Letter(s) from Oksana to John (USA)

Letter 1

how was it?
It's Natalia ;)
I'm very friendly person and for now looking reliable Man, Hope You wish to talk. response me ;)
I can send You my picture attach. have a nice time.

Letter 2

Hello there! How are you? I am glad to get your responce this evening!
I'm so sorry for the delay of my letter, I have been soooo busy, and I didn't even see this e-mail until just now. I received the message from some dating sites, and one with your email adres. And has decided to write to you the letter. You know, i don't like dating sites:) or probably I do something wrong. And I send you my pictures as I promised, And I hope you will like it! I should admit that I feel uncertainty :) But I nevertheless hope that your heart is open for new friends, and I know that right now I must write at least the most important things about myself. Well, You know, my name is Julia. My height is 168cm (I think it is 5,7 feet).
Did you think I am low? Or not))) My weight, if I'm not mistaken - 118 pounds. Im 27. My birthday is September, 28
I was in relationship for 3 years. I have no kids and at present live alone by myself,that means no boyfriend, what is about you? Now I live in the Russian Federation. But I lived in Canada for a long time.
I Trained and worked in a pharm area. I am a Pharmacist(provisor).
If it will be interesting to you, I shall speak more about it. I aware that Russia maybe too far away from you, but I think it will not be a barrier.
And probably soon I shall travel again. Now I live in a little town in a northern part of Russia, Kurgan city mmm... yes I like to travel.I visited different countries.
I shall speak about it later. I think it's great to have some friends who live in the other parts of the world. Do you agree with me?
And I sincerely think that for friendship there are no borders or distances. But enough about it. I feel that I should finish my letter because I even don't know if you are still interested in a dialogue with me or not. I hope you have. But if you have no desire to talk to me anymore, please, at least, write me about it.
I want to ask you some questions. :). Simply I would be glad to know Where you live? where do you work, and do you like your work?
And, in general, what are your interests? It's a banal questions certainly :)
but i would like to know more about you. And by the way, I will be glad to have more your pictures! Therefore do not hesitate :) I will write you the day after tomorrow if everything is alright! Hope to see your letter soon !
best regards!

Letter 3

Hi John! I am very glad to get your letter this evening.
How are you doing my friend ? I just arrived from a Nataly. Now she is better and after about a week she will be home! My mood became better and I let myself relax mentally! May be today after work I will go home on foot.
I like to walk along the street and to breathe in fresh air, especially when the weather is fresh and sunny as it is today. When I am outside and people are around me I don't feel so lonely. When I am in my apartment where there is nobody with me I feel terrible. I even don't get pleasure and satisfaction from my favourite pastime. Of course I have fitness and listen to music but somewhere deep in my heart I feel unbearable pain and loneliness.
Not to feel this I dream. I dream about my future, about my beloved and about the house full of joy and happiness. My dreams help me live, and in my dreams I am an absolutely happy lady with a big family. And I am absolutely sure that one day my dreams will come true! But now I have to live in the world of dreams.And of course my hope and faith are the most important parts of my life. I suppose you have dreams and hopes as well, don't you. Tell me please about your dreams John? To tell the truth I am surprised that I write you all this. I haven't had the person, who I could share my thoughts and ideas with. I am very glad because I can explain you my ideas.
John I want to hear your voice, but the problem is that my work cell phone only for Russia, and all calls to foreign countries are locked, my bills for mobile services paid by my company where I work.
But I think that soon I shall get a new phone and I'll inform you about the number.
I have learnt with the people from mail center in our town and they told me that I can call you just from the communication center.
Or I can use right now is WhatsApp +79030597912(my girlfriend)
and my viber on +79250374667 its better and my skyppeID Ekaterinacka I will soon buy a new sim and I can tell you my number.
You can tell me your phone number and I could call you if you want!
But I still can use email to correspond with you my dear! :)
But now I should return to the work...
I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Good luck and Have a good day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your friend Julia

Letter 4

John today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried not show it, I think you have noticed it. John I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in two weeks the laboratory will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he told me it, I thought my heart would stop, because when it takes place, I will not be able to communicate with you again for months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of the cabinet, the accounting department informed me that approximately in two weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it.
And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart another feeling - feeling of confidence has appeared, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it is so wonderful.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked to Nataly and she asked me what I think to do. And when she asked me it, I understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during of month or two. And I told that I want to meet you John! I told her that I want to spend my vacation with you John! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Nataly said, that you John and I are such good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightful. So, what you will say John if I offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend several days with me?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, for travel and probable work in your country, find as many as possibly of other official legal people, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I quickly collect all the necessary documents. I will get the all papers in two weeks!
And being the medical I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of the Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I am in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, at desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I want :) ... John with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will make everything by myself. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, John?
Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the laboratory will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take a new step.
Maybe such an opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lives and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is the time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you John!
So what will you say? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.

With Love
Sincere Your Julia.

PS: I saw a small camera, in home at my girlfriend)
she allowed me to use these devices. and I wanted to try record video message for you.
I hope you can understand my English :) I am so nervous..
because I have not had practice for long time...)
its here sendspace.com/file/iw931e

Letter 5

Hi, my John! My dear excuse me for the answer's delay!
I even do not know what to tell you first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important and finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am extremely happy John!!!!
My prince I didn't give it up and later my friend from Moscow and I went to the office of this airlines, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Portland, OREGON and how much it costs. They told me that the round trip flight to your airport costs 2187 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they offered. It would be on June 8 the price of one way tickets will make 730 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve one way ticket and to pay a part of the funds for it now and the other part later, because other people can buy expensive tickets and I can't. But they refused and I was in despair! I asked them to help me so long that tears came to my eyes! And they agreed! I learned that now return tickets are necessary to prove that I can return to Russia independently.
But there is an opportunity to exchange the return ticket on money in your country, or to change the date. I was said if I take return tickets the discount of 5% is given, it turns out that 730+730=1460 dollars and will subtract 5% is 73 dollars that will make 1387 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum 10% from the cost for ticket registration and meal, it will make 1525 dollars, 6:45 am Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Portland International Airport (PDX) 8:40 pm June 8 I will give you my flight number information, as soon as i have it.
The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of the economic class, the cheapest variant which exists.
It was the best variant for me. They said that I can pay the part of money now, and the other part I will pay later. It is possible, but I will be limited in time. And if I do not pay the full cost of the ticket within the limits till the deadline, I will lose paid money. I agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give the data about my payment to anti-emigration committee. By that moment I had only the definite sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 870 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings in a pawnshop and I got 162 USD. That is all I could do.
I know that probably I simply must say that I can't come to you because I haven't the necessary sum. I know that I promised to do everything myself, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I could, I cannot simply tell you that I will not come to you. I have overcome so many difficulties.
But all the same I have a disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could be in such a situation.
To get the visa and all the papers I spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I paid them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all the documents, I paid in the municipal committee, in the ministry. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment in three weeks. Besides,I did not want to tell you this before but I have to now. When I was robbed when they took jewellery and the icon they stole my money....Fortunately it was only the part of my money the rest was in a bank.
I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent us from our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 493 usd. And I must pay funds before June 7 morning. Otherwise I will lose the paid funds and my jewellery will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet you because I could not provide my travel completely.
But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that it is a big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 1032 $ that I have given for the ticket.
All this is huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for our sake, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before June 7, morning.
I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other ways out. I need you John. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have transfer systems.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "Western Union" and "MoneyGram". They have told that they are the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safe. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Moscow for my name -YULIYA ANANINA. For an example, near there is an office of Western Union: Moscow AK BARS Bank; The Barklaya st, 10 a; Moscow, 121096 Russia.
or an office of "MoneyGram"-Sberbank;Krasnopresnenskaya Naberezhnaya 2-1.Moscow 103274 Russia.
I send you the view of my ID document. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, I must inform the employee of bank(agent) about your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also they have told that funds are possible to send online through a site WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 2-3 weeks. I think about you John all the time! I think about the meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play the main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you John. I am very afraid that you will not help me. But I want to say that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. I need the 493 USD to come to you and be happy together.
Are you with me?

Write me soon!
With love, Your YULIYA.

Letter 6

Good afternoon my dear and beloved John, As for me it is the happiest day to see your letter. I'm in Moscow! You can't imagine how happy I am because I have already started my trip to you! Moscow is a really big city! I arrived in Moscow by train... the way was so long...
When I got off the train in Moscow, the policeman asked me about my passport and he looked at me as if I were an enemy ))) I think all people here are a little bit crazy. Everything is very expensive here, not like in my city... and there are big crowds of people everywhere!
I feel ill at ease because of it but I hope I will be OK soon.
I couldn't find a cheap hotel, everything is extremely expensive in Moscow.
I managed to find a room which costs $70... but I found it expensive as well.
I managed to find my friend, Natalia here... We studied at the university together.
She allowed me to stop in her house. She lives with her mum.
Some time before we lived in one and the same city, but later they moved to Moscow.
We had many conversations, spoke about you much. Natalia was very glad to me! She spent the whole day with me..
And in the evening she accompanied me to the Internet cafe, then she went to work.
John I think that the most difficult part of preparations has finished!
I had the interview at the Embassy! I knew that it would be a difficult interview, but I could not imagine at all that I must answer so many questions.At the beginning of the interview I was so frightened, so worried. But as soon as they asked the first question, I became absolutely calm. I just sat, and answered all the questions.
I said what I think honestly. They asked me almost about everything!
They asked me about my life, about my childhood, about terrorism, about my job, about my latest relations. They read all the documents I had collected before. They asked me about my faith.
I often watched their faces and realised that they didn'texpected such answers, but I didn't want to tell beautiful lies which are pleasant to listen to. I just answered sincerely and told them everything what's in my heart.
At first I thought that my answers had not satisfied them but they told that it was very pleasant and unusual to hear my answers.
They said that "bitter" sincerity was always better than "sweet" lies. Besides, I had already had experience of getting visa and they were really impressed by the fact that I had such a great support from so many people and establishments. And maybe in some hours all the papers will be in my hands !!!!! I can't believe it.I'm nervous and I have butterflies in my stomach.
But at the same time I'm happy because I feel that I did everything correctly.
John I should also ask you a very important question once again.
When I arrive to you, will there be a place in your house where I can stay?
Or should I stay at the hotel? But I don't wanna stay in the hotel.
I don't like hotel, I even hate them. But I have found some variants. Just in case.
And dear, don't forget to send me all the information.
1. Your full name
2. Your full home address.
3. Also once again the nearest airport where you will precisely meet me.
John today I saw my parents in my sleep-dream, and they smiled to me.
I know that it is their approval. I see my parents in sleep-dream very seldom!
I always knew that dream will never simply fall into hands from the sky. I always knew that if you want the dream to come true, you must do for this purpose all what in your forces. I know that it is necessary to believe, hope and struggle. And I really struggled John, I tried to do all what in my forces. And I hope god will help us. after all difficulties, after all efforts I believe that Everything will be fine! I really feel that I did everything well.
John I worry very much, but my heart says to me that I should smile.
And I smile today. I feel that I will meet you. I feel that the meeting at the airport will be beautiful and romantic. I will tell you everything what I will feel at that moment, and you will tell me. And then we will leave the airport and we will chatter and laugh. I will tell you how I endured the flight on board the plane and what I was thinking about.
You will tell me how you waited for me at the airport. And then we will have great time together. We will walk, spend evenings, watch funny and scary movies, - and I will hide under your hand at the most scary moment... We will meet together the first beams of the sun and will see off a magnificent sunset. We will sit by the window and drink hot tea while it's cold outside. I do want to have breakfast together and supper with candles. I do want to shout together with you at the stadium during football or hockey matches; or just lay on bed, and tell each other stories from our lives.
If everything is fine, I will start the most difficult process - packing my suitcase! :) .
John probably in a week we shall be together:)
SOON WE WILL BE TOGETHER!!!!! But now I have to go! My legs shiver as if I were a schoolgirl! :) . Wish me luck and think of me!

Letter 7

My dear John , how are you doing? I am so happy to hear from you, I miss you so badly all these days, I am so pleased with an opportunity to meet you soon, and I want it very much. I'll do it because I've found you !!! John I've done everything I can, you know? If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please help do it as soon as possible! I will be sure in meeting with you if I will have the ticket to you John! And I don't want that they'll sell the cheap ticket to other people. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of a wife and a husband or a union of a boy-friend and a girl-friend or a union of business partners! I don't want to be hypocritical! That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman who you don't trust, so as I am. It's a first check for us.
And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other!
That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you.
I confused that money plays a great role in a meeting of two people who love each other. So I need your help, because I have some money and I've counted all. It's the best way to buy the ticket because it's cheaper if we will buy the ticket separately. I want to be with you John all my heart and I do all for it, you see! So I need your help and we'll be together!!!! You must always remember that I trust you.
Maybe it's our future and I see that our future will be very wonderful. We'll be together very soon, I must buy the ticket and I will be yours and you will be mine!!!!!! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, PLEASE DON'T FORGET IT!!!!!!!!! Of course if you don't want, you can not help me.
It is bad but not fatal. I will lose you. IT WILL BE TOO BAD...
I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me.
I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger.
It is much easier to go through difficulties and barriers together.
I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a step towards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step.Tell me John, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please do it.
I love you very much! I think about you John all the time!
I think about a sense of money, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I'm sure. And the quantity of funds was, is and will not important to me. I have always not aspired to the material enrichment and don't search specially for rich man!
I appreciate human qualities and relations and I need you John!!!
I love you with all my heart, I want to be with you now...
I want to be with you forever! If it's mutually we will be very happy in our life! I think you love me too and we will meet very soon.
You are my love John. My heart is yours. I'm waiting good news from you, I hope everything will be all right and we will be together soon.
Every day I think about our meeting, and I think it's real, we must use this chance of destiny.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!
Forever your.