Letter(s) from Anastasia Rusinova to Ryan (Australia)

Letter 1

Hi. how are you?
we met with you on the site: twoo. you left me you email there.
I meet for the first time on the Internet so unusual for me.
Excuse me, I can make some mistakes in our acquaintance.
My name is Julia. I am 37 years old. I was born on July 16 in the small town of Pavlovsk.
My height is 170 centimeters, 59 kilograms my weight
I now live in the city of Nizhny Novgorod, you may have heard about it, it is 400 kilometers from Moscow.
I was in Nizhny Novgorod at the Medical University, and then continued to live and work here.
Now I work as a dentist in a small clinic.
If we continue to chat, I have a lot to tell you about myself.
I would also like to know you better.
for me would be interesting to know what movies you watch, what music do you listen to?
Have you ever been acquainted on the Internet?
for me this is the first step in the online personals.
Unfortunately while I can only write letters from my work.
but sometimes I can go to an Internet cafe to write you.
I will send you my picture. I also want to have your picture, if possible.
I'll be waiting for your letter.
Your Julia

Letter 2

Hello Ryan! How is your day?
I hope you were really glad to get my e-mail, because i was very happy to get yours.
Thank you very much. Do you want to know how i write you e-mails? During the whole working day i write small parts when nobody works at the computer. I work at a children apartement.
If you want to know more about my job i will tell you. Just ask me.
O! I promise to tell you what music i prefer. Now i have some free time and will tell you with pleasure about my interests.
I like different music. Everything depends on my mood.
I like classic: Dunaevski and Chajkovsky. I like also instrumental music.
It helps to relax and to have a rest, i like to thik while listening it. I also prefer to listen guitar, masterpieces of Djoh Satriani.
I like Pink Floid, they are wonderful.
It's a great band. I like Madonna, Robby Williams, George Michael and so on.
There are so many musicians in the USA! But i like russian pop-stars too: Filipp Kirkorov, Valeriya and music-bands: Chaif, Splin. But unfortunately you don't know them.
I prefer to watch movies too.
There are not so many good russian films, i like films of Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Michalkov- film directors.
My favorite movies are The Siberian barber and Tired with the sun.
Theese are the greatest masterpieces of russian cinematography. Amtrican filma are very popular in my country, i like them to and some americans stars also. Gladiator- courage man, Mel Gibson- goog actor.
My favorite films are The Sixth Sense, Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Gone with the wind, The Magnificent Seven, The Godfather, Groundhog Day and others.I like Bruce Willis, Al Pacino,Kevin Costner,Samuel L.Jackson, Djulia Roberts,Oii Hanks, DemiMoore, Kevin Spacey.

What can i add about me? Ryan, I was married one good man, but we don't have children.
I met him when i worked as a dentist in other place. He was one of my patients.
When i married him i stopped working, because my husband wanted woman to take care of the house and he earned money himself.
I was 29 when married him. He worked at the oil-company and often had lots of business trips.
During one of them he had a car accident and died.
About 2 years i didn't want to see anybody near me but later i understood that i don't want to be alone and i need a man who will take care about me. But i don't want to remember it up any more.

I have some friends, but my best friend is Elena. We are friends since we were 17.
She is a real friend and we always help each other. She has a kind heart.
We are ready to give everything for our friendship. I am happy to have such friend because we can found the real friend very rare.
We became friends at colledge then we entered the same university.
I live alone in a flat, where i lived with my husband. There is living room, bathroom and dining room.
It's small but i feel comfortable here.
It's close to my work and it usually takes me only 20 minutes to reach the clinic.
Often when it's not late and the weather is ok i walked to my work. Sometimes i go by bus but i don't like it.
Buses are usually overfilled and it's not comfortable.

Can i ask you, Ryan, some more questions? Do you have a big family?
Is the nationality of the person who plays a big role in your life important for you?
If you dont wish you can not answer. But nationality isn't important for me.
I don't pay attention to theeyes, colour of the skin. And it doesn't matter where the person was born. I want to find a man with a kind heart.
I like kindness and hate anger. The most important things for me are kindness and honesty.
Without theese feelings love and harmony can not exist. Anger destroyes love.
I am ready to give all my love to the man who will also adore me.
Iam sure that the main things in every relationship are to respect and understand each other. Othr things are not so important.Only kindness, honesty and respect.
I am happy to wright you and to get your answer. And now it makes me smile.
Looking forward for your promt reply. Sencirely yours Julia!
p.s. Please, Ryan, send me your picture. It will be a pleasure for me to see you.

Julia

Letter 3

hello my darling.
how are you today?
I have not received your letter. Tell to me that happens? Why you have not written to me?
Write to me please if you wish to continue to communicate with me.
Your Julia

Letter 4

Good afternoon, Ryan!
Today i had so much work that i was afraid that i couldn't read and answer your letter.
And i must add that it scared me. but no i found free time and i am very happy.
Thank's for your letter.
And now i want to tell something about me. I really like cooking.
I can do in very well because my mother learnt me cooking when i was a little girl.
She told me that the lady, who is good at cooking has no disadvantages, because tasty food is the way to the man. to heart. may be she was right. I like russian dishes, and my favorite is pancakes.
do you know what is it.
A pancake is a round thin bread and we can fill it with meat, jam or some other food.
And what do you prefer to eat Ryan
I dont like to talk about my father, it hurts me, but i must do it. I have never seen him.
My mum told me that he left us when i was a child. That's why i don't remember him.
And i never asked my mum, because i am not interested in my dad anymore.
He did wrong when he left my mother and me. I have a question for you how many devorses are in your country
In Russia it happens very often.
A lot of man are not interested in family life.
After my dad left us. He marry anymore, that's why i dont have brothers or sisters.
I love children very much.
Children are our future, they make us happy.
If i have children, i will love them more than my life.
I don't know how many children i want to have, this should be be accepted with the future father of my children.
My husband wanted 2 children but because of his business we didn't have them.

Dear Ryan, I would like to talk to you by phone to hear your voice but unfortunately
At me have stolen my cell phone. Plese give me your full number with the country code and i'll call you as soon as i find the opportunity to do it.

it's a pity but i have to finish my letter here.
Looking forward for your reply, yours Julia.

Letter 5

hello. how are you?
What happens? I have not received your letter!
I very much waited for it. Write to me please.
Your Julia

Letter 6

hello my dear
how are you today?
I have come for work to read your letter! But you yet have not written to me.
I very much wait for your letter.
Write to me please if you still wish to continue to communicate with me.
have a good day
your Julia

Letter 7

hello my dear.
how are you today?
Why you have not written to me today?
I very much wait for your letter, I wished to read it today.
If you do not wish to write more to me, I ask you tell to me about it!
I will wait for your answer!
Your Julia

Letter 8

Hello Ryan! Today I started to write you the letter in the morning as soon as I have come for work.
I have written some offers and to me patients have come. I have just cured a teeth of the little boy.
That he was not afraid, I have asked his about his dreams.
He has answered that Dreams to become adults because adults do not have problems with a teeth. :-)
It was so amusing.
I often recollect the childhood. I always dreamt To become adults as soon as possible.
As each child I believed, that adults in general do not have problems.
I liked to dream in the childhood and I love we dream now.
Certainly, the world of dreams the illusory world, but we live actually, therefore to dream it is necessary very seldom :-)
It become always a pity that our dreams not a reality.
The person applies many efforts and aspires to that his the dream has come true, but not all in this life depends on us.
When the dream during long time does not come true, the dream stops to be that star, which was for you a beacon at ocean of a life which shined Your way.
But anyhow, I think, that it is impossible to live without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense.
Dreams - those things which do us by people, it Distinguishes us from fauna.
Dreams bring a variety in a usual and grey life.
Dreams force to think, to analyze, come to conclusion. Belief and Hope - eternal companions of our life.
Ryan, you agree with me? I am surprised, that I write you all it.
I never had the person with whom I could divide the thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad.
Forgive to me for my frankness. If I have told something superfluous, forgive me please.

Tell, it is pleasant to you when your friends come to your house?
It is pleasant to me very much when my friends come to me.
I like to prepare and for this reason I treat with their various tasty dishes.
Elena too well prepares, and shi often helps me.
We often prepare Various dishes also it is treated each other.
I usually like the Russian dishes - pel'menis, soups, pancakes. But I also love kitchen of the near east.

Ryan, I have told to you, that I have visited Elena in hospital.
I was there approximately two hours and Elena were very happy, that I have spent its birthday together with his.
I have brought Elene a chocolate pie, flowers and balloons.
Balloons were different colours, Elene it is pleasant, when many different colours.
Wash favourite colour - dark blue.
And what colour is pleasant to you? Elena and I spoke about you. I Has told, that you are very good person.
Elena asked to send you regards and has wished good luck In my relations with you.

I will look forward your letter. Julia

Letter 9

Hello. How are you?
My darling, what happens? Why you do not write to me?
I very much wait for your letter.

Letter 10

Greetings my friend, Ryan!!!! I am very glad, that you have written. Big Thanks.
You have again lifted my mood and have placed a happy smile on My person, having written to me the letter.
By the way Ryan, today I went for work from the absolute Confidence, that you will write to me today.
Earlier I always went with Thought, that you possibly nevertheless have not written, but today for the first time I went with thought, that your letter waits for me.
Elena too the doctor as I and we work in one polyclinic. She the assistant to the dentist.
But Elena I assistant,she helps to other dentist.
Today I will go to his in hospital once again. I hope that soon Elena will be healthy, and we will be happy to meet in ours to polyclinic.

I like to prepare and I love cleanliness, but sometimes I would like to receive simple tenderness, love and attention.
I do not wish to offend all Men. Certainly in Russia there are good men, but it seems to me that them very little.Men often say dirty words (not standard lexicon), when speak with girls and believe, that in it there is nothing badly.My husband concerned good people, but now it did not become.
After death of my husband, approximately in a year I wished again to try to renew relations with the man.
I had a friend. Together we well spent time. He was kind. But he liked to drink.
When he got drunk, he became absolutely other person. He spoke with me with bad and dirty words.
Time has passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became other person - rough and malicious.
Sometimes He beat me because of various trifles which did not like it.
And next day he talked to me as though anything bad between us was not.
I have started to be afraid his and I have left from his.
After that I did not get acquainted with other men. Now I do not trust the Russian men.
I am afraid to give my love, but to receive instead roughness.
If you have disagreements from the lady, you can apply roughness?

But I do not wish to finish the letter a bad theme for conversation.
So, Ryan I will tell to you about Elena. Soon she recovers. Elena Feels well and sends regards to you.
I hope, that will be fast she at home Also will start to work. I feel lonely without his.
While it is not present, it is nobody me will share the feelings. But I am glad that I can will share the feelings with you!

I will look forward to hearing from you!! With a kiss, yours Julia.

Letter 11

Hello, Ryan! How are you?
I hope that before you've got my letter your mood was wonderful and after my email it will become better.
May be i am too self-confident. But i'am very happy because i have got your new letter.
Yesterday i visited Elena and said hello to her from you. I am sure you are not against it.
She also asked me to say "hello" to you.

Tomorrow i'll have a very hard day. I haven't told you about it yet.
It takes place once in two weeks. Two years ago Elena and i wrote a letter to the Ministry of Publik Health and suggested to create a mobilecar for dentists. that time we were volunteers and helped weak and ill people.
As usual theese are old lonely people who can't take care of themselves.
They can't even visit the hospital. We suggested to visit such people sometimes in this car and we bring all necessary tools with.
This suggestion was adopted and now we visit more then 50 districts of our region.
Unfortunatelly tomorrow i will work without Elena. In general we have 5 such cars.
We visit small vilages and settlements where live people who can't visit the dentist in our city.
There are lot's of such people in our region. Now we help not only adults but also children in children's home.
We have lot's of them. but there are no good dentists there. That's why Elena one more doctor and i go there by our mobile dentist car.
We made friends with many kids and they like us so much, because we also visit them in our free time and help them in different ways.
The goverment doesn't support such houses financially. Buildings are very old.
But theese children have noone to help them. Thats why some people help to equip children houses. We help to rebuild rooms.
Of course there are some small houses convenient for children but in general the all need to be repaired capitally.
Children have few toys. When i see it i'am ready to birst into teers.
My friend and i help to do the repairs. We glue the wall papers and paint the windows. Bring new toys. You could't even imagine how happy they are when we come. And they are waiting for us but noy only for the new toys. They need kindness ans caress.
Sorry, Ryan, that i wrote too much about the problems of kids and old people.
I just don't know if i write you tomorrow. Hope i'll find free time to do it.
Ryan, I must go now.
With best wishes
Sencerely yours Julia.

Letter 12

Hello my distant but dear friend Ryan.
Than'k you so much for your email, it was really long-expected. And i'am very happy to get it.
I'am full of emotions that idid't have before i found you.
My heart and my mind say me that i have to tell you about all my feelings now because it's a part of our relationship and i must share it with you.
I want to add that i've spent the whole day to wright it because i want to explain clear what i think.
I don't want to offend you but i was worried that you will understand me not wright. I 'am always speaking from my heart, but sometimes one should choose the words.
I feel devastated when i cant use the computer to read your letter. I feel wonderful only when i think about you.
I felt it only when my husband was alive. And now i have such feelings again.
I have never tried it up in my life (i mean to make friends with a foreighner).
I dont know if you have a desire to start making relationship with person from other country but i hope that you want it too.
I think that people in couple must be best friends, who trust each other and share with feelings.
I am trying to wright so that you'll understand me.

I trust in God and i think i must face difficulties before i will meet my beloved man with whom i will stay all my life, valuing, loving him and taking his love, which he could give me.
Hope that my words arenor boring for you, but it's more than words-theese are my thoughts and feelings and i'am sending them to you.
I'am anxious that you will find the same feelings in your heart and that you are ready to build relationship with me. I want to know you closer.
I also want you to share your dreams, hopes and feelings with me.
I really want us become closer than simple friends.
Please don't call me stupid because i think so.

Ryan, when i talk or think about you it doesn't matter what the others think.
You are very handsome for me. I mean that you are not only an attractive person but i'am also talking about the beauty of your soul, but unfortunatelly one can meat this type of beautyvery rare.
Most men have handsome appearance and bad soul. It's very important for me.
Your words show your soul. I am sure you are really beautiful and i can't express all my feelings.
I feel that we are becoming closer and i am enjoying our friendship.
I'm trying to learn everything about you and i hope you also think that our relationship can be more than simple friendship.

Today i have good news. Elena was let go home. She visited me at work.
Soon she'll start working. I was happy to know i will see her more often.
I told her about mobile car, and she was upset because she couldn't help me.
But it was ok. Our car was broken when we were in the village but it will be repaired soon and we continue
to help people.

Ryan, looking forward for your letter, with tender Julia.

Letter 13

Hello my Ryan. how are you?
Every your mood i'll try to make better today.
And today i did't go to work i "fly" there.
I came first to the office and i was very happy the whole day.
Everybody who asked me could hear the answer that i'am so happy because everything is wonderful.
I understood but i was afraid to believe it that i have a feeling for you that i never had.
I don't know what's going on with me. I want to understand my heart.
i want to feel your breath. One can call me strange but i fell in love with your soul and heart.
Other things are not important fot me. The material world is not important.
Only the world of calmness and love.

The sun is shining today. Sun brings joy. I'am happy that i have you Ryan, and you have me.
tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know everything about you.
Everything!!! But yesterday my boss tell me that i will have a vacation in two weeks.
But i didn't expect it. I didnt want to spend it at home alone. I 've been waiting it for one year and now i'am not happy.
I donn't want to spend the whole month without you.
All world became dark for me. And i told myself NO It's not for me!
Yesterday evening i thought about us and i couldn't fall asleep.
And i thought what can i do for our meeting. I decided to spend my vacation together with you.
This is the only my desire now.

Today i addressed to the travel agency. I asked how much it will cost me to make the visa.
They tod me it's about 130$ and they won't giveit back even if i don't get my visa.
People from the agency also told me that i have to go to Moscow and then to visit a lot of departments (state and medical) in my own city and in Moscow.
It will takes lot's of time weeks or months because lot's of people want to get the visa and i will have to wait.
And in case i wont get the visa- i will waste my money.
But it is a standart way of getting documents. And i told that i can't wait for so long.
They told me that there is another way to if i will take the full contract that includes extra payments for the cathegory of visa, work with counsel, help with the interview in the ambassy, interview with comission insuaranse and tickets.
According to the contract the agency will prepare all my documents and buy the tickets.
It costs 395$ and the summ of the ticket, but the agency dont have any problems with agency and gives me a garanty that i'll get the visa in short time.
It will take only one week and i told that this variant passed me.

I will be prepared for the interview in the ambassy. It will help me to get the visa.
The prise of the tickets i will learn later.
I don't have money for ticket's but my exhusband had some in the bank and i will take it from his account.
So, money won't be a problem for me:). I made an application for visa and i hope that you will be happy to meet me.
I really want to present you our meating thought i'am not sure that you want it.
Can you imagine that if everything is fine we'll be together in two weeks?
Is it a real present for you? Will you be happy to spend some days with me?
Of course i understand that we know each other not very well yet.
Many years i ask myself why everything depend on money? Money is not the most important thing.
The main thing is harmony between people when they understand each other.
I am anxious to meet you! I have some money and i'll pay for everything myself.
May be you didn't expect that i'll tell this. One can wait for eternity but we don't know what gonna happen tomorrow.
May be we won't have a chance to meet any more.
I opened you my heart and my soul and i am not ashaimed of me feelings.
Loneless made me strong. I found a feeling that i never had. I am happy.

After my husband died i spend a vacation with my mum in my city.
But now i can do it with you, Ryan. I am happy. And i must take this chane.
I was never so confident but i am really sure. Hope that you wont call me insolent.
But i just want to spend some happy days with you.
I don't care about the future and i am not afraid of this.
We cannot talk about future without our meeting.
Hope you feel the same and you will calm me down. my heart.
Will you be happy to meet me? Really happy?

Hope my letter will make you happy.
With lot's of tender Julia.

Letter 14

I with the big excitement waited your letter.
Thanks that you have told all that you think. Thanks for your letter.
You have written to me, and it means that one more day will be lived by me with good mood.
I wish to describe to you to write how there passes my day, since morning and till the night.
I wake up approximately at 6:30. I rise with good mood because in a dream I saw you :-).
At 6:35 I go to a bathroom, And I THINK Of YOU Ryan!
I wash, and I clean a teeth.
At 6:45 I dress the sports form, I go on street And I THINK Of YOU!
I run in the mornings always if temperature not more low-10s, to support itself in the good form.
When in the street it is cold, I sleep till 7:00.
At 7:20 I make a breakfast, as a rule it is strong tea or coffee and a sandwich.
I drink tea, and I THINK Of YOU Ryan!
At 7:30 I go for work. Usually, if good weather, I go on foot And I THINK Of YOU!
I like to go on foot since morning. For work I come vigorous and cheerful.
At 7:55 I go to an office where my girlfriend works.
As a rule it already on work at this time. If there is a possibility, I receive your letter.
If possibility is not present, I receive it later.
At 8:00 I start to work, And I THINK Of YOU Ryan!
At 12:30 a lunch break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK Of YOU!
I go home ia a trolley bus.
At 13:00 I have dinner, and at 13:20 I again go for work And I THINK Of YOU!
At 13:50 I again work, And I THINK Of YOU!
(Though in my work it is impossible to be distracted and to think about something, except work) :-)
At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break, and we drink tea.
But today I did not drink tea because I THOUGHT Of YOU!
Within the working day when there is a possibility, I answer your letter.
At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot. I feel perfectly because I THINK Of YOU!
At 17:40 I take a shower also I represent that YOU WITH me! :-)
At 18:00 I have supper, one, but I smile, because I represent, that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO me!
At 19:00 I go On walk with my girlfriend (but it seldom happens). We walk in park and I THINK Of YOU!
If I do not go on walk, I listen to music, I read books, I watch TV, I knit, I do various homework, And I THINK Of YOU!
(Certainly not all simultaneously) :-)
At 23:00 I go to bed.
Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK Of YOU Ryan!

Today we have gone with Elena to bank to learn all necessary that I could receive money of the husband, me have informed, that I should fill some papers.
Then in bank will consider my statements and if there will be no problems, I can take money which my husband stored in bank.
Now I should wait some days and then go to bank.
There is one more important detail. I hope, that my statement for the visa will approve, therefore it is necessary for me to know The international airport closest to you in which you can meet me. I hope that you write me it!!!!
My sweet, my mom also asked you to send your full address., And a copy of your passport.
She's going through and wants to know where I'll be.
Only do not think, that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant.
Every day presents a miscellaneous. But that specific to each my day: THESE ARE my THOUGHTS On YOU!!!
Ryan, I Your and only your Julia.

Letter 15

Good day, my Ryan!
Thanks for your letter. I am so happy! Thoughts on you warm mine Heart.
I very much waited for this possibility to write to you to tell that happens today. Today very important day.
I very much worry.
Today I have received the invitation to conversation with the commission which solves whether it is possible for the client to give out the visa.
It is the most important in process visa receptions. The commission will make the final decision after Conversations - to give me the visa or not.
The conversation very difficult, but I was prepared.
It is the difficult test. But I am ready. I very much wish to meet you, and my desire will be To help me.
Where there is a desire there is a way.
Children from shelters to which I already help within several years, together with instructors have written commission letters to my support.
It will help me, When the commission will make the decision. I am assured, that all will be as it should be.

Ryan why you have not written me the name and the airport address? It so is difficult for you?
Please, write it in the following the letter, NECESSARILY!

I will finish the letter. I send you all tenderness Ryan. In mine THOUGHTS And SHOWER - ONLY YOU!
I kiss you 100000 times.
Yours Julia.