Letter(s) from Svetlana Levedeva to Mickey (New Zealand)

Letter 1

Hi again, my friend Mickey!
To tell you the truth I am very pleased that you answered me back because I waited for your answer with impatience!Sorry for the delay in my answer but i had to finish some reports at my work without any free days. I will try not to make you wait my answer for so long time any more! can you forgive me? ;)
In this letter I will try to tell you a bit more about myself. So what are the usual things the unknown people ask each other? probably about the hobby... well, I can't tell that I have some particular hobby, the occupation to which I would devote all my free time... I am pretty busy at work and to tell the truth I am so tired after it that I have no time on something but to go to bed and prepare something to eat and to read a nice book. May be you wonder why i chose to work in police?
when I was 10 year old my mother and me were going home late in the evening and 2 men attacked my mother and they stole her sac where was her salary and her documents. I was so shocked at that moment but I couldn't help my mother because i was too young. After that i decided to help people who suffer from bad and cruel criminals. Oh, and of cause I like to cook very much! My Mother is very fussy about foods we eat and she taught me cook very well. My Mother is a teacher, she works in primary school and deals with small children. My father is an engineer but he is retired now as he is quite old.
About my favorite films and books... I can strongly recommend you to watch my favorite film "Lilja 4-ever" with Oksana Akinshina in the main role. this is the film by the Swedish director Loukas Moudisson and as far as I know you will find it in English as well. This is a real tragedy of the teen-age Russian girl. well, I won't retell you the plot, you can watch it yourself if you want!
I like to read very much, I prefer rather classical writers then modern ones, for example I appreciate Russain writer Bulgakov.
And my favorite book from his masterpieces is "Master and Margarita".
Did you read this book or have you ever heard about it? And of cause sport is my hobby as i must be in fit. I go to the gym, swimming pool and attend belly dance corses.
I hope to dance for you one day and I'm sure you will be pleased ;)
I can play piano also as I finished musical school many years ago but sometimes I practise it not to forget how to do that ;)
Well and on this I will finish this letter and I will start waiting your answer! please, write me as much as you can about you because I am interested in every detail of your life! of cause if you want to!
will come here tomorrow and hope to see your reply!
bye bye for now,
Alena
P.S. I attach you some photos, one of them is in uniform so you can see how Russian uniform looks like ;)

Letter 2

Hi, Mickey!
How are you today? I am very happy to receive the letter from you again!
I was thinking and trying to guess of what you will write me today!!!
I was surprised with your so important question :) i don't have 1 favorite color, I like white, red and black. In summer I like yellow, green and many others.
it depends on my mood and on the season I think :)
I didn't have much work today, and this is good, because I could come earlier to the Internet cafe to write you a letter and now I have time to cook something delicious for me and my parents! I think I will make a cake, a magnificent cake!
I wish I could treat you to it! May be it seems to you strange that I go to the Internet cafe to write you e-mail but the reason is simple - I don't have PC at home and I can't use a computer at my work for private purpose as everything is always checked in our police station. By the way, I will get my own computer soon, as my friend is going to buy new one and she promised to give me her old one with 50 discount so we will be able to chat for example in Skype together.
I heard that computer devices, smart-phones and I-phones are quite cheap abroad.
Here in Russia such devices are quite expensive, for example, I-phone 4 costs more than 1000 dollars!
It's like my 3 salaries, that's why I use simple phone and I'm satisfied :)
By the way, what are you favorite dishes??? tell me, please, I will try to find the recipes and will learn how to prepare it! it will be a nice piece in my collection, I suppose! Today I will probably invite my best friend to tea, she is working in my police station too. I don't have a lot of friends, but those I have are true and I am sure that I can rely on it. by the way what is your attitude to friendship? I heard that in foreign countries such term as friendship is not popular, all people are living their own lives and they don't have such friends who are ready to help them in difficult life situations. But I appreciate friendship very much and I am sure that every person must have friends... do you have friends?
I feel that you and me have very much in common and though we know each other for a short period of time I feel close to you... but ok, it is too early to talk about something after some letters that we have wrote each other. let's go on and we will see what it will lead us to, ok?
I send you some winter photos as sometimes I miss snow. We have lot of snow during winter here. I like skiing in the mountains or in the forest in winter time. And what about you?
so, I am finishing and will go home now, with my best regards,
Alena

Letter 3

Hello dear Mickey!
I'm sorry for the delay in my answer but I have reasons for that. At first I had to work hard because we had very serious accident on the road as a result 6 people died.
We had to open criminal case about that. Then we had Day of our City and celebration was for 3 days and everything was closed including Internet cafe also. We had concert of Pop star, different sport competitions on the main square and enjoyed salute in the evening time.
To crown it all, the holiday was organized very well.
Thanks for your answer! I was very glad to receive it! I am glad that you don't stop writing to me, that you are interesting in me and want to talk to me much!
How are you? How are you getting alone? I hope that you are fine.
You can add me in skype, my account is officeralena and what is yours? you can add me there.
How is your family? I hope they are well. I will be very glad to learn more about your family because all that connected with you is very interesting for me, dear Mickey!
As for my family, i have already told you some about it. My parents are really wonderful people. I have told you that my mum was a teacher, and my father was an engineer. He is retied now. My mum is a very kind person, and that's why she brought me in the same way. I have never known such honest and good woman, and i am happy that she is my mother. Thanks to her i became a kind, honest and sensitive person, i can value very common and easy things which other people may be never notice. I think that we can say that a person is happy when in his life he has such things which can't be bought by money, because money is not the most important as many people think. It is wrong! I have also a very nice cat, called Kokos. I adore him as it is my favorite pet in this world. I send you today photos with my Kokos. He asked to say big hello to you ;) And do you like animals?
Sometimes they are closer to people then even friends. when I come home in sad mood, my cat feels it and try to cheer me up with his purring. At such moments I don't need words. I know that my Kokos feels my inner worlds best of all.
I live with my parents in spite of the fact that i consider myself to be an independent person.
I know that they need my support and care every day. They wish me to be happy and they want much so that i find a good and reliable husband, and it doesn't matter where i will live...
in Russia or not. They just want to see me happy.
I will be very glad to hear from you about your family and yourself.
I am waiting for your letters impatiently...
Yours,
Alena

Letter 4

Hello, my dear Mickey!
How are you today? I'm so sorry that I couldn't write you for so long time but I have a very serious reason.
I hope you didn't forget about me and didn't find any other woman as I'm very jealous.
I have very bad news, 2 weeks ago my aunt passed away. It turned out so that she had not only diabetics but other hard diseases too...In recent years she used to have blood cancer. The point is that her relatives always have hidden this information and didn't want to tell us that she was so sick...I personally don't understand this fact...I always take care of everybody and I have right to know everything...now can you imagine how hard is to cope with this trouble...
I never expected that I will lose her...my aunt Svetlana was always like a second mother for me...
she always took care of me like of her own child. So my parents and me went to the village where my aunt lived to help our relatives with funerals. I am sorry for my long absence, but I had so many things to do in that village. First we had to organize my aunt's funerals.It was not easy because funeral companies who deliver special funeral things don't deliver their goods so far...we had to find a firm who agreed to help us. In general everything passed really quickly and good...I think my aunt would be happy to see that all her close people contributed this process and everybody tried his best to make everything done at very good level. I came back just today. I really was missing you so much..I am so tired...
and you are the only person who can give me so many positive emotions...and you are my real angel.
Oh, I would love to lean onto your strong shoulder, take your hand and hear your words of support...I kiss you and wait for your news..
Your Alena

Letter 5

Hello, dear Mickey!
How are you doing? I don't know why but it seems to me that I miss you more and more with every day passing. How is weather in your country? Here it is getting cooler with every day passing. My favorite season is summer as I put on less clothes and my skin can breath in a fresh air. I like swimming also very much and we have many lakes and rivers here. Thank you for your nice letter, I'm so glad to get it.
by the way, I see that you have a good sense of humor and I heard one day on the radio that the sense of humor is the first sign of the intellect! this is absolutely true, i think! I have never felt at ease with the gloomy person, and you are very bright, you are like the ray of the sun in my life! oh, I pay you so many compliments or you will decide that I am flattering you! but to tell the truth I am not tired to telling you pleasant things, because I feel that worth all my compliments and even more!
Today I would like to tell you more about my job. As you know, I'm a policeman or may be I should tell a policewoman :) I like my job, and I think that there is nothing better for me then my profession, the only badness of it that it is not very good paid. For example my salary is 15000 roubles but in dollars it is about $520 per month and sometimes it is even not regularly paid, but I am optimistic and I think that probably future will change and out government will understand that its people are worth paying them.
I send you some photos today again. Hope you like them. Of cause shorts are not the part of our uniform but sometimes I add something special to daily routine :)
I know some people, who hate their jobs, bit it's not my long suit- I'm interested in my job as I help people and fight for justice in this cruel world. And what can you tell me about your work? Do you fond of it or would you like to change it?
Also I'll never step aside of sport, the point is that it's the second pleasure in my life. I attend keep-fit classes, swim in the pool and belly dance almost every week. Some people make me participate in cloth model shows, to demonstrate, but I don't have a hankering to taking part in such shows. I want to feel freedom.
but as for models - they' re like dolls, stupid and light-minded, they're dependent. Also in my close future I'm going to make a family, that's why I'm searching my happiness in Internet...That’s why I wrote to you.
I hope that thanks to this letter you learnt me better, and you won't stop writing, I hope...
Keep in touch!!! Can I kiss you? Mmmua!
Alena
P.S. send me your phone number with the code of your country, please! I want to hear your voice

Letter 6

Hi, my sweet Mickey!
May I call you my sweet? it sounds so nice... I like all those tender pet-names, and when I feel sympathy to the person, I like to display my affection. as soon as I can display my affection to you only in words I want to tell you as many tender things as i will manage to compose! is it ok? I asked your phone number in my last letter but why didn't you give me it????
You asked me who takes my photos but I don't understand about which agency you talk about. We don't have agencies who take photos of people.
We have only special photographers. Usually my friend or my Mom take my photos.
As for Skype, I don't have PC at home and need to find a place for that.
How many hours difference we have? By the way, I had a serious talk with my Mum about you. And I told her that we are communicating with you through the Internet. At first she was very surprised because she can't imagine how it is possible to communicate through the computer. She can hardly imagine what the Internet is and how it works. oh, my Mum is so kind, but she is so naive and she is the person of older generation and it is difficult for her to belive that the world has changed so much! and that there are so many unknown events and electronics! but somehow I managed to persuade her that I am not joking and I showed her some of your letters (only a small part of the 1st one, don't worry, she didn't read it, my Mum never read the letters which are addressed not to her)
She asked where you are from and how old you are and where you work and if you are a good man. In a word, all the sorts of questions Mothers always asks!
so, I think you passed the test!
and only after I talked with Mum, a sudden thought occurred me... I asked myself: "probably I should have asked YOU..." probably you don't want me to talk about you with my Mum... probably for you I am just an Internet toy... I know that nowadays the Internet is full of bad people who are cheating each other. and all of a sudden you can realize that the person you are writing to is not that you think of him... I am so much afraid that this is going on with me... But I taking away this thought, because my heart is prompting me that I am wrong, that you are the man, that I have always wanted to meet. and that your intentions about me are absolutely pure... I hope I am right? please, tell me that I am... this is the last doubt that I have about you, all the rest is absolutely clear for me, darling... oh, I don't know what to do with my heart because it seems to think only of you every day... My God, this is incredible, that we are more than 1000000000 km apart from each other and we are connected somehow in our minds... if someone told me a month ago that I would be losing my head because of it, I would never belive! but it is going on with ME!!! and I have always considered myself being not that light-minded!
but things happen, as the English proverb says, right? :)
ok, on this idea I will finish the letter, and as usual will wait your quick reply.
bye bye,
Your Alena

Letter 7

Hi, my Sweet Mickey!
How are you? How did you spend your weekends without me?
On Saturday I went to my friend's wedding party. It was wonderful and I am full of impressions. the bride was stunning ,her fiance is a bit older then her, but they both looked great and I almost died of desire to be on their place :) I caught the bride's bunch of flowers, darling :) Actually this is not a natural Russian tradition to through away the bunch of flowers, but it is living in Russia as well!
of cause I am not very superstitious, but since it is a good sign I hope it will come to life! :) my sweet man, what have you done with me? how did you manage surrender my heart? oh... what is going on with me??? is it the same with you or am I just a sentimental thing? no, I am definitely not, because when I am reading your letters I see that you are feeling very much similar and you give me the hope that everything will go on, my sweet.
by the way, did you tell me where you live? Probably I simply don't remember (I mean not the country, of cause I do know it!), but I want to know the place itself. as for me, I have a small one-room flat in one of those terrible blocks where there are 3 floors and the conditions are very bad. the only advantage of those flat is that they are available to pay for (and I suppose that this is because of the fact that more or less well-off people would never agree to live there, but this is just my idea). at first Mum rented the flat, but when I came back from study at the University, we decided that it will be better to ask for the credit in the bank and pay it partly. so, I did it and bought a one-room flat 4 years ago.
But we do not live here now though i did not pay the credit to the full yet.
But we rent that flat to pay off the credit monthly.
A year ago my mum was given a flat from her work. It is a good flat and we live there together now. The conditions here are better and you know, it is always more comfortable to live with mum :) It is a very cozy and nice flat.
I send you some photos and a small video with my cat so you can see.
I heard that abroad people live in comfort and it is unbearable for the foreigner to live in Russia because of bad living conditions. Is it true?
sweety, I feel so much attached to you and I can't imagine what would happen if I didn't write you! darling, it can seem silly for you but if I come here tomorrow and won't find the letter from you, I can't imagine what I will think about the next day!!! I could never imagine that it is possible to feel to much to someone you know only by the letters. I am so great to this Internet that it keeps the connection between us! oh, it seems that my time at the computer is going to come to an end, and the manager is telling me that I have to let it free...But soon I will have my own laptop and we will be able to talk at last directly.
ok, I will go now, sweety and I will look forward to your next letter, I am sending you my first kiss and first embarrass...
bye bye for now,
YOUR Alena
P.S. I send you some photos of my apartment and a small video with my Kokos

Letter 8

Hello, my dear Mickey!
How are you today? Thank you for your nice letter and I can't imagine any day without your words that make my day all the time. Thank you that you exists in my life even being so far from me. Yes, we will talk in Skype for sure and better to do that at the weekends as I have my days off and more over we have big time difference. Today it is raining here and my thoughts are very sad. I'm dependent from the weather sometimes and what about you? I'm in a pensive mood today and want to tell you about my past experience with men before.
So, at first i have fallen in love seriously when I was 18, we studied at the same group at the University, we dated and had very nice time together: flowers, walks in the moonlight, kisses, all the romantic things all the people who are in love have. We decided to live together, but my Mum was against my living without getting marriage, because I was only 19! she thought that i am too small to take such serious decisions. we went on dating till I finished the university. at first we missed each other very much, but then we started to realize that we have different lives and we decided that it will be better to be just good friends. at the moment he is already married and has 2 pretty kids, his wife is a charming woman and I am very happy about him.
soon after we parted I met a good man (as it seemed to me at that time), he was very handsome and very confident and he told me a lot of pleasant things, he assured me that he loved me and he suggested our living together. I agreed because I was 23 and I could do anything I wanted without asking my Mum's permission :) when we started to live together it turned out that he didn't love me as much as he assured me. he was very often absent from the house, he often stayed at night at some other places, and didn't think that he should explain me where he was. and some horrible morning I opened the door of our flat and saw the woman with a child, she looked very angry, and she started to shout at me. at first the sense of her words didn't reach my mind but then i understood that she was talking about my Vanya. she said that they had been married for about 4 years already and that I was destroying their family. but this was the first and the last time I saw this woman!
when she went away i packed his bags and sent it to his home address, I returned to my parent's flat with my heart broken and I never let this man come into my life since. So you see, how cruel men can be in love relations.
I prefer honesty first of all and what about you? Now you are the only man I am keeping in contact and I feel that my feeling have never been stronger to anyone.
Honey, I see that you are a genuine person and I was not mistaken choosing you.
I truly hope that you are different that you won't crush my heart, you won't make me unhappy. because if you do I won't survive. I will be destroyed completely, darling. I rely on you on the whole, I am giving you my heart and I hope that you will keep it safe and sound :) ok, this was a long letter and I think that now you know every detail of my past life. and hope that I will know the same from you soon, ok?
waiting your reply, my love, and sending you the passionate kiss and warm embarrass,
your Alena with love

Letter 9

Hello, my dear Mickey!
How are you today, honey? How is weather over there? here a little bit warmer today and I would be so happy to go for a walk with you to enjoy fresh air and nature. I was so impressed with your story about your past relations and I see you suffered a lot. By the way, I'm sure that you deserve happiness in this cruel world and I will do all my best to make you the happiest man in the world! I always have a great desire to visit you as soon as possible and I want to open you today my small secret :) As I told you before, I attend belly dance corses because I want to surprise you at our first night.
Do you know what is it belly dance, darling? Every part of the body is involved in the dance, the most featured body part usually is the hips.
Belly dance takes many different forms depending on country and region, both in costume and dance style. Belly dancing arose from various dancing styles which were performed in the Middle East and North Africa. Belly dance has roots in the ancient Arab tribal religions as a dance to the goddess of fertility.
Another theory is that belly dance was always danced in the Middle East and North Africa as entertainment, as the movements of dancing girls depicted in carvings from Pharaonic times are typical of belly dancing. A final theory is that belly dance was originally danced by women for women in North Africa.
Most of the movements in belly dancing involve isolating different parts of the body such as hips, shoulders, chest, stomach, which appear similar to the isolations used in jazz ballet, but are often driven differently. To tell you the truth, it's no so easy to learn Belly dance as it's necessary to use every part of your body isolated but it's very hard to manage it. I try to do all my best to learn how to do that because I really want to make a small surprise for you when I come :)
I even have a special costume for that so you can see it on the photos that I send you today. So be ready because I'm sure that you will like it ;)
I kiss you now and wait for your news with impatience. I will go to the belly dance corses now to become more perfect in this sphere not to disappoint you:)
Have a nice evening, darling.
Many kisses,
your Russian princesse Alena

Letter 10

Hello, my darling Mickey,
How are you, honey? thank you for your mail and I see you forgot the name of my town, it's not a great problem :) I live in Ivanovo, you can see it on the map.
How was your day, sweetie? As far as my day is concerned, it was rich in pleasant surprises!
And one of these surprises was so stunning that I am eager to tell you about it right now.
In the middle of the day a man in uniform entered our police office and asked for me. He turned out to be a worker of flower company and he delivered a bunch of bright white lilies, so tender and delicate!
The bunch was really huge and my jaw dropped open when the man said it was for me. I could hardly believe his words and of course I thought it was a surprise from you as I have no other man in my life. The man went away leaving me and my envying colleagues with the bunch alone. I still wondered if it was you who had sent it or not. On the one hand, only you can make such a surprise for me. But on the other hand, you know that I adore red roses and it occurred to me that you would have sent red roses and not lilies. In addition, you would have sent it to my home and not to work. Unfortunately, there was no card in the bunch and the sender is still a mystery for me. I am pleased to receive it though I know now that it is not from you. Who could have sent it, darling? What is your opinion? My sweetheart, I am in an excellent mood today and I hope you feel great as well. Every day has surprises for each of us. Maybe tomorrow I will find out who sent me the bunch. I am so curious, honey. But no matter who it is, I love you and only you! Do not forget it, my prince. I was made for you only!
I have to go now though my desire is to stay and write you a few abstracts more. My man, take care of yourself for me, ok?
Looking forward to your next letter, sweetie.
Kiss you,
your Alena with love

Letter 11

Hello, my darling man Mickey,
How are you? I was missing you very much. I'm so tired today as we started new criminal case today and let you know about it later. I don't want to talk about my work now as I didn't have a rest for 10 hours already. But I don't give up as I'm a strong soldier :) I'm sorry that I couldn't write you at the weekends but internet cafe is usually closed at the weekends but I will try to find the other one, ok?
Do you remember I told you the strange story about the bunch of the flowers? Today I learnt who sent it to me. It was a father of one of my clients. Some months ago I helped a girl whose mobile phone was stolen near school. I have already forgotten about it because I have hundreds of such situations and I never expect some kind of gratitude from them because it is my work. Nevertheless, it was nice to feel that your work is appreciated.
I hope that you are not jealous, my darling, because this bunch means nothing. However, the man is rather handsome and divorced and maybe it was his attempt to get acquainted with me... who knows...
Today he came to the police office with sweets and expensive wine and said he couldn't come earlier because of his work, that is why he sent the flowers. I was a bit embarrassed with all the presents he gave me before and today. I am afraid that people around can conclude that he is my boyfriend. But my only man is you!!! And I love only you! And I want that everybody sees me accompanied by you, my sweetheart! I am sure this day will come soon.
Kiss you,
your Alena with love

Letter 12

Hello, my dear Mickey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How are you today, my angel? How is your mood, my sweetheart? I came from the swimming pool right now and I feel so happy because I feel that my body becomes stronger and more beautiful!
I do it for you, my love because I'm your princesse and that's why i must look like a princesse and be in fit! I'm right?
I see you never tried Russian dishes? I can cook them for you when I come to you-so you will never be hungry ;) I miss you badly with every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dream about being with you again.
The desire to be with you in such physical closeness is so powerful that I cannot stop dreaming about your eroticism.
I crave every inch of your body with enormity as if I had a sick addiction.
You make me feel like I am about to explode as soon as you touch me.
My desire to be with you, on you and touching you is overwhelming.
I dream that I walk into your house one evening late at night.
The house is already dark except for a few candles and a thunderstorm is raging outside.
Soaking wet in my clothes I move over to you and hold you firmly as my mouth meets yours.
I undress you there in the living room and lay you on the couch.
In the flashing light of the storm outside I can see your body move and writhe with expectation.
My rain soaked hair and clothes has covered your naked body with a glistening moistness that begs to be touched.
I can see the beads of water trickle down your stomach and thighs with each streak of lightening.
As I gently kiss your lips and neck I slowly undress myself part of the way.
I move down your naked chest and kiss your chest then...
Your skin is hot to the touch and your moaning is getting increasingly stronger.
I am not able to wait any longer and I stand up as you help me undo my pants and slide them down.
I love being on top of you, feeling your arms around me and pressing into me as you are inside of me.
The pleasure and intensity of the moment is almost too much to bear. For a few moments we are one.
Moving together and holding each other joined by fierce sex and lustful emotions.
You drive me crazy. I feel as if I were once more a school girl dealing with the raging hormones of adolescence. I never thought a man could make a full grown woman this hungry with a raging sexual appetite.
I am stunned by my own animal drive to be with you sexually, but I am very excited about it.
I look forward to all of the exciting new erotic adventures we will be having very soon.
Your Alena with love
P.S. When we'll be together?????

Letter 13

hi, my dear Mickey!
to tell you the truth, I was shocked with your mails today. I have never expected to be hurt by you so much..Really..I didn't tell you that this was my photo in my lasy, I just attached you this famous picture so you can dream about me and imagine the mail I sent you last time. That's all. But when i read so bad things about me from you, I really started to think it over if I really need a man who can tell such things to me? fuck out from your life???? When my Mom will know how you treat me, she will be also disappointed in you. So with whom you was talking by the phone?
can you explain me? with a ghost? Send me your video clip and after that I will send you mine. Sorry but I have nothing to tell you after such words. I didn't expect you to be so rude man..Sorry..
Alena

Letter 14

Hello, my dear Mickey!
Of cause I forgive you for your words because any person have the right for mistake. I attach you my video so you can see that I'm honest and real person and I have serious feelings to you. If I were near you, I could prove you that, really..I love you, my darling and wait for your news..
Your Alena with love

Letter 15

Hello, my darling Mickey,
How are you? I wish I could give you a kiss as a greeting but you know that only words are in my disposal right now. I am missing you very much and I was missing you the whole day as terrible as never before!I was so impressed with your video, thank you a lot for your great surprise. I don;t want to quarrel with you any more, my angel because it hurts so much and I want to live in harmony with you.
Today I had a very interesting meeting. I visited my first teacher of English whom I haven't seen for a long time. She has got so old since the last time I saw her. But she is still a very kind and wise woman who treats her pupils like her own children. We were drinking tea and talking a lot today. She says she is going to leave school in summer and it is a bit sad because it makes me realize that everything comes to an end one day and life is so short. Some years ago I admired this woman, her energy and enthusiasm. And now she is a pensioner already.
Honey, I told her about you and our story. She is so impressed. I was her favorite pupil and we are still good friends that is why I can trust her. Now she is glad that I am going to be happy as a woman after I have found my man.
And in addition, my language skills she has given me are needed in my every day life and she is happy about it too. She was smiling and asking me all the time - when are you going to meet your man in real life? I was smiling and even laughing too, imagining our meeting and thinking of you at this very moment.
my angel, my intentions are really very serious and I think the next step in our relations (if you are serious too) is our meeting which I hope will happen in the nearest future. Do you agree with me?
So, I am in a very pensive mood after this meeting with my former teacher. I hope that my letter hasn't made you feel bad or bored. I think I should go home now and take a hot bath because my back is aching a little bit. The weather is rather windy and it must have affected my back. Actually, I need massage now, it would really help. Would you like to do it, darling? I am sure that your hands would reduce my pain, darling. And you are the only person I can trust my back to.
Kisses and hugs,
your Alena with love

Letter 16

Hello, dear Mickey.
i read your letter and I was shocked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I still love you, but a little bit upset about everything that is going now...I love you and so i don't want to lose you, and i want to be with you!
You are the only person for me, my honey!
but because of your words I'm really angry with you!!!!!!!!!!First of all I'm a serious woman and not a little girl to treat me this way, and if you are really had some feelings to me you don't have to say such words.....You even don't know the reality and you let smb. push yourself around, it's not the truth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you have to understand me!Dear, I love!!I want to be wit you all my love! I've never loved anybody before so, plz,honey!
Although you made such things with me, I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
O'k, I understand you!so, listen!
I have to say that I was writing for the person through the Internet for the first time, but it's not truth! some months ago I was in correspondence with some man .... You know that I'm serious person and I was looking for the real love and someone whom I can trust....but by the way it wasn't so, he was only the person who liked to treat with woman and he was asking me only the naked photos, and all the time he was speaking only about the sex! But I didn't want such relations and when he asked me to come to him to entertain very very interesting way and he said that we'll all the time have sex I can't stand that I said FUCK YOURSELF and he replied that he'll avenge me by all means and anybody will be ably to look at me...and I will be all the time alone..... so you are the only person who can decide now, everything is in your hands dear....But I'm tired to prove you my honesty and serious intentions about you. if you prefer to belive in rumors in the Internet and strangers-it's up to you. My skype is officeralena.
Send me sms when you will be online. We can talk tomorrow but it will be for the last time. If again you will hurt me with your doubts, I will surely close our communication FOREVER. So think it over.
I love you....
Your Alena

Letter 17

hi, dear Mickey.
I'm really sorry for that but how can I prove you that my intentions are serious with you and I don't want to be hurt again. I still love you in spite of the fact that you are so angry on me but I love you with my heart and soul. We can talk in Skype if you want, I will try to find a way for that. Kisses,
still yours Alena