Letter(s) from Alex Love to Robert (USA)

Letter 1

How'r you doing,hope you fine and in good health condition,i read thru your profile and i really loved what i read and thanks for your intrest,My name is Dorris Heavens and i hope u would read my profile and find out more about me,i asked myself some questions and give u the answear,canu also answer them and let me know what you think,i would take them one after the other:
So what do you like to do for fun? Your hobbies and interests can reveal a lot about you, and I'd like to learn more. Is there anything special that you're passionate about? I love swimming,taking walks down the park,observing nature,running and walking,i also love cooking and taking walks by the sea side,I'm passionate about a candle lit dinner with i and my partner holding hands together and sharing intimate things about each other. Are you close to your family? I was asking if you're close to your family in the emotional kind of way, but now that I think about it, do they live nearby, too? I'm not really close to my family,cos i don't have one,but each day and night i really miss them all,they don't live nearby. How would you describe your sense of humor? Some people like silly slapstick, while others go for more subtle stuff. What tickles your funny bone? My sense of humor is quite intresting,i'm shy at first but as we get closer i feel free to express my heart desires. What kind of food do you like? Do you have a favorite restaurant? Some like hot and spicy, others prefer comfort food. If you had to pick one type of food, what would you say is your favorite? I love american food and also italian food and most times,i love to cook for myself.I love Mc donalds.I love comfort food. Wow! We could be a match. Would you like to chat online? It seems like we have a lot in common. I'd love to talk to you more and see what develops. What do you think?

Letter 2

I hope that you fine and in good health,i'm really glad that we can exchange emails and i hope that soon we both can sit dow and have a cup of coffee,i would also love to chat with you,thought am new to this,i feel that i've found all what i want and desire,i did like you to know a little more about me,m life has been filled with heartbreaks and i don't want anymore hurt or pains,I want to find a man, who wants a relationship based on "Truth, Real Love(not **** love), Compassion, Friendship, Loyalty, and Honesty!!!! I also want to be able to be "Romantic" to him with Love, not her telling me things like "If you love me, you will do "this or that" for me". I want to be able to do anything to make him happy, because "I Love Him", not because he tells me to do it. Know what I mean? I want to feel EXCITED when we Kiss!! When we Hug!! When we Hold hands while we are in public or our home.
I'm a realist,i lost my folks when i was 5,i grew up with my grand parents whom i lost in the hurricane in New Orleans,i really don;t have anyone close to me in my life cept them and now presently am all alone and it's only the almighty God that's keeping me alive.
I am not "materialistic"!! I would rather have someone to respect, care for, and love from my heart & soul, then money!! Yes, money is nice, but it can't buy you real love.I just want it to be, that anything we were to "own", as "ours", not "mine" or "yours". Yes, I know that there are somethings that will be mine, and he's, but do you know what I mean? I want to be able to "spoil him" by opening a door for him, or carrying things for him, taking his shoes off when he's back from work,for no special reason, but that I care for him.
I too, have been hurt by the opposite ****, but I don't hold it against other men, because they have not hurt me yet. I hope that we can get to know each other better, and see how things might go.I can not "promise" that I might say or do something that hurts you, but I can promise that if I do, it won't be on purpose, it will be on accident. See, I don't know everything about your past yet, and I don't know what upsets you right now, but hope to know you better, so I don't say or do anything to upset you, because I hate that when I upset someone special to me.I love going out,taking walks down the park and thinking about my life,i love observing nature and cooking is also one of my hobbies.I'm a really sensitive and attentive girl. I'm an observer of people (not a voyeur!). I like to figure people out. I like to notice the small detail about people. I like to know what makes them tick and what excites them. I like to know how to make them happy, how to make them feel special. I can be really romantic. With my man i like to surprise him by doing special things. Like leave a flower on their car windscreen. Leave a card for them at their favourite shop for the shop worker to give to them. I like to send flowers when he's feeling down.
I prefer private dates, with my man and myself alone. I guess i like the private moments when we can share intimate things. Talk about plans, desires, feelings. As I said before, i'm quite physical. I love to hug and touch and be touched. I love to show affection to my man and i love it when he's very affectionate with me. I love men and i always desire to respect them. When i have been with a man, i have never taken advantage of them unless they have wanted me to. Even when they want me to be physical with them, I always want only to honour and respect them. I am still a virgin and i intend to keep it that way until i find my Husband. When that time comes, i will give him the gift of my virginity. Thats not to say that i haven't been with a man. As i said earlier, i have been physical with previous men only to the extent of foreplay. And while it was fun and pleasurable, i long to be intimate only with my future husband so that we could be able to give unbridled passion. When i find the man who i feel is my soul mate, i look forward to when we can spend time alone, cuddling on the sofa, watching tv/films. Making out, caressing and kissing. I can't wait to have sex with my future husband. I am a sexual person and i love the thought of being intimate with him in every way. I want a husband who feels the same way. Who has the same sexual appetite as i do and desires to be as intimate as i do. But all of this must be within the context of an exclusive relationship. So i will protect the sanctity of my future marriage. It doesn't matter to me if my future husband has a sexual history. As far as I'm concerned, when we marry we start from fresh. His past is not of importance to me.
Can you tell me more about yourself?So where did you grow up?I grew up in New Orleans and moved after the hurricane katrina.
Do you want to have children, or would you be happy with the children someone else already has?I would love to have children but in anyway i would be happy with the children my partner has,children are precious gifts from the almighty God and we should take good care of them both physically and spiritually in the lords direction so they would not go astray and i can be that loving mother you seek and desire.Yes i want kids so much. I love kids and i so much want to have 2-4. And teach them the love of God. But i dont want to be strict with them. I want to shower them with love, devotion but with discipline. Not harsh but enough to make them able to make their own decisions. To teach them to be tolerant of others and loving to their own. To do great things but not necessarily to be seen by others. I want my kids to grow up loving their parents and grandparents. But to find their own destiniy and what God has in store for them. I dont want to dictate their lives but i do want to mould them and direct them in the ways of the Lord. To love God but not to become narrow minded sheep that church smetimes makes us into. I want them to love God and have joy in what Jesus achieved for them on the cross. But i also want them to fully appreciate the grace that God has given them and live their lives free.
Where have you been? Do you like to travel?I've not really been anywhere but i did like to travel.
Are you serious about meeting someone?I'm serious and ready.I have been hurt by men all to often. And yet i have soo much passsion and love that i want to pour out on one special man. I want to make him feel like there is no better man on the face of the earth. I dont want to put him on a pedestall because that would not be fair on him. But i want him to know that he has one woman who thinks that he's is soo important, so needed and wanted. I want him to feel that he has someone who is loyal to the utmost, faithful and dedicated to his needs. I want to be able to satisfy all his needs. Emotional, intellectual, physical, spiritual and most importantly sexual. My greatest pleasure is knowing that i can provide all these things with Gods help.
Are you willing to move for the right relationship?I would,cos i've done it before and i would not mind doing it again. What do you really enjoy doing? What you do to have fun?
What kinds of music and movies do you like?I love watching comedies and romance. I also love dramas and thrillers. Loved the Bourne Identity. I love fantasy films. Lord of the Rings is my favourite.
What makes you laugh, smile, and cry? Crazy funny people. Sarcastic people like Dr Cox on Scrubs. I love his character. I love intelligent commedy like political satire. I love Robin Williams, Jim Carey and Mike Myers. They crack me up so much. I love watching those home video clips of kids doing hilarious funny things. Kids make me laugh. The things they say. You never expect it.
What makes me cry, i'm always moved when i see scenes on tv between parent and child when they are struggling or dealing with the relationship. Reminds me of my mom. And also cos i miss my mom.
I hope that this would be an end to my search for a true partner.

Letter 3

I hope that you fine and in good health,i really thank you for the love and affection you've shown me so far,i need you to know something about me now,so you would know if you still want to stay with me or you would rather prefer to leave me alone in my tears and pains,It's quite a sad story and sometimes,i really don't have anyone to open up to,you'r the first person am telling about me and maybe it's just becuase you'r soft spoken and all,but i did like to tell you what happened and where i'm here.I am in a country they call nigeria in africa due to something tragic incident that happened to me there's this guy i used to go out with and i met him over the internet,We got really close and he asked me to come over here for a visit so i could meet him personally and we could get to know ourselves much more,I promised him that i would,which i eventually did some weeks ago{7wks to be precise},the day that I arrived,we went to his house and i was there till noon after which i went over to lodge in an hotel rather than stay in his house,i was in my hotel room till the end of the day after which he arrived and informed me that he was going to get dinner and i told him i was tired after a long trip and said i preffered to stay at the hotel room,a few hrs later i got a call from the hotel customer sevice that he had been involved in a terrible car accidentand he was in coma in the hospital,so i went there to meet him and all i knew after then was that i spent all the funds i had on me to save his life,but there was nothing i could do,he died the next day and i just broke down and cried,I cried back the hotel and stayed there,i was mourning and there was no one to console me or do anything about me,i was all alone and lonely,there was no one it could reach out to talk to and no one to help me out,I just kept asking God why,i've been in the hotel ever since and i can't seem to find a way to leave here,bout some weeks after the incident the hotel management asked me to pay my bills which i was owing for staying there and i could not afford the bills,{there's no one i can contact at home,cos there's no one for me,mom and dad died when i was still 5 and i grew up with mygrand parents whom i lost in the hurricane katrina,i never got to know my family members,now am all alone and i need help,where would i get it from ?Would u be able to heal he wound on my heart,and save me from this predicament}.My ticket has been seized by the hotel manager and if i don't pay my bills there's no way i can leave here or yet meet you to fulfill a long time dream of meeting someone who would put away all this pains and agony that i'm going through and mend my broken heart,there's no shoulder that i can lean,no one to cuddle me and make me happy. I did like you to know that i'm not putting a burden on you but i know that you have a heart that's caring and loving and really want us to be together,i pray that u would not hesitate in getting me away from this place.I would like to be with you,i'm humble,meek and kind and i'm a down earth person,i'm willing to humble myself before you,I hope that with all you know now,you would decide on either leaving me in my pains or taking me away from this place to you.
I am waiting for you. I have been here waiting to hear the sound of your voice, the touch of your hand, your laughter ever since I first dreamed of you. I have never seen you, but I dont need to. I know that you are perfect for me. We are perfect for each other, in every way. I am torn by the fact that I do not know if I have ever seen you before, or if you are someone I will find later on in my life. I know I will find you, but I find it hard to wait. Every night I dream about you, and every morning you seem to dissolve before my eyes when I first open them. I want you to be the one I wake up in the morning and see next to me, someone who I can take care of. I will always be here waiting, no matter how long it takes to find you. Love has no limit, no set time...it comes when you decide to let it.
Here are a few things I wish to do with you at some point in this lifetime:
Be your best friend.
Get caught with you in the rain.
Dance with you in the rain.
Stargaze on a clear night.
Watch the sunset together.
Spend all day with you doing nothing.
Moonlit walks on the beach.
Be more proud of you than I already am at this very moment.
Go on a carriage ride through the park.
Do a crossword together.
Go to brunch.
Have a disagreement (it could/will only make us stronger).
Go for a twilight horseback ride.
Watch a bad movie together.
Spend the rest of my life with you.
Have our picture taken together.
Eat ice cream with you.
Make love to you passionately.
Go to a museum together.
Talk to each other using only body language.
Give you space when you need it.
Accept you totally and completely - flaws and all (I already do).
Discuss current events in a heated debate.
Have you see the error of your ways from aforementioned heated debate and make mad, torrid love to you, in the midst of all that passion.
Carve our names into a tree/table.
Go for a walk at dusk together.
Be one with you.
Send you a singing telegram.
Spend all night thinking of 101 sweet things to do for you.
Hold you and gaze into your eyes and realize how much I love you...and tell you.
Gently run my hand across your cheek and look into your eyes.
Blindfold you and take you somewhere romantic.
Spend my life making you happy.
Spend my life making our family happy.
Feel your heartbeat.
See our unborn child/children in your eyes.
Go roller/ice skating together.
Give you a backrub just because.
ALWAYS being honest with each other.
Go hiking/camping together.
Have our first fight, make up and feel a stronger bond because we very successfully weathered the storm - together.
Marry you.
Laugh at someone together.
Share a plate of spaghetti.
Give you a stuffed animal just because.
Go on a fun family vacation and bring back the kind of memories movies are made of.
Treat you like my Lancelot.
Go on a road trip across America.
Count thunder together during a thunderstorm.
Envelop you in my soul.
Cook your favorite meal/meals.
Know you better than you know yourself.
Go to a Renaissance Fair.
Plant a tree in our yard together.
Look over at you during an office/military/family party and have you know without me saying a word - that I love you.
Be able to say "I love you" in 89 different ways - in 89 different countries.
Hold you when you're at your saddest and comfort you when you need it the most.
Be the one you come to for that comfort and holding.
Wipe away the days' stresses and issues, with just one hug/kiss.
Grow old with you.
From time to time you ask me why I chose you ... what is so special about you? Well, the reason is simple; I chose you because you are YOU!!! I have never had anyone treat me the way you do. I have never had anyone just look at me and make me feel beautiful. You do that to me! You make me feel special and wanted. As liberal as I can be, I would never do anything to hurt you. You mean more to me than you realize. I am hoping that one day I can prove all of this to you! I want you for you!
In Thoughts,

Letter 4

Thank you for the email you sent,i really appreciate it and i want you to know that it touched my heart so much,i wish only i could just dry my tears and look forward to the moment we did meet,but how would that happen when all my life has been filled with heartbreaks and failure,left to me now without a man in my life,i feel i should commit sucide.I'm just been mistreated where i'm now and i can't decide in my mind what to do next,i've made some mistakes in my life and there's no way i think i can correct it,it seems that all men are just the same,they break your heart and leave you with pains,a man has broken my heart and left me stranded and i don't think another man would make me happy but rather he would make matters worse,how am i sure you would not be like my last date,i am a very down to earth person but i just don't know how my heart should be broken,my last date brought me into so much trouble now that i can't figure if i would get out of it,can you show me that you truly love and care for me?Can you take all this pains away and make me happy?Can I count and trust you with my life?.I must know this cos with the way life is going,i think i'm lockedup and can't seem to find a way to get out.I need a true relationship based on trust and affection.
Love is a delicate subject but the basis of a long lasting relationship is trust and without it we r nothing,but can u imagine in a far away country that i know little or nothing about lost and can't seem to find a way out,how can that be.I'm so lonely and i've nobody to hold on to and there's no one to pull me up.Maybe if u truly in search of a lady that would be truthful,respectful and loving you just met me,but fate only brought about us meeting here.
I need a man that would be ready to make me happy,a man that would heal the wound of my broken heart,a man that would see the better side of me,a man that would not be aggressive and who would not want to hurt my feelins,i need real love and truth including honesty from my man,trust is the basic foundation of a lasting relationship and i desire that we uphold our integrity towards each other.
Can you be that man i seek and desire?I know that you are now receiving 100?s of E-mails and you will continue to receive 100?s more from insincere game players, jokers and dreamers they will tell you what they think you want to hear in order to gain your admiration and trust but only a very few will be totally honest and open their hearts for you. I am not one of those great pretenders.
Therefore I will not waste neither one of our valuable time by repeating the scores of messages that you have already received of how beautiful you are and how life can not be lived without you.Being realistic,nothing for real is going to happen or can happen until an actual physical meeting takes place. Until then everything is speculative unless something magical happens. Although there is a lot of truth in that the more we can learn about one another and the more we have in common the better the odds of a meeting becoming the beginning of that magical journey that we have both been dreaming of. I will not let Geographic boundaries obstruct my dreams from becoming reality; for the right man I will relocate.
We already have one of the most important elements in common that would lead to a successful meeting. We are both sincere and have admirable qualities. Perhaps In the past we have experienced similar disappointments always given and contributing more to our relationship then our significant others. We have gone far above and beyond to make our relationship work without reciprocation or appreciation from our partners.
Although we have given and done our best we can't seem to find that SPECIAL SOMEONE we would consider as a lifelong partner, best friend,sole-mate, confidant, teacher, and passionate lover. We deserve the best because we are the best and we will not settle for anything less.So how is it that we both could be so perfect, beautiful and deserving and be with out our true soul-mate? Perhaps the reason is that all our past relationships have been nothing more then a trial or just a prerequisite so we would know for certain when we found the right person; then and only then would we be able to receive in return as much as we put into the relationship and appreciate and treasure what we have finally found. For these reasons I ask you to take a hard look at my profile; perhaps it will end your days of chasing rainbows and kissing frogs.Here and now is perhaps where you can start building a life instead of trying to find one. If you really want what you say you want, you need not search any longer. I have looked at 1000?s and yes I mean thousands of profiles and yours was the only one that mesmerized, fascinated and captivated all my attention. If you?re the one you will know the right thing to do; if your not, you will just walk on by not knowing that you have missed the chance of a lifetime.