Letter(s) from Oksana Syhina to Rich (USA)

Letter 1

Honey, I'm so sorry to hear about your hand:(
My darling Rich, you break my heart when I read about your suffers, please take care!!!!

hello my
dear! I was so concerned about your state that I forget to tell you my best & warm hello!
Rich, thank you so much for the letter, for the rose it's just wonderful.....
And to tell you the truth I was so surprised (pleasantly) when I read till the end your letter, my dear, you see it flatters me that you are proposing to me, I knew that you are feeling this to me, But now it's difficult for me to tell you something. Try to understand me Rich, what I know exactly is that I don't want to loose you & can't tell you NO, but as for YES, it's difficult for me, as my heart is telling me: tell his yes!:) But my mind tells me: don't be too quick. You are right about paper work, but I think that if we decide to get married first I need to see your country, the place where you live, & where I'll be probably living soon:) I'm blushing when I tell you that:) I'm sorry.
Rich, you see what I want to tell you is that I need more assurance in you & me, in our relationship. You know that I suffered a lot, & I don't want to do that again only because I wasn't too clever to get to know my man more....
The idea of us meeting in another country once again, was great. Then we could start arranging the documents to travel to the USA,...what do you think?????

Rich, I also thank you for your wish to help me, you are the man that I dreamt all my life, you care for his woman, don't leave her alone in problems,,,,that's wonderful feature!
My dear the, that I need (a small one) costs $500. You see, I don't need a big one, just for 3.5kg. That'll be enough for me. As for the problem with the transaction of the money, you mean that if you do in through the Western Union, it'll be expensive for you? Please tell me what do you think? My dear Rich, please tell me everything what you think & need to share with me, OK?
Do you know what it is like to look up into the velvet night sky, and yet not see the stars? The moon may be bright but the light may not show you the way. Do you know what it is like to see the song birds sing their sweet music, and yet not hear their sound? Do you know what it is like to feel your heart inside you, and yet not feel it beat? Do you know what it is like to be in a crowd of people smiling, laughing, sharing their love together, and yet be all alone with no one around?
Do you know what it is like when the light of your life has been extinguished, and you are left in absolute and complete darkness, frightened and alone? Do you know what it is like when the one you love so deeply and dearly is so far away? Your heart cries out their name waiting for their reply. Your reply! A reply I have heard only after waiting a lifetime to hear!

All I want to do is hold you in my arms, and I cannot. All I desire to do is to kiss your sweet lips, and I cannot. I long to hear your soft sweet voice I whisper words of love to you, and I wait for that next moment we can talk. I just want you near, always and forever, forever!

The mind is a whirlwind as your thoughts are tossed around like match-sticks in the wind. But the one thought that is all constant and eats away at the core of my soul is a simple one: "When will I hear your precious sweet voice again? Such silly thoughts perhaps are these. But time can cause such thoughts to occur. It is only human. We are only human.

With many kisses and warm embraces ...
I am yours; Yours forever, Sana

PS. My dear I've made these photos for you,,,waiting for you!