Letter(s) from Yana Volkova to Alfred (USA)

Letter 1

Hi. My name is Yana. I have looked your structure on MATCH.COM, it very much to like me and I have decided to write to you the letter. I very much want to get acquainted and strike up with you long acquaintance if certainly you do not object. On the character I very devoted woman and if I shall grow fond of someone I shall wish to remain together with him for ever. I am always fair in the intentions. Most of all in life I do not love a deceit. I very much hope, that you will not leave my letter without attention and will answer me my electronic address: yana444@fromru.com I Wait with impatience of your fast reply. And if you want, I can send you the photo.
Yana.

Letter 2

Hi my new friend Alfred. Congratulations from Russia! WRITE to ME ON THIS YANA333@FROMRU.COM ADDRESS! And THAT LETTER BOX DOES NOT WORK! OK? I SHALL WAIT for YOURS LETTERS!I am pleased that you Have written to me. I very much would like to study more Concerning you. My name - Yana. live in the best city on light Novosibirsk. Probably, it is necessary to inform a little about Directly... My mark on a horoscope - Aquarius. Was given birth January, 28, 1973. Growth of 171 centimeters. Weight of 55 kg. Formation(education) the supreme maximum. I was not for the husband and me Have no any any own children. I have no brothers and sisters. My father Has left us with mum when I some were more absolute small. Since then I about him did not hear nothing. About my reference look at my photo. Please has arrived to me a photo, well??? I shall be very pleased to see Them. I have no any any children. My favourite colors - bright. It Possible to inform, that the motto of my life is " does not do to Another, that is direct you do not wish ". What I estimate in people? Kindness, wit, tenderness, fidelity, sense of humour... And The main thing - honesty! I hate anger, envy, lie, treachery. And still- Vanity! Certainly, everyone has lacks (I also not an ideal). The main thing, that them was a little!:). Unfortunately I have no any anyone The phone of a house. I work as the medical sister in children's hospital. I very much love work. I to speak in the English language it is not a lot of, but now I Continue norms (categories) at studying the English language. Now it - is a little about My interests (interests). They ARE WELL VERY EXTENSIVE! First, I do not present Independently life without MUSIC (capital letters!). It means - only "Inventive" or, at least, talented. What is exact? Beatles, Conversation Chapters, Pink floid, oidloideeply violet, Queen. Classics. By the way, I very much Working (alive) music is a lot of love. In the second, I very much love books. Actually, Without them life also would lose much. I read, basically, "classics", Novels of love and philosophical things (??????????? it - repeatedly Re-read, Thick, Pushkin, Sholohov... Well it - is a lot of Them!). The directory - " the Master and Margarita ". Thirdly, I love cinema, Films also I look "clever", but genres actually anyone. I like Mastroini, Kluny Hofman, De Niro, From directors Koppoly, Parker, Torontino.Mihalkov,Razanov, and it is a lot of, much... All and to not enter in the list! And fourthly, my weakness - I very much like to spend to spend for kitchen To prepare (to go) for new dishes and salads. I simply adore it!! I liked foodstuff it " Russian borch ". It Very tasty dish I would hope, that it was very pleasant to you. It still... Nevertheless I very much love an animal (especially cats). I adore friends (them a little, but all Them are checked up by years). In general it is possible to inform, it I very sociable person. I want to find that unique and unique in Life with which I could share all life. In a choice I do(make) Do not want to do(make) a mistake. I would like to know in the greatest possible degree About you. My intentions are very serious. I in me directly here have no Found worthy to me directly the person and therefore I have decided to try To get acquainted through the Internet. But, unfortunately, I to not have the own computer And therefore I shall write to you with the Internet cafe. I think it We shall be good friends or even more. On what I to hope. I would be Like to hear your ideas which you wish concerning the future. I hope That you find that my words are interesting, also, that it starts to help to study (Find out) to you me little bit better. I wait the answer from you Again. You had such desire - write!!
Your new friend
Yana.

Letter 3

Hi my new friend Alfred. It's me Yana! I so am glad, that you have answered my letter which I have written to you through Match.com. If it is fair, I even did not hope, that such the man as you, will answer me. To me the truth very pleasantly from it. Now it is a little about itself. I live in Russia in city Novosibirsk. It is not so small city, it is possible even to tell, that big. I live and I work here. I work nurse in children's hospital. Very much to like me the work because I very much love small children. Unfortunately, I yet have no children, but I think, that in the future I shall be capable to have children from the favourite person. I have written the first letter to you not simply so, I have written it because you have very much liked me as the man. I want to learn(find out) about you as much as possible and itself I shall tell to you about myself. Also I think that our friendship will not lose sense, and will get stronger every day. oops, has overlooked to tell you, about the age. To me of 28 years. I was given birth January, 27 1963 in the native city. I have since childhood grown in my city and very much it(him) I love. I do not know why, but at me huge bent for to travels. Probably, it because of my father, he was the traveller, unfortunately I remember him a little, because he tragically was lost in one of expeditions when I was some more very small, but I believe, that he very much loved us with mum. I very much appreciate in the person ability to love, up to the end of the days. At heart I also very romantic person, I very much like to observe of stars at night, sometimes I would like to fly up and touch them hands. I would be so is happy, if with me beside the man which could take care of me was. Unfortunately, now I have no any the man during long time because I had in the past very bad case with one man after which long could not trust anybody. But recently I have met the girlfriend, and she has advised me to take advantage of service of acquaintances, on this I have taken advantage of services Match.com and have chosen you from thousand other men. You can judge my appearance from a picture which I to you send, please tell, that you think of it. And I would be glad to receive your photo too. I would be glad to hear, that you will tell about yourself. I want to learn(find out) all about you because so we can achieve mutual understanding and friendly attitudes(relations). Tell me about you. I shall wait for your fast reply with impatience. Also I shall tell about myself even more in my following letter.
Your new friend
Yana.

Letter 4

Hi my liked friend Alfred!!
I am very happy to receive letter from you letter. In your letters you show me the big interest, and it very pleasant for me. I looked at you and if it is fair, I do not know, why I have chosen your profile, it likely any mark from above. You trust in it? I yes. Today in us very good weather. I today have decided to Take walk in such fine day. I saw so many happy people.... And I like in love in, liking sympathy which liked, a favorite! I like those who kisses in underground transitions and in automobiles underground. I smile, when I see under a canopy at stops of the bus Para of scope. It is pleasant for me to look at boys - schoolboys Who bears bags for the girlfriend and buys for them ice-cream, and Then eat it together, biting off with turns because there was no money To two frozen... I would like to give all from them flowers and stars. And the dark blue sky with fluffy clouds. Also it is insignificant, what weather In the street. I continue a balcony. I raise eyes to the sky, and I find There an asterisk, and I think, that it may, you, there in me look also it shines only for me. I smile... I have decided to show today a Para of lines of your letter to my loved mum. Mum, reading has Probably good person has close told it you. Also that it trust you. She would like it we with you, had all well. We With you begin to understand and feel each other it is very important. We should entrust each other. Lie it is bad very much . Mum from The childhood always teach me to speak the truth. We with you Completely should entrust each other only the ambassador who may be a The good union. It is a pity, that we with you - while separately. But everyone Our letter rallies us, and distances between us become ever It is less and less. I like to dance!!! It very much to similar me. And you Like to dance and to what dances it is similar to you? I dance a waltz, it is a lot of another Modern dances. When I some was more absolute small I to go in The school of dances it was funny very much. You seem to me which most of all The good person I has met in life. I would like to write to you each day. If you certainly not against. It to similar me. I would like to hear Concerning you it is more. How you like to carry out spend a free time? Write to me not much about city in which you live? You like To be on nature and to sit in summer evening on fire? It you See so it is romantic, whether the truth? Write to me answers to mine Calls in question and to ask me anyone interesting you and problems. You understand me? I hope to Receive the information from you soon. So we may begin to study each other. On it I finish the letter. I wait from you The answer.
Yana.

Letter 5

Hi my loving friend Alfred.
I am so happy to receive from you the letter again. When I find your letters in the letter box me at once to become easily and joyfully on heart. I feel, that every day we all become closer and more close to each other. I am sure that you do not forget me for one minute. I too always think of you. I very much love walks on a nature. I in general very much love a nature and animals.At us now autumn was included in full force and around all blossoms. Leaves on trees start to turn yellow and all around to become gold. And you love a nature? And what trees grow at you? At us grow: the birch, a linden, a maple, a fur-tree, a pine, a cedar and is a lot of another. Today we with mum went in a village to the grandfather, his(its) name Fedor. My mum has told the grandfather, that I correspond with the foreigner. Then the grandfather has called me to itself and has wished good luck me good luck in it. It(he) was glad, that I at last have found the person who is interesting to me. It you my dear, you seem to me very interesting person to correspond with you delivers to me great pleasure. In a village at the grandfather we went in a bath. The bath in the country is very popular in us, it is our pride. And you heard about Russian bath? If is not present, I shall tell to you about it. The bath is such small house which is made of logs of a tree. In this house there is a room in which it is necessary to bakee. Temperature in this room very high approximately 80 degrees Celsey. Near to the bath is the river, in which we to jump when to run out from a bath. It so is fine, when from such hot room to plunge into cool water. You understand me?Now I shall finish the letter. Write to me as I was possible more often very much I wait for your following letter with impatience.
Sincerely yours,
Yana.

Letter 6

Hi Alfred!!!
I very much LOVE the Letter to which you have written me, it was than most of all and VERY CLOSE HEATING!! This my HEART And SOUL GOOD!!! It is the truth, that I to try to write earlier to two more men, but now I to write only to you to one. It has Acceptance in attention of me very much warm feelings Inside, downwards - is deeply in my SOUL. I Want more than life directly For YOU to be With YOU! YOU ARE VERY NECESSARY FOR ME!!! I - Very lonely Here without YOU! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOTHING WILL STOP ME FROM PRESENCE With YOU!!!!!! In addition I can tell about myself. I to not have what any brothers and sisters. I live with mine mum in a small apartment, unfortunately, there there is no phone. Mine full name Volkova Yana. I on religion the christian. In free time from work I to go to cinema or theatre. And when to come home, to watch TV, or to help mum to prepare, very much to like me it to do(make). To me to like to prepare for different new dishes, and it turns out it is very tasty. Write to me, between us a difference approximately 12 hours. I to not have the automobile. I to be able to go, but rights at me are not present. I very much love children, on this I likely have gone to work nurse in children's hospital. I would like to appear with you beside. Today I am simple, so have learned(found out), that the Visa is possible(probable) to do(make) it. But I have no such money to pay it. I To speak concerning the English language there is well enough. I to want to be closer To you! Write to me! I very much to miss your gentle letters! SET of LOVE FROM YOUR BELOVED
Yana.

Letter 7

Hi my love Alfred,
I am very happy to read your letter, as always.Many thanks for your good letter! Well, I searched for the visa one Still yesterday and to me it is necessary to pay 47 dollars the Visa and registration for 21 dollars, I have gone to embassy and in me, were 50 Dollars in hands, I have told them, that I have 50 dollars and them Have told well, give 50 dollars. And me have begun registration. They have started to do the visa to me. But to finish registration urgently it it is necessary to bring all Documents, that is survey of pass in hospital Rentgen and it to cost 96 Dollars and more and more registration and made by many documents, the foreign passport and all necessary charges, that is all of them USA for 378,20 dollars will cost. You Understand? I have told, and it is possible, later, that I give them their Money, because I should enough money to receive all of them Documents. To me have told, that they can wait approximately for 5 days and if I As I believe in you, and in both of us, that all in us will Well! And I hope, these are Everyone will be good. I know it. If you can send this money to me as Soon as far as possible. Please, if you can send to me this money these 5 days. Well? It is very important, that we could meet you. I wait! And the visa at last was made in 2 weeks or Is faster if to pay 24 more $, and will be good for three-monthly. It is visa B - 2, the tourist. But as to me have explained, if we to want to marry, it can be changed for a constant. So, I want to inform, that Money it is better to send system of bank named the Western Union. It is System it is very reliable, also money of transfer are executed during 15 minutes. How you should send money to my passport the data. - my data:
Yana Volkova,
RUSSIA,
NOVOSIBIRSK,
SOVETSKAYA STREET 54-102.
After you will send money, you in bank inform ten numbers (MTCN, number of the control, and does not overlook to write your full address And YOUR FULL NAME which you are filled at a parcel(sending) of money and should inform me it. Yesterday night, I had remarkable, sexual dream be relative you and I. As you take on hands of me to tender kiss, and to bear to a soft, wide bed. Is gentle and tender to put me on it(her) to touch everyone a part of my body, and I yours. It lifts us up to the clouds of happiness and ecstasy. I should express it to you to be divided the Part it with you. I should find out, whether you also have dream Concerning similar character, or - only me. You and I, anyone still. I love you very much. I want to speak love to you. We now have snow. Snow brings love. The love prospers in this weather. It - Very romantic situation. When there is all white, beautiful snowflakes fall. I love you, is very strong
Yours for ever
Yana.

Letter 8

Hi my Love Alfred! It writes to you Yana. I had a problem to my box yana333@fromru.com so write to me on other box yana333@hotmail.ru. Ok? I to not want to lose with you contact! I very much love you! Answer me faster!!!! I shall wait!!!! Your love Yana!!!!!!!

Letter 9

Hi my love Alfred.
I have received your e-mail. I have received your letters! I very much to be pleased to this! The letter box works! Write to me here. I very much love you! And to answer you tomorrow. I only to make sure, that have received my letters! I loved it. Fairly, I completely use Reception of your characters. That I use most of all, it You very much open, and It does(makes) it very simple for me to open mine Main principles also. That I really liked, was your three sources From love. It - silent understanding, Mutual trust, dividing(sharing) and Pardon. It - loyalty through good times. The love is pleased Existing, it hopes during the future, and it does not reflect the past. It - The chronicle " day per day from " Irritations, problems, compromises, small Disappointments, the big victories and Overall aims. If you have The love in your resource, can fill in it many a thing(prophetic) You absence. Anyhow, which can a little also " to be juicy " for The person, but it something, that to capture me in limits last a little Years. Successful opencast but it is fair, they really do not mean It is a lot of, because their things do not help main principles. I Pleased, that you can trust me, and you can name me love. I hope it Support that path. If there is any time where you doubt concerning me Or if I speak something, that infringements you, please Inform me. I think, that is very simple To be fair, when we speak Concerning good subjects, however, I find difficult To be Completely fair when we speak concerning negative editions. In Least it - for me. Especially (specially), if you infringement with me. I shall try To do(make) the Same. However, I should emphasize, I have no any any reason to doubt be relative Concerning you. Fairly, your characters were filled so with the big soul And the basis which it we force me to feel really good. It was long time as I felt a warm feeling Inside my main principles. I Like to receive your e-mails. You, seem, very much a nice face, it seems, Really know, that you search in the Attitude(relation), and does not wish to Agree about less than it, you search, It seems, really to use a resource (the safe Life), also has the strong basis (main principles). Thank for opening Your basis (main principles) to me. I wish to study much more be relative You. I love you Alfred.
Your love
Yana.

Letter 10

Hi my love Alfred. I is very glad to see your letter. To me spoke in embassy, that for me will make the tourist visa, but I should pay it only.I am simply happy and with such happiness I have written to you a poem. ARE YOU READY ?...... SOFT GENTLE CONTACT KIND of LOVE...... YOU CAN NOT REACH ENOUGH THE MAN, WHICH CARES..... WHICH WILL NOT MAKE YOU WHO WILL PLACE a SMILE..... INSTEAD OF TO BECOME ANGRY ARE YOU READY To THIS SIMILARLY TO a LONG SENSITIVE KISS OR TENDERNESS of LOVE THE MESSAGE to YOU YOU - BEST ARE YOU READY To LOVE IT is sent FROM ABOVE ARE YOU READY TO BEGIN TO OPEN YOUR HEART MY HEART IS SO COMPLETE by LIFE And LOVE TO GIVE I PRODUCTION FOR the MAN, WHICH ALLOWS ME TO LOVE And ALIVE In HIS(ITS) HEART IT(HE) WILL KNOW what IT is by, LOVE to love FROM ME And I KNOW, THAT the WHOLE WIDE WORLD WILL SEE FROM a BEGINNING WHAT LOVE IS......., WITH WHAT the LOVE CAN DO(MAKE) ARE YOU READY To THIS I shall wait for your answer. It is a lot of love to you mine by a road.
With love
Yana!

Letter 11

Hi my love Alfred. I am very pleased to receive from you the letter. The sun and good weather in street lights. I to wake up today in morning from good dream. Ours dreamed for the benefit of me at first with you meeting. I to arrive (to fly) to you and you to meet me at the airport. I at first to not see you and to search. Then I saw you. You cost(stand) with a bouquet of red roses. Seeing each other we run to each other at meeting. We urgently to capture each other and to kiss each other. In me on eyes of tear of happiness. It is real? Then we go to you home and me slightly to lie down to sleep from tiresome trip. When I to have rest we with you in the evening we enter into restaurant to have supper in candles. We drink a good wine drink, and we dance slowly dances all evening. After restaurant we go on foot on beautiful avenue. You to capture me, that it was not a cold. Your warm hands so are gentle. We look together at stars and softly to kiss each other. When we were slightly froze, we to go to you home. We to accept a warm bath with foam together. Then we to go to you in dream and I to begin to you to do(make) massage for a body. And then I have woken also my dream, was completed. I so did not want to wake up, I wanted to see my dream by the end. But I was disappointed, that up to the end looked dream. I know, that it will be speed not in dream, and actually. I to wake up very much with good mood. Today I think to be lowered (go) in cinema and to see interesting film concerning love. Now I shall finish the letter. I shall wait yours after the letter. It - there is a lot of love from yours
Yana.

Letter 12

Hi dear Love Alfred.
I so am happy, that you have written to me. Now at us coldly and it is snowing. Very much I wait for that moment, that moment when I shall find myself In your strong and hot embraces. I want, will meet you as soon as Possible. I am very strong because of it to test. It is good, why in Our life all so depends on money. I do not understand those people, Which live only for the sake of money. My mum to feel already it Good, and she transfers you greetings. Dear, mail which do not send. I Will not entrust to mail. My mum speaks me, that you so worry, everyone will be Good, I so worry, that I shall see you, I shall be pressed to you. I Directly the fly with happiness, in me there - is a lot of energy, which Ready to sing and dance my love. On work I enter into good mood, me As again to be given birth. I think, that between us should be a To tell the truth, I have written, that all as. But it is good while all. Write, Very much I wait the answer from you mine, the TIGER. the KISS! the KISS! KISS!
With LOVE
Yana.

Letter 13

Hello , my pretty man in the world Alfred!!! How are you today? I'm fine. I love you. I even dream how I'm with you we go for a walk together, that we sit in restaurant at candles, it is very perfect dream and I want, that it was on the present. You think that too? I know, that you too so think, I love you and I want to be only with you!!!! I to feel your body near to mine, I want, that we to be kissed and to be embraced, I want you, I know, that at us all will be good. I at you want to ask, and what we shall do(make) in the beginning, when I arrive to you, we shall go somewhere and to look something, to travel? Write to me please what you think, what we shall do? I very wait for your answer, I think of you always when I sleep and when I work and even when to eat! Bye bye!!! I love you!!!!
See you tomorrow!
Your love Yana.

Letter 14

Hi Alfred!!! Your words are very beautiful, you speak very well, it is very pleasant to me to read your letter, it is wonderful! I told, that I'm with you soon shall together, because I love you! I am happy from one only idea, when I think of you, I am very glad. My mum too is pleased, when looks at my happy face, you understand me? I hope, that yes. I earlier, how it seems, did not trust in destiny, and now it is simply interesting, if it not the destiny has reduced us together, then who? Probably it is destiny so to make, that we have appeared together, it is perfect!!! I wait with impatience of each your letter, you to me write please, what we with you in the beginning shall do, may be we shall visit somewhere? I shall wait your letter. I think of you always. Bye bye my sweetheart!
Your lady
Yana.

Letter 15

Hi my love, offer also gentle Alfred!
Now behind of a window The cold, it is snowing and, alas, and my soul is compressed a Steel hoop (n) a melancholy on you. I am thrown (n) by it in High temperature, in a cold from one idea. That I already soon can inhale aroma Your hair, tint to your leather (leather((skin)), contact by lips of yours Lips. I present, as we with you sit, having captured in a heat(warm) Years (years((summer)) night at border of inflow, gentle waves caress our legs, And in a wind to carry away our naked bodies (bodies). Ocean of our feelings Storm in me now when I write you this letter. I love you sincerely And it is soft, is warm and it is passionate. Whether you feel also to me? If Yes, that I shall live one hope and I shall dream to capture you. I love you Very urgently!!!
Yours
Yana.

Letter 16

Hello my love Alfred!
I want to be with you right now! I miss you very much! I love you! You know, sometimes I close my eyes and I see you, I feel you, as though you stand near me! It's wonderful to feel this! But I want, that this will be the reality! Do you understand? Well, these days were very difficult, because at my work there was the verification and I was very tired. And e-mail server was bad else. So, I hope that everything will be good now! And I want to read your dreams, about us, what do you think about us and what we shall do at first and then? When I arrive to you. I'll be waiting your letter with impatience! Bye bye my love!
Your lady
Yana.

Letter 17

Hi my love Alfred!
I very much love you. I love you so, that all becomes transfixed in heart. I want to be near to you! And the words leave, be convinced itself: " Two silver wings " we are up in the air again on my way the moment so near the waiting increased our longing indeed to look, hold and kiss is now what we need My heart, my desire, who would hold here? a mind full of questions I no more could bear this day on my way to you what will it hold moments of fear satisfaction untold Two people one hope, one moment so dear two hearts, one soul you and I we are here will we become friends, be united as one " co incident " fate, may be our gods will be done Despite of all odds make our wishes come true may there be a future still for me and for you if " love is in the air " like mimosa in the spring will our hearts grow " two silver wings "? to you with all my love.
Yours love
Yana
!!!!! KISS/ KISS/ KISS!!!!!!

Letter 18

This is where she forgot to change the name from Tatyana

Hallo, lovely mine Alfred!
As I have become bored(missed) of you! As I have no your exciting sight, your gentle embraces! Each day I dream of meeting with you, I get accustomed - suddenly, in the underground, in crowd your eyes will flash, your smile to burn me by the heat, tenderness and love. You - mine. As it is pleasant to realize it, as the magic it sounds, but even better other words - I yours sound. Each day, each instant, each life I devote to you. Now you far from me - for thousand kilometers. And behind a window it is raining. Spring. Our liked season. We can by hours wander on park, look at drops killing the river, on perfect clouds and … to think of Spring. To our Spring. Which in us. Today. Now. You see if the people like they always live in the spring. I like you. You like me. Strange, truth? Though no - naturally. As in physics. The force of action is equal to force of counteraction. Neither it is more nor less. And it is surprisingly perfect. But why I then I pay? With happiness? Can be. And, can from …. How to me to live without you these hours? I do not know. Whole, you. Yours Tatyana.
P.S. Yes, has forgotten to say to you. Know, and you see I you almost do not know, liked, but I believe, that you are. You see there is I on this light. And the friend without the friend in any way is impossible for us. And you know it itself

Letter 19

Hi love Alfred.
I already spoke somehow, that you "sit" in each my section, so it is a lot of you in me and that I did not do(make) - I all time remember you, I think of you. You know, lovely, at me one habit has appeared. When I lie down to sleep, I extinguish light I start to think of you. I touch our next days with you, they such happy! What happiness - to be with you beside to keep for your hand, to look in your eyes and to see in them shine of own pleasure! I fall asleep with thoughts(dumas) about you and to wake up to me it would not be desirable at all. Therefore, when I wake up, I would not like to open eyes. You are not present beside, and the next sad day again begins. In the mornings I would like to cry. But I courageously collect the lax soul, the ideas creeping away in the different parties(sides) from bed, I tear off from a pillow the heavy head, I try to put even externally all in the order and I rise. Then I wash " with you ", I have breakfast " with you ", my utensils " with you ", I erase(wash) " with you ", all " with you ", " with you ", " with you ". Never before my life was not filled with such expectation - daily, hourly, every minute. Heart so extraordinary becomes transfixed, as soon as I shall think, that we shall meet, and I can nestle on you. Never suspected, that I am able so to wait. And, can, there are simply nobody. You know, that it would be desirable at present? With you beside go barefooted legs on pools under a years(summer) torrential rain, but necessarily warm to laugh and breathe fresh - fresh air which only and happens pure(clean) during a rain. It not seems to you, lovely, that my letters remind the logbook. All occuring events, material and moral, I ?EEOEOOA on a paper. I as though by the ship which drifts in the storming sea of life. All is carried by by me at reckless speed, and I in the closed space of it of " the Flying Dutch " still has only the handle and a paper. It not seems to you, lovely, that my letters remind the logbook. All occuring events, material and moral, I ?EEOEOOA on a paper. I as though by the ship which drifts in the storming sea of life. All is carried by by me at reckless speed, and I in the closed space of it of " the Flying Dutch " still has only the handle and a paper. Already so long we from each other in inconceivable gave, I hurry and I hurry time which near to you flies imperceptibly, and without you lasts is intolerable. I as though in any imprisonment as though it is punished for something, I choke without you, I do not live, I have turned to the big walking hours, I simply physically feel, how this clockwork of time does not work in separation from you. I as the bird who has got in a cell(cage), am beaten in last hope to escape from a captivity and to depart to you, as to my unique bright asterisk. So many the crossed out days in my calendar - the days which have been carried out(spent) without you! It is so much caress and tendernesses in us with you has collected for this time, that it seems to me, when we shall meet - this wave will overflow us with a head, and I at all against to plunge into it(her) and to be floating on its(her) current all life. I would like to become such small - small enter your heart and to remain there for ever! I so a long time have given you everything, that is at me - soul and a body, heart and reason then - when you also did not think to take it from me. I to belong to you. I ask you, do not doubt, never doubt of me whatever happened - I yours, I always yours! In a head something not clear is created, all time I think, I think of you, about myself, about us. Something turns endlessly in my poor head. Very much and very much I am afraid, that you not so will understand, not that will think. I have suddenly forgot to transfer the ideas on a paper. Very much I regret, that our system of communication(connection) so is imperfect, my letters are late, and I so instantly would like to transfer you the pulses arising in my brain to see your eyes, to hear your voice, to smell your smells - me alive dialogue with you is necessary. I feel only one - I can not, I shall not manage to transfer you that is now created in my soul. And nevertheless, you all the same would be better beside then all would explain you my eyes, my hands, my lips.
I LOVE YOU!!!
Yours love
Yana.