Letter(s) from Olga Kosolapova to Jeff (Canada)

Letter 1

Hi my dear Jeff!
How are you today? I hope you are in a good mood:) as for me i'm just totally happy, i just came to the internet cafe and i see a wonderful, warm letter from you and im so much attracted to your pictures, they are so alive, so interesting it's just like i see you in flesh! I will look at the websites another time i come ok? yes it's a bit expensive and i will just buy some more time to look at the pictures ok?
oh sweet i was so so much waiting to hear back from you i'm so so happy now! I feel that you understand me so much, that we have so much in common and what is the most important is that you are serious about me, i really feel now that it's like we have been waiting for each other...sweetie may be i 'm not very good at expressing my feeling to you but i understand you so so well, just It's all totally new for me talking like this to a man but Jeff you are different from men here it's like i have known you for ages!!!
But still i want to know more about you! Believe me i also get so excited only about the thought that you are real, that we can see each other in real but sweet i would love to know everything about you, i want you to share with me to be even more close.
Well a bit about my roots,you know i have lived in the village before i moved to the city and now I live alone now my parents live far from me, but they care about me of course. They want me to marry a nice man who could take care of me and whom i could be a good wife to.
Reading your letter i just have a hope may be it's you and your meeting here in internet may lead us to something more then friendship. what are your plans for the future? Im so impressed that you would like to visit me here, yes it's a long trip and i would be a bit shy to show you everything here, it's not that safe than in Canada and people are usually can be very mean especially for foreigners.
I so much enjoy your letters, even thought we don't know well yet eachother, i feel very close to you because we are probably seeking for the same things, for something serious already, when you can be safe and when you dont' want to be hurt again. I'm totally dissapointed in Russian men. It seems imposible in Russia to find man with serious intentions and true feelings. All here is based on pretending and fake promises and that's not how you create a family i think. Well of course if you want to create a family one day, would you want? I think Jeff we may have different points of view on things as a result of different mentality, but still i don't think this nor distance nor age can prevent anything if two people like eachother.
Men here seem to have lost moral values and nobody wants to take any responsibility here. And all i want to have is a nice, loving husband, kids, good safe family life and no betrays and lies.
I so glad that you have a very interesting and well paid job. I love my job, i love English and i love teaching kids. I live honestly and it brings pleasure to me, even though i work so so much and I make very little money, 70 dollars a month and i have to life from pay day to pay day.I am optimist and I like to smile,because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine no matter of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face. You are really nice and honest person, i can tell just reading your email!I so much agree with you Jeff, we are so far from eachtoher, and i feel that if we were near each other know it would be so interesting so exciting!You know it would be like a fairy tale for me to visit Canada, i know you would show me so many things that i have only heard about and when we get tired of it we could come back home and i could cook for you something RUssian, and what would you like?I 'm so glad that i know English so we don't have a problem talking to eachother You know i have some questions for you, what are your food preferences? i really like to cook and one day i would love if you tasted how i cook! WEll i guess you probably like healthy food, because you are in great shape! DO you do sport?I regularly go to the pool to swim. I think woman should always stay in good shape! I go on the certain days, 3 times per one week, on Tuesday, on Thursday and on Saturday. Usually my colleague from school Elena goes with me, but not so often because she is married already. Also I very much love to run on mornings, near to my appartment there is a public skating ring, so when there is no ice you can run there, but certainly I wish i could devote more time to sport. I really love to watch children playing football, volley ball, hockey, i would so much love my children be in for sports, and what do you think of this?
WEll i will finish my letter for now im happy that i can write to you this letter now, i'm really
excited about our meeting here. Please you can ask me any questions you want, i will be happy to
answer them all! I feel so wonderful now, I will be waiting impatiently for you letter, sweet kiss for you
Olga

Letter 2

My love Jeff!
Darling, I was so so touched by your letter even it was so short i missed so much it yesterday when i couldn't come to the internet cafe!
I was waiting the whole day today to come here and see if i got something from you!
.......i don't know what to do because you are so so nice as from outside as from inside, i really hate that distance that separates us! Honey, i don't want to think about the past, life goes on and i'm so happy that we met, i so much like you and you know i think if not the distance we could have had a great time together having our first date! I'm so thankful to internet that
connected us , that we have chance to talk, I'm so so happy!
You can't imagine how nice i feel now,i want to take yours letter and have it always with me, because there is so much warmth,care in it, which i miss so much!
Jeff i just realize, i have never ever met such a man like you in my life, who would look for the same things as me who would care about me and who would be interested in me like you are now, you are intellegent and very kind and I feel so good now, i feel that we have a connection and i'm not lonely anymore!sweetie please don't think that it's just a correspondence for me, no, i feel that in you i found my true soul mate and i want you to know everything about me now, i want us to have a chance to see we are for each other and why not sweetie, as you said distance doesn't matter right? I so much agree that we would have so much to talk about when we met in real! I just know that we would feel so easy with eachother,i know we will be able to help and support each other and we would have a great family!
Honey i have been waiting so long to meet such a man like you and i have suffered so much because i thought there were no decent men left in the world, and then i get you letter and the world change for me, when i finished reading your very first letter my heart has stopped for a second and i felt like I have been missing you in my life, did you ever had something like that?
And you are right, the life is short and if we really like eachtoher, we can't we just meet and get to know each other better and may be never ever part again? I'm mature enough already i think to leave the country, especially when my heart now tells me that in you i found my true soulmate! I so much want it to see you as soon as possible, i don't know i just don't feel that it's too early if we have a possibility to see each other we should do it! And what do you think about it sweetie? When do you have free time? You said that one day i could see eveyrthing with my own eyes but now for me it seems like a fairy tale and you are a wonderful prince who will save her princess! i have never done any canoeing, or bungee jumping sweetie, only saw on TV...
Honey i'm not afraid of it,to come to you because i see that you have only good intentions and you don't have any reason to do bad to me, but of course my parents would be worried a little but i'm a grown up person already and i have never felt like this before!
Jeff, i'm very excited now, because i feel that something great is going to happen to us, i have such a temptation now, i want to know even more about you, please tell me more about your everyday life, things that you dislike, about your friends? are they all married? Well my life here now is mostly connected with school and i spend so much time there! I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. That's why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. ON the weekends sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly.
I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something
to do about the house on weekends:) that's how it just goes! But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books.
I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I don't like to read western or detectives, though lately I read stories about Sherlock Holmes with pleasure. and do you like to read at all ?i do have some good friends with whom i love to be with but not too many, mostly girlfriends .When we meet with girl-friends the air is filling with laughter. We just love to chat, we go to movies and to the park. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. In Russia camping is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In summer the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful. I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest, river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtly..what about you? HOney you know i would love to cook for you if I had chance,I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My grandmother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well don't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart.
May be she is right. Also I like dishes of Caucasian Georgia, Italia, and sometimes i like sushi. Have you ever tried something RUssian?
May be you know Russian dish - pel'meni. Pel'meni - small parts of forcemeat, which should be wrapped up by test. The forcemeat for pel'meni prepares from 2 kinds of meat, it is usual from a beef and pork.
The process of preparation pel'meni is very long. Pel'meni can be fried, and be boiled. You eat then with mayonnaise or ketchup, it is possible as with sour cream. I like them a lot. Also there is a large assortment of salads, one of known salads it vinegret. May be it may sound a bit complicated now sweetie, but i'm sure you will all like it, becuase it's really tasty!
Well sweetie please write me as soon as you can, i will come here tomorrow, i really can't wait to get your letter !
Love you
Your Olga


Letter 3

Hi my dear Jeff!
How are you today? I hope you are in a good mood:) as for me i'm just totally happy, i just came to the internet cafe and i see a wonderful, warm letter from you and im so much attracted to your pictures, they are so alive, so interesting it's just like i see you in flesh!
I will look at the websites another time i come ok? yes it's a bit expensive and i will just buy some more time to look at the pictures ok?
oh sweet i was so so much waiting to hear back from you i'm so so happy now! I feel that you understand me so much, that we have so much in common and what is the most important is that you
are serious about me, i really feel now that it's like we have been waiting for each other...sweetie may be i 'm not very good at expressing my feeling to you but i understand you so so well, just It's all totally new for me talking like this to a man but Jeff you are different from men here it's like i have known you for ages!!!
But still i want to know more about you! Believe me i also get so excited only about the thought that you are real, that we can see each other in real but sweet i would love to know everything about you, i want you to share with me to be even more close.
Well a bit about my roots,you know i have lived in the village before i moved to the city and now I live alone now my parents live far from me, but they care about me of course. They want me to marry a nice man who could take care of me and whom i could be a good wife to.
Reading your letter i just have a hope may be it's you and your meeting here in internet may lead us to something more then friendship. what are your plans for the future? Im so impressed that you would like to visit me here, yes it's a long trip and i would be a bit shy to show you everything here, it's not that safe than in Canada and people are usually can be very mean especially for foreigners.
I so much enjoy your letters, even thought we don't know well yet eachother, i feel very close to you because we are probably seeking for the same things, for something serious already, when you can be safe and when you dont' want to be hurt again. I'm totally dissapointed in Russian men. It seems imposible in Russia to find man with serious intentions and true feelings. All here is
based on pretending and fake promises and that's not how you create a family i think. Well of course if you want to create a family one day, would you want? I think Jeff we may have different points of view on things as a result of different mentality, but still i don't think this nor distance nor age can prevent anything if two people like eachother.
Men here seem to have lost moral values and nobody wants to take any responsibility here. And all i want to have is a nice, loving husband, kids, good safe family life and no betrays and lies.
I so glad that you have a very interesting and well paid job. I love my job, i love English and i love teaching kids. I live honestly and it brings pleasure to me, even though i work so so much and I make very little money, 70 dollars a month and i have to life from pay day to pay day.I am optimist and I like to smile,because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine no matter of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face. You are really nice and honest person, i can tell just reading your email!I so much agree with you Jeff, we are so far from eachtoher, and i feel that if we were near each other know it would be so interesting so exciting!You know it would be like a fairy tale for me to visit Canada, i know you would show me so many things that i have only heard about and when we get tired of it we could come back home and i could cook for you something RUssian, and what would you like?I 'm so glad that i know English so we don't have a problem talking to eachother You know i have some questions for you, what are your food preferences? i really like to cook and one day i would love if you tasted how i cook! WEll i guess you probably like healthy food, because you are in great shape! DO you do sport?I regularly go to the pool to swim. I think woman should always stay in good shape! I go on the certain days, 3 times per one week, on Tuesday, on Thursday and on Saturday. Usually my colleague from school Elena goes with me, but not so often because she is married already. Also I very much love to run on mornings, near to my appartment there is a public skating ring, so when there is no ice you can run there, but certainly I wish i could devote more time to sport. I really love to watch children playing football, volley ball, hockey, i would so much love my children be in for sports, and what do you think of this?
WEll i will finish my letter for now im happy that i can write to you this letter now, i'm really
excited about our meeting here. Please you can ask me any questions you want, i will be happy to
answer them all! I feel so wonderful now, I will be waiting impatiently for you letter, sweet kiss for you
Olga

Letter 4

My love Jeff!
Darling, I was so so touched by your letter even it was so short i missed so much it yesterday when i couldn't come to the internet cafe!
I was waiting the whole day today to come here and see if i got something from you!
.......i don't know what to do because you are so so nice as from outside as from inside, i really hate that distance that separates us! Honey, i don't want to think about the past, life goes on and i'm so happy that we met, i so much like you and you know i think if not the distance we could have had a great time together having our first date! I'm so thankful to internet that
connected us , that we have chance to talk, I'm so so happy!
You can't imagine how nice i feel now,i want to take yours letter and have it always with me, because there is so much warmth,care in it, which i miss so much!
Jeff i just realize, i have never ever met such a man like you in my life, who would look for the same things as me who would care about me and who would be interested in me like you are now, you are intellegent and very kind and I feel so good now, i feel that we have a connection and i'm not lonely anymore!sweetie please don't think that it's just a correspondence for me, no, i feel that in you i found my true soul mate and i want you to know everything about me now, i want us to have a chance to see we are for each other and why not sweetie, as you said distance doesn't matter right? I so much agree that we would have so much to talk about when we met in real! I just know that we would feel so easy with eachother,i know we will be able to help and support each other and we would have a great family!
Honey i have been waiting so long to meet such a man like you and i have suffered so much because i thought there were no decent men left in the world, and then i get you letter and the world change for me, when i finished reading your very first letter my heart has stopped for a second and i felt like I have been missing you in my life, did you ever had something like that?
And you are right, the life is short and if we really like eachtoher, we can't we just meet and get to know each other better and may be never ever part again? I'm mature enough already i think to leave the country, especially when my heart now tells me that in you i found my true soulmate! I so much want it to see you as soon as possible, i don't know i just don't feel that it's too early if we have a possibility to see each other we should do it! And what do you think about it sweetie? When do you have free time? You said that one day i could see eveyrthing with my own eyes but now for me it seems like a fairy tale and you are a wonderful prince who will save her princess! i have never done any canoeing, or bungee jumping sweetie, only saw on TV...
Honey i'm not afraid of it,to come to you because i see that you have only good intentions and you don't have any reason to do bad to me, but of course my parents would be worried a little but i'm a grown up person already and i have never felt like this before!
Jeff, i'm very excited now, because i feel that something great is going to happen to us, i have such a temptation now, i want to know even more about you, please tell me more about your everyday life, things that you dislike, about your friends? are they all married? Well my life
here now is mostly connected with school and i spend so much time there! I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. That's why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. ON the weekends sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly.
I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something to do about the house on weekends:) that's how it just goes! But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books.
I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I don't like to read western or detectives, though lately I read stories about Sherlock Holmes with pleasure. and do you like to read at all ?i do have some good friends with whom i love to be with but not too many, mostly girlfriends .When we meet with girl-friends the air is filling with laughter. We just love to chat, we go to movies and to the park. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. In Russia camping is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In summer the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful.
I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest,
river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtly..what about you? HOney you know i would love to cook for you if I had chance,I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My grandmother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well don't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart. May
be she is right. Also I like dishes of Caucasian Georgia, Italia, and sometimes i like sushi. Have you ever tried something RUssian?
May be you know Russian dish - pel'meni. Pel'meni - small parts of forcemeat, which should be wrapped up by test. The forcemeat for pel'meni prepares from 2 kinds of meat, it is usual from a beef and pork.
The process of preparation pel'meni is very long. Pel'meni can be fried, and be boiled. You eat then with mayonnaise or ketchup, it is possible as with sour cream. I like them a lot. Also
there is a large assortment of salads, one of known salads it vinegret. May be it may sound a bit complicated now sweetie, but i'm sure you will all like it, becuase it's really tasty!
Well sweetie please write me as soon as you can, i will come here tomorrow, i really can't wait to get your letter !
Love you
Your Olga

Letter 5

My prince my love how are you?
Hi my sweet Jeff...I am fine today and I hope you are too! I am so happy to get your letter!I am so much happy that we have found each other and now we are together and possible soon we shall be together. Can you imagine i saw you in my dream today!! You walk to me but yet you will not kiss me, you only look and smile, you put your hand upon my face and look into my eyes. It is a loving feeling but yet you hold back, not knowing what to do. It is a wonderful feeling, one of contentment, one of security. And now i look at the picture that you sent me, you are so so nice, so smiling, so handsome, among your friends, how much i want to be with you there, because i'm alone here and you are there, we just have to meet!
You know, in the childhood I dreamed, that I will find the prince, with whom I can go on edge of the ground. In a consequence I have understood that actually there are no princes. Jeff, i know The Ideal man cannot be found. But close to an ideal which is necessary for you, you can find. I can tell you now, that you - is my ideal. I can not explain an origin of love. I can not explain why the woman draws to the man. And I can not explain why the man draws to the woman. It occurs at a subconscious level. I know that you love me, and I feel that my heart is open for your love. I need you very much. I want to be with you. I want to give you all tenderness which for a long time I saved inside me. Nothing can be compared to this feeling of filling up somebody's life. The excitement, which tortures me while waiting your letters every day. The feeling, which fills every corner of my heart. Every step I make is safe, because I feel you around me. And I want you to know, that I have never felt like this before.
I am sure that we can meet very soon of course I am really serious about our meeting! Today after the internet cafe i will go to the travelling office and find out all the information that you asked me to find out, i do have Russian passport but i would have to get an international one in order to travel!
I loved your letter,I feel like a princess now, i feel so special!!
You know I have already writen my parents about us, about you, told them that we are very happy to meet eachother, i don't think they would have something against, i'm a grown up person already! You know i'm thinking now may be i could really come to you,see you in real, we would have a real date, how i miss it already! that it would be so exciting for me to come to you and see you, see your country. When would it be the best for me to come? I have my vacation really soon..I don't know it's strange but i'm not afraid at all of it, i just know that i want to see you and we need to see each other in real. I just have never done any travelling and i have to probably go to the travelling office and find out more about it what do you think? Well i'm very excited about it!
Also you said that you would want to visit my place sometime also, well sweetie I would show you my favorite places in city. In the evening we could walk down the streets. At summer it is very beautiful. I shall introduce you to my cousin and her family. They will be very glad to you.
In Russia very kind and hospitable people. I think, that you highly would estimate our hospitableness. Recently it is a lot of tourists from other countries visit our city. Very much frequently in the street or in cafe I hear foreign speech. You will visit me once? I shall be very glad to see you here.
Unfortunately, our region has no the international airport. And airflight will be through Moscow. All tourists travel thus.
But for travel to Russia, it is necessary to know in what season there is this travel.
Since we have very cold winter. We have only a few warm months. It is May, June, July and August. In the rest of the time here it is cold. And in the winter, in November, December, January, February and March we have a lot of snow and very cold weather that your hands and nose just freezes. In the spring this snow begins to thaw and along the street the big streamlets flow. Very many paddles. This occurs an autumn, but because of rains. Sweet i think we do have some of those big animals but i have never seen one!! I think, that the most pleasant travel to Russia may be in the summer but it's over already....i would so much like to see how you live just with one eye!! To see your house, my apartment is so tiny and so badly furnished, and i even can't change much in the interior because i rent it..
Well sweetie i will be waiting for your letter so much, i have to finish mine because my hands are so cold. Sweet thank you so much for your adress, i'm going to write you a letter it's so exciting really!
And also i would love to talk to you on the phone, unfortunately i don't have a cell phone and even the home phone as i rent the apartment, but i can call from the calling center it should be possible, so please tell me what is the best time to do it and your phone number ok?
It's so cold and windy today outside and it was so so cold in school!! i will go home now, my love, get some hot tea ok? I love you and i kiss you
Your Olga

Letter 6

Hi my dear prince, hi dear Jeff!
You can't imagine how much happy i get when i see that i have new letters from you!! Me too sweet i can wait to get here to the internet cafe!!! And when i see your new picture today, oh how much i wished i was already there with you but not here! Sweetie thank you so much for your sharing it's so so important for both of in this situation i guess when we don't see each other!!! And i so much miss you more and more...what have you done to me sweetie? You speak with me in your letters about many good nice important things and I feel myself as in a fairy tail when I read it really! and when i come back home i'm so so lonely! I am very grateful to you for warm attitude to me and for pleasure to correspond with you!
But to parallel for my happy feelings, there are alternative feelings. I can't see you, hear you, I can't touch you. It is so pity that we aren't the birds. We haven't got wings and we haven't got an opportunity to fly towards each other. Always when I read your letters, I think you sitting near to me and speaking all these words. Probably I have rich imagination! I can imagine all your gestures and all your emotions with which you state your ideas.
I also so much want to tell you so much want to say that it seems that it's never enough time for me here in the internet cafe to tell you all i feel, all i want you to know, i don't want us to have any secrets from each other and of course i want you to know everything about me. It would be great if you could see where i was born, place where i grew up!!! Honey but at the same time i'm so so excited to see where you live, to get acquainted with your culture!!You see i'm alone here, i am an only child and the closest person to me is my cousin and she lives in the village with her husband! I share with her a lot and of course she is so happy for us. She was planning to come visit me tomorrow if the weather is not too bad, i will tell her all about us!
My love you know today after teaching I decided to go straight to the travelling office, so i could write you all the information if it is possible for me to travel to you! Jeff my dear,i think that i have very very good news for us. In order to travel to you I first have to get an international passport,and a tourist visa ! It will take about 4-5 days they said to get everything ready and they advised me to apply for it as soon as possible if i want to leave soon. They also said that they can find for me cheapest airfare from Moscow to Toronto , i asked them about middle, end of October and they told me that if i book the tickets now,they could prepare everything for me cheaper: tickets along with insurance, tourist plan and everything that i might need during the travel to you. My love i'm so so excited you can't imagine, did you know that i have never been on the plane? Honey, just what makes me very sad is a price, they told me that visa and passport will cost me 530 Euro and that what just i didn't expect..i will have to save this money for 3 months and i even haven't been paid for May, so i guess i will need to borrow this money some how if we decide that i can come to you. Right now i feel so shy that i'm poor, i wish i could have a better job and didn't have such financial problems..but i want you to know that i'm ready to do all i can here because i feel that i really want to see you in real, to be with you, to feel safe and loved! I feel that i would be glad to start organizing everything to come to you but of course i would love to know what you think sweetie first ok? What time would be the best for me to come? Because i think i will be of work already by the 19th, 20th of October and i will have 2 months off, usually i just stay in the city, i agree to tutor some kids and just to earn some money...it's all the same every year sweet, and i'm so tired already of the surroundings here, they all remind me how lonely i am...i would love to travel this long way just to see you, to see how you live, to be able just to hug you so you can warm me up when it's raining outside...
Sweetie, i so much was thinking of what we can do when we meet in real, of course we could go to the movies and just i would enjoy just sitting near you! And do you like dancing? Dances are my weakness, I very much like to dance, and I think that I could learn you to this, or on the contrary, maybe you learn me? I think dancing help people to relax. The most important values, which my soul men should have, it is a sincerity, honesty, kindness, trust and respect I do not like hypocrites and people who take advantage of a person just because they can do it. And I am always honest with people. The age and appearance is not of great importance for me,if heart and soul are full of love and tenderness, it is not necessary to worry about the rest. Though frankly speaking it seems to me it does not matter what we do, if we do it together even simple boring routine, like cleaning the house, we can do and enjoy doing them, but the most important thing is that you can share all things with the person who will enjoy them also just because he enjoys everything sharing together with you. So honey please tell me what do you want to do when we meet?
Sweet if it's better to call you on weekend, we can wait till that, but if i can call you for example 3-4-5 pm my time it would be so great, i would love to hear your voice finally!
i will be waiting for your letter as usual, with great impatience i kiss you sweetie
Your Olga

Letter 7

HI my love Jeff! I don't know how to tell you but i'm afraid i'm totally in love with you, it's crazy but i have never been so close to anyone and i have never felt anything like this to anyone in my life as i feel now towards you! I'm so happy to see a letters from you today and your picture is again so sweet, i so much like how you look, i can wait to see you in real! Honey yes of course it was me, i called you but nobody answered but just in case please sweet, write me again both numbers, so tomorrow i can call both of them and i will finally hear your voice!! Honey you know i realize now that i have met a lot of people in my life, i met a lot of good and nice men and i could have another future....but i'm so happy that it didn't happen my prince! My heart tells me now that's it's you and i trust you so much, I want us to never part and i can't stop the feeling that is growing inside of me! I more and more trust you and i know you so well even though our meeting in real is ahead of us!You know sweet i'm a bit sad today, yesterday I spoke to my cousin and to my best friend, I asked them if they can lend me the money for the trip to you, but they said that they can't help me my love, because it's not the best time for them, and my cousin is expecting a baby now...she doesn't even have so much money right now..I couldn't sleep yesterday, I'm so sad I don't know my love how to get the money to come to you,i just didn't expect it all would be so so expensive!I have a feeling that this meeting will change our lives and I'm ready to do what it needs, but here I'm helpless..Sweetie you see i even can't start making a visa and passport because i don't have enough money for it... Well sweetie if we could do that, if we could find the money for the visa i could already apply for it even tomorrow? And then very soon i will be able to fly to you! I'm so so happy you can't imagine! I have to think what i will need to bring with me and i also want to bring something Russian, some souvenirs for your family, friends may be? Please tell me sweetie, what would you want me to bring from Russia, may be you always wanted something? And also my love, please tell me how long would you want me to stay? I guess the visa is good for 3 months but i have only 2 months of vacation approximately, i really don't want to be a burden for you but of course we can decide it a bit later:) Honey you can't imagine how much i want to see you now, to be with you, i would feel so safe and protected...sweetie I"m sorry for sharing my problems with you but i have to tell you, i'm so shy that i'm poor! I wish i could be prepared for it but i have never earned so much and i know also that the tickets will be even more expensive...please write me sweetie I will be waiting for your letter so much, i kiss you my dear Your Princess Olga

Letter 8

My love my darling how are you?
Sweet i really didn't know that you had a bad connection, you should have told me sweetie, because i heard you pretty well and i thought that may be i called in the wrong time, may be you were sleeping and i woke you up, it happens i understand but now i understand that you just didn't hear me clearly but...i loved your voice so much you can't imagine, i want to hear it more and more!! Yes sweet, i want to see you in real as soon as possible, i can't wait for it already, i want to come to you so we can finally have our first love date, your pictures, your letters, your voice, now it's all one for me, the man i want to be with, the man who loves me, understands me, supports me, you my prince! And of course sweetheart we can wait till November we have already waited for so long, we were alone and suffering because we didn't have each other and now it's different, i feel that we are for each other and now i know that we will be together soon!
Today i was at school my love, I'm just finishing couple of things at school,handing in all
the papers and that's why I'm just running like crazy now here.
I will have a parents meeting soon, we will be discussing the results of the students and of course i will have to make a report also. So i will do it tonight. Oh i forgot to say, my cousin says hi to you Jeff, i told her so many good things about you! She said that i definitely changed for the past time and of course i did i'm totally in love and i'm ready to smile all day long just because i know that you think of me you care about me, I love you Jeff!
You know very soon, by the next week i hope i will finish all school things and i will just start making myself ready to come to you my love! We will have a lot to take care about but i know that we will manage it, sweetie! Please don't worry honey, i love making presents and now i will have some time before my trip, i would make you a present with my own hands, I like to do it when i have free time but dont' worry my love i we have all our life ahead of us and everything we will share together!
Honey i just wanted to tell you thank you again, you can make me feel so special even you are so far away, i feel so protected now, i know that I can trust you and it's a great feeling and i want you to trust me also, i have made a decision and i'm ready to do what it needs.
Sweetheart thank you so much that you want to help me i will be very careful with the money and i will make sure that the travel agent will provide me with everything i need ok? The cost of the visa and tickets are 530 Euros and in US dollars it is 745.
Sweetheart the only problem is that i don't have an account in the bank i just have never needed it, may be their is some other way to send the money, just not by post, it's not safe at all. I will write you my information now ok:
my full name is Pegeneeva Olga
my adress where i live now is 17, Ryabinina street ap. 35, Yoshkar-Ola, Russia 424000
Sweetie i just wanted to say thanks to you again, for what you do for us, for your kindness to me and for your understanding...i would really be not be able to come with such sum of money so soon, but honey only today after i read all your letters i realized that we are one now, we are that unit of love, trust and happiness. And that just we are inseparable now, i know that only few weeks more and i'm yours and you are mine and nobody will ever prevent us from being happy!
HOney my love i will go now. My love i will come here tomorrow and if everything will be good i can already apply for the visa next week? Kiss you my sweetie, and please wait till i come ok?
I love you kiss you
Your Olgunya
i know that you have already your favorite picture of me, but i will send you some more ok?;) by the way that's my cousins cat, not mine:(
i so much would like to have a pet one day!!

Letter 9

Hi my dear Jeff, hi my sweet! I really hope you had a nice weekend, and of course i so much wanted to talk to you i had no idea that you could be out of town! Well now you are back and you are safe and sound and i feel your love and it's the most important thing for me now, i love you and i really worry about you, because i know that you are my boyfriend now, i know it's a bit strange feeling that we haven't seen each other in real, but other than that i'm very happy i know that we will have all the time ahead of us! Sweet i think that by the end of the week i will be already done with all the work and i wanted to do some tutoring, i mean private lessons, during work i had never enough time but now i could do it, waiting for my departure what do you think? That would bring me some extra money, that i will need during my travel to you, also i will have to get to Moscow and their i will have a interview at the Embassy so i will have some money with me. Just i know that if i could i would even do much more for us!! But i will do my best, i want to be with you and i so much appreciate your support also! I know that you have so many questions to me and i wish my fingers would follow my thoughts, would follow everything that i want to tell you! Well i think that i will tell you about my childhood when we meet, ok? Just want to tell you that i wasn't an angel and i was always seeking for adventures!! Now i think i became more mature! My parents have given me so much, i wish i could see them more often, they are so far away but we also write to each other by email, we keep in touch, my love and i love my parents. I always take advice from them and always try to help me as much as they can. Any time we talk on the phone they kept asking me if i have found somebody, and i always told them that i was waiting for my prince...and now they know about you and they are so happy for us, they tell me to be careful while the trip and they are glad that finally i sound happy and not lonely. And its all because i have you my love. I want to spend my entire life with you! My girlfriends, almost all of them are married. The first was married because she got pregnant from him, the second because of his money and where is love here? The first suffers because he drinks and it's an illness already. She is afraid that her children will be born ill and the second girl, she just stands so many violence from him everyday, humiliation, that for me is for example worse than death. Here in Russia it's not a surprise because women have no rights and i just want to be loved and love, i want to have a good man in my live, i dont' want to suffer.. May be it's not nice for you to know but that's the reality here... Well sweet we have not long to wait to finally be with each other. Sweet so i don't forget, yes right now i only should pay for the visa and passport and that is 745 US dollars as i have told you. I also found out at the post that the safest way to wire the money is to use Western Union, do you have it there sweetie? We have it here and to send the money you should know my details and i have sent them to you already. If it works and you send the money, there should be some number that you have to tell me and the exact sum of money. So sweet i wish you a good beginning of work week, i wish i could be there with you on Monday morning to cook a nice breakfast for you, i love you and will come here tomorrow! Your Olga

Letter 10

My dear Jeff!
I'm really happy now, i'm reading your letter and my heart is smiling again, i feel so calm and confident that i wish you knew how much you mean to me my dear! Honey, i'm so so impressed, i really didn't know that man could ever do so much for her woman, you just have such a kind heart that is rare to find! Please just wait till i come and you will see that i'm ready to give and share a lot with you...just wait for me please!
YOu have cahnged everything in my life completely now and all i do now is connected with you! Yes i'm maintaining my everyday life here, i work, i cook, i go shopping i clean...but i feel that i do it for you now, like you just went on a business trip somewhere but you have to be back soon, and i'm waiting for you, i'm thinking of you! You can't imagine but i'm also live now waiting for that day, that hour that we will actually both become happy and will complete eachoter, you will meet me at the airport and since then there will be no more time for loneliness, despair, uncertainty when i will be in your arms and you will say that"i will never let you go Russian angel". You can't imagine how i feel when i think about it..just really want this moment really soon and i'm also counting days sweety!
Jeff, you know i wanted to tell you thank you now. Because you know we have all distance between us, it's hard to know each other, but you sweetie...you make it real to get to know each other!!!i want to thank you for your sincerity and openness, i feel that every word in your letter comes straight from your heart and goes in to mine. Your letter now replace me a whole world because i live in them. I imagine my self cooking for you, i will do my best sweety and you won't have to cook at all because i think that in a good house women should take are for that, she should do it for her man, for her children. HOney you can't imagine how much i wait for this moment to be able to do that to see that you like what i have done for you, to see your smile when you woke up and breakfast is already made for you! So much thing we would enjoy i know it and all it's called a happy family life when two people love eachother trust eachother, care of eachother!
I wanted to tell you so much especially we would have to share our past when i come to you. I will tell you all i can about my past honey, even now i don't have any secrets from you just we have a lot to discuss and i just can't write everything in the letter! i just feel bad now that i didn't tell you much of my family sweety. I don't have any sisters or brothers Jeff, my mom and dad they live in the Ukrain, not far from Lugansk. THe situation was rather difficult when the factory that where they worked broke and they were left without anymoney. I was just finishing university and didn't have any job and no money to keep our house in the village where we lived. SO the moved there because there were some vacant places. 5 years i'm living by myself and of course i keep in touch with them, but sweety i realize that i'm a grownup person already and they expect me to have my own family already...last time i wrote them I told them that I met a very nice serious man from Canada and i wrote them that i 'm very happy. So my mom told me that she wishes me only happiness and she just asked me not to be too naive, because internet is not a serious thing, but sweety i will write her tomorrow that everything is serious and i'm already coming to you soon and that i will be making visa soon. HOney i know that you are my half now and my parents will understand my choice i'm sure because i feel happy as i have never been before in my life...so please dont worry that i'm hiding these good news that we have, i'm ready to tell all the world how happy i am! Sweet i can't wait to get acquainted with your friends and especially with your mom!!
OK love i will come here tomorrow as usual ok, i love you so much and just please trust me all i can i will do for us, all i can i will do or us to be together because i think about it everyday!
I have to finish the letter now, i will be waiting patiently for another one from you and this letter i will ask to print for me now sweety, dont be sad that we are not together at the moment, just think about that we have so much ahead of us, you are right ,it's worth of waiting!
Sweet almost forgot, i will have to pay the travel agent 745 US dollars and to send me the money you just have to know my address and full name that's all the is required and when i will go to pick up the money i will have to have my Russian passport with me!
well sweet please write me will be waiting so much for your letter,
yours only Olga