Letter(s) from Elena to Joaquin (Spain)

Letter 1

Hi again dear Joaquin! Thank you for the photo and for your compliments!

As always I am very happy to get your letters! When I get it I feel that my blood starts to run faster and heart beats 200 blows in a minute! Can you imagine? Oh, it is the truth, because I really feel that you are so special to me! I catch myself that I can't stop think of you! I truly believe that you are my life, because I can't already imagine my life without you!

My sweet, you know I have to tell you one thing...I have to tell you one thing..It is hard for me to say, because I want you to understand me right way..Remember I told you about my English, that I don't know it and I use translation service and I pay for the letters, for yours and mine..And now, unfortunately I have no possibility to pay for this..
Oh, my dear, please, i don't want to stop our relations after such a beautiful start! My heart raptures for parts.. I don't know what to do because I really have no more possibility to pay for the letters.. You know I am also upset about that fact I have brought my photos to send you, but I was told that I need to pay for its scanning first..oh, i have such wonderful photos for you, but..can't send you them..and you know why..

Joaquin, I know that only you can help me..us..to solve this problem..my hope is only you..As I told you already, you have stayed essential part of my life, you are so dear to me..I really need you..
there are ears in my eyes..but your decision will be the main for me. I respect you very much and all your words and thoughts are the main and deciding for me.
I will understand everything and I will not disturb you more, if your decision is not like mine..But I want you to know that I need you in my life as my man.

I think I have to stop here and I will be waiting for your answer impatiently..
Need you, kiss you, hold you, yours always Elena