Letter(s) from Ekaterina Berkovskaya to Steve (United Kingdom)

Letter 1

Hi!
I'm glad to get a reply from you. What is your real name?
Sorry for not having written to you. Internet cafe did not work and I could not write to you. I am very worried. I was afraid that you'll forget about me ...
You waited for my letters? I'm still interested in you?
I'll tell you a little bit more about myself in this letter.
I already wrote to you that my name - Galina. But you can call me - Angel. It's my nickname. All my friends call me such way...
My phone number - 007-953-796-8030. But I'm not sure you can call me, because this is a Russian number, and I can receive calls only from Russia.
I live in an little apartment, unfortunately I do not have a computer.
So I write to you all the letters of the Internet cafe. I will write to you 2 or 3 times a week. Unfortunately I can not communicate with you on-line. Because it is very expensive for me to pay for internet.
I have already written to you that I was going to move to your country. I get a student visa. I shall receive it approximately in a 1 month. I can work and learn. So I will be able to support themselves with money to live and study. So I can be independent from anyone. We could see with you at leisure. And cheerfully to spend this time. I have already written to you that I lived in Australia when I was 18 years old. I lived there for about six years. So I am very fluent in English and writing. I loved living there. But I had to leave.
Because my visa was over. I had a relationship with a man there, but he did not want to live any longer with me, so I did not renew the visa because of it and returned to Russia. I do not like to recollect. Probably I shall tell you more about it when I learn you more. Therefore do not remind me of it and do not ask me about it.
I think it was my fault, because life in Russia is very difficult.
This is a very corrupt country. And with our President Putin, we have no democracy here. It is very difficult to get a job. But I hope that in a month I will have a visa to your country. so we will be able to communicate and meet with you not only through letters. Because it's always nice to meet new friends. I do not know whether the relationship between us, but I always wanted to be your friend.
I am going to tell you about interests and hobbies in my next letter. I have to stop here as the time in the Internet cafe is limited. I don’t have my personal computer at home as most people in Russia do.
I have a few questions for you.
Now you have a relationship with a girl? When was your last relationship? And why did you break up?
what attitudes you would like to find through Internet?
I look forward to your reply.
Galina.
P.S. I have attached new pics and a file. There my "last letter" to you.
I am not sure that you received it, therefore has attached it.

Letter 2

Hello my dear Steve!
I have all the information about my visa now. And I will get it without any problems. It will be so great to come to your country at last and to see you. I even can’t believe this could happen some day! Yes, perhaps, I act like a silly girl.
But I already dream of our meeting. I try to imagine how this could be. How I will touch your hand, look into your eyes.
So now I have to do is to show them all the papers and to pay for it.
But here I have one problem. I tried to save money. But I didn’t expect I would have to pay for visa so soon. I thought it would be later. So I don’t have enough money right now.
And I need your help in this if you really want to meet me.
I need 240 US dollars to pay for visa.
It will include medical insurance and everything that should be there. Perhaps, you think why it is so expensive. Well, sum of money includes visa, insurance, medical certificate and many other papers.
I already have got my passport for going abroad. I have already made it and have paid for it. But I didn’t think that they would give visa so soon. And if I don’t pay for it now, I could have problems in the future with getting visa. And I don’t want to miss this chance. To prove you that I am real and I don’t lie to you, I am going to attach you a copy of my passport.
So all I need to do now is to pay for visa. And then everything will be done and all we have to do is wait for the time it is issued. I have only 7-10 to pay for it and I will get it without any problems.
This visa allows me to stay in your country for 3 months.
And to enter any university during 3 months. I can stay for longer is I enter the university. But if I find a job I can stay for the rest of the time in your country if I find a job when I finish my education. But I also plan to work there while I study. I don't want to depend on any one.
I will return back your 240 $. I am asking it to borrow.
I will work and return back it. I promise.
I’ve got to know that the best way for you to send money through Western Union or Money gram. Please, don’t send me money by regular mail. First, for sure I will not get it as they steal money and things here. And also it will take long time for the mail to come. And then I will miss my chance with visa already.
So, please, use WU or Money gram for sending money. It is an easy and quick way to get it.
You already know my address, I’ve sent it to you already.
And my full name is Galina Vatolina.
You better check WesternUnion.com or Moneygram.com to get more information and also offices that are close to you.
Also there is an opportunity to send money from the credit card. You just need to visit any office of WU or MG.
Or through the site westernunion.com or moneygram.com
You even don’t need to leave your place to do it.
You can send money to any Western Union of Tomsk.
Please, understand my problem and send me 240 dollars.
So, please, let me know if you can help me in this.
Galina.

Letter 3

Dear Steve,
In Russia it is impossible to receive money from the check.
It does not work here!
I do not know what to start my letter with. I feel shame and offended. I just want to tell you that I am completely serious.
I have serious intentions to come to you and I am not going to lie to you. I am not a silly little girl that plays games to get money. Can’t you see it from my letters? I understand that I should settle down already and that is why I am going to move to another country. I know that in Russia I will not be able to have a strong family and good job. I will be unhappy.
Here men don’t look at women as you do it. I have decided to move long time ago. But couldn’t start doing it before I met you. I didn’t want to go to your country without love. .
I asked you to send me 240 USD. And I feel shame for this. But I had no other choice then to ask you. The problem is that I have only 7-10 days to pay for my visa. I didn’t realize I would need the money so urgently. They took my papers and told me that I wouldn’t pay in 7-10 days, they would just refuse me. And then I will not have another chance to get visa to your country.
It was a shock for me . I thought that I could just leave the papers and then pay for it before the trip. I think I would be able to find the money by that time. But it was beyond my forces/ I was shocked. I went to all my friends and acquaintances. But all refused to me. They don’t give such a big sum of money. I don’t ask my parents as they just don’t give me money. When the last time I asked them to help me, they refused me. They told me they had to support my Brother and themselves. It hurt me. That is why I do not ask them about anything any more and I almost don’t talk to them.
I asked my friend Vika to help me, but she had not such money.
She is married and has a child. And recently they have bought an apartment and took it in credit. I also went to the bank to check there. But they even didn’t listen to me. My salary is only 120 USD. And they just can’t give me 240 USD. I had tears. That is why I decided to ask you. And I feel shame for this. I understand that it is very difficult for you to trust the girl you have never seen before. Lots of Russian women lied to foreigners. But I am not the same. I am real.
And I am not going to lie to you! I promise!
I know that 240 USD is not such a big sum of money in your country. And I ask you this money not as A present to me, I am going to give them back to you. As soon as I come there and start working I will give you money back. I told you I was going to study and to work. I will be able to pay for my studies and for my accommodation.
I already told you I was going to get a student visa for 3 months. I will be able to come to your country and to choose any university or college. I have 3 months to enter it. And I can stay there as soon as I finish it. I am going to choose the one that is close to you to be able to see you often and perhaps we could get married.
You are really a very dear person to me and I want to be with you and if you fall in love with me, we can get married in the future. If we are together, we will build our future together. I am not the one who wants to get everything in at once. WE will work together and pay our bills. I understand that family is for the rest of the life in joy and sorrows.
And I will understand if you decide not to have a family with me, and we can just be friends. I will understand if you fall in love with another woman. You can’t order your heart who to love. I understand that you can like me through the letters but in real life you may not fall in love with me.
I ask you one more time, please, understand me and send me 240USD.
I already told you that you have to send me money to my city.
You should use Western Union or Money Gram for this.
And use my address that I have sent to you.
You should send money to Tomsk for my name.
My full name - Galina Vatolina.
Galina - this is my name.
Vatolina - is my last name.
I already wrote to you, my address-
Number apartment: - 45,
Name street - Gagarina 101
City - Tomsk,
Region (state) - Tomskaya oblast,
Zip code - 634050,
Country - Russia
You can send money through MoneyGram:
Name: BANK URALSIB
Addreess: KIROV PROSPEKT 39, TOMSK, RUSSIA
or
Name: RUSS-BANK
Address: MIRA PROSPEKT 72A, TOMSK, RUSSIA
or
Name: BANK URALSIB
Address: FRUNZE PROSPEKT 11A, TOMSK, RUSSIA
Or
You can send money through Western Union:
LEVOBEREZHNIY,
Sovpartshkolnyi Pereulok, 13
Tomsk, 634009, Russia.
Or
VTB 24,
Govorova, 46
Tomsk, 634057, Russia.
You don’t need anything else to send the money.
As soon as you send the money they will give you secret number ( MTCN or Reference Number ). And you’ll have to tell me it.
Or I will not be able to get the money without it.
As I already told you could get all the information and the address of the office at the site -
westernunion.com
or
moneygram.com.
I don’t know what else to say for you to send me money as soon as possible as my time is limited.
Next time they will just refuse me in visa. I wrote you all the truth in this letter. I am sincere and open with you.
I hope that you will understand me and decide to meet with me. Please, believe me and send me 240 USD. And please, remember that I have only 7-10 days to pay for it.
Galina.

Letter 4

Hi Steve,
It’s me again.
I am very glad to see your reply...
I have some time and I decided to tell you more about myself.
I really like you and I would like to know you well. And I want you to understand me better too, to know how I live, what I do in my spare time.
Well, I like cooking very much. This is one of the things that make me relax and forget about all the bad things that happen during the day. Salads, different soups, pasta, souses, cakes and pies– it is just a short list of what I cook. I like very much to try new things. It is always nice to go to a good restaurant or to a nice pizza place, cafe.
I do it seldom, usually it happens when we celebrate someone’s birthday.
I like trying new cuisine and trying to guess what are the ingredients.
What’s favorite dish?
I like bowling and billiard. do you like bowling? or billiard?
What’s is your favorite colour? Mine is red and black.
I have no pets. I like animals a lot. Also I like watching programmes on TV about animals. I do love cats and dogs and horse.
Watching movies is one of my adorable things to do, especially at the weekend. I like comedies and melodramas.
What’s favorite types movie do you like?
It is always so nice to rent some movie, to cook something tasty or something sweet, to invite someone of my friends and enjoy the time together. It is especially nice doing it in the cold winter evening with a warm blanket and a cup of hot tea or coffee.
I do not smoke, but sometimes I can drink a little wine (red) or beer.
I always try to find time to read something. The last book I’ve read was “Loneliness in the internet” by Vishnevskiy.
I liked it very much though it is sad but it shows the true life of people. I also like to read classical things by Tolstoy, Bernard Show, Dostoevskiy and others.
I regularly go into aerobics. And I also I go twice a week to the swimming-pool. It helps me to stay in a good shape and to be healthy.
I try to lead a healthy life style, don’t have any bad habbits.
Music helps me to be a in good spirit. I like ballads very much though sometimes I can listen to a fast music. I like Lara Fabian very much and Darren Hayes.
I like to have long walks in parks.
I like to drive on a bicycle.
I have no it, but often take for rent bicycle.
What about you? What are your prefers? Tell me, please, more about you and your interests.
I have important question for you. Do you know any colleges and universities close to your place? I could check them in advance and enter then when I go to your country.
I would like studies near to you and meet you often.
I wish to arrive to your country. I wish to receive the visa next month.
I have already started to collect documents necessary for a trip.
I wish to study and live near with you, that we could meet.
I wish to study as the medical worker or the bookkeeper.
I like both trades. But I can choose and any other branch of formation.
Well, I have to close here. But will be waiting very much for your reply.
Galina.

Letter 5

Hello Steve,
such a pity there is no message from you.
Did you get my last letter? I have sent my letter in which I have said about my hobbies.
May be my letter has got in yours spam folder? Look there!
I only want to tell you that I think of you and wait for your reply. Please, write me as soon as possible. I am waiting for your reply impatiently.
Unfortunately, I can’t talk to you on-line, as I write letters to you from the internet cafe and the time is limited there.
I wish I could chat with you but right now it is just impossible as I don’t have a personal PC.
But I shall continue to send you email letters and pics.
I am going to send you my address here. As I already told you I rent my apartment and I don’t have a phone there. But here is my address, in case you decide to send me a card or a hand-written letter: -
to Galina,
Number apartment: - 45,
Name street - Gagarina 101,
City - Tomsk,
Region (state) - Tomskaya oblast,
Zip code - 634050,
Country - Russia
Yes, I am going to come to your country. Somewhere in a month. I am going to enter the University or college. I am doing all the paperwork for this now. That's why I asked you about the colleges or Universities close to your place. So I could study and meet with you there.
I shall live in campus.
Do you want it? You want that I lived near to you in your district?
Do not forget to send me your photos.
As soon as I finish this letter I will go and have a short walk.
You know walking is one of the things I adore. It is so nice to have a long walk and then find some small cafe and get a cup of coffee there. I don’t have a car and I don’t really want to have it right now. And it is too expensive for me. I have no money to buy a car. I have never tried to drive a car and I have no license.
Walking is much more pleasant. Unfortunately, most of the times I have to walk alone. All my friends are married and they try to spend more time with their families. I also like to go to the movie a lot. But do it rather seldom. Usually I go there with my friends, but they don’t do this often. They try to spend more time with their husbands and children. As I don’t have children and a husband, I try not to bother them often. Sometimes I feel rather lonely but I try not to think of this often.
Any way, my city is too beautiful not to walk. My city is very beautiful. There are so many places of culture there, lots of monuments. It is very green. It is especially beautiful in spring and in summer time when everything is awaken after the winter.
There are also many parks and we have one boulevard with fountains.
And it is gorgeous.
Also we have some really beautiful churches. I am Christian but I am not really religious. I have my own faith inside.
And I go to the church but do it seldom. I am not fanatic about this.
I like nature very much and it is always a please to go somewhere to the country-side and to spend a day there. I like picnics, camping a lot. It is great to spend a day on the fresh air, especially when you are with friends or family. I try to enjoy it every time we do it but sometimes I feel very sad as I miss not having my second half near.
Well, I am not going to be sad, as I am sure everything will be fine. Please, tell me about your city? What is it?
What’s interesting there?

Letter 6

Dear Steve!
I like pic. You do look real nice there. You seem to be a very good and caring person.
It is very pleasant to me to hear that you have suggested to remain with you. I will be glad to be your lodger.
I have friend Vika. She is close friend. She makes all my pics.
She likes to photographe me. It's her hobby. I like to pose her.
I decided to come to the Internet cafe again to write you.
I already spoke you - I shall arrive to you in a month.
I still choose college in which I shall go to study.
I shall inform you the name when I shall know.
I shall know all the information in a week.
I am going from the post office. I decided to send my parents a letter. As I already told you I am not really in good relations with them. But any way, they are my parents and I love them.
I also have a brother and he is younger than me and they give him all the love they have. They always loved him more than me and didn’t pay much attention to me. My mum wanted to have a son very much and she couldn’t get pregnant for a long time and she was very happy when she got to know she was going to have a son. Of course, it hurts to know that they love him a lot and are not very interested in my life. But if they are happy, I am glad for them.
When I have returned from Australia, I entered the Pedagogical Institute and studied for an educator. I worked as an educator in the kindergarten as soon as I finished it. Though I like children a lot, the salary was too small to continue working there. You know it is rather difficult to live alone when you don’t have any help from anyone. That’s why I decided to try and find another job.
I had relations with men in my life. But I can’t depend on a man.
When I love I give all of myself to this person.
Unfortunately, men can’t always appreciate this. I like sex but I think that when you are in relations with someone you should be faithful and do not betray the one who lives with you.
Unfortunately, men here want to have everything, a faithful wife and another woman as a lover. I am a very devoted and faithful person and this I can’t accept. Hope you understand me.
Sex is very good but I accept it only with the person that I love. I am not a virgin but at the same time I am not a slut.
My last relations were 2 years ago. Unfortunately, it didn’t work out as he was too busy spending good time with his friends all the time and he almost paid no attention to me. I was just like a beautiful thing for him and nothing more. Since that time I had no relations with other men.
Well, it is not really comfortable to talk about sex right now.
You know that I write from the internet cafe and there are lots of people around me. And also I don’t know you too good yet to discuss this topic.
I have to go now. People are coming and coming to the internet cafe and you know my time is limited (15min). Internet cafe is a place where everyone can come and use a computer there. We have to pay for such a service. It is not a library where you can use computers free of charge. When I lived in Australia I often went to the library and could use computer there as long as I needed. But here the time is limited as there are too many people who need to use them. Please, tell me about your family.
What relations do you have with them?
Enjoy you day!!!
All the best to you.
Galina.
P.S. I asked you in my previous letter to send me your address.
I want to send you a card and my picture. Or perhaps, I will send you a hand written letter.

Letter 7

Hi! I'm sorry that I could not for a long time to write you. I can not get access to your old mailbox. I am writing to you from your email address yahoo. Do not you forget it? I think it will be more convenient to communicate with you. Please write to me only on this mailbox.
I'm not sure if you got my past writing. If you have, then I do not I read the response to my previous letter. Please, if you have answered me, send me your email again. I am very worried that you might forget me. I'll look forward to your response. Write to me as soon as possible.
I am very sorry that I made ??you wait long ...
Here are my past letter -
Hello Steve,
I am so glad I have you in my life and I have an opportunity to come to the Internet cafe and talk to you...
Thanks for photos of your apartment. At you it is very beautiful!
I am not really in a good spirit today.
I had a very bad conflict at work. Some people here in Russia think that if they have lots of money they can do and say everything they want. I had a conflict with one very rich woman at work. She didn’t like the quality of the clothes. And was so rude with me. But I am just a shop-assistant. I am not the owner and I just sell things.
Sometimes I feel that I am very tired from my life in Russia.
I have nothing. I rent a very small apartment and can’t afford anything better. I get a very small salary and prices increase here every year. But salaries are still the same. I was shocked when I get to the store to buy some food yesterday. They increased prices again for milk products. Milk costs about one US dollar which is too much. For-example, my salary is 120 US dollars a month. And a half of it I pay for the apartment.
And what is left I spend for food.
Therefore I wish to leave to live in other country.
Therefore I save money for a trip.
I am just tired from a hard life here. And I want to move to a foreign country. I want to get another education, to find a good job there. That is why I am trying to get a student visa.
I shall study and work. I shall work to pay training and my life there.
I haven't decided yet what University I am going to come to.
I am still searching information. I would like it to be close to you. I am doing the paperwork now. And as they told me my visa would be ready in a month. But I don't know the exact dates. It is just the way things are done here. As soon as I know everything, I will let you know.
I want to have a more stable life for me and my future family.
And what is more important I want have a strong man near me and to have a comfortable life for us. So I am trying to save money any way I can for my trip and studies.
Please, forgive me for writing this to you. But I need to talk to you. It is sometimes so hard to be just by myself. And sometimes I need a strong shoulder and a friend to cry and to get an advice.
I know that you are a very understanding person. So, please, try to understand me. You are my friend and I trust you.
Now I shall go to a bathroom. I like to lay in bathing with foam.
It would be great to take a bath together. It is very relaxing. And I think it is rather romantic.
You want it with me?
PLease,let me know what you think of this.
Write me your thoughts and your dreams.
Write a replay to me. Your letter will make me glad.
I will wait with hope.
Galina.

Letter 8

Hello dear Steve.
I love your photo!
I am 28 y.o.
But I don’t care of age difference. I think when two people really love each other they don’t think of the age…
Today I am writting to you why I am alone. I am so tired that males sees on me as on beautiful pic only but not on woman.
I think you like my spirit mainly not my appearance.
That's why I feel so easy myself with you. I have never felt it with another males. I feel that you like my spirit firstly and then appearance.
I want you to understand that I do really like you very much.
And I think that we have much in common and may be if meet we will understand that we are a good match.
I am trying to get more information about the student visa and I am doing a paperwork that is neccesary for it. There are so many things that I should do for this but I think it is worth it.
I am going to come to your country. I am sure I will get my visa.
And I want to know will you meet me there? You are my friend and you are a very close person to me already. And I like you very much. I feel that there is something between us.
I hope you too have the same feelings. Of course, I can’t say that I know you very well. But I feel that you are close to me.
I wish to know you better. I wonder how it can be to spend time with you, to be with you, to cook together, to have dinner together, to watch movies, to walk holding hands.
Letters are good, they help to understand people better. But only meeting can show the real feelings. When you can touch, look into each other’s eyes, it says a lot.
Please, tell me what you think of this. Would you like to meet me?
Any way you can be my friend. I will be in a foreign country and I will need a person I can trust. And I trust you already and I hope you do the same.
Please, think on this and let me know if you too want to meet with me. I want it very much. I want to see you in real life, to talk to you, to know you real but not only through the letters.
I think, I can trust you?
I already wrote to you, that all my pics is done by my friend Vika.
She says I have a beautiful body.
She is a very talanted photographer and I like to be her model.
She is my friend and is a very good girl. She usually takes pics of me. We went to work together.
She works close to my place. She is a shop-assistant too.
Also today she has made 2 pics me and my passport.
I shall attach to you it in the following letter.
I will go now to get more information about visa.
I am going to get very important information.
I hope to hear good news.
I shall have information approximately in half an hour.
Galina.

Letter 9

Hi dear Steve!
Why you have not answered?
Really you do not want, that I have arrived?
You will help me with money for the visa?
Tell me truth. I always try to be with you fair.
I have addressed to you only because I could not be helped more. Please write me answer and tell me truth.
May be pic which I add today prove to you that I am real.
I made it yesterday to prove to you that I am real. Hope you remember my nick name? (Angel). I have written about it in my second letter to you. My friends call me Angel.
I think that you have concerns about me real.
I do not lie to you. I am going to get money in WU office or MoneyGram using my passport. If I was not real, I wouldn't be able to get the money!!! Please, understand that I am real!
I sent you a copy of my passport in my last letter.
The problem is that I have no time to wait. I have only 7 days for this.
Please, understand that next time they may not even take the documents for visa, if they refuse me now. And they will refuse me in this if I do not pay in time. They will just tell me what for I try to get visa for the second time if you have no money. So I am just in hopeless situation.
All my thoughts are about one thing now. Then I may not have such a chance again. Your goverment has a limited amount of student visas. And if I miss my chance now, i may not have such a chance again in the future. It is impossible to get another kind of visa. NO one will give me a tourist visa.
It is impossible for a single russian lady to get it. I asked about the work visa. It is a very difficult process. And also more expensive one. I don't have a diploma about high education in your country. And the russian one is not valid in your country. The Fiancee visa is a very long process and complicated process. It will take about half a year to make all the paperwork and if they don't see that we do love each other truly they will just refuse in the Embassy.
I want to repeat. please, understand - I ask you to lend me money. I understand it is too expensive for a preset.
I understand that 240USD is a big some of money in your country.
I don't believe in miracles as I was disappointed many times in this life. You will not loose this money. I will come to your place and will work there. And as soon as I earn I will give you money back.
I’ve been thinking a lot about us yesterday. I have so many feelings and they are so different.
My heart aches when I understand that you are far from me.
I wish I could lessen the distance between us. I know that I have to be patient and wait.
Perhaps, you will think that I am silly but I don’t want to hold it all inside and I want to share my feelings with you.
I am emotional person and I want you to see my feelings.
Please, understand me. I want to share this with you. I think I am in love with you. Of course, I have to see you in real life and talk to you to be sure. But I have so many emotions about you and I miss you so much. I think about you all the time.
I get up with the thoughts about you and I go to bed thinking of you too.
I feel that I want to take care of you, I want to give you all my love.
Please, don’t think I am weird. But this is what I feel about you. And I want you to know this.
Life goes one. Nothing new happens. I go to work, do different things at home, meet my friends. But any way I do something I think of you.
Please, tell me what you think and feel about me. It is really very important for me and I need to know this.
Galina.