Letter(s) from Tatyana Lapina to Bruce (USA)

Letter 1

Hi my love Bruce. I was very glad to receive a letter from you. When I read your letter, my heart was full of happiness. I can see that we need each other. Every time when I visit church, I pray Lord for us to meet one each other. I do not know how do you feel there with out me. But I feel myself broken without you, I miss you a lot! You are always with me in my mind. And I feel so wonderful that you care about me, I had this feeling very long time ago. I feel that happiness is coming back to me. I began to think about us together, about our first meeting. Now I can say with sure that I need you I need you most of all in this world. I really hope that our meeting is very close now, that it is in a real close future.. I hope that you trust me, I even can feel it somehow and I very very appreciate it as I think that the trust is the most important thing in the relationship. I think that relationship through the Internet is ok but it is not naturally. I want to hold your hand to look into your eyes, talk to you about us. This is the biggest dream for me for now. I want nothing else but this. I am in a very good mood today. I want to know everything. You are very important for me. When I began to correspond with you I hoped that everything would be good with you. With every your letter I realized that I have found the man which is necessary to me. Trust me I want to see you as fast as it possible. I want to embrace you caress. I realized what exactly creation of a spiritual emotional basis of the man you are. Now I can see very clear the purpose of my life and this purpose is a family that I want to have with you. I want to tell you that all the words that I told you about us were really sincerely and all of them were true. And I always understood that our union is real and I want it with all my heart. Now I am sure on all 100 that I can trust you. And that you are the man which I need and which is necessary to me. When I read your letter I saw that trust in your sincerity and fidelity to me. I have made the large conclusion of your letter for myself which is possible to express in three words I LOVE YOU. Today I even felt so wonderful, everything turned out so easily! , because my thoughts were about you. I had a feeling that in a moment when I think of you, you think of me and it warms my soul and body. But we should trust each other, without it we simply can not exist. How do you think is the trust important in our relationship? As I think between us should be a complete trust and we should know about each other everything. You probably think that I am not modern, but I consider that first time I should have affinity with the man I love. At present I have a very big inclination to you, I do not know why but it is truth. Sometimes I have a thought that it is a shame to me to speak to you about it. But at all I realize that my feelings are true. Darling, I do not know, may be I have made too fast decision but I visited agency and found out all the information about visit to you. I think that it is right the time for this conversation. I am more than sure that our feelings are strong enough. I would be very happy to visit you. It is a limit of my desires. In the agency I was told that my trip to you will cost 2124$. It includes everything: two way tickets, visa, my abroad passport, different medical documents, and the work of the agency. I will come to you by the fiance visa. I was explained that it works for 3 months and they said that it is the easiest way for us to be together as I do not have to make too much documents. You know, I feel myself horrible now. I hate to ask someone about anything. I always thought that I am strong enough. But this time situation is different. I love you with all my heart, I can not imagine my life without you. And in the same time I realize that I will never have such a big sum and this is the only way for us to be together. I hope you understand that I really love you. I love you even for the fact that you exist, for your warm words, for your attitude to me, and for the way you are. I love you, not your money. I need nothing except you. All I can do is to pay my 200$ that I have collected for the time I work. I know it is not much but it is all I have. I hope you have understood all I told you in this letter in a correct way. I just want you to see in me not a lady who needs your money but the lady who loves you and wants to spend the rest of here life with you! Good bye for now honey. I woanna tell you again that I love you. I hope to receive your letter soon... Kisses... Your Irina. P.S. Also I made a couple photos at the agency. And they are specially for you my love.