Letter(s) from Maria Shabalina to Mariano (Costa Rica)

Letter 1

Hello my new friend Mariano. WOW, it is great news!!! I was happy to see your letter. I saw your profile on "match.com". I am sure, we should not lose this chance, learn each other in more detail. You agree? Before we shall begin any dialogue, I ask you give me one promise. ok? Always be fair and open with me. It is important!!! ok? Only in this way, success in our connection is possible. Any lie becomes an insuperable barrier to us. I promise you, always to be fair and open with you. ok? Now, I shall tell you some details about myself. I live in Kazan city in Russia in my own apartment. I don't have any children and was never married. I don't have any native brothers and sisters. Now I don't have any man in my life. More than year back, I have left my partner. I shall tell you about it in more details, in the near future. ok? My height 169 centimeters, weight 57 kg. I completely healthy woman. I spend a lot of time for fitness. I am sure, each person should care of the health. You agree? I am professional dentist. Now I work in dental clinic. I freely speak and write in English and Russian languages. I am pleasant like the various literature and other interesting books. I am intellectually advanced woman. I am sure, you can understand it, from my letters. I like to learn new people and to see new interesting things and places. I like travel. I like to spend my time for the nature. You like pets? My hobbies, travel, art, fitness, cookery. I like to experiment on kitchen. I am sure each woman should be able to cook tasty dishes. You agree? Tell me about your favourite dishes. I think, you interests why I have decided to search my lifelong partner on Internet? I shall answer this question in my following letter. ok? To tell the truth I worry a little, I never wrote letters to men on Internet. I am sorry, but now I should close my letter. I write to you from computer on my work. I shall be glad to answer any your questions in my following letter. Please, for me it is important to see your new photos. Sincerely, your new friend Maria.
PS. Tell me about your ideal woman. ok?

Letter 2

My dear Mariano. I am glad, that your native and friends approve our relations. I love your photos. Thanks that has shared it with me. The photo are taken very professionally. Thanks for new details about you and about your life. How is your day today? Forgive me, I could not answer you more soon. I went on a dentists seminar in Moscow. It was interesting and fascinating. I worried, when could not write to you. Only today, I have returned to my city and at once have decided to answer. I feel guilty, that have not warned you about my business trip. You have forgiven me? I do not want, that you would think, that I have forgotten you. I thought of you frequently, these days. It is a pity, that I have no computer in my apartment. I want to write to you more frequently. I want to divide with you, each my idea. I want to know your opinion, on those or other things. I want to support our connection on regular basis. I sincerely believe and I hope, our relations, will be the beginning, our new real love and happiness. You agree? I met you and now I do not want to lose you. You are interesting to me. You have given me a little hope. I cannot describe words my feeling, but you could touch my heart, through your letters. I do not know, how it could take place, but it is the truth. Last two week Mariano, was very hot weather in my city. But I like sun. My favorite summer. But I am sure, that there are remarkable moments in anyone a season of year. You agree? What season your favorite? In summer, I can dress an easy dress and spend all my weekend for a beach at the river. In the summer, I can enjoy the nature and beauty of my city. You know, now I want to discuss with you one important question. ok? I am sure, that you thought what between us there is a long distance and what we shall do if we shall decide to connect our lives? I am right? I am ready on all for the sake of my future beloved. I am ready to leave my country if it will necessary. I shall be glad to visit you and to see my eyes, your place if we shall decide to meet. You should not worry about long distance. ok? The real love and true feelings, can overcome any distances. You agree my dear? But I want, that you also would understand, that we cannot meet, until, when we shall be close enough, that I could trust you completely. You understand? I do not want to hasten, but I also do not want to exchange letters long years. Probably I can visit you, during my vacation. When we shall be closer we shall discuss this question in more detail. ok? Today I want to tell you about my city. I hope to you it will be interesting? The Kazan city is rich historical events and ancient buildings. More than 800 thousand citizens. My city, has been based more thousand years ago. My city very clean and comfortable. There are many beautiful parks, avenues and squares. There are many theatres and museums. Also there is a modern part of city with high-altitude buildings, restaurants, casino and shops. In city there is Kazanka river. I live in centre city in my own apartment. There is kitchen, sleeping, drawing room and bathroom. Tell me in more detail about your place. ok? I shall be glad to see photo. My dear, each person on this planet has second half. Each person on this a planet has the soul mate. Only having received these things, the person can be happy. I believe and I hope, that our happiness, will not pass by us. I hope my new photo it is pleasant to you. I have taken this photo in my city a specially for you. Tomorrow, I shall be glad to see your letter and your detailed comments to my letter. My hot kiss only for you. Sincerely your Maria.

Letter 3

My dear Nano. I miss you so much!!! How it can take place? I do not know. I promise you, never break your heart. I promise you always to be fair and open with you, because I want that you too would be fair and open with me always. ok? You are glad to see my letter? You know, internet cafe it is convenient for me. I can answer you any day in week. It is a pity that we cannot chatter on the internet or see each other on web camera. Similar services, are inaccessible in cafe. But we shall necessarily speak by phone when we shall be closer. it will be important for me, hear your voice if our relations will go to serious stage. I shall tell you when I shall be ready to this and we shall discuss time and date of our telephone conversation. ok? We should not hurry up any way. We should build our relations, slowly, without haste. Only in this way, we can avoid serious mistakes. You know Nano, I am so afraid to be disappointed!!! It will be interesting to you to learn about my meeting with Katya? The supper was excellent. I cooked lobster in special cheese sauce. My favorite is dishes from seafoods. You have not overlooked? We drink white wine. I not drink strong alcoholi. Only sometimes easy wine. You know, I shall be happy, when near to me there will be man of which I can care and for which, I shall cook tasty food. I am sure, each woman should be able to cook tasty food. You agree? I am good cook. You can estimate it when we shall meet face to face. In me so it is a lot of love and caress which I am ready to give my future beloved. You know, in my life there is only one person with whom I can share my secret ideas. It's Katya. but I hope, that time will come and I can share and with you, each my secret idea. I want to trust you completely. I want, to not be afraid to break my heart again. Only time, will help me, to make it. You understand? we spoke about you with my friend. Katya send regards to you. She was interested in ours relation. She wishes us, success in ours relation. In the evening, I walked with LU on avenue in park. I looked at stars and thought of you. It was sad, that you could not be with me this evening. I so want, to share my life with special man. Family, this most important for me in this life. I am ready on all for the sake of it. At night I laid in bed in my big empty apartment and could not fall asleep long time. Probably you thought of me in this second? Today in the morning, I have woken up and have understood, that I want icecream. I think, today I shall buy big very big iccream. Only smile! You would like to share with me this pleasure? I wish you interesting weekend. My gentle kisses only specially for you. Sincerely your Maria.

Letter 4

My dear Nano. I need you so true!!! My eyes are filled tears. Yesterday in my life was awful tragedy. LU has got under automobile and was lost. My loved LU has died. Please tell me that it only awful dream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Forgive me, but I cannot write today. Tears prevent me to see. With love your Maria
PS. Thanks for your photos.

Letter 5

My honey Nano. Today Saturday, and I'm glad write to you. I am sure, we should find time and forces, answer our letters every day. Now it is especially important. Preparation of our meeting demands constant regular connection. Now we went to a new stage of our relations and should understand all gravity of this situation. You agree? I miss you so true. Please, never leave me!!! In each my letter I invest my soul. I want show you my feelings and emotions in my letters. I want show you as far as you became important for me. You hold in your hands my heart now. Please be cautious with it. You could interest me and convince me that I can trust you. You could convince me that we have serious chance to be happy together. I want to trust and I hope, we shall overcome any difficulties and barriers on our way and real happiness we shall take place between us. I don't want to hurry up, but I am sincerely convinced that there is real connection between us and real feelings fill my heart. I think of you each moment. You are constant in my heart and in my ideas. I feel responsible for your feelings and your heart. I'm ready to spend all my energy and all my time, for care of you. I have given you my heart, have opened for you my soul and now I don't regret for it. I am happy to have you in my life. I'm happy to share with you any my ideas. There are no secrets between us now. Only honesty and an openness!!! My dear Nano, I'm serious adult woman and for me was not easy, to come to the decision to go in unfamiliar country for me for meeting with you. But I believe and I hope you will give me your attention and care and will help me more soon to adapt to new to me place. I can hope for it? Only with you I shall feel like in full safety. Only with you I shall be happy. Only you I can trust. Only you belongs my heart. Please give me your promise, never and under no circumstances, to not break my heart. I need confirmation of my words!!! Promise me!!! For me most important to be with you during ours a meeting. Of course it will be interesting if we can go to any interesting places in your country, but similar things to not stand for me on the first place. You my sole reason of my arrival in your country. You understand it? In my life there are no other men with whom I want to connect my life. Fidelity in relations is important for me. I'm not jealous woman, but I hope you will not allow to be jealous to me an occasion of you when we shall be together? I can hope for it? My dear, each person which is close for me, knows that in my life is beloved. I hope you not against, what I call you my beloved? My parents, my friends, my employees, wish us with you of good luck and love. On my eyes tears, when I have told these words have appeared. Please, forgive me I could not constrain my emotions. Please, do not show anybody my special photo. I do not want, that other people would see this photo. I trust you and consequently I allow you to see this photo. Now I shall close my letter but you will be in my heart all time. I am grateful to you, that you were near to me difficult minute when have died LU. MY HOT KISSES AND HUGS ONLY FOR YOU!!! I think today at night I cannot soon fall asleep. Ideas about you and about ours soon meeting, will not allow me to make it. Sincerely with love and forever your Maria.

Letter 6

Honey Nano, my love!!! I did not want to speak you, but I think, it will be wrong to hide from you, any secrets. Now my eyes are filled tears. Forgive, that my letter, will be short. I love you, more than my life. Last night, it depends usually, I stood on bus station and waited the bus what to go in the internet cafe, I have been attacked, drunk the man. Also I in the street was dark has not noticed, how this the man, has approached to me and has seized me for a hand, began to threaten me physical violence and to pull me in a dark part of street. I shouted and cried, asked about the help. I the weak woman, I could not escape from hands of the criminal. Any woman, is always weaker than the man. I never was in similar situations. You will not believe, but at this time, on bus station, were a little bit person. They did not react to my requests for the help. They simply continued to stand and pretend, that do not see and do not hear all event. It is a pity, that there are such people, which are so cowardly what to not help the weak woman. I shouted and cried, my forces came to an end, I did not know that to me to do. I asked God, to help me. Probably God has heard my requests. During this moment, on along the street passed militian the automobile. Militiamen have seen me and have hastened to me to the aid. Drunk the man has been brought down from feet and chained in handcuffs. he appeared not capable to show resistance to militiamen. This criminal has been placed in a police station and I hope, will be punished under the law. I have asked militiamen to carry me in an apartment. I was afraid to be one. I needed to feel in safety what to calm my nerves. You understand? I never did evil to other people, I never could think, that a similar situation, can take place with me. When I have come in an apartment, my mum and my daddy, have been very much disturbed. My parents stay with me again. They have seen tears on my eyes, my hands were shaked, the voice shivered. I never saw my father, so malicious and aggressive. he has seized a kitchen knife and wanted to run and kill this the criminal. Only requests of my mother, have stopped the father. I have not received any physical traumas. God has kept me. Only a small bruise on mine a hand. I could not fall asleep till the morning. All the night long I spent with parents. I need rest and care. I need you. During that awful moment, I thought of you. I am sure, if you were near to me, anybody and never could cause me a pain. Forgive me, that has told to you about these things. I never wanted to excite you. I love you Nano!!! Soon we shall together. Today, I wrote to you earlier than usually. I am afraid to go in Internet - cafe during dark time. Sincerely your Maria.
PS. I LOVE YOU!!!

Letter 7

My sole love and future husband Nano!!! Today, I did not want to lose an opportunity to write to you. I am fine. Yesterday I could not write to you, forgive me. I tried to solve a little problem. There is a problem which I should solve, as soon as possible. I have changed date of my interview to November, 19. Interview in embassy, is very serious process. Before to go in Moscow in embassy, I should pay my visa and my international passport. Katya cannot return to me my sum which I borrowed to her for surgery of her daughter. It were all my savings which I planned to spend for payment of our meeting. I do not know, that to me to do now, but I shall search for an exit from this situation. I shall inform you on each my step. The bruise on my hand, has almost disappeared. In some days, do not remain a trace. I think, time will cure as well my spiritual wounds. My heart is filled love pleasure and happiness. I do not want to remember bad things. You know, I do not hold evil in my heart, on that the man. I have forgiven him. Soon we shall divide our new life, between us. Soon we shall be really happy. You have noticed, that I constantly speak "we", I do not speak "me" or "you", I speak "we". It has taken place imperceptibly for me. We were pulled together very much. Every day, I have many ideas and feelings about which I want to tell to you in my letters but when I write to you, I forget many my ideas. My mind is disconnected. I write to you, from my heart. I never had difficulties about what to speak you. I am ready to write to you constantly, some times to day. I can always find about what I shall be glad to tell to you. I am glad, that we are interesting for each other. It is very important, that we would keep this interest to each other, for all our life. It is very important to keep this sincerity and honesty which we have now. In a life there can be different difficulties and problems, but we shall easily overcome it if we shall be fair and open for each other. It is very important to remember always it and never to forget, that an openness and honesty, it is a pledge of a long happy life. I think words, honesty, openness, respect, kindness and passion, in aggregate mean a word - LOVE. You agree? Today I have understood one important thing. I have full confidence of my heart, that we are created for each other. Our meeting, will be only the proof, realities of our feelings. Today, when I have come to the internet cafe, to me have told, that I the most constant visitor. The person who works in this place, was interested, to whom I write my letters, every day. I have told, that I write all these letters, my beloved. I have told about you. Also I have told, that soon my visitings will be stopped, because I shall leave to you. This person has told, that it will be a pity, to lose such important client, as I. Soon we shall together, but I cannot still believe in it. I think, I cannot until calm down, when I can embrace you at the airport. You have not overlooked about my request? You remember about roses? My most gentle kiss, only for you. You can feel my kiss Nano? With love and forever your future wife Maria.

Letter 8

My dear partner Nano. Yes, I believe in destiny. Our meeting, is our destiny. I miss you so much!!! I love you with all my heart!!! I want to tell you these words face to face as soon as possible. I want to divide with you my feelings and my emotions. You should see it!!! The true love, comes only once in a life and now the true love has come to my life. Pulse of my heart, becomes frequent constantly when I think of you!!! The last some days were very hard for me. You know, different bad ideas do not leave my head now. To tell the truth, I could not fall asleep at today's night. But I do not lose hope and I continue search exit from this situation. When I have lent $5000US, for surgery Katya's daughter, I have warned her, that I shall require this sum when will come time for my trip to you. Katya has accepted my conditions. It were all my savings which I planned to spend for payment of our meeting. Now, Katya has told that she has problems on work and in the near future cannot return to me my sum. She has told, that is required two or three weeks before, she can return to me my sum. I cannot believe, that similar situation takes place to be. I do not understand how Katya can place me, in similar problems. Today, I have visited my parents and have told him, about our situation. Parents cannot give me any finance. I understand situation of my parents and I am not offended on them. Today, I plan to meet person whom, probably can borrow to me necessary sum. I should pay $600US for my visa and international passport. I should pay these charges tomorrow. On November, 19 I should be in Moscow for interview in embassy. I cannot go in embassy, not having paid visa. Now, I haven't any finance and I can not go in embassy. I hope Nano, the today's meeting, will pass productively and tomorrow I can tell you good news. My kisses and hugs only for MY SOLE MAN. Only for YOU!!! Sincerely your future wife Maria.

Letter 9

My dear Nano. How is your day today? You thought of me? I miss you so much!!! I need you so true!!! I try to be strong and to not lose hope. Today I better also try to not recollect, recent incident. You know, despite of all difficulties, I am happy, that have met you. I am happy, that in my life there is man with which I want to connect my life. You have given me hope and confidence of tomorrow's day. You could penetrate into my heart and win it. You hold my heart, in your hands. You should remember always it and to be cautious with it. ok? Yesterday I met man, to the aid which, I could hope. This man works together with me. I hoped, he can help me. To tell the truth, this man, has feelings to me, but I never loved him. Yesterday I have met him and asked him to borrow to me, the necessary sum for payment of my visa. You know, I was shocked, when he has told me, that will give me this sum for gift if I shall have sex with him. You can believe in it? Me wanted to buy!!! I never thought, that he is capable on similar meanness. I respected this person and always saw in him, only good colleague. I never saw in him, my beloved. I tried to explain to him, that I have already met my love. I have told to this person that I love you. I have told to him, that this sum is necessary for me what to go to you. I was offended by that, that he could think, that I can be bought for money. I cannot be bought for money. On my heart, there was a unpleasant trace. I am surprised, why all new and new difficulties, arise on my way. All was so well, only one week ago. But not looking on all these difficulties, my feelings to you, everyone become stronger and stronger every day. These difficulties, only strengthen our love. Tomorrow, I should be in Moscow for interview in embassy. But I could not solve problem with finance. I do not know, that to me to do now. I do not want to lose you in any way. I love you Nano!!! Now I should finish my letter. With love and forever your Maria.

Letter 10

My dear Nano!!! I miss you so much!!! Last days were so hard for me. I worry very very much!!! You will not believe as far as I am lonely now!!! Long time, we went to our happiness and now there was only one step and we shall be happy together. I do not want to lose you!!! I want to connect with you all my life. There is real connection between us, and I do not want to break it. I spent all my time and all my forces for gathering documents for my visa. It was really difficult and long process. I have changed date of my interview in embassy to November, 22. It is my last chance. If I shall not come to embassy by then I cannot receive visa. In embassy will not wait, longer. But I cannot go in embassy, not having paid my visa. I cannot believe that financial difficulties became an insuperable barrier to our relations. It is awful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I never thought, that destiny of my love, will depend on the finance. I see, now ours relations, pass serious check. And only true feelings, will stay constant in similar situation. You understand? Every day, I try to find necessary sum for my visa. I used all possible and impossible ways. I am so lonely now. Probably, you could borrow to me, the necessary sum, for my visa. I can return to you this sum when Katya will return to me my sum. Forgive me, that I am compelled to hope for your help, but in my life, there is no another man, to the aid which I can hope. I do not know, what me to do now? I have deserved similar difficulties? God punishes me? I wait your answer Nano. Sincerely with love your Maria.
PS. Please Nano, do not leave me one in this hard situation!!!

Letter 11

My honey Nano!!! Please, tell me truth!!! You do not trust me??????????????????? If you do not trust me, I cannot accept your help. Without trust, we never shall not be happy together. How is your day today? You missed me? Long time, we went to ours happiness and we so are close to it, now. Every day my feelings to you grow stronger. Time, only strengthens our relations. I am sure, each true relations should pass serious check. Now, our relations pass check. You agree? I think it is normal stage any relations. You agree? My vacation have already begun. I waited my vacation long time. My work, have tired me for year. Only once in one year I can take vacation. You know, I am happy that we have met each other in this life. Sometimes it seems to me it only dream. If it is dream, I do not want to wake up. Only smile!!! Our feelings true and real!!! Many times I was convinced of it. Please, never tell to my father, that I have sold a ring his mothers. I want, that it would be, only ours with you secret. ok? My father, will not forgive me if finds out about ring. I cannot return ring. It is impossible. I want to be with you and I wanted to help us, with the decision of our problem when has sold a ring of my grandmother. You understand? How you can ask me, to be patient? In this situation, it is impossible to keep calmness!!! It is the truth. You should trust me if I speak you about these or those things. It is important!!! We should trust each other. I should have the visa!!! Without the visa, I cannot enter in your country. If I shall not pay my visa, within the next few days, I shall lose chance, to receive the visa, and we never shall meet. I love you and I do not want to lose you any way. I shall wait your fast reply Nano. Sincerely with love your Maria.

Letter 12

NANO MY LOVE!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! I WANT TO BE WITH YOU!!! I WANT TO CARE OF YOU!!! I WANT TO MAKE LOVE WITH YOU!!! I WANT TO SHARE WITH YOU MY LIFE!!! ONLY IN YOUR EMBRACES, I SHALL BE HAPPY. FOR LAST DAYS, I WAS CONVINCED OF IT, MANY TIMES. MY VACATION HAVE ALREADY BEGUN, AND I TRIED TO CALM DOWN AND HAVE A REST, BUT I CAN NOT MAKE IT. I WANT TO RELAX, BUT I CAN NOT RELAX. ONLY WITH YOU, I CAN HAVE A REST!!! MY HEART, FREQUENTLY TO PULSE, ALL THESE DAYS. I CAN NOT STOP, THINK OF YOU. PLEASE, DO NOT LEAVE ME!!! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE YOU!!! THE TRUE LOVE, COMES ONLY ONCE IN THE LIFE, AND NOW TRUE LOVE, HAS COME TO MY LIFE. MY EYES, ARE FILLED TEARS NOW. I TO CRY, FROM THE PAIN IN MY HEART. SO FOR A LONG TIME, WE WENT TO OUR HAPPINESS AND NOW, THERE WAS ONLY ONE STEP, AND WE SHALL BE TOGETHER. WE ADULT PEOPLE ALSO SHOULD UNDERSTAND, ALL GRAVITY OF OUR SITUATION. I HAVE NO ANY TIME FOR ANY GAMES!!!! WE SHOULD NOT LOSE THIS CHANCE WHICH HAS BEEN GIVEN TO US, GOD. FORGIVE ME NANO, I CAN NOT SOLVE THE FINANCIAL QUESTION, INDEPENDENTLY. FORGIVE, I AM COMPELLED TO HOPE FOR YOUR HELP. IN MY LIFE, THERE IS NO ANOTHER THE MAN, TO THE AID WHICH, I CAN HOPE. YOU UNDERSTAND? I USED ALL POSSIBLE AND IMPOSSIBLE WAYS, TO FIND THE NECESSARY SUM. I CAN NOT STOP TO THINK OF YOU!!! YOU IN MY HEART AND IN MY IDEAS!!! NOW, ONLY FUNDS, SEPARATE US, WITH OUR HAPPINESS. I CAN NOT TRUST IN IT!!! NEVER IN MY LIFE, I DID NOT THINK, THAT MY LOVE, WILL DEPEND ON FUNDS. I DO NOT KNOW, THAT ME TO DO NOW. KATYA CAN NOT RETURN TO ME MY FUNDS NOW. I THINK, TO OUR SINCERE LONG FRIENDLY RELATIONS THERE HAS COME THE END. I CAN NOT TRUST THAT MY FRIEND, HAS PUT ME IN SO HARD SITUATION. MY PARENTS, CAN NOT HELP ME ALSO. I SO AM LONELY NOW!!! THIS AWFUL FEELING. WHEN I HAVE UNDERSTOOD, AS FAR AS I AM IN LOVE IN YOU, I HOPED AND TRUSTED, THAT MY LONELINESS, THERE HAS COME THE END. BUT I WAS MISTAKEN. NOW, I AM LONELY AGAIN. I DO NOT FEEL ANY SUPPORT, FROM ANY SIDE. YOU UNDERSTAND? WE HAVE TOLD SO MUCH EACH OTHER ABOUT OUR FEELINGS AND ABOUT OUR LOVE. IT IS FINE!!! BUT ANY WORDS, REQUIRE CONFIRMATION, AND I THINK NOW, THERE HAS COME TIME, FOR THIS PURPOSE. YOU UNDERSTAND? I AM SURE, OUR RELATIONS AND OUR FEELINGS, SINCERE BOTH ARE STRONG, AND WILL PASS THIS CHECK. I HOPE, YOU ARE READY TO BE WITH ME, NOT ONLY MINUTES OF PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS, BUT ALSO MINUTES OF DIFFICULTIES AND GRIEFS? I CAN HOPE, WHAT YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME ONE, IN THIS SITUATION? I HAVE SOLD THE RING OF MY GRANDMOTHER. I HAVE MADE SO MUCH FOR OUR MEETING. I HOPE, YOU WILL TAKE PARTICIPATION IN ORGANIZATION OF OUR MEETING. I SHALL WAIT YOUR ANSWER SOON. MY HOT KISSES AND HUGS ONLY FOR YOU NANO!!! SINCERELY WITH LOVE ONLY YOUR MARIA.