Letter(s) from Olga Lavrinova to David (USA)

Letter 1

Hello, my love David!
Im so happy that you understand me correctly, the way I want to be understood. I mean feelings first of all. I always write to you when I have inspiration.
But this time I feel that it is more than inspiration that makes me write this letter. I ask myself; is this love that Im feeling? And the more I think about it the more Im sure it is. There is something especially attractive in you for me: your words, your image, your - I dont know what, but even virtually I feel you are my kind! I would like to spend all my days with you, and I hope, that one day, I'll spend all of them with you. Every your letter are so important for me! I print all your letters and read them again at home. This night, I couldn't sleep. You've come in my dream, in my thoughts. You've come in my mind, in my night, and I dreamed to hold you in my arms, I dreamed that you're by me, taking my hand. I feel my heart is missing without you, without your presence the light appears black, and I feel emptiness in my life, in my skin, in my spirit. I dream about you, and I don't sleep, I token your letters in my hands, and I understood, that I want to meet you so much . I wait for our meeting like for the end of a tunnel, the tunnel of my life, and on this end, I can see a bright gleam. This gleam is you. Your image gleams like a possible hope, a fairy story, and a fairy dream. I'm seeing this bright gleam, and I want to run in its direction. I don't want you to stay only an idle fancy, I want you to become real, my reality. I want to share my life with you, to share my laugh and my tears, to share all my emotions and my feelings, my joys and my pains, my hopes and my despairs. And of course, I want, that you share everything with me, your thoughts, yours desires, everything. Would you like to share your life with me, would you like to give me the right to love you all your life?Dear, loved, lovely, I as well as you were going to go on Monday to my principal to learn about that when there will be my holiday that we could plan that when we can meet and be with you together beside with each other! It probably my dear? You would like it? I would be the happiest woman on the ground if we have met! I not can even imagine that pleasure which I shall to test during this moment!Darling, Id like to ask your telephone number. I want to hear your voice so that my impression of you was complete. I want so much to talk to you, to tell you all tender words I know. And as I have no phone, I could call you myself if only I knew your number. Would you give it to me?
Dear David please, give me permission to love you, to kiss you, to caress you, to give you all my tenderness and my heart. I read your letters, I close my eyes, and I give free vent to my imagination, and I see you flying to me, taking my hand, and you come back with me in your arms. I dream about us together, you and me, flying under the stars, through the continents, around the world, around our world, in love, only in love. You are invading my heart and my mind. You are so great, so... I cant find the good word! I cant find enough words. May be Im too romantic, but I just write you words from my heart, I feelthis and hope you feel the same The expectation of this your letter seemed to me endless, though I realize it wasnt so long in fact. Sometimes Im afraid: what if you stop writing to me? What shall I do if all the ties weve just created break? I ask you not to do it, because not only ties will be broken then, but my heart! I promise that I will be the most loving person. I believe that love is a giving feeling. It means that, as it is me who loves, I will try to take care of you, be all for you, whatever you ask. So, I dont ask you about much; just write to me so that we could meet one day. And as for me, Im ready to correspond to your wishes. Of course, I am what I am, but remember one thing: you have a special power above me.
Too much is said, but the main is I LOVE YOU,David!!! Your Olga.

Letter 2

My dearest David!I am happy, that I know you!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for fine flowers and for your attention to me!!!!!!!!!!! To me never did such pleasant surprise!!!!!!!! I am valid to you is grateful for your warm heart!!!!!!!!!!!! I read your letter, and I really have no words to explain, what I feel. I feel, I found the closest person in my life! It is about you, my sweet! You opened your heart to me, you even can't imagine, how long I waited for you, dreamed about you!!! You are really the man of my dreams! I cant believe, that fate give us so great chance! Many years ago, when I was a little girl, my mother told me many fairy tales. I loved one of them most of all. There was a beautiful princess and handsome prince in that fairy tale. There were a lot of difficulties and barriers between them. They had many troubles, but the prince knew, that his princess was the one, who was created for him. After many efforts they came together. I can think only of you now. You make me happy, and I know now, when I'll hold you in my arms, when I'll kiss you, I'll never let you go! I am asking myself: is it dream? If it is a dream, please, don't let me to wake up! Now I know, how easy to fall in love, when two lonely hearts find each other on the long and difficult road of life. I could probably invite you to Russia, but I dont think youll like it here. Besides, I have a problem with the flat that I rent. The point is that the term of the contract with its owner is coming to an end, and this woman wants to make the rent much higher. Now Ill probably have to look for another flat or, what is more affordable for me, a room.
But dont worry, Im sure, Ill cope with this, because you give me so much force that nothing else matters! Im simply happy!My Prince, I know, that you can invite me to the beautiful world of love, where we can carry out all our secret amazing dreams, all our desires and wishes. I know, that you can change my lonely life, I believe in it, and I'm ready to travel thousands kilometers, because I know, that you are my soul mate.Tomorrow I shall go to my principal to learn about that when there will be my holiday that we could plan about that when we can meet and be together. You would like it?As soon as I shall buy a telephone card I shall necessarily call you. Well?
My sweet, I don't doubt, that we have love intimacy between us now. I feel how your heart beats despite of distance between us, it beats in a step to my heart now... I know it. Were we created for each other? Now I need only one: to meet you. I have a great desire to do it. I already talked with my mother, and she lets me to come to you. She is a little afraid for me, because I'm still her little daughter, but she trust me, and she gave us her parental blessing. My father is not against too, he told me that I have my own head on the shoulders, and he said, that Im right in my choice and he trust me in this. If you really want to see me in person, I'm ready to talk to you about it. I wait for your decision. Your princess,Olga

Letter 3

Dear David!How are you my sweet love? I miss you so deeply! My feelings to you are so big, that you can't imagine. But sometimes the love and feelings are painful for me. What if I don't get you? I don't want to think of it. You are only one man for me in the world, you have all the things, that I'm looking for and want to have.Too it is not very a pity to me that we could speak. I can call to you tomorrow to hear your voice. Well? I so shall not be upset that I to receive some time of your letters, how many you cannot write days to me? I have named you in the last letter road, it means dear, it is possible so to speak or there can be you will correct for me if I shall do mistakes, I shall be grateful to you for it!You are my ideal man, and Im sure, that you would make me happy.My dreams are becoming to reality, because of you. Thank you for this! If I could give you one thing, I would give you the ability to see yourself, as other people do, then you would have seen, what a dear and special person you are...My sweet, I asked God for a flower, he gave me a garden, I asked for a tree, he gave me a forest, I asked for a river, he gave me an ocean. Asked for a friend and he gave me you. You know, many times ago I had hear of love some words, that if you would love somebody more when God, he will take this person from you- I afraid to lost you so much. Sometimes my eyes are full of tears, when I think of you my love. You are my only Love, and will always stay in my heart. I will always love you, today, tomorrow and forever. I will never do something that could hurt you, never. I want to ask you, how you imagine yourself our first meeting?? I want to tell you how I see our first date. First, we will be dinning together, in a place (not important in what place, because I will be happy with you everywhere) where would be nice and romantic. It would be dark and candlelit. After dinner, I want to dance with you slowly and I want to feel your warm. I want to go with you to the beach, walking together along the beach and looking at the stars. I would also bring a blanket so that we can sit on the beach, hug and kiss and watch the sun come up. I really cant wait that moments!!! My dear! I was in the travel agency this morning, and I found out all conditions of my arrival to you in details. Frankly speaking, I was in shock! If I am able to pay for visa with help of my mother, I won't be able to pay for tickets (even for cheapest!). But I can't get visa without buying tickets in this travel agency. Getting of visa is not a problem, agency takes care about it, and they can get it quickly, but only if I'll buy tickets there. My problem is only a tickets. I feel so bad, I even could think about, that tickets to USA costs on 5 times more, than tickets to Europe. I really don't know what to do! I'm afraid, I feel scared by my feebleness. Now I can only dream about my arrival to you. My love, it's a pity, but if I want to buy tickets, I have to save up my year's salary (and don't spend it even for food!)! I'm so sorry. I cant ask you about something, I just can dream- I wait reply and I hope that fate would give us chance to be together, I send you my soft kisses and please, take care my love, your Olga

Letter 4

Hello, my love David!
Do you believe in love without frontiers? This is a rhetorical question, Im sure you do. As for me, it goes without saying!
Loved I was so you are pleasantly surprised that what gentle and tender letter has written, I was really happy to read it because when I read your letter, I felt that you really wrote it from the bottom of the heart because I felt it warmly. You have set to me some questions, I shall try to answer them.
1. Yes, loved, I want to be with you, differently I never would open before you the soul and the heart. I need in you and your love.
2. To me all the same where we would live in Russia or the USA. I think that we should meet and together decide it. I shall give to you to decide where we shall be happy more In your country or in mine. I shall be with you there where you will want.
3. Yes, I think that I can trust you, differently I never would want a meeting with you. I want to trust you, I think that my feelings to you do not deceive me also I can trust in you completely. Though I heard bad about the American men much, but I think that you the good and fair person and you cannot offend me when that. In fact in each country there are bad people. And I think that to us has carried that we have met you.
4.My address about which you asked me.Russia.city-Kirov.index-610035. street-Popova.Home-41/10.for Lavrinova Olga.
Dear, I so shall miss on you, please if you will have an opportunity to write to me, I shall wait your letter with painful expectation. Thank you for your offer to help. I hate to ask for it especially in such delicate situations as our one. But I would have to apply to you anyway, because my parents offered me 400$, but this is not enough. Other relatives are in the same financial situation as me. Now that you are ready to help me, I gratefully accept your help.Every day I find myself, spending more time thinking of you. Every day, before go sleep, I imagine our first meeting. How I will come from airport, and I would see you at the first time. I really can't imagine how many emotions I'll feel, because even thinking about it, my heart beating is becoming faster and faster. It seems to me, that I did not want anything in my life, as to meet you. My dear Prince, your letters are pure inspiration to me. I want to see you, and tell you, that I miss you more and more as the days pass. I want you to be my happiness forever. A lot of time has passed, I feel nervous, because I think that love has finally found me, can this be Love? Yes. My inner feelings never liar me. I think of the future, many years from now and I see you and me, together, married, our family, I know it may sound a kind of silly, but it is my dream, you are my dream, a life by your side. My dear David, I wonder how will it feel to have you in my arms, to kiss you, to love you. It makes me crazy, no, YOU make me crazy! I can stay with you 1-1.5 months, then if I won't want to come back (or if we'll be married), I'll be able to stay with you, and do everything for new visa or something else from USA.As for the documents that I have to prepare, I have already inquired of them at a travel agency. I have got a passport this year, so there wont be any problems at least with this. But it remains to get a visa and buy a ticket. For the first I need 330$ and for the latter 1200-1400$, it depends on the date of my departure. Extra expenses, such as a trip to Moscow for visa and others, Ill pay with my parents money.As for the ticket, it should be bought beforehand. Only on this condition I can get visa. Id like you to send me 1550$, of course, if you can afford it.This is for the ticket and the assurance. If its too much, please write about your capacity.I hope, that it'll be good news for you, as for me, because nothing can prevent us to be together. I miss you so deeply, waiting your reply,Love you more and more-Your Olga

Letter 5

Hello, my sweetheart David!
Im more than grateful to you. You offer me to move to your place, and you know Im ready. The more I live here the more I wanna be with you. My parents turned out to be quite ?advanced people and they agree with me completely. I want to be your wife .Im happy that you want to see me.My heart is already there with you.My photos. Im glad you are interested in them. Some of them were made in a professional studio; others were taken by my friends or parents. As for me, I prefer the latter.Notice that the majority of my photos, it is made at my place!!!You wonder why I use the service of a travel agency. First of all, they possess the whole information about documents I should prepare, and then, they can help me get B-2 visa at the US Embassy. Its better than trying to do it myself. The agency will introduce me in the Embassy as a tourist who wants to visit your country and give your Embassy a warranty that I will not violate the law or trespass against it when I am in your country. If I tried to get the visa myself, I would have too many questions and little chance to get it, because your Government doesn't want too many people to stay in the US, so, they try to prevent this and don't give visas, because many people stay in your country illegally after their visas expire.You informed not correctly, that for reception the visa I will need long time. It not the truth! Even, when our teachers who have for a long time worked at our school go sometimes in business trip in your country, they go under the tourist visa and have no with its reception of any problems! And how Russian tourists visit your country? You did not reflect on it? It simply to receive the visa in other country if you have no any bad past! Or you think that your country is closed for visiting? It not so! There can be you do not want that we have met you? I do not want to think so, I want to think that you love me. Before to write my letter, I have well learned all in agency and I write to you the original information. If I shall not use agencies, I should go itself to Moscow to receive the visa and necessary to lead there some days and to stand in the big turns. Then I should go there repeatedly behind reception of the visa and itself to be engaged in all documents. I never was in others the country, therefore I do not know, what documents are valid and necessary for travel to other country. The agency, will engage in my documents. They will send my documents to Moscow, and only after my visa will be ready they will give to me tickets. Therefore I how many do not doubt of honesty of this agency.I know that it is the big money for you, and is especial they big for our country. I at all could imagine that my trip to you will to cost such quantity of money. I even never held such big sum of hands. In fact it is the sum makes 45000 roubles. The difference between rouble and dollar makes 1:28. And the salary of the worker makes in a month of 2500-3000 roubles. To me even for the whole year to not earn such money. My parents want to help us to that have. These are 400 dollars. Three monthly wages. Forgive, I am simply compelled to ask you the help, it is a shame to me to do it, but I have no other output. I so want to see you my love and I want to be with you. Please help us to meet, only we depends on your decision with you destiny. My greatest desire for you, my beloved and I-m ready to leave my life here and move to you. Without sharing these things with the one you love, life would be empty and lonely. I really fall in love with you, and you know, I cant image my life now without you and your love, your warm words and letters! I think about you every day and night cant wait our meeting! Each time that I read your letters, I find you more interesting, more loving and kind person, more and more! With every day I understand that we will be so happy together! Im ready to start the process of getting visa, as almost everythings arranged at school and with documents. I am so happy now, because you want to see me and I will make all for our meeting. I am ready to begin process of getting of the visa the nearest 2-3 days, all depends only on your opportunity to help me, all documents are available also, and it is necessary to give them to agency of travel only.I am infinitely grateful to you for your understanding of my difficult situation. Im regretting, that I cannot provide my trip to you by myself, and have been confused that is compelled to ask you about the help. I hope, that for you will not be too difficult to send me of money. At the agency they told me that the best way to send money is Western Union or Money Gram (www.moneygram.com). I visited the local office of WU and they gave me this information: Money transfer: amount Money amount should be send in words or figures. You should write the full name of the receiver and receiver's full address. You will need my address for this:Russia.city-Kirov.index-610035. street-Popova.Home-41/10.for Lavrinova Olga. I need the full name of the sender and full address (I will need it). It is also necessary to know MTCN (Money Transfer Control Number), it consists from 10 digits and Expected amount. Also you can send money through a site westernunion.com, but in this case your credit card will be necessary. Dear, I hope we will be able to manage with all this. Be sure, I will do everything for us.
Im terribly sorry that I have to write all this instead of tender words that I really want to say to you, my dear David, but as our wishes to see each other coincide well cope with all sorts of embarrassment, wont we? As soon as Im with you, Ill give you as much love as no one in this world. From letter to letter I fell Im getting closer to you.
If I move to your country, I will miss of course my parents and my pupils, but, you know, dear David, I have a dream about my own children. The time of making it come true approaches, and you, my darling, you are the one I love- Your Olga