Letter(s) from Natalia Tsibina to Emmanuel (Belgique)

Letter 1

Hi my dear Emmanuel!!! How are you? How is everything with you today, Emmanuel? I am fine and I was very glad to receive a letter from you. You know, my dear Emmanuel, your letters are like rays of sunshine for me. I like to receive them a lot and day by day I like it more and more. Thank you very much for the attention you are giving me, Emmanuel. I appreciate it a lot, it means much to me, it really brightens my day. I want you to know it. But I have something, I think I should tell you. I would like to be honest with you, Emmanuel. You know that I put my profile in the internet because I really want to find my soul mate, my true love, the feeling that is missing in my life. So here I’ve met you and we are talking to each other now. Any way, I have a question. Do you correspond with other women now, Emmanuel? This is very important for me to know because deep in my heart I feel that I am getting used to your letters more and more, but I also know that this is too early to make any decisions, so I need to be honest with you from the beginning. As for me I correspond with some other men at the moment. I hope you understand me, understand what I mean. We’ll see what will happen in the future, but I really hope that soon my loneliness will end and may be you are the one who is going to help me with it? How do you think, Emmanuel? ;) :) You know, Emmanuel, I would like to tell you that I am very serious, I am serious about finding my future love, husband. This is very important to me at this point of my life when I have achieved many goals in life. Now I want something that is missing, something special. I would like to find true love, my only one. This is my dream. And what about you, Emmanuel? What is your precious dream? Please, tell me about it. I would also like to know what you think about the relationships. Emmanuel, what would you consider the perfect relationships? In my opinion, the ideal relationship is the one that is based honesty, first of all, mutual understanding and of course, love. I think that the combination of friendship and love is the best one. It will make the relationship bright, but at the same time stable. How do you think, my dear Emmanuel? Your opinion is very important to me. Even though I have never seen you and we do not correspond for long, I feel that you already mean a lot to me. I like to talk to you very much, look at your photo and sometimes I even dream about you and me. I like it ;) :) Dear Emmanuel you have given me the phone but while I cannot promise to send you sms! As I have not phone so long! But I shall try to find phone to hold connection with you!:) Probably once we can phone to you!?:) you would like to speak by phone?:) Any way, I am sure that time will show everything and I hope that all of the best is ahead. Smile :), hun!!! You really mean a lot!!! With hugs, Natalia

Letter 2

Hello my dear Emmanuel!!! I am so happy now because I am writing you a letter. I have been thinking about you all day long. Day by day I feel that I am getting closer to you more and more. I like what you write me and in many aspects our points of view are pretty much the same. I feel that even we don’t know each other for a long time, we can easily understand each other. And I like that a lot. At us today again winter!:) the Blizzard and a snow sweeps up all around! Has again dropped out a lot of snow, again it is difficult to go!:) When the spring at last will come?:) Emmanuel send the sun to us!:) I understand that you cannot leave a roof in the house of your father! Certainly it is necessary to finish this work! I hope all goes well!? If you now have no time to write to me, I have many words to tell to you!:) I wait when you will be more free also we can write each other! You know, Emmanuel, I feel that you are a very interesting person to talk to, you are open to me and day by day I am “reading” you like a book. And you know, hun, I like that a lot :) In you I see the person that will always understand me and give me a good advice if needed. I think that this is great that we are talking now. I don’t feel that I am alone any more. And what about you, Emmanuel? How do you feel? Honey, I would like ask you a very serious question now. It interests me a lot. Emmanuel, what are your intentions? I will explain what I mean here. As for me I put my profile in the internet because I want to find my special one, future husband. I want only serious relationships, I do not want to play games. So I’d like to know how you feel about it since I have serious intentions and I take our relationship seriously and what about you, hun? What do you think? What are you looking for? And how do you feel about you and me? You know, my dear Emmanuel, even though I understand that this is too early to talk about it, but I dream about you, us together. I like to imagine us in different situations, serious and romantic, various ones… I like to think about you and I do it pretty often, sweetie :) And you? Have you ever thought about it? ;) My dear Emmanuel, I think that inner beauty of the person is much more important than outside beauty. I think like that because, in my opinion, outside beauty might go away, but the inside one will stay with the person forever. It will only grow like a wonderful flower that will exist forever. I think that shine in eyes worth a lot and it doesn’t go away, even time can’t do anything with that. If a person is young in his/her soul, he/she will stay young for life. How do you think, sweetie? Do you agree? I also think that letters help us to discover that, it helps to open the soul. You know, Emmanuel, I don’t think that I’m a shy young lady :), but, in my opinion, it could be harder for me at first to open up to you like I do now if we could see each other every day and very often. That is why I appreciate our letters a lot and each one of them is so dear to me. I think that the whole situation makes it so romantic, don’t you, Emmanuel? I am finishing my letter to you, hun, now, but I will be looking forward to your reply very impatiently! Missing you, Emmanuel, With hugs, Natalia

Letter 3

Hi sweetie!!! :) Thank you very much for your letter, I was very glad to receive it. You know, your letters always put a nice smile :) on my face, my mood gets higher very quickly. Thank you very much for your kind and tender words. It is always so nice to read!!! Thank you that you are :) kiss kiss You imagine, I have written to you the letter to Friday and all was good! On Saturday before departure to parents, I wanted to drop again to you a line but when has included a computer did not see the image! My monitor has broken! I have been very much disappointed, and with such mood I have left to parents! Yesterday I had to devote much time to bring the monitor for repair! My monitor "LG" and in the service center have told that repair will occupy approximately 1 week! Any detail has been broken and they do not have this detail so they have told that will order this detail to Moscow and consequently is required to time so much!? Now I borrowed other monitor the neigbour, but she has told that cannot wait 1 week, to be necessary for her a computer earlier! Therefore I precisely do not know when she will take away the monitor, probably today, probably tomorrow??? You have finished a roof of the father? Emmanuel, yes really I have removed the profile from agency! I already see that with you it is possible to talk and find out about much of you a lot of characteristic for myself! What for for me it is necessary profile in agency? I do not want that to me wrote hundreds men, I cannot find out} all of them, I simply shall not have time to write to all the letter!:) For me it is better to find out some men to choose the only thing! My sympathies are to the greatest degree inverted to you and I see in you the good person to whom I can talk about much! I feel sincerity and loyalty of our relations! I do not want to lose contact to you and new acquaintances are not necessary for me! The question concerning our first meeting from here follows! Dear Emmanuel, I do not want you to afflict, but I think nevertheless still early to speak about a meeting! I hope you will understand me correctly!? However I do not speak was not present!:) I consider this variant now, time and the first meeting will really come will be necessary for us that we have more understood each other and more deeply got acquainted! But it is possible to speak about it little later! OK?:) Concerning the visa, whether I do not know I Shengen can receive the visa? For it I will need enter huge quantity{amount} of cabinets of the big chiefs!:) you speak that will leave in travel this week, do by this travel without me, but we shall do probably following travel together!?:) Let's discuss all questions concerning a meeting after your travel! OK?:) I do not want to give to you now the negative answer, and I do not want to give now to you the positive answer! But I want that our relations necessarily grew only upwards!:) It will be so my dear!:) You know, hun, I’ve been thinking about the future a lot recently, and you know, sweetie, I have figured out that I am really ready to create a family. I feel deep inside that now I am on that point in my life when many of my goals are achieved. I’m well educated, have a good job and I feel that emotionally I am ready to create a family, I am ready to have kids and take care of them. I really want it. Emmanuel, I love children a lot, and you? I think that they are the flowers of life. So, I really want to have my own. By the way, Emmanuel, how many children would you like to have? ;):) As for me I want to have two, I want a boy and a girl. But sure, I also understand that children is a big responsibility at the same time, so if I get married, I would like to live with my husband for ourselves first and only then have children. You know, my dear Emmanuel, I always thought that family is very important and I think that family should be based on love, care and mutual understanding. Only in this case it will be happy and of course, children will be happy. I also think that parents should take care of children’s future. I don’t mean that they should make choice for them all the time, but sometimes it is needed. So, I thought a lot about it and life in general and I came to the conclusion that I would like to live in the other country. I am not saying that Russia is bad or something, but I would like to move out of here. There are some reasons for that. I think that first of all, it will be better to move out of Russia because here is too many criminals and sometimes it’s hard to live, also hard to work in that kind of conditions. In my opinion, I might show my professional potential better in some other country. Economical situation in Russian is not very good also and I think that my future children deserve to have all they need and want. So actually these are the main reasons why I would like to move out of here. But you know, hun, what I think sometimes. I think that for me it doesn’t matter where I have to move. All that matters is who I am going to be with. Sure, I can say that I am happy with my family and friends here in Russia, but it can’t be compared to happiness when you love and you are loved. What do you think, dear? I am looking for that kind of thing and I think every one in this world needs love. Ok, hun, I am finishing my letter now and I wish you to have a great day full of joys and smiles :) Hugs, Natalia

Letter 4

Hi my dear Emmauel!!! Thank you very much for your letter, I was very glad to receive it as usual. It’s like you are sending a part of your soul’s warmth with it and I like it a lot. Every one of your letters brings me much joy and makes me smile :) I like to read your wonderful words to me, hun. You are very dear to my heart, Emmauel. I want you to know that!!! Be necessarily reasonable in mountains! You are going to go with such speed??? Be cautious! By the way I saw in news, that huge quantity of tourists have suffered in mountains! But it is possible not in France! However the avalanche will not warn! I do not want you to frighten, I only want to warn! Hun, you remember I’ve told you some days ago that I was corresponding with some other men, right? So guess what? Now I am not corresponding with them any more. I know that no one of them gives me feeling like you do. Even though we do not know each other very well, somehow I know, feel inside that something special is happening between us. You know, my dear Emmauel, each time I receive a letter from you, I feel so joyful and happy inside. I like to read your letters and every single time I do it, I feel like I am talking to a very close friend of mine. I feel good, I feel that the emptiness that used to be inside of me is disappearing. And I like it. And I know that this is all because of you, Emmauel. Thank you for that. I really need you, I need you in my life a lot, Emmauel. You know, every time I read your letter I feel good and when I don’t have it, don’t receive it I feel sad. I miss you, miss your words all the time. For some reason I feel that I know you, that I can easily understand you. By the way, Emmauel, do you believe that we are living several times? I mean do you believe that after the person dies his/her soul starts to live in the other body, that soul is always alive? As for me I think that this might be. You know, hun, today I thought what if in our past lives we were together? How do you think is it possible? In my opinion, it is because sometimes when I read your letters, your words I feel that you are reading my mind, like you’re telling what I was going to tell you :) Don’t you think that this is unusual? As for me such a thing has never happened to me before. I’ve never felt that kind of emotional connection with any one, even with people who were living close to me, but in our case even though I’ve never met you, I feel very special. I don’t know may be it’s too early to talk about things like that , but I do really feel this way. May be I am too romantic or too naive, but I wanted to open my soul, to show my feelings to you. And now I feel very anxious, I do not know how you will react, but all that is written above is true. My sunshine, I am thinking about you a lot and I miss you very much. I wish you to have a great day and finishing my letter now. Looking forward to your reply! With many tender hugs, Natalia PS I shall write down your phone number and hope we can phone! I try it to make!

Letter 5

Hi my sunshine!!! :) How are you doing? What’s new with you, dear Emmauel? First of all I would like to thank you for your tender and kind words and care. Emmauel, I appreciate it a lot, it really means much to me. Thank you for your letters, your attention. It’s so great! :) :) :) Last time we have exchanged letters with you on April 3, from that time week has passed!:) I see that you have answered me on April 9, I just now have an opportunity to receive your letter and to write the answer! My internet has been switched - off some days and besides I was at parents in this week-end! The spring gradually comes to us!:) there Was not enough sun, but there were rains, the most part of a snow has thawn!:) If the sun will look out and it becomes good to heat, all around will start to blossom and come to life!:) Now your returning also gives to me of light and pleasures:) it is pleasant for me to know that you had good time and now is vigorous and fresh:) I shall wait for your photos! Honey, you know, I have a question for you. I don’t know if you want to answer me, but if it is ok, please, do. My dear Emmauel, I would like to know more about your past experiences, I mean I would like to know about your past love partners and past relationships. From my side I can tell you more about mine. Actually I think that this helps you better understand me, my decision to start looking for someone online. So, everything started when I was 16 years old. As every girl I wanted to have a super handsome boyfriend who is going to be madly in love with me :) I found that kind of guy when I was 17 years old, I thought that I loved him at that moment. He was sweet to me, strong physically and very very attractive. We have been seeing each other , dating for may be 1,5-2 years. By the way he was my first guy I slept with, so I lost my virginity with him. I thought that I loved him a lot, I thought he did too, and actually may be he did or at least I wanted to believe in it. Any way now I understand what was wrong. He was too self-confident, he knew how much good-looking he was and used it… I think that men like that just are meant to be alone. So our relationship ended. I cried, it was much pain to me, but I overcame it and started to live my new life again. I was alone, for a big period of time, I mean I didn’t date for long. Then when I was 22 I’ve met one guy and we liked each other a lot. We have been together for about 1,5 years, but somehow our relationship started to break. I think that the problem was that we didn’t have much emotional understanding and in my opinion, this is very important. Hun, you know, my point of view on the ideal relationship has changed a lot. Now I know what I want, I think that I have enough experience and made enough mistakes to understand the life and people better now. I know that in order to have long-lasting relationship two people need to have a very good emotional connection first of all. I hope that through our letters we will be able to establish good emotional and special connection. What do you think, my dear Emmauel? Hun, please, remember that I am thinking about you all the time and I miss you a lot, sweetie. You have become a very dear person to me! Thank you that you are! Smile, sunshine :)

Letter 6

Hi my dear Emmauel!!!
How are you doing back there? How is your mood? Are you smiling? :) :) :) As for me I do. I do it now when I am writing you this letter. Today the weather is not very good here, but you know Emmauel, since I’ve met you it doesn’t matter for me any more. You are my sunshine :) Thank you very much for your tenderness and care that I can feel in your letters, my dear Emmauel. I appreciate it a lot,
hun.
Even at that that we have sometimes the difficult working days, nevertheless we should smile the friend for the friend!:) Certainly I could not forget you! Yes,
in mountains you could not write to me the letter, but now it is recoverable!:)
I hope now our contact will not interrupt!:) Still I wait for your photos, it is very interesting to me:)
Today my day was fine, I woke up as usual, took a shower and went to work. The works was all good today, but you know, Emmauel, I was thinking about you all day long and I couldn’t wait till the moment I come home and see if I have a letter from you, my dear! :) Your letters brighten my day a lot!
Emmauel if you do not want to speak now about that bad experience with that woman, means on it there are reasons! I shall not be pressure upon you! If you will want, will tell to me later:)
I understand your desires! Really strong relationships are necessary for building on a stone day after day! You are completely right! Also it is very pleasant for me to read your words concerning your maturity for the future wife!
I read it with pride!
I didn’t tell you, but yesterday when I looked out of the window I was thinking about you, Emmauel. Hun, I’ve seen two bright stars in the sky and thought that these two stars might symbolize you and me :) And at the same time I thought what if you were thinking about me back there at the same moment? My dear Emmauel, I felt some kind of special connection that is starting to appear between us and that is connecting us through miles, that keeps us together even though we are so much apart from each other…
Today my aunty Maria is not feeling very well, so I took care of her. Nothing serious, I just think that she needs some rest, that’s it. You know, hun, they are very dear to me and I hope that my aunt and uncle will live for long, at least as for me I am trying to do everything to help them. Emmauel, I think that we should always take care of older people, respect them. How do you think?
Honey, you know, I think that I have told you so many times that I am so happy that you are in my life, but I am going to repeat it more and more because this is how I feel and this is the most important. You know, Emmauel, now I know that I have a friend I can be open with, a friend I can talk to easily and I know I can tell you everything I want . I share with you so many things, my dear Emmauel, and I see that you understand me well and I like it.
Ok, hun, I am finishing my letter now and I wish you to have a nice day!
Remember that I am thinking about you all the time and I miss you, Emmauel!!!
Smile :), my sunshine!
With tender hugs and warm kisses,
Natalia

Letter 7

Hi honey!!!
How is my sunshine doing today? How is everything with you, Emmauel? Thank you very much for your letter, your tender, caring and nice words. It is so pleasant to read, I like it a lot. Thank you, hun.
You now in the good form after such sports morning?:)
I would really like to hear your voice, my dear, so that we can continue developing our relationship. I think that this should be our next step, so that we will feel a little bit closer to each other. I have a cell phone, but this is for work and that is why I can’t accept the international calls, but I found the way out. I will take my friend’s phone and call you first, so please, send me your phone number, ok? After I call you, you can call me back on her number which is 79047253564 and we can talk. In what day do I have to take phone? and let’s set the time for us to talk for my time (Moscow time). I am really excited to hear your voice, my sunshine!!!
I with sad read your history concerning the Armenian woman! It is very a pity to me that you had such experience! But I hope now in your life there will be no similar mistakes!
Yes, it is really necessary to return to more pleasant:) To us:) you are Possible will not believe, but I am always gentle!:) I soft, I do not love conflicts, I do not love a loud voice, I as the quiet sea without a storm!:)
Yes, I want to do only nice things in the future!!!:) I and now not do bad things!
You know, Emmauel, I would like to ask you a very difficult question today,
difficult, but very interesting at the same time. So are you ready? ;) :) I would like to know what do you think is LOVE? What definition can you give?
Telling you the truth for many years I have been trying to find the answer on this question and I still can’t. I know that many different famous and very educated people tried to do it, but still could not find the one answer, and actually I think that this is impossible. My dear Emmauel, since you are very dear to me, to my heart and soul and I appreciate your opinion a lot I would like to know what you think. I just want to know what LOVE means for you.
As for me, I think that this is a very complicated feeling, full of different emotions, bad and good memories, joy and pain, smiles and tears. You know,
Emmauel, I think that two people either have it or not . And also think that this feeling comes unexpectedly and suddenly. In my opinion, some people fall in love from the first sight, some take their time and do everything slowly,
enjoying every moment, every second of flirt and their time spent together. (By the way, I like the second variant :) and you?)
I also think that some people are more romantic, listen to their heart (this is me :)) and some listen to their mind more (I am trying to do it now, I need to,
I am not 16 any more :)). My dear Emmauel, are you romantic? Would you like to have a nice dinner with candles and a little bit of red wine sitting with the person you love, your special one? Would you like then after it come home and just be together, hug and kiss and slowly make love?.. Umm… I think I am dreaming too much, so I better stop now :) :) :)
Sweetie, I am thinking much about you and even though we have never seen each other in real life, I miss you and I miss you very much. You’re already become a big part of my life now. I care for you a lot.
By the way, Emmauel, how was your day? Mine was fine, everything is good at my work and you know, Emmauel, the interesting thing is that my co-workers started to notice that I look different now, I smile :) more and look even better :) :)
:) This is all because of you, Emmauel!!! Because you are in my mind and I am thinking about you.
My aunt is feeling better today and I am very glad about it :) So everything is just fine here and I hope that you are also doing good over there. I am sending you my most tender kisses and hugs.
Smiling for you here :)
Your Natalia

Letter 8

Hi my dear Emmauel!!!
Thank you very much for your letter, I was very glad to receive it. You know,
now when you have appeared in my life I don’t just *walk* to the computer I *run* to it :) :) :) to see if I have something from you. Your words always brighten my day and make me feel like I am flying in the skies :) I like that!!!
Today friday and it was last working day on my work:) Tomorrow I can sleep up to 9 or 10 and to relax:) It also adds good mood:) Really, week-end allows to sleep longer:) I love it:) It is possible to rise not at once from a pastel:) I think that I have deserved to sleep tomorrow longer, in fact we worked the whole week:)
Today I am going to go to the gym with my best friend Lena. I have never told you about her, but she is my best friend, we’ve known each other since school and have been friends since then, we’ve experienced lots of things together and I think our friendship is very strong. By the way, honey, do you have a best friend?
You know, Emmauel, I think that friendship is very important in life of every person. I think that any person can’t live without friends or love, otherwise this person feels unhappy and very lonely. Actually, my dear, I think that loneliness is the worst thing that can happen to people. I think that nothing can be compared to this. This is terrible. How do you think, Emmauel? Do you agree? In my opinion, every one in this world is looking for his/her second part and only when he/she finds her/him, people can say that they are totally happy.
Emmauel, do not worry concerning your English! I understand you well, we can communicate!:) This surprise, you know some words!:) you still to learn?:)
Emmauel, what concerning our phone conversation? You want to address for the help to the friend?
My town is located between Kazan and Cheboksary! It on river Volga! Search for it on map! I do not know as you to guide on it!?:)
Emmauel, whether your psychoanalyst with your problems has helped?
Interesting ideas concerning love! I like your reflections and I respect your point of view! It is interesting to me to know that you think of all!
I am no different as well, I put my profile online because I wanted to find my only one, my second half, my soul mate and I am very serious about it. I am serious about you, Emmauel. I really hope that you are the one I have been waiting for so long. I don’t know. The time will show everything. We have time;
so of course, we shouldn’t be in a hurry. In my opinion, it is better to be careful in the relationship because I am sure that none of us want a broken heart. I know how it feels and I don’t want to experience it again. I hope that you understand me right, dear, I don’t mean that we should stay where we are all the time, I think that we should develop our relationship, but at the same time enjoy every letter we send. Who knows, what if we will show them to our children some time? ;) :) What do you think?
Honey, please, never forget that somewhere far away from you there is a person thinking about you and missing you a lot! I need you, honey!!! All I am saying comes from the bottom of my heart.
Ok, hun, I am finishing my letter now and I wish you to have a nice day!
With smiles :) and hugs,
Your Natalia
PS Thanks for your photos, to me was interesting to see it! You had remarkable time there?:)

Letter 9

Sunshine!!! :)
I miss you so much! I was so happy today when I received your letters!!! I am in a very good mood and I would like to share it with you, Emmauel!!! First of all I want to say that you are such a sweetheart and I need you, need you much! I have been thinking about you all day long. You know, I imagine us together like we’ve met. I imagined us walking hand in hand, hugging each other, looking at the stars together, watching sunrise… Wow, I really liked all these dreams :)
and I just hope this will happen in the reality some time.
Honey, sometimes I think that our meeting online was meant to be. Just think from so many lonely people that have profiles in the internet we have chosen each other and now look, as for me I don’t feel lonely any more. I don’t because I know that somewhere far there is that man who is thinking about me just as much as I do here! My dear Emmauel, even though our relationship is just letters for now, I value it a lot, I value it so much. I don’t know may be some people will say that I am crazy :) , but this is how I feel and I can’t help it. But actually I like it and don’t want to change :)
In my opinion, everything that is done in this world is done for a reason. I think that no matter what kind of things happen, good or bad, it was meant to be. Good things and occasions bring you joy, bad things teach you to overcome the difficulties, make you stronger. It’s a challenge, how do you think, my dear? Do you agree with me, Emmauel?
Any way, let’s get to the reality now :) Honey, how was your day? What’s new? As for me since I am in a very good mood , it was just great, I have been smiling :) and working real good, so people around me noticed that! :) I am full of energy, so I will probably go to the gym today. I like to work out and this is very important for me. I think that every person should try to look good and take care of the health, but for women I think that this is even more important.
Sure, the inner beauty worth more than outside because it stays forever, but still to look good is needed, at least for me :) So, I am going to the gym!
You long week-end this time means had:) it is valid with a spring always many holidays come nearer! Soon at us here Easter!
Emmauel, thanks for clarifications concerning the psychoanalyst!:) Now I have understood that you wanted to tell to me!:)
With, I to you have told that to us is necessary to agree upon convenient time for both of us! I can wait your bell only then when you will tell to me about it!:) In fact I do not know when you will call and consequently I do not take phone! When you want to phone? Today?
I am glad to find out about your friends! You really for a long time are familiar also your friendship is checked up by time! It is magnificent! I hope it firmly for ever!
Yes, Emmauel, I agree with you! Really lonely people dream of love about creation of fine family! After that dreams become about the fine future! If in full family with wonderful children always the happiness and laughter, happiness from it to become it is even more!
Emmauel, I am so happy that you are in my life!!! This gives me energy and helps smile and live joyfully!!! :) Thank you, dear!!! All of the words you are telling me are very important. And I can feel your tenderness and care in each of your letters. It means a lot to me, Emmauel.
By the way, I looked your photos, these are very magnificent landscapes! But Emmauel, I ask that you any more did not send me so many photos! I could not receive all photos, from us bad internet for this purpose!
Alright, I have to go now, I still have some things to do at hoem, but I won’t finish my letter before I say that you are super! :)
Have a great day!
Think about me! ;) :) Thinking about you :)
Your Natalia

Letter 10

Hi my dear Emmanuel! It is very a pity to me that yesterday we not could speak by phone! But however we had time to hear each other:) It already pleases:) Emmanuel correct number:79047253564! Next time you should call back on this number!!! I think that next week we can talk!? We now have very responsible and busy days on the occasion of Easter tomorrow! I only want to inform you that you have not lost me!:) Now we with the aunt and the uncle leave to my parents to do final preparations for Easter! Tomorrow we shall prepare for still more many different tasty dishes:) It is a pity, that I cannot treat you with it!:( Emmanuel I hope you will wait my letter after that for a holiday! I shall write to you at once as soon as I shall come home! Best regards! Kiss, Natalia

Letter 11

Hi my dear Emmanuel!!!
Thank you very much for your letters, I was very glad to receive it. It brightens my day and made me smile :) Every time I read your letter, I feel like I am talking to you and it seems to me that you are close, close to me in my mind and heart, even though I know that you are many miles apart from me.
Emmanuel, let's agree concerning phone more precisely! I know that it should not deliver to us a problem for conversation, but I should know when you will precisely call! Or tell when to me to call to you? I am sure that all of us can to hear a voice each other though we already heard each other!:) Now on turn good conversation:)
To me it was cheerful these days, but however I would like that you were present with me!:) May be in the next year!?:) But it is good, that I again can write to you after week-end. We with family had a remarkable holiday:) Thanks for warm congratulations! It is very pleasant for me:)
we went to church at night, and I have not overlooked to ask the God of all good for you! It is very important holiday for many people! So it was pleasant to me, we very amicably celebrated Easter!:) I have drunk a little easy wine:) But I was not drunk!:) I well ate:)
But I did not become thick:)
Your friend has correctly interpreted this word "ocharovaska"!:)
Emmanuel if you again tomorrow leave in mountains, come back soon!:) Yes,
certainly I skied and repeatedly! But it is boring at us because we have no hills! I would like to feel once effect of driving in mountains!:)
Honey, you know, I would like to talk to you about something very serious. I would like to talk about our relationships with you. We both know that when we put our profiles online we did that because we wanted to find soul mate, the only one. So now when we have found each other, we don’t feel lonely any more and both of us appreciate what we have. My dear Emmanuel, even though we don’t know each other for long, you’ve become a very important part of my life, you are very dear to me. So now I think that this is time when we need to start talking about moving our relationships forward. How do you think, Emmanuel?
In my opinion, we need to take the next step in our relationship, I think that letters are not enough any more. Do you agree, Emmanuel? You are very dear to me and I am thinking about you all the time and I know that you’re thinking about me too. But you know if we are both serious about each other, we can’t leave our relationship just on letters. How do you think? And the only logical decision will be to meet in real life, right? Because we know that we are very close emotionally, we need to meet in person and then decide what we shall do next. My dear Emmanuel, I hope you understand how much the real meeting is important for us, it’s important for our relationship. What will you say, dear?
Honey, I think that our meeting will be a wonderful moment in lives of both of us. You know, Emmanuel, when I am talking to you about it now, I feel so excited, but so worried at the same time :) My heart is beating like it is going to jump out now :) I don’t know what you will say, but I know that you understand me in everything and I am sure that now it will be the same way.
Sweetheart, I miss you so much and I am thinking about you a lot. Your nice and tender words help me to live a happy life and smile :) Every day I wake up my first thought is about you, every night I go to bed my last thought is about you, my sunshine. You know, sometimes I even see you in my dreams when I sleep :) Sometimes I dream about our meeting, I dream about how we meet for the first time, see each other for the first time, hug, look into each other’s eyes… I think that the eyes are the mirror of the soul and when we’ll look into each other’s eyes we will understand how we feel. When I am dreaming about it, I have so many emotions and feelings, I feel so excited!!! :)
Ok, hun, I am finishing my letter now and I am sending you my warm hugs and kisses.
I am waiting impatiently to your reply!
Smiling for you here :)
Your Natalia

Letter 12

Hi Emmanuel!
I would like to talk with you about phone call. I tried to call you yesterday and as I understood you were on your way to France. I was waiting for you to call me back, but you didn't do it and I understand that probably it was complicated for you because you were on your way.
Sunshine, I would like to speak with you very much and let's do like that.
Tomorrow on Thursday I will call you at 9 pm my time and please, call me back after I give you a call. The phone you are calling is correct and there is no mistake in the number. It is 007 904 7253564. Like I was explaining to you before this is not my phone, but my friend's phone, so there is no point in calling me any other time except the time when I call you first, ok?
So what we do is:

1. I call you first at 9 pm my time
2. You dile the number exactly like that 007 904 7253564
3. We speak!!!!!!

Ok? Please, write me a little note if all that I wrote is good for you before my call to you!
I will be waiting!
Hugs,
Natalia

Letter 13

Hi my sweety!
Today I didn't receive any e-mail from you that you are good with the phone call, is anything wrong? When is a good time for you to talk? Please, tell me,
ok?
I will be waiting for your letter!
I miss you very much,
Your Natalia

Letter 14

Hi my sunshine!!! Thank you very much for your e-mails and your attention. I would like to try to call you today, so that we can speak and hear each other. I will be calling you at 9 pm my time, so I really hope that it will work this time, Emmanuel!!! Miss you so much! Till evening, Natalia

Letter 15

Dear Emmanuel! I will start my letter to you a little bit different today. You know, there are times in my life when I feel so lonely, I will like nobody is really around, nobody really cares. Even though I know and understand that I have parents, friends and close ones, I feel so lonely… And I know that this is because I don’t have my special one near. I know that I really need a person who will love me and care for me, the person I will love. I know that I have so much tenderness, love and care deep in my heart, I want to give it, but I want to give it only to my special one, the right person. I don’t want to make a mistake, I want to make a right choice, once and forever. You know, my dear Emmanuel, now when I have you things are different. I don’t feel that lonely any more, I feel you in my life, but at the same time I am very afraid, I am afraid that you might just disappear like a wonderful dream… That’s scares me and I don’t believe that this will happen, I am trying to believe in better. And it helps. Honey, now when I have you, my life is bright and even though the weather is bad outside I feel great because you’re like a sun brighten my life :) I smile when I think about you. So I really hope that our relationship will work out good and everything will be just fine between us. From my side I am doing my best and I will. We need to be optimistic and do our best to make our dreams come true. You know, Emmanuel, I am tired of running away from my loneliness and I don’t want to do it any more. I don’t want to hide it deep in me, in heart and soul. I don’t want to work long hours any more just because I don’t have a special person waiting for me at home. I want to have a happy and strong family, children… I want that and I am ready to give it, but I want to give it only to my special one. I really hope that this is you, Emmanuel, and I know that only meeting will help us to understand it. I think that we both deserve happiness and let’s hope for the better and let the time show everything, my dear Emmanuel. I miss you very much, Emmanuel, and I am thinking about you all the time. You are very dear to me and your words are so sweet, you are sweet :) You make me smile :) :) :) My sweety, I would like to tell you that this was so great to talk to you over the phone!!! It was so nice hearing your voice, that all my thoughts even till now are about it. I am thinking about us a lot and I am so happy. I just want you to know it. I am happy and it seems like I want to scream about it, to tell it to all of the world! You made me feel this way, my sunshine!!! Ok, I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your reply very impatiently!!! Have a great day, my dear! I miss you! Your Natalia PS Smile :) for me, dear! I do it for you here all the time :) :) :) kiss kiss

Letter 16

Hi my dear Emmanuel!!! How are you? How is everything with you? Thank you very much for your letter, sunshine. I was very glad to receive it. Every one of your letters make my day brighter and you are the one who makes me smile :) Emmanuel, you are very important and dear to me. You know, I keep each of your letters and I like to re-read it, sometimes when I have time. I like to see how our relationships are growing and how we are getting closer day by day. I am thinking much about you and you are very dear to me. Day by day you are getting closer and very special to me. I like the feeling I am getting each time I open a new letter from you. Every day it’s like a surprise and you know, Emmanuel, I feel something special inside of me. Do you feel anything like that? ;) :) :) My day was fine today. I went to my job and it was all good. You know, Emmanuel, I like my job and I like people who are working there, that’s why I like to go there and it’s easy for me to work. In my opinion, it is a very important factor because the person needs to like what he/she is doing. How do you think, my dear? Do you agree with me, Emmanuel? Do you like what you are doing? Emmanuel, like I said over the phone to you, I would like to come to visit you and I think that we will have a very good time together. This is what I am really looking for. Like I told you before I would like to do all with the help of the travel agency, so that we don't get any problem with the paperwork. Today I went to the travel agency and figured out more information on my trip to you. I figured out that in order for me to come to you I will need a visa and it will take some time to arrange it. I figured out that the whole cost of my trip to you will be 975 euro. This includes tickets both sides, visa and my transportation to Moscow. It also includes the help I will need in Moscow. You know, Emmanuel, Moscow is a very big city and it is dangerous to move around there alone without knowing the city, so this service is also included. You know, I want to be on the safe side, I hope you understand this, dear. So, this is the info I figured out. What do you think about it, Emmanuel? I really want to come and visit you, so your opinion is very important to me and I think that if you are ok with all written above, we should establish the dates and start preparation. Do you agree? I think that real meeting is a very important step in our relationship and I don’t think that we should wait for long to do it. In my opinion, one look can say more than million words, Emmanuel. Ok, hun, I am finishing my letter now and I wish you to have a great day! Smile :) for me, Emmanuel! Missing you and waiting for your fast reply, Your Natalia

Letter 17

Hi my dear Emmanuel!
It was very pleasant for me to receive your letter as usual, I have been looking forward to it. Today the weather is very nice here, the sun is shining brightly,
I am in a high spirits! Honey, the only one thing I need is you near me, I am looking forward to that moment when we are going to be together!
You ask during what period we shall have holiday together:) I think any two weeks in June a good variant! Today on May 12, the visa will be approximately made for 2 weeks, in general at the end of May I shall be ready to go to you! I can arrive to you in the beginning of June, I can arrive in the middle that at the end of June already to come back back! I in fact cannot remain at once there for ever:) in general if we shall meet in June then it is necessary to hurry up!
I figured out the safest and easiest way you can do it.You can send me money through the Western Union, this is a safe and easy to use system to help people transfer money from one side of the world to another. All you need to know is my full name which is Natalia Tsybina and country Russia, but you need to put my name correctly letter by letter like it is here. Then you will be given a control number which you will send me by the e-mail and then I go to get the money here, I take my passport and I go. Please, when you will fill in the papers don't put my town in there because we don't have office of Western Union here and I will go to the closest city which will be Kazan. It is not a problem for me and not a long way, which will be easier for me. This is all we need to do. I hope that this is ok with you, thank you very much for your help again. I will also need to know your full name and the exact city you sent the money from. This is the infornation I found out in the bank, so that we know all for sure. After you help me I put your and my money together and I will be able to go to the travel agency and start the preparation. I hope I can do it soon. I really want to see you and I dream about this special moment all the time!!!!
I’ve got used to your letters, I love to look at your photos. Day by day we find new things about each other, I think that we were meant to be together, may be you are the man of my dreams! :) I am know that this is a little bit early to plan our future, but I am thinking seriously about creating a family and I imagine our future happy family. When I go to sleep I always think about you,
other men don’t interest me any more, I need only you, Emmanuel, my heart and my soul are open to you!
Sweetheart, now I would like to share with you my dreams about our future. If I come to you the first thing I would like to do is to get acquainted with your family and friends. I hope that they will like me. Because I think that family is very important in our lives. They are the dearest and closest people to you and I want them to accept me as your soulmate, your future wife. I would like to be a part of your family. I know that it won’t be easy for me to be there at first because it is different culture and everything is different, but I know that you will be near me and you’ll help me to get used to my new life, our new life :) The most part of my time I will pay attention on you, Emmanuel, on our family, we’ll be the happiest people. Of course, I didn’t get used just to sit without doing something, so I think that for the first time I will be able to study or work a little bit may be. By the way I know from me being in America that most people use cars and it is almost impossible to live without it, so I think that I need to take driving courses here, before I move to you. How do you think, Emmanuel? In my opinion, for me to function and feel good it is very important to know how to drive a car.
You know, I love children a lot and I would like to have children in the future,
but I think that we should enjoy some time only me and you at first. Do you agree with me? What do you think, Emmanuel? This is how I imagine our future.
And what about you? What are you dreaming about? How would you like our future to be? Please, tell me it will be very interesting for me to know. I know that it is a little bit early to talk about things like that before we meet in person, but I find this topic very interesting and exciting. I like to dream about our happy future. :)
I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your fast reply,
you know that your letters brighten my day and make me smile :) I am very happy that I’ve found you!
Have a great day and smile for me, my sunshine! :)
With all my tenderness and care,
Your Natalia

Letter 18

Hi my sunshine! It was very pleasant for me to receive your letter as usual, your letters always bring me good mood! Today the weather is wonderful, it’s a pity that you are not here with me, I imagined how we could walk together and I’ve understood that I miss you very much! I am always thinking about you and looking forward to our meeting, I really need you a lot. Your photo is in my wallet and when I feel sad I look at it, it is like a thing that bring me luck. When I wake up in the morning I look at your photo that is in the frame on my table! I am really happy that I’ve got acquainted with you, Emmanuel, I learn more and more about you by each of your letters, thank you for your care, honey. I can’t find the right words to tell you how you make me feel, all I can say that I am the happiest woman in the world now! I am sure that you are sincere and honest to me! All I want is to feel your love, care and understanding! When I am writing you this letter it is evening here. I had a very busy day today, there were lots of things that were needed to be done, I was pretty busy at my work and I’ve got very tired today, so I went to the gym to work out for a little while because I really needed some physical release. I feel much better now, I just wish that you were here with me now, so that we could have dinner together, watch a movie or something to have rest. I miss you very much, that’s why the first thing I did when I came home was writing you a letter. Thanks for your detailed story about a life in Europe! You have opened my eyes on many things! Though I guessed that the life in any country is original and demands diligence! This your letter has dipped me with a head into your life and during a life of your country! I hope you do not want me to frighten!?:) I understand that you want to tell all to me that I knew about your country more! It is important for me, now I have the greater representation! All is interesting to me both the positive parties and negative, in each country there are different parties! And really I would like to see all this own eyes! If to meet in June conveniently for both of us then it is very good variant! I without problems can take the free days on work and without obstacles to use it for our meeting! Emmanuel, you offer certainly a simple variant for yourself, but I do not know as it to use! If you will buy tickets for me, I in fact should receive it somehow!? Suddenly I shall make a mistake? But I hope it to not happen! Even if you will buy tickets, nevertheless on the visa and for others necessary documents are necessary charges! If I shall do the visa then I need to go to Moscow in embassy both other and other...! If I shall do documents and the visa through agency then they everyone will do for me and I will not need to go to Moscow but then I should them pay all! I do not want to charge myself with many problems, I see a way through agency enough idle time! I hope you will share it with me!? I need you so much and I want you to be near me, I can’t wait till the moment when we meet, I hope that it will be soon! It will be the best day in my life, I am sure! Yesterday when I went to bed I was dreaming about you, I looked at the window and looked at the stars that were in the sky and I was thinking about you and me, I’ve imagined us together and very happy. I think that you are the one I was looking for all my life, you are so tender, kind and caring. You have a wonderful soul, Emmanuel. I am very happy that you are in my life now! You make me smile :) and bring me joy and that special romance and care that were missing in my life before I’ve met you. I am finishing my letter now and I am sending you all of my tenderness and care that is in my heart! Have a great day, honey! And always remember that I miss you a lot and think about you! You are on my mind! Looking forward to your reply, Hugs and kisses for you, sweetheart! Your Natalia

Letter 19

Hi my dear Emmanuel!!! Thank you very much for your letter, I was very glad to receive it. Honey, you know, today when I was online and when I was thinking about you :) I’ve seen that story, that I would like to share with you. I hope you will like it, tell me your opinion on that, ok? Here it is: Whenever it rains, it is a very spectacular sight to behold. It can be a mild shower, a fierce thunderstorm, a light drizzle or even a display of lightning amidst a backdrop of scenic landscape, but all that I ask for is that when it rains, I want you to be by my side to admire and take in the beauty of life - water. An essential element that has kept us alive to this very day to continue being in love. Whenever raindrops fall from the sky, big or small, I can be assured that heaven is tearing for the sins of this world. And with every single tear comes drops of forgiveness and it is this act of forgiving that enables the human race to sustain an existence on this living hell and it is this forgiveness that gave rise to love which is the biggest forgiver of all. Watching the rain with you is like a very special ritual. When two minds are deep in thoughts, when two hearts are deep in love, when two people are not speaking but just enjoying the silence of the moment save the thoughts of heaven raining upon green pastures in front of us, we are able to hear each other better. We are able to think more about each other, care more for each other. Like a hand across your shoulders, a gentle massage on the neck, a kiss on the cheek or just the thoughts of each other. Every time when it rains, I feel so warm both physically and emotionally. You will be there with me, holding me tight, feeling the rain splattering against our faces, huddling on to each other for warmth when we hug and kiss in the rain. It is such sheer rejuvenation, experiencing what it is like to be refreshed and free from all burdens and worries, just being with the girl I love, in the rain. The chill of the wind might sear through my heart, the sky might be all gloomy and dark but I am sure that there will always be a rainbow after the rain. It will be a beautiful sight to appreciate in awe as the ray of seven colors stretches from horizon to horizon making it the most majestic view from afar. The warmth of the sun as it re-emerges, the chirping of the bird as they start to feed, the swaying of the tress in the gentle breeze are all but part of the picturesque scenery with us standing in the foreground, completing the picture, just like you complete me, feeling every single gap in my heart just like water filling up an empty glass till it overflows, with your love. The rainbow way above us, coupled with the landscape we are part of is our world of beauty but the greatest beauty of all is the one I will only ever love, standing beside me, with me. That will be you. This very special moment in time spent and shared together is liken to a celebration of our love that is everlasting and eternal, tried but true, encapsulated in the purest form of patience, kindness, understanding, concern, respect, trust and faith in our hearts forever... I hope you liked it, Emmanuel. This story made me think about you, hun :) I hope you have well had a rest!:) I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your reply!!! With hugs and tender kisses, Your Natalia

Letter 20

Hi my dear Emmanuel!
It was very pleasant for me to receive your letter as usual, I have been looking forward to it. Today the weather is very bad here, all the day pours a rain, but I am in a high spirits! Honey, the only one thing I need is you near me, I am looking forward to that moment when we are going to be together!
I am glad that you liked my poem!:) I do to you pleasantly from heart!:) I really the optimist:)
I’ve got used to your letters, I love to look at your photos. Day by day we find new things about each other, I think that we were meant to be together, may be you are the man of my dreams! :) I am know that this is a little bit early to plan our future, but I am thinking seriously about creating a family and I imagine our future happy family. When I go to sleep I always think about you,
other men don’t interest me any more, I need only you, Emmanuel, my heart and my soul are open to you!
Emmanuel I will need a visa and I might also need an invitation letter from you,
but I don’t know for sure yet. In case I need it I will let you know and you can just e-mail it to me, that won’t be a problem I think.
You want to discuss all nuances in MSN? Then it is necessary for me to establish it on a computer! Emmanuel, it will be possible to talk easier to us about all by phone? We can discuss much! Also you can explain to me be relative MSN:) That concerning phone?
Sweetheart, now I would like to share with you my dreams about our future. If I come to you the first thing I would like to do is to get acquainted with your family and friends. I hope that they will like me. Because I think that family is very important in our lives. They are the dearest and closest people to you and I want them to accept me as your soulmate, your future wife. I would like to be a part of your family. I know that it won’t be easy for me to be there at first because it is different culture and everything is different, but I know that you will be near me and you’ll help me to get used to my new life, our new life :) The most part of my time I will pay attention on you, Emmanuel, on our family, we’ll be the happiest people. Of course, I didn’t get used just to sit without doing something, so I think that for the first time I will be able to study or work a little bit may be. By the way I know from me being in America that most people use cars and it is almost impossible to live without it, so I think that I need to take driving courses here, before I move to you. How do you think, Emmanuel? In my opinion, for me to function and feel good it is very important to know how to drive a car.
You know, I love children a lot and I would like to have children in the future,
but I think that we should enjoy some time only me and you at first. Do you agree with me? What do you think, Emmanuel? This is how I imagine our future.
And what about you? What are you dreaming about? How would you like our future to be? Please, tell me it will be very interesting for me to know. I know that it is a little bit early to talk about things like that before we meet in person, but I find this topic very interesting and exciting. I like to dream about our happy future. :)
I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your fast reply,
you know that your letters brighten my day and make me smile :) I am very happy that I’ve found you!
Have a great day and smile for me, my sunshine! :)
With all my tenderness and care,
Your Natalia

Letter 21

Hi dear Emmanuel!
I have been shocked with your letter! I went on this site, I all over again have not understood with what you it connect! But later I have understood that you want to accuse me of a deceit!? You know it so me kills, because I read these words from you! You were very dearly for me, but I seem was mistaken in you! I was sincere with you, I felt good feelings to you! But now I see that you simply searched for mistakes in me that in a consequence to accuse of dishonesty!
Probably by mistake I have inserted to you a copy of my last letter! Several days ago I have broken the a computer and have lost the information! And I last letter was possible because of it has again sent you! I thought that in general has lost absolutely everything, but I seem some information could restore! But you have convicted me of a mistake and it plays for you a huge role! Now I have suspicion that you search in internet not relationships with the woman, and want to convict any girl of a deceit!? Till this moment I was the happy girl that have met you, but having read the letter, I have lost hope fortunately! What for you so have killed me? Why it occurs to me??? Emmanuel, I think to us it is necessary to parting! I cannot return our relationships after that incident! I wish you success! Care, not all girls such, as you think!
Natalia

Letter 22

My dear Emmanuel!
I don’t know how to start my letter to you today because I have many things to talk to you about. I would like to talk to you about our relationships. We are corresponding for a while now and I would like to tell you that you became very dear to me during that time, I opened up my soul for you and now when we are talking about our meeting and moving our relationships forward, it really hurts that I feel that you don’t trust me…
I can feel it in your tone, I can feel it in your letters. You know, we are both adults and when we put our profiles online we knew what we are doing and what we are looking for. You know, Emmanuel, when I just thought that I would like to try to find my special one online, I realized that Internet is such a risky thing that you never know how it will turn. I knew that there are many bad people who don’t want a decent relationship, but want just to have fun or play a joke or whatever… But now I see that there is the other thing going online and this is scam. I read about it and it just put me in shock. But you know,
Emmanuel, I don’t think that this should influence our relationships. We shouldn’t look back at other people’s experience, we should make a decision deep in our hearts and decide what we want and if we trust each other.
These bad experiences of other people really do have a big influence on our relationship because of that we can't just believe each other easily, we are going through all that. And I should be honest with you this is not pleasant.
This really hurts me sometimes to feel that you want to belive me, but you can't just do it. I mean of coure I understand it with my head, but my heart doesn't.
Any way I would like to thank you for being honest with me like you always were,
thank you for that. I understand that you have worries and this is very good that we are on that level of understanding that we can talk freely about all this, otherwise it could drive you and me crazy you know :) and cause nothing but argument. Now I am happy to openly talk to you and tell you how feel.
My dear Emmanuel, I opened up my soul and I told you so many things that I don’t usually tell and now we are on the point when we want to see each other. I made a decision for me. I decided that I will go for it because the chance we have now not everybody has and I don’t want to lose it.
I am taking the risk because I feel deep in my heart that you are for real and you are honest with me, I can’t and I don’t want to believe that all we have will go away just like a wonderful and romantic fairy tale. I want a real serious relationship and I will do my best to make it happen.
Now it is up to you to decide what you want, but I hope that you will make the right decision. I don't know, tell me if I am wrong, but I just feel so close to you that I am tired of that talk about other people being scammed and had bad experience. I want to move forward and I want to do it with you. I hope you too.
We both deserve happiness and everything is in our hands, so let’s do it!!! And if you want to speak by phone, just tell me the good time and day when we can do it.
Miss you much and thinking about you,
Your Natalia
PS And yes, I am sorry that all that happened by mistake and you can be sure that I am honest woman!

Letter 23

Hello Emmanuel! Thanks for your letter! What did you wait from me? You You believe that I should insist on our relations? If you not You trust me if you accuse me in a deceit why I should run For you! We could not run one after another, we could build simply Our relations! I was very glad that I have found you, but you have undermined mine Feelings also has broken my heart! You at all did not make comments on my past The letter! You read that I have written to you? At me that you played sensation with Me, I sincerely trusted you! Unless it is possible such to do with people?
Natalia