Letter(s) from Elena Kazakova to Peter (Austria)

Letter 1

Hi, I have got your e-mail from local russian dating agency and I hope it is right. I am 29 russian single girl coming for living to America after two months. I'm interested in friendship or relationship without any online adult fun. Hope you are for real and if so reply back letting me know exactly your city name and state name cause I'm not interested in long distance relationship. I'm not ready for wasting time. I hope you too. I am sending my pictures hope you will do the same.

Letter 2

Hello Peter, this is Elena.
Good to hear from you.
I apologize for the delay with replying.
I would like to get to know you and see where it leads us.
About me, I already wrote to you, I'm 29 years old, I have blue eyes and my hair color blonde, my height 5 feet and 5 inches. I am in great shape. I not when was not married and I have no kids. I work as the realtor in small company which specializes on sale of the real estate. But my basic speciality the teacher of Russian language. I have serious intentions and I do not want to make a wrong choice. Now I have written to you. For me it is a way which will allow me to try to find a man whom I could not find in the standard ways (such as - acquaintance in a bar, in the street or on job). I do not play game and I search real for the man. And I think we can begin to correspond with you. Is it true? We are two people who want to meet someone. I think we can try to know better each other. My hobbies: sports, mountain ski, swimming, reading of books. I love children, animals, the nature. I am a good cook. Also I will be glad to find out more about you and your interests. I really would like to know you better, your race, languages which you can speak, a hobby? Today, I have not enough time to write more about myself. But in the next letter, I will write you more detailed about myself and my life. I will wait for your letter. In attachment to this letter you can see my pics. With best regards. I was hoping to hear more about you. Elena.
P.S. Please tell me more about you and lets get to know more about each other. Also, I wait from you new pics. If you have any questions, let me know, I will be glad to response ASAP!

Letter 3

Hi Peter. The first thing, I want to do - to say ''thanks you'' for your response! Let me apologise as well for the delay in responding back. I was sincerely glad to receive your letter, and I am very grateful to you that you have found time for writing to me. Peter why, you have not reacted in to my request to send me your picture. Can I hope you will send me your picture? I think, it will be very interesting to speak with you in phone. But first I would like to get to know you better. Therefore, I want that we wrote to each other more about yourself and your life to see where it leads us. I live in small city Armavir Krasnodar territory. Distance from Armavir up to Krasnodar approximately 200 kilometers. Armavir approximately 1400 kilometers on the south the east from Moscow. My birthday on April 4 1988. I never was married and I have no children. I have no parents. In 2012 year I have graduated the Kuban state university pedagogical education in the city Krasnodar. After the university I work as the realtor. In Russia, the salary of teachers very small and consequently, I work as realtor in small company. What I am looking for in a man especially is friendship, long term friendship. I need someone who is honest and caring, warm. I want to have a boyfriend for a while who later if everything is right could be more. The most important parts of a relationship is love, trust and communication. But, without trust the other two do not matter. You cannot communicate with someone, no matter how much you love him or her, without trusting them. Love is important, but you have to trust the other person implicitly to truly love them, because you need to know they love you back for it to be real. Our country is not rich and its very difficult to find a good job. Russian men begin to drink alcohol and become angry. It gets on divorce. Even if they get much money, they also begin to waste them on alcohol or other women. In our country a number of women is more than men. Women manages a household, brings up children and has a constant work. I've understood the real values of the life: do kindness to people and it will come back to you doubled. There are a lot of problems in Russia. People became evil and closed. That's why I decided to find a boyfriend abroad Russia. My hobbies, cooking meal; reading books, I like various music. All depends on mood. I enjoy the beach in the summer months and doing water activities like swimming. In the winter months I enjoy skiing and skate on ice. I love tourism, a camping, sports. I often walk in the forest I enjoy to go camping. Last autumn, I travelled to India. I travelled across Russia much: to Moscow,Suzdal, Saint Petersburg, Sochi, Crimea Anapa. Once,I would like to visit your country. I have many ideas, but I do not want to rush this precious moment when two souls are looking towards each other across the continents for an everlasting friendship. Peter, I wish to ask you: What, you search in the woman? What should be the ideal woman? Also, I wish find out more about you. I hope, that you will not be angry for my long letter. I very much hope to receive your response.
Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send you I wash pictures taken the last spring in Moscow.

Letter 4

Hi Peter, I was on business trip in the city of Krasnodar. Peter, how your day was? Hope you are glad to get my email? Because I was really glad when I got your. Peter many thanks for your picture. They have very much liked me.
Today my day started today as usual: I woke up at 6:00 AM, then I have on jog. After the jog, I have taken a shower and have had breakfast. For a breakfast I eat fried eggs and cheese sandwich. At 8:00 AM I have arrived for work. My working day ends at 6:00 pm. I work Monday through Friday, and sometimes Saturday. I like to watch TV programs about sports and news, and about events that have occurred in the world. After watching the TV, I go to sleep - about 11:00 pm. Peter probably you think that it is too late? I really good cook. I do not brag, but I really know my abilities in cooking of tasty and various meal. I have no uncle and aunt, brothers and sisters. My parents have divorced, when I was 2.5 years. My father has found a younger woman for himself and left us. My mother died last year. My mom - my guardian angel. She was not old she was only 50 years old. She had cruel illness, stomach cancer. And now I live alone. My religion - the Orthodox Christian. Also, I wish to tell to you about my girlfriend Nina. Some time ago my girlfriend Nina met on the Internet with a man from New York. A few weeks ago Nina's friend invited her to visit him in New York. Nina has agreed, and tomorrow she has flight to him. I am very happy for Nina. It was Nina who advised me to look for online dating. And I am so glad that dating agency gave me your email. Before, I would not have believed that this could happen on the internet. Peter, now I want to ask to you some questions: Is it important for you the nationality of the person? What foodstuff, you like? It is very interesting to me, what weather at you? We have normal temperature for this Spring season 10 degrees above than degrees a zero. Hope to hear from you soon. Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send you a picture, me and my mother. This picture was taken last summer after visiting the church.

Letter 5

Hi Peter, I'm very glad to see your letter.
Today I was thinking about you. I really want to know you, I want speak with you, I want take your hand and see your eyes. Probably my words sound too frank, but it's true, and I do not want to hide it. Russian women do their best for their men but they don't get anything back. All we need is a couple of tender words and touch of male hands. Is that so hard? I do not think that a romantic evening and candlelight dinner is very difficult for the male to arrange. Isn’t it? But here in Russia as usually the women organizing such present for the man and not vice versa. If a woman carries heavy bags, no man is helping her: only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian lady never feels the happiness in the heart. Probably you think that I am beautiful but here in Russia I am not considered a beautiful lady. Usually Russian men treat ladies disrespectfully They consider that women have to work only, also cook, wash up and entertain the man when he wants it. Insulting women is a quite common for Russian men. I like to cook, wash up, also I like any other chores around the home, but sometimes I would like to get caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the male: there are good male but there are bad male. Peter, a long time ago I loved a young man. We've had a good time together. We were not married, but we have been together for almost 3 years. One year ago, I decided to stop all relations with this guy. As I already told, we had a good time together. He was a kind to me, but he liked to drink. When he was drunk, he became an absolutely another person. He spoke to me very badly. Later his love to alcohol became a habit, and then he became rude and evil. He even hit and beat me a few times, and the next day he smiled and talked to me so as if nothing had happened to. I began to be afraid of him, that's why I've had to leave him. In my heart and my soul there was a deep wound. After this incident I could not get acquainted with other men. Now I don't trust Russian men. I'm afraid give my love to wrong man and get hurt again. Well... right now I stop this thread because I don't like it. I always tell the truth, and I don't like when people lie. I hate it. By the way, I like to dream very much. When you have the dream, a life filled with meaning. When you have the dream, a life becomes more interesting and varied. Though my dreams come true too rarely. I've never been with someone with whom I could share these ideas. But now I have found you Peter, and I am very glad. I don't judge the people for their location or skin color. Peter. Please don't stop to email me. Write me every day, even if I don't answer you every day. Your letters give me strength and my day is filled with joy. Until now I have never been acquainted with a man from another country. This is my first acquaintance on the Internet. And I apologize if I wrote something not correct or wrong I hope you are not angry. I will wait for your letter with impatience. And now I want to ask to you some questions: Do you believe in love? Love at first sight? If you have any questions, you can ask me. I will try to answer them. I thank you beforehand.
Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send you my picture from last summer. We with the girlfriend walked in city, I have seen the beautiful car and have asked my girlfriend Nina, to take a picture near this car.

Letter 6

Hi my dear and the distant friend Peter. I waited for this minute with impatience to answer you. Please do not forget, write me every day at least two words, then I will know that everything is OK. I will be calm for you and won't worry.
About love at first sight, if I didn't believe it then I would not be talking with you. Every ones in a while you see a light peaking through under a door. It acts as an invitation. Your first email was a small light, when I opened the door on the other side was a whole new world that I have never seen with you as the sun. Beautiful, amazing, and full or wonder. This relationship we have started via email is the begining of a life long friendship that might blossom into some thing more? Love is such intoxicating narcotic, which makes do mad, but sometimes funny actions. Only person in love can fill the whole bath with champaign, only person in love can present the million of scarlet roses or stand whole night under balcony of the loved woman singing serenades. Yesterday when I was walking in the park and thinking about you. I was tired and sat down on the bench. I closed my eyes and thought about you. A wind was blowing, it scutched my hairs and enveloped my body by its chilly freshness. I don't know why, but I thought that you changed in wind, and you tenderly touched my hairs with you invisible hands. It seemed to me that I am situated somewhere there with you. And my heart began beating as never before. People who were passing near me probably thought that I am crazy women they saw me sitting on the bench with closed eye and smiling. But I didn't think about their opinion. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my flat is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. Peter can you imagine? When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me? I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. Answer me one question. Do you like when your friends come to your home? Peter, my day brightens tremendously whenever I see an e-mail from you. I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send to you my pictures from the last summer on the black sea. Other my picture, has taken also by the black sea, I dived with a mask.

Letter 7

Hi my dear friend Peter!
Today, I write to you from my working computer.
I wish to inform you awful news. Yesterday after evening walk, I came home and found the door of my flat broken open… I came in - my flat was almost empty. Someone took the TV set, computer, digital camera the stereo and even the hair dryer. They didn’t even disdain to take my new shoes! The worst of all is that a computer and digital camera, I have bought on credit and completely have not paid cost. I called the police, all they said to me was that I was the third person who had been robbed during the day - looks like a whole gang of thieves is working in our city. I hope that the police will find them - but I know that there’s hardly any chance. I have some friends Olga and Nina. I very much regret but till now, I have not received any news from Nina, I very much worry about Nina as she in New York. Then, I have gone to my girlfriend Olga. Only one best friend her name Olga, she has calmed me and has given me her old TV. We are friends for 18 years. She a true friend and always helps me. Today I talked with my boss, I asked him allowed me use Internet at least 25-30 minutes a day. And my boss has approved my request and has allowed to use to me the Internet on work. I cant let him deprive me my private life. Now I shall write the letters to you from my work.
Peter, now I wish to tell you about our small city Armavir, located in the Krasnodar area. Distance from Armavir up to Krasnodar approximately 200 kilometers. Armavir approximately 1400
kilometers on the south east from Moscow. The population of our small city Armavir, makes about 191 100 thousand inhabitants. I don't know if you have seen such houses. These are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. There are a lot of buildings, but they are not like in your country. And that is special for all cities in Russia. My best friend her name Olga. She lives in an old wooden house. Olga has daughter her name Anna. Olga the unfortunate woman. Olga had a husband his name was Sergey. Sergey has been killed on the Chechen war and now Olga brings up Anna one. She has told, that the most valuable in her life, is her daughter Anna. I completely agree with her. I help Olga, to bring up Anna, in weekend we visit park, cinema, and sometimes we go to fish. We always spend our time together. My girlfriend Olga says that she wants to live in a quiet town. And I agree with her.
A big city has a big traffic, a fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, light shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, theatres and attractions. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But we have places a zone of rest, a beach, parks. They are very beautiful. If there were no criminal,the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in big cities, as well as in the small ones is the worst part of our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about these sad things. I must finish my letter. I want to ask you what makes you happy Peter? What was the best gift that you got from a woman? Your country has many criminals?
Tell to me more about your country and your city in which you live.
Sincerely yours and with best wishes. I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Your friend Elena.
P.S. Unfortunately today, I cannot send you my pictures. Because, I have no my pictures in my working computer. But, I shall bring my pictures for work and shall ask our programmer to make my pictures in my working computer. Today I to you send map Krasnodar to area. Red line marked our city Armavir.

Letter 8

Hi my dear Peter.
I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. Today, I have again visited police. But they have told that they cannot find criminals who have plundered my apartment. Unfortunately, my computer and other stolen things were not insured. Police have not given me any certificate for shop. Therefore, I should pay the remained sum of the credit of shop, for the stolen computer and other things.
I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required two days to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter.
In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Pleasedo not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
I am shy, but I kiss you Peter.
With tenderness Elena.
P.S. Peter, I am sending you recent pictures taken on the Victory Day parade on May 9th. On this day, we in Russia celebrate Victory Day in the Great Patriotic War of 1941-1945.

Letter 9

Hi my Dear Peter!!!!
I with impatience waited for this minute, to answer your letter. I very much regret that, I cannot write to you every day. I want to tell to you what happened yesterday.
I and my girl friend Olga went to an orphanage for children.
I and Olga help these children in orphanage. Children which live there have no parents. Several times a month we visit this orphanage to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few
money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children don't have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. That's why some people voluntary
render the feasible help. We help to repair in a building. Many walls don't have even wall-paper. Stucco has fallen off. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible.
The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes . I am very for these children. My girl friend and I help to do repair. We glue
wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much. When we glued new wall-papers, a little boy approached to me. His name was Nikita. He is such a charming boy! He is 4 years old. He took my hand and said, aunt Elena we were looking a cartoon, but the TV broke. I understand nothing in electronics. I wanted to find somebody from men. But basically women work in the orphanage. There are two men, but they work only till 17:00. In the evening and at night there are only a few women - teachers. I didn't want refuse to Nikita. He looked in my eyes and so hoped that I would repair the TV-set. And I decided to try. It was a very old tv-set. It broke not for the first time. Once I saw how a repairman repaired such a tv-set. He moved some big electronic lamp and after that the tv-set began to work again. The repairman told that all contacts had burnt and smashed up and it was necessary to clean them. I decided to try to move that lamp in hope that it would help again. I took a spoon(a spoon is metal, but I forgot that metal passes an electricity) and stretched a hand to this lamp. But during this moment the big spark flashed and I got an electric current. It was so unexpectedly and hurt. Can you imagine it? After that I sat on the floor and laughed for a long time. I regret that you did not see it. I think that you will laugh seeing how I put the metal spoon into the tv-set . It was really very cheerful. I should finish my letter. I with not patience wait your letter. Also, I very much wish to speak with you in phone. I send you my number cell phone +79877043501.
Get many kisses!!! Your friend Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send you two my pictures from last summer by the black sea. Unfortunately in this summer, I still did not swim.

Letter 10

Hi Peter, I was so glad to get your letter! When I get your letters I feel like a baby waiting for a gift on the Christmas Eve. Men had never been so sincere with me. Gaps between your letters feel like forever! I could never imagine that I'll be writing to a man who's many thousand miles away from me - but it's happening! :-) I don't want it all to be self-delusion. I love dreaming and I think that everyone's dreams can come true if the person has enough faith in has dreams! Peter, don't you think the same? I read many fairy tales when I was a child, probably, that's why I love dreaming so much. A man can even see the things he dreams of when he's asleep.. There's a whole special book of dream interpretations in Russia - it's called "Sonnik". This book describes people's dreams and tells them what to expect in future. Night dreams come true very often… However, not all dreams that come true make us happy. For instance, today many girls dream of a rich husband, posh jewellery, expensive cars. Most of Russian rich men are gangsters, though, it's no wonder that they don't take the woman for a human being. If a girl agrees to marry a gangster, she becomes a hostage of her own freedom. Russians call such women "birds in golden cages": they have everything but freedom and happiness… It's impossible to build the LOVE SANCTUARY based on money! Money can't make a person happy, that's why I don't care whether my future husband will be rich or not. Do you feel the same, Peter? Peter, you ask, whether it is possible for you to call to me? Certainly call. I have given you my cell phone that, you could call and talk at any time. I'm sorry but my letter will be pretty short today. I think, next time I will have more time to write a bigger letter. I'm thinking about you and waiting for your next letter. Elena.
P.S. I send you my picture from last autumn, I travelled to India. This picture has been taken at the airport of the Moscow Sheremetyevo.

Letter 11

Hi my love Peter. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. And now I'll do it. Today my boss informed me that I would have a vacation approximately in 2-3 weeks, I shall have 2 months of a vacation. But I wasn't pleased. I didn't expect that I would receive a vacation. But schedule, that
constituted by boss cannot be change. I was so frightened that I can lose you. I imagined that I should spend this vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I should sit in loneliness and think about you. I should aimlessly wander on streets and fall asleep with tears on eyes every night. I have been waiting for my vacation in the autumn and now I receive vacation but it don't bring pleasure to me. Because in the next year, I cannot receive my vacation. I imagined that I should spend some months without you and awful emptiness had appeared in my heart. All world around became uninteresting for me and I told myself:" NO! It is not for me!" I decided to spend this vacation with you. Also it is my old dream to visit your country. I thought what I can do to meet you. Simply to meet. That's all what I want now. Today, I spoke with travel firm which makes all documents required for travel to other countries. I wondered how much it would cost for me. They told me that this service would cost 300 USD. Also they told that I could make all in Moscow where an international consulate was. But I have considered that if I shall make directly in Moscow, I will squander more money. The way to Moscow and back also residing there will cost much. I shall squander more money than 300 USD if I go there. I have been explained that it will be necessary to visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions in Krasnodar. Also me was told, that they need information about me from the police. If I am a law-abiding citizen, I shall get the documents. I have never outraged the law. I shall have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the documents. I must wait for a long time the queue. This firm allows to avoid many problems and to make all for faster term. I asked how long it would take to make the documents. I was answered that it would take approximately 2 weeks. I understand that our relations are not long yet, but I trust you. And I very hope so you are, as I love you. Many years I ask myself a question: Why everything depends on money? I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have some savings. And I think that it be enough to come to you, my sweetheart.
Our love will overcome any distances. Live for LOVE! When you Love, do it with all your might, all your Devotion and for all eternity! I really think it's better to love and fail and not having fallen in love at all. Since I started talking to you, I just can't stop thinking of you Peter. I send you two my recent pictures from my work from this spring. I with not patience wait your answer. I KISS YOU Peter!
I KISS YOU! I KISS YOU! I KISS YOU!
Elena.
P.S. Peter, I have absolutely forgotten to tell, today I have received the letter from Nina. She has written, that she's fine, she is very glad that, she has met her boyfriend in New York, she is happy with. Nina has bragged to me, has told that tomorrow, they will go to travel for 1 month. They plan to visit Spain, France and Italy.I am very glad for Nina and I wish Nina good luck.

Letter 12

Hi my love Peter! How are you? I'm wonderful!
When I see your letter, my heart is similar to a bird in a cage. Wants to depart a breast and to fly to you. I never experience before similar. I have not enough time with official registration of papers. I spend all my time for this purpose. To begin carry out our meeting I be engaged in the international documents, passage of a medical commission and other things to prepare the document of travel in your country.Last night I went to the church. I put a candle for ours with you happiness. I think that God will help us. I'm thinking about you. I'm thinking about you constantly. At my job everybody are surprised why I'm so merry. They don't know that I'm corresponding with you. Do you believe in love? One love and forever till the end of life. I believe. I believe in love. There are no the barriers for love. The age and distance are not important. When the people love he doesn't notice it. I believe that the day will come and our hearts will join. And the people will envy our happiness. Because we will come ourselves to our happiness. Nothing will happen if you sit and do nothing. And I believe that we will build our happiness. We will build it of the small bricks as Egyptian the Pharaones built their pyramids. And we will build our pyramid. And we will call it the love pyramid of Peter and Elena. I'm thinking about your letters. I think how it's good that I have met you in the Internet. If I was told before, that I will meet my love in the Internet, I would not believe this man. I would think, that this man is crazy or joker. But it has happened. It has happened not to somebody but to me. And I'm glad that the people invented the Internet. I didn't think that it's possible to find my only love in the Internet. But I have found. Please, don't give me up. It will be a strong pain for me. I won't simply go through it. But I believe that you won't do it. I love you, my prince Peter. When, I shall have the full information on my visa, I shall inform to you exact date of my arrival to you. I think that when we shall meet, we together shall decide how many, I can remain with you.
I have written this letter and recalled. I have forgotten to send you my kiss. I'm kissing you my love. KISS !!!
Your love forever Elena.
God Bless and Protect Us.
P.S. Peter, I send you my two pictures taken the last summer by the black sea.

Letter 13

Hi my ocean of love Peter.
Every day I think about you and about our love. Our love resembles me a little beautiful flower, which is entrenching through dry ground and is stretching to the sun. Our love is watered by a rain of kindness, tenderness and trust. Every day our flower is becoming stronger and harder. Our love takes force from our letters. This is a thin thread which has connected us. I am very glad that we build our small world of love together. Our world of love will be strong, because we build it from Devotion, Probity, Respects and Trust. Love - this is world for two persons, to which any stranger can't come in, otherwise everything will be ruined. And then it will be impossible to collect rebuilt the splinters of the love. In Russia people say that Love is a great force. Love can overcome all the barriers and distances. Two loving hearts are streatching to each other like two magnets. Our hearts are tired from loneliness, that's why they must be together and beat like one heart. Our hearts are like two great oceans. They are vast and very deep yet calm an peaceful on the surface. Our feeling run very deep and they are very strong. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a power full wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, beautiful, powerful and forever...(one heart, one ocean).
Peter certainly, I am very glad that, you have suggested to remain in your apartment. I with pleasure shall remain with you. About sex, I think we shall talk at a meeting.
I ask to forgive me if I have told you something wrong, but these were my thoughts. May be I haven't answer some your questions. When I get your letter I am so happy that i am forgetting about everything. I write you not with the mind but with the heart. At this moment my mind is situated with you.
At this moment I am under your hipnosses. My thoughts are only about you and soon we will be together. Peter, my question to you: Peter You will be mine the guide in your country?
Where we shall go, and what interesting you will show me?
How you think, we can have future?
Peter, I wish to give you my post address. Russia:352919.
City Armavir. Street Pugacheva 28 - 8.
Forever love Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send you a picture, I with my cat. Unfortunately in the beginning of Spring, my cat was gone also I till now I can not find him. These pictures have been taken on the New Year's holiday.
You can see, we with a cat had a champagne. (SMILE)

Letter 14

Hi my love Peter!
My mood is very good. Soon we will be together.
Peter, write the exact, full name of the airport closest to you. If your airport has a code, write a code of the airport and whether has your airport flights from Russia?
I think that you are a honest, understanding and kind person. From my life I have understood, understanding and respect the most important in Relations between the man and the woman. It so is important for understanding and respecting not only The opinion, and even opinion of other person. I studied psychology, and the main mistake Married couples is that everyone proves the correctness and does not want to recede from the opinion. Each person can be mistaken. In most cases because of Such trifles there are quarrels and scandals. In fact it is much more convenient to discuss a problem in To quiet conditions and together to find the best exit. We in Russia have saying One head well, and two is better (smile). I am right? Still I very much appreciate a true friendship. When I shall come you should acquaint me with yours Friends. I do not want to stand across you and your friends. The man should have The right to communicate only the man's company, without women. But not all time (smile). Friends should so to meet, drink in a bar beer and messages man's conversations. I will love you in the future and I love you now. I am waiting for the moment of our meeting very much. I am thinking of you and writing you these words. These words are coming from my heart. My heart is beating faster now because of you. I reread all our letters and love you more and more. I love you very much, I need you very much and I hope that our meeting will soon. I am still waiting for you letters!!! I hope very much that our love is forever!!!!!!!!!!!!! The love of Elena and Peter is eternal !!!!!!!!!!!!!! With all my love. Hot and passionate kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss for you.
I send you my children's and recent picture. In my children's picture to me of 5 years.
Your Elena.

Letter 15

Hello, my king Peter!
How was your day? I'm wonderful.
Every day I wait with impatience for your letters and our meeting.
Peter I have received the information of your airport, it - XXXXX.
Now, I do not worry and I know at what airport you me will meet.
Today, I have received not pleasant news from my girlfriend Olga. Olga has informed me, that her daughter Anna is sick, and now she is in hospital. I have been very grieved, Anna very good girl, and I always loved her, and assisted Olga to bring up her. I shall ask the god, about Anna health, and I hope her health will come in norm.
I want to tell you how i spent my yesterday evening. Yesterday in the evening I learnt to cook a new dish. It's a pancakes with meat. It were so tasty. Sometime I will cook only for you. You wake up in the morning and I bring you coffee. You get up, take a shower, come to the kitchen and there is ready meal there. In the evening we will have supper with candles. Also I yesterday went in orphanage, to feed children pancakes. If you saw as they were glad. I was glad doubly. Very much it is pleasant to me when these children are happy. I very much love these children. I am very happy, that I shall soon with my beloved Peter, and I want to divide happiness with somebody else. I'm sending you a small poem. Tell me if you like it. OK?

Bright, eyes
like heaven's stars,
Lips so full
I need to know - when
will be he mine
for all of time?

His name is Peter
He is my Prince
I shall take him to the ball
to dance in front of all.
Midnight will come
though he will not run.
He will be mine
to the end of time.

I've prayed so long
for one as this.
With him beside me
we will have bliss.

Write back as soon as possible.
I'm waiting for your letter.
And I'm thinking about you.
Kiss you.
Your Elena.

P.s. Peter, I send you a picture, I, Olga and her daughter Anna.This picture from the last summer. Other picture I and my friend Nina. Nina which now on travel with her man from New York.

Letter 16

Hi my love Peter! My mood is very good. Soon we will be together. Tell me that this is true.
Peter you very attentive and kind a man. Thanks for your anxiety on Anna.
Now I have the most intense days in my life.
Today, I visited travel firm which makes my documents for arrival to you. I shall make the visa for the sake of you. It will be my gift for you Peter. Ok? As a rule from 10 applicants only by one received the visa. I have paid big enough sum of money to not stand in long queue and to not wait for consideration during several months. I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. Me asked about my private life, me asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about the attitude to other countries, about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly as is really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants do not answer so directly and openly such questions. They have not got used to hear such answers, but they have told what to hear fair and truthful answers it is much more pleasant than word which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanage also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission.
To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. I have given documents on my donations in children's orphanages. These are small donations, but very few people do it. From several orphanages I have got support in writing from tutors and children. They have convinced the commission, that I the worthy person to visit another country, because I have accepted responsibility for children which I help. I have given characteristics from work. I have shown the document on my apartment which me was left by my mom.
I have told the commissions directly and openly, that I dreamed to see other countries, but I am sure that everything dream of it, even those who speaks that does not dream. I want to use chance to visit your country. They have been surprised, because nobody spoke so openly. I have shown them all my documents testifying that in the childhood I lived with the mom without parents. I have told that I all my life lived for other people and gave pleasure and happiness to another's children. What bad in that that I once will visit another country, once to receive really big pleasure in a life? They did not expect that I will tell such words. And as you can believe I could convince them. I simply want to meet you, and to spend some happy time. It only will help us to learn more each other. I simply want to spend my vacation with you, and for some happy time with you I am ready to give much. But the meeting cannot spoil our relations. On the contrary. I want to be your visitor some happy time. I think that you also will be happy as I. All people meet. But there is no such law what to meet is possible only after you know about the person all. On the contrary, as far as it is interesting to learn about the each other being face to face.
It is much more essential than letters. You will see my eyes, I will see yours. You will touch my hand, I will touch yours. We will talk and laugh, whisper each other on an ear pleasant words, we will tell about thoughts and feelings, we will dream together and enjoy joint pastime. It so miraculous. It is such big chance to learn more about the each other. It simply a meeting of two very much close friends but as far as pleasant and long-awaited this meeting, you only think. Now I wait for the messenger and it a to me will tell, that my visa is ready. Please write me what you think, I'll wait for your email. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!
On always your Elena.
P.S. Peter, I send you my pictures. On one of pictures, you can see the old car beside me. I think in your country there are no such old cars. Other picture, I in my room on a sofa.

Letter 17

Hi my love Peter.
I ask to forgive me but my letter will be short. I at all have no time.
Every day I thank the God that I found you in this crazy world!!!
I never tired to say you Peter that I love you all my heart and I'm waiting this beautiful day when we'll be together and can speak hug and kiss. It will be the best holiday in my life. I want you in my life Peter I want to lie down to sleep with you and wake up with you Peter and everyday. I want to be yours!
I think you love me too and we must do all for our meeting, I trust you very much and I'm sure that this day which I'm waiting comes soon because I truly love you and want to be with you, it's my dream now but it's realizable.
This day comes nearer, I feel it and I think you feel it too.
I want to say hello to you from all my friends they wish love for us.
IT's a beautiful life now for me because I have the man which I love.
It's you Peter and I don't want to lose you!!!!!
Soon we shall together!!!!!!!!
Your love Elena!

Letter 18

Hi my soul Peter. My day was wonderful. I am sorry, that could not write earlier. Now I think all the nights that soon I will see you. I have already imagined for thousands times this meeting, but even now I can't describe what our meeting will be. I am sure in one thing that it will be one of the most beautiful days in my life.
Now, when I think about it my heart begins beating strong in my reast and I feel a nice trembling in my body. I can't wait for the moment when I sit into the plane which will take me through thousands kilometres to you Peter, to my dream. Here days are so long and boring.
But I think that nothing can spoil my mood, because I am far away from here in my thoughts, because all my dreams are about you Peter and about our meeting. I want to close my eyes and open them only at the moment when you meet me at the airport. I imagine how I go down on stairway and you are coming to me. And I want to rush to your embrace hear your voice, feel your smell and tell you in both languages what I will feel t this moment. I so really imagine all this. I am full with feeling that all this is happening now. And I feel for the first time that I am a beloved and desired. And I am ready to thaw in your embrace. I am thawing already now.
Forever your love Elena!!

Letter 19

Hi my love Peter!
Last night my girlfriend Olga has visited me.
She has been heart-broken, she sobbed. She has informed me, that she had conversation with the doctor who treats her daughter Anna. And the doctor has informed that her daughter Anna requires complex surgical operation for the kidneys. Cost of this operation of 5000 USD. Olga cried because of helplessness. She has told to me, that she has not enough money for operation. She has approximately 1900 USD, but she need at least in 3100 USD (initial payment). Olga knew, that I am going to visit you and that all my savings are intended for a trip to you. I could not look how Olga suffers. In the past to year Olga has lost Sergey, who was her husband and Anna father: he has been killed on the Chechen war.I could not allow that she has lost her daughter. I have taken my money, and we with Olga have gone to hospital.We have paid 3000 USD which the doctor demanded (initial payment from 5000 USD). The doctor has calmed us and has told that soon Anna will have surgical operation, and all will be good. I think that you would act as well and you do not condemn my act that I have spent money which intended for a trip to you: children are the most dear that we have in our life.
Peter, today I went to visas firm. I was told that my documents was ready at last. I was most happy the person at that time. But this firm not only makes visas,it also sells tickets. I decided to use their service again. I was told that the flight to XXXXX costed 1890.70 USD. It was too expensive for me, and I asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they offered. It would be on June, 20th. And cost 560.50 USD. I wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the money this time and the other part later. But they refused and I was in despair. I asked them to help me so long that tears came to my eyes. And they agreed. I wasted all my money, but it wasn't enough. So I went to pawnshop and pawned, silver and gold embellishments which I had from my mom. I got 100 USD and that was enough for initial payment. I have paid in whole 180.50 USD. It was my last money! The number of the flight on which I resevered the ticket is Aeroflot Russian Airlines Flight XXXX Economy Departs: Tue Jun 20 xx:xx am Moscow - Sheremetyevo Airport (SVO) Arrives: Tue Jun 20 xx:xx pm XXXXX. It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything I can. I paid visa. I have bought the ticket to Moscow. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I don't want to burden you. I want to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I have failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only 380 USD. I must pay this money before June, 15th. Otherwise I will lose my money. If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please, send the money for the ticket tomorrow morning.
I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or a union of boy-friend and girl-friend or a union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you don't trust. So I am. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you. Of course if you don't want you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money.
IT IS TOO BAD BUT NOT TOO FATAL . I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. It is much easier to go through difficulties and barrier together.I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a step towards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step. Tell me Peter, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please help me. I wonder how it is possible to do. There is an International Western Union (by the way, they have a website, called www.westernunion.com).
You may send me money using Western Union according Russia: BINBANK.
Armavir 352900.
K. Libknekhta.st. 59.
+7-495-7555075
For ELENA KAZAKOVA.
You can to go to Western Union office for sending a payment. It's better than using online payment because there are many problems and we need to be safe with money payment. It's very serious thing. I asked about questions they could have in Western Union because system is for relatives without any taxes. You have to say them you know the human you sending and there will be no any problem. They can ask you many questions because of security policy just tell them you know the receiver person. You can use Money Gram company also. To get the money, I should tell the employee of sender's full name, full address, address of the western union from which have been sent money. Exact amount and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will be given to you, when you send the money.
I love you very much! I think about you Peter every time.
Forever your Elena.