Letter(s) from Margarita Kiselyova to Jerry (USA)

Letter 1

Hello there! How are you? I'm glad that I met you on a dating site and get your responce this evening! I deleted my profile, because i don't like dating sites:) or probably I do something wrong. And I should admit that I feel uncertainty :) But I nevertheless hope that your heart is open for new friends, and I know that right now I must write at least the most important things about myself. Well, You know, my name is Elena. My height is 169cm (I think it is 5,7 feet). Did you think I am low? Or not))) My weight, if I'm not mistaken - 118 pounds. I'm 28. My birthday is September, 28
I was in relationship for 2 years. I have no kids and at present live alone by myself, that means no boyfriend, what is about you? Now I live in the Russian Federation. But I lived in the Usa Nevada the city of Reno for some time.
I trained and worked in a dentist area. I am a dentist.
If it is interesting to you, I shall speak more about it. I aware that Russia maybe too far away from you, but I think it will not be a barrier.
And probably soon I shall travel again. Now I live in a little town in a central part of Russia, the city of Liski, Voronezhsky region.
mmm... yes I like to travel.I visited different countries.
I shall speak about it later. I think it's great to have some friends who live in the other parts of the world. Do you agree with me?
And I sincerely think that for friendship there are no borders or distances. But enough about it. I feel that I should finish my letter because I even don't know if you are still interested in a dialogue with me or not. I hope you do. But if you have no desire to talk to me anymore, please, at least, write me about it.
I want to ask you some questions. :). Simply I would be glad to know Where you live? where do you work, and do you like your work?
And, in general, what are your interests? It's a banal questions certainly :)
but i would like to know more about you. And by the way, I will be glad to have more your pictures! Therefore do not hesitate :) I will write you the day after tomorrow if everything is alright! Hope to see your letter soon !
best regards!

Letter 2

Hi !!! It's me Elena.
The first thing, I want to do is to say "thank you" for your fast answer!!! :) It means that your heart is open for new friends:) I think it's Great, because friendship brightens people's life and refreshes souls, doesn't it? That is why I was so glad to see your letter. I am happy to have received the message from the dating site, with your email address from your profile, and have decided to write a letter to you, and I wasn't mistaken. Ok, Probably you have already noticed that I'm not able to keep my emotions inside. :) Of course I am talking about joy, about good mood, about all good and positive things that can be in my soul. I always try to share my joy with other people.
I never try to show people that I am grieved or I have some problems.
Therefore all people who I work with and communicate are sure that everything in my life is perfect, that I am a happy woman, that I have no disappointments. But unfortunately it is not always true, because when a person is lonely, nothing can cure sadness. And if you ever felt the same, of course you understand what I am speaking about.
Well, I must tell that I try to write in English as good as possible (within my knowledge). I hope you understand all what I write:)
I have been already studying English for more than 10 years, but I understand that my English is not quite correct. Therefore I apologize for my mistakes :).
At school I wanted to be a traveler or singer and even finished a musical school. But I sing songs during my life just for myself and do it quite good :) and I play the guitar. do you play any musical instruments or sing? :) When I finished school I realized that I want to work in a medical field. And after school I entered The Kazan State Medical University (the Dentist faculty).
After 7 years of studying there I received an excellent diploma on "Dentist".An excellent diploma is called red in our country.
The red diploma is the highest mark at graduating from the university in our country. I have been working as a dentist for 4 years, I like my job in spite of the fact I have to work a lot. Also I have interesting seminar trips to many places. I go there to get my work experience. Once I was offered a training course n Canada, and I agreed. It was a good chance for me to see the world. During the courses in Canada I studied English.
Then I decided to work in English speaking countries. It's a good experience for me. Also it's very interesting.
After finishing the training courses in Canada I was offered the job in the USA in Nevada. I accepted it with great pleasure.
But half a year ago I returned to Russia. It was necessary to settle some questions. And Now I work in a local clinic in our town. Can you tell me how you chose your job?
Well, what you are looking for in a woman ? Probably you have many female friends in the Internet. :) ..mmm.. What else to tell you about myself as I have little time.. By the way, I use the computer in the laboratory and work from Monday till Friday. But sometimes on Saturday and Sunday.
Therefore, maybe I will be able to write letters at weekends, if you want :)
This computer is located in the medical analyses room.
Well, now this computer will be used for my dialogue with ! :)
I think you understood, I'm still single and I have no children. I wanted as well to learn more about your family .I miss my parents too much...
Now I have to go back to work and hope to see you soon.
Have a nice day !
Best regards.

PS. I sent you more pictures. Hope you like it.

Letter 3

Hi from Russia again !
I Hope you were feeling good when you got this message from me. How are you doing today? I hope you're great.
Today the weather is getting colder here in my country.
But I like autumn. What about you ? Autumnis a very beautiful season here.The trees change their colours, everything is so bright and colourful I would like to know what month is the best there in your place?
I would like to know more about your place. It's very interesting for me.
I explained you the location of my town in previous letter.
Here we have a park. There are a lot of trees all over the streets and it is very nice here especially in warm seasons of the year.
We have a lot of forests around the town. There are a lot of rivers and lakes here in our region and sometimes my friends and I go for picnics or camping all over the region. Also you can find a cinema, libraries and monuments to famous writers here in the town. There is a little orthodox church.
I want to let you know that I am an orthodox christian. My mom Was a christian and she baptised me too. I believe in God, and think that the main thing in religion is to live with faith in your soul and it is not necessary to go to church very often. Much more important thing is to believe sincerely deep inside your heart and soul. Do You agree with me? What about your Faith?
Also about my family, it was always important for me. I think many people don't understand completely that family is a big treasure. Many people realise the value of a family only when loose it. I always loved my parents and now I miss them very much. My both parents passed away. Daddy died when I was a small child. He was killed in a military conflict.
Mom died when I was 17 years old. After daddy's death she was always sick and spent a lot of time in hospitals. That was why I being a little girl was able to do everything by myself, I cooked meals, sewed clothes to help my brother. I had to study and work in the evening to support us. It was a hard time but it just made me stronger.
And I hope I became the very person, lady that my parents wanted me to become.
I think that those pleasures and griefs, successes and difficulties that were in my life made me who I am now. Now it seems to me that I was saying to my mom about my love too seldom, and now I so regret about it.
forgive me that I write about it. It is my life and it is a part of me. Simply I want you to learn me more, because I as well would be glad to learn more about you. Yes I have a brother. My brother's name is Oleg.
You can see him in the picture I am going to attach to this letter.
He is a policeman. Oleg is 31 years old, he has been married for 5 years and he has a daughter - Yana, His wife is very nice, her name is Katya, we are very amicable, Also we have a grandmother, she is 83 years old, her name is Victoriya, She lives in the city, about 80 miles from us. I like to visit her somedays.
in the future I hope that we'll exchange telephone numbers of each other. To hear a voice of each of us. But at first we should find out each other a little bit more. As I consider that telephone conversation will be more serious contact to the man. Therefore I should find out you better before giving you my telephone number. I hope that's not bad for you. Unfortunately I have some bad experience, but I do not want to speak about it. You should understand me. As it's just a question of some time. Ok?
Well, I should go home now. I promised to cook supper for my brother :)
Potatoes, meat, vegetables... He wanna me to cook for him, he says Katya does not cook so tasty as I do :) When I asked him what he will do if I am far ? :) "I will die hungry" :))))))))
Oh my brother is allways hungry, he likes when I bake pies very much. He likes to visit me so much. I live not very far from them - about 2 districts away. I will wait for your next letter with impatience. Have a nice day !

Letter 4

Hello my dear friend !
I hope I can call you my friend I hope you are not against, and I will be glad to be your friend too. If not just tell me:) What's the weather like outside in your place?
Today it is very fresh. At night it was rain outside, but in the morning it was clear. I like when the sky is clear, but rain's good as well.
I like to watch snowflakes falling down. They are dancing as if they are talented dancers doing their job perfectly or to go to the street during the warm rain and walk and fell how the drops are titillating my nose. Do you like it?
Ok, enough about it :) But all those words were true. :) I think there are many other things about me that I must tell you. In general,speaking about me.
I have various interests. I like sports, especially bicycle, swimming!
So it is important for me to keep fit. I like domestic plants very much.
At home I grow plants and flowers. I have a lot of them. My friends is always joking about this. They say in the nearest future there won't be place for me in my apartment because my favourite plants are everywhere. It took me 3 hours to water them, I always speak to them, sing and smile and they grow better.
Do you like flowers and plants? Do you have them at home? Of course I adore cooking like the most part of Russian women. But I don't do it very often only at weekends for my friends and my brother's family.
I am interested in the process of cooking but don't like eating it myself though I cook pretty well.I like cooking for somebody!!!!!!!!! I would love to cook for you and watch you eating. Do you like cooking???????????
I absolutely love reading, I like to listen to music, play the piano.
I like different books. When I read books I turn into the main character and live his life.Only when the book is read I come back to real life.
Maybe it is so because of my imagination which works well.

It is my first time I try to correspondence with man in Internet world. The thing is that I plan work abroad for six months or more and I would like to meet a nice man to be my guide or just be good friend to spend time with. I think that it is hard enough to live in foreign town without friends. I am from a small town here in Russia, I don't want to be alone over there without any relatives or friends! I want to see the real life over there and maybe you will be able to tell me more about your culture and life over there and give me some information in general! You know, life in Russia is rather difficult, especially in small towns. I don't want to live in Russia because I have not any chances here, it is hardly possible to explain but I want you to know my plans. I started to register my documents about 2 months ago, so I will travel soon and I will be allowed to work! Now I need to decide in which city I want to work.
I’m a hardworking lady!(I will work as a Pharmacist or nurse).
I have an international certificate (diploma), and I want to work hard and change my life! You see that maybe I'm too naive but I still believe in miracles to come! I decided to find a friend and make his city to be my destination. I think it is great chance to change my life.
I am full of plans and dreams!
I had a boyfriend in Russia. But I got only roughness and disrespect.
Before my traveling to the Canada I gave up our relations because I cuold not stand it any longer. Well let me stop speaking about him now as he does not deserve to be spoken about!!!! Now I want to meet a man with a kind heart; a man who will respect a lady.I want my man to be reliable, polite. And I am afraid of man's roughness very much, I think that true force of a man is in his heart. A man should win love and tenderness of a woman by beauty of his heart, but not by force of a body. Not only a pen pal but my soulmate, able to share my life with.
And all my dreams are about it:)
Do you feel the same ? What do you think about this in whole?
I am ready to continue to write letters to you forever and ever :)
Now it is my favorite occupation, and it is difficult for me to stop, but I should start working... I will wait for your letter!
Write to me soon!

Letter 5

Hi, my dear friend ! Thank you for your letter.
today was really a good day, and right now I am sitting, writing this letter and smiling:)
And I hope that right now you are reading my letter, and you are smiling too. :)
My mood has become better again when I got your letter. I should say when I am in a good mood my work seems more easy and I'm not so tired.
By the way when I came to work today my mood was not so good because my friend Maria had fallen ill and now she is in hospital. I asked a doctor and he answered that my friend will stay in hospital for about one week because she had problems with appendicitis. It's not a very good case.
I will try to visit her as often as I can. I think that to stay in hospital alone without any familiar faces is very sad and therefore I will try to adorn her loneliness by my presence. When people are ill we visit them very often as we can. I think it helps them recover faster. I think it's a good support for them. Do you agree with me? Please let me know what you do when someone of your relatives or friends is ill and stay in hospital. Do you do the same things? As a matter of fact I have only two real friends - Amanda and Maria the lady who is in hospital. They are also not married but have boyfriends. We have been friends for almost 20 years. We went to the same kindergarten and we lived in neighbor houses a lot of time but now we live in different districts. But it's not a problem for us and we can meet each other almost any time. We work together with Amanda.
I remember we liked to go to my grandmother. There are very beautiful places.
The air is very fresh and clean, it is a very silent place and there is beautiful nature. In summer we visit my grandmother during my vacation or weekends. We always go to the river to swim. I am a fine swimmer! And if we swam together with you, you would have a big problem if you tried to catch me in the water, and in winter we go skiing and skating. In summer we go to the forest to gather mushrooms and berries. In Russia it is very popular. Once upon a time we even lost the way and found road already almost at night. We had to climb a high tree just to look where to go. We were afraid but now we remember it like a funny case.
Have you ever gone to the forest to pick mushrooms and berries, I wonder?
Of course I dont just have fun in the villige, I always help my grandmother with her garden. Every year she grows vegetables - potatoes, carrots, tomatoes, cabbage, garlic and onions, berries. This is my mother's mother:) My grandfather took part in the World War Second and got some wounds there. He took part in the famous battle for Moscow where the fascists were stopped and couldn't seizure Moscow. He had a lot of awards.
He remained alive till the victory and even reached Berlin, but he died in 1980 because of the old wounds. Our grandmother always gives us all necessary vegetables and that’s why we do not buy vegetables in the market at all! Now I visit my grandmother more seldom than when I was a student, because of my work. But nevertheless I try to do it as friequent as possible. My soul rests in the village. And I am not sure even what I like more - a small place near the forest and the river, silence, singing of birds behind the window or a big city with cinemas, museums, beautiful houses and shops, with attractions, but with cars' roar and noice of people's crowd and to add to all these with criminal. Unfortunately criminal rate in Russia is on a very high level. But I don't want to speak about sad things. By the way today when I come to Maria we will speak about you.
I have told to my friends that i met you. Yes, my friends know that I am talking to you, and they start asking a lot of questions! :). But if to take into account that with one of them I work together in clinic, to avoid interrogation about my new friend is more and more difficult! :)
I wanted to ask you what makes you happy ? What do you like more, a big city or a small village? Plaese, write me as you can.
I have to go. But I will wait for your letter and your pics!
I send you my pictures! I hope you'll like them. I hope you can find me in my pictures. If is not, I will help :) And I hope you will write me soon.
And then I will have again a smile on my face.
Your friend Elena.

P.S. I hope that right now you have a smile on your face .
I want you to smile, smile, smile, smile

Letter 6

Hi ! How are you doing my friend ?
I want to let you know about my friend Maria.
As it cleared up her appendicitis got inflamed, now she is fine and after about a week she will be better! So it is not necessary to worry much about her! I saw her today during my lunch break! My mood became better and I let myself relax mentally! May be today after work I will go home on foot. I like to walk along the street and to breathe in fresh air, especially when the weather is fresh and sunny as it is today. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home.
Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home in a good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with somebody, have fun.
But my flat is empty and I have to be in absolute solitude. And my good mood disappears. I just sit in an arm-chair and look at the window.
And when the silence deafens me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, that moment becomes unbearable and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moments I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, wake up in the morning, speak about yesterday and dream about tomorrow. I don't want to cook meals only for myself.
I want somebody to taste it. But it's enough about it.
I often remember childhood especially previous days. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world.
But we live in a real life, Practically dreams do not always realize.
It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depends on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in the ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest of alive world. The dreams force to think, analyze, choose and come to conclusions. The Faith and Hope - eternal friends of our lives. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Do you agree with me ? I am surprised that I write you all this. I haven't had the person, with whom I could share my thoughts.
But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness.
If I said something that bothers you-forgive me please.
I want to hear your voice. We have phones but because of much industry objects located near our town almost all phone are inner, i.e. people can call just all over our town and a couple of the nearest villages which phone numbers have the same beginning digits.
I brought my mobile from the USA but it does not work here in our country :(
But I think that soon I shall get a new phone and I shall inform to you the number.
I have spoken with the mail center in our town and they told me that I could communicate with you just from the communication center. You can tell me your phone number more precisely and I could call you one day!
I hope you will understand these things in Russia and will not be angry with me because of it. I still can use email to correspond with you my dear ! :)
But now I should return to patients...
I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Have a good day!
Your friend Elena

Letter 7

Hi ! I waited to receive your email today, and when I got your letter, it was the best time.
I was working with lots of stress today. I took a break and I was informed that you had written. I forgot all my worries with work.
So, I'm glad to be here !
Oh now the main moment of my day is expectations which eventually change to sincere joy because my friend has written me his letter!
Each time I have a feeling of worry - "What if will not write me today?" But when I receive your letter, everything becomes simply excellent, the smile does not leave my face and almost nobody can overpersuade me that this day is a good day! I hope your day as well is filled with pleasure and nothing will sadden your mood!? It is really wonderful, when in the life new aspiration appears, new purpose, don't you agree? Without it life would lose any sense. Dreams and the purposes force people to rise onto mountain tops or to dive to oceans bottom, to conquer the North Pole or to land the Moon, to build a family and to win the Olympic Games. And when your dream purpose comes true, you have tears of sincere joy on your eyes, and it is much more important than many things in our life. And you will always remember these tears of joy, because these tears will tell you that you really lived, dreamed, aspired and struggled. What sort of life are you looking for now? I have noticed, that I often start to ask myself these questions. 28 years old is not a lot, but it is not a young age.
I often begin to think of what I have done in my life, what purposes I have reached, what mistakes I've made. I start to think of the future more often, I began to estimate my past. Probably this age - time to look back and to draw the certain conclusions, time to think and analyze a life, time to put new purposes and tasks. I begin to understand that I will hardly be able ever to touch amazing stars, I understand that many things in the life are not so simple as I thought; I understand that great deal in my life will be otherwise than I thought. It is the time of reassessment of values.
And probably it is high time to dream about simple human happiness.
Do you agree with me?
now, I should return to my work((
Write me soon,
Your Elena.

Letter 8

Hello my dear . How are you doing these days ? :)
My mood is so fine when I receive your letter, and have imagined that we are together and talk face to face, It would be great:) Well, I had a nice working day, at last all necessary preparations have been delivered to our laboratory :) There is one more good news, my friend Maria let off home from hospital.. I was allowed to leave my work to meet her... My boss knows my friends.. Our microdistrict is small, and it seems, that everyone knows each other..:) I could not visit Maria every day... But I did it every time i had an opportunity.. We've got a lot of news for each other.. And when we arrived to her house, I could not stop talking to her about you:) How it would be good to meet you. She is also very curious.. I hope you are not against, that I speak to her about you so much?:) We could not speak for a long time... And about everything, I had to come back to work.. But I was glad, that I should see the letter from you today:)
Right now fall rain like a tap-dancer beats off a rhythm outside.
The window glass, deformed by water trickles, reflects like old mirror a gloomy sight of the grey sky. And the wind scornfully whistles among old trees. And everyone here, glancing through window by indifferent empty eyes silently grumble about bad weather that spoils their mood and changes their plans. And I do not understand these people.
How can they be so querulous? It is just small rain - the gift of the nature, gift filling the air by delightful freshness, bringing an amazing, almost imperceptible smell of fall. So many people in the world who dream about rain; how many people who never saw a snow, who is deprived an opportunities to play the snowballs with friends. I always liked rain.
However sometimes, in cold days I dream about Cuba, Turkey, the sea and the sun.
I went there the last summer, did I tell you about it? I think all seasons are magnificent. The winter covers all around with a delightful white carpet.
Trees and roofs wear fluffy snow-hats and frost draws by invisible tassel amazing inimitable images on the windows glasses. And when you, hear snow crunch under your foot, and the sky slowly showers you with sparkling snowflakes or when the delightful gold autumn begins the most beautiful phenomenon in the nature - a fall of leafs? When the leaves, chased by a cool breeze, dance a waltz in the air and slowly fall down, undressing trees. And when you hear rustle of leaves under your foot, and when in the sky you see a flock of birds flying away with a sad song, don't you want to take a slow walk also with your woman?
Or when you hear behind your window an autumn thunder, or groans of blizzard, would you not enjoy being at home with your beloved, to enfold each other in a warm plaid, and telling each other ridiculous and funny stories?
I think it is a big happiness when people are able to value such things.
And I think, if the couple is able to enjoy such things in a life, it only strengthens feelings. I am sure, now you think that I am rambling on.
Forgive me please :) I do not know why I write you this.
Probably because I feel conveniently in talking to you about such things.
I will better stop here, because I am afraid that otherwise you will simply cease to write me. :)
With thoughts of you I will wait for your letter!

PS I hope you like pics of last summer.

Letter 9

Hello my dear friend . I am glad that I have an opportunity to write you.
I had free days from work. We always receive it after "the outside work day" we have just back from grandmother, brother Oleg has left works, so we could visit the grandmother the whole family. We had very good time there, We couldn't stay at home all the time because there was a desire to spend time in the open air. Then we visited the sauna ("Banya") with a birch broom. Do you know what it is? we had fine steam ! Do you like a sauna?
I would like to have sauna with you :) Oleg's wife was there also,in the evening my brother Oleg cooked barbecue and salad with vegetables!
We had remembered our grandfather. He passed away that date in 1980. In our country there is a tradition. To remember dead relatives in the day of their death... Then Oleg took his mondoline (it is like a small guitar) and sang grandfather's favorite composition: "Tanks on the field" (a folk song). It is a very old composition. It was very popular during the second world war where our grandfather Fedor took part. He had many medals of honor, I wrote to you about him... The grandmother told us about the grandfather he shoot gun and sometimes shooted, but this days shoot gun belongs to Oleg. He hunts now with it. Oleg likes to shoot in the evening and I tryed also :) He once took me hunting, but nevertheless I could not shoot animals.. But I like fishing very much:)
also we have so much to talk about with you!
It is very interesting, They are interested in your relatives, and when I shall acquaint you with them:) Relatives say hello to you.
How was your day? What is the weather like there? I hope it is good.
Oh, we were born in so different places of the world and we speak different languages with you, but it is not a problem at all with communication, I enjoy it, have never met so handsome and honest man here, to talk about so many important things, if you know how it is lonely sometimes during the day and i want to get your letter so much ! I think That I would like to have a family with so kind and honest man similar to you . :)
I hope that our relations will grow :) I think it is possible for me, because I feel that you are a very good man and I feel that we learn each other much better!!! Yes, we communicate not for a long time, but do you feel the same as I do? It may sound strange but sometimes I feel that we know all about each other, oh if we meet one day, it would be great :)
Yes, life is too short, and if destiny will give us a chance we must keep it strong in our hands. I think that We became so close to each other, I am really happy to communicate with you .
Sorry, I should come back to work..
I look forward to your letter!!!
Write to me soon !

With kisses !
Your Elena.

PS. I send you pics from our open air :))
hope you like it

Letter 10

Hi , I am so happy to get your letter! How are you doing my darling? :)
I feel so happy when get your letter , when I walk here, open my e-mail box and see it here :)
Our dialogue is an energy source for me. I often begin to imagine - what you are doing, where are you right now, or with whom you are right now...
There are a lot of kilometers, some hours between us, but I always think that maybe right now you also think: "What Elena is doing, where she is?".
And maybe we think of the same things at the same time. I like thinking of it.
Yesterday I came back home from work earlier. I spent time reading, walking, cooking :) My brother came to my place after work. Oh my prince, apple pie I cooked yesterday was great! Oleg took the half home to have breakfast with tomorrow. There was a very funny situation, Oleg went to have his hair cut and when he came for supper the most part of his hair has not been cut and other part was cut very short! I laughed and Oleg was not able to understand what had happened :) you know, it seems like that that hairdresser was not able to done his work well because of holidays, maybe drank too much or just was too tired :)) Well, you know, I can cut hair very well and did it with Oleg's hair, he is handsome now and happy. May be someday I will cut your hair also:)) Oleg said hi to you, and always asks about you, how are you. Frankly speaking, I do not hide, that I have found such a wonderful friend, and nobody is surprised that my friend lives in other country. Everybody is just glad. Everyone understands that such relations mean greater mutual understanding, greater interest, greater respect.
And I am sure that it is really so. Nobody here is surprised if the woman looks for ''not here'' man . I think the cultural distinction is a wonderful thing. I don't understand men here and their culture of dialogue with women. They are not able to appreciate women's feelings, her fidelity, love. They do not appreciate sincerity and aspiration of women to do for a man absolutely everything, wishing to get from him only love, respect and fidelity. I do not want to speak about bad and sad things.

Time flies so fast. Special mood these rainy days, full of thoughts about future, romanticism, love... The world is a really big place , I am very curious about us my dear, two people from different countries, who speak different languages find each other, have so much in common....
Very interesting situation. I think that it is very important not just to live, it is very important to feel, to feel every instance, when you understand that the day have not just passed, when it brought something new !
To my mind nothing in this world just happened only because of us, I think that destiny is real and give us the way, way we need, way which is important for us.
I know you are so far, but why? Why you were born there ?
Not here ? Because if you were born here and live may be on the closest street, may be we will never meet each other? But you were born so far, and we are already together, in our hearts, in our souls. If I look in my past I would like to say that I have never met man who is so cary and kind as you.
You really brought happiness and very good feeling to me, I am sure that this feeling is similar to love, it is not just called "love", sometimes people pronounce this world as other words and do not put anything special, just say "I love you" but does mean true feeling? You know, when you have feelings, words are not necessary sometimes, what are words?
What are true feelings? Words are material things and are able to destroy anything, but are they necessary when you fall in love? When people come to me at work and ask to marry... What are they waiting from me?
That I tell them yes? They feel that I am always give them advice, help, I speak to them when I am really interested in them as a specialist.
It happened 4 times for these days.... They just see my beauty and words which every doctor should speak say... Do they see the beauty of my soul?
, we have never met in person, but you are the only man in the this world who feels beauty of my soul, who carries about me. What can I say.
I think My heart is open for you, and I think that my life is open for you.
I can get no sleep this days, my heart beats so fast...
It is a pity, that i cannot continue my letter...
I shall wait for your answer..

a lot of kisses ...
Your Elena.

Letter 11

Hi !
I am sincerely glad to get your letters, and I am very glad that I have had an opportunity to write you because I want to tell you today so much. I want to share so many things with you today.
I always was sincere with you and I want to be sincere now because from the very beginning we built our friendship on the sincerity and openness.
It is difficult to write about it because those emotions I have now to transform into words are new for me, and for the first time in my life I try to explain things that I feel. And I feel that I should be very exact and accurate in my words. I understand that at such moments it is necessary to think over each word because even though I simply want to tell you the truth, even though I just want to tell you sincerely everything what now is in my soul, I understand that the truth and sincerity can sometimes offend the person, bring disappointment.
And I want you to understand all my thoughts correctly because I do not want to offend you or to put you by my words into awkward position.
you are very dear to me, and I do not want to lose those relations that we have, because these relations are important for me. And all main emotions that often visit my heart, - pleasure and even happiness, disappointment and sadness, now depend only on one thing - presence of your letter.
For the first time in my life I tried to start relationship with a man who is so far away from me, relations where thoughts and feelings of each other take the main place as these are the only things that unite us together.
And it is the best opportunity to become first of all friends, best friends,- with open hearts, ready sincerely to share with each other all feelings and emotions. I try all this for the first time in my life and I do not know what waits for me and you in the future, but I would be happy to have relationship with you, friendly and more. And I would be happy if you have such desire as well. And even though I for the first time in my life try to start such relationship, I already thank God for what I feel right now. It is very valuable for me and I believe that all that was in my life,- all ups and downs, all tries and losses are the way where God has put me to learn to appreciate life and to be wise, to learn to make decisions and to make a correct choice when the time of a choice will come. I believe that I had to pass through this way,- to be ready to meet a man who will become my soul and heart, with whom I will build the small world of love and tenderness, giving to him all my care, fidelity and infinite respect; with whom I will be up to death because he will give me the most important things in a life - the sincere love and care, These are an only things most important for me.
And I am sure that these are things you appreciate as well. The beauty and external attractiveness are main things for many people, but my life has shown me that the main thing of a person - internal beauty, beauty of his soul and heart. Not a lot of people really possess internal beauty and not a lot of people really understand that it is thebmost important and unique quality,- quality helping to believe in miracles and fairy tales, quality that makes people sincere and kind. This is what I was looking for in a man, it is what I put at the first place, it is a feature that could open my heart. And I want to tell you , that you are a beautiful man, beautiful first of all as must be beautiful every true man. I speak first of all about beauty of your soul and heart. You are beautiful for me and that is why I already now thank Destiny that I has come to this crossroads of a life where I have met you. Here people forgot about many important things, and words "love" and "fidelity" here have lost sense, became simply words. I am not sure if you understand everything I try to say, but I hope that my words do not offend you in any way. My words are not simply words, it is a part of my soul that I open to you because I feel that I can and I want to do it. And I hope you feel the same.
And I really wish to develop our relations, to go further, to learn each other at a new level, where friendship is only the first step. I want to go the way that will not be limited only by friendship. I see new horizons, and I feel that I want to try to promote our relations further than it enough to be simple friends. And I hope my words do not disappoint you because I always wanted to be sincere with you and I think that sincerity is the best thing.
could you ever relax your eyelids, allow your eyes to close, and to imagine a life we could share? I really dare to dream and imagine us together as a man and woman,- people that can brighten a life of each other, fill life with sense and variety, with aspiration to learn each other more and more. And I think everyone should believe in dreams; everyone should believe that dreams can really come true! I know that I can lose you at any moment.
I thought of us and I wanted to tell you everything I think; so that you know that I feel we become very good friends and our relations make me happy.
I wanted to tell you everything what I think, so that you know that you are dear for me. And even the one day without you, without your letter is equivalent to eternity, therefore I even cannot imagine months without you at all... And I hope that our relations are important for you just as for me.
I dare to hope, that you at least allow to think, that our relations can be promoted further than simply friendship.
I hope now you have really smile now!
I will wait for your answer .
I hope I have not offended you.

Your Elena.

Letter 12

Today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried not to show it, I think you have noticed it.
I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in two weeks the dentist cabinets will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he told me it, I thought my heart would stop, because when it takes place, I will not be able to communicate with you again for months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of the cabinet, the accounting department informed me that approximately in two weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it.
And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart another feeling - feeling of confidence has appeared, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it is so wonderful.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked to Maria and she asked me what I think to do. And when she asked me it, I understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during of month or two. And I told that I want to meet you ! I told her that I want to spend my vacation with you ! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Maria said, that you and I are such good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightful. So, what you will say if I offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend several days with me?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, for travel and probable work in your country, find as many as possibly of other official legal people, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I quickly collect all the necessary documents. I will get the all papers in two weeks!
And being the doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of the Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I am in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, at desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I want :) ... with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will make everything by myself. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, ?
Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the laboratory will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take a new step.
Maybe such an opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lives and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is the time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you !
So what will you say? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.

With Love
Sincere Your Elena.

PS: I hope you like summer pictures !

Letter 13

Hi my ! I waited for your letter with fear and with pleasure at the same time!
And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and dance, laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you !
They are so important for me!
Thank you for your letter and your thoughts. I am so happy that we can meet.
Now I have the ocean of emotions and I do not know what to say.
I am worried very much. I hope very much that we can perfectly spend time together. I am only afraid, that if we meet, I will ask so many questions and chatter unceasingly, that you soon will escape from me.
My vacation will begin approximately in two weeks. At this time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately the schedule of my vacation is not flexible.
Therefore I hope you will be glad to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy all the same. I will be happy in any case.
It is better to wait when you will come from work, than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!! Duration of my vacation is 34 workdays. But quantity of days which I can spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will order the ticket. However at desire I can prolong vacation at own expense. But I at all would not want to leave you :) How many days do you want to be with me? I think preparations for travel will be about two weeks. Complexity of approval of the papers, visa will be reduced to a minimum as I will have petitions and characteristics from a work place, from respected organizations and legal people; guarantee documents and various sorts of the information and inquiry, which will be given to commissions I will get the petition and a testimonial from Ministry of Health of the Russian Federation! Except of that I will pay for preparation for the commission.
Every day I think - what my friend will tell me today, what mood he will have today? And as soon as I get a free minute, I rush to analyses's room to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your letter, I start to smile from ear to ear anticipating the best time of my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you the all my thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And these minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except of lines and paragraphs which in my mind will be transformed into small movies, movies about you, my dear . And you cannot imagine at all how it's wonderful!
Sometimes I think, what would happen if I have not found the boldness in myself to write you? What would happen if I didn't believe that I could find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I'm a courageous woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life for the sake of person who is close and dear for me, I am ready to donate my well-being for the sake of well-being of another person but when I think of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the fire's smoke.
I am often afraid to make something, to take some step simply because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the negative answer.
Not always, but it happens. What would happen, if you have not answered my letter? Nothing would happen! And grey monotonous days again would lie on a way of my life by infinite impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? Firstly, I should tell you that I slept with a smile on my face!
At least when I woke up and looked at the mirror, I noticed that I was smiling! Then, I cleaned teeth and I had a smile! Then, I jog and I smiled as if actually I watched funny movie. Then, I cooked breakfast and drank a coffee with a smile on my face! Then, I came to clinic, and I could not hide my smile. I was ready to laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It is a very bad symptom for the pharmacist! :)
Everything around seemed me beautiful and wonderful. And even the severe boss, when saw that I look at him and I smiled, he began to survey himself attentively and even came near to the mirror to see if anything wrong! He thought that something was wrong with his clothes! All the day I worked with the smile on my face! Amanda looks at me and smiles as well.
Of course she understands the reason, and it makes her happy as well! And when time of sleep comes, I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you till now have not understood why I smile, I will tell you!
I smile because I think of you, ! And it brings me joy! I am so happy that I have in my life such a man as you! Thank you that you are in my life!
I have to go. Now I will not have a lot of time after work because after work I will have one more working day!:) You may ask what I mean?
The preparation for my trip! You cannot imagine at all how many deals I must do for our meeting! I even have asked the boss to reduce my working day or to allow me to take some hours off in the middle of day to make some things, because after 5pm not all departments work! Of course now I should work in the days off to have more of free time on week-days. But thoughts about our meeting give me force and energy! I am sure that everything will be perfect! I will wait for your letter! Please, write me because I need your letters and support more than ever!

With Love and Kisses!
Always your Elena!

Letter 14

Hi My ! Thank you for your letter. You and your letter became the most dazzling moment of my day!
Maria has just come to the clinic. We are having tea, And the dialogue only about us :) I wish you saw how Maria is happy that we will meet!
She is sure that our meeting will make us happy. It is simply impossible to talk to her now! :). She has now only one theme for the conversation - you !
She constantly asks about you, asks - what I will do together with you, she asks - what I will do at the airport, she asks - what I will cook for you.
She asks how I am going to impress you, to intrigue! She even asks how I will tempt you! :)) . She say that I do everything correctly and I should not be afraid of anything at all. To conquer the road can only one who goes on this road. Maria is very glad that I have found you, and she sends you her friendly greetings and a wishes of happy expectation of me!:).
Probably I'm the most successful woman on our planet because I have found the kindest and gentle man who is capable to make so that my heart have been overflow with feelings and my soul aspires to cross space and ocean and to rush into his life, to be united in a single whole with his soul.

My darling! I am not sure that I can arrive in two weeks exactly.
Maybe I will arrive a little bit later, because it is an approximate time of beginning of my vacation and it can be changed. Will you wait for me anyway?
Please, don't be angry with me if I cannot write you much now. I hope you understand that I even after my working day in the clinic must do too much for our meeting. Today I will go to Ministry of Health. I think this is one of the most important deals for me right now. I will give them all my medical documents and tomorrow I will probably get all the documents and forms of petitions which I must fill out as soon as possible. Then I will go to Military Garrison where my father served. They must collect all the information about my father for me, the facts of my father's death.
I must have data about my father's work not only in this Military Garrison, but also in all others Garrisons where my father during during his life.
It's extremely difficult to do this, if to take into account that my father served in Military Garrisons in various parts of our huge country. But I am sure that I will get the information because here there are many officers who remember my father, and I hope they will be glad to help me.
today I feel that I start to worry more than I even could imagine.
I am very glad that I do all this. And every minute I think of our meeting.
The meeting at the airport... I don't think that many people on our planet have an opportunity to enjoy such a delightful moment - the moment of the first meeting at the airport. It is so exciting. I feel that it will be a very touching moment for each of us. It calms me down.
I can imagine us together, I see us walking in the park; I see us speaking about serious and silly things, or playing cards or checkers (and the one who lose will execute any desire of the winner :)), I see wonderful dinners at home and outside! I see you sitting on a sofa with a juicy peach in your hand and I see me dancing in front of you a beautiful dance, or maybe even erotic dance:), What about Belly dance? :). I do it stunningly!:).
I see us swimming; I see us on a roof of a house, watching the full moon; I see us fighting with pillows; I see us in the evening at home, with romantic light of candles; I see us cooking together Our pelmeny and Your pizzas :) ; I feel myself in your embraces. All this waits for us in the nearest future; and I enjoy, anticipating this delightful time together!
Do you feel the same, ? Oh, would you like to make me a massage of my back? I would like to make you massage! But I must warn you, that if you want to do it, you should not touch my ribs! :)
The reason - I'm the most ticklish woman in Russia :) I am afraid of titillation! If someone tickles my foot or ribs, I begin to laugh loudly, kick and scratch, squeal and jump! Therefore if you will make me massage and you will tickle me, you will feel like a cowboy on a wild undomesticated mare on the rodeo! :) . By the way , are you ticklish? Do you snore? (Forgive me for this question. Do not answer, if you do not want. Maybe one day I will find out all this by myself:)).
Will you sing serenades for me? I would be happy if you sang serenades and songs for me! I would remunerate you by kisses! :) .
I should finish the letter. I must do much so that you had an opportunity to make me massage and to get the massage from me! :) . Please, write me because now I need you and your letters very very much, because I worry so much...

Yours, Elena.

Letter 15

Hi my ! You can't imagine how all your words are important for me.
I can feel the emotions you write me with, and your emotions fill my heart.
And I know hundreds of words, that could help me tell you how you are important, dear for me now. And I am waiting for the day when I am able to tell you all these words, being face to face - looking into your caring eyes. I am looking forward to that moment when I see your sparkling smile on your face and read all your thoughts and feelings in your smile.
And now my heart enjoys fine feelings - feelings of awaiting and hope that one day our meeting will come true. And sometimes it is simply impossible to express all the shades of my joy by means of words . How difficult it is to express all the depth and passion of feelings in simple combinations of words and phrases ; how difficult it is to express all tenderness by means of lifeless letters, it's almost impossible to describe the warm wave of feelings which overflows me every day, every minute, every instant - when I am thinking of you ! Any words cannot replace a glance and a smile, any words are not able to replace tenderness of touch.
I am not sure if I should tell you what had happened yesterday.
I don't want you to be unhappy but I was so terrified that I cannot keep it to myself.
Don't worry too much!!!!I am safe and sound...
Well when I came home and come up to the door of my flat I noticed something strange.
At first I did not understand what the matter was. The door was slightly opened.
I thought Oleg had come and had not closed the door. But when I entered the hall I realised what had happened. Everything was in a mess, my clothes were on the floor as if somebody was looking for something. When I came up to the cupboard where I put my box with jewellery I realised what they were looking for...
The box was empty there were no the jewellery that my grandmother presented me.
She got those rings and earrings from her granny. They were very ancient. They were really precious for me more that it the price was very high...So thieves stole them.
One more precious thing was in my flat and I rushed to the room to check it.
While I was running to the room(just a few seconds) my heart was beating so fast. But there was nothing there. The icon was absent. It was stolen as well.
I sat on the floor, closed me eyes and tears were dropping down.I felt so miserable.
Unfortunately my flat was not insured. My flat insurance finished a week ago and I was planning to do it in some days because I just could not imagine this.
So it was my mistake. But nothing can be done now.
Of course i called the police. When they came they asked me different questions.
But the only thing I was thinking of was the icon. It was made of wood, silver, gold and pearls. it was of the 17th century. And the history of our family is connected with it. One of Russian tsars presented the icon to my ancestor for his service and faithfulness.It was a real treasure for our family and memory of our ancestor. I am broken now... I don't know what to do, I feel guilty because Oleg said to me to bring the icon to his flat but I could not give it away.

Well, I want to finish my letter with good thoughts. And I will tell you something good! I want to tell you about my feelings to you, if you know, how speedy my heart beats when I am walking here with hope to get your letter, as a child looking forward to getting his birthday present. You gave me hope, you born feelings in my heart, I want you to know that I fell in love with you, and I miss you!
Be with me in my thoughts. I will think of you, so please, think of me as well. "You are an Angel" - TY ANGEL!

With all my tenderness.

Your Elena.

Letter 16

Hi my prince !!!! How important it is for me to get your letters.
I don't feel well because of the latest events. Oleg had to spend the night in my flat while my door is being restored. We spoke a lot about the misfortune. It is so terrible.
I must admit I feel comfortable only if I receive your letters.
I wanna to embrace you right now so you can feel my Heart ;)
What about your place ? What is the weather like there now?
however I have good news as well.
Oh, I want to tell you that I have collected almost all the characteristics and petitions from different people. Soon I will have a meeting with the notary at the notary office to legalize all the documents.
Oleg was able to reach agreement with the municipal department. Now he must get all the documents about my family and me. It turned out that not all the people are unselfish, but the essential thing is that we will get these documents.
The rest is not important at all.
My relatives are very happy, you know they like that we communicate with you. My brother and friends say hello to you! Today while sleeping dreamt my parents. My parents were very good people and Mum always gave me "freedom of choice" mum told me in the past: "Elena, it is your life, you can try everything you want, you can find love, just remember,my dear that your father and I want you to be happy" I loved my parents.
It it so sad they are not with us now.
Well, we walk all the time now and enjoy this season. I think it is very important to spend some time in the open air. Well, my mood is very fine now, I know that soon we will walk outside together, it would be great :)
Looking forward to being with you tonight in my dreams :)

With Love and Kisses
Your Elena.

P.S. I took some pics for you these days, hope you like them )

Letter 17

Hi ! How glad I am that I have an opportunity to write you now.
My dear ! I have bad news! I became the drug addict! And my drug is you ! :) I have a little time. I came here only to write you some lines. I don't have even one free minute. Now each minute of my day is devoted to you ! Every minute of my day I use to come our meeting true. Every minute of my day I think of you and about our meeting.
I give all my diligence and forces to meet you. I read your letters and cried, because they touched my heart and soul. You hit me in the heart.
I cannot find the words to express all my feelings. I cannot find the words to explain what I feel. You won my heart. Nobody could do that before.
I am happy, that I have found you. I have already found happiness. If I see you face to face, I will go mad. Well, I think that a new feeling was born the in my heart. This feeling is called ...
No, I will not tell you it yet. I will say it when I meet you. I will explain it when I see your deep eyes and when you see mine, and when we hug each other Finally, I got almost all the papers today!!! I am definitely going to Moscow!
It is the most important point for me. I have been preparing for this for so long.
After the interview at the Embassy I will find out the final decision! I don't want to say "IF", but it is really a very difficult and tense moment. And I am simply not sure if I have enough confidence and self-control. But I have to calm down. My worry and fear are our enemies.
I think I am ready. I feel that I can do everything well, and we will definitely meet! And now just be with me in your thoughts! I need it.
I really need your support. I'm so nervous and stressed. I want to put my head on your knees and feel your warm hand on my cheek. For the sake of it I am ready to collect all my forces and reach the goal!!!!!! My family and friends help me greatly, they wanna see me happy.
My door had been restored at last.. But I can't feel safe.
However I am well because I am thinking of you ! It helps me overcome difficulties.
Last night Maria came to my place and she decided to bake a cake,- just to relax after a difficult day. You know we created a new recipe and started the preparations. I wish you saw this cake! There is not on Earth any cake with such a number of components like this! :) Between the layers of soft gentle biscuit we placed mush of kiwi and bananas.
The sour cream with a strawberry and juice of fresh lemon was turned into magnificent cake-cream. We decorated the cake with a cherry, and when we were going to taste our cake, we suddenly realised that we hadn't given the name to it. I do not know if there is such a tradition in your country ,in Russia each cake has a name, for example - "Cinderella", or "Ant Hill" or "Autumn Waltz". So we began to look attentively at our cake, and think what name is suitable for this cake. Maria began to offer various names - "Palette" or "Rainbow". But I said that all those were too banal and ordinary. There are millions of cakes with similar names. Then she offered "Flying Hippopotamus" or "Drunk Fakir"! I asked her - why "Drunk Fakir"? And she answered that it was unusually, and there is hardly a country in the world where you would find a cake with the similar name! :)
But I said that it was too foolish! Maria offered dozens of names, but I found them either too foolishly, banal, or too ordinary, uninteresting. Finally Maria said: "All right Elena, if you are so clever, maybe you will offer anything not banal, unusual, not foolish and interesting?" And then I answered: "Look at this cake! This cake is appetizing just like !!!! I want to name this cake - !":)
I wish you saw Maria at that moment! She fell onto a floor and began to laugh loudly! I could hardly stop her! She said: "Elena, you are an absolutely crazy Russian woman, but I love the name !!!!" :))
We laughed loudly together the whole evening, we drank tea and ate the delightful cake with the name !!! :) I hope you are not offended that I called the cake your name? It is a beautiful, sweet, gentle, and very tasty cake!!!
sorry, , I have to go now. I hope you dream and think of me as often as I do it! :) I shall write you before my departure to Moscow.
Please, write me the letter! I beg you, do not forget about me now! :)
and, tell me that you wait for me with impatience :) Please, tell me that you are dreaming to embrace me at the airport! :)
, if a lady wanted to be with you while your beloved woman won't see you, what would you tell that lady? Forgive me, I have to go. But only because I want to meet you as soon as possible!!!!:)
Your Darling Elena!