Letter(s) from Svetlana Trushina to Jeffrey (USA)

Letter 1

Jeff,
I do not know as to begin this first letter to you, I just tell you something about me. I am 28 years old, my birthday is 7 July 1978 year. And when does your birthday?
My country named Russia. I live in village Yagunovo that situated in about 40 kilometers from the Kemerovo. I live in very good village. It is not big, just have one small shop and railroad station. I rent an room here because its cheaper than in Kemerovo. What about your city? What is its name? How many peoples live there? In Kemerovo I have a work. Every morning I with my girlfriend going on railroad station together. From there I reach up Kemerovo. My girlfriend works on this railroad station.

I am fine with your age. I graduated from our States University, which is situated in Novosibirsk. I learned English at school and University but already do not remember many English - but I shall recollect and learn English again. Please do not use dificult words and phrases in you letters. I shall be capable to understand you but it will just take more time this way. I was very surprised to receive your answer.
I am very glad that I can to write to you this letter. I did not trust before that can be a dialogue through the Internet. It is my first experience. I very much want to know you more. How you have got in the Internet and why you search dialogue through on line? Please write me more about you, your life, city and country?

I think you interresting about a reason why I am here. I search for my soulmate, to share with him all my happyness and love. I need to find real man for love and I hope its you. I understand that these desires are banal but care, love and understanding any woman wants in relations.

Svetlana

P.S Also I will try to attach my photos in my next letter - I hope I will do it correctly. Let me know if you receive it.

Letter 2

Jeff,
I am very glad to receive today your letter. Its very much surprises me that my letter has reached you. I do not understand how people trough the half world can communicate and understand each other. Ours correspondence very much intrigues and interesting for me. Your attention very pleasantly for me.

Now when I see that it works I want to tell more about me. I never been married and have no kids. I do not smoke and I do not drink often. I can drink Champaign or wine. But I do not drink a lots, only sometimes at holidays. How about you? What do you prefer drink?

I was born in village Tarasovo that situated in 120 kms from the Kemerovo. My parents (father and mother) live in Tarasovo. I am very much love them and respect, they are very good parents. Now I see them very seldom (about once a month) and each our meeting is a very joyful. My mother works in a kindergarten and loves children. Father is already on pension because he has been injured on manufacture 4 years ago.
I have younger sister. She is 21 years old. Her name is Olga.
I have a grandmother also. She lives in the same village as my parents. They care about my grandmother.

I work in groceries. This is a little market. This market is situated in new unfinished area of city, unfortunately here we have only water, an electricity, the water drain and we have no another, But very soon we will have here all another thing: gas, cable television and phone.
What about your work? Please write me more about it. Its very much intereseting for me. I work hard and much time and my salary is not big but I have to much work because its very hard to find work in city to the girl from village. But I have enough money to buy clothes, to rent the room and buy a food.

..sorry i must finish letter, i have to go now. Hope to hear from you soon.

Svetlana

Letter 3

Hello Jeff!
I am very glad to receive your letter again. it is very pleasant fo me to know you better with each letter. I becoming attached to your letters and I like it very much. I am sorry that i finished my last letter so quick.

Now I write you about my situation with the Internet. You already know a little about my village. It is too small and peoples here have no phones or Internet access. The only one computer with Internet access is on railroad station. I have the girlfriend who works as the cashier in this railroad station. Her name is Klava. As I say in my first letter we going together to the railroad station. She used this computer for working. So I can use her computer only after the end of her work. The Internet is very slow and bad here. Its free for me and it is very good because I heard that Internet cost too much here. I arrive on station from work at 7:40 pm and my girlfriend finished in 8:00 pm. Therefore I have only about 20 mimutes to write you. This station is open 24 hours but Klava works only till 8:00 pm. Other cashier working here at the nights. I can use the Internet only when Klava works here. because the rules of station forbids to use computers to other peoples. My girlfriend can be dismissed if the chief of station to know about my visits. My last letter has been finished so quickly because my time was over. Please write me more about situation with Internet access in your country. I am very interseting to know more about you.

I not very good know English. Therefore I write my letters to you on a paper when I on work. When I come on railroad station I just I typing my letter on a computer. Therefore if I miss some of your questions please do not worry I shall answer on this questions in the following letter. Ok?

I like to listen music very much and after I have got my first salary - I have bought a radio-player. I listen it when I sit in electric train and everywhere.
Once I have heard by radio a very interesting program about dating on the Internet. They told about Russian girls and US men who dating in Internet and then in real life. I have heard as the girls told their histories. This stories about how they found the foreign love and soulmates. So I understood that Interent dating is a real way to find a second half. I thought it would be good to meet a man from another country. I do not belive that I can be happy with Russian men. All my married girlfriends are not happy and they have no furure with their Russian husbands. I thought about this program so much and have decided to try.

Unfortunately i am very tired today i have to go home to eat and sleep.
I wish you good night and hope to see your latter tomorrow...

Svetlana

Letter 4

Dear Jeff!
Today after work when I going home on the train all time I thought about our correspondece and friendship. Its very important for me to know that your letter waiting me in my mailbox. Your letters makes my happy. It is new feelings for me and very pleasant for me that one person through the half world thought about me. I hope you feel the same way of my letters. Really I am very glad to see your letter now!
We have very good day here on my work! As I told you before my work is situated in new unfinished area of Kemerovo. Today afternoon some workers has broken electric cabel and I have no electic in my work.
Therefore my chief let me go earlier from work. I had free time until train. This time I spent for going to cinema. I have seen Russian movie "Piter FM". It is romantic movie about love with happy end. Do you believe in love with happy end? Do you believe in love at first sign? Do you ever seen Russian movie? What kind of movies do you like?
What last movie did you seen? Do you have favorite actor and hero?
Sorry for so many questions - i just want to know you better.

Now i want to tell you more about me. I like sports very much but unfortunately I have no a lot of free time for it. But I try to do it each weekends. In a school and in university I even participated in competition on badminton. And now I try to be in the form. I like winter kinds of sports very much such as skates and a ski. DO you like to play sport? What kind of sport do you like?

I like to cook very much and I am cooking always only by myself. I like to cook something unusual. I like to prepare chicken and meat delicious for my guests and for my parents when I going to them. My mother teach me cooking when I was a young girl. We have traditional Russian food named pelmeni. But it is takes so long time for prepare.
What kind of food do you prefer? Do you cook?

Music.. I like to listen music very much. My favorite is Madonna, Destinies Child, Tatu, Sting and some Russiam groups like Dima Belan, Alsu and Korni. What type of music do you like? What your favorite group and singer?

At all my life I have no serious relations.I never been happy in my relations. Russian man are not serious in relations. They don't respect woman, her feelings and care about himself. I would not like to have any relations with any Russian man. And I am so happy that I met you and its mean so much for me!

Dear Jeff now every day when I go to bed I think about your letters before sleep and I am always thinking about you when I waking up. It's my first thoughts!

Your friend,
Svetlana

Letter 5

My dear Jeff, I just can't wait to read your mail today! Every day I waiting your letters and it is become more important for me! Every minutes of my live now I think about our correspondence and what I will write you in my next letter! So, how are you today? I am really surprised how Internet helps us to get closer! I become so adhered to your letters!

I like the pictures that you sent. Yesterday before go to bad I looked very good film with Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan - "You've got a mail". Did you saw this film? I liked it very much. It is very good story about love with the happy end and it has reminded me our coresspondation.
And I hope that its possible our relations could have the good beginning. It's very important for me to know that somewhere in world there is my second half.

I very much love flowers named snowdrops and a lily of the valley.
They smells so sweet. It is very romantic flowers. I always think about Spring when I see this flowers. Spring is my faworite season when snow become thaw and birds become to sing, when its a little cold, heart waits first warms days. What is you faworite flowers and season?

Do you like animals? I like animals especialy cats and dogs. But I have no any animals. I really wanted but my houseowner forbid me to have any animals. I already write you that I rent a room in a house. My housowner is old woman and she is very severe. She like rules and traditions and do not like anymals. Now I need to go home. Every week I and my house owner make washing of house. But I clean my room every day.

Have a nice day
Your Svetlana,

P.S Now we shall go home with Klava together. We can going short road but now we shall go long way trought a high hill. From this hill it is visible all village, railroad station, fields around village and forest. This is really beautifull! I like this place very much!

Letter 6

My dear American friend Jeff!

How are you today? I am fine. Today it was very hard for me to wait when my work will end and write you a letter. All my thoughts today were about my night dream. It was a very strange that I remember this dream so good. I still under impression after it.

As I write you in last letter I saw movie"You've got a message". And I had a night dream after it. It was reminded me with this film. You and I went on a night lunar path. We was alone and you held my hand, the city was silent and you has stopped and has whispered to my ear the finest words about love. I never was so easy and I felt like the happiest woman. It seemed that I know you all my life and I did want that it's never stopped. This feeling was so miracle! I hoped this dream will never end but it was time to wake up. What do you think about it? Am I too serious about our correspondance? May be it is just a night dream and nothing serious? Its very important for me to your thoughts about it.

I do not want to destroy our friendship so if you think that I am too fast - please tell me. I just want to be honest with you and tell you that I have in my soul. Please tell me what are you waiting from our corresponding? What do you wait from your soulmate? What do you like in a women at all? Can you promise be honest with me in your letters?
I know its sound fondly but I think that its impossible to build any relations without honest in the beginning. So, this is what I thought about all time today.

Very soon I want to go visit my parents. I did not see them a long time and I miss them very much. Meeting with my mother and father always the big pleasure for me. But now I will miss your letters because this reading of your words makes my day!

Each time when I arrive to my parents house we make a good dinner with my mother. I very much like to prepare especially for the family. Also my grandmother comes and we have all family. Its a very much pleasure to see all family and have a tasty dinner. I always buy a gift for my younger sister. She is already married but she always will be for me a little sister. As I wrote you her name is Olga.

So I go to home, tomorrow I hope to see your letter. All times I thougts about you!

Your Svetlana

Letter 7

My dear Jeff!!!!!!! Today, as I told you I shall go to my parents. I will very happy to meet them. I thought that I can not write you today. But I talk with my chief and he let me go earlier. So I have few minutes to write you the letter. I am very very very glad to do it. I so attached to our correspondence. Your letter give me a real pleasure. My girlfriend gave me some minutes to use computers because she have no clients right now. I miss your letters and I hope to see your letter when I came back.

I want a happy end in the end from our growing relationship. Today weather is very good here. And I am very glad to every sunny day! We have small wind with much sun. There is was very strong wind at night so the air is very fresh today. I like fresh morning very much! And my mood is very good! I am very happy that I am found you in this big world. You make my mood better! What do you like more? Morning or evening? We have more cold days than warm days. How long winter do you have there? Russian winter usual is five month. There was the very strong frost and lot of snow every winter. Its like -40 -50 degrees in Celcius. I not like winters because it is very hard to make trip on rail. There is very bad and old rail in our region and in train here very cold at the winter. Anyhow I like to travel. I waiting trip to my parents very much. And I catch my thoughts that I would be more happy to travel anywhere with you! I am dream to see you one day, Jeff.

So my tain is coming soon. Sure I would lile to write you more but I need to go. I just want to say you that I thoughts about you every minutes in my life.

Lot of kiss
Svetlana

Letter 8

My dear love Jeff!
Today I returning from my parents. During all my trip I thought only about you. Therefore I very much hurried up to write you letter today.
I was pending the moment when I can sit down at the computer and read your letter! It was so pleasant for me to get your letters! With every your letter I feel that we becoming more closer and closer! Every time, when I reading your letter, my heart is beating so fast and strong! I miss you very much and all my thoughts only about you! I wait your letters like a children wait gifts on a birthdays. Our relations make me happy, make my life full of feelings and love!

My visit to parents was very good. it is so beautifull when relatives meet after month of last meeting. We had many positive emotions, have told each other many new things and also have discussed it. Me and my mother making very tasty dinner. I very long time did not prepare with my mum and I have recollected the childhood. We have prepared many dishes from the hen, vegetables and potato. Everybody were very glad and pleased.
Also I told my father and mother about you. They asked me a lot about you. I answered for all they questions. I sayd them, that I make my choice by myself and I am very happy that I have so beautifull relations with you. They likes you very much! And I am very very glad that you have liked them.
My sister has told me that it's not often people at another part of the world finding someone that can makes feelings and if it exists they have to keep care about it. She said, that important things are understanding and respecting. I agreed with her and I think that we have it with you! I think we have to do anything for us, I feel our feelings are very important for our future, we have to use this chance that given for us. Corresponding is good and it give us for understanding each other but it does not compare with personal meeting.

When I went in an electric train I have met the old girlfriend. We studied with her at school. I was very glad to meet her. We have spoke about different things in our life because we did not see each other for a long time. I have told to her about my work, about my life and about you of course because you are very important part of my life. I have told her all our story. I told her how I have found you and that I very much would like to meet you one day. But I do not know how make it. It was big surprise for me that she work in Regional Passport Center. And she has told that it really to go about other country and she can help me with passport. She has suggested me to come tomorrow in Regional Passport Center where she works.

My Jeff, I want to tell you so much about my feelings to you but I need to go. Every day of my life full of love and happyness. I thank you very much for your attentions. I thank the God that he has given chance to us for know more each other and become closer.

With love,
Svetlana

Letter 9

My love Jeff!
I do not know as to begin this letter. My heart is overflown with love to you. I very much missed on you and could not wait that moment when could read your letter again.I thought a lot about our meeting and what we have to do now. I think that we have to meet in person and I am ready for this step. How do you think about it? I dont see more best way to know each other. I think we can't get next level of relations just communicating through letters. I am very serious about you and about our meeting. We did a big step for making serious and longterm relations. I think we dont have to stop here, we have to make next serious step, the meeting which will let us to know each other better and it let us to continue our relations.

Today in a lunch break I went in Regional Passport Center and talked to the girlfriend. She has told that procedure reception of the passport will take 2 with half weeks cause its very big queue. But she will help me to make it for 5 days. Also she has told that at registration of the passport in this center they help the clients to receive the visa if I will have all necessary documents. The visa center is division of Regional Passport Center therefore they make all for the clients is quickly and qualitatively. So I have found out what documents I need to start to make the passport. Tomorrow I shall bring them and also I shall find out that is required for registration of the visa.
I would go to cash departments of airlines to know how much tickets cost. My dear Jeff, I need to know some information for this. Please write me what the closest airports to you? My love, what do you think about duration of a trip?
These news is very pleasant for me and I start to feel that our meeting is real and dream to become real. I wait for moment when I can embrace you and present you my first kiss with impatience. I never thought that I can find the happiness. it seems to me that all this occurs not to me. I know that you the person which will make me happy to which I want to devote all my love and life. I am confident of you and I can trust you. I know that you will support me always. When we shall meet I will necessarily thank you with reciprocity and there will be not words in the letter. It will be the real feelings. My heart is overflown feeling of love to you. Now I feel the happiest in the world.

I have never think about a man as much as i think about you. You are always on my mind. I dream of the day also when we can talk for the first time I can't wait. I think we have something special. I can feel you every time I think about you. You are man of my dreams. I think I could really be happy with you. I must go for now but I will write you again soon. I kiss you now in letter but I hope to kiss you for real soon. All my love only to you,
Svetlana

Letter 10

Hello my love Jeff!
Today we have very nice day here! Here it is a lot of sun. Weather very good. And your letter give me more good mood and energy! I just cant wait to get your letter! I so happy that I met you! Every day and every time I dreaming is our meeting in person! Today I was in regional passport center. Thank you for the photos. I like it very much! I have good news. I have given documents to make passport. My girlfriend has told that passport will be ready in 5 days. it is very good! After that I would able to start make my visa. As I had time I have gone in visa center. I was so worried if it will impossible to get visa for me. And I was so happy today talking with communication manager of visa center. He told me that I have a big chance to make a visa and to get it approved. He asked me a lots of questions and he suggested me to fill some documents but I rejected because I am not sure now about some details of my coming to you. I need in your opinion. I think that we should decide all things together. Therefore I ask your opinion, my dear Jeff. So here is information about visas:
?1. Tourists visa. It allows me come to you for 2 month. It costs about
110-150 dollars USA depending duration and including services visa
center.
?2. The worker visa. Its good for 3 month. It can be prolonged maximum for 3 additional months and then I also have to back to Russia. It is not necessary for me to have work in this period. It costs about 200 dollars USA including all services.
?3. Fiance visa. This visa allows us to get married. I cannot get it and approve it at my country. We shall get it for my next trip if we decide to get married.
My dear Jeff, how do you think, which visa is better for us? Tomorrow I will write you about a cost of the ticket. When we shall have all information we shall decide how to do better. Please write me your opinion.

Today after all this deal I was go to meet my grandmother. She just wanted to see me and to take a walk together on Kemerovo. I was very glad to saw her and all time till my train we spend together. We was in many different places. We have a many talks. And you was general part of our talks. I has told all about you. Its seems she like you.
She is very glad for me that I met a man who I seeked for a long time.
I love you, trust you and I belive in our love. She feeling that I am happy! And she trusts in our relations too. I asked her a lot about our future how it can be. She told me that we have to meet first and then to decide what to do. She is sure that we should be happy. And I am sure too.

My love to you is biggest than my heart, Jeff. And I feel that this love make me strong to reach you. The most important thing is that our love flourishes, and that we find pleasure and harmony with each other, and this is my dream!
With BIG LOVE to my Jeff,
Svetlana

Letter 11

My dearest love Jeff!
Hope you doing very good. I wish that you doing very good always because I love you so much!

I want to be with you always! You the man of my dream. All my life I searched such man as you. All features of characters which I see in you I want to see in the man of my dream. I have made a choice - it is YOU! I have made my choice by my heart and head. I think about you all time and I understanding that I want to be with you very much! You the kindest and careful man in the world. You the most decent, fair , and honest and such man I searched for all life. I enjoy our correspondence and I feel that I want more than just letters, I want to see you, to embrace and kiss you. Letters cannot give you all my feelings and emotions. There are no such words In the world which you will read in my eyes and heart. Real meeting help us to know each other better and open new feelings of our love. I am very serious about it. And I want it most of all. I want to give you all love, tenderness, care, caress. I want to see you always happy, to see your smile. Through letters I can not much but I shall make all for you were happy when we shall be together.

I was in cash departments of airlines today and asking about cost of the tickets. It's really sad for me that tickets can cost so much! I asked about cheapest tickets that exists. Its costs about 790 US dollars. Here is information about cheapest ticket what i have:
Depart Kemerovo (KEJ) 8:15 am
Arrive Tucson (TUS) 11:15 pm, 25 November
Airlines: Aeroflot-Russian Airlines 762 / 321
United 6458
Connect in Moscow (SVO), Los Angeles (LAX)

Its really big money for me. I did not know how much ticket costs before this moment. It is make my mood very bad. I tried to saved up some money, its about 100 dollars for the ticket and all money for the visa. But i have not any more. I need about 690 dollars more.

Its really hard for me to find such money by myself i shall must work about year or more for this money.. I think that one year it will be too long time till our meeting. I thought a lot about how I can get such money to make us be together. I am sure that our feelings more strongly any difficulties. It is very hard for me to ask you for help with this problem. I never asked nothing to anybody and all my life I fixed all problem by myself. But I cannot solve this problem only myself. Therefore I ask you help us to meet. I understand that it is the big money for you too but we have no another choise. My love Jeff, our happiness in your hands. Please write me if you can help us. I dont know how to send money but if you are interested I will ask it from housowner because her daughter sent money to her from europe.
What do you think about a date of our meeting? Which is the best?
Please write me your opinion. Every time I ask your opinion because it is very importnat for me. I am sure that meeting in person will give us new beautiful life! Hope to see you soon, With love and kisses
Svetlana

Letter 12

My love Jeff!

I am never been so happy as now to find my soulmate! It was very important for me all my life to find my soulmate. And now I am the happynies woman in the world because you is my sweetheart! I am quiet you with me! All time I thinking about you. I thinking about you when I am work, when I going by train, when I eat, when I doing anything, sometimes I can't sleep thinking of you! You can't imagine, how much do you mean for me!

I have money for visa - I need your help with 690 dollars for a ticket.
My love Jeff, I have some news for you. Today I talked with my housowner about transferring money. She said that her daughter send money to her by western union system and she said, that everybody know how does it works. I did not hear about this system of money transferring. Housowner has told me that she going in this bank for westernunion:
VNESHTORGBANK
Street: Ostrovskogo, 12
KEMEROVO, 650099
Phone: 7-3842-368987

Also she has told to me is necessary to use number (MTCN) in transfer of money . You will receive this number at bank and you have to give it to me. I need this code, your name, your adress and your zip code to get money. She has told that without MTCN it is practically impossible to receive money. Its seems all information that you need to send me money is my name and my last name.
My full name is: Svetlana Trushina. My address is:
Masalskaya street, 27, apt 5
Yagunovo
Kemerovskaya Oblast
Russia, 650515

Please let me know is this information enough for you?

I can't wait to see you for the first time. I want to hug you and kiss! I want to hold your face in my hands and learn each your little feature. I want to kiss you so deeply, Sweetheart Jeff!!! I want to place my hands around you and hold you a long, long time... I have been aching to do that forever so long.... I kiss you and hug you, my love! Forever your,
Svetlana

Letter 13

My dear Jeff.
I have been shocked with your last letter! I so need your understanding these days! I have read your letter today and could not answer you. I can't believe it. I have begun to cry and have run at home. Other people looked at me but it was indifferent for me. I have run to my houseowner and have told to her about your letter. I cried all time. I wanted to not write to you more. My houseowner has become angry about me. She has told: "stop to cry as the little girl and write the letter to him, there can be it a mistake". And now I write the letter to you. Also I want to ask: you the really think that I deceive you? My head very much hurts, I am very tired also I have received such awful letter from you!
Svetlana

Letter 14

My dear, I do not understand why you will compare me with other women.
To me it is very insulting also I ask you more such things to not write to me. I very strongly believe you and my family too. And if they did not trust you, they never would let off me to you. They sees in you the decent, fair and kind person who can take care of me. I heard too, that people deceive each other. At me disgust and strong hostility for such people. I do not understand, how people which love each other, can deceive. I simply could not deceive you because I love you and I believe in fair, open, confidential relations. I believe in fair and open people. I swear to you, that I never deceit you and believe that you never will deceive me too. We should trust each other and without trust each other we cannot communicate. You for me the unique person whom I love also I do not want you to lose. Therefore I can cause never evil to you. I write it in all sincerity and with all love. I hope for your reciprocity, trust and understanding.
Svetlana

Letter 15

My love Jeff!

As you could so think, that I deceived you. I never in life would allow itself to deceive you - the person whom I have grown fond. To deceive you will not allow to me my love to you and belief in good people and in kindness and cleanliness of relations . I understand, that you have ceased to trust me and it has broken my heart. I trusted that has found the person whom love and with which I want to live the life, to link life.

It is very hard for me to write and realize it that I lose the person whom find for very long years. I do not know, who here is guilty also who right, but know, that I love you and I shall always like. For me there are no barriers in my love to you. I know you consider that I deceive you, I cannot dissuade you from it. I speak all this in all sincerity. As though you have acted, know, that we can lose each other and more never meet. I do not know, whether you will believe me whether or not, but I want to be only with you and more with anybody.

Forever your,
Svetlana

Letter 16

My dear Jeff,
Unfortunate we cannot wait - I need to start my visa right now but I cannot do it without ticket. I very much worry that I can not fly to you. I cannot find tickets in smaller cost I informed you cost of the ticket earlier. It is very expensive for me. As I informed you that I have a part of money but this money there is not enough. I do not know What I can do. The meeting between us is my dream, but I very much am afraid to lose it.
Your Svetlana

Letter 17

My dear Svetlana,
I am very much upset now. I can see very good that you do not trust me. Its hurt me very much. Sorry, but I think that if we have no trust - we have nothing. Nothing good cannot be build from untrusting. I need a man who really love me and care about me - not only on a paper.
You do not trust me - its mean I cannot trust you. You will never be happy because you do not believe in a honest and a kindness. I believe and my soulmate will believe too.
Svetlana