! Your and only your, Vera

Letter 28

Paul my dear! How are you doing today? You are so amazing you drive me crazy! You make me feel so happy and complete. If I hadn't met you, I know I'd still be searching... searching for you! You have the key to my heart and one day, when we meet, we will never, ever be apart! To finally kiss your tender warm lips, to feel your gentle hands, to look into those soft eyes and know you are the one I've been waiting for! I Love you, Babe! I can't stop thinking about you. I need you!!! You complete me Paul! You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you. My day was fine. I spend all my time for what we would finally be together. I have collected almost all necessary documents for my visa and I think at the end of this week, I will have my final visit to travel agency before I will fly to Moscow for interview at the embassy of your country. Paul, this is usual procedure, do not worry about me. I'll tell you if I need any additional information from you. Ok? Honey, if there are things that you did not tell me before and that will be unpleasant surprise for me when I come to you, please tell me about them now! Ok? Also if you have any questions for me, ask me about it. I am absolutely open to you! Today my parents promised to visit me. Yesterday I did not have time to discuss with my father one thing and today I'll do it. I live for the day when our physical separation will no longer be. Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate kiss. Love always, Vera

Letter 29

Paul my dear, here my voice message for you. I'm sorry for the short letter today. I'm really busy right now. Preparation of my trip to you takes all my time. I miss you! Your Vera.

Letter 30

Paul my angel, how are you doing today? you've missed me? Friday here. What are your plans for this weekend? Please congratulate me, I finally gathered all necessary documents and I am ready to go to travel agency and set a date for my interview in embassy. Tourist visa process will take 7 days. I'll have to visit your country's embassy in Moscow for interview. Paul, this is the usual procedure, do not worry! I will have to prove in embassy, nonimmigration intention of my visit to your country. Things like that make me smile, but this is very serious. I took the inquiry from my work about my income and proof that I am the owner of the apartment and a car here in Russia. Also I would have to pay for my plane tickets to your country and back and to reserve hotel for the period of my stay in your country. All that is necessary to get a visa. Paul, can you believe it? Crazy rules! But only this way I received visa in the past and I can get a visa now. Honey, how the weather in your place now? I have to take some warm clothes? or will be enough if I take only my bikini? this is joke! You already have a plan, to which places you take me when we're together? Write me about it, Paul! I will close now and go to bed. Tomorrow morning, I have to wake up earlier than usual, which would have time to meet up with my father. I still have not discussed with him one important thing. Then, I plan to go to travel agency. I'll write to you immediately with the results about my visit to the agency. Ok? I can not wait when i will see you!!! Kiss you! Sincerely with all my love your Vera.

Letter 31

Paul my sweet! morning here. I took a shower and now I am with a cup of coffee at my computer. This morning, I meet with my father and then I'll go to travel agency. Wish me good luck. Tonight I'll write to you again. I kiss you! Your Vera.

Letter 32

Paul my one only, my dear! What's your mood? You miss me? It seems that you have become the fiber of my soul, the very reason for my existence. I know we don't get to see each other. But being apart for now doesn't change the way I feel about you in my heart. From the very first moment I knew that we were destined to be together, Paul! Nothing can stand between us, and nothing will stop me from meeting you. You are my future and nothing can ever keep us from our destiny. I did not want to speak to you about it, but I do not want to hide any secrets from you. The last days, I met with my parents and we are together trying to solve serious problem. Few weeks ago when my father began to plan the purchase of a new car, he asked me to borrow to him the missing amount. At the time, I did not plan any huge expenses, so I with pleasure borrowed to him the missing 7000 euro and it was all my savings. Few days ago I went to my father and told him that I need the money for my trip to you. Father said that he spent all his savings for to buy a new car, but will try to get a bank loan that would give me back my money. In friday father told me the shocking news. In bank to him have told, that it would take about 30 days before the loan is approved. My father asked to forgive him, that he can not do nothing in this situation. Honey, I can not wait for 30 days. My vacation will already run out by then and I can not fly to you. To be honest, I did not expect that I would be in this situation and I am still in shock! I have a strong resentment in my heart on my father! Tonight, I'm meeting with my friend Olga and I hope she will be able to borrow to me the necessary amount. August 15 I shall be in Moscow for interview at the embassy, but I can not go to the embassy without paying for my visa, my airfare and my hotel. Tomorrow I'll write to you again and i hope with good news. I think you should plan to meet me at the airport on August 20. I can stay with you until September 1. Paul, are you happy? I'll tell you the exact date when my tickets will be in my hands. Ok? the few times I saw our first meeting in my dreams and it was perfect! I can not wait to come to you and we'll be together and all of our dreams come true. Kiss you, my darling! Sincerely with all my love your Vera.

Letter 33

Paul my sweetheart! I miss you more every day. I try to put this feeling into words, but fail miserably. I have no other words to describe the way you make me feel. Night here, but I can not sleep, my darling. I worry and bad thoughts do not leave my head! Yesterday I met with my friend Olga, but she could not borrow to me the necessary sum. Today I spoke with my boss and he was also unable to help me. I always helped my friends when they need my help, but right now, no one can help me. Paul! Why? I really deserve it? On August, 15th I should be in Moscow for interview in embassy, but I cannot go to embassy, not having paid my visa, my air tickets and my hotel. 1500 Euro it is total price that I must pay in travel agency for my trip to you. I do not know where I borrow the necessary amount. I used all possible and impossible ways, but all in vain. I'm writing you this letter and tears filled my eyes. I feel so lonely. Only one step and we'll be together. We both knew our friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke.
But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand. You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, and my love. I do not want to lose you! I do not know what to do now, my dear! Sincerely your Vera.

Letter 34

Paul my darling, I miss you so much! I try do not show my emotions, but I'm really sad! Today, I went to travel agency and told them about my situation, but I could not get my money back that I paid before. I met a woman at the agency, she paid for air tickets and visa. I asked her what country she will fly and for what purpose? She told me that she met american gentleman on internet and they corresponded for several weeks and he invited her to visit him in his country. Today, he sent her the necessary sum and she came to the travel agency to pay for visa and plane tickets and in September she will fly to him. I could not hold my tears when I heard this story. I think I had nervous breakdown. I ran out from agency and I think more than an hour, sat in the park, crying and thinking about you. I am a strong woman, but today I could not hold my tears! Why have all these barriers in our way? Perhaps we do not deserve to be together? When I met you, I was beginning to think I finally met my man and it's for all my life! My female heart will be broken if I lost you! I love you Paul!!! it's true, my darling!!! Vera

Letter 35

Paul my dear, it's me Vera. It is my new email adress. Use only this address for to write to me!!! I do not use my old email adress more!!! Please write to me immediately and confirm, that you have received my letter. Your Vera.