Letter(s) from Oksana Agacheva to Pete (England)

Letter 1

Hello my friend Russell!
The large thank to you, that have found time for the answer to my letter. It means, that we have put a beginning for our friendship. I hope, that our correspondence will have continuation and we can learn each other more. In this letter I would like to continue my story about myself, that you knew about the Russian women, at least, about some of them better.
First of all I shall begin the story about my childhood. I grew by the usual girl in usual happy family. Already then I had dream to become the woman in a white dressing gown, and to devote myself to health of the environmental people. Therefore nobody was surprised, when I have acted in Medical institute and successfully it has finished. Then I have gone to work. It so is wonderful - To receive from work pleasure and to know, that today you have helped someone. Please, Tell to me please about the work.
From school I studied the English language, I dreamed when I can see other countries, learn their culture, and the knowledge of foreign language will help me. But unfortunately, I yet was not in any to other country, except for Russia. Tell me please about yours travels, it would be very interesting to me about it to know.
Know, I very much love Russian wood, I love to go in campaigns together with the friends, it so is pleasant - to sit in the evening about a fire, to talk to the people. Such minutes especially feel association, affinity of the people, which sit beside. Such minutes I overlook, that I am lonely, that beside there is no man, which will heat me all life. And coming home, I again feel a cold of my lonely apartment. But today I know, that at me one more friend it you has appeared. If you knew, how I would like, that you have filled in emptiness in my heart. But I know what still early to speak about the attitudes, large than friendship, therefore we shall not hurry time, still ahead.
Today I shall tell to the mum about my new friend, it will be pleasant, that in my life there is you, even if you the friend on correspondence. It is surprising, that is possible to communicate almost with the unfamiliar man and so quickly to accept it for the friend. But it is really possible. Probably in some days I already shall be with impatience to wait from you of the letter and I shall worry very much, if you will not write to me. Please, write to me your questions, I am necessary on them I shall answer. Today I finish to write the letter only what tomorrow again to receive from you the letter. Please came to me your photo, and I shall send you mine. Good-bye!Oksana

Letter 2

Hello my dear Russell!
I am happy, on the present is happy to receive from you the new letter. I with interest shall learn about you the new information. At me such feeling has appeared, that this not solar day together with your letter has glanced in my heart a beam the sun. It is valid so. Some days from a beginning of our correspondence have passed all, but in my soul a beginning to wait new, while inexplicable, feeling of Trust. It is pleasant, when you can trust to the man. I very much to trust, and I want that other people trusted me. I hate a deceit, therefore I try to be with all sincere. Probably, it is not always good, but I consider myself as the honour man, and it is not necessary will pretend, hiding a lie. Therefore I want that between us there was a complete trust. I want to receive from you more letters, because I have need for dialogue with you. Unfortunately, I have no an opportunity to write to you many letters, because I write you through Internet - cafe, but I shall try, that my letters were regular.
City, in which I live, a little than differs from silent cities of Russia. Here there is not enough of industry, but there is a lot of greens and silent streets. Recently economy of Russia grows, and it promotes beauty and cleanliness of streets. But the Russian man became more business and engaged, and the family already at the majority of the people is put on the second plan. It partially concerns and to me. But now I think first of all of creation the strong attitudes of love, first of all by love. Because I believe in the present love. Only love is capable to destroy all bridges of distance, mistrust. Tell me, you trust in the present love between the people? Here, In Russia, I tried to cost the serious attitudes with the young people, but at me it has failed. Most likely because the men in Russia do not appreciate that have. And I want be really second half man.
My mum transfers you hi, as I and expected, she is glad to my new acquaintance to you. To my mum 48 years, in youth she was the very beautiful woman, and the traces of her beauty have not passed with years. I very much love my mum, she the remarkable man. She has learned me to everything, and I am grateful to her for all. Probably, the love to the mother is difficult for expressing by words, you understand me.
I want to know more about you, tell to me about your dreams, about that what you want the future. I want to have my companion of life, which will love me, and I shall care of him, that I could be sure in mutual our feelings. Tell to me that you love from meal. I, for example, love everything, that is tasty and it is useful. Russian kitchen is very rich, and I am sure to you was pleasant, if sometime I to prepare to you the present Russian pies.
You love animals? I love dogs, I consider as the cleverest and devoted animals, but while I have no an opportunity to hold a dog at myself in an one-room apartment. I want ever more and more to write to you, but probably, you are already tired to read my letter. Therefore I finish to write to you the letter and I shall wait more for information on you. Kiss and bye!!!!!!Oksana

Letter 3

Hello my dear Russell!
In my soul today holiday, because it seems, that our attitudes begin to tower and all it becomes more strong. I today was asked to the god, that you have answered to me with reciprocity, and trusted me, because it seems, that I begin to get used to you and to your letters. I now hurry early to leave from work to borrow turn in Internet - cafe. You are not, with what pleasure I receive from you the letter, I am very glad to answer you. Sometime I with the same pleasure shall meet you.
It is very a pity, that I have no the telephone to hear your vote. I would be happy, if we could speak with you. The vote is interesting, with what at you to me? Whether my vote is pleasant to you? Probably, in ours the first conversation we shall worry very strongly, I am especial, and we can not understand half of words each other. How you think? Today I am very tired from work. If I did massage to you, I am not tired.
You I am ready to do massage each day. You would like it? Only speak the truth, because I do not love a lie. Usually, after work I long go on park, it near my work, but today I hastened faster home to make all businesses and to go to write to you the letter.
Forgive me please for my short letter, but I do not have today forces to write to you the large letter. But I want, that you knew, that I think of you always, from the very beginning of our correspondence and my heart is filled with pleasure, when you write me. Please, answer my questions of my letter, it is very important for me. For me important everything, that is connected to you. Today at night I shall dream of you. I wish to you sweet dreams about me. I think of you...Oksana

Letter 4

Hello my one love Russell!
I am madly happy to receive from you last letter. I think, that the Internet - cafe soon will replace to me my house, because after work I to hasten not home, and there, where I can communicate with you. You probably are not with what impatience I begin to check my box. I hope, that sometime and you will wait for my letter. Know, you see we have got acquainted absolutely recently, and it seems, that at me the man, close to me has appeared.
It you. Simply you far from me, but me do not frighten distances. I believe, that if between us there will be a present love, sincere, pure, based on understanding and trust, we shall not be frightened of any barrier.
Today I would like to tell to you about life of the medical worker in our country. Per day I work for 10 hours, for this time on the average I have time to make 10 sessions of massage, and so 26 days per one month. I receive for it 10 percents from money of the clients, rest goes in the state, because hospital state. On the average, my salary makes 100 $ per one month. On this money I should pay for an apartment, municipal charges, and naturally rest I spend on my life. As a whole it suffices on most necessary.
Therefore I have no the telephone, because it would do without to me in 3-4 my salaries. Certainly, it is a pity, that while we can not communicate with you on the phone. But I shall try to find an output from this situation, and sometime our conversation is held. Tell me please about the most @ courageous dream. I for example, would like will learn to jump from a parachute, or ?????? on mountains. In our district there are no high mountains, therefore it will be difficult to carry out my dream. Still I would want to visit together with you on a uninhabited island, that except for us with you more than nobody was. It seems, that you the very brave and clever man and can protect me in any situation.
Tell me please, what should be family. It seems, that in family there should be almost equality, but all the wife should feel, that the owner the family - husband. Still for a long time woman submits to the husband, it is the law of a nature. But if in family there will be a mutual respect, it will not be strongly appreciable. Therefore first seems, to me, that the man and woman should put in the base of the future family is a respect. Then, main - trust, love and understanding. And as a roof, top of strong family - feeling of the responsibility the friend for the friend, for family. You agree with me?
Answer to me a question please. How you think, whether we can create the love attitudes? Whether you can test to me feelings, it is more than friendship? It is very important for me.
I would like today to stop on these questions, please answer. I do not want, that my hopes have appeared vain, because my feelings to you become stronger than friendship. It seems, that I fall in love...
I shall wait for the letter about love...
Oksana

Letter 5

Hello my one Love Russell!!!!!!!!
I am very glad again and again to write to you the letters, my day without dialogue with you is not meaningful, I need in you ever more and more. Today I went for a walk in park, towards to me there were in love pairs, and dreamed that sometime we with you shall go for a walk also. Our hearts will sing with happiness.
Today at night the perfect dream has dreamed me. I want to tell to you about it. We dance with you, not allocating a sight from each other, I am amazed, as I am happy. You see before me the man of my dream, I would like to cry and to laugh simultaneously. As I am long you searched. My ideas only about you, heart in breast is broken off on Parts, and I am simply drunk by the emotions. I gently embrace you to myself, my lips concern Yours, they so gentle, velvet........... And I would give back all on light, that this instant Never came to an end! You steadfastly look on me, on your person a gentle happy smile, In eyes burns fire, fire filled by pleasure and love. On my eyes begin To shine tears. " As I am strong you I love! " - you repeat. You gently take me for a hand, And we go to go for a walk on a deserted beach. The easy wind blows mine silk Hair, and with each instant you become is even more perfect. The moon by the dim light Shines our road, and on water aspires somewhere in far tacit Road. And we reflect, how, should be, it is good now there behind horizon. Also was created Such impression as though we now together shall run on this road, having left there on a coast
All our terrestrial problems, and in soul we will have only our love...
But it is all only dream, I would give back half-life, that it was by a reality. Ever more I think of, that we with you would be perfect pair. What you think of it? Today in ?????????-cafe there are a lot of people. It is interesting, how many people get acquainted through the Internet and create the strong attitudes?
I very much want that our attitudes were without a deceit, if you me will not love, tell me about it. It seems, that I love you. It so is perfect! Even if we and far apart, our love will unite us. Tomorrow I shall learn, how I can establish the telephone at me at home, then we with can talk with each other. You would like it? Please write to me about what want, you only write. For me happiness, that I can read your letters, probably, you consider it as female sentimentality, but it for me is very important.
I love you!Oksana

Letter 6

Hello my one love Russell!!!
The large thank for your regular letters. I thank the god and destiny for the opportunity, given me, to get acquainted with you. You are not, as it is important to me to read your letters! As though I wanted that your feelings to me really were more than friendship! I can not hide all tenderness any more and mad attachment to you. I do not know about you anything, except for a name. Can, it is silly, but I never earlier of such feeling.
I think about you, about us. I never meet of the man more sincere and sensual, than you. I want to be with you, to touch you, to feel tenderness of your lips, heat of your breath. Your kisses would reduce me from mind. I want to bring to you only pleasure, caress you. Each part of my body would like touches to you. The strange feeling pulls me to you and unites us. At the night I again can not fall asleep. I think of you. My heart cries.
And I do not know how to appease the pain. You sense of my life. I hope, that at you all is good. By it I calm myself and pain. I simply want, that you were happy.. I close eyes and I feel, how you touch to me. I whole you, whole your sensual lips, gentle neck. I know, you are created for me from the most light dreams. I am afraid, that this life can pass without you. I can not lose you. You mean for me too much. You to give me hope, not promising anything. It reduces me from mind. That to me to make, that all was in another way . I ask the God, that you did not take offence at me. You are free and can do everything, that will want. If you will want, I can belong only to you. I very much am afraid for you. I very wait for your letter and meeting with you. I can only hope, that all my dreams will come true. All in your hands and you are free in your choice. I know, that before we shall decide to meet, should pass a lot of time, and we for the beginning should learn each other better, should hear a vote each other.
Forgive me, there can be this letter has frightened you of my passion, but it is valid you does not suffice. I would like to be with you sincere up to the end, in all. I want to admit to you that 3 years back I have parted with one Russian man. Then it seemed, that I love him, we met almost 2 years, but then I have learned, that he deceives me, changes to me with other woman a lot of time. We have parted and did not meet any more. Therefore I any more do not believe to the Russian men. You seem, that to me not such, you tender and careful. It seems, that if sometime you will choose me, you will not deceive me, and I shall love you all life. Probably, you think, that too I hurry events, but I write you the truth. I do not want you to tire with reading of my letter, therefore I finish to write. Please, write to me more, I love to read your letters. Your Oksana

Letter 7

Hello my one Love Russell!!!!!!!!
I am very glad again and again to write to you the letters, my day without dialogue with you is not meaningful, I need in you ever more and more. Today I went for a walk in park, towards to me there were in love pairs, and dreamed that sometime we with you shall go for a walk also. Our hearts will sing with happiness. Today at night the perfect dream has dreamed me. I want to tell to you about it. We dance with you, not allocating a sight from each other, I am amazed, as I am happy. You see before me the man of my dream, I would like to cry and to laugh simultaneously. As I am long you searched. My ideas only about you, heart in breast is broken off on Parts, and I am simply drunk by the emotions. I gently embrace you to myself, my lips concern Yours, they so gentle, velvet........... And I would give back all on light, that this instant Never came to an end! You steadfastly look on me, on your person a gentle happy smile, In eyes burns fire, fire filled by pleasure and love. On my eyes begin To shine tears. " As I am strong you I love! " - you repeat. You gently take me for a hand, And we go to go for a walk on a deserted beach. The easy wind blows mine silk Hair, and with each instant you become is even more perfect. The moon by the dim light Shines our road, and on water aspires somewhere in far tacit Road. And we reflect, how, should be, it is good now there behind horizon. Also was created Such impression as though we now together shall run on this road, having left there on a coast All our terrestrial problems, and in soul we will have only our love... But it is all only dream, I would give back half-life, that it was by a reality.
Ever more I think of, that we with you would be perfect pair. What you think of it?
Today in ?????????-cafe there are a lot of people. It is interesting, how many people get acquainted through the Internet and create the strong attitudes? I very much want that our attitudes were without a deceit, if you me will not love, tell me about it. It seems, that I love you. It so is perfect! Even if we and far apart, our love will unite us. Tomorrow I shall learn, how I can establish the telephone at me at home, then we with can talk with each other. You would like it?
Please write to me about what want, you only write. For me happiness, that I can read your letters, probably, you consider it as female sentimentality, but it for me is very important.
I love you!Oksana

Letter 8

My love !
My heart was drove more strongly, when I have seen your letter. I am very glad, that our feelings and desires coincide. We should trust and aspire together to general dream, and then all barrier will be not terrible to our feelings.
My day today was heavy, but the ideas on you and about your words gave me forces.
I feel, that if you will not write to me the letter, my heart will be broken, believe me. My walk on park after work was completely engaged in dreams of you. Weather In Russia stand cold, it is cold with each day, but the ideas on you warm soul, as a cup of hot tea. Most important, that the soul has not frozen. Sometimes, becomes especial last days to me alone. I look, as the people hurry up somewhere, but I have hurries up. And so it would be desirable! I so want hurries up home to prepare to you supper, that you could me embrace! I want, that we together created our family jack. I think, that at us all would turn out in the future.
I have learned how many will cost to me to put the telephone. It will be approximately 310 $ and will borrow approximately 1 month. It for me while is expensive, I can not allow so much money and I very much was upset! I so would like to talk to you! But I shall dream of it, and all dreams sometime come true.
You with me agree?
Tell to me about that how you are our family holidays? Usually I celebrate New Year in a family circle, with the mum and close relatives, and Christmas (January 7) I note with the girlfriends. My girlfriends almost frequently tell all behind the husband and they about family life. Recently I have told about you, but they do not trust that the foreigner really can grow fond of the Russian girl. And I believe to you, and sometime, when you will come to me on a holiday and we shall be one family, you will be believed also with my girlfriends. And what your friends speak about me?
Tell me please, it is possible to transfer love by words? I would like to express my feelings to you, but it all the same is impossible in a complete measure. I can not it explain, it probably should be felt. If you were a number, my love would be expressed in gestures, kisses, in embraces. Probably, I would take your hand and did not release her for one second. Know I am afraid of you to lose, I am afraid to lose your trust, your letters and words. From time to time I want to nestle on you and to overlook about all problems, and to see only your happy eyes and to feel yours gentle, and at the same time strong hands. If we were together, I would make utmost to make you happy. And I you already have made me happy, having entered in my heart. Probably, I again for you am a little sentimental, therefore I finish to write to you, in hope tomorrow to receive from you the letter love. Oksana

Letter 9

Hello my love Russell!!!
I again write you the letter in reply to your last message. I want to tell you a thank for your perfect words, you bewitch me ever more and more, I can not live any more day without your letters. In Internet - cafe I have made a copy of your last letters and now at work in free time I re-read them again and again.
Than more I to you shall learn, the more it seems, that I know you a lot of time, and the more I would like to know about you. I want to know, that you today did, of what you today thought. Interestingly, you thought today of me? I think of you constantly. Sometimes I would like to cry because, that we not together, sometimes - it would be desirable to laugh with happiness, because I love you, and you - me (hope). From time to time to me becomes lonely, that while we not together, but we sometime necessarily shall meet. You see not for nothing in this huge world I have found you.
You love spring? Spring my favourite season. This time of dawn of love, time of hope for the good future. And in our attitudes there has come time of spring. As the nature replaces a lonely kind after winter with one brighter, solar, and in our life there is a new feeling. I have found you, my second half, and now I test the present happiness of dialogue with you. After acquaintance to you my life has found new sense. Even the walls of my hospital, which seem to me to grey earlier, now are filled by solar light. With your occurrence in my life all was filled with the sun. I hope, that this feeling - the feeling of our love, never will cool down, and in our attitudes never there will come autumn. You see we like each other, and any obstacles to us are not terrible. I love you!!!Oksana