Letter(s) from Elena Aklanova to Joseph (Portugal)

Letter 1

Hello, my new friend! I am very pleased, that you have answered my letter. First of all I want to apologize for my not fast reply. I have no computer in my house. Yes, it's really pity... I can't answer you in the same moment as you. Thank you that you have found time write me letter. I think you have many questions to me. I shall try describe myself. I do not know what tell you in the beginning... Well, let's begin! I would like you to name me Marina. I'm 28. My birthday - march, 8, 1979. My height - 5 foots 6 inches. My weight - 125 pounds. As you see in my photo, I have blue eyes, and color of my hair - blonde. I have serious intentions, and I do not want to make a wrong choice... I tried write to you, and now I see, that you answered. We can start our corresponding, I think so... I want to be fair with you. Be fair with me too. I live in Russia, in city Nizhniy Novgorod. Did you heard about it? It is very ancient city. Nizhniy Novgorod is located in 500 kilometers from Moscow. Nizhniy Novgorod the big and wellknown city in Russia, it is located on the river Volga. We are two persons who want to meet someone ONLY for serious relations. I'm right? We can try to know better each other, but if you do not want, it is your choice... Little about me. I have higher education. I started my education in secondary school, in Nizhniy Novgorod. After I have finished it, I have entered Economic Faculty of Technical University. I have finished it 5 years ago. Now I work as a bookkeeper. I am engaged in financial affairs of our firm. This firm not so big. I work here not so long time, about 4 months. During work day I can use a computer and write letters. It is more convenient for me. I really would like to know your interests, your race, languages which you speak, hobbies? Tell me little bit more about you. I also shall tell you more about me in the following letter. I send you my pictures. I hope my letter will not afflict you. I shall wait for your letter and your picture with impatience. But if you are not interested, drop me some words. It is important for me.

May be your new friend Marina!

Letter 2

Hello! I am very glad to receive the letter from you today. I am very glad that you still have desire write to me. It is very good that does not confuse you, that I live in Russia. Your country seems to me very interesting and completely another than ours. Your country to be far from my city.

as you already know I work as the bookkeeper in small firm. I am engaged in calculation of financial charges, expenses of this firm, various debits, the credits. I am engaged in distribution of monetary stream of our firm. In general all accounts department.. I hope you understand about what I speak.

We live far each other... It is a very big distance for both of us. But this distance only seems a big. It at all does not frighten me. It seems to me especially interesting. Don't you think so? I have read in newspaper (it was already probably for a long time ago) that in other advanced countries (Europe and Northern America) meets situation, that women are more thoughtless (not so serious) than men. Is it true? I very much would like to learn your opinion, also why do you search for the woman on the Internet? I am for the first time have acquaintance through the Internet. Now I wish tell you about me directly. I have never been married, and I want to marry. What I search in the man, most especial - friendship. I do not like to argue, altercate in a various occasion. I want meet somebody - who wants to have an entertainment, but understands, that life - is not always an entertainment. I need somebody who is fair, also care, warm and sexual. Also I believe there requirement good appeal between these two people. I want to have friend which later (if everything will be correct) could be more than just a friend. The most important parts of relations - love, trust and communication. But, without trust others two thing does not matter. You cannot contact someone irrespective even you love him or her, but not trusting him or her. The love is important, but you should trust blindly to other person, really love them because you should know they real love you back. Of course you have a question, "Why Russian women search husbands in other countries". Because of many reasons, I think, and first of all - economic level of Russia. Our country is not rich and it is very difficult to find good work. Russian men cannot earn enough money to hold their family. They very lazy. They start to drink alcohol and become angry. It enters into divorce. Of course there are a lot of good men. Yes, it is true. But they are already married. If they receive many money, anyway they also start spending all for nothing to drink alcohol or other women. All of them like "Kasanova". In our country amount of women is more than men. So men try to low women, though a woman is stronger physically and psychologically. She manages a household, brings up children and has a constant work in the same time. There is an opinion that Russian men in degradation now. I want to get married abroad as I'm concerned about my future. I want to have an ordinary, calm life, though I must leave my friends and change culture. It's very difficult. There are many men here which would like to be a part of my life, but a lot of them have been married before, have kids and are bitter about marriage all together. Some of them have trouble opening up and showing there true feelings and there are the ones who lie, cheat and disrespect any man they get involved with. These are only a few reasons why I am still single, I think it is better to be lonely than to be with someone and be miserable. So, my search for that perfect man continues. I had no time tell you, about it in my this letter because I write letters to you on my work as I have no a personal computer. I have no children but I would like to have them. I think, that I would be good mother. I never saw my parents. My parents have left me in a orphanage. I have no relatives, at least I did not know them. It is unpleasant for me to recollect my childhood. I grew in a orphanage, where lack of parent's warm... I know, how it is hard to not have relatives. So I am ready to give my future husband and children everything. They will not be lonely, because I shall surround them with warm and love. Living in orphanage I've understood the real values of the life: do kindness to people and it will come back to you doubled. There are many problems in Russia. People became evil and closed. That's why I decided to find a husband abroad Russia. If I'll have opportunity to leave from here for the best life, I'll do it... I will leave Russia. I shall not have a problems with it. I already have been in the Europe! So I have told you about my dreams. May be they will not come true but these are my dreams. And what about your dreams? I like to visit cinema. Oh, I love it! I like to read books. I have many free time after my work, therefore I have an opportunity to read. I love various love stories, detectives and very, very much I love classical russian literature. Also I love various music. I like different music, all depends on mood. When I'm sad I listen slow, sensual music. Jazz and blues. When I have good mood I listen modern music. I like pop, rock, dance. American music very pleasant to me (Jennifer Lopez "Baby I love You" and Aerosmith "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing", and many others.), as well as Russian. Bi-2, Rondo are Russian rock-groups, but it is not all my favorite groups, it's a lot of, at once all of them will not remember. Jeniffer Lopez, Aerosmith, Moby and other American groups. The American and European film in Russia has huge popularity. They, as believe, are the greatest. I love American films, and I love many American actors. I frequently go hiking in a wood, I like camping, BBQ or I like to go by bicycle on summer. I have own bicycle. In Winter I go skiing and skating. All these distract me from everyday problems. So what do you do, when you have problems and when you are sad? My hobby if it is possible to tell so - English language. I have loved English for a long time when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I entered in group of the English language and I am still happy that I've made it. I like very much it language. After school, I continued studying English language in the institute. It is a very soft and easily-memorized language for me. Now I attend courses of the English language. I've been studing it for 16 years. I want to learn this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry. I spent a lot time to write this letter. I wait your answer. I have many ideas, but I do not want to rush this precious moment when two souls are looking towards each other across the continents for an everlasting friendship. I send you, my picture,

Your friend Marina.

Letter 3

Hi! How are you today? I hope you were pleased to receive my letter because when I'm receiving your letter, I really was admire. Many thanks to you. I have perfectly understood everything you wrote to me. As I already spoke you I know English rather well.

as you already know, I have no computer in my house and for this reason I'm writing to you from my work. Therefore I'm sorry, if not so quickly answered your letter.

I work from Monday till Friday and very much often on weekend. My working day begins at 8:00 and last to 17:00. Sometimes I'm working till 19.00.

But it's not easy, because my boss doesn't let use the computer with private purposes. We do not have unlimited Internet access on a work. I use a computer secretly to write HI to you (when my boss - not in office). Internet is expensive in Russia. My monthly income - 8000 roubles, it about 230 Euro. But this money suffices me and even is possible save my money. I can safely tell, that I adore travelling. I travelled in Russia, I saw Moscow, Samara, Saint-Petersburg, Sochi. Also I was in the Europe!!! Yes, I have been in Europe not so long time ago.

Nine months ago. I went there because of my work. About 2 years I worked in a Advertising Agency. 5 person from our firm have gone to the USA for training. We went in Advertising Education Institute "News and Media Relations", Berlin - Germany, Paris - France and Stockholm - Sweden. You heard about company "Temerlin"? There we training. It was veryinteresting and cognitive for me. I have the certificate which allows me to work in the Europe.

I have gone there as financial director.

Other my colleagues by other professions. Now I do not work in this firm any more. This firm has ceased to exist about 5 months ago.

Now I am usual bookkeeper in small firm.

But it is not difficult, I very much like my work. My new colleagues very good people. It is most important for me. We have very quickly found common interests. I have some friends. But now I have found you! I am very pleased, and I shall think about you. I tried to find love and happiness here, but I have felt lie. We have proverb in Russia: Bitter truth is better than sweet lie. I think, that you are fair man. Am I right? After all my histories you may think, that everything is bad, but it is not true. I have already told you, that my parents have left me in a orphanage. But, my childhood was not so difficult. I'm so think. Only it was very lonely without parents. I had many friends. I had very interesting childhood. When I became more adult... then I had more difficulties. Not only me. I think you understand, that it's hard for lonely kid in this severe world... But the most important never put your hands. It is necessary to go next level. I understood it for a long time. Don't you think so? It is true! Now I have a good life, I have friends. Good work. It is rather good here. I rent my apartment. I pay for it. I have no opportunity to buy it. It's very expensive for me here. I should work to have my own apartment 10 years! I make all independently: man's and female duties. I can hammer nails, carry heavy bags.... By the way I'm quite good plumber (sanitary technician). Life everything has learned me... I can hope only for myself. But sometimes I so want feel a strong shoulder near to me... Yes, I want real man for creation family. I have the most serious intentions. Very hard to meet geantlemen... Unfortunately. Therefore I am very glad that have met you. To me very pleasant our dialogue. For me not so important age distinction. it would not be important for me. These days I so strong wait for your letter. It helps me to distract from all. It as a sweet dream... It is other world for me. Forgive me, if my letter was sad, big and uninteresting to you. Just I wanted to tell you about my life. You should know about it. I promise you not write such letters anymore. Now I should finish my letter. I wait with alarm your answer. Also I want ask you: had you ever friend from other country? Is it important for you a nationality? what foodstuff do you like? I would like to discuss it with you tomorrow.

Yours friend Marina.

Letter 4

Hi my most dear friend. I very pleased to see your letter, and I think you'll pleased to see mine also. I'm always very glad receive your letters. I very much liked your country. It was very interesting and useful trip. I will remember Europe for ever. I hope sometime again to go there. We have studied much all useful, our dialogue was very easy, people were very polite with us. It is very pleasant.

you were ill? I wish you the prompt recover. your pictures are fine.

Today I would like to talk with you about meal. I very much like preparing.

If I don't work as a bookkeeper, probably I'll be cook (smi-ile!).

Cooking is basis of health, cherishing life of family. I know many recipes of dishes. I love tasty and healthy foodstuffs. Yes, meal should be useful for health, it is most important. I very much love potato and various, diversified dishes from this vegetable. When I come home, at first I go on kitchen and I start preparing for myself something tasty. Mhh... I very much love those moments when my friends come to me. Always I trying to prepare for them any various fishes delicacy, a different kind of meat. I always try my friends estimated my abilities in cooking, and almost always it happen. Also I very much like to bake pies. do you know what is it "russian pies"? It is a stuffing grocery, wrapped up in a dough, and baked in an oven. The most important not use a microwave. Otherwise taste becomes absolutely another, besides it is badly baked thoroughly. If everything make correctly it is divine taste!!! You should eat this thing sometime... All my friends for a long time have estimated it. I began to prepare when I was 9 years, in a orphanage. I helped our cooks on kitchen. They have learned me almost for everything, that they knew. I am very grateful to them for it. But no one can estimate it, except for my friends. I very much love my friends. Now YOU in my life... You my friend too. Can I so think? I very much would want think you my FRIEND. I really want to know you, to speak with you, to take your hand and see your eyes. Probably it is very sincere now, but it is true, and I do not want to hide it. I always speak true and I do not like, when people - lie. I hate it. I very much like to dream. I am a dreamer.... I do not know good it is or bad. Since the childhood I dreamed. My teacher somehow told to us: "You must forget about your dreams!" She has told, that dreams do not bring happiness. She has told, that dreams bring only a pain and disappointment. May be she was right. Actually dreams come true not always. It happens, you have to do everything, all forces and all your aspiration to reach this purpose. But frequently it is not enough. Not everything in this life depends on us. Destiny! Her strong and invisible hands easily rearrange lives and hearts people. And then dream stops to be a desirable star, when it is failed during long time. But anyhow, I think, that impossible live, without dream and hope. When you have dream, our lifes is filled with sense. Dreaming, life becomes more interesting and more various. You start to think, analyze, choose and make decision. And each small victory, each defeated obstacle on your way to dream, each following step to your dream brings great pleasure. Your heart is filled with belief and hope. And you are inspired with thing, which waits for you in the end. You remember pleasure of victories and the defeated purposes better than a pain of losses and disappointments. For this reason I like to dream, though my dreams comes true not so often as I want. I am surprised, that I write to you all this. I never had the person with whom I could share my ideas. But now I have found you, and I am very pleased. I don't judge people whence they - or what color of skin they are. Sometime I would like to leave Russia. But only, I do not know when? Nobody waits for me there. your letters is the only thing now for me, outside of Russia. Your letters - a part of my life now. I very much would want so think. And I estimate it very much. You became very important for me. And to be frank, I am afraid to lose you. Forgive me for my frankness. If I offended you anyhow, or caused inconveniences, forgive me please. Do not stop write me. Write me every day, even if I cannot answer you every day. I shall answer you anyway. your letters give me forces, and my day is filled with pleasure. I hope, that you have not become angry. I shall wait for your letter with impatience. And now I want to ask you some questions: do you love people and what do you think about children living in a orphanage? I heard, that in the Europe, women don't like to prepare for tasty and healthy food and make homeworks, is it valid so? Do you belive in love? Love at first sight? I'm waiting for your letter.

Yours Marina...

Letter 5

Hi my dear friend. I waited this minute to answer you with impatience. I am very glad my letter was pleasant to you.

I belive in love at first sight. But it's not a love as everyone think. It is such strange feeling... You feel that this person is pleasant to you also you want to communicate with him or her. Just you only think that it's love. Happens more often, that you or this person will be disappointed...

certainly I consider the most important in the person. what to love you, we communicated more few, but I accept you. To me all the same where to live, the main thing that near to me would be the favourite person. if I will have children, I can go to work and look for children. I have a trade, I the bookkeeper. I have good conversation. I would like to visit the USA, but I do not know in what city. I know nothing about the parents. I think that without parents always hard, without parental support always difficultly. I think that you understand me.

today I was late for work. My alarm clock has broken. But my boss did not saw my delay. Till this time he has not come. I always rise early in the morning. The rhythm of my life in which I live, forces me to be the morning person. My alarm clock does not ask me what is my nature. I always rise early, and I go to bed not so late.

Your letters become so close to my heart, and I am pleased to see them like a child. You write very pleasant letters. Your words are so pleasant, I feel myself...in heavens. Please, write me every day, even two words, I must know with you everything - is good. I shall be sure for you and I shall not worry. Your first e-mail was small light of sun when I have opened door on the other hand was the whole new world, which I never saw earlier. Beautiful, absolutely another and full of surprises. These relations, which we have begun through e-mail - begining new long friendship which could develop something more?

As you already know, I was not for a long time in Europe. Term of my visa has not ended. Term of my visa 2 years, it is tourist visa. All my charges on trip were paid by firm in which I worked. I could not pay it independently. But it is firm does not exist any more. And I do not go any more in the Europe. my visa lays on a shelf... But I hope visit again.

I very much liked Europe. It is absolute other countrys, not similar as ours. I very much would want to begin a life in Europe. Sometime.... Love is such intoxicating narcotic, which makes do mad, but sometimes funny actions. Only person in love can fill the whole bath with champaign, only person in love can give one million scarlet roses or stand whole night under balcony of the loved woman singing serenades. Today I spoke with my boss, I have asked him to use the Internet at least 25-30 minutes in day. He promised to think about it. I cant let him deprive me my private life how much it cost me. I have the most dear person, you, I have understood it clearly yesterday when I went in park and thought about you. I have closed my eyes and thought about you. A wind was blowing, it scutched my hairs and enveloped my body by its chilly freshness. I don't know why, but I thought that you changed in wind, and you tenderly touched my hairs with you invisible hands. It seemed to me that I am situated somewhere near you. And my heart began beating as never before. I was so pleasant and I was ready to yell from happiness. People who were passing near me, probably thought, I am a strange lady, they saw me sitting on the bench with closed eye and smiling. But I didn't think about their opinion. I went and thought about you. It so, so heated my mood. I like to go along the street and breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. Actually I do not want to go home. It is very boringly and alone at home. sometimes I do not mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I very much want to speak, to share ideas with anyone, to have an entertainment. But my apartment is empty, and I should be in full loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit in an armchair and I look at a window or I prepare for a meal, may be somebody will come to me? But I nave to eat all independently. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But, enough about it. I should perform my work. I having not enough time. I shall wait for your letter tomorrow. I shall wait your pleasant words.

Yours faithfully Marina.