Letter(s) from Tatyana Scheglova to Holger (Germany)

Letter 1

Hi, Holger. I am very glad to see your letter. It is pleasant for me to know, that you have decided to continue ours with you dialogue. I am glad to read everything, that you have written to me. It is pleasant for me, that you have not disregarded my questions. It is interesting to me to read each word written by you. It is very curious to me to learn about your life, that you like, than you are engaged. I was really glad to see your letter. I would like to know as your affairs? How your mood? Tell to me about weather, at us now very much variable weather. There can be a rain in the morning, and to look out the sun in the evening. I hope, that at you all is good. I would like to tell to you, that not always I can understand that you write. There are some phrases, which sense to me be not clear. And I wanted to tell, that I write to you. I studied the English language at school within nine years. The ambassador my knowledge have gone deep at university where I have passed a rate of business English. Now I even like to write and read your letters. Thus, I raise the knowledge. And consequently I would like to ask you, whether well you understand me? Simply Russian very complex. And sometimes to transfer the offer from Russian to the English language it happens difficultly as it is possible to not transfer all sense concealed by Russian. I hope, my English language not so bad, and you understand everything, what I write? I think, that I well know language, as in oral, and the written form. I at once would like to warn you, that I cannot write to you every day, or answer at once your letter. All the matter is that I have no own computer, and I should use the Internet of cafe.
Certainly, it is not so convenient for me, but other output at me is not present. Though one plus is - it is near to an apartment where I live. But I shall be very glad, to see your letters every day. It is very interesting to me to read everything, that you write to me. Tell to me, that you like, that you prefer in cinema, theatre or books. To that you most of all give preference? I very much like to read, but I not always have on it time. I give preference to science fiction, everything, as to it, cannot simply pass by me. It so carries away me, that I can be without a break night in the other world, behind reading of the next book. At cinema I prefer thrillers, or psychological dramas. I love those films which leave for spectators an opportunity to finish thinking after viewing. That is in own way to write the end of this or that film. Certainly, I like to look a cheerful comedy from which it is possible to relax simply and with all the heart to laugh.
From comedies I certainly most of all prefer our Russian films. Though for viewing films at me too almost does not remain to time. In my city there are some theatres. One of which, I try to visit even once a month. It is theatre of Russian drama. I very much like performances that pass in it. Last performance which to me managed to be seen, has made on me huge impression. Performance under the name "Players", it is difficult for me to transfer now all his essence, but performance was really worth for viewing. How frequently you are at a cinema or theatre? You prefer what films? Whether you love theatre? Tell, what you managed to see last time? Also it is very interesting to me to know about your culinary preferences. I simply adore to prepare, let at me not always suffices for this time, but I am always glad to prepare for something new and very tasty. My culinary abilities have got to me from the grandmother. Mum, certainly, is able to prepare, but very much does not like to stand at a plate. And as I carried out greater time at the grandmother, she and has learned me to these culinary miracles. Certainly, I tried dishes of various kitchen, but most of all I like Russian kitchen. Also I like to prepare for dishes of the European kitchen because she has much in common with Russian. Sometimes I with girlfriends go to the Chinese small restaurant, but only because girlfriends from him without mind. I concern to this kitchen negatively. What you it think of all? You prefer what kitchen most of all? Whether there is at you a favourite dish? If yes, tell to me about it, it will be interesting to me to know it. I do not have so-called favourite dish, but most of all I like to prepare for sweets both various cakes and pies. If my day off begins with good mood, I shall necessarily prepare for something tasty to indulge myself.
Whether you are able to prepare? What you most of all practised? It is still very interesting to me to know when your birthday? Whether you celebrate this day and whether this holiday in general is pleasant to you? Tell about holidays which most of all it is pleasant to you and as you like them to carry out. My birthday on January, 10. I do not love this day. As well as a holiday. For me this day always very sadly passes. For some reason this day at me always the bad mood and always would be desirable to cry. I do not like to call visitors and in general as - or to mark this day. I try to lead it as usual day in my life. Whether as it is interesting to me to know there are at you any favourite things or colors? I cannot precisely name the favourite color, but I can precisely tell, that I prefer all light tone. Though more often I color does not play so important role, for example at a choice of clothes. The most important that I liked this or that thing. Forgive, but it is time to me to run home, already too late, and tomorrow it is necessary to rise early as parents want to visit me and I still need to prepare for something for tomorrow. I with huge impatience shall wait for your letter, with the best regards your girlfriend Elena

Letter 2

Hello my dear Holger!!!
Thanks for your good letter, was very pleasant to receive from you one more letter. I with the great pleasure read it. In it there were such things which to me were very interesting for learning. And in general I always with the big interest read everything, that you write to me.
Today in the street it is very cloudy, that would not be desirable to leave a house at all. Such gloomy weather always causes in me inflow long also melancholy. I like to wake up of beams of the sun more.
Tell to me how has passed your day, what new has taken place in your life? I'm fine, yesterday all the day long has devoted to the house. First it has decided to be cleaned, and stayed time has spent for viewing of old photos. I very much like to look photos of the childhood though them it was kept very little. I have three huge albums where all of them and were placed. Whether your children's photos were kept? If yes, it would be very interesting to me to look at it. Before dream I have decided to arrange to myself small evening walk. Near to a house there is a small park, and very brisk, there children, but more often the in love pairs always walk. I like to walk before dream, the drink of fresh air never will prevent. And dream after walk becomes more pleasant and more strong. And what you like to do before dream?
I wanted to tell, that is very glad to development of our attitudes. I like to tell to you about the life.
During our dialogue I have understood, that you very interesting person and your life are filled with energy. It would be very interesting to me to know your opinion on me. Certainly, I understand, that it is very difficult to understand the person through letters. And how difficultly to transfer all feelings and emotions through simple letters. But I want to tell, that I always write to you in all sincerity, nothing hiding. From you I wait for the same. In fact our attitudes only begin, and I would not like, that in them the lie or misunderstanding has appeared. I idle time, and the trustful person and was very easy to offend me. But I think, you not that person who can cause me a pain.
It is interesting to me to know, how you concern to women, what you wait from attitudes or what you search in them? Whether there is at you any ideal of the woman?
Whether you believe in love, in its existence and in its magic force. I think, that it is the biggest gift, which God has presented people. Happiness to live a life, full feelings and emotions, instead of to burn its precious time. I want to create strong family, I want to meet the person who will understand and support me in all. It would be interesting to me to know how you understand a word love and what sense you invest in him?
To love people is the biggest happiness that is given to mankind.
And if this love will be mutual is even greater happiness.
Love as if a sweet fruit, which taste of pleasure it is infinite. The love is necessary for all and always.
Than for you the pledge of long and successful attitudes is?
I cannot unequivocally answer this question, but one I can tell precisely. I invest the big sense in trust. For me it means much. I do not bear lie, and always I speak only the truth. I do not want, that at our attitudes ever there was a deceit.
I want to tell to you also about the interests and hobbies. As I wrote to you earlier, I seriously am fond of east dances. Since the childhood I went to school of arts where studied to dance. With in the meantime at me good and kind associations are connected many. There I for the first time have learned to dance and have left on the big professional stage, there there were my first teachers, the first suits whom I sewed the hands and the first love. But then when I have acted in university, I had to search for work. And by then our dancing collective has broken up, because the teacher of us has left. And since I had to leave professional works. Now I pay attention to dances as soon as at me free minute will appear. Dances in my life replace to me almost everything, it both sports, and favourite business.
Also I very much am fond of reading, very much I love books about science fiction. Having read some from them, my outlook on life in many respects has exchanged. The last couple of years Kundera, Pavic, Peres - ?aaa?oa my favourite books. And as a cycle of novels about Barrayar Loys Budgold. In due time (by a youth) I have become engrossed in reading Pikul, Konetsky, Sanin. Never was fond of female novels. And to detectives, I concern rather easy.
As my interest is involved with some glossy magazines. Such as « the Caravan of histories », "Glamour". In them always print fascinating and vital histories of known people, and as various historic facts, news of culture, business and a fashion.
And I seriously am fond of a fashion, I buy and I read such magazines as Cosmopolitan, Elle, Vogue. In them I like to find unusual and very beautiful sketches of clothes, and then on them I sew clothes. To buy is very dearly, and I always like to look beautifully and fashionably dressed. How you concern to a fashion? To fashionable clothes? What role is played with a fashion in your life? I can tell, that my clothes are more likely conservative and close to classics.
I love the sea, the nature and travel. Very much to like me the French cinema. And also the films which have been removed in Hollywood. My the most favourite are «
You like to listen to what music, if like to listen in general?
I about myself can tell, that without music I cannot present the life at all. It is possible to tell I go on a life with music. I can not present as it is possible to live and to not love music. I think she takes a significant place in a life of any person. I like to wake up under cheerful and invigorating music, and to fall asleep under slow and weakening compositions. I cannot name the certain style or a direction in music to which would prefer. I love music of all styles and directions. All depends on mood and from conditions. To last time I listen (Pink Floid, Doorz, Queen, DDT, the Aquarium).
To religion I concern very validly. I and my family, orthodox Christians. I respect truly religious people, irrespective of creed, but I do not love fanatics and those who tries to impose the religious sights.
I love black coffee without sugar, cakes, cakes... In any quantity and ice-cream in a plenty.
Tell to me about the preferences in meal. What do you like? You prefer what kitchen? You are able and whether you like to prepare? I simply adore to prepare, but only when it brings to me pleasure. On kitchen I simply adore to experiment. To prepare for something brand new and very tasty. Especially at me various sweets turn out. Perhaps, sometime you will manage to try it. Certainly, sometimes I like to visit restaurants when it would be desirable to relax, have a meal tasty meal and to listen to good music. To tell the truth, now I shall not recollect, when last time I managed to drop in there. Sometimes I like to sit with girlfriends in any lovely cafe behind a cup fresh the welded coffee and nothing forcing conversation.
Tell to me more about in what you like to be engaged during free time from work. It will be very interesting to me to learn about it. And now I would like to say goodbye, as already very much late and me it is necessary to come back home.
With impatience I shall wait for your letter.
Yours Elena.

Letter 3

Hi the my dear friend Holger.
It is madly happy, that again I see your letter. It is pleasant, that you do not pay no attention to questions which so interest me in your life. Really it is very interesting to me to know all about your life. I like how you write to me. It is interesting to me to read each word. I am glad, that at you all is good. In my life too all takes its normal course. At least, there is nothing to complain. On work too all is rather quite good. To tell the truth, very long day which has tired me today was. But with it there's nothing to be done, in fact there is a work and the responsibility. I can tell about myself, that I very responsible person. How there passes your work? Tell to me more about it, whether in what she consists, pleasant to you in what you are engaged?
Today I have woken up it is possible to tell in wonderful mood in which I am both now. And whenever possible I try to infect with him of other people. In fact someone should bring pleasure in this world.
All the day long reflected on, whether I can see today your letter. And after work at once it was directed and to the Internet of cafe and was rather glad to see, that you do not pay no attention to me. All the day long thought that to you new to tell from the life, but now ideas are confused, and it would be desirable you to tell so much. I want to ask at once you that you, not hesitating, asked everything, that you interests. I with pleasure always answer your questions. Even it is very pleasant for me to realize, that you are interested in me. There can be I look slightly naive, but such what is and I can not present, that can force to change me. I want, that you perceived me such, what I actually, present. I always speak you only the truth as I want that our attitudes were under construction on trust and the same I wait from you. I think, that in the woman there should be a particle of naivety, in fact from it tenderness is born. In general the union of the man and the woman is born from the union of force and mind, kindness, care and tenderness. I like how we are similar and are not similar against each other because I think, that the fortress and durability of attitudes consists in it and. People should supplement each other. That is in you and that so does not suffice me, you give me, and I do the same in turn.
I think, that if people are similar, through any time him it becomes boring. In fact it is not interesting to live with the person similar to you in all.
I like how we learn each other. We gradually learn each other, we open secrets, we share secret and we become gradually more close to each other. Gradually attitudes grow, and can be, sometime they will develop in something the greater, than simply friendship …
As I trust you, I am ready to tell to you all secrets, that at is at me on heart. I hope, that you also with me will be frank.
I want to speak with you about all. For example, about sexual attitudes. I think, that it is important in attitudes between the man and the woman.
I think, we adult people, and I think, that it is necessary for us to know about each other all. How you concern to sex? It plays what role of your life. I think, that in attitudes there should be a harmony, and it means, that there should be all. What for you is more important? I think, that it is very important. It is especially important to consider needs of both parties. I am right? I think, that you interested with my last novels. I can tell, that them was a little, but each of them has brought during my life, both a particle of pleasure, and a pain. I had some novels, but all of them have not crowned success. For itself also has decided, that else simply has not met that person who really can love and appreciate me.
Tell to me, whether you are engaged in sports, fitness? I yes! A free minute I try to run in a training hall or on aerobics, well and besides I have my favourite dances. I shall not tell, that I seriously am fond of sports. No, on the contrary, I do all in a measure and whenever possible. That it is always good to look, feel and be in a tone.
And what role in your life is played with sports?
As you, probably, heard at us in Russia very beautiful nature. There are also huge areas of woods and fields where we quite often leave together with my friends, to lead the days off or holiday. There, on the nature it is possible to combine pleasant with useful. To have a rest and during too time to go in for sports. That, as a matter of fact, I also do. We always usually leave city for some days and we come off on full. My favourite season is a summer, and my favourite color, greenish-yellow, color of plants. Summer - a wonderful season which to not be compared to anything the rest. When it is possible to bathe and sunbathe, float by boats and to fish. When around flowers, berries, mushrooms and the everything else grow.
And I, certainly, understand, that in all there are minuses and pluss, and each season there are features, but it is pleasant to me - SUMMER more!
And what favourite season at you? And how you have a rest with friends?
It will be very interesting to me to learn about you and about your friends and as you spend time!
I never would think, that in the Internet it is possible to meet such remarkable person as you. Also that to me will be so interestingly, and that I shall be so is keen on you. I feel, that you too are keen and that to you it as it is interesting, as well as to me and that I do not leave your ideas. I like to think of you. I like that peak of our attitudes that forces to experience them all body and reason. Sometimes I even feel the child because such minutes it would not be desirable to think of anything and anything to do, and simply to be given to the dreams. Somebody would tell to me, even couple of months back, that I shall get acquainted with such remarkable the man, as you, moreover by means of the Internet. That I for anything in it have not believed and would tell, that it simply is not possible also all this not about me. But you see, how the destiny itself has disposed and has placed the points. I have got acquainted with you to that it is very glad, I hope, what you too are glad?!
I am sure, that never could betray the person or make something in this sort. But very much I am afraid, that will sometime betray me. I frequently above it thought and have come to that never could forgive treachery. I, certainly, see a difference between physiology and feelings, but I adhere to that opinion, that if the person even in ideas supposes it to make it in a life it is possible. While in my life there was no that men with whom I could connect the life. For this reason I have decided to find love by means of the Internet because under letters, probably, to study soul of the person, and to understand all his essence. I have managed to understand, to what the person aspires in this life and that wants.
Forgive, but it is time to me to go. It was pleasant for me to read your letter, I hope, you will not force me to wait for a long time for the following opportunity to learn you. As it will be very interesting to me to know your ideas concerning my letter.
With the best regards. Elena

Letter 4

Good afternoon Holger I am very glad to receive your letter and at once I write to you the answer. I very much miss and I want to forget about work and all affairs and to think only of you. How at you an affair? Whether you miss about me? On work I not the, distract and I dream. I want to ask you your address and phone, very much I want to hear you, your voice. I heard, that is possible to call from the main telegraph in our city, in any country. Probably, it rather dearly costs, but I shall try to descend and learn there tomorrow full details and then all I shall write to you, my dear. As I want to ask to write to me your address. I want to send you something from Russia, any small souvenir. It will be pleasant for me, if you will have any thing in which there will be my particle. And we though on hardly hardly become more close to each other. It is very a pity to me, that I do not have home telephone number and even cellular, and I cannot talk to you directly from a house. And my parents too do not have phone. As I already wrote to you, they live in a private sector, in the house and there a telephone line never was and hardly once she there will be. I understand, that we live in very poor country and becomes very sad because, that we are deprived even the most primitive means of dialogue, things, in my opinion, the first necessity. It would be wonderful, if at me phone was, we could communicate though every day. To hear each other and to tell all news. But it is necessary to dream of it only. But I do not get tired to hope, that we, not looking on anything, we can talk in the near future with each other and hear our voices. You want it? I as want to write to you the address. It so, just in case, suddenly once it to be necessary for you. And as against myself, I want to ask you that you sent nothing to me to Russia. At us frequently it happens, that letters, and parcels from abroad are checked and opened. Though and in our law it is precisely registered, that each person has the right to personal telephone conversations and correspondence. However all is listened, read and carefully checked. Including letters. Nobody observes this law that is very insulting! I shall not be surprised at all, that, and our letters too are checked. Therefore send nothing to me, all can be gone simply or at the best the letter or a parcel will come opened. It happens at us pretty often even if you send letters simply across Russia. I correspond with one classmate who has married and now lives in Great Novgorod. And frequently there are cases, that letters do not reach. Was even such, that from envelopes beautiful congratulatory cards vanished even! What at us wild people in Russia!!! And that already and to speak about letters and parcels from abroad. Probably, you too have such cases of losses, but in such quantity as at us. I even, in my opinion, heard about any scandalous post firm where many valuable parcels, letters and documents too vanished, but I do not remember its name. My address where I live:
Index 424000
City Zelenyi Dol
Street Lenin
The house 6
Apartment 31
Do not overlook to write too to me the coordinates in the following letter. Dear, you to somebody from familiar told about ours with you acquaintance? I have shared the impressions and happiness with the close girlfriend and parents. My girlfriend, her name is Amur, transfers you greetings from Russia and is very glad to ours with you to close and good acquaintance. She is very happy, that I have changed the outlooks on life and have found to myself simply remarkable the man. And that I have really changed outlooks on life it really the truth and she meant that I never understood how people can get acquainted and communicate on the Internet. I always thought, that only abnormal people which cannot get acquainted with real people in shop, on a party, in the street there get acquainted. Well, in a word, in a usual, real life. And now I realize, that it so is wonderful, that such chance to meet you was presented me and that you have written to me and now we together. You my gift of destiny. I have told to parents about our acquaintance, and they even were surprised a little, that I communicate with the person from other country and completely not close. Him was so interestingly, they so for a long time asked me on you, and about us with you. That I have not much become puzzled at all and some questions was not ready to answer at all. They have asked me, whether serious at us with you of the attitude? If to speak fairly I have answered, that and even very serious. I at all do not know, can, early I draw any conclusions and acts, but I want to set to you one and very important question. Whether serious at us with you of the attitude????? I very much wait for your answer! I the adult person and I see and I feel you. At me even to you such deep related feeling as though I am familiar with you one thousand years. I see, that between us something the greater, than simply friendship and dialogue. I do not want to be afraid and hesitate of that I feel and I speak you always only the truth about myself. I want to see the same from you my dear!
.............................. On these dots I want to finish the today's letter. I very much wait your answer and I want to learn somewhat quicker everything, that you will write to me. Good-bye, my dear. I embrace and wait. Yours Elena.

Letter 5

Greetings my loved Holger Whether I do not know has the right I you so to name, but I so would like it. I am very glad, that me understand also your letter, for me, as a drink of fresh air, as new big page in my life. You have changed me and all my life. I do not know, that to me now to do, but I at all do not present the life now without you. I know for sure, that you my future and my unique the man to which I trust the destiny, the heart and soul. But I very much ask you to write to me if you in something doubt or is not confident. I do not want to deceive neither you, nor. I need to know precisely, that ours with you of the attitude, it is very serious also our feelings are mutual. I am afraid while, to say any big words, to name everything, that between us occurs love or something another. But I am sure in one precisely, that all this not simply sympathy or friendship, it something much greater both deep and gentle! I do not know, how you, but I am simply happy and I live the happiness. I understand, that for all this word in which all some letters, mean differently. For someone it is good work, for someone children, for someone it to be rich, for someone another to lay at night under stars and to dream. It is not possible to unit and tell all this, that all this - happiness. For each person it very individually, and everyone solves it for itself(himself), that actually for him and there is a happiness. I cannot speak about others, but about myself I can precisely tell, that I shall go from mind with the happiness. I can not is, neither drink, nor work. I fly on clouds of the happiness. Every night I fall asleep with the happiness. And each new day is included into the even greater happiness! And my happiness is you! Yes, I realize, that constantly I leave in dreamland and I get out therefrom for work, for dialogue with friends and on shopping, but you everywhere with me, in my ideas. I also realize, that we live on the different ends of our planet, that me at all does not frighten, in spite of the fact that I never went in other countries. Also that at me many the minuses and lacks, that many material problems (the account in the Swiss bank with my first million euro for the present is not open). But I romantic and during too time I really look at things, and I precisely know, as far as you are important for me in my life and consequently all these problems leave far far on the second plan. When to me it is sad also me can offend men, I always speak the favourite joke: my ideal of the man - Mailz Forcosigan from a cycle of novels about Barrayare Loys Budgold. Because it incredibly clever, kind, courageous, witty, cheerful, optimistical, ingenious, charming, fair, generous, romantic, gallant and paranoid in good sense. And the most important because it never will deceive trust and will not betray. And on that it the humpbacked dwarf with the curved body and growth meter forty, me to spit. For me it is necessary in this life serious present the man, as you. Though I also understand, that in our modern world already many women manage and men. But about myself I want to tell, that the weak woman who requires your support, in your strong and firm hand. I very much want, that we always were together, were together and have created the present harmony in world around. Also have simply made each other happy. Why that now I have recollected these lines which I very much want that you have seen also all have understood. To tell the truth, I do not know, how all this will look in translation into your language, but I very much want, that you have understood all, that I wanted you to tell!!!

I thought, that the main thing
In a pursuit of destiny-
Work above itself:

Above all lacks,
Which are visible,
Above nasty inclinations,
Which are given,

Magic patches,
Iron wall
There should be advantages,
Brought up by me.

Once I so thought by a youth of years.
It seemed, this main thing, and appeared - is not present.
From all well-wishers nobody has explained,
That the main thing that somebody so loved you:

With all lacks,
Tears and attacks,
Scandals and shifts,
And propensity to lie,

Including their depths,
Including their riddles,
Unknown secrets
Your big soul.

Write to me, please, that you about all it think, it will be very interesting to me to know! My fellow workers very curious people and all time are interested, where it I all time so hurry to escape on earlier from work. While I do not want to speak them anything, that at me, in my life you have appeared. I want, that you were only for me. And for all others remained a riddle, the answer on which him only still should be learned sometime. Well and now I want to say goodbye to you. Today at me difficult enough and sated day was. I shall go home, on earlier I shall lie to have a rest, and you again will be in my dreams and near to me. Do not fall asleep without me, move and leave to me a place, I shall be near to you!!! So long! Up to a meeting in dreams, my loved! Yours Nastya

Letter 6

Hi loved Holger I as if anew was born, when have seen your letter. You know how many pleasures to me delivers that as you write to me. So it is pleasant for me to realize, that you are and that at you all is good. I am simply happy to feel myself as the beloved. I am glad, that my feelings are mutual, and I can feel you on distance. It is pleasant to me sometimes, having woken up to reflect that, you do during that moment and of what you think. In your words and offers I learn and I read as though the ideas. That we think equally and we want same. I feel, that we related souls. I am very happy, that have met you. As I want and I dream of appearing now in your embraces. I would nestle on your breast, and my breath concerned your neck. In fact it is not too difficult. Certainly, it is easier to dream of it, having plunged in small the world both to live there and to feel itself as the happiest. But if seriously to think, what we need to make to be together? And as it is wonderful to be in my small world where there is only you and I. Where I can feel you where you to me smile, and there is nobody and where nothing prevents us. And nobody can prevent us. And the most important, that is the world only ours where there is absolutely nobody where it is not necessary to think where it is possible to plunge simply each other and to overlook about all on light. And to force all world to stop and live only for the sake of us. I want to feel your breath, carrying out a hand on your body, I want to see your eyes when you will speak me everything about what it was necessary so for a long time to be silent. In fact you understand how difficultly to express all ideas on a sheet of a paper. And even if I now could see now you and look in your clear eyes, I, probably, could not find all those necessary words. In fact it is very difficult. Also can even be not thought up yet those words with which it would be possible to express all my feelings and emotions. In my head it is so much ideas, that I cannot simply write to you everything, that so it would be desirable to tell, looking in your eyes. I would like to forget all shame and pride, and to rush on a meeting of the love. I simply do not learn myself. I was not such earlier. It seemed to me earlier, that I am floating on current and I rotate together with other people in this complex vital circulation. And was, but now all has changed. I have forced this world to rotate around of us with you. I want to live with you, I want to wake up and see you. To observe your dream and to think that dreams you. I want to fall asleep with you and to feel your strong hand when you will embrace me. I want to speak with you when it would not be desirable to sleep. I want to enjoy with you a decline, to meet a dawn and much many other things. I want to do everything if only you were a number and let all world will wait. Certainly, I understand, that it is not possible and necessary to look at things really. But sometimes so it would be desirable to forget about all. It would be desirable to think, that all so is simple, that stars can be touched. Also that is possible to touch you, and simply to fall asleep and see sweet dreams, being under your soft wings, with which you cover me to protect from all troubles. We are created the friend for the friend, and I with confidence can tell, that you my second half. It is not simple words, I in the life many times burnt that threw words on a wind. But I already for a long time not the child also think that I speak and now I simply follow the desires. I want, that we simply lived and liked each other. On the one hand in it there is nothing complex, and with another there is a huge set of so-called complexities. But I shall not admit, that between us ever there were barrier. And I shall make everything that we have reached our purpose. Now I with confidence can tell, that I want to throw all and to be near to you. This unique my desire. I am ready to all and on all only to be near to my favourite person, with you! I for a long time thought of all it and I realize, that you never will leave the country. There too much holds you, first of all it is your work, position. For a long time reflecting above it, I have made the decision that I shall go up to the end and in this case it that I am ready to leave the last life and to begin her together with you and there where you. I cannot live apart from you more. I want to overcome that distance that divides us with you. And I am ready to go on everything that nothing has cut us. I want to be a single whole. And I know, that it is possible, we need to want it very strongly only. Write to me the ideas, make me more strongly, help me to overcome up to the end all my fears though I already am afraid of nothing when you a number of me nothing can stop. You beside and I are happy. So do me happy, in fact all in our hands and to us is dependently all. And I need to search now for a way which I can arrive to you. And for me it is the now most important. I completely hope for you and on your support. I shall try to get tomorrow all information interesting me and necessarily all I shall inform to you. I with great impatience shall wait for your letter. It is important for me to know your ideas and feelings. I want to listen and hear you. You all this, that are necessary for me. You my life, my love and pleasure. I shall make everything that you also were happy, as well as I. For ever yours Elena

Letter 7

I can tell only one - I am madly happy to feel again force of that string that connects us. Both this the most important and worth, that is now in my life. So it is pleasant to read your words and to realize as far as I is happy, when I can know that you do and how you. Whether in fact I need to know constantly where you are also all at you well. I constantly need to realize, that at you all is good. In fact now I am excited only with you. I worry about you and I want only one - that at us all was good. With the big interest I read that occurs in your head and in your heart. Recently I can not think about anything except for our meeting because for me now is a unique purpose to which I I aspire, putting all forces. But me to not do without in any way your help. I need in you and I am glad to know, that you never will leave me and will always help me, in fact differently and cannot be. That day when we shall meet, it will be the day filled with huge splash of emotions. Our love will be free and can make everything, everything, but only for the blessing to us to a two. We in its authority, now fine and more and more attracting. Any more there will be no disappointment, there will be no pain. There is only I and you and more than anybody on all white light. Two hearts which are beaten together, ready to merge in the uniform heart filled with love. Now there is nothing more important us with you and that day when we at last can be together and be betraid to our feelings. There is nothing more important that happiness, that we shall find, when we can be together. There is no more grief and there should not be no doubts. It seems to me, that our love shines all world in the mornings and does not cover a veil in the evening. All this we. You know, I cannot sometimes fall asleep, because ideas do not give me rest, I cannot get rid of them, even when do not remain forces to think about you. You always in my ideas that I did not do also each second second I I think of you. Loved, Holger I very much worry for you. I want, that you shared with me everything, that to you occurs. Because I want, that you have understood, how it is important for me to know about you all. You the most remarkable person who to me could be met in my life. I am indefinitely grateful to you that you have brought pleasure during my life. I want to tell, that you have made me happy, you have returned to me confidence of and of the future. You the remarkable person. You the best! I love you!!!!!! Both to anybody and I shall allow to take away to nothing you from me. I shall not allow anybody and to anything us to separate. And I am sure, that you think as. I can continue to speak it eternally, but, unfortunately, our time is not eternal also we should be in time still much in this life lovely I is ready to any tests if only to be near to you. Travel to you will be the most wonderful thing in my life. We can find each other. I you will be sure the excellent husband. And most of all I am sure in that. That all will be good, because and should be. I perfectly present that expects me in the future that is necessary to start to study in me to live anew, to search for work, friends, but I am ready to all this. I am ready to go even on the greater if only to be confident, that the ending of that will cost, of what I personally do not doubt. I realize, that I shall miss on the parents, and they too will be, but they are glad, that I have made such decision. They know, how it is hard to live in Russia, and that here I cannot be rather happy. Now I want to tell that I have learned concerning my crossing. Yesterday I on earlier have left work to go in agency on the tourism, taking place nearby to my house. There all have clearly explained to me. I need to do new documents and to make out the visa in your country. But all this not difficultly also will not borrow a lot of time. Since tomorrow's day I plan to engage in it. I need the passport for travel abroad, on his manufacturing will leave about ten days after payment. His cost 140 $. As I will need to issue the visa to do the visa of the bride or guest, on it there will leave a lot of time. I need the tourist visa, as against the visa of the bride she costs 450 $. And on its manufacturing will leave no more than two weeks. As in my city there is only a branch of the Moscow firm after all will be paid, I should go to Moscow to take away all documents necessary for me. In general, documents which will be necessary for me are a passport for travel abroad, the visa and a social package of documents which includes various medical information. And already only then I can buy tickets and fly to you on wings of love. I know, that you think of me and it warms not only my soul, but also a body. Sometimes my dreams of me frighten. But it not fear. It even is pleasant I dream of you in the afternoon, I dream of you at night. You always in my ideas. I love you! I love the dreams and I like to think of the moments when we shall be together. When we shall be together. I cannot simply wait that day when we can embody all our dreams in a reality. I with impatience shall wait for your letter Holger With love … Your loved Elena