Letter(s) from Maria Seitmemetova to Matthew (USA)

Letter 1

Greetings my love!
Or that is - I am in full confusion - that happens with my poor opinion. It can sound so mad, but I feel something for you! It - very big love of feeling! I cannot describe, that the big mood, that I rose today in early reflection of mourning for you huging me in a field of colors! It was the big dream!!! I did not see such kind of dreams since time my first falling in love!!! It was so wonderful as actually!!! I feel love, and this fact heats up my soul when the winter has taken, it - rules in, it - hands and already a cold in the street. I feel, that I am powerful enough to force my dream to be carried out and arrive to you both to see you actually and to shrug your hand and to study your eyes and to tell you in the person, that I really wanted to tell, but I can not receive it in words on a paper...
P.S I want too to you but I do not have money to arrive to you. You will help me?