Letter(s) from Natalia Smolkina to David (USA)

Letter 1

Hi TOFNAME!
You have written a letter to me, it’s very pleasant. Thank you that you found a minute to answer me. Frankly speaking I couldn’t hope for it. I’m sorry that I was not able to write an answer to you. I hope you’ll forgive me and won’t be angry with me. I’m very sorry. Pardone me. I think you will write me and I’ll answer you at once!!!
I don’t know what to say in my first letter, because I never got acquainted through internet before. It’s something new and unusual for me. But I’ll try write good letters to you. I suppose you’ll be able to understand my words and what I will say to you. I think it will be right if I begin to tell you about my self first, because it was me who began to write. I’m not sure that you will like my letters, that they will be interesting to you, but if it won’t be so you will write me about it. OK? Probably you’ll be surprised that I don’t live in your country. But I hope it don’t shock you. I’m the same like many other ladies in other countries in the world. I’m a usual woman who has hands, legs, a head a heart that is the most important. I think that my heart is very sensitive. I hope you’ll understand it from my letters.
I’ll be immensely happy if the distance between us doesn’t afraid you, and you’ll answer me. Please don’t be too strict to my mistakes in the words, english is not my native language. But I suppose I know it well.
Well, my name is Natalya, as you know. In my childhood I was called Natasha. My friends call me so now. Some times they call me Nata.
Endearing form of my name is Natashenka. You may call me as you like. I won’t be disappointed. I’m 30 years old. My birthday is on the 4th of July. I was born in 1974. My height is 168 cm (5 feet 6 inches). My weight is 52 kg (115 pounds). I like in a small village Gusino. Gusino is stuated not far from Smolensk. Smolensk is a big and famous city of Russia. In 1941-1945 Russia solders lead cruel terrible fights with German aggressors. I think you know about the War. Smolensk is a very beutive city. I suppose you would like the city if you saw it.
I was dreaming to become an actress in my childhood. Probably it’s the dream of many girls. But my dream didn’t become true. It’s severe reality of life. I graduated from a medical university. My education consists of 3 level: school, college, university. I had been studying during 18 years. I graduated from the university at the age of 25. By the way I was awarded with a medal for excellent results during my studying. Don’t think that I boast (smile). Than I worked as an assistant of a surgeon in a small clinic for 4 years. It was very intresting and at the same time responsable. I was happy to give people health, to help them. Many things depended on me during operations. I think in future I’ll be able to become a surgeon myself. Do you think that it’s a good dream? Unfortunaly I had to stop working in a hospital, because my salary was tiny. Now I’m working as a manager in a marriage registration bureau. I like my job. I’m glad to see happy smiling just married cuopes. I my register marriage officially. I like to say to people: “Now you are a husband and a wife”. I do it not only for people from my village, but also for couples from other villages which are situated not far from ours. Many people know me and say hello meeting me. But not long ago I was invited to work to a private clinic.
I was offered good money. Now I’m in 2 minds what to choose, what is the best. Probably that I will work in the clinic like a surgeon.
At present I have a small house with small garden near it. I live alone that’s why I’m not able to work in the garden constantly. But never the less my garden is very beautiful and pleasant. I like to grow flowers because they are the most beautiful that were created by nature. I live alone, have neither children nor a boyfriend. Sometimes I feel very lonely in my house. May be that’s why I decided to get acquainted with you. I’m already 30, and take life philosophically. I have a house, a job, friends but I can’t say that I’m happy. I have no many who I can my best half. I wrote you first, it means I can share my thoughts and feelings with you.
I hope you won’t laugh. And we’ll write a lot of letters to each other. I’m very glad and grateful that you answered my letter, because I decided to try getting acquainted through internet only once. And it was a miracle for me when you wrote me a letter. If it was not so I will never try to make friends through e-mail once again. I never get acquainted before in such a way. I can’t understand fully how it works, because I don’t have a computer. I’m just a beginer in the work of internet. But I hope I’ll be able to write you constantly. I hope you are interested in our dialogue as I am. I’d like to ask you David some questions. If you don’t want to answer them, you may not to do it, I won’t be offended. What do you do?
What’s your profession? Do you like it? Who are the nambers of your family? With whom do you live? David you may tell me about you all what you want. I’ll be glad to know all about your life. It’s just women’s curiosity. Hope it won’t offend you. I send you my photo. I think we should not conseal any thing. I hope that photo’s exchange will be constant. I realise that tastes differ but I hope my image will be pleasant for you. If not I will understand and won’t be angry.
I hope you will write me soon. I thank you beforehand. I am sorry once again that I did not answer your letter for a long time. Forgive me, but I had no opportunity to take advantage of a computer. I have no computer of a house and consequently I shall use a computer on work.
But I shall try to write to you every day if you want to talk to me in future. I hope for it very much. With best regards. With best regards.
Natalya.

Letter 2

Hi my David! Hello David! How are you? I think you are my friend. And do you think the same?
Thanks for a picture. It's very interesting to me. I am glad to exchange with you pictures. I hope, that you like ALL my pictures. If is not present, tell to me.
I want to write my address. But I very much ask to not send me anything. Because service I shall esteem in Russia works disgustingly.
They have constant losses and delays of parcels. Especially I do not want to be obliged. I am independent.
Smolkina Natalya
Michurina st. 15
Gusino, Smolenskaya oblast 216117
I understand your request to call you from phone. I should tell that never so did not worry about presence of phone, as now. I never thought that the serious moments in our life can depend on presence of phone. But now I understand that the fact that I have no phone can deprive me an opportunity to learn a man who could become my friend.
And this really afflicts me. But not all in this life depends on me. I shall try to call you from a public telephone booth if you will give me number your phone.
Smolensk approximately 850 kilometers from Moscow. We have a train every day. I do not think, that in Smolensk it's more than crimes than in other cities. Probably the criminality is identical in all Russia.
I do not know what surgery I shall do. But I think, that intestines.
I suppose I can tell you about my bad experience in relations. If you are not interested in it you may stop reading the letter. I won't be offended. I think I can tell you the story because you have become very very close to me recently. I hope you have an idea of the problem with alcohol in Russia and I suppose you understand why I don't want to look for a husband in Russia.
Let's begin since the very first day of the acquaintance. I work in the clinic as a surgeon's assistant. I was going home after my work but it began raining and I could go because I had left my umbrella at home.
It was summer but never the less I didn't want to get wet and to take a cold. I was standing under the roof of the building waiting till the rain would stop. But the rain was not going to stop and I wanted to go home in the rain. But a young man was going in my direction with an umbrella. He saw that I couldn't go with an umbrella and offered me to take his one. I asked him: "And what about you?" He said that he would spend some time in the clinic and may be the rain would stop soon. I asked how I would be able to return him the umbrella. he said his adress to me and his name. His name is Denis. It was not far from the clinic. I wrote down his adress and promised to give him the umbrella the next day in the evening. On my home I thanked the yuong man and asked the God to stop the rain. But it was raining the whole night. I cursed myself that I had taken the umbrella and that he was wet to the skin because of me. I didn't sleep a wink at night. The next day in the clinic was so long for me. I was lookingforward to finishing my work to give the umbrella back to Denis. I wanted to learn how he was. As soon as my working day was over, I chanded my working clother and left my work. Denis was standing at the door smiling. It turned out that he remembered the time when my work was over. He came to meet me. I asked about his health at once. he said that everything was all right. He didn't get too wet because he was running home. Then we walked for a long time. we talked a lot. My mum had died already and i was alone. He was the dearest and the closest man in the world for me at that time. He saw much of each other at time. But i didn't invite him my house I wanted to check him.
Once we were invited to a Birthday party of his friend. I agreed to go to see his friends, as i wanted to know more about him. Denis didn't drink even champagne. I thought it was because of me, because I didn't drink as well. But his friends told me that denis really didn't drink alcohol. I liked Denis. I think so did he. we became more than friends and he began to live in my house. First 2 months we were very happy, we were on the seveth heaven. But then he got a very good job. He became a lawyer. he made much money. But he began drinking alcohol. At first a little bit - then more and more. he didn't sleep at home at night. When he was drunk he began beating me. I tolerated, I beared it. I thought he change for the better, that he would the same he had been before.
But nothing chanded. Once I was beaten by him bitterly and left my house. He didn't came back 9 days. Our friends told me that they had seen Denis with other girls. I came to the conclusion that it was enough to bear it. When he came back he even wasn't sorry and didn't apologize. I don't think that he had forgotten that he had beaten me. I didn't say a word in the evening. I started the talk in the morning when he was sober. So I made him leave my house forever. He was shouting, screaming and he even broke a foto in the frame where my mom and I were. I saad to him that I would call a police, well he had gone.
Forever. Now I am happy that I didn't marry him. I don't want such relations once again. Almost all Rusian men drink alcohol alot that's why I don't want to have any relations with them. I suppose you understand me, David.
I am sorry my letter is too long. But I wanted to show you what I am feeling. I am very happy that I got acquainted with you. I hope our communication will never stop.
In this letter I have sent you a picture. It has no precise image because the picture is not professional. Me photographed Marina. But I think, that it's pleasant to you. By the way. You unique the man which can see this picture. I do not want, that you would show it to anothers. Ok?
I have to finish me letter. Thanks that you write me.
With all my heart, your Natalya.

Letter 3

Hi my dear David!
I am writting a letter to you and smiling. I am constantly thinking of you and I can't concentrate on something else. Today it is a very funny day in the bureau. In the morning we congratulated our boss on his Birthday. We presented him with brief case for documents. He said that he estimes highly our attention. I think he is immensely glad to get a present from us. He also said that it was a surprise that I was going to leave bureau. The boss said that he can't find such a pretty girl as I am to work instead of me. And if the number of just married desreales I will be guiltu of it. Then he said that it was a joke. I think that a girl who will work instead of me won't be worse than I am and that the number of weddings won't decrease. Our boss was in a high spirit. He was joking and kidding all day long.
By the way, David, I know for a long time that to get visa I must persuade American Embassy that I am sure to come back to Russia. I also was told that they like when doctors arrive to America. I hope that I am the right person to get visa. Marina is very worried about me. She will do as much as posible to help me collect all the papers and documents for getting visa, necessaru for the Embassy. I am happy to have such a friend. We talk very often and she always supports me in my idaes and thoughts. Once I asked her what she would do if didn't come back to Russia and didn't write a letter to her. She said that she would find some money to buy a ticket for a plane, would come to the USA and would shout at me. But it was just a joke, because she knows that I will always find a chance to write a letter to her. David, I visited Saint Petersburg earlier. It is the big and beautiful city. To Saint Petersburg slightly more than 300 years. But it's the biggest city in Russia after Moscow. Now I must go home. As usual I have a lot to do at home and in my garden. At home I must to clean (to wash) my clothes. I know that in other countries people use washing machine for cleaning theirclothes.
But we (people from Gusino) can't afford it. We even don't have good water pipe for it. That's why it takes me much time to wash clothes.
Then I will gather onions and potatoes in my garden. It is a pity that I can offen you potatoes which I cook. It is a very tasty dish, if it is fried after howing been gathered.
I hope to get your letter tomorrow.
Natalya.

Letter 4

Hi my dear David!
I'm very happy that I have some time to write you a letter. I must confess that I have deep feelings to you my David. It's really so. I could't sleep for a long time at night today. I thought of you, I thought about uor future meeting. How wonderful it will be. By the way I don't know the exact date of my vacation yet, but I will inform you about it as soon as I'm aware of the date. You know I have good news for you my David. I have gone to the turist agenecy today. They said that they had given my documents for visa to be prepared. It will be necessary to check my analyses and then I will wait for a special invitation for an interview, which willbe important for getting visa.
I'm sure that I will get visa and that I will come to your place. I believe in God and I think he will help me to meet you. I was told in the agency that I would have to bring a characteristic from my bureau.
My boss promised me to do it very well.
By the way I howe seen a dream today at night. I sow the blue sunny sky and a bird in the sky. The bird was very big, beautiful, it was of a blue color. When I woke up I thought that it was about me. The dream was about my desire to fly to you, it was me who hurried to you in the blue sky. Do you believe dreams?
I have always been dreaming of being with a sweetheart. I hope that I'm not mistaken and that I have found such a man for me (smile). It's a great happines and luck whan your dear man is together with you. A Russian proverb says "Together loved in a tent paradise". It's really so. Now I understand the proverb. I need my David with me. I have always been dreming of taking care of my sweetheart, of being with him every day and every night. May be my dreams will become true one day..... By the way could you do crazy things? Could you act like a crazy enamoured teenager? And what could you do? I'm sorry but I don't have any more time. I will write you next time. Remember! I'm always thinking of you, only of you.
With best regards.
Your Natalya.
P.S. 1000 kisses!

Letter 5

Hi my dear David!
How are you today? I hope are in a high spirit. But unfortunately I'm in a bad mood today.
Today in the morning I was hurrying to my bureau. A car rushed near me on a high speed. At that time a dog was crossing the road and the car couldn't stop at once. It was raining in the morning and roads were wet. May be that was why the car didn't stop, it knocked the dog down. The dog at once, it even didn't whimper. I was shoked and even burst out of crying. Don't think that I'm an easily touched person. But sometimes I can't prevent myself from crying. To tell the truth I'm a brave woman. Russian drivers often drive a car on a high speed and sometimes I'm even afraid of crossing the road. Sometimes drives can be drunk. And can you imagine that it could be a child or a man or woman who crossed the road instead of the dog. It would be terrible. Life is really very short and one never knows when it will stop. I believe in fortune and hope that it didn't prepared me such a horrable death. I'm sorry for so sad thoughts, probably you don't want to read such lines.
But sometimes I think over my future life. What if a drunk driver will stop my life. There are a lot of such accidents in Russia. Of course I'm not very afraid of death, but I'm afraid of the fact that nothing will be rest after my death. Probably only my friends will notice that I have gone. It's really terrible and I don't want to die as a lonely person. I want to live in a care and tenderness and love with my sweetheart and never think of sad things. I think you are really sick and tired of my silly thoughts but I must share my feeling with you. I hope you will understand me. There are such moments of life when one must explain his or her feelings and thoughts to a daer person. This person for me is you, David. By the way I forget to tell you one more news. I have finised to collect documents for the clinic and now I give my analyses to be cheked for a medical comission to ofter them to the Embassy. I'm waiting for the invitation from Moscow to take part in the interview in the Embassy. They say that they will ask a lot of difficult question and some personal questions. David, I'm very nervous. But I'm eager to meet you and now I think I will over come any difficulties. I'm ready to do a lot just to meet you. Now many people say that I'm pretty and beautiful. May be people just want to plead me. Sometimes I remember my school years. At that time I was far from being beautiful. I was wearing iron cramps on my teeth. I didn't like to look at myself in a mirror, everybody called me "saberteeth" in my school. Probably you are laughing now but I felt me ill at ease at that time. My mom tried tocalm me down and she said that would be a very beautiful lady in some years. She said that only bad people could say such terrible things about me. My mom had always been the dearest and the closest person for me. Do you remember your school years? What were you like? Do American school children often give nicknames to their schoolmates?
I'm sorry. I must finish my letter. But I think I will able write you again very soon. And you David don't forget to write me more and more.
My best regards and hugs.
Kiss you. Your Natalya.

Letter 6

Hi, my far, but dear friend David.
Many thanks for your letter. I'm really madly glad to receive your letter. I'm really glad that I've found you. I should tell to you David I shall soon know result of the reference for the visa. I shall be invited in Moscow in embassy for interview. I think, in some days I shall have the visa. I shall be the happiest person in the World.
It is pleasant for me to read, that you the good cook. It is a rarity among men. I admire with you. I think, that together we could to cook culinary miracles.
I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it's a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required two days to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I'm right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I've no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you.
I've never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I'm more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I don't know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I'll spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you.
I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please don't think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I'm doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I'm not rambling on with my words. I've so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. David, when I speak of you and I think of you, it dosn't matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is.
This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I don't know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
I hope that your reply is not of a harsh nature, and I look forward to its arrival.
With tenderness,
Natalya.

Letter 7

Hello my dearest David!
I have good news, very good for me and for you! I have looked forward to this day. Yeterday I visited American Embassy in Moscow again. I have got the visa. I'm immensely happy. I will leave the work in the bureau on the 27 of September and I willbe able to come to you. I will be able to see you in person!!! I addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked them how I would be able to go to Chicago on the 28 of September, and how much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost $1560 USD.
I asked them to find a cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned out I wouldn't be able to have a cheaper ticket so quicly, the date is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them to offfer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable one. The flight, is on the 30 of September 2004. The ticket costs $1210 USD. I asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it having said that they had a lot of clients. They can't reserve my ticket without adwanced money. I was imploring them. But it didn't work. They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was so disappointed. Then I asked themif I could give just a part of the money. But they didn't agree again. I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance David is waiting for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of crying. Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to pay, for the ticket. They said if I didn't day the rest of the ticket price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry, but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I agreed. They told me to pay $850 USD. But it was too much for me, because I had only 730.
I asked to wait for me during 2 hours. I went out of the room. Marina met me at the door. I told her everything. She understood everything and adviced me to pawn our treasures to a pawnshop. David, it was very difficult for me to agree to do it. I didn't want to burden Marina. But at the same time I want to meet you, David very much. We pawned the treasures, I got $120 USD and I paid the part of the ticket price $850 USD. It was my last money, it was for the plane by which I'm going to come to you. The date and the number of the flight Aeroflot-Russian International Airlines 229.
Departure from Moscow is 10.45 am
Arrival to Chicago (ORD) is 6.00 pm.
I change the plane in Amsterdam (AMS) , number of the flight Kuwait Airways 115.
After it I'll come to Chicago (ORD) to you, David. It was very difficult for me to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not enough. The money was not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty muself. I didn't manage to do all myselffor our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from meeting you. But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's just $360 USD.I must pay it till the 28 of September. Otherwise I will loose the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our treasures will be soldby the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do what I promise. I feel il at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help me. Unfortunately the bureau didn't pay me the money I'd earned. I really hoped to get this money.
It would solve all the problems. But I'll get the money from the bureau in a month or two. Because it's very typical for Russia to hold up the payments of salary. I asked the bureau to give me my money earlier, but thay refused to do it. Now the bureau doesn't have the money necessary for me. Our bureau depends on the budget, it didn't get money for a long time. I think it's because of the terrorist acts in Moscow and in Beslan.
Probably I must say to you that I won't be able to meet you becouse I won't be able to pay the whole sum of money myself. Of course I realize that I shouldn't ask you to give me the money. But at the time I can't just that I won't come to you. I have done too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean that everything was in voun. It's torrible for me to refuse to come to you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I think there is nothing horrable if I ask you to help me. Of course I realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you you're not interested in our meeting. I understsnd that the sum of money is too big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it from you. But at the sametime any person can find himself in my conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just must say that I will never come to you. But I don't want to say so, because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your help. Of course I understend that I mustn't do it. But I'm an honest person. I'm ashaneed of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my money. It's bad but not mortal either. $335 USD which I have paid for the visa and $850 USD which I have paid for the ticket are too much for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details. That's why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I don't want all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the money till the morning of the 28 of September, 2004. I don't want you to think that I'm not an honest person. That's why I send you the copy of my visa. I wanted to show it to you (but not to ask for the help). I asked people from the Embassy to scan the visa by cd.
If you can help me, I send you my coordinates. Marina said that you can use some sistem. I addressed the nearest bank. They said they have "Western Union". They told me that it's the best way for me to get money. There is other remittance system, but at present unfortunately it doesn't work all the time, because some renovation and upgrade of the equipment and signalizing system are made there. But they say that "Western Union" always works and people trust it. I give you the necessary details to send me the money by "Western Union". PROMSTROYBANK
Oktyabrskoi revolyutsii, 9
Smolensk 214000
phone: (7)(081)2239465
for Smolkina Natalya.
They said to me in the bank that to get money from you I must say to the bank workers your full name, you full address, the exact sum of money, which I must get and some confidental numbers (MTCN this 10 digitals). This number will be given to you by your bank, if you send me your help. Only in the case when all the information is sent to me I will get your help.
Please forgive me my words. I say so because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us, I'm afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help, believe me, I'm honest with you. I didn't manage to estimate my forces. And all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of money is too big for you. I didn't want to ask you. I can do everything myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been living with my own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody to help me very selcom, but now I ask you to help me. I will give you all the money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But I need you. I don't know if my letter satisfacted you or disappointed. But I have written you an honest letter. I'm looking forwarol to you answer.
I hope for you.
Your Natalya.

Letter 8

Hi my soul David.
I'm happy to write to you the letter. You promised to help me and our meeting! Now I'm confident, that we shall meet. Now I'm confident, that have got acquainted with the necessary person. You the gentleman! David when I shall hold my ticket in hands I shall be the happiest person in the World. I've told to Marina, that you want to help me. She is glad, that I can meet you. Marina has told to you "Hi". And still, that you would worry about me in the USA. I have convinced her, that you really man and I shall be in safety. In a bureau I work last days.
Many regret for my leaving, but they want, that I would be happy. I'm glad, that I'm dear for many people. I cannot think as we shall meet. I shall tell to you all my feelings!!! These overflow my heart David.
I shall wait day of a meeting with impatience. Unfortunately I cannot see you today. But I'm glad to write to you. I cannot write to you much today. My ideas are confused in a head. I'm excited about a meeting with you. Only you close man for me!!! And anybody in the World cannot even be slightly similar to you. David I hope, that you have not deceived me. David I hope, that you will help. I have addressed in a travel company. They have no right to reserve the ticket without full cost. But I could convince them to wait for some days. But it is forbidden for them. They even not will talk to me if I will come to them without the unpaid sum. Payment from you directly to agency is unacceptable for me! Essence is that to leave Russia on conditions of the visa I should give to the Russian Emigration Service the documents and confirmations that I have paid my travel by myself and I do not use the help of the foreign man. I am obliged to pay cash to receive the form of confirmation, that I possess money resources. And my time is limited. The company will not give me the form of confirmation if I will not pay all sum by myself! I am obliged to give this form to Emigration Committee. I send you a picture. A red dress. Hope you remember it. I think, that I shall arrive to you to it.
With impatience I wait your letter.
Your and only your Natalya.

Letter 9

The visa that you attached is fraudulent. You have been targeted by a very common Russian Internet scam being used to defraud American men of money.
This visa and identity has been sent to many American men.
These people create false Internet profiles and send what appear to be legitimate correspondences. They usually misinform the victim about travel expenses that do not exist and/or they inflate the cost of the expenses thatdo exist. They lure the American in with e-mails, pictures and fake visas in an attempt to prove their good intentions. Almost always something happens and they "can't leave the country". They either "get injured and are in the hospital" and a "member of the family" contacts you for more money or a "member of the family" needs an emergency operation and therefore will need more money, or they are stuck at the airport and are not allowed to board until they can show they have xxx amount of dollars to cover their expenses while in the US. At some point they claim to have been robbed of the money that was sent. Understand that their purpose is not to immigrate to the US, but to get as much money as possible from the victim. Many men have lost anywhere between $400 to $11,000 because they continued to send money without suspicion.
Unfortunately, we have been unsuccessful in our attempts to gain the cooperation of the Russian authorities concerning this issue. Therefore, understand that any money you sent was at your own risk. Please visit our website in order to verify the visa application process. I would suggest that you do a "google search" on her name as many victims of the scam I described have set up websites that blacklist these identities.
We hope that this information is useful.
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