Letter(s) from Julia Vasil'eva to Bruce (USA)

Letter 1

Hello friend, Bruce!
I am very glad that you have become interested in me. I was not sure that you would write. Thank you that you found time for the answer. I think that you have many questions for me.I will try to tell you everything about me. I hope that you will tell me about yourself too. I don't know what to tell you about myself at the beginning, but I hope that you will understand me. OK I will try to begin. My name is YULIA. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your country. I live in Russia! But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul. I live in small city Sanchursk. I began to get education in the secondary comprehensive school. After I finished it I entered the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and entered Medical University. At present I work in a small Dental polyclinic. I work as a dentist. We have a little collective, but very friendly. Bruce, I use a computer at my work, because I haven't got a computer at home. On work I can use a computer almost freely. So it is more convenient for me to write you from my work. Though it too depends not from me. With a computer works another employee. I have not bad relations with her, but she can give me a computer only when she has a free time. But still i can go in the internet of cafe andthere to send you the letters. My new friend, answer my questions, if you can: 1. Do you like your job? 2. What is your favourite film? 3. What kind of music do you like? 4. Have you ever had a friend from the other country?(the friend on correspondence). I thank you for your answers beforehand. My new friend, you may not answer these questions if you don't want. In my next letter I shall necessarily answer other your questions. I will tell to you what music and what cinema I like. I send you my picture. I hope to you it is pleasant. I will waiting for your letter with impatience. YULIA

Letter 2

Hi Bruce! How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Many thanks. Do you want to know how I will write to you my letters? I write to you letters during all my working day by small parts - in those short time intervals when the computer will not be occupied. I work in children's branch. If you want, I can tell to you about my work. Only tell. Oh! I promised you to tell what music I like. Now I have some free minutes and with pleasure will spend this time to tell to you about my interests. I like various music. All depends on mood. I like to listen classical music. I like Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listen simply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest. Under such music I like to think. I like to listen to guitar masterpieces of Joe Satriani. I very much like group Dire Straits. I like Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is great group. I like Madonna, Robbie Williams and George Michael and many others. In America many great musicians. I like many Russian musicians. For example Philip Kirkorov, Valeria or groups: Chaif, Splin. But you likely do not know them. I very much like cinema. In Russia create few good films. I like works of such directors as Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun. It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russia use huge popularity. The American movies is considered the greatest. I very much like the American movies and I like many American actors. For example: Gladiator, Brave Heart. Mel Gibson - good actor. I like films- The Sixth Sense, the Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Gone with the Wind, Magnificent Seven, the Godfather, Groundhog day, The Scent of a Woman. My favourite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, Demi Moore, Kevin Spacey. What else to tell about me? Bruce, I never was married and I haven't children. I am lonely and the reason of my loneliness not only in me. However, I do not know if it interestingly for you. I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I am optimist and I like to smile, because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine irrespective of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I have some girlfriends, only one best girlfriend. Her name Elena. We are friends 18 years. She the true friend and always helps me, as well as I help her. She has very kind heart. For the sake of our friendship we can return all what we have. I am very glad that I have such girlfriend. Such friends as she - the big rarity. I and my girlfriend Elena became girlfriends because we lived in the nearby houses and also together went to school. I rent flat. There is a one room, kitchen and bathroom. I understand that this is a little flat but I feel convenient in it. And it is not far from my work. It takes me 20 minutes to get to the policlinic. I often walk to my work when I am not late and the weather is good. Sometimes I get to the policlinic by bus. But I don't like it becauese the buses are always full and it is not convenient to stand there. Whether I can to you, Bruce some questions?! You have the big family? Is the nationality of a person important to you if you are to care for them? If you do not want, you may do not answer my questions. I don't have such prejudices. the nationality is not important for me. I don't look at eyes, colour of the skin. And I don't think where a person was born. I want to find a man with kind heart. I love kindness and I hate a rage. For me the most important in a man - honesty and kindness. Without it is impossible to create the world of harmony and love. Roughness destroys love. I am ready to give all my love to a man who also is ready to give me his love. I think that in any relations the main thing - mutual respect and mutual understanding. I think it not so much. The rest is not important for me. Kindness. Honesty. Respect. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face.
I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards.

p.s. Bruce, you can send me your picture? I very much want to see you!:-)

Letter 3

Good day, Bruce!

Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that this frightened me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. Today my colleges have good mood because today all our collective goes to the circle. This is a Moscow Zoo which has come to xxx for a week. This is great news because The Moscow Zoo Is the biggest zoo in the country. So everybody discuss only this news. Everybody wants to visit the ZOO because the tour will last only for several days. I like animals very much and I have never seen Moscow Zoo. I have never seen alive tigers and bears. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear? The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals on the planet. All right, I shall tell still to you a little about myself. I really like cooking. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well don't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart". May be she is right. I like Russian dishes and my favourite dish is pancakes. I am not sure if you know such dish. This is a Russian national dish. The pancake is round thin bread. It is possible to eat it with a stuffing and without. For a stuffing we use meat forcemeat, cottage cheese or jam. It depends on what pancakes you want. What dishes do you prefer Bruce? I don't know if I told you about my father. It is unpleasant for me but I have to tell you about it. I have never seen him. My mother told me that he had left us when I was very little. That's why I don't remember him. I have never asked my mother about him. And she didn't tell me. To tell the truth I don't want to know where he is and what he is now. I have a question for you. Are there many divorces in you country? In Russia it is a very frequent thing. Many men in Russia are alcoholics and that's why women can't live with them further. My mother didn't married anymore and that's why I don't have brother or sister. I very much love children. Children our future. They raise mood. If I will have children I will love them more than life. I never thought of how many children I want to have. Such decision is necessary accepting together with a man which becomes the father of these children. For me it is not important where to live, Russia, America or other country. It not the main thing. The main thing that there was a love. The main thing - together with the beloved. Dear Bruce, I very much would want to speak by with you to phone. It would be pleasant for me to hear your voice, but unfortunately I have no phone. Leave to me the full phone number, together with number of a code of the country and I shall necessarily call you from somewhere.

It is very a pity Bruce, but on it I shall finish the letter and I shall be with impatience to wait for your letter!


Letter 4

Hi, my dear friend Bruce! I hope you not against if I say so. Thank you for your letter. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood my patients cry less :-). So healthy smiles of our children now depend on your letters :-). I told you about my visiting Zoo and I want to tell you about it. My colleges and I were very surprised that there were so many different animals. But the most excitement was caused by the moment when we saw an elephant. This was a very big animal. Also we liked a tiger. It lied in the hutch and looked at us tenderly. but I know that this is a very strong and dangerous animal. I saw a camel. Oh, have you seen it? This is a very proud animal? I was impressed by his constant tranquility. Bruce, by the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. :-( The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 28 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the polyclinic. As matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Veronica. Elena is that lady who is in the hospital. Veronica has left to the north for three months. Her grandmother lives there. My friends are not married too. We are friends for 18 years already. Elena and I are like sisters. Elena and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because it is expensive! Still, i like xxx. Many people know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 16 floors. Veronica says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where it is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our small city is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level.
But I don't want to tell about sad things. I have to finish my letter.
I don't want but I have to. Today when I will come to Elena we will speak about you.
She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her.
I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Bruce? Now I am happy to get your letters.
I am also happy that I have friends. I think thank you are my friend too.

Sincerely yours and with best wishes. YULIA

Letter 5

Hi Bruce, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now it is 2 p.m. already. Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boy's teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Bruce, you agree with me? I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? I like very much when my friends come at my place. I like to cook and that's why I regale them different tasty dishes. Elena is a good cooker too and she often helps me. We often cook different dishes and regale each other. I also like to watch films with my friends at my place. It is a pity I don't have VHS or DVD players. But in Sanchursk we have 8 TV channels and sometimes go to movie. Our flats are very bad equiped for live. I even don't have telephone. In xxx few families have home telephones. I know that it sounds wildly, but you have to understand that Russia began to develope several tears ago. Bruce, i told you that I visited Elena in hospital. I was there for two hours and Elena was very happy that I would spend her birthday with her. She told me that may be she wouldn't be in the hospital for long. She has not complicated inflammation of the throat. I brought Elene a chocolate cake, flowers and balloons. These balloons are one colour, blue - this is my favourite colour. And I hope that Elena like it too. And do you like blue colour? Elena and I spoke about you. I said that you are a very good man. Elena told me and wished good luck in my relations with you. I like usually Russian foodstuffs - pel'menis, soups, and pancakes. But I also love the Chinese foodstuffs and cuisine of the Russian Georgia. And I very much would like to try yours hamburger.

I will wait for your letter with impatience. YULIA

P.S. I will answer your questions: To me of 27 years, I not when was not in abroad and did not plan trips, I was 1 time in Moscow and on the sea in Sochi. I would would like that you have sent me a photo of the pictures because on a photo which you have sent to me it is visible very badly!!! Send regards to the friends from me

Letter 6

Hi my friend Bruce!!!! I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face. By the way Bruce, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already Elena is a doctor as me. We work together. I a dentist and she an assistant of the dentist. But Elena is not my assistant, she helps other dentist. Today I will go to her in hospital once again. I hope that soon Elena will be healthy and we will be happy to meet in ourpolyclinic. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad. I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil. Has taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. Now I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness. If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness? But I don't want to finish the letter with not good words. So, Bruce I will tell you about Elena. Soon she will recover. Elena feels good and sais hello to you. I hope that soon she will be at home and returns to the work. I feel lonely without her. We spent good time during the dinner in the policlinic canteen. The love does not submit to any laws and rules. Many consider that to understand true love, years are necessary. But so frequently people spend years to study each other, to understand that are created to each other, try to understand love it whether or not. Years will pass, life will pass, and people understand that they were mistaken. But at the same time so frequently is enough one glance to understand that this person - destiny. I think and I am sure that the love does not happen identical. For love really there are no laws, barrier, rules and textbooks. I feel, that with each letter you become closer, we search for the same things in the person, but at the same time I should be sure in my feelings to you as will prompt me heart.
I shall wait, to miss, kiss!!! Your YULIA!

P.S. Yes I see your pictures, you perfectly draw to me very much it was pleasant

Letter 7

Hi, Bruce! How your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine :-) Likely I too self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your letter. I so waited this minute, when I can write to you. Yesterday I went to Elena and told her that you told her hello. I think you don't mind it? I hope that sometimes you will get aquainted. You will understand that friend can be more that brother or sister. Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Tomorrow I again work in dental mobile car. I did not say it to you yet. But it happens only once a week. Dental mobile car - automobile which is more than passenger car, but is less than a lorry. Two years ago I and Elena have written to Ministry of Health the offer to allocate the automobile to make dental mobile car. At that time we with her have consisted in society of volunteer help weak and ailing people. As a rule it is old lonely people which are not capable to live without help of extraneous people. These people could not visit hospital because they could not go independently. We have suggested to come periodically to such people on this automobile with the necessary equipment to not carry these people in hospital. This offer was approved and now we already visit more than fifty settlements in our area. Unfortunately tomorrow I will go without Elena. On this it will be difficult days. In total in our area five such automobiles. We go in small villages and settlements where live people, which for the different reasons cannot go in city to cure a teeth. In our district a lot of such people. Now we help not only to such people, but also children living in children's orphanages. We have many orphanages, but this orphanages have no personal dental cabinet, on this every week Elena, I and ours colleague - dental surgeon, we go in various orphanages on dental mobile car. We became friends with all children and all children love us very much, because also we visit this orphanage in the days off to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children do not have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. That's why some people voluntary render the feasible help. We help to repair rooms. Many walls do not have even wall-paper and stucco. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible. The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes. My girlfriend and I help to do repair. We glue wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much. Again I write too in detail. Bruce, forgive me, please. I simply wanted to tell that I do not know if I can write to you tomorrow. Maybe I can write, but only some lines because I will not have time. Sometimes to us come junk e-mails, and some from them comprise viruses, on it informs a computer. Such letters at once will be removed to avoid infection of acomputer.

Oh Bruce! I should go. Sincerely and with the best regards.


Letter 8

Hi, my far, but dear friend Bruce. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required all the day to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Bruce, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. Today I have happy news. Elena has recovered and now she already at home. Elena came to me at the work to see and please me. She said that soon she will work. I was happy that soon I will be able to see Elena more often. I told her that I worked at mobile car. Elena was upset that she didn't help me. But I said that we worked little, because l ittle people complained of teeths. We visitted only one village. Villages it is small settlements in some tens houses, they are everywhere around of the big cities. It approximately on distance 10-20 miles. We visit villages every week and when we leave, we agree when to arrive next time. In Russia it is a lot of orphanages because young and inexperienced women give birth to children and then understand, that have no means of subsistence, therefore throw children in the street or hand over in orphanages. In our city is present 2 orphanages. Father refuses the child and his mother, therefore mother one is not capable to bring up the child. Frequently children appear in orphanages, because their parents alcoholics. Bruce, I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience... I hope that your reply is not of a harsh nature, and I look forward to its arrival. With tenderness, YULIA.

Letter 9

Hello my dear!!! Forgive that I did not write to you so long but my mum was sick also I looked after it!!! I will write to you more, but now I should run to mum!!!

Letter 10

Hi my Bruce! How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better. This morning I didn't go to my job, because this morning I flew to my job. Today I came to my job beforehand. And I was first who came to the office. And I was happy all the day. My colleagues were surprised. They have asked me why I'm so happy. And I have simply answered that I have good mood. I have understood long ago but was afraid to admit to itself, that I have found to you feeling which did not feel before. I want to understand what in my heart. I want to feel your breath. I don't know, what's happened with me. Likely I can be named strange lady, but I have grown fond of your soul and heart. The rest is not important for me. For me the material world is not important. Only the world of calmness, fidelity and pure heart. It didn't happen to me before. The weather is sunny today. The sun brings joy. I'm glad that I have friend Bruce, and Bruce has me, YULIA. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know all about you. Absolutely all! :-) BUT! Yesterday my boss informed me that I will have a vacation approximately in 1 or 2 weeks. But I did not expect that I will receive a vacation. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I will aimlessly wander on streets and every night fall asleep with tears on eyes. I waited my vacation the whole year and now I receive them but it do not bring to me pleasure. I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. All world around became uninteresting for me. And I have told to myself: "NO! It not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me. About us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what can I do to meet you. Simply to meet. It's all that I want now.

Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make visa. They told me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 160 dollars. This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Sanchursk, and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some weeks or even months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I can't wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service. Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview, insurance, medical survey, tickets. According to the contract, the agency will prepare me for all documents for travel, to buy for me the ticket and to deliver me to the plane. The full package of service costs 465 dollars + sum includes cost of tickets, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about one week. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. Cost of tickets to me inform later. I do not have money to tickets, but I heard, that it is possible to take the loan in bank. At Elena one works familiar man in bank and he promised, that will try to help me with registration of the loan. So, money - for me will be not a problem. :-) I really have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. I really want to give you a gift - our meeting though I am not sure if you really want to meet me. Can you imagine that if everything will be well, in two weeks we can meet? If it would happen, would be it as a gift for you? Would be you happy if we could spend some days together? I understand that our relations are not long yet. Many years I ask myself one question: "Why everything depends on money?" I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have a wild desire to meet you, to embrace you. I have some savings. I do not want to cause you a monetary outlay. I will make all myself. I know that you did not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now.
I seem I has found what searched for long time.
In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesn't flow ".
It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something.

During all my life I spent my vacation in my village or travelling across Russia.
But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you! It is big happiness.
I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling.
And I am afraid to lose it. May be I hurry events, but I am afraid that all will be terminated, and then I will go mad. You my dear friend, and friends meet sometimes. I shall receive a vacation, it's my vacation and I want to spend it with my dear friend. I think it will be wonderful. I apologize, if have offended you. I hope, that you do not regard my words as impudence. I simply want to meet and spend some happy days with you. What will be after, I do not know. But all people meet. The distance does not frighten me. But without a meeting there can not be a continuation. I hope, that your feelings to me have not changed after that. But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart. Tell me please, can you meet me? Tell me please, you will be glad to meet me? You will be glad if I will arrive to you? I believe and I hope that I have not angered and have not offended you. I believe and I hope that you have feelings to me. I believe and I hope that you want to meet me. It can be outlined in advance by destiny. I sincerely hope that my letter has brought pleasure to you. And I sincerely hope that you want to meet me to spend some time together. And I sincerely hope that you would be happy to meet me. Would you be happy? Sometimes I come home and if I feel tired I fall asleep early, but I never find yourself awake in the middle of the night, I wake up only in the morning.

Much tenderness from YULIA!!!

Letter 11

Hi my soul Bruce!
I with trembling heart waited your letter. Thank you for told all what you think.
Thanks for your letter. You have written to me and it means that one more day I will be lived with good mood. I want to describe to you my day completely, since morning and till the night. At 6:30 rattle my alarm clock. I do not love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly rattle, that each time I jump as scalded. I rise with good mood because in dream I saw you. At 6:35 I go to a bathroom And I THINK OF YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:45 I dress my sports suit, I go on street And I THINK OF YOU! I jog. I run in the mornings always when it is not cold to support myself in the good form. When in the street coldly, I sleep till 7:00. At 7:20 I cook a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and a sandwich. I drink tea and I THINK OF YOU! At 7:30 I go to work. Usually, if weather good, I go on foot And I THINK OF YOU! I like to go on foot since morning. Air clean and fresh. To job I come vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to a cabinet where works my girlfriend . As a rule she already on work at this time. If there is an opportunity I receive your letter. If the opportunity is not present I receive it later. At 8:00 I start to work And I THINK OF YOU! At 10:00 I go on street and I THINK OF YOU! I breathe fresh air of 10 minutes and come back to work. At 12:30 a dining break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK OF YOU! I reach up to a house by a trolley bus. At 13:00 I eat and at 13:10 I go again for work And I THINK OF YOU! I go by a bus but I abandon a trolley bus earlier, than it is necessary, to again take a walk on fresh air And TO THINK OF YOU! At 13:30 I again work And I THINK OF YOU! (though in my work is impossible be distracted and think about something another except for work):-) At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break and we drink tea for have a rest. I was not capable to drink tea because I THINK OF YOU! During the working day when there is an opportunity I answer your letter. At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot, slowly. I feel itself perfectly because I THINK OF YOU! At 17:40 I take a shower and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! :-) At 18:00 I have supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME! At 19:00 I go for walk with my girlfriend (but it happens seldom). We walk in park. I THINK OF YOU! If I do not go for walk, I listen to music, I read the book, I watch TV, I knit, I make various homework And I THINK OF YOU! (of course not all simultaneously) :-) At 23:00 I lie down to sleep. Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK OF YOU! Today we with Elena went to bank, there have met with her familiar. He informed, that I should write the application on reception of money and then bank will consider my request and will solve, allow to me of money whether or not. But he has told, that it will not cause what problems and that he will help with it. To know what sum to take in bank I has taken an interest in agency how many tickets will cost. They have told, that the prices for tickets very much frequently vary, and probably tickets will cost from 900 up to 1600 dollars. I have filled in the application on 38000 roubles. It approximately 1420 dollars. Now I need to wait some days and then to go in bank. By the way, one more important detail. I hope, that my application for the visa will approve, therefore it is necessary for me to know the international airport nearest to you in which you can meet me. I hope you write to me it!!!! Only do not think that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant. Every day passes on miscellaneous. To visit your country it is necessary to have the visa, without the visa I cannot arrive to you, it is obligatory. But is that peculiar to each my day: IT'S MY THOUGHTS OF YOU!!! Your and only your YULIA.

Letter 12

Good day my Bruce!

Thanks for your letter. I am so happy. Thoughts about you heats my heart.
I so waited for this opportunity to write you to tell what happened today.
Today is a very important day. I worry very much.
Today I got a invitation on the conversation with the commission which deals
with giving visas. It is the most important in the process of getting visa.
The commission will make a final decision after the conversation - to give me visa or not.
The conversation is very difficult but I am prepared.
This is a difficult test which I have to pass. But I am ready.
I want to meet you very much and my desire will help me.
Where there is a will there is a way. Children from orphanages where
I help already for several years, together with tutors have written letters
for the commission to support of me, the petition and the characteristic.
It will help me when the commission will make a decision. I am sure that all will be OK.

I shall finish my letter. I send you all my tenderness Bruce. IN MY
IDEAS AND SOUL - ONLY YOU! I kiss you 1000 times. Your YULIA

Letter 13

Hello Bruce!
Today we have quarantine on job. All cabinets of our polyclinic will be cleared with special chemical solution to destroy all microbes. This procedure happens every month. I cannot use a computer because right now in this cabinet will begin process of clearing . Today I passed the commission! :-) I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to your country, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly how it is really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants do not answer such questions so directly and openly. They have not got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision.
Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death " I cannot concentrate on anything.
They have told that the decision will be accepted tomorrow. I so worry.
I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend.
I think the God will help me. I want to meet you Bruce. I never did not so worry before.
I have been told already to leave a cabinet. I will stop. Please forgive me and pray for me.
I worry very much. Bye my love! I do not want to finish but I should. Your YULIA

Letter 14

Hi my dear Bruce! Today fine day. But only for one reason - I have received your letter. And all the rest become unimportant for me. I do not know why, but today I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again. In the street already was sunlight. I sat near a window and began to look at street. Unexpectedly the small birdie sat down on a window and began to sing. She so beautifully sang. She looked at me and sang. The birdie at all was not afraid of me. I looked at this birdie and thought that you now somewhere there, far. I have thought that maybe you sleep and see me in your dream. And I have thought, if I was a birdie, I too would sit down to you on a window and began to sing my song. I have told to a birdie: " Fly off, my small birdie, and sing this song to my far but close friend Bruce. Tell him that I think of him ". And in this moment the the birdie flinch and fly off, as though she has heard my words. And I have thought, maybe this birdie really will fly to you and will sing her beautiful song. So if you Bruce will see near to yourself a small birdie which beautifully sings, know that I have sent this song to you.

O'k Bruce, I have for you good news! Today I went to agency! Visa is made! I have received the visa!:-) But me it is necessary for receiving in Moscow. In Sanchursk there is no embassy of your country and consequently I should go there and to take away her, up to the plane to you, my dear!! In agency have told, that they will prepare my tickets for tomorrow's day aboard the plane. Tomorrow I shall go and I shall find out it. All turns out very quickly and well for me. The destiny helps me to be with you beside :-)

The blue sky, the bright sun, stars in the night sky, your letters make of me happy.
I like to read your letters. Your letters makes me happy and they it is valid make me smile.
Forgive, but I should go. I want to send you my kiss if you do not object. Your YULIA

Letter 15

Hi my Bruce!Thanks for your letter. My heart calms down when I receive your letter. Sometimes I look in a window, there, where the sky and the ground merge in a single whole. I try to be lost in this imagined world, I try to weaken my sight, that all what I see became indistinct, dim. And then your image has emerged before my eyes. And I already see how you go along the street though I absolutely have no idea what your street look like. But I see you, I see as you smile, as at cinema in the slowed down action you come nearer to me, and your image becomes more and more precise. You speak something but I do not hear you. But I read on your lips, and my heart with fatal delight understands what you speak me. And these your words burn me from within. During the some moment I so sink in this world of illusions that I cease to understand where a reality. But the next second all breaks off and again before my eyes the grey sky, the white ground and people which at all do not suspect what occurs in my heart. It is so unusual to me, and in same time I feel so conveniently as if I know you the whole eternity. And I am sure that it not accidentally. And it is not important what waits for me in the nearest future, I know that I already have found remarkable, kind and good a man and a friend. And if I will see him, if I meet him and I can look in his eyes, I can tell to him everything what I cannot tell in letters, I will be madly happy. Now, today, this minute not important, where will bring me this way. I know that it is true road. I live not the future, - I live today, and exactly today I live by bright and happy life. I went to agency and to me informed cost of tickets. The ticket for me will cost 1350 dollars. It in one party and back. As soon as I to pay this money they to me at once will tell all data of my plane (time of departure, number of flight, etc). I should pay this money in agency. Elena has told to me, that in bank to me can give such money and I at once to give their agency. I promised, that I shall make it the nearest days. Already tomorrow I shall go to bank, to take money, and then at once in agency, to give this money :-) I should finish the letter. In relations with lady are you a dominating part? I have in view of - you like more to be the leader and to make all decisions personally or you like to discuss questions with lady and to make a decision together? I think that it is good when the problems are solved together. Even if the problem is of one of the spouse. I think it is good when the spouses tell each othertheir problems. Kisses. Your YULIA

Letter 16

Hello my sweet Bruce!!!
At me not so good news to you. Since the morning I had excellent, cheerful mood. But it has very strongly deteriorated after I have visited bank. Today I went in bank and to me have given up with the loan. I was simply in a shock! I could not assume such situation. I trusted, that this the man can help me. I have asked him why to me cannot give money and he has answered, that it precisely does not know why such has taken place. Bank that has not told. Probably all they were afraid of that at me the small salary and that I cannot pay to them this money. In our country and in our banks very much frequently people take money and then cannot pay up to the end to bank that money which have taken, and most likely, they were afraid, that with me there will be a same situation, as with others. At me remained about 200 dollars. But where to me to take 1150 more??? I need to pay money to agency. But at me they are not present!!! I very much hoped to the aid bank, but he has denied assistance to me!!! It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I have spent a lot of time and nerves when waited the visa. But this money is not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I should pay the rest of the sum to agency. It is only 1350 $ dollars. It is very a shame to me to speak about it because I do not know that to me to do, where to me to get such big sum? And now I still had last hope, it you, please, help me with the money on ticket. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Of course if you do not want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. I cannot arrive to you. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid 465 $ dollars for making visa. It is big money for me, but MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. If you can help me, write to me about it in the following letter!!! Bruce, please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I amin despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I am waiting for your reply.
Kiss you. Your YULIA