Letter(s) from Jessica Michael to Bob (Canada)

Letter 1

Hello Bob,

Firstly, I want to use this medium to let you know i am sorry for not responding earlier, after i sent you a message on match i was not expecting to get a reply from you as i thought all men were the same because all they wanted from me was to get in bed with me which made me travel down here to the Philippines without checking my mail box . My name is Sarah Adams, 35 years old female living in Edmonton, Alberta but based in Philippines which is where i run my business from. I have decided to relocate me back home so as to finally settle down and as i believe it's high time i did that and also because of the current unrest in the Philippines caused by the unfavorable weather conditions and political factors..I'm currently in Philippines and i will be back for good soonest in about a week but i would like us to use this medium to learn more about each other before my return,I joined the online dating scene in search of a man that I will spend the rest of my life happy with.I am a lady that is in need of real and perfect love,I have been hurt so much in my past relationships which I regretted a lot and wouldn't want to experience such again,that's the reason why I said that I'm seeking true love and a serious man that is ready for a long-term relationship and not here for games. So , i say to you Bob , if you are interested in getting to know me , i would like to be blunt and i hope you don't get offended , as you would have noticed i took my profile off match just so i could settle for knowing you better and i want to know if you would do the same too just so you would give us a chance at least but i am not imposing anything though that is if you want but if you don't it is okay too as long as you are honest with me..

About my background,I'm of a mixed background,my dad is English and my mom is Canadian. I was born in the UK, Windsor, Berkshire to be precise and lived in Uk and Dominica while growing on and only just moved back to Canada last month. I was very unfortunate to lose my parents many years ago in a car accident which I was the only survivor,while I was just 11 years, I missed them a lot while growing up.It was really a sad experience for me and it has been lonely without them since I was the only Child. My late dad was a very successful petroleum and gas engineer,He owned a petroleum and gas engineering firm that operated in oil rich Arab countries.I lived with my aunt in Dominica after my parents passed away as she was all I had,She didn't have a child of her own so she treated me like I was hers. She was into buying and selling of jewelries,antiques and fabrics.I took over the business from her after she passed away and that's what I do for a living and I'm currently on a business trip to Manila Philippines to buy some goods, but would be back home in about a week from now. I'm not just looking for a man but hoping to find true love from someone I would spend the rest of my life with. Its a great experience having someone that loves you and supports you in life through good and bad times and won't give up on you no matter what happens, that is what I am looking for as I'm willing to give out the same.I'm not looking to be with a man for material things or for any other reason.

I am single(never married),No kids,I do not smoke and drink socially,concerning sexuality, I'm a one man lady,I stay faithful,loyal and devoted to my man.My desire is to be sexually faithful to the man I end up with,I've never cheated and would never consider that. I believe that if two people love each other and communicate about what they like and do not like about their each other's sexual behavior,they would have a wonderful relationship.I am currently working on my own,I had to start all over again cos I lost almost all I had to my last relationship after trying out a joint venture.Looking good is what I spend most of my time doing,as it gives me the confidence I need in my everyday life.I don't play games and am not ready for any games...at this stage in our life..I guess we should be pass games that why I prefer to be with someone older,someone ready for a serious relationship.Not games... Life is too short to play games..I'm not here to toy with anyone's feelings and I don't want to be toyed with also as I'm very emotional.Distance is not a problem,If I find the right man. I don't mind relocating as long as it for love,I will like to know you better and hopefully you would be the man for me,who is ready to spend the rest of his life with me and start a family ..You never know what the future holds.. I'm a quite busy lady, independent and also low maintenance. I will wait to hear from you again,I would be glad if you can send me a few more photos of you. A journey of a thousand miles starts with one step,I hope I'm taking the right one i have attach with this message more photos of myself and i hope you like them…

I look forward to reading from you soon & hope you have a lovely evening ahead..

Hugs & Kisses

Sarah

Letter 2

Good Morning Bob,

Thank you very much for your reply and everything you have told me. How are you and how was your night ? i hope you had restful night rest..I am so happy that you are single and serious about this,I want to let you know I am also serious,I hope you would take good proper care of me as I would do for you also. To answer a question i am sure you would be having in your mind, I want you to know that the only reason why am still very single is because i haven't found the right man yet but then i think something great can come out of this for the both of us, Gosh you are my dream come true , i truly hope you are as real as i am . You make me feel so special,loved and wanted,Thank you so much for that .I just want to write you and tell you exactly how I feel,You have no idea how reading from you makes me feel.I want to assure you that I'm not searching anymore as I've found all in you all I ever wanted in a man.I feel so lucky to have someone like you in my life and I believe our meeting was fate and not by mistake.I find it so hard to believe I'm having such intense feeling for someone I'm yet to meet in person,even though I'm a bit scared and nervous.I'm sure the feeling is right and sincere.

I wish I could have you here with me,If only for just a few hours to show you how much you have captured my heart. I find myself thinking about you all through the day. I picture you in my mind always ,everything about you, as if you were really here beside me. When I fall asleep I dream about you next to me and I can feel your skin underneath my hand. I dream of you running your hands through my hair, down my back, and over every part of my body.I cant wait to be with you,just the thought of having you right by my side to hold,kiss and cuddle makes my body shiver.I hope I'm not being to forward here but I feel expressing what I feel for you and being honest would help us get along better.

Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened but this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me so hard, but there is something really special about you.It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart, these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you write me. I receive so much joy just being able to read from you. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing .

I'm willing to take a chance with you,You never can tell what life's got in stock for us.I know its kind of strange but last night I did have a dream about us together,In my dream, Our love started over the net and everything seemed almost perfect then. We had never met but the love we felt was so real and true already, and could only become complete by meeting each other,The very first day I met you in person, we held one other so tightly that we didn't let go. We had a perfect day and it only got better and better,After that moment we never went through a day without showing each other how much we love and needed each other for the rest of our life,I was very happy for all the love you had given to me and I was always there for you through all things in life you needed as the king of my heart.I know it was only a dream but its one dream that I pray so hard to come true and I'm willing to do everything possible to make it a reality.

Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay.

And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you. I would do anything to make you happy,I would stand by you through thick and thin whenever they arise in our busy life.I have so much love inside my heart that I'd love to share with you. I know we are yet to meet in person but these feelings that I have for you keep glowing and growing every day.It's amazing how you got me so trapped ,I'm so attracted to you and you've captivated my heart.I never thought I could feel this way about someone in no time but I was so wrong. I just thank God for bringing you my way. If we are meant for each other,we would be together and nothing would ever change that, I just want to love you with ALL my heart and spend the rest of my life doing so.I really can't wait to meet you in person..Once again I assure you that I'm not here for games,but to find the special man I would spend the rest of my life happy with and I really hope that's YOU...So babe i need to stop here now and try to finish what I'm doing and then email you back when you reply this mail..

Love Always,

Sarah..

Letter 3

Good Evening Bob,

I'm writing you this letter to tell you how much you have come to mean to me, and to thank you for coming into my life. I want you to know that i did try to call you last night before going to bed but it was to no avail baby. You are something I never thought could exist for me. You are one of the best things happening in my life at the moment. I have been feeling on top of the world the past few days, I feel so much joy and excitement and all I can say is thank my luck that I found a man as wonderful as yourself Bob.

I actually had my doubts initially because I wasn't sure you were actually taking me seriously. But, it was too late. I don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely, all I know is I was sick of being unloved. Then you came along.. I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on the first email, something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish, which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we communicated and began finding we had a lot in common. I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past I like you've always being a part of me.

At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore everything. I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you. I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling. I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met. I thought I was becoming insane myself.

I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore. I tried to convince myself that this can't be for real; that you couldn't really be feeling the same as I was… I was going insane!!! No matter how hard I tried - I just could not fight the feelings I was having for you.

I already booked my ticket back home and i can send you my flight itinerary so you can see for yourself that i am coming home and i will never for once let you Bob who is ready to hold me and show me what love is again down. Please darling i am so happy you sent me the money and i cashed yours already. I called my friend Veronica who sent me the remaining $3500 when I was about cashing veronica's Money out also when i found out the number she gave me was NO MATCH FOUND. I tried calling her several times and she did not pick up, I sent her an email and she replied saying her first son had an accident and she had to collect the money back for her son's medical needs. I am in a bad mood and shape right now. I am so depressed already because my flight has been booked already and i will leave this country on Tuesday the 19th of this month. Baby i can't have my Goods shipped if i don't have the balance of $3,500. My customer's are really bugging me and expecting their goods. So right now baby am in need of $3,500 so i can go get my goods shipped before i leave here my love. I can't even text you now because i feel so sad and feel like committing murder at the moment as i have never been faced with such trials .

Our emails was great and the feelings just would not go away no matter how hard I tried. No one in this world knows the feeling that I get when I read your emails. They have no idea about what you get my body to do when i think of you.

Nobody has ever made me feel like the way you make me feel and that is such a crazy feeling. It feels like I just want to grab you and be in your arms forever and forever and never let go. I want to kiss your lips and never end - just keep going..

Every time I think about you, it gives me more and more strength with which to carry on the everyday . It makes me happy to be alive knowing that you have come into my life and all I know is that I want to be with you.

You're the only person who could ever put this big of a smile on my face Bob.

All i seek is your helping and i promise to pay back as soon as i get Home to you. A copy of the Part payment is attached to this message so you can see for yourself.

You have my words Darling.

Your Darling

Sarah

Letter 4

Darling Bob

How are you doing today? I hope this day brings love, happiness, and joy to you..I know have said this before but i just cant stop wondering how possible it is that we share a lot in common,God is good. I have this good news that i have always believed that God never shuts a door unless he has a bigger and better one to open for you. It feels to me that you may possibly be that door in my life. It seems that we fully agree that a successful relationship depends on both partners giving themselves totally to a relationship, communicating, and never giving up on one another.That is the kind of Man that I am looking for, one who is willing to give until it hurts and then give some more to make a healthy home. That is what I am willing to do and even more. I hope you can see from our email conversation that i am a well mannered lady and also understanding.I understand that "Actions Speak Louder Than Words" so until you are around me and see my walk, it is only talk. No matter what happens, I want you to know that you have given me hope and reason to be happy.

About my Job, I employ some locals here to do some work for me and i pay them off daily, I'm happy and joyful that we met. I do appreciate your open, genuine, warm heart and sincere answers to my questions. I would truly love no more than to get to know you better as in person. You do possess all of the qualities, morals,values and ethics that I've ever looked for in a man.Your outlook and your decision making skills are truly astounding to me,I hope you don't get upset with me after reading this because I'm so into you and i don't want to lose you..., I feel i can relate this with you since we have shared a lot so far and i believe i can confide in you also with anything. This is why i strongly believe that this wont scare you off. I hope this message explains in details what i have in mind to discuss with you in order to feel more comfortable around you and i really don't feel like keeping anything away from you. I am currently facing a serious issue here with the new government rate of VAT(value added tax),The VAT which came into existence after the typhoon has automatically changed the cost of everything and as you know i am out here in Philippines purposely for business reasons. I'm into buying and selling of clothing materials (Fabrics) and i major in Adire and Lace fabrics,These clothing materials are very nice and affordable to my customers.The Adire are hand made clothing materials here and the Lace are very good comfortable clothing materials too but they are more expensive than the Adire,The Lace materials are used mostly for anything, Major native wears and also underwear's and a lot more for both the male and female gender. I have attached with the message the photos of this clothing materials and the first 3 are Adire and the last 3 are the lace fabrics. I have gotten these clothing materials in bulk and its ready for shipment to various customers that ordered but since the cost of the Vat has affected things here and the charges of the shipping it difficult for me to get things done as planned...I know its normal sometimes in business for such issues to arise,So it was nothing to me at first because i thought i could pay for it installmentally but that was to no avail ,Well i have tried possible ways i can get the cash and raise money and nothing has happened, i have even been to the embassy to get some help and i was told it's some personal issue i can resolve myself. I was advised to contact friends or relatives to help me with funds to get ticket and then when i get back to you i should cash them and send funds to the shipping agency to handle everything but my problem is not as regards plane ticket because if my goods are left here it would be to my own risk if anything happens to them . I need a financial support to get things done and i can get on the plane back Home. Honey i hope you're comfortable with me sharing all this with you ?? I just feel you should know about my situation over here because we have shared so much and it won't be right to hold this back from you because i believe that for any relationship to work , we must work together through anything , that we experience. No matter , if it is a problem with money, with beliefs, or feelings. When one of us is lacking in one area, I believe the other one is there to help out the other or pick up the slack for a time. This doesn't mean we do it forever, but just while the other person needs help with money problems, stress, feelings, worries , or even doubts. For us to work as well as the feelings we have for each other, we must compromise . I adore you so much, and i know you care about me so much and once i get there I know it will be so much easier for you to know how i feel towards you....I'm really sorry to have to ask you this and trust me i really wish i don't have to do this, but I really need you to do me a big favor honey, Please know that this is really hard for me, but I need you to do me a really big favor and I promise to pay you back when i arrive. I don't know how you feel about lending me money since we just met but i want you to give me the benefit of doubt cause i believe the journey of a thousand miles begins with a step and I'm trying to take a step of meeting you in person and see where we go from there... My outlook on life is Ambitious, Practical and Virtuous and my goals are my Career, Family and can i add you, because i plan on meeting you soon and getting to share my deepest feelings with you. I feel like I've known you for years already and that was why i came out straight to tell you what I'm facing here because i believe a problem shared is half solved and i hope you understand me and your help will be greatly appreciated and i want you to know this problem has held me here longer than i expected but if i can resolve this i will be on my way back to Canada by Sunday so please kindly find a place in your heart to assist me honey and i will forever appreciate that ..

Take care & God Bless You.

Hugs & Kisses

Sarah

Letter 5

Dear Love,

The feeling I have now, Bob, is really indescribable. I was fighting the existence of this great distance between us and yet it came to me striking hard where it hurts the most - being away from you. I want to cry, you know, in fact I did, I need to. The fact that I am not with you. How useless, heartless, worthless am I.

I just want to tell you how sorry I am. Terribly, terribly sorry about asking you for help even before we meet and i understand what you are trying to say. I was like a child crying in the shadows, like I want to hit something or shout. All i need is just 3500USD, baby i want you to know i will get the money back to you as soon as i have gotten back to the country , when i have made some sales. I hope you can trust me on that sweety and i would answer to the questions you have asked . . I miss you, Baby, I terribly do. Yet that longing cannot equate the love I have for you. And you may be thinking by now that all I tell you are mere words without proof. I will be home soon my love. I will be there.

I want you with all of my heart and soul. All that I am, I owe you. I will be there. "I'll walk in the rain by your side, I'll cling to the warmth of your tiny hand, I'll do anything to keep you satisfied. I love you more than anybody can. In no way will i make you find regret in this, and take this as a promise i will never bite the finger that has helped me, Baby, i have conscience and i know there is God, there is Karma and i believe in it, what ever goes around come around. I'm not looking for a millionaire either but someone who is caring, loving and understanding, Someone who we can both work through thick and thin whenever they arise in our life. Please put your mind at rest and i must tell your emails really touch me and right now my heart speaks to you in sincerity.

If God forbid, and transfer to me all the pain you are having right now, I would gladly take it, even if it leads me to stop breathing. For that is nothing compared to the joy, satisfaction and completion that the mere mention of your name brings me. For to hold that pain for you shall be my honor and privilege. I have nothing to be proud of but you.

Baby your love and care is what's keeping me strong. I am so depressed right now and your love is all that is keeping me strong. I am deeply sorry if i have cause you any stress,i want you to know that you are doing this for us and for a blessed future directly from God. I Adore you so much. I can wait to be with you physically soon. Forever that is, i just cant wait to be with you.

All that I am,

Hugs and Kisses

Cares Unlimited

Sarah