Letter(s) from Natalia Karlinova to Charles (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, Charles.
Thank you for your message. I was surprised to find your email. Good surprise. First of all I am sorry that I couldn't reply to you earlier. I am a little skeptical about these dating service in Internet, so I don't check my email box often. But now if we will continue talking I will check it every other day.
Well, now I tell a little about myself.
I am 29 years old. My birthday is on the December 25. And I will be 30.
My phisical details: height - 5 ft 5 in (172 cm), weight - 119 lbs (54 kg). I have grey-blue eyes and dark brown hair.
I am from Russia. And my nickname is "Kapelka". It mean "drop". By the way, how do you want me to named you? Name? Nickname?
I don't smoke. I drink occasionally, red wine or champagne.
I have good education. Work as an accountant at small company.
I have never been married and I have no children.
I keep active life, like sport and outdoors.
I have some hobbies, such as reading and listening to music. Also I like cookery and knitting. I like animals and children.
As for my personality, I am calm and loyal. Enough emotional and sensible.
I am a Christian but not strong believer. I go to church seldom.
My intentions:
I'd like to meet good man with kind soul and great sense of humor.
I am family oriented person and my goal is to make happy family.
I need support and understanding in my life. I want, that it was the kind, sympathetic, decent and honest man. As for me I am ready to become the fond and tender wife, good friend and partner for this man.
I attached my photo, the most recent. It was taken this summer. I am at work on it and a little tired but I like it enough.
I also want to say that I am serious about my intentions and I am not going to play heart games. I understand that distance may become the obstacle. So we should start from friendship. I like to make friends and if things will not work between us we would stay in touch as good friends. Tell me about yourself and what you think. Waiting for your reply.
ps. It's my old pic. Now, I have a white hair. I'll sent you other pics later. Ok?

Letter 2

Hello, Charles.
I am very pleased to get your reply. Thank you for your letter.
I'd like to know more about you and your life.
Kapelca is my nickname. Now I want, that you named me so. There should be in the woman a riddle. Smile.
For the future: I use Internet at my work and we had some troubles with local network and there was no Internet connection. So, sometime I'll be write not very often.
Well, I will tell a little about myself.
I told you I'm from Russia, I live in Russia, I live in suburb of Moscow. It is small old district. The population of our place is about 2000. It is really small provincial place. The life here is as usual as in the another russian cities.
Of course, I must say that it is nice. I also would like to know about your place.
I live with my parents, mom and dad in two roomed-flat. Yes, it is small for three person. I tried to rent separate flat, but we decided that it is expensive and I stayed to live with my parents. At least I have my room.
My parents are scientists. My mother is full professor at college. She is on the historical faculty. And father works at a scientific research institute. He is physicist in nuclear engineering.
As for my work. I work as an accountant in the small company. We sell foodstuff for small shops. I can't say that I like my work, but it is good job which I can get there. I have good education. I am graduate of Social university and I have a deegree in Finance and Business Accounting.
I can read and write English, and slightly speak. I don't have enough practice in spoken English but I'd like to have. I want to improve my skills. Recently I got some courses of spoken English and now I attend lectures.
About two weeks ago our company was connect to Internet. I like to surf Internet, it is very interesting. And the most striking thing is that I can see all over the world through the computer. I know that I may look silly but I really enjoy this possibility. Yes, I must say that I am begginer with Internet. I use computer at my work and I have not much time in Internet. I don't have computer at home so I can send you a message only when I work. I work 5 days a week so I will be unable to write you on weekends.
I have already been surfing for two weeks in Internet. So don't be strict if I don't understand anything. I will learn it. Smile.
Well, let me continue.
I wanted to tell how I came to conclusion to find someone through Internet. I saw some dating services, I watched ads, but I didn't think that it works. I don't know why I decided to reply to your ad. To be honest I didn't think you would ever write me. I didn't think that it works. But you did. It was so surprised. I am realy glad to talk with you.
Well, I am a little confused and I don't know what to say. I hope all this stuff is not too boring to read. Smile.
I have good time to correspond with you. I enjoy it. I don't remember if I told you about my hobbies or things I like to do for fun. It seems to me that people who wants to have some relations must have the same ideas and goals in life and also the same ways for rest and fun. I like different activities like sport, walking, going-out and outdoors. I can't say that I am engaged in sport. I just like it. I like bicycle-riding, swiming and beach especially. Also I like to dance. I dance classic and modern dances. I am an amateur not a professional. I think the real woman should be beautiful both soul and body. My mother teached me to play piano. I also can sing. I will try to learn some english songs. Hope you can hear them someday. Smile.
I enjoy cooking. I prefer italian and russian food. My favourite dishes are different soups and salads. I cook great Ukrainian borsch. It is a soup made of beet, meat, cabbage and carrot. Very tasty. Smile.
As I said I like reading. I read different books, but prefer books about history and countries. I read a lot of Russia and America. These countries are great.
As for fun, I like the same thing like all people. Movie, walking, theatre. I like to drink tea with friends in cafe. We talked about everything and nothing. Smile. I don't have a lot of friends, but all they are good people. To be honest I don't like 'empty' people. My friends are almost my old friends from childhood and youth. They are already almost married. Don't think that I am close person. I like to meet new people and make friends. I am easy-going and I easily strike up new acquaintance. From another side I am not easy approachable woman. I am serious. I think it is from my upbringing.
Charles, I have already told you that I want to find someone through Internet. I just wanted to say that it is my serious intention. I am interested in you and I want us to be good friends. Six months ago I lost my boyfriend. It was sad time. But now I want start new life with new person.
It seems to me, that you are respectable and honest man. I think we can understand each other.
Well, I must close my message now. Waiting for your letter.
Yours faithfully Kapelca.

Letter 3

Hello Charles.
How are you? I am fine.
Charles, I want you to know, that if I didn't write you I didn't forget you. Smile. No, I think of you often. I am very intersting to know you more and I like that we can talk via email. So, I wrote you about Internet in my work. To be honest I am a little nervous. Is it OK for you that I can't write you everyday or regularly? I will try to write as often as I can.
These days I thought about you a lot and I thought about us. I thought may it be possible for us to meet each other one day.
I thought how real is Internet. How we can learn each other throught it. Really it seems to me that there is no difference what way we communicate. The important thing is that we can learn each other and to have image of our character in our minds. And it is great.
I think, I must do one step. I want to do it. I want you to know my real name. My name is Anastasiya. My surname is Matvienko. But in short you can call me Nastya (it is short name from Anastasiya).
Charles tell me about your life. How do you celebrate your birthday?
I don't like to celebrate my birthday. I think it is a little sad holiday. I will be 30 (it will be on December,almost a year).
The time to think about your life. Smile. Don't think I will be celebrate it greatly. Last birthday I invited some friends and we celebrated it at my home. To be honest I would like to celebrate it with you. Smile. Now it is impossible. May be one year. Smile.
Oh, I forgot one thing. You wanted to know. Yes it is very dangerous in Russia. We have many gangs here. I try to avoid the solitary places in the evening (then i'm backing home from work). Course, I go by bus, but I must walk some way.
Well, I must go now. I will write you more later.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Yours Nastya.

Letter 4

Hi my dear Charles.
I'm sorry, but I sent you this letter 15 April. Did you receive it?
I like your voice too. It was a short and with a noise, but I heard your voice and like it. I don't know how you can call me, just I haven't a phone in home, my working phone is only for work (it's a order of my boss). May be I'll save some money else and will call you else. But now, I want to tell you very serious thing. Charles, I have done some research for coming to you. And I have good results. I talked with my friend about it. Her husband works as a lawyer in travel agency in Moscow. His company helps people to solve all questions about travels, organized tours and immigration. They also make all paperworks and passport required for travels. I got his professional advice about my wish to come to you.
He said that I would need visa and passport to come to you. His company can make all these papers in 10 days. This company is connected with American Embassy. That's why they work so quickly.
I asked what I would need to do and he told me about all stages in this process. At first I need to apply for visa in this company. They will make an inquiry into embassy in Moscow. Usually it takes about two days. After they will receive authorization for my visa I will need to contract for their service. Then they will start their work. I will get visa, all papers and passport in 10 days. Then I can get ticket for a plane and fly to you.
This service costs $340 USD. I know this is a lot, but it is fast and reliable.
The lawyer said I can try to get visa by myself but it will take more time, about 8-12 months. I will need to come to embassy and apply for visa. The pay is about $150 USD. Then I will need to come there some times to sign different papers and wait. You see it could take more time, money and nerve finally.
What do you think of this occasion? I think it is great chance for us to meet.
There is the reason we must hurry with it. This company have a licence to issue visas. But the government of the USA decided to limit number of visas since July this year.
This company will not issue visas any longer since July 1, 2005. The only way to get visa will be the embassy and it is very hard, almost impossible for lonely young woman. So I will not be able to get visa in July and afterwards. Also the lawyer said that they have limited number of visas they can issue for this time. This is the rule of US Embassy. Now they have few visas they can give. He said if I want to get visa I must do it as soon as possible.
You see we must hurry if we want to meet in person. I must say that I have already applied for visa. Don't you mind?
Charles, I love you and I need to meet you in person. We must do it as soon as possible. You know I haven't $340 USD. It makes me so sad. What can I do? I hate I have no this money.
If I could pay for it I would do it without any doubts. I can get about $40 USD for visa but I need another 300. Charles, I know we will be happy together. Please, help me with visa money, help us to meet.
As for visa's period of validity it works for 3 months. I can prolong it if I will need. And I also can marry you if we will decide to do it.
Charles, please, think of it. It is our chance, we can't miss it.
I must pay for visa in next week. You see they take payment in advance usually. But the lawyer made an exception for me, because his wife is my friend. And I promised to pay in these days. I can't let him down.
Trust me Charles. I am an accountant. I know how to deal with money. It is the best way we can meet. If you want to meet me, please send money these days. I count on you to help with the expenses. I have no one to do it.
Use western union. We have several western union agents localy here. So I will be able to receive your money without any problems. I have some experience with this company at my work. They are very fast and reliable.
You will need to put in order my name and location.
Name: Matvienko Anastasiya Andreevna
Location: Russia, Ivanovo.
I will also need your data to receive transfer.
- money transfer control number (MTCN), you will get it in the receipt.
- your name and address (as it appears in transfer order)
- control question and answer (if you will use it)
Write me this information in your email after you send money.
Charles, I understand that it is maybe too fast, but we need it. We can meet and we must use this chance. I know it is much money but I can't get them here. I was trying to borrow this sum, but I couldn't.
My friends don't have such sum.
Charles, you see it will be the first step to our future. I must get visa at first. I understand that it may take some months to save money for ticket. I will try to find them here, at least part of them. But I can't find money for visa in such short time. Help me.
I do it, because I love you Charles and I trust you. I believe in our future, I believe in you. Do you doubt in me? Can you trust me your life?
Write me. I feel very nervous about your answer.
I love you.
Your Nastya.

Letter 5

Hi, Charles! It's me - Nastya.
I have a problems with my e-mail-box.
I can't receive e-mails. I did a new e-mail address. Please, send me your previous letters on my new e-mail: kapelca@mail.ru.
Hope to hear from you soon.

Letter 6

Hi, Charles!
I'm very glad to hear from you! I hate that I had a problems with e-mail, but now it's ok. I have this e-mail-box.
You know I understand your friends. We have a good saying in Russia: Trust, but control (I can't translate it in English well). Just If you trust someone, you must control it. I don't know how I can prove my words, but I want to say: I'm never swindle you and I'm real woman who think "we can be together".
I like your knifes and think you're very clever (talented) man.
Charles, you know, yesterday, I heard one statement from one of my acquaintance (she is not my friend, just an acquaintance). She's name is Anya. She learnt about my experience in Internet dating and she told me: you are stupid woman! She said that Internet is a way for perverts and idiots. I cried and she laughed at me.
I run away and didn't tell something to her.
Charles, I thought about her words and I'm not agree with it! May be I'm a stupid woman and it's very fast for us to make plans for the future, but I know we are not an idiots! We are right! We can do our future together and can be happy. I don't ask your opinions about it, course I know you're agree with me. I feel it.
I think that Anya live in last century. She can't understand something else except her egocentrism. That people will never be happy and love. May be she envy of me. I don't know.
Do you know a same people?
You know, after your letter I don't know about your sending money for visa. If you still want it, just tell me about it and give me the information. I'll go to Western Union and will begin to do my visa.
ok? Just If you want it, we haven't time, I don't want to let the lower down. He is my friend.
Thinking of you.
Your Nastya.

Letter 7

Hi, Charles!
I'm very glad to hear that you trust me and our future is not far.
It's great!
But I think that you forgot to send me a number of transfer (MTCN). I wrote you that I have some experience with this company at my work.
And I know that it's very important information. Anyway, I'll try to visit Western Union today and will try to get the money. May be I'll do it.
I'm sorry, but today is very hard day for me. I HAVE SO BIG WORK! It's hard. I'm sorry. And hope to hear from you soon.
With big love, Nastya.

Letter 8

Hi, Charles!
Thanks for your letters and I received the money for visa. Everything is OK. I have also payed the lawyer today. He said good news.
My visa was approved. It meens I will get it for sure. Now we will need just to wait my visa. I am very happy you could help. I knew you will trust me and support. I think I will get visa next week.
You know, this days in Russia we had a holidays. It were a 2 holidays in 1 day. In 1 of May we had a holiday "The Day of a harmony and reconciliation". It's a new holiday. We had an another holiday in USSR in this day: "The Day of workers solidarity". It was a communist holiday. But right now it's a Spring Holiday. We had a 2 days of this holiday.
But I don't emphasize this holiday. I celebrated another holiday in this day. It was a Easter! We have Easter in last Sunday of April, but in this year we celebrated it in 1 May. My mother painted the Easter eggs, I helped her in it. In Russia we have a tradition on Easter: we paint the eggs (we use a bulbous scale, it gives a dark-yellow color), when I'll meet every person I must say "Christ has arisen!" and the person must answer "Verily, Christ has arisen!" (in Russian it's not so comically:)). And they must exchange the eggs.
Usually, we go to the forest and have a good rest. And this Sunday we did it again. My mum, father, uncle, aunt, my friends and me went to the forest. We had a shashliks (do you know it?), play the games on a fresh wind. Also we had a traditional dish: the Easter cake. It's a curd cake with the ground almonds. Very tasty!
It was a great weather and we rested very good.
You know, it will be very interesting to learn about your traditions and you can learn about Russian traditions. We can celebrate your Easter and after month we can celebrate Russian Easter! What do you think?
And you wrote about the traditional Russian weddings. What do you know about it? I can write you right.
So, Happy Easter:))!
Your Nastya.

Letter 9

Hi my love Charles.
Today I have a bad sleeping and I get up very early. I want to tell you that you are can't imagine how I love you. I never thought that it can be with me but it's true and I'm shure that I love you Charles. I'm thought very long time about us and I'm shure that we'll meet. If two people feel something to each other they must find out the feelings. I want you Charles, I love you very much and I will proove it to you every day. WE MUST MEET, LET'S DO ALL FOR IT, I'LL DO ALL, DO YOU? I think that you will do all too. It's our chance and we'll use it. I want to tell you that I want to walk with you under sky with stars, do you like to see stars? I like it very much. I like to see it and dream... I want to live with you, probably we will marry. WE MUST MEET AND DECIDE ABOUT ALL... I want to cook you my most liked plates, and I have a dream about us, I want that we'll be together at night time near the water, it can be lake or river. Do you imagine the dark sky, thousands of stars under the water, we watch it, see meteorits and speak a lot about all, we kiss, have hug and it's very great and we don't need more nothing. I would like to be with you Charles at this time. I love you very much Charles please remember it always, my heart belongs to you and I don't give you somebody else, I don't want to lose you!!! I want to kiss and hug you as soon as I can do it. Please forgive me if I said something wrong but all what I say goes from my heart and soul! I love you Charles I want that you love me too. We'll be together...
You asked me if I am visiting or planning to stay with you. I would like to stay Charles, but my father insists I should get round trip ticket. I think this way too. Just in case I would like to have a chance to return to Russia. Please understand me right way. I hope I will stay with you forever. Smile. I'd like to be in USA about 3 month (until my visa end off). I will get a vocation in my work. But want you to know that if we'll meet and will fall in love then I will back in Russia, will say goodbye to my parents and friends and will go to you forever. Charles, I asked my lawyer to check prices for plane ticket. He said that I must have the discount for plane ticket. You see my father has good services and great experience in science research. So he could have the discount for one flight in a year for him or for any member of his family. I have already talked to my father about it and he is eager to help me. It works at Russian airlines company Aeroflot. My father will need to request to his trade union for some documents and then my lawyer will help me with papers and forms to get this discount.
I need to know what is you nearest airport.
My laywer must know it so he could formalize the papers. Charles I think I must try to get this discount. It is about one third of full cost of ticket. I feel very uncomfortable you have such expenses for me. I want to help you. See what is exact prices for ticket from your side. I want to see how much they cost here. Maybe it makes no sense to get this discount. Let me know.
Yours Nastya.
ps. You know I think that your pics are great. Knifes are very special.

Letter 10

Hi my love Charles!!!!!!!!!
It's very pleaseant to me to receive your words today. I'm at work now and thinking of you Charles.
I love you very much and I want to proove it to you but I can't because I'm not with you now. Oh, I want it so much!!!!!! I want to be near with you, hear you and speak with about all. I want that you acquaint me with your friends, your relatives. I think we'll be the very good pair. I want that you show me your country, your city, your house, your soul and you body. I must go now because I must work for our future. I'll write to you soon. I love you... Please remember it always!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Charles I have learned about airfare. The lawyer said I can buy ticket from Moscow to Missoula for $860 (round trip ticket). It is the price with my father's discount. All papers are already ready to take the discounted ticket.
Another details: the lawyer said that it is special offer from Aeroflot and it's time limited. This offer works for Russian citizens until June 11. My discount also will not work until fall. He said it works only to June 11 and fall.
The lawyer said the better way will be to reserve ticket in advance and buy ticket until this offer works. We can buy ticket for any day in two months. There are some flights I can get ticket for. I think we must obtain this discount. What do you think? I am afraid that I can't help anything unless getting this discount for ticket.
I am ready to come to you at any time I get a ticket. If we reserved it I would be sure we will meet soon.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yours Nastya.

Letter 11

Hi my love Charles!!!!!
I'm very glad that I receive the new letter from you! Your letters brings the happiness to me because I have found the man which I wanted to find and it's you Charles I know it really!!! Yes, Charles, please, send me this sum for ticket. It's a good discount, I think so. And you are agree, it's good. But, one thing.
You know I had a conversation with the lawyer about the money you want to send and he told me that it's not good idea for me to receive the money by my name. Just it's can prevent me to get the ticket, it will arouse some suspicions. He told me that it will be better if you send me the money to my uncle's name. I will go to Western Union with him and will receive the money. Is it ok for you? Just tell me and I will write you how to do it. OK?
My dreams are great about you.
You are my love forever and I don't want to lose you. It's afraid for me to lose you Charles. All my relatives and my mother also say 'hi' to you. I told them that I'll come to united states soon because I found you Charles. They are very happy for me and they wish luck and love to us. We must be together Charles because we don't must to lose the chance of destiny. With each day my feeling and thoughts about you become stronger and more stronger, I miss without you but your words help me. When I received your letter I'm very happy. I dream about our meeting every day when you meet me an airport and tell me the words of love... I want to kiss you Charles now!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! YOU KNOW IT!!!!
I hope you dream about our meeting too and want to hug me when we'll meet.
I want that we will be together forever you are that man which I wanted to find all my life. I thank God for it. I see the our future, we must have it. I told you that I was not interesting to move to other country but when I found you I ready for it. I'm ready to move to your country for you. It will be the unfamiliar country for me but I think you'll help me to understand all. I know the english not well but I think we'll unerstand each other.
I love you Charles!!!!!
I love you all my heart and it's belongs to you...
Yours forever Nastya.

Letter 12

Hi my love Charles!
I'm glad to see the letter from you!
Every day I thank the God that I found you in this crazy world!!!
You know, Charles, I will explain about the money sending.
I work for the state and I have learnt that I would have to pay additional money tax for the state if I receive your transfer. It is additional 30%%. Also my lawyer advised not to receive money for my name because it may cause problems with the ticket. It's a hard to explain. It's a stupid Russian laws. My uncle works for some business and he doesn't have to pay this tax. He lives in Ivanovo too.
This is his name and location:
Brjazgunov Andrey, Ivanovo.
It's nice that you have a Russian people in Kalispell. It will be easy to learn English for me.
So, you asked me about my sizes. I think we have a difference in sizes. e.g. My size shoes: 36. Do you understand this size? And I think we can buy the dresses together, when I will meet. ok?
I never tired to say you Charles that I love you all my heart and I'm waiting this beautiful day when we'll be together and can speak hug and kiss. It will be the best holiday in my life. I want you in my life Charles I want to lie down to sleep with you and wake up with you Charles and everyday. I want to be yours!
I think you love me too and we must do all for our meeting, I trust you very much and I'm sure that this day which I'm waiting comes soon because I truly love you and want to be with you, it's my dream now but it's realizable. This day comes nearer, I feel it and I think you feel it too. I want to say hello to you from all my friends and my relatives they wish love for us. IT's a beautiful life now for me because I have the man which I love. It's you Charles and I don't want to lose you!!!!!
You know it's good that you so truthful in your letters. I have no problems to dye my hairs in brown or another color. Only for you, Charles!
But you know I can't see your site. Just I haven't on-line. I use "Outlook" program and we connect only 2-3 times a day. Do you understand? I'm sorry.
We will be together, Charles!!!!!!! Don't worry about your age and appearance. It's not very important. Main - you have a great heart. I feel it from your letters.
Yours love Nastya!
ps this is my newest pics.

Letter 13

Hi, my love.
Charles I am very happy to get your reply. It impressed me.
It moved me to tears. Charles, thank you for your being. You see I have the reason to live now. I want to live long life with you and to be happy together. I am sure that I want it. And it must come true. I'm so glad your backing! And I proud that you are so clever and successful.
Charles I have never felt thus. I feel like I was asleep. I have waked just now. I see the world with another look. I see all colours of life. I love you. I live only for your letters. What about my dreams they have changed. I think about you often and wonder how pleasant it will be to spend a lot of time with you holding hands and walking in a park or dining out in a nice restaurant.
Charles I am very worried about you being without me. I am afraid that I can lose you. If something happen with you and you can't tell me I probably will go crazy. Be careful, please, and save yourself for me. I will bless God for you.
I love you Charles. I wish I was be able to embrace you now. But I can just think of you and read your letters. Write me more, please. I will write you more later.
Bye my love. I am thinking of you.
Yours Nastya.

Letter 14

Hello my Charles.
Thank you for your letters. I have some of your emails printed on the paper and yesterday evening I read them. I am so happy we have met in Internet. It is almost impossible but we did. Smile. It is like a wonder. And I'm so happy that we will meet very soon!
I have told to my uncle again and I noticed he was a little sad because I am leaving. He was very sincere and said that I am like a daughter for him. He really touched me deeply. I Love him like my father. We will surely come to Russia and visit him. I want you to meet him. He is very good man.
As I asked you, please, send the money to my uncle's name. I wrote you his name and location, but here it is again. His name is Brjazgunov Andrey and location is Ivanovo.
As for ticket, I think I can buy it for June, 15. What do you want? Not very fast for you? :) I know you can't wait and I can't wait too. I wrote you that the discount works until only June, 10, but I can buy the ticket for another day (just I must buy the ticket before June, 10).
Well, I want you to know I'm so happy! I am starting my new life with you and I am very happy. I thought a lot about how it will be to meet you first time, to live with you a week then month.
You are the best man I have ever met and we will be happy together. I believe in your true love and your feelings to me. And I have a huge feeling for you too.
I love you Charles. I will never be tired to tell it to you. Because it is the best feeling. People must be happy and this is the sense to live for. I will make you happy my darling man.
I am sorry they said my time is over for computer.
I will write you later soon.
Nastya with love.