Letter(s) from Alexandra Ignatieva to Adam (USA)

Letter 1

Hello my dear Adam.
How are you today? Are you ok? How is the weather there? Today is cold a little. I missed you and your letter.
I have some good and not very good news. I think I have to share my news with you. First thing as you know the surgery was made successful to my mom and now her life in safety. I am glad. Doctor said my mom will recover soon and can back to the home after some days. This is very good news. It made me happy! So I prayed the god and he heard me. But then doctor said that surgery cost is 125345 rubles! It's 4730 American dollars! This is second thing. He said, if my mom would not have medical insurance it will be more expensive. I these news made me sad. I have tried to get money to pay for surgery as soon as I could. I had some money for my trip to America, I have asked some of my friends for help and we could collect some part of money. It was about 3440 American dollars. But I was still need 1290 dollars. I didn't know what to do. I had to pay for mom's surgery during some next days. I went to the bank and I tried to get a loan but they said first: it will takes about month not earlier and second they can't give me any loan and any credit because I will leave my country for work and for a living during long time or forever. They said they can't help me in this case. So it's impossible for me to get money from bank. I was very upset and my mood was bad. I think a lot about opportunity to pay for surgery and I could find only one way. I went to agency where I had made registration to move to America and asked them about give me money back I paid them for my movement and other necessary procedures of my transportation. Some time ago when I have started my work to get documents and to get possibility to move to America I have paid to agency about 2500 dollars and now I have asked them to get my money back. I have explained them my situation and they said that they understand my difficulties and this bad situation. They answered that I can get money but not all the sum I have paid before. Because some part of money was spent to prepare my documents such as visa, passport, certificates, license of dentist in America and medical tests. They can't get back these money. Also they can't get money back for work they made to prepare the process of my transportation and for work of their American colleagues. So I could get only 1320$. I was glad for these kind of money, because it will be enough to pay for surgery completely! But they notified me if I will not be able to pay these kind of money until 27 December I will lose my opportunity to come to America. I have told my mom that I have paid for her surgery. She was glad. But she was upset when she knew where I found these money. My mom always wished me happy and good life and tried to help me. But now she said that because of her I can't my dream make happen. I said here: don't worry mom, it's a life and any things may happen. Adam I want to tell you the agency will refuse from my registration and all my documents will be lost. I will lost opportunity to get new documents to work and to live in America for some of years!! All work of my movement to America they made there and here in Russia will be lost!! It mean I wasted all my resources and all my forces!! I don't want to think that I will lose my dream for happy future. I don't want to lose you and want to meet you in reality!!! I want to get work there and change my life and life of my mom to more better life. I want to find good man and create family together with him! I don't want to think that I can't reach all of it because of money! I don't know what to do Adam! I don't know what to think! All I could to think up is if you will help me. I understand that it looks not very good but I am almost in inextricable situation and the single way out from these situation is you Adam. I want to tell you that if you could help me to get money to pay for my coming to America it would be great! I don't know do you remember I have told you in my earlier letters when I will come to America to NYC and after I will reach agency who worked for getting work for me I will get some papers, direction to my work, tickets for train or plane if I will chose other place for a work and advance (7000 dollars) for the first time, before I start my work. Adam I will be glad to give you your money back immediately and I could give you some extra money for your help. I am not greedy person and I will be generous when I will come. Of course we will need to meet each other but I think it will not be a problem for us. I will tell you all details of my coming to your region and you can meet me in the airport and I will return all your money you will send. I will give you little more if you want. It will be pleasure for me because you are my good friends and I think friends have to help to each other. What do you think about it? Can you help me Adam? I have asked you about it because I see no any other way to Move to America. I want my dream will come true soon and only you can help me! I hope for you Adam. Please let me know what do you think? I will wait for your reply with great impatience! I want to attach copies of some of my documents to you. I just want to show you that my coming to America is real intention and I will come there with your help of course. I am sending you my passport and ticket to New York. So you can see when I am coming. Also you can meet me there but if it will be hard for you we can meet some later after I come back from agency and will move to my work place. Therefore I have asked you about your convenient phone number and about your address. When I will come I would call you and we could talk about where we can meet or I could visit you at your home! When I went to bank I have found out about company who can help me to get your help if you will be agree to help me. The name of this company is western union. I think I even watched advertising of this company on TV here. I have learned about all working details of this company and I think we could use their service easily. Here is information I have learned. You can learn more about western union here www.westernunion.com The sender(this is you Adam) if he will send money will have to send to receiver( this is me) necessary information about transfer. Because the receiver will have to know it to pick transfer of sender. The receiver have to know : address of sender, full name of sender, confirmation number of transfer( you will get it in western union branch, whose service you will use) and sum of transfer. Only then receiver can pick transfer up. Here is information where and whom to send money: You will have to send money to address of western union branch here in Ukhta:
UKHTA , 169300 RUSSIA.
Send your help to my name: Ignatieva Alexandra. I need only $1290.

Adam, please help me and send me all necessary information I need!!! My mom and me hope for you! Because you are a good man and good my friend! I hope these news will not change your mind to me and we can be friends and will meet soon. I will wait for your next e-mail with good news.
Here is information for you about my flight to NYC:
1:25 pm Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive New York (JFK) 3:50 pm Wed 27-Dec
Duration: 10hr 25mn
Aeroflot-Russian Airlines Aeroflot-Russian Airlines 315
Nonstop flight

Bye for now, Adam.
With hope and sincerity your Sasha.

P.S. I want to remind you if you will help me please don't forget to e-mail me your home address, your full name, confirmation number of transfer and sum of transfer. I will have to pay until 27 December. Don't forget it and remember I will reimburse you all your expenses. It will not be a problem for me when I will come to NYC.

Letter 2

Hello my dear Adam.
Here is telephone number of agency in New York so you can call them and to talk to them. I hope everything will be ok. Here is number of New York agency: 718-312-8477 I went to agency here and they gave me it. But they said me that NYC agency not work in weekends and in Christmas, so they will begin to work at Wednesday. The time you can call them is here: 11:00 a.m. - 5:00 p.m. Thank you for nice picture for me. I hope that I can meet you in person soon! I got your message today and I was so glad. As you know I am glad to receive your messages always. I hope you feel the same. How are you doing today? Hoe everything is all right. I am fine. The weather is still snowy but not so pretty snowy than yesterday. It's good. The weather forecasters said this snow will end tonight and then we will have some days without it. Today was hard day for me and I am very tired. I finished my work some time ago and now I write you letter from internet cafe as yesterday. I hope you will not be very upset if I will said I want to go home and wan to get rest! I am just absolutely empty and have no forces to write a lot. I think I will write you longer tomorrow Adam. Ok? Please don't be angry ok? Tomorrow I will send you picture. I think I will attach it. Would you like it? Before I will finish my message I want to say that I am thinking of you all the time. All my head filled by thoughts about you and about our meeting in close future. Well, I have to go. See you later Adam! I will dream about you this night and will wait next day to get new e-mails from you and to get opportunity to write you back.
With care and tenderness from Sasha.

Letter 3

Hello my dearest Adam!
My dear I want to tell you that my parrot is not speak. She is a girls and girls are not speak at all. Did you know it? I will stay my parrot here with my mom. I will not her bring to USA. The name of agency here is "Kariera&Delovoy mir" in English it sounds Career&Bussiness World. This is government organization. I don't understand why they didn't allow you to send money but please try it again. I went to western union and have consulted about it. They said that you can send me two transfers. 640$ and 650$. Just don't forget to send me confirmation numbers of transfers and full address and full name of sender. I will have to know this information. Please let me know. Or if they will not allow you send funds again you just need to send as much as they will you allow and then we will think more about this situation. I hope you will understand me and will help me soon! Today the weather is a little bit warmer here! The sun is shining and the temperature is about - 18 Celsius. What about your weather? I hope that all is well there too! I'm doing fine and everybody here is very cheerful, because of holidays that are coming soon! There are a lot of fir trees on the streets of our town! And there are many many many lights on the buildings, cars, trees! I must admit that my town became very beautiful. What about yours Adam? A lot of people are trying to buy the gifts for their relatives and friends. That's why all of our shops are full of people. It is very hard now to go to the shop and make a buy! It is a real New Year fever here! I wonder if you have the same situation there or your fever has gone. Everybody trying to make buys today because many places will be closed soon for the holidays. How many days off work will you have there? Let me know, please. I ask you it because I will not be able to write to you for some days. I do not know when an internet cafe will be open for visitors. I think I will go to the internet cafe and will figure out about their work graph and then I will let you know about it later. Adam I want to let you know that I will miss you all these days! Please do not forget about me! I'll write to you as soon as I'll have a possibility!
With great feeling towards you Adam!
Yours only Sasha.

Letter 4

Hello Adam!
How are you? I am not very good. Because today my mom and me went to hospital for physical exam and the doctor said that my mom should stay there because some analysises was not good and they will make new tests. My mom will stay in hospital until tomorrow. These news made me little sad and I am worrying for her. Tomorrow I will got to hospital to visit her and will come here back if doctor will allow me to do it. I will pray that my mom will be ok. I want to tell you that I will write you tomorrow too. I think you will be glad to get my e-mail during weekend. Do you have any plans for this weekend. I think I will spend some time with my mom and will clean my apartment. Today I met some of my friend and we talked about us Adam. My friends are glad for us and wish us to be a very good friends. Maybe more than friends. They have said you Hi Adam! They told that I am an adult girl and can arrive at a decision by myself and if I want to write you, why not if I feel I need it. I want to tell you I need it, because you draw me like a magnet. While I don't know what, but I like it and I feel better when I get your letters! As always When I get your letter I read it to the end completely without any stops and only after it I can relax a little! I have never felt any feelings like these! I think maybe this is a destiny and maybe you are my soul mate, why not? But I can't imagine another reasons of my feelings which fill out myself with every second more and more! I want to ask you do you feel the same? Did you feel something like this too? I am just curious! Adam do you feel something towards my person? I want to know your mind and your point of view to this situation. What can you tell me? Do you like to be romantic? I like to be romantic - to take a dinner with candles, to walk under the starry night sky, to sail on the boat, to walk along the night town with the lights of shop windows, to ride the horses! The kisses of two people who are in love with each other are the most romantic thing for me, I suppose! It displays the feelings and it cannot be deceitful! I think that a woman can tell much about a man just having a kiss with him! I think that the first kiss have to be a gentle and delicate! Please let me know about your thoughts about romanticism. I have to tell to you that I have unlimited amount of emotions which I had no in my heart before! My heart says to me that I have to answer by sincerity to your sincere and honest words from your letters Adam! I have to tell what I feel now because it is a part of our relations and because I can't be silent about it. I MUST share it with you Adam! I should tell that I was need for a lot of time to think about it and write about this letter because I wanted to find the right words to you to not offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me. I didn't want to make mistakes and didn't want that you would understand me incorrectly. I always tell you directly from my heart, and I do so right now too but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost if I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel the joy when I think of you Adam! My feelings fill out me completely and my day is becoming better. I am levitating to the sky because I feel so big lightness. I have never had this in my life, to begin a relationship halfway across the world and I had to learn much about you to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well! I also believe that couples should be the best friends if it is possible because trust and sharing with each other everything that they feel is the most basic thing of true relations. I think all their feelings should be mutual. I do not know if my words and thoughts make sense to you but I have tried very hard to put them in normal words that you will feel it and understand me clearly! I hope you can understand me correctly Adam! I believe in God I am orthodox christian. I think you know about it because I have mentioned about it in my previous letters. I go to church constantly. Usually I visit it about 3 times per month and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for the meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life to love him, to better appreciate him, to respect him and to cherish the love that he would give! And the only thing that he would ask me is to return the same to him. I think maybe the God have helped me to find you from billions of men in the world. Who know? Maybe this is my destiny? I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but I hope they are much more than usual words for you Adam! It is my thoughts and feelings, and I send it to you Adam! I desire you very much to find it in your heart too and to share your personal feelings with me too. I wish to know you on a more intimate level. I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings from the heart with me! I truly wish to communicate with you on a level that takes a way beyond just a friendship. I think all couples will come to this question sooner or later. Intimate and close relation between two people it's very important and necessary thing in their common life. Please do not think me foolish for a thinking these things Adam! I think it's very serious things for me and I hope for you too. I believe that we have to be honest with each other and I am trying to be honest with you. I think we need to talk about all things. Could you close your eyes for just a minute and think and dream of what a life we could share together. What it would be like, the joy of learning each other more and more. I really believe that dreams could come true for people which are dare to believe in dreams and who do everything to make these dreams by reality! May be you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was grown up, the gift of true love from a man is something like a mirage or self-deception. And It could be more real than a mutual feeling which two close people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say and I always feel that I have forgotten something important to say to you Adam! When I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I speak of the beauty that is within you, a beauty of your inner world and that is why this particular type of beauty is very special and rare in our world. A lot of people just know how to be nice and trys to look nice, because they has overseen about it somewhere but in reality they have no beautiful internal world and soul. Only empty patterns which they use always. Most men have only appearances but have not a beauty inside but this is where the true beauty is! For me it is the most important thing of your character and soul. I believe that internal beauty is more important than external. Do you agree with me Adam? I want to reduce all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now. I want to tell that I feel so as we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I want to learn you more and I hope that you suppose that our relations can develop more than it enough for a simple friendship. It is the way I feel. I believe that our meeting would help us to know each other better and more close! I hope it will happen soon and we can see each other in real life and will conversation live. I think it will be great! As always I hope that my letter finds you in a good health and mood and I hope that yours wishes will come true one day too! I will look forward to your reply as always with great impatience. I know that tomorrow I will be busy first half of the day(I will got to my mom), but I know for sure that I will try to write you Adam in the second half of the day.
I hope to find your reply soon.
Your Sasha.

P.S. Almost forgot to tell you : Ignatieva Alexandra (Sasha for short) is my full name.