Letter(s) from Oksana to Michael (USA)

Letter 1

Good Evening :) want to see me? I'm Oxana! I'am very kindly mistress and immediately looking reliable Man. If You want to date me ;) write to me. I'll send You my picture attached ;)
thank you)

Letter 2

Hello there! How are you? I am glad to get your responce this evening!
I'm so sorry for the delay of my letter, I have been soooo busy, and I didn't even see this e-mail until just now. I received the message from some dating sites, and one with your email adres. And has decided to write to you the letter. You know, i don't like dating sites:) or probably I do something wrong. And I send you my pictures as I promised, And I hope you will like it! I should admit that I feel uncertainty :) But I nevertheless hope that your heart is open for new friends, and I know that right now I must write at least the most important things about myself. Well, You know, my name is Oxana. My height is 168cm (I think it is 5,7 feet).
Did you think I am low? Or not))) My weight, if I'm not mistaken - 118 pounds. Im 27. My birthday is September, 28
I was in relationship for 3 years. I have no kids and at present live alone by myself,that means no boyfriend, what is about you? Now I live in the Russian Federation. But I lived in Canada for a long time.
I Trained and worked in a pharm area. I am a Pharmacist(provisor).
If it will be interesting to you, I shall speak more about it. I aware that Russia maybe too far away from you, but I think it will not be a barrier.
And probably soon I shall travel again. Now I live in a little town in a northern part of Russia, Kurgan city
mmm... yes I like to travel.I visited different countries.
I shall speak about it later. I think it's great to have some friends who live in the other parts of the world. Do you agree with me?
And I sincerely think that for friendship there are no borders or distances. But enough about it. I feel that I should finish my letter because I even don't know if you are still interested in a dialogue with me or not. I hope you have. But if you have no desire to talk to me anymore, please, at least, write me about it.
I want to ask you some questions. :). Simply I would be glad to know Where you live? where do you work, and do you like your work?
And, in general, what are your interests? It's a banal questions certainly :)
but i would like to know more about you. And by the way, I will be glad to have more your pictures! Therefore do not hesitate :) I will write you the day after tomorrow if everything is alright! Hope to see your letter soon !
best regards!
Oxana.

Letter 3

Hi !!! It's me Oxana.
I'm glad to see your fast answer !! :)
I must tell that I try to write in English as good as
possible (within my knowledge). I hope you understand all what I write:)
I have been already studying English some years, Therefore I apologize for my mistakes :).
At school I wanted to be a english singer and even finished a musical school.
But I sing songs during my life just for myself )
also I play the piano. do you play any musical instruments or sing? :)
Well, I work in a medical field.
After 7 years of studying there I received an red diploma.
The Kazan State Medical University.
Best diploma is called red in our country ;)
I have been working as a Pharmacist for 5 years, I like my job in spite of the fact I have to work a lot. Also I have interesting seminar trips to many places. I go there to get my work experience.
Once I was offered a training course in Canada, and I agreed.
It was a good chance for me to see the world. In Canada I studied English.
Then I decided to work in English speaking countries. It's a good experience for me. Also it's very interesting. But half a year ago I returned to Russia. It was necessary to settle some questions.
And Now I work in a local clinic in our town. I like Russia but I have ideas to move to a more stable country. The life is very complicated here.
I know it will not be easy in a foreign country. But I am sure I can do more, than do here. Besides I have some experience living in a foreign country, and I dona??t want to waste time. Can you tell me how you chose your job?
Well , what you are looking for in a woman?
Probably you have many female friends in the Internet. :)
..mmm.. What else to tell you about myself as I have little time..
I use the internet in the laboratory and work from Monday till Friday.
But sometimes on Saturday and Sunday.
This computer is located in the medical analyses room.
Now this computer will be used for my dialogue with! :)))
I think you understood, I'm still single and I have no children.
I wanted as well to learn more about your family. I miss my parents too much...
Now I have to go back to work and hope to see you soon.
Have a nice day!
Oxana.

Letter 4

Good evening ! How are you doing?
What is the weather like today in your town?
Winter covers everything, I like Winter. What about you ?
Winter is a very beautiful season here.
I would like to know more about your place.
My town is rather old. There are a lot of churches.
I like going to church because it brings calm and piece.
I believe in God. I am Christian. I was baptised when I was a baby.
My parents believed in God as well and wanted me to be blessed by God.
My faith helps me greatlyin my life. When I don't know the way out I always pray and in the end I come up to the conclusion.I am absolutely sure people should have the faith.
Do you agree with me? What about your Faith?
My city is small but it is very green all over the streets
I like going to the country and fry meat or sausages on the grill, sometimes we make fire and bake potatoes (very delicious). Have you tasted such a dish? )
I heard about scam .. It is very sad. People so malicious!
And I don't understand, how probably to go on a similar deceit.
I want you to understand, I am not a scammer. I dona??t need money from you.
I have a good salary, and I really feel sorry for women who are true and want to find their happiness. All this is so wrong as there are so many people who really want to find their second halves. And internet is a very good opportunity for this. But do not worry ,i am fair lady
Also i trust you. I heared stories that some foreign man Brought ladies from our country just To work prostitute by profession, it is awful!
So i am very careful also.
As for my family, it was always important for me. I have a brother.
His name is Nikolay. He is 32, married.He is a patrolman. His wife and I always worry very much when he is at work. There are always dangerous situations.
Once I lost my parents. I won't be able to live if I loose him.
His wife, Valentina, is a wonderful lady. She is a librarian - very interesting interlocutor.
We are friends, spend much time together. They have an adorable daughter - Anna. They are really the most important part of my life. I think many people don't understand completely that family is a big treasure. Unfortunately we realize it when it is too late and nothing can be done. I know it for sure.My both parents passed away.
I always loved them and now I miss them very much. They died when I was only 16.
It was a car accident. My mom was a doctor. She visited nearest villages to cure people.
Once a woman called and implored to come because her sister had been seriously injured.
My mom couldn't refused. My offered her to give her a lift, they with father sat into the car and .....
we never saw them alive again. That was why I being a little girl was able to do everything by myself, cooked, sewed, help my brother. That is why my brother is much more than just a brother. I had to study and work in the evening to support us.
It was a hard time but "that does not kill us makes us stronger".
And now I can do almost everything. Now it seems to me that I was saying to my Parents about my love too seldom, and now I so regret about it.
What can you tell me about your family? Is it valuable for you?
Also we have grandparents, she are 83 years old. Village about 100km from me.
I like visiting them. We offered them to move to our places many times but they don't want... like old house.
I hope that we'll exchange telephone numbers of each other.
To hear a voice of each of us. But at first we should find out each other a little bit more. As it is more serious contact for me. I hope you understand.
Unfortunately I have some bad experience, but I do not want to speak about it. Ok?

Well, I have to go now. I promised supper for my brother's family :)
they are visiting me tonight. My princess Anna likes pies.
When they come she is running to the kitchen and looking for something tasty:)
I will wait for your next letter;). Have a nice day !

P.S. I Hope you like pics :)
(on a pics I'm with my brother, it's old pics)

Letter 5

Hello my dear friend Michael! :)
What's the weather like outside in your place? Today we have a solar day.
In the night I have snow behind the window, but in the morning we have a clear.
I like when the sky is clear, but snow - not lesser.
It is pleased to me to see how snowflakes are falling down. I love to go to the street during when snowflakes are titillating my nose.
Do you Like it , do you like snowfalls maybe rain ?
Ok, enough about it :) I think there are many other things about me that I must tell you. In general,speaking about me.
I have various interests. I like sports, especially bicycle, swimming and skis!
So it is important for me to keep fit. I like domestic plants very much.
I have a lot of them. My friends is always joking about this.
They say in the nearest future there won't be place for me in my apartment because my favourite plants are everywhere. It took me 3 hours to water them, I always speak to them, sing and smile and they grow better.
Do you like flowers and plants? Do you have them at home? Of course I adore cooking like the most part of Russian women. But I don't do it very often only at weekends for my friends and my brother's family.
I am interested in the process of cooking but don't like eating it myself though I cook pretty well.I like cooking for somebody!!!!!!!!! I would love to cook for you and watch you eating. Do you like cooking???????????
Also I absolutely love reading, listen to music,and play the piano)
Unfortunately i haven't ability to use social nets for example, Facebook or other.
I do not have a internet at home and use one at work. And at work we are not allowed to use social nets for communication, they blocked it, I hope you understand... I am very glad we have an interesting dialogue with you Michael and I want to say honestly. I am looking for a man. And for me it is not just pastime or hobby.
It is the only possibility which will allow me to find a man who I could not find in the standard ways (such as - acquaintance in a bar, in the street or in the office).
I could not find the person who would take my love and give the same.
I could not find such a man among those men who surround me. Anyhow I do not regret about my decision to find a man in the similar way. I had a boyfriend in Russia. But I got only roughness and disrespect.
Before the trip to Canada we stopped ours relations. I do not want to talk about him now. I can say, that I want to meet a man with a kind heart; a man who will respect a lady. And I am afraid of man's roughness very much, I think that true force of a man is his heart. A man should win love and tenderness of a woman by beauty of heart, but not by force of a body.
What do you think about this in whole?
I am ready to continue to write letters to you up to infinity :)
but I should urgently start working... I will wait for your letter!
Write To Me Soon!
Oxana.

Letter 6

Hi, friend!
Michael today was really a good day, and right now I am sitting, writing this letter and smiling:) I hope you too. :) My mood has become better again when I got your letter. I should say when I have a good mood my work seems more easy and I'm not tired. By the way when I came to work today my mood was bad because my friend Nataly in hospital now. I asked a doctor and my friend will stay in hospital for about one week. She had problems with appendicitis.
It's not a very good case. I will try to visit her as often as I can.
I think it good support and it helps her recover faster. Please let me know what you do when someone of your relatives or friends is ill and stay in hospital.
As a matter of fact I have only two real friends - Amanda and Nataly the lady who is in hospital.
They are also not married but have relations. We friends for almost 20 years.
Same kindergarten, school, lived in neighbor houses a lot of time but now live in different districts. And we can meet each other almost any time.
We work together with Amanda. I remember we liked to go to my grandmother.
There are very beautiful places. The air is very fresh and clean, it is a very silent place and there is beautiful nature. We always go to the river. I am a fine swimmer! And if we swam together with you, you would have a big problem if you tried to catch me in the water. In winter - skiing.
We like go to the forest to gather mushrooms and berries. It is very popular here.
Once upon a time we even lost the way and found road already almost at night.
We have to climb a high tree just to look where to go.
We were afraid but now we remembered it like a funny case. Have you ever gone to the forest to pick mushrooms and berries, I wonder?
In villige, I many help my grandmother with her garden. This is my mother's mother:)
Grandfather died in 1980 because of the old wounds. Had a lot of awards (World War Second)
He remained alive till the victory and even reached Berlin.
I try to visit her as frequent as possible. My soul rests in the village.
And I am not sure even what I like more - a small place near the forest and the river, silence, singing of birds behind the window or a big city with cinemas, museums, beautiful houses and shops, with attractions, but with cars' roar and noice of people's crowd and to add to all these with criminal.
Unfortunately criminal rate in Russia is on a very high level.
But I don't want to speak about sad things. By the way today when I come to Nataly we will speak about you. Yes, my friends know that Iam talking to you, and they start asking a lot of questions! :). But if to take into account that with one of them I work together in clinic, to avoid interrogation about my new friend is more and more difficult! :)
I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Michael? What do you like more, a big city or a small village? Michael I have to go. But I will wait for your letter and your pics! I send you my pictures! I hope you can find me in my pictures. If is not, I will help :) And then I will have again a smile on my face. Oxana.
P.S. I hope that right now you have a smile on your face .
I want you to smile, smile, smile....

Letter 7

Hi Michael! I am very glad to get your letter this evening.
How are you doing my friend ? I just arrived from a Nataly. Now she is better and after about a week she will be home! My mood became better and I let myself relax mentally! May be today after work I will go home on foot.
I like to walk along the street and to breathe in fresh air, especially when the weather is fresh and sunny as it is today. When I am outside and people are around me I don't feel so lonely. When I am in my apartment where there is nobody with me I feel terrible. I even don't get pleasure and satisfaction from my favourite pastime. Of course I have fitness and listen to music but somewhere deep in my heart I feel unbearable pain and loneliness.
Not to feel this I dream. I dream about my future, about my beloved and about the house full of joy and happiness. My dreams help me live, and in my dreams I am an absolutely happy lady with a big family. And I am absolutely sure that one day my dreams will come true! But now I have to live in the world of dreams.And of course my hope and faith are the most important parts of my life. I suppose you have dreams and hopes as well, don't you. Tell me please about your dreams Michael? To tell the truth I am surprised that I write you all this. I haven't had the person, who I could share my thoughts and ideas with. I am very glad because I can explain you my ideas.
Michael I want to hear your voice, but the problem is that my work cell phone only for Russia, and all calls to foreign countries are locked, my bills for mobile services paid by my company where I work.
But I think that soon I shall get a new phone and I'll inform you about the number.
I have learnt with the people from mail center in our town and they told me that I can call you just from the communication center.
You can tell me your phone number and I could call you if you want!
But I still can use email to correspond with you my dear! :)
But now I should return to the work...
I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Good luck and Have a good day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your friend Oxana

Letter 8

Hi Michael! I waited to receive your email today, it's the best time:)
I was working with lots of stress today. Today we had to receive medicines and all pharmaceutical materials, for making some drugs. But for some reasons the bus with medicines did not come to our lab again.
Many people are worried and nervous because of the lack of necessary medicines.
because there is no guarantee that the bus will come tomorrow.
Therefore today was the twice difficult working day because not each and every person can wait. Anyway, I took a break and I was informed that you had written. I forgot all my worries with work.
So, I'm glad to be here Michael! Oh Michael now the main moment of my day is expectations which eventually change to sincere joy because Michael has written me his letter! :) I hope your day as well is filled with pleasure and nothing will sadden your mood!?
Wonderful, when in the life new aspiration appears, new purpose, don't you agree?
Without it life would lose any sense. Dreams and the purposes force people to rise onto mountain tops or to dive to oceans bottom, to conquer the North Pole or to land the Moon, to build a family and to win the Olympic Games. And when your dream purpose comes true, you have tears of sincere joy on your eyes, and it is much more important than many things in our life. And you will always remember these tears of joy, because these tears will tell you that you really lived, dreamed, aspired and struggled. Michael What sort of life are you looking for now? I have noticed, that I often start to ask myself these questions. 28 years old is not a lot, but it is not a young age.
I often begin to think of what I have done in my life, what purposes I have reached, what mistakes I've made. I start to think of the future more often, I began to estimate my past. Probably this age - time to look back and to draw the certain conclusions, time to think and analyze a life, time to put new purposes and tasks. I begin to understand that I will hardly be able ever to touch amazing stars, I understand that many things in the life are not so simple as I thought; I understand that great deal in my life will be otherwise than I thought. It is the time of reassessment of values.
And probably it is high time to dream about simple human happiness.
Do you agree with me?
Oh Michael now, I should return to my work((
Write me soon,
Your Oxana

Letter 9

Hello my dear Michael. How are you doing these days ? :)
My mood is so fine when I receive your letter, and have imagined that we are together and talk face to face, It would be great:) Well, I had a nice working day, at last all necessary preparations have been delivered to our laboratory :)
There is one more good news, my friend Nataly let off home from hospital..
I was allowed to leave my work to meet her...
My boss knows my friends.. Our microdistrict is small, and it seems, that everyone knows each other..:) I could not visit Nataly every day... But I did it every time i had an opportunity.. We've got a lot of news for each other.. And when we arrived to her house, I could not stop talking to her about you:) How it would be good to meet you. She is also very curious.. I hope you are not against, that I speak to her about you so much?:) We could not speak for a long time... And about everything, I had to come back to work.. But I was glad, that I should see the letter from you Michael today:)
Right now fall rain like a tap-dancer beats off a rhythm outside.
The window glass, deformed by water trickles, reflects like old mirror a gloomy sight of the grey sky. And the wind scornfully whistles among old trees. And everyone here, glancing through window by indifferent empty eyes silently grumble about bad weather that spoils their mood and changes their plans. And I do not understand these people.
How can they be so querulous? It is just small rain - the gift of the nature, gift filling the air by delightful freshness, bringing an amazing, almost imperceptible smell of spring. So many people in the world who dream about rain; how many people who never saw a snow, who is deprived an opportunities to play the snowballs with friends. I always liked rain.
However sometimes, in cold days I dream about summer, the sea and the sun.
I went there the last spring, did I tell you about it? I think all seasons are magnificent. The winter covers all around with a delightful white carpet.
Trees and roofs wear fluffy snow-hats and frost draws by invisible tassel amazing inimitable images on the windows glasses. And when you, Michael hear snow crunch under your foot, and the sky slowly showers you with sparkling snowflakes or when the delightful gold autumn begins the most beautiful phenomenon in the nature - a fall of leafs? When the leaves, chased by a cool breeze, dance a waltz in the air and slowly fall down, undressing trees. And when you hear rustle of leaves under your foot, and when in the sky you see a flock of birds flying away with a sad song, don't you want to take a slow walk also with your woman?
Or when you hear behind your window an spring thunder, or groans of blizzard, would you not enjoy being at home with your beloved, to enfold each other in a warm plaid, and telling each other ridiculous and funny stories?
I think it is a big happiness when people are able to value such things.
And I think, if the couple is able to enjoy such things in a life, it only strengthens feelings. I am sure, now you think that I am rambling on.
Forgive me please Michael :) I do not know why I write you this.
Probably because I feel conveniently in talking to you about such things.
I will better stop here, because I am afraid that otherwise you will simply cease to write me. :)
With thoughts of you I will wait for your letter!
Oxana.

Letter 10

Hello Michael. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write you.
I had free days from work. We receive it after "the outside work day" we have just back from grandmother, brother Nikolay has left works, so we could visit the grandmother the whole family and some his friends.
We had very good time there, We couldn't stay at home all the time because there was a desire to spend time in the open air.
Then we visited the sauna ("Banya") with a birch broom. Do you know what it is? we had fine steam ! Do you like a sauna? I would like to have sauna with you :) Nikolays wife was there also,in the evening my brother Nikolay cooked barbecue and salad with vegetables!
We had remembered our grandfather. He passed away that date in 1980. In our country there is a tradition. To remember dead relatives in the day of their death... Then Nikolay took his mondoline (it is like a small guitar) and sang grandfather's favorite composition: "Tanks on the field" (a folk song). It is a very old composition. It was very popular during the second world war where our grandfather Fedor took part. He had many medals of honor, I wrote to you about him... The grandmother told us about the grandfather he shoot gun and sometimes shooted, but this days shoot gun belongs to Nikolay. He hunts now with it. Nikolay likes to shoot in the evening and I tryed also :) He once took me hunting, but nevertheless I could not shoot animals.. But I like fishing very much:)
Michael also we have so much to talk about with you! It is very interesting, They are interested in your relatives, and when I shall acquaint you with them:) Relatives say hello to you. How was your day?
What is the weather like there? I hope it is good.
It may sound strange but sometimes I feel that we know all about each other, oh if we meet one day, it would be great :) Yes, life is too short, and if destiny will give us a chance we must keep it strong in our hands. I think that We became so close to each other, I am really happy to communicate with you Michael. Sorry, I should come back to work..
I look forward to your letter!!!
Write to me soon Michael!
With kisses !
Your Oxana.
PS However, I can sometimes try to use, my girlfriend's Skyppe...
So if you have it, inform me yours SkyppeID. I shall try to contact with you, if I have opportunity..

Letter 11

Hi Michael, How are you doing my darling? :)
By the way, I often begin to imagine - what you do, where are you right now, or with whom you are right now...
There are a lot of kilometers, some hours between us, but I always think that maybe right now you also think: "What Oxana is doing, where she is?".
And maybe we think of the same things at the same time. I like thinking of it.
Yesterday I came back home from work earlier. I spent time reading, walking, cooking :) My brother came to my place after work. Oh my prince, apple pie I cooked yesterday was great! Nikolay took the half home to have breakfast with tomorrow. There was a very funny situation, Nikolay went to have his hair cut and when he came for supper the most part of his hair has not been cut and other part was cut very short! I laughed and Nikolay was not able to understand what had happened :) you know, it seems like that that hairdresser was not able to done his work well because of holidays, maybe drank too much or just was too tired :)) Well, you know, I can cut hair very well and did it with Nikolay's hair, he is handsome now and happy. May be someday I will cut your hair also:)) Nikolay said hi to you!
You know, Nobody here is surprised if the woman looks for "not here" man . I think the cultural distinction is a wonderful thing. I don't understand men here and their culture of dialogue with women. They are not able to appreciate women's feelings, her fidelity, love. They do not appreciate sincerity and aspiration of women to do for a man absolutely everything, wishing to get from him only love, respect and fidelity. ok, I do not want to speak about bad and sad things.
Time flies so fast. Special mood this days, full of thoughts about future, romanticism, love... The world is a really big place Michael, I am very curious about us Michael, two people from different countries, who speak different languages meet each other, have something common....
Very interesting situation. I think that it is very important not just to live, it is very important to feel, to feel every instance, when you understand that the day have not just passed, when it brought something new !
To my mind nothing in this world just happened only because of us, I think that destiny is real and give us the way, way we need, way which is important for us.
I know you are so far, but why? Why you were born there Michael?
Not here ? Because if you were born here and live may be on the closest street, may be we will never meet each other? But you were born so far, and we are already together, in our hearts, in our souls. If I look in my past I would like to say that I have never met man who is so cary and kind as you.
You really brought very good feeling to me, I am sure that this feeling is similar to love, it is not just called "love", sometimes people pronounce this world as other words and do not put anything special, just say "I love you" but does mean true feeling. You know when you have feelings, words are not necessary sometimes, what are words?
What are true feelings? Words are material things and are able to destroy anything, but are they necessary when you fall in love? When people come to me at work and ask to marry... What are they waiting from me?
That I tell them yes? They feel that I am always give them advice, help, I speak to them when I am really interested in them as a specialist.
Do they see the beauty of my soul?
Michael, we have never met in person, but you are the only man in the this world who feels beauty of my soul. What can I say...
I think My heart is open for you. I can get no sleep this days...
It is a pity, that i cannot continue my letter...
I shall wait for your answer..
a lot of kisses ...
Your Oxana.

Letter 12

Hi Michael! I am sincerely glad to get your letters, and I am very glad that I have had an opportunity to write you because I want to share so many thoughts with you today. Michael I always was sincere with you and I want to be sincere now because from the very beginning we built our friendship on the sincerity. It is difficult to write about it because those emotions I have now to transform into words are new for me, and for the first time in my life I try to explain things I feel. And I feel that I should be very exact and accurate in my words. I understand that at such moments it is necessary to think over each word because even though I simply want to tell you the truth, even though I just want to tell you sincerely everything what now is in my soul, I understand that the truth and sincerity can sometimes offend the person, bring disappointment.
And I want you to understand all my thoughts correctly because I do not want to offend you or to put you by my words into awkward position.
Michael now you are dear to me, and I do not want to lose those relations that we have, because these relations are important for me. And all main emotions that often visit my heart, - pleasure and even happiness, disappointment and sadness now depend only on one thing - presence of your letter.
For the first time in my life I tried to start Friendship with a man who is so far away from me, relations where thoughts and feelings take the main place as these are the only things that unite us together.
And it is the best opportunity to become first of all friends, best friends,- with open hearts, ready sincerely to share with each other all feelings and emotions. I try all this for the first time in my life and I do not know what waits for me and you in the future, but I would be happy to have relationship with you, friendly and more. And I would be happy if you have such desire as well. And even though I for the first time in my life try to start such relationship, I already thank God for what I feel right now. It is very valuable for me and I believe that all that was in my life,- all ups and downs, all tries and losses are the way where God has put me to learn to appreciate life and to be wise, to learn to make decisions and to make a correct choice when the time of a choice will come. I believe that I had to pass through this way,- to be ready to meet a man who will become my soul and heart, with whom I will build the small world of love and tenderness, giving to him all my care, fidelity and infinite respect; with whom I will be up to death because he will give me the most important things in a life - the sincere love and care, These are an only things most important for me.
And I am sure that these are things you appreciate as well. The beauty and external attractiveness are main things for many people, but my life has shown me that the main thing of a person - internal beauty, beauty of his soul and heart. Not a lot of people really possess internal beauty and not a lot of people really understand that it is thebmost important and unique quality. Here people forgot about many important things, and words "love" and "fidelity" here have lost sense, became simply words.
I am not sure if you understand everything I try to say, but I hope that my words do not offend you in any way. My words are not simply words, it is a part of my soul that I open to you because I feel that I can and I want to do it. And I hope you feel the same. And I really wish to develop our relations, to go further, to learn each other at a new level, where friendship is only the first step. I want to go the way that will not be limited only by friendship. I see new horizons, and I feel that I want to try to promote our relations further than it enough to be simple friends. Michael could you ever relax your eyelids, allow your eyes to close, and to imagine a life we could share?
And I hope that our relations are important for you just as for me.
I dare to hope, that you at least allow to think, that our relations can be promoted further than simply friendship.
I hope now you have really smile now!
I will wait for your answer Michael.
Your Oxana.

Letter 13

Michael today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried not show it, I think you have noticed it. Michael I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in two weeks the laboratory will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he told me it, I thought my heart would stop, because when it takes place, I will not be able to communicate with you again for months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of the cabinet, the accounting department informed me that approximately in two weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it.
And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart another feeling - feeling of confidence has appeared, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it is so wonderful.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked to Nataly and she asked me what I think to do. And when she asked me it, I understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during of month or two. And I told that I want to meet you Michael! I told her that I want to spend my vacation with you Michael! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Nataly said, that you Michael and I are such good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightful. So, what you will say Michael if I offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend several days with me?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, for travel and probable work in your country, find as many as possibly of other official legal people, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I quickly collect all the necessary documents. I will get the all papers in two weeks!
And being the medical I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of the Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I am in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, at desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I want :) ... Michael with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will make everything by myself. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, Michael?
Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the laboratory will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take a new step.
Maybe such an opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lives and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is the time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you Michael!
So what will you say? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.
With Love
Sincere Your Oxana.
PS: I saw a small camera, in home at my girlfriend)
she allowed me to use these devices. and I wanted to try record video message for you.
I hope you can understand my English :) I am so nervous..
because I have not had practice for long time...)
its here sendspace.com/file/iw931e

Letter 14

Hi My Michael! You and your letter the most exciting momentof my day!
Today I visited Nataly and we spoke much about the events.
I wish you saw how Nataly is happy that we will meet!
She is sure that our meeting will make us happy. It is simply impossible to talk to her now! :). She has now only one theme for the conversation - youMichael!
She is constantly asking about you, what I will do together with you, what I will do at the airport, what I will cook for you.
She asks how I am going to impress you, to intrigue! She even asks how I will tempt you! :)) . She says that I do everything correctly and I should not be afraid of anything at all. To conquer the road can only one who goes on this road. Nataly is very glad that I have found you, and she sends you her friendly greetings and wishes of happy expectation of me!:).
Probably I'm the very because I have found the man who is capable to make so that my heart had been overflown with feelings and my soul aspires to cross space and ocean and to rush into his life, to be united in a single whole with his soul.
Dear, I am not sure about the exact date of my arrival. Maybe I will arrive a little bit later, because it is an approximate time of and it can be changed. Will you wait for me anyway?
Please, don't be angry with me if I cannot write you much now. I hope you understand that I even after my working day, must do too much for trip and our meeting. Today I will go to Ministry of Health. I think this is one of the most important deals for me right now. I will give them all my documents and tomorrow I will probably get all the documents and forms of petitions which I must fill in as soon as possible.
Michael today I feel that I start to worry more than I even could imagine.
I am very glad that I do all this. And every minute I think of our meeting.
The meeting at the airport... I don't think that many people on our planet have an opportunity to enjoy such a delightful moment - the moment of the first meeting at the airport. It is so exciting. I feel that it will be a very touching moment for each of us. It calms me down.
I can imagine us together, I see us walking in the park; I see us speakingabout serious and silly things, or playing cards :)), I see wonderful dinners at home and outside! I see you sitting on a sofa with a juicy peach in your hand and I see me dancing in front of you a beautiful dance, or maybe even erotic dance:), What about Belly dance? :). I do it perfectly!:).
I see us swimming; I see us on a roof of a house, watching the full moon; I see us fighting with pillows; I see us in the evening at home, with romantic light of candles; I see us cooking together Our pelmeny and Your pizzas :) ; I feel myself in your hands. Everything waits for us in the nearest future; and I enjoy, anticipating this delightful time together!
Do you feel the same, Michael? Oh, would you like to make me a massage of my back? I would like to make you massage! But I must warn you, that if you want to do it, you should not touch my ribs! :)
The reason - I'm the most ticklish woman in Russia :) Michael I am afraid of titillation! If someone tickles my foot or ribs, I begin to laugh loudly, kick and scratch, squeal and jump! Therefore if you will make me massage and you will tickle me, you will feel like a cowboy on a wild undomesticated mare on the rodeo! :) . By the way, are you ticklish?
Do you snore? (Forgive me for this question. Do not answer, if you do not want. Maybe one day I will find out all this by myself:)).
Will you sing serenades for me? I would be happy if you sang serenades and songs for me! I would remunerate you by kisses! :) .
Michael I should finish the letter. I must do much so that you had an opportunity to make me massage and to get the massage from me! :) . Please, write me because now I need you and your letters very very much, because I worry so much...

Yours, Oxana.

Letter 15

Hi my Michael! You can't imagine how all your words are important forme.
I can feel the emotions you write me with, and your emotions fill my heart.
And I know hundreds of words, that could help me tell you how you are important, dear for me now. And I am waiting for the day when I am able to tell you all these words, being face to face - looking into your caring eyes. I am looking forward to that moment when I see your sparkling smile on your face and read all your thoughts and feelings inyour smile.
And now my heart enjoys fine feelings - feelings of awaiting and hope that one day our meeting will come true. And sometimes it is simply impossible to express all the shades of my joy by means of words . How difficult it is to express all the depth and passion of feelings in simple combinations ofwords and phrases ; how difficult it is to express all tenderness by means of lifeless letters, it's almost impossible to describe the warm wave of feelings which overflows me every day, every minute, every instant - when I am thinking of you Michael! Any words cannot replace a glance and a smile, any words are not able to replace tenderness of touch.
Michael I am not sure if I should tell you what had happened yesterday.
I don't want you to be unhappy but I was so terrified that I cannot keep it tomyself.
Don't worry too much!!!!I am safe and sound...
Well when I came home and come up to the door of my flat I noticed somethingstrange.
At first I did not understand what the matter was. The door was slightlyopened.
I thought Oleg had come and had not closed the door. But when I entered thehall I realised what had happened. Everything was in a mess, my clothes were on thefloor as if somebody was looking for something. When I came up to the cupboard whereI put my box with jewellery I realised what they were looking for...
The box was empty there were no the jewellery that my grandmother presented me.
She got those rings and earrings from her granny. They were very ancient. They were really precious for me more that it the price was very high...So thievesstole them.
One more precious thing was in my flat and I rushed to the room to check it.
While I was running to the room(just a few seconds) my heart was beating so fast. But there was nothing there. The icon was absent. It was stolen as well.
I sat on the floor, closed me eyes and tears were dropping down.I felt somiserable.
Unfortunately my flat was not insured. My flat insurance finished a week ago and I was planning to do it in some days because I just could not imagine this.
So it was my mistake. But nothing can be done now.
Of course i called the police. When they came they asked me differentquestions.
But the only thing I was thinking of was the icon. It was made of wood, silver, gold and pearls. it was of the 17th century. And the history of our family is connected with it. One of Russian tsars presented the icon to my ancestor for his service and faithfulness.It was a real treasure for our family and memory of our ancestor. I am broken now... I don't know what to do, I feel guiltybecause Oleg said to me to bring the icon to his flat but I could not give it away.

Well, Michael I want to finish my letter with good thoughts. And I will tell you something good! I want to tell you about my feelings to you, if you know, how speedy my heart beats when I am walking here with hope to get your letter, as a child looking forward to getting his birthday present. You gave me hope, you born feelings in my heart, I want you to know that I fell in love with you, and I miss you!
Be with me in my thoughts. I will think of you, so please, think of me as well. "You are an Angel" - TY ANGEL!

With all my tenderness.

Your Oxana.

Letter 16

Hi my prince Michael!!!! How important it is for me to get yourletters.
I don't feel well because of the latest events. Oleg had to spend the night inmy flat while my door is being restored. We spoke a lot about the misfortune. It is soterrible.
I must admit Michael I feel comfortable only if I receive your letters.
I wanna to embrace you right now so you can feel my Heart ;)
What about your place Michael? What is the weather like there now?
however I have good news as well.
Oh, Michael I want to tell you that I have collected almost all the characteristics and petitions from different people. Soon I willhave a meeting with the notary at the notary office to legalize all the documents.
Oleg was able to reach agreement with the municipal department. Now he must getall the documents about my family and me. It turned out that not all the people are unselfish, but the essential thing is that we will get thesedocuments.
The rest is not important at all.
My relatives are very happy, you know they like that we communicate with you. My brother and friends say hello to you! Today whilesleeping dreamt my parents. My parents were very good people and Mum always gave me "freedom of choice" mum told me in the past: "Oxana, itis your life, you can try everything you want, you can find love, just remember,my dearthat your father and I want you to be happy" I loved my parents.
It it so sad they are not with us now.
Well, we walk all the time now and enjoy this season. I think it is very important to spend some time in the open air. Well, my mood is very fine now, Iknow that soon we will walk outside together, it would be great Michael :)
Looking forward to being with you tonight in my dreams :)

With Love and Kisses
Your Oxana.

P.S. I took some pics for you these days, hope you like them )