Letter(s) from Alena Sergeevna Rudakova to Pieter (Netherlands)

Letter 1

Hello my Pieter.
What is your mood today ? How did you sleep ?
You got my Sms night? It was a huge disappointment. When I went home, I put the money in the account. To have enough money to call and Sms. But the funds are not received immediately. I was at home and was waiting for it. Money only came at night. And I just wrote you Sms. I worry. After all, I know that we agreed and waited for you. But a misunderstanding. Everything will be fine. We will listen to each other. We smoem speak.
Pieter, I think about you a lot in my days. I wake up in the morning with the thought of you. With thoughts about our relationship. About future.
I am open to you. And I have a feeling inside. There is sympathy. There is reciprocity. I wish that we moved our relationship to reality.
Why do I dare to the relationship with you? Why do I think of flying thousands of kilometers? After all, even between us and the age difference. Distance. Culture. Why I still think about you flying to Pieter?
I have a stable job. I have an apartment. I have friends and family.

But the next I do not meet a man with heart and soul. To go along with confidence in life. I'm not stupid and weak. You know what makes me most sad? I'm alone. This is the biggest sorrow !!! But now I have met you. I keep his warmth and tenderness for one man. And I want to make happy. To go through life together. I met you. Let's try.
For decent relationship I ready for major changes in his life. In my city I have everything. I have a good life.
I decided to take a flight for you. Because I feel you and I like you. I like your views on life. I like your mutual goals. It means a lot to me.
And your age is not a barrier. I have no prejudice due to age. And speaking sincerely. For me, what matters is what's inside you. Your age is the existence of your body. Beauty goes with time. And then what's left?
I want to see you. After all, I feel a close spiritual connection. It is the main base. I believe that we have a solid spiritual foundation regard.
It's my opinion. My thoughts. My feelings. So what's inside me.
It should be responsible for each other's feelings. After all, we have entrusted it to each other. It's really very seriously.
Regarding our meeting. And formalities. I have not had time to go to my bank. To find out more. But it will be really cool. If we can soon unite our efforts. Pay all the agency. And to overcome this obstacle. To gain wings and meet. It will be amazing. While I do not have the excitement. After all, there is a barrier.
In the difficult situation we are together. So we'll be together. When there is more news. I immediately tell you.
Pieter will now hear each other and talk. I am waiting for your news. I go back to work. Your Alena.

Letter 2

Hi Pieter!
Today I hope that we can meet on Skype!
At this point, all the responsibility on me. Pieter I need your moral support. Your attention. Your advice and support! After all, I'm trying to take a serious decision. To solve the situation. Otherwise, the relationship without a future. We are on the brink.
REMEMBER THIS !!!
Pieter, I want to fly. because I think that we will build a strong and healthy relationship together. on respect and trust. on sincerity and kindness and caring. walk together through all the difficulties. I did not look for an easy life. and all the tests together.
I can not think of a lot of work. All my thoughts about the meeting and the situation. I counted my savings. I will be able to collect 430 euros in cash. But this is not enough. My savings are not enough.
I feel so many emotions and experiences. I have a huge responsibility for our feelings and attitudes.
I understand that in the Internet there are a lot of prejudices. And you talk about the doubts. But I do not want to feel it for yourself. We feel each other. And trust is the foundation of any relationship. Pieter, I also warned about the situation on the Internet. About people who simply give false hopes. Not capable of a real relationship. And to play other people's feelings. I was scared. Really frustrating to know. That someone is low playing other people's feelings.
Pieter there are a lot of prejudices. But during our conversation. I understand you and feel. I believe you. And to know that in our relationship. There is you and me.
In Russia, on television warn about the criminals. That lure Russian women abroad. Under the pretext of family relations. But in the end they collected documents and give into slavery of prostitution. I was warned from the outset. But I have my opinion. I feel you. And I want to see.
I'm with reflections. Now I know the situation with the flight. I understand how we can meet. I know that will help to overcome the bureaucracy. And the agency to organize the flight. I know what documents are needed for the agency. And I will gather them. But a shortfall of 650 euro! This complexity. And I think about solving this situation.
To save the missing amount, I will for a long time of 8 months. And my next vacation will be 7 months. Each month I can save and put off a very small amount. Only at the end, I have a premium. This is a double salary. But even so, many times over.
The worst. It is obvious that during this time our relationship just dry. Correspondence. Without reality.
Therefore, we are on the brink !!! After all, we are for real.
I have a good credit history. And I would take out a loan without thinking. No regrets. I immediately thought that I would take out a bank loan. I'm not worried about the victim. Our relationship is unique. This is above the paper.
But the agency said, and warned me. What is now stricter rules. And I can not have credit. Bureaucracy. It turns out a loan is a negative for the approval of the visa. Counts as an internal debt !!!
Lower your hands now? And just to stop our relationship? Virtual relationships are not our intent. Just correspondence without a date. It is not serious! What will we do next ?
You are more to me than just a companion. I understand that the cessation of all. So to get hurt. At such moments, you realize how deep and close we have become.
We need to take a very difficult decision. Decide on a flight. To make sacrifices. And I have my opinion. Do not listen to people who have doubts. I want us to try. I believe you Pieter. I opened. And I do not want to give up.
It is necessary to make a decision. I'm thinking. There is little hope for help from friends. I speak and think.
Pieter I fight for the realization of the meeting. I fight for the fate of our relationship. If I fall and can not cope. This would mean the end.
I am waiting for your news. I hope I will have your news.
Alena

Letter 3

Thank you for your long letter of support and discussion.
I spent a lot of time yesterday to tell you all the news. I spend time to learn how to fly. A few lines from you.
Perhaps I made the wrong choice. And in vain he agreed to fly to you.
I do not feel your support and participation. So I'm all alone. So why do I single meeting?
So stupid. I thought you were serious and responsible. Alas, I was wrong. Good luck.

Letter 4

Hello my dear Pieter.
I'll wait for your call in a relaxed atmosphere after work. Give me a call at 22:30 Orenburg time.
I examine your news closely. Regarding your apartment. You do not have to worry much. I want to see you. And I do not care about luxury and I do not pay attention to the little things in your house. Do not worry. I understand.
I worry more. Flight. It's very exciting.
Our first meeting. This flight is a great distance. This whole way of bureaucracy and documentation. Expenses. I understand that it expects. I'm scared. This is my first experience. So little I know. And every day, with anxiety in his heart. To make such a decision.
But I have a strong desire to see you. Understand that between us. I feel your moral support. Your reciprocity. Your hospitality and care. Your protection.
Are you with me. With your hand, it's mutual. Then we implement our relationship. I believe in it.
After all, I think about the future. and our communication has shown me. that we can get. I like your photos. Communicating with you brought us, and we parted.
I do not want to get hurt and lose you. you are important to me. We are very close. Despite the distance. I believe you. I believe in you. our meeting unique.
I can imagine how we see each other. And my heart beat very strongly. As we come up and you say - "Hi, my Alena┬╗. We had a long and shyly look into the eyes. Hold hands and feel the warmth. For so long I was waiting for this. Then we hug very hard and did not let go. Feel how our hearts beat. Then go along.
I imagine our time together. Our walks and romantic evenings. That together we prepare. Our eyes and arms. For me it's like a dream.
You are so far. But I want to implement it. And not just leave all correspondence.

Letter 5

Hello my dear Pieter.
I examine your news closely. And remember a good day yesterday. Pieter, I speak to you frankly. I consider myself strong. and tell the truth. Just what I think. and I have not hidden. At this distance. the spiritual bond of trust and chuvstvitelnostti.

These days it is very exciting. Thoughts about the flight. on the meeting. Our first meeting. This flight is a great distance. This whole way of bureaucracy and documentation. Expenses.
I understand that it expects. But I have a strong desire to see you. Understand that between us.
In these days I feel your moral support. Your reciprocity. Your hospitality and care. Your protection.
Are you with me. With your hand, it's mutual. Then we implement our relationship. I believe in it.
After all, I think about the future. and our communication has shown me. that we can get. I like your photos. Communicating with you brought us, and we parted.
I do not want to get hurt and lose you. you are important to me. We are very close. Despite the distance. I believe you. I believe in you. our meeting unique.
I can imagine how we see each other. And my heart beat very strongly. As we come up and you say - "Hi, my ????┬╗. We had a long and shyly look into the eyes. Hold hands and feel the warmth. For so long I was waiting for this. Then we hug very hard and did not let go. Feel how our hearts beat. Then go along.
You say that you will meet me in your town. And it will be necessary to find a taxi. I think that it will not be difficult. At the airport, a lot of taxis. It is safe ? No criminals?
It will be with me my things. And I do not know much language. Probably you will need to write on paper. And transmit it to the taxi driver. And also have a connection on the phone when I arrive.
I imagine our time together. Our walks and romantic evenings. That together we prepare. Our eyes and arms. For me it's like a dream.
You are so far. But I want to implement it. And not just leave all correspondence.
With your Alena respect.

Letter 6

Hello my Pieter.
I was glad to hear you on the phone. But it was inconvenient to say. You forget that I'm at work?
Pieter, because you know that I am lonely and free woman. Why do you have an idea that I have a man? It was unpleasant to hear.
After all, you know that I am writing to work. And when you called me in the office he was the director. He tried to talk to me. But I talked to you.
Tomorrow we will try again to talk more quietly. I work until 22:00 on the Orenburg time.
Our acquaintance unusual and unexpected. But the wonderful and incredibly pleasant. What is the fate of Pieter? Two close relatives soul met at such a great distance.
To see each other. Look in my eyes. In the mirror of the soul. And see how the emotions and feelings are strong. Why do not we met before. But it does not return anything. Just look forward.
I feel your care and hospitality. It's nice to feel that you have the height of moral values. I feel good and open your heart.
Understanding is really important. And it is. For our relations need to fight and do everything to ensure that we meet.
I think about our time together. The first meeting. Walking. Embrace. Views. Smiles and laughter. The warmth and joy. Touching hands. I imagine how unusual to see your culture. Your life. The place where you live.
I look into the eyes of reality. I understand everything. And do not write unnecessary illusions. I do not have false hopes. I'm a liability to our relationship. To your feelings. I respect that.
Pieter, I was talking on his work regarding the holiday. They will give a holiday at the end of September. There is a time to gather information.
While this is new for me. And of course a bit scary to me. For the first time I plan a trip to such a long distance. In another new country.
Now you need to know about the documents and learn with respect to costs. I solved it. It is necessary to carefully examine all. I do not have experience. But I think that there are competent people who are doing exactly that. Today or tomorrow I will contact the travel agencies.
Please specify the name of the city to which I have to organize a trip?
Overcome all obstacles and distance. Make relationships a reality. I understand that this is work. Be with me.
I am waiting for your news. With tenderness and warmth of your Alena.

Letter 7

Hello my Pieter.
What is your mood today ? How did you sleep ?
You got my Sms night? It was a huge disappointment. When I went home, I put the money in the account. To have enough money to call and Sms. But the funds are not received immediately. I was at home and was waiting for it. Money only came at night. And I just wrote you Sms. I worry. After all, I know that we agreed and waited for you. But a misunderstanding. Everything will be fine. We will listen to each other. We smoem speak.
Pieter, I think about you a lot in my days. I wake up in the morning with the thought of you. With thoughts about our relationship. About future.
I am open to you. And I have a feeling inside. There is sympathy. There is reciprocity. I wish that we moved our relationship to reality.
Why do I dare to the relationship with you? Why do I think of flying thousands of kilometers? After all, even between us and the age difference. Distance. Culture. Why I still think about you flying to Pieter?
I have a stable job. I have an apartment. I have friends and family.

But the next I do not meet a man with heart and soul. To go along with confidence in life. I'm not stupid and weak. You know what makes me most sad? I'm alone. This is the biggest sorrow !!! But now I have met you. I keep his warmth and tenderness for one man. And I want to make happy. To go through life together. I met you. Let's try.
For decent relationship I ready for major changes in his life. In my city I have everything. I have a good life.
I decided to take a flight for you. Because I feel you and I like you. I like your views on life. I like your mutual goals. It means a lot to me.
And your age is not a barrier. I have no prejudice due to age. And speaking sincerely. For me, what matters is what's inside you. Your age is the existence of your body. Beauty goes with time. And then what's left?
I want to see you. After all, I feel a close spiritual connection. It is the main base. I believe that we have a solid spiritual foundation regard.
It's my opinion. My thoughts. My feelings. So what's inside me.
It should be responsible for each other's feelings. After all, we have entrusted it to each other. It's really very seriously.
Regarding our meeting. And formalities. I have not had time to go to my bank. To find out more. But it will be really cool. If we can soon unite our efforts. Pay all the agency. And to overcome this obstacle. To gain wings and meet. It will be amazing. While I do not have the excitement. After all, there is a barrier.
In the difficult situation we are together. So we'll be together. When there is more news. I immediately tell you.
Pieter will now hear each other and talk. I am waiting for your news. I go back to work. Your Alena.

Letter 8

Hello my Pieter.
I came back from my parents. And once on the job. There have been a good weekend. I went to my parents. We had a good time.
Just I want to say that I'll call you tomorrow on the telephone. I hope you will be free for lunch? I call you. Wait for my call.
You ask me the name of.
Name - Alena
Surname - Rudakova
Middle - Sergeevna
And I have a good mood. Although yesterday listened to instruction from parents. And their experiences.
Now we need to get to work. And I understand that totally absorbed in thoughts of the meeting and about you.
Yesterday was warm and cozy evening. I spoke with my parents. She told them everything. They worry and worry. But it's the parents, their natural excitement =)). I was
ready for their fears. I told him about your intentions. And our mutuality. I showed your photo. She told me about your invitation and hospitality. They respect my opinion.
Pieter, but I was asked to give them your full data. And your address. This is for my parents. That they had confidence. I hope that it will not be difficult for you.
Decide on a meeting is necessary and appropriate. Otherwise, all remain only correspondence.
Today I will talk at work about my vacation. And when there will be news I will write to you about it.
It is necessary to collect information about the trip. This is serious. Bureaucracy. Documentation. Flight. Costs.
Pieter, I'm ready. For you. For the sake of our relationship. I will try.
I do not have a foreign passport. I do not take off from Russia. to do it.
About the English language. I do not know him very well. but I can say. but I understand little.
Thinking of you. With dreams of our time together.
We are adults and we have laid a good and solid foundation in the relationship. I hope that we can build on.
We climb to the top of the mountain. Only from different sides. According to one rope. And we meet. We shall be together. The award for the traversed path. During the struggle for the future of our relations.
I go back to work.
Good day to you my Pieter. Embrace. Your Alena.

Letter 9

Hello my Pieter.
I'm glad to see your news and my good mood today. The sun is shining and I feel good. The weather makes me happy. Thank you for your candor and your words. Your words touched my heart. Understanding how close we are. Pieter, had to go a long way. Pain. Disappointment. Far in understanding people. Betrayal. But we passed this empty. To meet each other. And to build a real strong relationship. Meet the native soul. After such a time. Pieter, I'm glad. And I understand that it was not in vain.
I have news. I learned more about the flight in Amsterdam. I found a travel agency. I explained everything in detail. And they gave a full description. I recorded everything.
To depart from the country and arrive in your city Amsterdam.
I need to first get a - a foreign passport. In the police. The Ministry of Foreign Affairs. The cost of the cost of a passport 120 euros. Agency to design it for up to 7 days.
You can save and cheaper by 36%. But it will take up to 30 days.
- Further Medical Commission. To confirm my health. And the fact that I have no diseases in your country. I will pass the medical examination in the clinic for my 60 euros.
After I receive the passport. - Required insurance policy! It is worth 140 euros. Compulsory insurance of citizens traveling abroad. This is required by
accident. Or disease. The insurance company will pay for all medical services in your country.
Next book all the necessary tickets.
- Tickets. (1) Moscow - Amsterdam. (Depart unto thee is from Moscow. In Moscow I will pick up a visa). Conversely it is Amsterdam - Orenburg. The total cost of 330 euros. I was told that definitely need to buy 2 tickets at once. This is for the visa application.
After all this is. The Agency will be able to apply for a visa at the embassy. - Tourist visa. It costs just 35 euros. This visa fee. Just express delivery of documents to Moscow and work visa center - 50 euros.
When the embassy see my documents. They invite for an interview in Moscow and report date. And this will need tickets.
- Tickets (2): Orenburg - Moscow. Moscow - Orenburg. ( interview at the embassy). The total cost of 90 euro tickets.
I come home and tell me the solution agency. And the date of my visa ready. I'll be ready to fly. And I need to fly to Moscow. To get a visa and fly to you. Tickets - "Orenburg - Moscow". (Visa and then departure) = 53 euros.
- 2 days goodies in Moscow + food = 86 euros. 35 euros per night + ? 8 meals.
For the execution of all documents and flight organization. - Agency Services = 110 euros. My interests in the embassy will be an immigration attorney, it will provide the agency. He will support me in Moscow. The lawyer and the tour operator will prepare a complete package of documents for an interview with an officer in the embassy. The same clearance all other securities.
The cost of all the documents on the costs and the flight 1080 euros. The amount is not small. To make a move for a real relationship.
And the agency warned me. What rules are tightened. A crisis. And I can not have a fine or a loan or a bank. Bureaucracy. It turns out a loan is a negative for the approval of the visa. Counts as an internal debt !!! Damned bureaucrats and greedy power. I was immediately checked in the agency through a common database. I have no penalties or credits.
I was given a list of documents. Which I must transmit to the travel agency. When I pay all costs 1080 euros and will give them all the documents. After about 16 days, I will depart from my country. And to be in Amsterdam !!! Now they are waiting for me.
Ufff. I'm tired of writing. But now I know how I can arrive to you. It's complicated. but doable. I am ready to sacrifice. Our relationship above and the rest of the paper.
Pieter, I need to make a decision. So we met. Our relations are mature. I am pleased to know that we have a mutual serious.
I need to count all my savings. And to try to resolve the situation with the payment. In order to begin to act.
This letter is to take away a lot of time. and I need to get back to work. I will try to write you again. Thinking of you. Your Alena.