Letter(s) from Tatyana to Christian (Mexico)

Letter 1

Privet my new Friend, Christian!

I am really happy to start my search for the real happiness exactly from you! Who knows may be it is you whom I am looking for. I am sure that now when you read my letter you have the same thoughts and you think - who knows, may be this girl is who you waited all your life for... Am I right?! :) Frankly speaking I think that being mature man you dealt with a lot of people and you met enough amount of women in order to know what features you would like to see in your woman. And I think that it will ease your search for sure. Of course if it is not a secret I would like to have the description of the woman that you see in your dreams. Of course you can ask me counter-question about the man I would like to be with.. and... I think that I will not make you wait for a long time with my answer. I always dreamt about the man who will be able simply to cherish the real woman, I always dreamt about the man who will appreciate his family and his woman for most of all and I wanted my man to be open and honest with me as it is one of the main issues that can be the reasons for separations. Just I want you to be sure that I hate lie and I hate lie even if it is because for the sake of something. I was always sure that lie leads to more and more lies and after it person lives in lie all the time and he is not able to determine what is lie and what is reality. So as for me I always prefer reality and I always prefer to have what person think and not what he thinks that it will be better for me to hear!! And what about you? Do you think the same? I want you to know that before I started this Internet search I made my search about this date by myself. And I got to know that it is always upsetting for a man when girl is not able to speak English. So here is a frustrating moment for you as I am not going to lie you from the very beginning and to pretend of being someone. I can't speak English as I learnt it only when I was 10 years old. So not having any ways to solve this problem I found the only one - to use the help of people who are skilled in this matter. Now it is your turn to tell me what you think about everything that I told you. If everything is ok for you I will wait for the letter from you impatiently at this address as:

tetyankalittle@gmail.com

waiting for the news,
Tetyana.

Letter 2

Privet, Christian Ariel!

I do not like formalities and it is much more suitable for me to start my letter simply from the common Russian greetings as "Privet". This way I want to show you that I am all geared up friendly to our communication and the reason that in spite of all things that I told you, you wrote me your answer and it means that you are ready to go on our discussion. Of course we have a lot to discuss. Thanks for the photo that you sent me. For me it was pleasant to have it. I think that the photos always make an impression that person is close and it means that with your photos you helped me to imagine you being close to me and having a talk with me! I hope that my photos will help you the same. Of course I would like to admit that you are really interesting man and you look rather handsome. I like when man knows that he should take care about his appearance also, in spite of not being woman! :) I like that you are good looking man! :) Also thanks for the picture of the rose, I think that it is wonderful gift for me and I would like to have the real rose and not the virtual one one day. What do you think about it? Any way I must admit that I am a little bit frustrated that in your letter there was no any comment about my previous letter to you. Also I told you some important things about English as I did not wish to give you vain hopes about the future and something like this. But unfortunately I did not find any thoughts about it in your letter and I am not sure what I should think as may be it is ok for you or simply you were inattentive, or what? Hope that you will explain everything to me in your next letter and of course I would like to have your position as for to this problem, of course if it is a problem for you at all. As for to my name, I want you to know that may be for it sounds like the same name but in my passport there is the sign as I am Tetyana and it means that I am not Tatyana as it will be the name of another person, so my name is Tetyana and it is Ukrainian variant of Tatyana. Hope that now everything is much more clear for you. I would like to tell you that as for to the profession I am a TV announcer at the local weather forecast. I start from it as I am proud of having this job and I like it for sure. It is a little cable TV company. And I work there. Frankly speaking I started my working path from being a delivery girl for pizza. I worked there for about two years and once I was noticed and I was invited to work as a seller at the food store, there it was easier and I was as tired as it was at the previous job, but it did not last for a long time. Our store was closed by taxation police. After it I was long time without any job, it was awful and I do not like to remember those times, and after it I tried model business for a little time and I worked for the local fashion clothes store being a model. But I hated that work as I do not like when people stare at me like at someone unusual. So I stopped it and one woman who was the client of that store offered me to be a secretary of one little boss at the local TV, I was glad and I went there, but the editor noticed me and he invited me to try my luck being an announcer of weather forecast and so here I am! :) Unfortunately our channel is so poor that there is a little amount of people who watch it, I am sure that it is friends and relatives of those who work there! :))) But any way it is pleasant for me to work there as we have funny stuff. But men here are... strange ones... In spite of everything I have a warm hope in my heart that you are a real man. Unfortunately here I was not so lucky to meet real men in my life. Just may be my father only. Here specific men are around me, but I do not think that the main problem is only in this matter. I often thought why everything is like this and why we have such situation now. Just with the progress in technical issues men here began to compete with women for prestigious places under the sun and in this competition they simply forgot about such notion as "the fair sex - females". And it is about us - women!!! If the woman is a professional so why she should be supported and protected? But I am totally sure that in spite of it the chemistry between man and woman still exists and I still wish to find the relations with such chemistry and somehow I am sure that I will manage with it. What is your opinion about it? What is your position? I will wait for the letter from you impatiently as I do hope that you will share your thoughts with me.

With all my heart,
your Tetyana.

Letter 3

Privet, Christian!

Funny but you have already known what it means "Privet!" I waited for the letter from you impatiently and I wanted to hear from you soon, so it was the reason that I could not sleep last night as my heart told me that there would be some news from you. Again you made me smile when you told me that it is strange for you that my passport name is Tetyana, but it is so! :)) Also thanks that you explained me everything about those things that I thought that you did not read the part of my letter where I told you that I did not know English. Also thanks for your understanding about my lack of English, I think that you are right and it is obvious that this problem can be solved and the most simple solution can be - English classes, I think that after starting them in a couple of month it will be possible for me to exchange with you even some private phrase. It sounds so exciting! Also you made me smile when I read twice the same phrase as "I thank you that I explained on your name, although itis a little strange that, for your passport your name it's Tetyana, but ok; I don't continue further on this subject ...." I think that it troubles you a lot that you wrote me the same thing twice! As for to the flowers I do hope that one day for you it will be possible to give me a bouquet of flowers one day in real life as I would like it for so much, you understand that it sounds so romantic! Thanks for the compliments that you told me, you say that you noticed that I am an intelligent woman and it is definitely so. I would like to have open dialogue with you without any limits, hope that it is not a problem for you at all. Last time I mentioned about my father and I think that I need to tell you about him and everything that happened in my life as we try to know each other better. I was born in a happy family and somehow my mum was not able to have more children, but only me. I was like a real princess because I was treated that way, I think that I had everything and I think that I was the happiest child for that time. Now I remember with a great smile at my face that example what the real family should be as I remember how my father treated my mum and how happy she was, also I remember that she always took care about him and she devoted every minute of her free time for being close to him. For this time I think that it was like some kind of feminine intuition. I liked when my parents called me like "Princess Tetyanka" and I laughed loudly from it. These happy life lasted till I was 13 years old. And being a good girl I had good marks at school and I always made my parents being happy with good behavior. What else could I wish - just simply to be that little Princess Tetyanka. My mum did not look at any men at all as we both realized that my dad is the most wonderful father, husband and friend. But that awful day came and I was at school for that day .. I remember that class teacher came to the class room and asked me to go out, I felt that something was wrong... and when we were at the corridor I was told that ...sorry...that my wonderful father died..unexpectedly... at first I thought that it was not true and I thought that it was someone's evil joke... I did not believe his funerals at all as it was excruciating pain for me and mum.. so it was the end of era of that little Princess Tetyanka. From that time the era of big girl Tetyana began. Just mother was not able to do anything as she was in shock and money went away somehow very quickly, I even did not notice because before it I did not know the cost of money as life for me was like a real Fairy Tale. And being 13 years old I began to earn money for my living and it was the beginning of my loneliness as my mum still lives with her memories about my father and unfortunately the doctors told me that it is some kind of illness as she loved him a lot. So you see that I have the lonely life and I really wish to be with my man as I hate being lonely and who knows may be one day I will hear that missed phrase as "My Princess Tetyana". Such sad story of my life. And what about yours? What about your parents? Your relatives? Hope that my telling will help you to appreciate every moment of being close to them.

I will wait for your thoughts,
I miss you,
Tetyana.

Letter 4

Privet, Christian!

Thanks that you are with me as I really need your support!!! Last time when I finished my letter I was so upset and down as because memories did not give me any chance to improve my mood. And I simply walked a lot at the rather fresh and frosty weather and can you imagine.. I even did not notice when I was cold. I came home and I thought a lot about everything that I told you about myself and I thought that it was rather easy and comfortable for me to talk to you and to confess you in everything about my life and it was a good sign for me! Thanks again for the rose that you sent me, I want you to know that it is rather touching for me, as you know that every woman would like to get flowers from her man. And it is also obvious for me that if you send me flowers it means that you have serious interest in me and it inspires me as well. Also you understand that our communication really means a lot for me and you can see it from the fact that I am attentive to each word in your letter and also I wait for your letters impatiently all the time. You say that you would like to remedy it, but I think that there is no any reason for it at all. Don't you think so? Thanks for your understanding about my father and about the condition that I have inside when we talk about him. You are completely right, I would like my man to love me and even to call me like Princess Tetyanka. Just it will be possible only for the man who loves me and who wants me to be happy. And it is pleasant for me that you noticed it as it means that you not only read the letter, but you felt every word that I wrote there! Thanks that you told me more about your family. I think that you have wonderful family in spite of the fact that you do not communicate rather often. I understand it. You say that almost all your brothers are architects, am I right? I think that it is very interesting to have such kind of job! And what field of medicine you are a doctor at? Just once I had relations with one man and I thought that he was that one I wanted to be with. When I think about real man I do not mean his age, his appearance or his social status. I mean that when there are critical moments he tales the responsibility and he tries to solve the problem without any yellings. Maybe he will not solve it but it is more important for me that he will try! But here it is seen that as usual men try to go aside for some time and wait when woman solves this problem by herself for him and for her. I think that man can be big and strong, he even can be a little bit gross macho, but it does not mean that when it is difficult situation he will behave in a masculine way. And be sure that it is always a real delight to feel like real woman close to the real man! And it was not this variant. As he always yelled about everything and he wanted simply to have a babydoll with him and to be envied and to pleased and to live like in a paradise but he did not wish to give anything instead, I sure that you understand that I mean moral issues. We worked together and it means that we spent almost all the time together, but I realized that I simply was used for washing, cleaning, cooking and being the subject of wanting for his friends and only. For him it was so super and so convenient. I realized it with each day and it was always the reason for our quarrels. I tried to explain him everything, I asked him to understand that I also want to be treated like beloved person and to be helped and when I asked him to help me and to do something he always asked me: "Why it should be me? Why not you? I am also tired after my job". And one day he came to me being drunk and told me that I was simply his housemaid and he was angry that there at his house the floor was not clean enough and he asked me to run their as quickly as possible and to take care about everything as he waited for his friends to come. It was the last level of that humiliating. And I asked him to go away but as answer he told me that if I did not go there to do what he told me it means that we would separate and he would do everything for my being alone and he asked all the guys to stay away from me when they came to me to know me better and even wanted to have the relations. So here it is my story and I was so sad that my father was not with me as he would defend me for sure. But I still think that if no one from those guys came to me and talked to me it means that they simply are weaklings and I do not wish to be with such man. And what about you? Will you overcome the obstacles for the sake of being together with your beloved woman? I will wait for the respond from you impatiently as with each letter we became more and more like soul mates!

I will wait for your thoughts,
I miss you,
Tetyana.

Letter 5

Privet, Christian!

Thanks for the letter that you sent me, for me it was pleasant to have it! You know that I am always open-hearted person and it was pleasant that you are with me any way! I was sure that you are very nice man as I had the strict feeling about it from the very beginning and I am really happy that you are such a man who can be caring and supportive! I am pleased that you are attentive to everything I tell you and also it is pleasant for me that you understand my position! Just today is not the brightest day in my life and somehow I understand that I would like to go on our knowing each other as I feel comfortable and wonderful with you. I can tell you without any hints - I need support. I mean that I need my man to take care about me and I hope that you will do it. No, you should not think that I try to ask you for money for my personal needs and something like this. Just I explained you how it is for me to live here. As you know we use the help of the translator to communicate with each other, as you understand it is not a free service and I told you about it in my previous letter. Unfortunately "my wallet is not gum". We spent almost everything that I had at my account. It is the truth and I think that it is honestly to tell you about it right now. I do hope that you will take it seriously and you seriously will think about it. I am not sure if it will be enough money there for translation of your next letter. I promise you that I will try to do everything that I can in order to stay in touch with you. But I see that it is very hard for me. When I started our communication I counted my income and I thought that it would be ok' for me to pay such sum and I will be able to live normal life, just may be to refuse some things but to live as usual I did. Unfortunately I am mistaken and now when it is long time till I will have my salary I understand that my position is really serious. From the one side I even do not want to think that I will lose you just when I have found you, from the other side I tried to calculate how I will live till the salary day and I am really shocked. So the situation is serious for me, for us I hope. I talked about it with the manager here and I told her that it could be so that I will not be able to use their service any more. She offered me to talk to you honestly and to tell you everything and to ask for your understanding! I decided to do it. The answer will be yours. Just please, think about everything, think if you really wish me to be in your life? If yes, so please, care about our letters! I will care about myself by myself. I do not want to burden your with the personal problems. I want only us to be together and I will pray only that you wish the same! So tell me your decision. Tell me what you think about this situation. Be sure that I will appreciate any of your thoughts and if you think that you are not ready for me being with you just let me know! As for me I want us to be together. I really want it to be! I also want us to be together and to share all intimate moments being a couple like man and woman!!!

I will wait for your thoughts impatiently!

Your Tetyana.