Letter(s) from Olesya Volkova to Paulo (Brasil)

Letter 1

Hello Paulo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The day is remarkable today. What concerning your weather? Can be, today after work I shall go home. I love to go along the street on fresh air, warm weather is especial when. Actually I do not want to go home. At home it is very boring and alone. Sometimes, when I come home with good mood, I want to speak very much, to divide ideas, to have an entertainment. But my apartment is empty, and I should be in complete loneliness. And my good mood disappears: I simply sit in an armchair and I look on a window. And when the silence deafens me, when I hear as my flows of blood in my heaD, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at this moment to me becomes intolerable, and my heart compresses. I do not know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read the book. But through some moment I understand, that I only deceive myself. I want, that favourite man was about me, with whom I could carry out evenings meet morning, speak and dream, of tomorrow's day. I want to go and to feel, that the strong hand the man holds me. I do not want to prepare food only for myself. I want, that someone has estimated it. But it is enough about it. I began to write the letter in the morning. You want to know, why I have chosen you Paulo? I spoke you already, that it was the casual choice. I have given a choice to destiny. Now I do not regret about it. Tell me, you trust to destiny? You trust in love from the first sight? You want to know about the Russian men? There are good men in Russia, but I am disappointed already with the Russian men. I heard, that in your country the men are careful about the women and love, hence I have decided to write to you. I was helped with it by my girlfriend. It was her idea. Today I shall go again to Elena, when I shall write to you the letter. I hope, that she is better today. Elena was very pleased, when I have come to congratulate on birthday. We also spoke fur-trees a pie. By the way, about you also. I have told Elene about you. You are not offended? Elena has asked to transfer you Hi from her. I spoke with the doctor, he has told, that all is good with Elena, is faster Elena will be corrected. I am very pleased. You can imagine? I just treated teeth to the small boy. I have asked him: Of what you dream? He has answered, that he dreams to become the adult, because the adults have no problems with teeth. It was so amusing. I frequently remember childhood. I always dreamed to become adult as soon as possible. As each child I completely believed, that the adults have no problems in general. I dreamed in childhood, and I dream now. Certainly, world dreams - illusory world. We live in real life, so we can not, plunge into the world dreams and imaginations long time. When the dream becomes persuasive idea, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Not all in this life depend on us. When the dream during long time is failed, the dream stops to be that star, which was a beacon at ocean of life, which shined a way. But, by and large, I think, that is impossible to live without Trust and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. Dreams - those things, which do us by the people, they distinguish us from the whole alive world. The dreams bring in a variety in life. The dreams cause to think, to analyze, to choose and to come to a conclusion. Trust and Hope - eternal companions of our life. And regardless of the fact that the pleasure of victories and subordinated tops waits in the end,, we remember better, than isappointment and pain of defeats. You agree with me? I am surprised, that I write you all this. Forgive me for my frankness Paulo. If I have told, something superfluous goodbye me, please. You love, when your friends come in your house? What clothes you love, when put on lady? I shall wait for your letter with impatience
Your girlfriend OLESYA

PS:My honey I to not have any telephone unfortunately!!!
Olesya Volkova

City Cheboksary, RUSSIA
street Mira, house 18, apartment 31