Letter(s) from Julia Renewa to Zane (USA)

Letter 1

Hello Zane. To me are very pleasant that you answer my message also I am glad to our acquaintance! I am from Russia and It's a first experience for me to correspond with the man who live in another country. Therefore I very much worry. You will be surprised likely that I am from other country and have decided to write to you but the matter is that I to wish to change something cardinally in my life and have decided what to get acquainted with the man from other country, the person of other culture, other way of life this that that I need again to revive interest to dialogue with the man. Till this moment I at all had no experience of dialogue with internet. I want to tell you that I am very interested in you. I want to know about you more and want to learn about you better via your letters. I hope you will give me this opportunity. I would like to continue our corresponding and will do all what I can for it. I never was outside my country and it is very interesting to me to know a life in other country. I heard many stories about girls who found males from other countries, had left russia, had married and now live in the other country and happy with their husbands and therefore I want try to find foreign man too. I want that the destiny would smile for me at once and I would be happy. This is so that I want now - find a man for my life. How much times you had corresponding with another people from other countries? I live in Russia in not big city called Niznevartovsk. It is located approximately in 2500 kilometers from Moscow on the east. I was born here on June, 1st 1976 and now I work as landscape designer and ecologist in architectural department. I was never married and I have no children.

I want to let you know I can't write you every day or very often (because I have to use services of internet cafe for sending/receiving letters) but I promise I will try to write in any time when I can. I write you from my home. I have a computer at home. With computer I can write you letters from home. Where you write me from? Sorry, but I don't have phone line for internet and I can't send you letters from my home directly. I must save letters on diskette and go to internet cafe. There I can use email program and send you my letters. An absence of telephone sounds very strange and may be even funny but not all people have telephone here. It's a real thing. I think in America another situation with it. I think all people have telephone in America. Am I right? Please send me some pictures of yourself. But please do not send very big size of pictures, it's very hard to get it in internet cafe. Unfortunately I cannot download the big pictures. Therefore I ask you to not send me pics more than 50 kilobyte. Write to me that you love. What interests at you, what vital plans, that are pleasant to you in the life and that you would like to change radically. I would like to change only my loneliness. Why you have addressed to internet? In general to me all important and interestingly about you.

I hope my letter have not frightened you? In any case I with impatience shall wait your letter. I hope your friend Julia.

Letter 2

Hello Zane. How are you? I'm fine. What's your mood today? Hope you are fine Zane. I have a great mood today since the morning. I got up, take a shower, and drink a cup of indian tea. Do you like to drink tea in your country, Zane? Russians people like it very much. May be it's the consequences of our country's past? May be you know that several years ago when Russia was soviet country we have big turns in the food shops. For example, for butter, meat etc. But we had good relations with some countries which we called our friends. One of those counties was India and always on the shelves of food shopes were packs of Indian tea. May be since that time our people like to drink tea in any time of the day. Tell me what you like to drink? Then I cooked soup with the meat under the recipe of my mom. My parents have got acquainted during study in institute. After they have ended institute they have got married and after two years of their joint life I have appeared. Now I live separately from my parents. They live in the other city. When I have an opportunity I come to see them. I have no children.

What can you tell on the account of my English? Probably I do huge set of mistakes? To me very important your opinion because you the person which well knows this language. I began to study English at school why it very much came easily to me in comparison with other pupils and I always well learned this language because I think that should know even one foreign language, and my choice has fallen on English. Because it is widespread enough language in many countries of the world. This knowledge now help me in dialogue with you. When it is difficult for me to understand, I use the program - translator.

I like to cook very much, especially when I have a great mood. And it's very pleased to the cook when people eat your dishes with good appetite. So may be some when I can cook for you, Zane. Then I went to some bookshops which I have to visit cause my friend asked me to get some books for her. She is the books lover and all the time is interested in new books and articles which are coming to our place. So and I like to read since my childhood different literature. It's doesn't matter russian or foreign authors writes it. So, I visited all that shops and during such business get a great fresh air walking. Then I went home throughout nearest park. I was walked in the park and think that today is a nice day and how great it would be if all the days in the life could be at least such wonderful. How often have you nice days? I hope more than I have. Then I came home, took a shower and felt myself great. Today on TV have to be a good movie in the romantic style on channel of our television. We have a few channels on our television. How many channels do you have? What do you like to watch on TV? What movies?

I have received your pictures. I like them.

I really do not smoke and I do not approve it. That you are more senior than me - not a problem for me. I like the senior men because they skilled also understand a life correctly. They do not play. As it seems to me, they have the established outlook life.

What women do you like? What women are there in your country? I heard that your women want to make great career and they don't like to take a work at household. I think that career is good but woman haven't to forget about the house. But may be in your country think different. I want, will meet the man who is worthy my pure and sincere love. To like me in the person honesty and trust to the loving person, I think it the most important and how you consider? I shall never deceive you because I do not like when people lie!!! I always trusted such easy feelings as love, friendship, fidelity, kindness. I need to trust, that you, which that man I searched! I hope, that has not urgently tired you with a history about myself. I shall be pleased to answer your any questions, but I not always I can understand a question. Therefore I ask to not become angry, if I cannot answer your question. It is very important for me to receive the letter from you and I hope that you will answer me and now. I am waiting for your next email and I want you to tell me more about yourself. I'll tell you more next too.

Your new friend Julia.

Letter 3

Hello my foreign friend Zane! I'm glad to hear from you. I want to tell you that when I write to you my emails I spent much time for it because I must write my thoughts on english but I think you understand all my words. Sometimes I use the dictionary because cannot know all words but I write the most part of email by myself.
I enjoyed reading your letters.
Today not so warmly. And I love warm and solar weather. I like when the sun shines and warm or hot weather. It will be great to meet each other in the future but I know that we must learn more about each other. Maybe I could come somewhere even in your country where as it seems to me the year round warmly. I like to travel but I'm the lonely woman and I do not know where could I to travel. When I was young my mother and I travelled to the black sea in the summer, it was the pretty time when I was young. Then the situation in our country changed. I think you know that our country called USSR then it become Russia. The economic situation changed and we have lost the opportunity to travel there because the grants finished. I'm not rich woman but I like to work.

I'm trying to be frank and fair and I want that you Zane will be frank with me too because we are trying to know more about each other. To me it would be pleasant if you have written to me the family history as it is very important part of a life of each person. I know that many people acquainted through internet and come to each other, so I decided to try to know you better. I'm glad Zane that you write me and want to know about me. I want to know about you more and I hope you will tell me about yourself more. I want to meet man which will respect the woman and which will have trust the woman because I'm trusted and honest woman. I want the friend, the assistant, the beloved, and the partner for other part of my life. I search full equal who - the one who will go with me and to share everything, that the life should offer. I'm sure it's possible and I'm interesting in knowing you better Zane. I want to ask you some questions: do you like to hug? do you like to hold hands? to make woman smile? I like this things. I'm romantic person! I have the good mood today and I want to smile because I feel that someone special write me emails and I communicate with real person from other country which name is Zane!

My parents and my friends know about I have correspondence with you and they approve our relations. I could leave Russia for the sake of happiness and my parents accept it. If so happened, that I have left my country, certainly I would miss people close and native me. But we would correspond also I think, that if it was possible I would come back 1 time in 1-2 years.

Today in the evening I come home and will cook beautiful dish called ' golubec ' I do not know how to translate it to english. It's the stewed meet with rice wrapped up cabbage sheets. I think if you will taste it oneday you will like it! What dishes are popular in you country/city? As you know I'm in healthy image of life I'm not drink and smoke. Sometimes in big holidays I could taste a little wine. I think that the people must aspire to health, I hope you think so also. Do you really interesting in knowing me? It's so amazing because I'm interesting. Mine height - 170 sm, weight - 55 kg I havn't a car and driver license but I think it's not difficulty to drive the car. I think that if the human want anything he will do it anyway in general. I will finish my letter today and I will wait for your! Hope you have a nice day Zane and everything is good!
Julia

Letter 4

Good day my friend Zane.

I'm glad to receive your email. How is your day? I hope good. Yesterday, in the evening I thought about our email exhange. I heard that many women and men exchange emails and meet each other from different countries, I've already told you it before but I recollect this again because it occures now with me and you Zane. I think that an international correspondence is a great thing because it pulls many peoples and nationalities together. What do you think? I'm very peaceful woman and I want that there are no wars in this world. Sometimes in holidays I attend the church but I think that the God must be in the heart and in the head of every man or woman. I hate lie and I like when the people are open as I told you. I'm optimist and I always think that everything will be well. It lifts my mood and gives the power for my living. Maybe oneday as many resolute women I will come to the other country for a living and maybe oneday we'll meet in real? It'll be wonderful! But I don't want that you think that I want to leave my city for finding rich man or other same reason. I know that I can work and earn for myself but I want to love my future husband. As woman I couldn't be alone. I think you understand abiut what I'm talking. So I want to be with a man who will love me and who I will love. It's my dream now. I think if it is so I will be the happiest woman in this world. I'm trying to know more about you Zane because I'm interesting in our acquaintance. I don't want to impose the opinion but who knows maybe we'll be pleased to meet and maybe more. It's real thing I know because it's not hard to come to you Zane but I know we must learn more each other day by day. What do you think about it? I ask you to write me all of your thoughts because I like to be open mind and I like when the people speaks honourly what they think.

I want to tell you more about me: I'm kind cheerful woman, I like many things as I told you earlier. I like the pets, like dogs, cats, horses and others. When I see the small dogs or cats I want to take care of it but I haven't any pet's. When my grandparents were live they had the good dog who name was "Bulba". It was the german sheep-dog. My grandmother's name was Elena and she passed away . My grandfather's name was Alexander and he passed away 9 years ago when he was 69. It's parents of my mother. I never know the father's parents but I know that they are passed away also. Many people in this world loses close people but it's irreversible. Do you have much relatives? I haven't any brothers and sisters but I always wanted to have them. Today I worked and I thought about you Zane very often. I don't know why our correspondence influences much on me. Anyway I'm very glad that you write me Zane! These days I will try to make new photos for you and I will send it. Can I ask you the important question for me? Okay, I ask: How do you feel about our meeting of course in the future because today it's impossible. I think if we will decide to meet each other in the future it will be great! Too early to speak about it serious but it's interesting for me and I want to know what do you think? You know that when I studied in school I have the girlfriend which name is "Nadya" and when she was 26 she emailed with an american man and then she came to The United States to California. I haven't the contact with her because we are not very close friends but maybe someday she will email me. I think she found the right man for her because she lives there. The russian women are not aspire to career, they just want to be loved and make all for husband. I think that it's the russian mentality and they are very hardworking women. But the men in russia are not too good. Maybe it's the reason that many women of our country look for foreign husbands. I think it's a great union when the foreign man and russian woman are together. At least I think so. What do you think? Maybe I'm not completely right... I finish my email today and I hope to hear from you Zane as soon as possible! Yours Julia.

Letter 5

Hello Zane! How are you doing today? I'm fine today and think about you Zane.

I understand that you have doubts concerning me. Unfortunately on the Internet it is valid there can be a lot of deceit. I not so well know the Internet, but I was warned by the manager of Internet - cafe about it. He has warned, that me can deceive, be not real. There can be I naive, because this my first acquaintance through the Internet. But I believe that you are real, I believe you. I read your letters, but sometimes not completely I understand. You should understand that for the person of other country difficultly to understand other language. As though you felt instead of me? I am sorry, that not always I answer on your questions. I sometimes very difficultly understand some phrases, but I try to study the English language in addition. I think, that we should do to each other concessions in understanding, but help to understand, help to be improved to each other in knowledge of us and that surrounds us.

I think, that our acquaintance has already brought to us great pleasure. I very much want to continue it. You know I would like to ask you as you think our relationship with what they can to be and whether they are possible in general? What you to think of me? What I at your sight? How you think at our relationship there can be a future? What do you feel to me? It is very important to me to know answers to these questions.

Yesterday I met my two girlfriends. They are my best friends and yesterday we've come to home and have drunk the tea with the pizza. We've talked a lot about many things and I've told them about our correspondence. I've told them that I email foreign man who name is Zane and he emails me also. I didn't tell them about personal things but I've told them about you and where you live. They said 'hi' to you! They've told a lot about international acquaintances and they said me that it's very possible thing because they heard many times about russian and other ladies from many countries who found the love and great relations with other men from many other countries like united states, canada, germany, france and others. It's possible and this is more easy way to find each other cause many modes of communications are developed and the internet is one of the ways. I think it's great. After our talking we've decided to go to the cinema and watch the movie. We've gone to the cinema named "Rosa" and there was the movie called "Fifty First Kisses". It's the romantic comedy. We've laughed very much when watched it! There was an actress who name is Drew Barrymore. I like her very much. The girl in this movie has got under the car and has lost a part of her memory. Every day when she gets up, she begins her life from the same moment. Zane, do you saw this movie? After this movie we've come to the sauna (I hope you know what it is). We've been there about 2 hours. It's very useful for health! In the sauna the air is very hot and there was a beautiful pool. It's very great to be in sauna and to swim in the pool! Do you like this things? Have you ever heard about russian sauna? Sometimes russian people go outside of the sauna, they come out to the winter snow! It's cool. I know that this kind of rest is very relaxing and cleans the skin. I like when the skin is very smooth and clean! I have this kind of skin because I care for it very much. So it was my last day. When I came home after it, I went to sleep. I want to let you know that I saw the dream when I was sleeping. In this dream was the city unknown for me. I went along the street and there was a nice guy who came to me. When we looked in the faces of each other I ask him about his name. He was smiling and told me that his name is Zane! I don't know why I saw this dream but it was nice dream because I has woken up today in very good mood! Sometimes I see the dreams, what about you? Now I finish my email because I have to go home and cook my supper. I've ended my work for today and now I'm free. I know that I'm not very lonely now because every day I communicate with the nice guy from the other country. It's you Zane! I hope I'll hear from you soon!
Julia

Letter 6

Hi my friend Zane! How are you there?

Every time when I see your email in my mail box I have a good mood.
I hope you feel the same thing.

Yes, really I have a computer at home, but I have no the Internet. I use a diskette to transfer from Internet - cafe and to read your letters.

I want to ask you about your schedule of a day. What do you usually do during the day? Usually I wake up between at 6.30-7.00 a.m. and go to bath. I clean teeth and take a shower. I spend about 5-7 minutes for this procedures. After it I go to room and have some sport exercises. I do it in 10-15 minutes. Then I go to kitchen and cook my breakfast. Usually I already have ready dish for breakfast, because in the evening of last day I cooked it and at the morning I just warm up it. And I already can eat. Quickly and conveniently. But sometimes I don't have beforehand of prepared dish and I have to cook new dish. Mostly if I have this situation I cook fired eggs and sandwich with meat or butter and a cup of tea. Sometimes coffee. After it I have some free time till I will go to my work. In this time I watch tv news or read some books or listen music. But not very loudly because some of neighbours may still sleep. In 7.35-7.40 a.m. I go to my work. I can walk to my work at the street or I use a bus. I understand that on a bus I can get to my work faster, but if the weather is good I like to walk to my work at the street. I like walking in a good weather. Do you like it Zane? To my work I come in 15 minutes if I walk and if I move on a bus I am at my work already in 5 minutes. I will not tell you about all details of my work. During a working day I have one break for lunch. I have 1 hour for it. I think it's enough. I can go to a cafe and have a lunch or I can bring food from home and have lunch at the work. After I finish my work I go home. On my way to home I go to shop and buy some food which I need to cook a supper for myself. When I am home I take a shower. You know it is very vivacital after working day. Besides I like to be clean, you know. Then I cook some for me. It depends on my mood in this moment. Sometimes I want to eat salad or maybe some meat or something else. I try not to cook the same dishes every day and try to cook new dishes for more difference. Then we go for a walk with my girlfriends if they are not busy. If they are busy in this evening I am not upset and watch some movie or show on tv or read some book. Then I go to sleep. It usually happens about 11 p.m. What time do you usually go to sleep. At this time my day finished.

Have a nice day Zane.

Your Julia.

Letter 7

Hi my dear Zane!

I am sorry that you did not receive my letters. I do not understand why you cannot receive. I worry because of it. I hope now you can receive my letter.

I wrote to you this letter on august, 21:

“Hi Zane.

How are you today? I am fine and I hope you have a good mood too.

About my job? I like my job. It is very interesting and even creative. Usually I develop accommodation of green spreadings, their kind to districts, a choice of grades and versions agrees ecological norms. Sometimes I carry out private orders for people having own houses. Also I accept participation in park construction, lawns. Set of variants. But I do not like to speak about my job, I like to carry out my job.

In this letter I want to tell only about my yesterday. I think for you it will be interesting. Yesterday was birthday of my girlfriend Katerina. Sorry I’ve forgotten to tell you about it. I’ve come to her, because she’s invited me. It was a little party. Just close friends her mother and me. Katerina is 33 years old now. It's nice age. Don't you think that? Katerina had a holiday in this day and all day have cooked many different dishes. When guests has come they could see a big table almost of all room where were different dishes of russian kitchen placed. I don't remember, have I told you about it or not but Katerina is a great cook and she can cook many dishes and have a lot of books of culinary. She have even books of culinary of another countries. Sometimes she cook new dish on new recipe and invite me or some friends to taste her new dish. We are always glad to visit her and have talk about some things with a cup of tea or coffee. So when guests have come to the dining room they were surprised a lot! Of cause, so many and very good looking dishes! All of us have congratulated Katerina, wished her the most beautiful things in the world and given to her our presents! It was so great to see her in such a wonderful mood! I present her a nice picture of the sea landscape. A copy of our great artist Aivazovsky. She like his works very much. She was happy! Besides almost all people who is close to her was there. I said almost cause some people could not come for some reasons. But most of us were there. We have tasted all dishes and admired her as a great cook! We have some fun and a lot of discussing about everything. Many of us have not seen each other for a long time. It was great! In the middle of the party Katerina have told guests about me and you basic things. Everybody was very surprised and wish me good luck in my researches of my destiny! Then in the end of the party we taste a great cake which has been reserved in a confectioner's shop from the other side of our town. There were 33 candles in that cake! So Katerina have blown away all at one moment! Great!!! The cake was very delicious! Sometimes later quests have gone away with the best wishes to my girlfriend again. I have helped to her to result in the order things and to wash utensils. So then we have a serious talk about you and me. I have told her that I like you very much and more and more with every next day. She have said to me that I must to think about our relationship very serious but decide of cause by myself. I think that she’s right and have told thanks to her. She is the most good friend of me! After that I have gone home by taxi, taken a shower and gone to sleep with thoughts about you and what Katerina has told! That was my girlfriend birthday and I hope you have a good day too! Your Julia.”

Then I wrote:

I want to know your sight - how do you see your family at all? Maybe I express my thoughts not correctly but I mean what the family would like to have? I think the creation of the family is the one of the greatest steps in whole life of every man. What you think about it? Do you agree with me? I ask you this questions because it's very important for me. I hope you will understand me and will answer me very frankly. From my side I will let you know about my mind of this question. As I said the creation of the family is very important for me and I try to make it very seriously. I consider that the family is loving and taking care of each other, a healthy life style, a good relations in family, the understanding and the trust in family. I know that I will give all my forces and my time for my husband. It's most important things for me in me life. That’s why all this days I thought about development of our relations and the cognition of each other. It's very important thing for me because I'm interesting in knowing you Zane! I know that the best way to know each other is a real meeting. I think you agree with me. Yesterday I’ve tried to listen to my heart and my mind about future. As you know I try to be open and I want to tell you about my thoughts. I hope you understand me. Zane, you are very interesting man for me and I want to meet you in real cause I feel that I begin to fall in love with you. I really want to come and meet you and speak about all things! Who knows maybe it's the destiny and we’ll develop our relations to another level. I think it's a real thing to meet each other and it's the right way. Because you know that I write to you for knowing more about you and I want to find the man who will love me with all your heart and who I will love also! Who knows maybe you could become such a man! I hope I don't frighten you, I'm not persuasive woman and if you don't want to meet me you may tell it to me but I hope you want our meeting. I think we’ll be very glad to meet each other face to face and to talk in real time! I know that if you want I could come to you! Is it great? I have asked today about things for coming into your country and it's real things, if you will agree for my coming - I will come. Please be open with me and tell me everything. If you will be glad to meet me in your city I shall try to learn that I for this purpose need to make and how many to me it will cost. And then I shall write about this information to you but it only in that case if you to approve my intentions. And you do not think that I here then and to arise upon a trip to you. There is no I simply to wish to know your opinion on the future. In fact official registration of papers it not simple business seems to me that and on it not not enough time will leave. And at this time we shall be better to learn each other. You know for me such new these feelings that I cannot describe their words. My heart very strongly fights from ideas on you and when there is no your letter that my heart presses from melancholy and loneliness. You know since I the nobility you I became not lonely. I had a meaning of the life and I am very grateful to you for it. I to be afraid of this condition of love a little and will be afraid very much that to me painfully. I to ask you to write to me about your feelings to me and in general all that you to think of this my letter. It for me is very important!!!!!!

With all my love and tenderness!!! Julia.

Letter 8

Hi my dearest Zane.

You have said that have received my 8 letters. I wrote to you about 15.

probably you have not received my letter on August, 31.

Nice day my love Zane. I am glad that you have written to me again. Your letters help me to feel your affinity. And though we with you are divided with huge distance, reading your letter, I feel your care and love. I present, that you sit next and embrace me. I want, that it was in a reality, as soon as possible. I love you. I want makes love with you.

It would be certainly good to speak in online and to see each other.
But in Internet - cafe there is no such equipment because link speed of a telephone line very low and unreliable

Today I all day thought only of you, how we shall meet you. It will be in the happiest afternoon in my life. I want to embrace you to kiss and tell that you my the most loved. I so will wait for a long time for the person which to have the majority of qualities my ideal men. And I at last meet you - my ideal the man. At me at work began to notice that I become absent-minded. Colleagues speak me, that that that occurs to me. They worry for me and simply do not guess, that I am in love. I for a long time did not test such feelings. I for a long time on anybody so did not miss as on you and your letters. Today fine day. But me it is sad, because we with you so far apart. Between us huge distance, but in the ideas I with you. I love you. I so to want that we were together and were never separated. I really want to visit you in the near future. For now I do not know as it probably to make, But I yet had no vacation this year. I shall take a vacation for our meeting.. How to you my idea Zane? You would be not against??? I so am raised. You to write me the answer somewhat quicker and I shall twitch and experience that while you to not write that you to think of my such impudent offer. I love you very much Julia.

P.S. It is a picture specially for you. I was photographed by the girlfriend.

Letter 9

Hi my lovely Zane! I'm very glad to hear from you ! Your e-mails always make me feel better. Now I have a new mail jl2006iaa@yahoo.com. I ask you to write only here. I want to say, what is it not such Internet -cafe as in other countries. It similarly to computer club. They give me access to the Internet and I pay for it. Today there is no sun in the sky because it is cloudy but your e-mails are the rays of sun for me! I think that you are a very good person for me. I have read your letters and I like you more and more with every next day. I don't know the future but I think that sometimes people don't use the chances which the destiny gives them. I think that all people have chances to build the future earlier or later but they must learn to use it, what do you think Zane? I thought about me and you a lot and it will be so great to meet you personally! I'm sure it's real thing! I understand now that it's real and we can meet in the future if we will want it of course. I'm sure that I would like to meet you Zane.

Whether I do not remember I spoke you, that I have the aunt. She for me very dear and native person. She also is my godmother. I consulted on her about us and she has approved my desire to meet you. She has said, that will help in case of need to me for our meeting. I appreciate this support. I never was abroad and she will consult me all formalities for this purpose. The aunt knows these things. I am glad to accept her help.

I feel that you have become more closer to me. I tell you all about my life and I will tell more if you will ask. I feel that you have become more than friend to me and I want to tell you three words of love but I know it's early now. But you must know I want to tell you it now! I had a dream about our meeting! I really want to know you, speak to you, take your hand and see your eyes. Maybe it's very frankly now but it's true and I don't want to hide it. I always say the true and don't like when people lie. I hate it! My girlfriends have said me that I must tell it you if it's true. They will be happy if I’ll find my love. I think we have a chance, Zane! I want to try to use this chance. Maybe it's a destiny! you must know I think about you now! I want to tell you Zane that you are my love, I trust you and I tell you about my feelings. I want to tell you everything what is in my heart now. I don't know how write it in words but I try now. Today here is a cold wind but thoughts about you make me warm, I feel that you are very favourite for me. My heart beats faster when I’m dreaming about our meeting. Yesterday, last night I had a dream about us. It was a fantastic dream. We were together and speak a lot. I don't remember where we were, but it was not important for me. I felt your breath and it was the happiest moment in my life, it was so real... Then we came to house, we had a dinner with candles. Then we came to bedroom, but it was the final moment that I remember. Then I woke up, I was so warm and my heart was beaten very often. I understood it was only a dream, but it was so real... I think this dream has an important value for me. Maybe it's a sign? I don't know. But I really know that I love you with all my heart, Zane! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! I WANT TO TELL IT YOU PERSONALLY, I WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AND SEE YOUR EYES AND TELL IT TO YOU!!!! I LOVE YOU AND IT'S TRUE!!! Tomorrow I'll go to the church and put a candle for our relations. I’ll make a wish to meet you Zane, I'll ask the God for you, Zane. My heart is yours, I tell it to you because I trust you and I never lie. I tell you about my feelings and I'm sure I must tell you the truth. And it's beautiful truth to me that I love you... I have not thought that it will be, but I feel it to you, Zane! I think we have to meet, I know how to do it. I'll think about it, I think about you as my man in future but we must know each other better for it. I know we must meet and be with each other. I already began to collect all necessary papers for submission of the application of reception of documents for a meeting with you. Therefore for me it is necessary to know your full name, the address and nearest to you the international airport. I ask you to give me these data in your next letter.

I love you Zane please don't forget it, I feel it and I think we must use this chance if you feel that your heart speaks the same to you. If you are in love too, it's great!!! I understand that you can reject me, but I love you anyway. You are the most interest man for me, I like your letters, I love your name very much, and I love you! Yes, I love you Zane and it's great!!! I thank the God that I have written you and found the perfect man, Zane.
Your Julia.

Letter 10

Hi my lovely Zane! I'm very glad to hear from you ! Your e-mails always make me feel better. Now I have a new mail jl2006iaa@yahoo.com. I ask you to write only here. I want to say, what is it not such Internet -cafe as in other countries. It similarly to computer club. They give me access to the Internet and I pay for it. Today there is no sun in the sky because it is cloudy but your e-mails are the rays of sun for me! I think that you are a very good person for me. I have read your letters and I like you more and more with every next day. I don't know the future but I think that sometimes people don't use the chances which the destiny gives them. I think that all people have chances to build the future earlier or later but they must learn to use it, what do you think Zane? I thought about me and you a lot and it will be so great to meet you personally! I'm sure it's real thing! I understand now that it's real and we can meet in the future if we will want it of course. I'm sure that I would like to meet you Zane.

Whether I do not remember I spoke you, that I have the aunt. She for me very dear and native person. She also is my godmother. I consulted on her about us and she has approved my desire to meet you. She has said, that will help in case of need to me for our meeting. I appreciate this support. I never was abroad and she will consult me all formalities for this purpose. The aunt knows these things. I am glad to accept her help.

I feel that you have become more closer to me. I tell you all about my life and I will tell more if you will ask. I feel that you have become more than friend to me and I want to tell you three words of love but I know it's early now. But you must know I want to tell you it now! I had a dream about our meeting! I really want to know you, speak to you, take your hand and see your eyes. Maybe it's very frankly now but it's true and I don't want to hide it. I always say the true and don't like when people lie. I hate it! My girlfriends have said me that I must tell it you if it's true. They will be happy if I’ll find my love. I think we have a chance, Zane! I want to try to use this chance. Maybe it's a destiny! you must know I think about you now! I want to tell you Zane that you are my love, I trust you and I tell you about my feelings. I want to tell you everything what is in my heart now. I don't know how write it in words but I try now. Today here is a cold wind but thoughts about you make me warm, I feel that you are very favourite for me. My heart beats faster when I’m dreaming about our meeting. Yesterday, last night I had a dream about us. It was a fantastic dream. We were together and speak a lot. I don't remember where we were, but it was not important for me. I felt your breath and it was the happiest moment in my life, it was so real... Then we came to house, we had a dinner with candles. Then we came to bedroom, but it was the final moment that I remember. Then I woke up, I was so warm and my heart was beaten very often. I understood it was only a dream, but it was so real... I think this dream has an important value for me. Maybe it's a sign? I don't know. But I really know that I love you with all my heart, Zane! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! I WANT TO TELL IT YOU PERSONALLY, I WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AND SEE YOUR EYES AND TELL IT TO YOU!!!! I LOVE YOU AND IT'S TRUE!!! Tomorrow I'll go to the church and put a candle for our relations. I’ll make a wish to meet you Zane, I'll ask the God for you, Zane. My heart is yours, I tell it to you because I trust you and I never lie. I tell you about my feelings and I'm sure I must tell you the truth. And it's beautiful truth to me that I love you... I have not thought that it will be, but I feel it to you, Zane! I think we have to meet, I know how to do it. I'll think about it, I think about you as my man in future but we must know each other better for it. I know we must meet and be with each other. I already began to collect all necessary papers for submission of the application of reception of documents for a meeting with you. Therefore for me it is necessary to know your full name, the address and nearest to you the international airport. I ask you to give me these data in your next letter.

I love you Zane please don't forget it, I feel it and I think we must use this chance if you feel that your heart speaks the same to you. If you are in love too, it's great!!! I understand that you can reject me, but I love you anyway. You are the most interest man for me, I like your letters, I love your name very much, and I love you! Yes, I love you Zane and it's great!!! I thank the God that I have written you and found the perfect man, Zane.
Your Julia.

Letter 11

My dear love Zane. I have good news. I have submitted applications for reception of the visa and visiting you. I went in the organization which makes the documents for a coming through embassy. I hope I will get the documents permitting to come! I understand that this process will borrow time and it is necessary to wait.

Also I consulted about approximate cost of my travel to you. I have been upset, when have found out cost. I did not think what is it will cost so expensive(All necessary documents will cost about $320 + flight from here to Moscow 180-200 dollars + return ticket to your airport + charges of residing). I have calculated all my finance and it not enough for all charges of travel, including registration and receptions of the documents, allowing to visit your country. Probably I was too naive in my opportunities.

And then I talked with my aunt. I and my aunt spoke about my travel to you and about financial charges. And In a result I have been pleased very much. I can arrive to you if you will help me!!! For this purpose from you it is not required any monetary outlay. My aunt also cares of me and worries about us. And she has decided to help me. She is single but already long time is familiar with the foreigner and they has great feelings to each other. He frequently works in Russia under the contract. My aunt has got acquainted with him on work. And aunt has decided to ask her boyfriend that he has helped us for our meeting. He agrees to help us, but for this purpose your participation is necessary.

Aunt's friend can send the check for your name that you could receive money and send it to me. The aunt has asked why he cannot help me at once. But he has told that the bank system in Russia is different also it not probably. He cannot make it because his conditions of the contract of work in Russia do not suppose to send it to somebody in Russia. I do not know a detail of it. I only have understood, that he can send it to somebody outside of Russia.

Beloved of my aunt is worry, that you can deceive him. But I know, that you are not capable to deceive and will not take away this money. Our meeting - a huge step in our life, and we should To trust each other. You agree? I trust you, therefore I have agreed to it. You agree to help me in this way?

To send you the check, it is necessary to know your exact home address and a full name. I ask you to say once again your full name, on which the check will be sent and your address where to send the check. That there were no mistakes and misunderstanding.

My address:
Russia
Hunt - Muncie autonomous region
Nizhnevartovsk
Street. Lenin, 16-44
My full name – Julia Renewa.

I know that else early about it to speak but I shall tell to you at once: as soon as to you the check will come, receive money for it in cashing service or cashing desk. they there take approximately 9 from the sum, but do not think of it, but they quickly to allow money. After that you can send this money to me through western union. My love, I hope that you understand all and that we soon shall together. I think, that it - good idea as I have no other variants. I want to arrive to you and it now - a unique variant. I very much ask you my dear Zane, I ask you to do all correctly, and then we can be together. I ask you very much want to see you as soon as possible, now all depends on you, therefore as soon as possible say to me your answer that boyfriend my aunt could try to help us. I only hope for it that You have understood all correctly and can help to arrive me to you. Our meeting will be great. I really dream about our meeting and will be do all for it. Are you glad???? I think you will be very glad to meet me when I come! I could be this time in hotel or maybe we will found other place? I am very much excited and with impatience I wait your answer. I love you, yours Julia.