Letter(s) from Olga Dolgireva to Peter (Germany)

Letter 1

Hi, Peter,
it is Elvira.
Thanks for giving me email address. It is easier for me to write directly to your email, because this way I can spend more time writing about myself.
I really hope you continue to write me, so we will probably start our epistolary romance! Why not?
The relations in Internet has one feature. You can't see the person in the other side of display, so you should be patient, open and honest with your partner. I promise to tell you everything you want to know about me and hope soon we will see if we can be soulmates and become as a couple.
I am here to find love. For me is not important the age, life experience, nationality, the location does he lives, or what creed does he has. All those things can be replaced if there will be understanding, special inner feeling and attraction between us. I believe in love and I think if people do love each other, they can cope with all the problems and life obstacles. Don't you think the same?
I want to be with matured man who knows how to love, who is able to share his life with mine, who can care about me and who is able to show his emotions, feelings, his loving side. I need smart, serious and considerable man.
I will tell something about myself in this message. I am 27 years old, have blue eyes, blond hair. My hight is 165 cm, weight is 55 kg. Maybe it will help you to imagine my measurements. But you can see my appearance on the picture I sent you too.
I live in Izhevsk. It is town in centre of Russia, about 1300 klm from Moscow to the east. This city is located in region which called Udmurtian Republic. I guess you have a question why did I specify Belgium in my profile? The reason is it wasn't actually my idea to put my picture and profile in website. My girlfriend Vera has married a man from Belgium and relocated there not long time ago. She is happy in her marriage and waiting for baby. When I talked to Vera, she told that I should leave Russia and try to find foreigner. She told me that I should try Internet relations, because it is possible to meet good matching man there. She wanted to help me and even created profile for me and pushed me to use this website! So I am here and have a hope to find my future husband in Internet. I want to be happy as my girlfriend Vera. Maybe I also have a chance to create a family in foreign country.
I have never been married and don't have kids. I am the only child in my family, I have no brothers or sisters. My parents are pensioners and they live in the village, which is not so far away from Izhevsk. They have their own garden there. I visit them every weekends. My parents are very nice people and they are all I have in my life.
As to my hobbies, I have a lot of interests. I love many kinds of sports, camping, go out with my friends, visit theatres, cinema... I like to read books and in the last time I am interested in psychology, philosophy, history.
What more to tell you in this first letter?
I want you to know that I am able to speak English rather well, so we will not have problems to communicate in the future. I write to you by myself and don't use any helpers. Of course my English is not perfect, but I want to make it better talking to you and perfecting my pronunciation. I also have the idea to learn one more language in my life.
Ok. Please keep telling me about yourself. I want to know about your character, your life preferences, your ideas about relations in Internet, your city and family. I want to know you better. As right now, I want to notice that I feel very good about what I've found out about you from your description.. I am also very happy to see you look at this as a start of a very serious relationship and I want to meet you in person as soon as possible, because you are, probably, what I have been looking for. If you are as nice inside as you look on the picture and from your letter, I would be happy to continue with you..
I am very serious with my intentions and hope you don't play games too.
Please let me know if you find my letter interesting?
In my next letter I will try to write you more about myself.

Sincerely,
Elvira

Letter 2

Hello Peter,
I hope you are doing well and you have smile getting this letter. I was pleased to hear from you and read about you. You seem like a good person for me, and I would like to know you better.
Peter, I want to continue with you, so I write you again…. My dear Peter, I try to choose right words to describe yourself and tell about my life, because I don’t want to create wrong imagination about me. I want you to understand that I am real, alive, simple person and I have my own emotions, so if you decide to give me up, please be careful with your words. I have choose you from many men who wrote me, because I think you are the best I could find there. You are sensitive and smart and maybe we can be good friends first and something more in the future… Right now I don’t want you to go away from me. I want you to try to learn me and see my individuality.
I’ve already told you about myself in my previous letter, but of course it is not enough, so I will continue to tell about my personality as I would like you continue to tell about yourself.
I work as a small manager in Construction Company. It is my second job (first was as a secretary). It is interesting work, but I would like to change it in the future, because I like to experiment. If I relocate to another country, maybe I can find new job there.
I finished Udmurtian University in Izhevsk, where I’ve studied Economy. There also I’ve learned English.
I like movies, art galleries, reading, biking, camping, I like to spend much time outdoors, going for walk in the parks with my friends, going to nature. I like many kinds of sports, I play tennis and volleyball.
What more? Maybe I will tell you some things about my personality. I use internet the first time, so it is something strange for me. I don’t know who I will meet, but hope everything will be ok and I can find my future husband here. I would like to create my own family in the future. I think husband and family are the most important things in woman’s life and I do hope to have it soon. Tell me do you want children or not?
I know that you would like to ask me why I can not find man in my area. Actually, it is difficult question…. I do not know why. Of course I had man in my life and with one man I had strong relationship, but I did not create long strong relationship with him because he lied much to me and he tried to meet with a few girls in the same time and have sex with all of them. I think he was not smart and serious. I finished all the contacts with him and I just have heard that he drinks a lot now and he beats his present girl. It is disgusting… I don’t want the same experience in my life.
I really would like to find man who will understand me and will see in me real lady. I believe in honesty, kindness, giving, loyalty, and generally doing what I think is right and good. I learn from my mistakes and do my best not to repeat them. I am Christian and believe
in God. Basically I am a very sensitive woman who is not afraid to show emotions. I believe very much in love and I know that I will meet my only "love" soon. I am tired of being single and I want to share my life with the right man. I am very romantic and caring woman. I have not entered into a long term relationship because I have not met the right person. I never was marriage and have no children.
Peter, please understand from the beginning that I am very serious about seeking the real man who will become my soul-mate, my best friend, my lover, my truest companion, and my partner in all things. I want very much to share my life with that very special man. We will laugh together, cry together, and love each other, and share our hearts, minds and desires together.
I live in apartment which one I rent, I do not have my own apartment, because it is expensive for me. As I told you I don’t have any brothers and sisters; I am the only child in the family. My parents live in the village.
Well, it is enough about me now, if you really think that you interesting in knowing me better, so please answer back. I would like to know your better and you can feel free and ask me everything, ok?
Hope to hear from you soon, dear Peter,
Your new friend Elvira.

Letter 3

Hello , my dear friend Peter!
I joy getting letter from you. I really glad that our relations have a good start! I like you very much and it is important for me to be close friends first and than something more. Our correspondence will show if we can grow in our feelings. I am glad you want to know me better. I am really interesting in knowing more about you, your life, your dreams and interests.
I will tell you more about me, ok? It is long letter, but you should be patient and read this to know more about me.
I am honest, sincere, reliable, kind, careful and energetic. I have a creative and inquisitive nature. My friends consider me sociable, understanding, self-confident and optimistic person with a good sense of humor. I have a creative and inquisitive nature I think that it is impossible to be happy if you are alone. I’ve never been outside of Russia, but I like to travel. I did not travel much in Russia and around the World. Every my vacation I spend in my town. But I would like traveling and discovering new places with you.
As I told you in my first letter I have many friends, I think it is because I am very open person and tell everyone what I think. I have well relationship with my co-workers and we celebrate our holidays together. Most of my friends have their other half, but I am still alone. I tried to find man in my town, but I was not lucky. I met man who wants only sex or short relationship, many of men in Russia drink much and I do not like it. I already told you about my interests and hobbies. I can tell you more. I like very much playing tennis and I try to play when I have a time. Sometimes I like high adrenaline in my blood and I go for extreme sport in parachute. You can say that I am crazy but I am extremely careful by not taking risks on my life. I like reading about many different subjects and this can be from adventures, politics, and survey reports to other academic works. I like history and languages and my next target to learn new language.
Classic music by German and Russian composers is of my favorite to listen while I write and read. I like listening Latin and light pops but nowadays I cannot stand long to listen Metallic or hard rock style of music.
My preference for food is the seafood and good quality wine is one of my preference to taste. Actually I am not a good drinker and can get drunk after third glass. I like quality values of life but this does not mean that I look and go for expensive things. I more call about qualities in social side.
Actually I do not like giving huge question list to know the people and I rather prefer doing it as daily conversation and better, face to face meeting in future.
You know Peter, I am really tired to be alone and you can not believe how it is terribly to spend evenings lonely, it is the most boring time for me. I really glad that I met you in my life and I do not want to stop our relationship, I want continue it. I know that we can be more just friends in future, we just need not rush and everything will be fine, am I right?
I am one man woman and think that love is very strong feeling. I believe that love must be a feeling that lives forever. I'm looking for someone that is easy going with a good sense of humor and ability to laugh in life and love it. I believe in physical attraction and intellectual connection are mutual must be. I do not think age is important to me, but I would prefer a mature man who knows deeply how to treat his woman. I am looking for someone who will bring a smile on my face... Someone who will love me and accept me for who I am.... I want to find my soul mate who will also be my best friend, a loving husband and a person that possess a loving heart, needs to be loved. I have a lot of love to give and share with someone who can receive that love and
then give love in return. I don't claim to be the perfect woman but I will try my best for my "husband" .I know you might think that you're not perfect but everybody has some imperfections, we must improve and recognize ours mistakes.... I am a lovely woman with great and good thoughts, nothing bad but I would love to explore with my lover fantasies of ours desires.
I do wish and want to see more photos of you; it gives me a good idea of you. I do wish and want to hear more from you and your wishes and desires for the future. Don't hold back because this will and might make us closer. I'm looking forward to hearing from you.
Believe me that I really want to know you better,
your new friend Elvira

Letter 4

Hello , my dear friend Peter!
I joy getting letter from you. I really glad that our relations have a good start! I like you very much and it is important for me to be close friends first and than something more. Our correspondence will show if we can grow in our feelings. I am glad you want to know me better. I am really interesting in knowing more about you, your life, your dreams and interests. > I will tell you more about me, ok? It is long letter, but you should be patient and read this to know more about me. > I am honest, sincere, reliable, kind, careful and energetic. I have a creative and inquisitive nature.
My friends consider me sociable, understanding, self-confident and optimistic person with a good sense of humour. I have a creative and inquisitive nature I think that it is impossible to be happy if you are alone. I’ve never been outside of Russia, but I like to travel. I did not travel much in Russia and around the World. Every my vacation I spend in my town. But I would like travelling and discovering new places with you. > As I told you in my first letter I have many friends, I think it is because I am very open person and tell everyone what I think. I have well relationship with my co-workers and we celebrate our holidays together. Most of my friends have their other half, but I am still alone. I tried to find man in my town, but I was not lucky. I met man who wants only sex or short relationship, many of men in Russia drink much and I do not like it. I already told you about my interests and hobbies. I can tell you more. I like very much playing tennis and I try to play when I have a time. Sometimes I like high adrenaline in my blood and I go for extreme sport in parachute. You can say that I am crazy but I am extremely careful by not taking risks on my life. I like reading about many different subjects and this can be from adventures, politics, and survey reports to other academic works. I like history and languages and my next target to learn new language. > Classic music by German and Russian composers is of my favourite to listen while I write and read. I like listening Latin and light pops but nowadays I cannot stand long to listen Metallic or hard rock style of music. > My preference for food is the seafood and good quality wine is one of my preference to taste. Actually I am not a good drinker and can get drunk after third glass. I like quality values of life but this does not mean that I look and go for expensive things. I more call about qualities in social side. > Actually I do not like giving huge question list to know the people and I rather prefer doing it as daily conversation and better, face to face meeting in future. > You know Peter, I am really tired to be alone and you can not believe how it is terribly to spend evenings lonely, it is the most boring time for me. I really glad that I met you in my life and I do not want to stop our relationship, I want continue it. I know that we can be more just friends in future, we just need not rush and everything will be fine, am I right? > I am one man woman and think that love is very strong feeling. I believe that love must be a feeling that lives forever. I'm looking for someone that is easy going with a good sense of humour and ability to laugh in life and love it. I believe in physical attraction and intellectual connection are mutual must be. I do not think age is important to me, but I would prefer a mature man who knows deeply how to treat his woman. I am looking for someone who will bring a smile on my face... Someone who will love me and accept me for who I am.... I want to find my soul mate who will also be my best friend, a loving husband and a person that possess a loving heart, needs to be loved. I have a lot of love to give and share with someone who can receive that love and then give love in return. I don't claim to be the perfect woman but I will try my best for my "husband" .I know you might think that you're not perfect but everybody has some imperfections, we must improve and recognize ours mistakes.... I am a lovely woman with great and good thoughts, nothing bad but I would love to explore with my lover fantasies of ours desires. > I do wish and want to see more photos of you; it gives me a good idea of you. I do wish and want to hear more from you and your wishes and desires for the future. Don't hold back because this will and might make us closer. I'm looking forward to hearing from you. > Believe me that I really want to know you better,
your new friend Elvira

Letter 5

Have a moment smile my dear Peter,
thanks for the letter. I like to receive news from you and it is my pleasure write you back in short time. Sometimes it is not easy for me to send you e-mails, because I am busy person and have to work a lot. But I am here on Internet to find my beloved man, so I try to find free time every day to reply on your mails. I recognize for myself that I feel attracted reading your letters. I think we can be a matching couple with time, don’t you think so? You can not imagine my pleasure when I saw your mail in my Inbox. Please, don’t fall in Love for somebody in these days when we start to know better each other and you are so interesting for me, and my hope is that I am same for you.
I wish you have nice days, my dear Peter. Often I think after your mail that you are, Peter, so much nice and I am not enough interesting for you? Your personality is not ordinary and "normal". I see you are smart and strong man... I am sure that you have lot of people around who try to catch your attention. I am here too and try to become the most important for you and win your Heart! For me is wish and hope to be more of a "friend" now and maybe something more with time (if you let me). Maybe only God know our destiny.
In my next mail I can try to write about my preferences in life, about my dreams and I will tell you what I am looking for in my soul mate. I am trying to resume all the thoughts in my head, so I am going to send you my next letter with image of my future relations.
In next minutes I can send you also a photo and wish to be more close friend for you and maybe one day your .....SOULMATE. EVERYTHING DEPENDS OF YOU, my dear and lovely Peter.
Please, send me your wonderful pictures.
Take care of yourself. Lot of sweet & tender kisses.....
Your new friend Elvira

Letter 6

Hello, my dear Peter,
thanks for your letter again.
I am catching your attention, don’t I? If so, let’s continue our way of learning. I really joy to communicate with you and I would like to discover each other and would like to find and create many common values. I hope this letter finds you doing well. I'm glad you are interest in me that gives me hope for the future. I'm thinking that, basically a simple person, I want the same things in life you are seeking. I would love to find my soul mate, my best friend, my lover. I'm not looking for somebody that I can live with; I'm looking for a man I can't live without!
You know dear Peter, last night, I took some time, sat down and drafted an account of what I am looking for in a soul mate and that special someone in my life. I’ve promised in my last letter to tell you what I am looking for in my soul mate, so here it is.
What would I like to see in my soul mate:
1. Kindness, politeness and softness in demeanour.
2. I would like my partner in life to be honest, unconditionally faithful..... someone I could really trust with my life.
3.Open-minded, and willing to weigh and consider all sides of a situation. Someone who is willing to reflect on challenges in life and willing to work with me to solve problem.
4.I would like my soul mate to be someone who is willing to compromise.... because, even though we would be two bodies our soul would be ONE. On my part, I would be willing to compromise selflessly and unconditionally.
5.I am very active physically. I watch my diet and I try to stay away from "junk" food as much as I can. Don't worry; I am not a fanatic either! I try to balance caution with "fun" as much as possible. Therefore, I would like for my soul mate to participate in physical activities with me. It enriches a marriage and makes it more fun! I would love to travel, go camping, hiking, walking, strolling, skiing, dancing, concerts, cooking and entertaining friends with my soul mate. Sky is the limit!!!! I believe that doing all of these together forges a strong and healthy relationship for a couple. Of course, if my soul mate enjoys other types of activities, I would be open, flexible and amenable. I am very easy to please...especially if my soul mate applies the magic of love, embraces and kisses...It is not difficult to "melt" me.
6. I would like a soul mate that truly considers me as their BEST friend. Of course, my man would always be my BEST friend, always and unconditionally. I would like to be at the top of his list among the loved ones. Of course, after his parents. Parents must always be at the top of
the list in respect and love.
So, what would I offer my soul mate, my love, my best friend and my husband?
I would ALWAYS be absolutely and unconditionally be faithful to him. To me, he will always be the most courageous best men on earth, regardless of age, illness or anything unforeseen.
I would ALWAYS respect and LOVE him, absolutely and unconditionally. He would be my confidant and partner in all affairs.
I know you are seeking your soul mate; it is a difficult path you are on, to find your soul mate you must go through many obstacles to achieve and find her. I have so far been through many of these obstacles. I will be completely honest with you; I do not know if we are soul mates, how does one know this? But if we are, we will see it soon.
I have some questions for you.
So, Peter, tell me about your desires, what makes you laugh, sad, content, what is it you seek in life? I would like to know more about you.
As you see I like to write long detailed letters. It is part of my personality, I prefer to write about myself then tell about me. But I don’t ask the same from you. People are different, so feel free with your wishes, just write me something… but sincere, something goes from your heart…
Well, I will finish for now with my long letter, but I will wait to hear from you soon…
Sincerely Elvira

Letter 7

Hello dear Peter
Thank you for the answer. I’ve wondered if you would write me back after that long letter. I thought it was little boring or imposing… But, any way I think we should learn us from the letters, so we can understand each others characters and life.
You know such a good weather today and there are a lot of people who are walking outside! It would be really nice to walk outside with you someday. I hope someday we will. Today one of my friends had birthday and we had tea with birthday cake this evening. I told some of my friends about correspondence with you. They were impressed and had many questions when, where and how I met you. It was difficult to explain them, because the most of them have no imagine how to meet friends due Internet. You know Peter, in place I live not so many people have computer at home. I do not have computer in my own too, so I always use somebody’s computer. For example, my friend Katya has. And sometimes she allows using her computer for different reasons like typing or searching information. It is owing to her I’ve found you trough dating site, because it was her idea to safe me from the loneliness. . She thinks that love will make me feel complete. I am glad that it happened!
Except my friend’s computer, I use computer in Internet - cafe? There I can write letters to you privately, nobody bothers me and I can think better. This letter I am sending from the Internet-cafe after my work.
When I wrote you first time Peter, I couldn’t imagine that I will find such good man like you. It is fate, I believe! I have big hope that you are that special man I am looking for. I see, you are good, honest, kind, open man, and you are very serious with me... I told you that I do not like when someone plays with me. I tired to be lonely in my life, I really want and need find someone like you who will be always with me, I know that it is only words, but I am sure you understand what I mean and believe that all my words come from my heart. I do not know why but I begin to think about you often, Peter!
It is time to go now,
write me soon, ok?
Your Elvira.

Letter 8

Dear, my lovely Peter.
First of all, thank you for mail. I ask you to forgive me …. But in this days I am so busy at my work and I must work so much also in the office and if in next days I can not maybe send reply quickly. I ask you to forgive me if there will be delay. Ok?
I never « play» with somebody, not with feelings of somebody who are important for me, and I like that anybody «play» or told me lies. Remember and please…. trust in my words that you never can read or hear a lie from me or that I can’t be correct and fair with you or with everybody of my friends! I don’t like to play with emotion of anybody, I try to be friend, later if the other person likes to meet me or know better… O.K., but never « play» or « games « with anybody. In last time I had some very bad experiences. I don’t need this type of friend.
When I started my searching in Internet some “friends” wrote me (always same) that they looking for sex and just this kind of friendship. Is «this» a serious person or somebody who try to find somebody stupid who give a sex????? I am so tired of such type of men, believe me.
I am very happy for this possibility (via Internet) to find somebody «important» for my future.
Dear Peter, I don’t think this about you!!!!!!!…… no, I ONLY TRY TO DESCRIBE HOW ALL TYPE OF PEOPLE IS POSSIBLE TO FIND ON Internet .
Why YOU??? Maybe because you are so nice, this is important but not at first place and more important is that I like to find an intelligent partner and somebody who know what he wants in his life. You look for a soul mate and I hope that my Russian nationality is not obstacle for you and us?
I don’t ask so much, but I have a big Heart which need love and need somebody to loving, if is possible for all our life.
Dear, try to be my friend, try to know me better with our messages and letters and maybe with time you will say to yourself if is possible to « be» some more in our relationship and friendship! I know myself and my character …. I am O.K.!
I know that with money is not possible to buy happiness and luck. I need somebody to be happy together, to see a lot of new places around the World …I am in possibility to do that , maybe with you if you decide that is possible to be somebody important for you.
You are so nice and maybe I am not good for you because you have choice and opportunity to search and take only BEST for yourself…… I am ony a normal type who try to find LOVE, pure and sincere LOVE…. Somebody to love with all my Soul & Body and somebody who are ready to love me and build together a wonderful family.

If you like to make me happy… write me ……… soooooon !
Take care of yourself and God bless you.
Lot of sweet & tender kisses.
Elya.

Letter 9

Hello, my Peter,
Thank you for replay. I repeat again that am so glad that we are in this way of knowing each other. Our correspondence gives me the hope that we can be a good couple.
But I know that there many difficulties in our way. Dear Peter, our places where we live is so fare away and maybe we never see or meet each other in future time, but I believe that everything is possible when somebody wish that. Every obstacle is possible to solve if we want that for us. Am I right?
Dear Peter, I like to look for future and for me is important what we imagine for tomorrow, next time and past experiences are past, they finished. This experiences only help us to don’t repeat again mistakes and wrongs what we made in this relationship and be sure that everybody make wrongs , nobody is perfect and ideal.
I don’t ask you nothing impossible or something what you don’t like to do. You are free to be my friend or to be my love or also interupt our knowing (I hope that you never take this decision…). I ask you only to know me, slowly, «step by step»!
I ask you only to believe in all what I wrote to you. I don’t need to say lies to anybody.
I don’t need to meet somebody for one-week and stop or like somebody with criminal purpose. I am normal single girl who are tired to live alone and lonely and who try to built a family with somebody who discover day by day, step by step.
Every next day, something new and interesting. This is not only a dream, I like that this come true and reality!
Dear Peter, I’ve already mentioned in my previous letter you are very nice. If you don’t believe me … look others men who are on this sites and tell me if it is easy to find more nice?!
This is not compliment … this is TRUE ! But….. I like to know more of your personality , your character, your moods, how are you in your relationship with somebody who you like?
Please, tell me that you don’t play with me….. Tell me that you are not only a «nice dream» and I never will see a happy end!

I ask you to be your friend (first) and with time something more (If
you want)…. Your Love! Elvira.

Letter 10

My dear Peter
That last letter from you made me feel good again. Today is regular day and I am not as tired. I have good mood and I would like to share it with you. Please, Peter, smile for me now! I am feeling that.
Tell me how are you today? How is your work? It is interesting to know what do you feel about my letters? I mean do they let you feel my true personality? Peter, I hope I don't make you boring and scaring with my thoughtful and discharged letters (maybe sometimes it looks like this). I assure that I'm simple, sociable and easygoing person who likes to have fun and do usual things. But I have many thoughts and I want to share my private World with somebody who will listen and understand me. I see you are writing me, so you are interested in my personality as I am. I would like to get to know you, otherwise I would not be writing to you. As I told you in my previous letter we should take it slow; when the time is right we will both know it. I also believe in friendship first, if we are not friend's first, how would we be able to get along with each other?
I see in you good person who I can tell about my dreams and ideas. You listen me and respond all my letters, so I see that we are interesting for each other. Do you know why man and woman go for marriage? Because together they are able to create a single whole and it helps them to reveal their advantages. We just have to choose right people. All my co-workers are married also and have families of their own. I am tired being lonely; it is such a big world full of people, why do we feel alone? It is wrong to feel this way; I feel that way at times, but not all the time. I spend time with friends and I have some relatives who visit me regularly. But of course I understand the difference; it is not the same as being with someone who loves you and the love is returned.
I will be quite honest with you, when I finally meet a man who wishes to love me, I will love him, and I will be devoted to him. I just hope he will do feel the same. I see so many couples that let something get between their happiness because they will not talk about it, it is a shame and it happens often. As for wanting to be with someone because they are beautiful or handsome (in the case of a man), I know it will not last long, each person will loose interest in each other and move on. I really believe anyway that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, whether it is external or internal or perhaps both; the difference being that internal beauty does not fade with time. Internal beauty tests the weather of time. It is hard to find such beauty (love) in this very transparent world. Those are my thoughts on beauty VS love VS internal beauty. Hope I did not say too much!!
I have included a picture of me.
Sincerely, Elvira.

Letter 11

Hi my dear Peter,
We have just exchanged by several letters (8 or 10), but I notice that
I start to think of you as my only boyfriend, my beloved man, the man who took all my attention. Your letters make my days lighter and brighter. I wait for your letters and if I don't receive them, I feel empties and even can't work productive. Yes, my dear Peter, after your letters something is different in my heart, because I see the soul mate in you. It looks like I know you for many years, its unbelievable was reading and feeling you besides me, even your smell, it was the best feeling I had in all my entire life, lovely, amazing....
All the thoughts I wrote in my letters before are about one soul, one body, one ring for us, not a separated rings to showing around that I have a mark, cows have a mark, we have a love, passion, friendship and on, we cannot live without this feeling, I like to walking around together, forever, like a young couples, to do everything together, as you like and to be honest, there's no limit, even the sky, because I can fly, joking.......
I wish for us to go do things together, things like going out to dinner, going out to see a movie... I want my partner to be very passionate with me during sex and just generally during the day. I wish for him to be thinking about me all day. So, passion, love, sex, maturity are together if we have all of them, be sure we are happy forever, everything are coming naturally, without any prejudice. Kindness, politeness, softness, honesty, faithful, open-minded, compromise with one word, LOVE....
Of course we have to give and share many things, its a change of feelings, ways, manners, the obstacles is high, but we can climb together, helping each others.
Of course we didn't know about us, if yes or no, but all those feelings will come when we are together, its a growing process, day by day. As I told you in my previous letter there some people never discover this soul, because sometimes didn't know what is looking for, and others don't know themselves quite well to really understand the meaning of love. But we know and we are in the way to love.
I'm thinking today we are the citizen of the world, we can be happy everywhere, when we have love passion and health, the rest is nothing. lets try to be more if you like, I am sure we have everything to be happy forever.

Truly yours, Elvira.

Letter 12

Hello, dear Peter.
I feel you are a very warm and loving person and it is my pleasure to know you. I have not met anyone so open and nice. It is like a fresh breeze to meet you. I really think you are the one I have been searching for. I was actually ready to give up with the Internet, hoping to find someone. But I’ve found you and I can tell that I feel about you very serious. I am ready to meet that special person in my life, make him feel loved and secure and give pleasure to each other and whisper loving words to each other.
You know, I will be happiest woman if we could meet us soon. But we have to determine if I come to see you or you come to see me? And this time of our meeting will be soon here and getting visa is sometime long. My vacations are in february. I can choose.
I wish to be for you the special woman you are dreaming. The culture between us may be a little different, but the most important is love and tolerance. Once we met together, we will quick know if we can follow our love relation for all life, and raise a family. We have so many things to learn from you and me.
I often think of you and when we could see us, and have romantic moments. Hope soon...
Yesterday evening some of my single friends were out on dates and in night clubs. I didn’t want to go with them, because I don’t want to look for men. I would rather take this time to reflect on things and write you a few words. I do not believe in going to
night clubs to drink and court men. While I was with my former boyfriend, I used to go
dancing occasionally. In the future, when my “special
someone” joins me, I would love to go again, sometime, to dance and
celebrate. Do you dance? If so, what type of dance is your favorite? I am
not a real polished dancer, but with the right kind of music, I can get in
the mood, get out on the dance floor and have fun with someone I love..!!!
I send you my kisses, Elvira.

Letter 13

My dear Peter,

How are you today? I hope all is well with you. I am quite fine. Sometimes when I get home it seems I have no energy, work at times is very demanding and takes a lot out of you. You know I use computers all the time at my work. It takes a lot out of me. Sometimes I just want to get away from computers. But, without computers and the Internet I would never have met you now, would I? Anyway, enough about work, it is just work.

I thought you should know, I do not communicate with any other men any more, just you. I also feel close to you. I am also and always have been a one-man woman, I just never met him and now that I have found you I have no need to continue looking. I also do not feel so alone, the future seems much more real now with you in my life. I am happy to give you my love and have your love in my life and it makes me feel alive. I also look forward to having a family together. It would be wonderful moment to hold our newborn child. I have held other couples newborns in my arms; it is a very special and warm feeling. It would make me so happy to share this moment and the future with you. Yes we are probably soul mates; it must be what else it could be. I feel the same as you, we seem to somehow know each other and understand each other’s situation, life, feelings and hopes. I know you cannot just stop your life and come to me, just as I cannot. We both have responsibilities. We will both have to be patient and wait a while longer before we can meet in person. But I hope we will not wait too long and soon we can organize our first real dating!
Dear Peter, it is so exciting about your dreams concerning my coming to you... I can't wait to see you and embrace you in airport. So let's plan my trip to Germany. I can plan my trip from the February. Is it good time for you? If you’re really thinking about inviting me to your country, I should start to plan my trip very soon. I have to apply for visa, international passport and buy tickets. It would be pleased if you will help me with my expenses, because it is expensive for me to pay for everything.
I hope you are having a good day and do not let work take over your life. Think about your future with me and just let the problems melt away. Try to meet each difficult situation with a smile first; it tends to disarm even the most difficult person for some reason. And I know you have a nice warm smile.

I look forward to your next letter to me.

Yours truly, Elvira.

Letter 14

Hello, Peter
Thank you for that your warm and tender letter. It was just what I need to read. I am sorry for not writing long letter yesterday. I was absolutely destroyed because of my work. We have a lot of offers for new construction now, so I have to work more.
I miss you dear Peter and if it was possible no one of us should miss the other one right now, I wish that I was a Magician and give you the impression that I was at your side just in this moment and you at my, that have to be wonderful I think. You have become a very special person for me and it would be just fine if there is what you want to, I have such a nice time here every time I sit here and write to you, because to me it is like talking to one that I have known for a very long time and it is easy to talk to you. When I get the letters from you they always make me happy and I have a smile in my face the rest of the day and my thoughts is at you faster than a lightning bobolt, sometimes I dream in the days when I am alone in my home about you and what we are going to do when we meet and how we should react to see each other the first time, my feelings are like I want to show the world that this is my man and I love him with all of my heart, but then again why should I show the world who I love it is just enough to show the man of my dreams who it is. My heart is pounding like a sledgehammer every time I get a mail from you and I feel proud and honored that you have found me and I just answered your mail the first of all, and my feelings to you have grown stronger and stronger for each letter you have send me.
As I say in the last letter I do constantly think of you and you are always in my mind and only that is a pleasure. Yes Peter I love you with all my heart and maybe the rest of my body to;-)) I can go on forever with what I feel but then you will think that I am crazy and flush me;-))
As well as you I feel so lonely and want everything happens faster than never before I am very anxious to meet you and don’t want to wait longer than absolutely necessary. I will give you the best of times you ever dreamt of when I come to you. I would be happy to meet you in February (I agree with the date you told me) and continue our relations as it is the reason of my correspondence. As to flights, I think we can both should try to learn the possibilities for me to get your place. I couldn't open the file you sent me, so I can't tell if that flight work for me. Today I found out about details of my trip to Germany. The process of preparing my trip includes a few steps. First I must order International passport. To prepare International passport I have to apply to Federal Migration Department in Izhevsk. For this I have to go to Sberbank and pay state fee, then bring the receipt of payment to Migration Department with filed application and pictures for passport. They will processes my papers and prepare passport in three days. After I should collect a package of documents for visa. There should be International passport, visa application, the appropriate application forms, application fee, supporting documentation (medical insurance, both way tickets with returned date). For submission the documents on visa the applicant must enter the name preliminary. I have to go to the embassy of Germany for personal interview. I will apply for one year tourist visa. The cost of the visa is 50 EU. I will get Schengen visa, which lets me to travel in countries of Schengen zone, not only in Germany. I like your idea of us visiting my friend Vera in Belgium. She would be happy to see us together!
As you see I have to order International passport, then get additional supporting documents, pay consular fee and organise trip to Moscow for my visiting German embassy. I've accounted my expenses and found out that it should be very expensive for me to hold the passport and visa process. I should have about 880 EU for all my passport and
visa process! As I mentioned I can't afford it as I am not rich woman and at the moment I have very unstable financial situation. I will appreciate your help. I would really wished to have strong shoulder of my beloved man, who could support me financially and who would take responsibility of my needs. I don't want to have such a bad manner to ask, because I value our relations, but if you have sincere intention to help me, I will be heartily impressed... If you ever will take responsibility of me, I will never forget it. I promise to pay you back with all my kindness and tenderness when I arrive to you. I will be your second half and I will always cherish our relations. I already feel that we have tied by our letters and there is no other way.
This is the long letter but you worth every word I have written and a lot of millions more, but my feeling I can’t put word that matches to but I do the best I can.
My dear and beloved Peter I have to stop now because I can sit here and write so much about what I feel and you will never get this mail so I will stop by this and say only the simple word that, I love you!
I will hold your image near to my heart till I get new letter from you.
Yours Elya that is deeply in love

Letter 15

Hi my dear Peter
Thanks for letters and pictures, which I like very much.
I am worn out this evening; it was a hard day to work.
I have problems to concentrate now. I guess that I need a rest and a good night sleep.
I have to tell you that last evening when I was at my bed I tried to take a little sleep, but there was someone have taken over my mind. So it was like watching me at a movie together with one special man looking like you… It made a very big impress at me, I felt like there was someone I have talked to a lot, but not been able to have time together with... But it was very lovely to walk and talk... Where we were I don't know, I have not been there yet, but I think I would like any place if my man is nearby the whole time. Who he is? Oh, he says that his name is Peter. He is strong and he has a very smooth voice I like very much...
I guess that was a little dream, but it was what occupied my mind.
Yes, darling, I am tired, I can't write with out looking and reading and I guess that this week will be busier as it looks like now. But there will come days when it is easy and calm and maybe we need them to just not to quiet but just enough to do and we can have small brakes now and than.
I have dreams about you and what's going to happen when we meet and I have also much high thoughts of you, but we have to wait and see until there is the right time to get together and I guess that we will come in a future not to far away.
I would be happy to arrive to you on the dates you told me. It is very convenient for me. In my next letter I will tell you more about my needs. I think we should start preparing, because it is not much time left. I am going to resume the steps of my preparing tomorrow.
As to my name and address it is here:

Elvira Merzlyakova
Aprt. 89, build. 2, Vostochnaya Str.
Izhevsk, Russia. 426000

The date of birthday is February, 15 1981.
I have to stop now, my brain is cooking and I have trouble to write but there will be a new day tomorrow and maybe you will have a new mail from someone that miss you very much.
Take care my heart and enjoy life as I do
Yours, Elya

Letter 16

Hello, Peter,
Thanks for your letter and information about the tickets. I agree with the dates, so you can book the tickets. Ok?
I ask you to forgive me that sometimes I can't answer on your letters in the same day. Don't be worried about whether I will discontinue writing you letters. I like you very much, I want you, I need you, and I will never stop correspondence with you. I am not sure whether I should call this my love for you, or other terms that are the equivalence or substitutable terms for love, but I really like you. We have come so long since we first wrote to each other and we have made so much sincere efforts to understand each other, it is that strong feelings of attraction that had continued to bind us together spiritually and mentally. I know we will always cherish this distance relationship very much.
Love feeling, communication and relationship are very interesting interdependent topics and big thing that all people are searching for in life and I like to share some of my thought with you. I used to think a lot about it because I wanted to really rediscover and understand myself well. I had thought about what is the true thing that I am really looking for in life. I asked myself what are my musts and my wants about my life partner; what mistakes and carelessness I had committed in the past relationship that were the undermining factors to an otherwise happy and successful relationship and which I will never repeat going forward; how do I want to truthfully love my man in order to give him happiness in his whole life; what are the essentials and best practices which I had also shared with you - that will ensure me and my partner a happy and lasting relationship; and what are the words we should never say and things we should never to our partner in a serious relationship - all these I had seriously thought through since my last relationship and I had found all the answers which I know will work well and successful in my second time around.
Not everyone after their failed relationship is able to constantly re-evaluate themselves. Some are lucky they have the good friends and mentors to give them good advices after their failed marriage. Some had to go through many failed relationships, wasted them half of their life to realize their mistakes but had already left behind miserable past memories that continued to haunt them in their life. Some continued their whole life to search for true love but never found it, but found disturbing memories of disappointments and regrets. I always believe that only if a person can truly understand what he really wants in life, he can clearly distinguish between the feeling of attraction or simply adoration, infatuation or blind love, average love, ad and true love. It requires serious self-reflection, self-assessment and self-awareness. I don't know how to describe my feelings, but I truly have very strong feeling for you, my dear Peter, and I want to make it deeper. The volume and content of our past correspondences have brought us a lot closer to each other.
I am impatiently waiting to our meeting. I can't believe that the day of my arrival is coming closer! So, I leave Russia on February, 20 and come back On March, 8. I hope till this time I will be able to order passport and get the visa to Germany. It is only 17 days left before my arrival!
Tell me if you can help me with my passport and visa expenses? I will really appreciate your help. Ok?
I hope to hear from you soon. I read your letters and it makes me happy. Thank you for coming into my life…
I hope you week has been very pleasant and the sun shines warmly on you, just as warm as my thoughts are about you.
Ok. I will finish now. I am waiting for your letter and send you kiss.
Your Elya

Letter 17

Hello my dear Peter,
I'm great, as I always am, when I receive your letters. I trust all is well with you.
My work load just increased dramatically. Today I had to do very much. I searched some information about our partners for director, and then I prepared many papers for different reasons. It is boring, but it is my work.
I feel attraction with you by my letters and I have big hope we can become as a couple. I hope you will never disappear, Peter. I have been hurt in my life, but it was long time ago. Life goes farther... Now I have different life circumstances and new purposes and achievings. I decided to change my life with you. I want to concentrate on you only. I want to meet you and be with you for the rest of my life. I want to be good wife, best lover and reliable life partner. I have big loving heart and I am ready to open this for someone special. I really love you, Peter. For me you are the best. You are smart, experienced and strong. I also like that you are responsible. And you know what you want from the life. Am I right?
Thank you for booking tickets for me. I will print this information and get it with me to airport. I hope I can start preparing with my documents on this week. First of all I must order International passport. It is not difficult, I have to apply to Federal Migration Department in my city and fill special form. They will prepare International passport in three working days. After getting passport I will be able to apply for tourist Shengen visa. I have already told you to help me with 880 EU to hold the passport and visa process. This sum includes the cost of the passport, medical insurance for my travel, consular fee and road expenses for my trip to Moscow for getting visa. You promised to help me, so I want to express my greatest gratitude to your support, my dear Peter. I really appreciate for your attention and kindness. I tried to learn about the way you can help me and I've been suggested to use Western Union transfering system. For this information I had to apply to the bank. There a few banks in Izhevsk working with Western Union. I was told that it is the simplest way to send-recieve money. I was assured by the operator in the bank that it is enough to specify a name, a surname, the country and city of addressee. Also I have to know your personal given, like a personal name and surname, a home address and confidential transfer number. As soon as I get the money, I will start to order my documents. I am ready to start realization of our dream!
I think about the two of us entertaining friends and family. I look forward to people commenting on how great a couple we are. Two people completely in love and happy together. I picture counting the minutes at the end of my work day, anticipating returning home to you. Currently I work fairly late...until the void at home is filled. That's a pretty bold move and I respect you for that.
You, my dear Peter, my little ray of sunshine. I so look forward to hearing from you. I told one of my neighbors about you. She said it was good to see me so happy. I do feel a strong connection to you...I hope my instincts are correct. I will never be bored reading what you have written to me. You could tell me the sky is blue and I would eat it up just knowing that you were thinking of me.
I asked God to deliver me a good man here on earth. He listened...he just put you on the other side of the globe. I look forward to the first time we meet. I picture a long embrace in a busy airport terminal. But to us, all of the hustle and bustle will be quiet and in slow motion as we will actually be the only two people that matter at that moment. Please realize that I do catch myself thinking of you often, and I do picture the simple moments in life with you by my side...
I should finish on this words and have to go now….
Wait your letters,
Elvira.

Letter 18

Hello, my love Peter
Thank you so much for the letter!!! I am so much impressed when you tell about your feelings.
I miss you so much my Peter and it is so nice to have your letters!!! My dreams are so full of you, I cannot stop thinking about you, and us being together. I am sure someday soon we will be together. Us being together will full fill my life long dream of having someone who actually loves me for who I am!!! I also think we are a very good couple together!!! I cant wait to get our picture taken together. I will hang it on the wall and treasure it forever, our first picture! I now know with how I feel about you and how much I think about you and how I dream of you that I love you Peter. I want you to know that I am very serious about us and coming to you for us to build our lives together with love!
I am very happy to hear that you are feeling as I do. I wish for you to write me more telling me of how you love me and what you want us to do together. I would like you to explain your inner feelings about me and what you expect me to be for you in your dreams. Can you do this? I wish I was there for you when you come home from work. I would greet you at the door give you a very warm and big hug full of loving kissing and holding you close to me. It would be hard for me to let you go. I would like to stay like that forever, but we couldn't because the supper that I would cook you would get cold and we couldn't have that. After eating would be shower and then what ever you want to do. I think I would have a difficult time not wanting to be holding you all the time. I am a loving person and I like to show affection to the one I am in love with and I have not done that for a very long time. So with you it would be like starting all over again.
I thank god every day for us being to each other what we are.
We need to concentrate on getting me there so we can take the next step in our beautiful relationship! You told you will help me the best you can with my expenses. I suggested you to use Western Union
Please look at their website and you will see how this transfering system works.
The address of website is www.westernunion.com. There you can find out about the procedure of transfering. Everything will be fine with my preparing and I don't see any problems with my travel.
I promise once I will be there you will feel most loved and taken care of, I am sure I will spoil you just a little showering you with all my love.
So I hope you like lots of attention? Would you like it if I gave you lots of hugs and kisses and told you how incredibly you are?
I have several movies here to watch and I will take it with me when I go to you.
I like watching movies, but I don't like watching them by myself, I want to watch them with you!!! Have you seen the movie GHOST? It has Patrick Swazey and Demi Moore in it. It is about love, I cried watching this one too! I think of you when I watch these movies. I think we will share similar love as they did in the movie. I have already cried thinking of you so I am sure my feelings are strong.
I am looking forward to our love together, and our family!!! I am waiting for you, Peter, because I love who you are and I am also attracted to you. I love you from my heart and I wish to show you this soon. I will close this letter for now, I hope you are smiling and feeling loved by me because I do love you, Peter!!!!!!!!!!
I send you the picture of me and my mother.
Please send me a letter soon.
Your love forever, Elya
P.S. You asked for my address in Russian:
Aeuae?a Ia?ceyeiaa
426000. ?inney, E?aane, oe. Ainoi?iay, aii 2, ea. 89

Letter 19

Hello, my dear Peter
I am sorry that you felt sick. I hope you are much better today and your health is fine.
As to our meeting, you know it is my dream to see you and get closer to you... But nothing is easy. I understand your position about supporting me with my coming. We just have correspondence and you don't know me in person, so it is more of challenge to build trust while we are so many miles away. If we were in each others physical presence, we look into each others eyes, hold hands and with just a few sincere words build a mountain of trust for each other. So, until we meet, we need to be completely open, transparent and forthright with each other.I consider myself a trusting and open-minded person. I believe in giving everyone the benefit of the doubt. I am honest with you and waiting the same from you. I will tell you the truth. It is very big sum for me to spend for my passport and visa needs and organise travel to your country. I can't even afford to order passport. The cost of International passport is 200 EU. If I would have money I could make it in three working days. But at present moment I have no money to spend for my trip expenses. Nobody agreed to borrow me money as my parents and friends don't have additional money. After passport I have to apply for Shengen visa. You are right that it is easier for me to go to Ekaterinburg. I found the location of German consulate in this city, so there is no needs for me to go to Moscow. For getting visa I need to present a package of papers, which includes passport, letters from my employer, consular fee, medical insurance.I need some money for road expenses too (of course it is little bit less then trip to Moscow). The total sum is about 687 EU. It is still very much money for me. I can only safe about 100 $. So, my dear Peter, you should decide if you are ready to meet me and help with my trip. I understand that it is a lot of money, so I don't ask you to help me any way. you are free to choose your own variant. If you think it is better for you to come to Russia, I don't mind. i will be happy to see you here, to show you Izhevsk and introduce you to my parents in the village. But I think we should realise our first variant to meet. I really want to come to Germany and stay with you there. I hope you can help me.
You should to trust me. I am looking for someone that can never walk behind me and never walk in front of me. I am looking for that man that can walk side by side with me. He is my equal and I am his. It is what I want in my life, always to walk with my man side by side. Please go back to my first letters and you will see what I am really looking for in my life. I want to create family with strong and smart man, someone I can trust all my life. I want to give unconditional love, softness, tenderness, care and support to my husband.
I don't need someone I can live with, I need someone I can't live without. I've told you this once and I will repeat it today. I really want to be with you... I am also tired to be lonely. I feel lonely especially when I come back to the apartment from the work and nobody meet me and give me a kiss... I feel solitude when I sleep alone and nobody embrace me... And when my special days are passing without someone special near by me... My Peter, I will never hurt you. I know what is it to be hurted in your feelings. This kind of wounds more painful than physical. I've told you about my past experience, so I don't want to be in the same situation again. Maybe God wanted us to meet with obstacles before finding our happiness so we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us... I am here for you and we just have to take the step to come nearer to each other... I hope some good events will happen soon. I can't wait too long and finally get disappointments from my correspondence with you. We have been exchanged our letters during many months and we have learned each others life. Trusting and respect are the most important things in relations. I am looking for this type of relations. If you will trust me, we can go farther and create our own family. I am not going to cheat you. I am looking for person who can be my life partner and beloved husband forever.
Dear Peter, I would be happy to be your wife one time and I really think we should be beautiful couple. I know this.
I miss you and wish you would be not so hard with me.
your Elya

Letter 20

Dear Peter
How are you today? I am doing quite well, a little tired, that’s all, and it is a rough day for me, to many demands with work. At time I wish I was just sitting on a beach and listen to the ocean waves with you, thinking about our future together. I think about you most of the time when work is not so demanding. I am thinking about you as I write this letter to you. I think about you before I go to sleep and sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night dreaming about having you in my arms. Then I cannot get back to sleep, so yes I think about you quite often, hoping you are thinking about me. At times I sometimes wonder if you will answer my letters and I would be very hurt if you did not.
I understand your explaining about your sterilization and I remember you told that you can't have kids in your life. I appreciate your decision as you are matured and experienced man and yo know better what to choose in your life. You know, Peter, I really like you and I don't want to stop my correspondence just because you can't have kids. I agree to live with this situation and try to concentrate on other things in our life. i want us to have love and be completely devoted to each other. I want to sacrifice with many things in my life, just because i have tied with you already and I want to be near by you.
As to your children, I am glad that you have them and they are part of your life. It tells that you are caring and responsible man who knows how to treat his close people. I would be happy to become them the best friend and maybe even mother, but of course, I don't pretend on this role as they have their biological mother.
I understand life is demanding and at times we question what we are doing. I do want you to know I do think about you, if I have not said this I am sorry about that. If you ever feel I am not telling you what you need to hear please just ask me directly. I am a very direct type of person; so do not hesitate to be open with me. Communication is very important, remember we do not understand each other’s thoughts, emotions yet, so please just tell me what you want or need, and it is very necessary for us. Do not be embarrassed or shy; just be honest with your questions. I also will do my best not to be embarrassed or shy with my replies. I would like to share our love and ideas with each other. I must be honest and say that yes it is possible to fall in love with someone by writing to each other, why not; is it any different from falling in love by looking into each others eyes without knowing who we really are? It is just a different path of finding love. I do feel we have a connection even though we are on opposite sides of the world at the moment. I read the 2000 words of love and I must be honest I did not understand some of the words or their hidden meaning. I do understand the meaning of the writings somewhat, love requires nothing but love, and to give love is to receive love. Nothing else matters but love, what is life without love. So what I think about love is simply what I think love might be, you see Peter, I have never really shared love with someone, oh I had my infatuations when I was younger, or thought I might be in love, but I have never shared or given my unconditional love to someone yet. This has eluded me my whole life, and I do not know why? It is a question I constantly ask myself, why haven’t I found my love yet? It is the same as you; perhaps that is why we have met this way, via the Internet!!
I’ve talked to my parents about you and my trip. They told that you seem like a very good person for me and they approved my relations with you, but they told that you are so far away from our region and wondered how it would be possible for us to meet. I told them that you wanted me to come for visit and I need money to organize travel. They agreed, but they told that they couldn’t help me to sponsor money to me as they are just pensioners and if I want to be with foreigner I should take care about my future by myself as I am adult woman. That is what they told me.
I really hope you can help me with my coming as it is my biggest desire to become your second half. I want to be your loving wife.
Peter, I understand your wish to talk on the phone. I have the same wish to hear your voice. I believe that hearing the voices is the same as eye looking and personal touches… The phone conversations are able to make people much closer. But I should confess that it is impossible to give you phone number, because I don’t have cell phone. I lost cell phone not long time ago before I met you and still didn’t get a chance to buy new one. My present financial income doesn’t let me to spend the money on such expensive things. But, of course, I want to buy it and I will do it in the nearest future. Cell phone became as necessary thing in our modern life. As soon as I get new phone, I will give you the number, so you can call me any time you wish. You will be the first who will get my number! As to right now, I can call you from the post office with international phone card. Tell me the day and time and phone number where I should call. Ok?
I hope your week is pleasant and the sun shines warmly on you, just as warm as my thoughts are about you
Hopefully romantically, Elvira.

Letter 21

Dear Peter,
I look forward to your letters to me and it is always nice to hear from you. Dear Peter, your letters are very special for me, and I think about you often. I want to be the best women for you. Hopefully, as progressively evident from my letters and my choice of words for you, my feelings for you are indeed getting stronger. Because I was hurt in my relations a year ago, to protect myself, I have learned to get cautious and be careful when falling in love. Even though we are still exploring each other, I am beginning to feel that passion for you that could be love in disguise. I am trying to control my feelings and myself because I don't want to rush you. I really afraid you will disappear me one time. I need to trust you very much. I want to love.
I hope someday we will meet and will continue our relationship even you are so far away from me, but even this long distance can not prevent continue our relationship to grow. I have never meet such a good and special man in my life, I really would like to live near to you somewhere, and come to your door this weekend. I could knock at your door and you will ask who is it? And I will answer, this is me, your Love, and you will open door to me with big smile, pleasure and warm in you eyes! I am sure that eyes tell everyone many things, and when I will look in to your eyes, I will see your thoughts about me for real… I feel that I become closer to you now, Peter. My day I starting with thoughts about you, and finish it with my thoughts about you too, so I can say I think about you often.
My dear Peter, I want to talk to you too. As I mentioned in my previous letter, I don't have the phone at present moment. But I can call you using phone card. Just tell me the time when do you want me to dial you. And also please give me the number. As to my parents, they don't have home phone and even they would have it, they don't speak English at all. My boss also doesn't allow to use working phones for personal talkings, so it is not good idea. I suggest us to try conversation this evening. I will wait for your replay with number. ok?
You know, I've talk to my parents about you and they think you are very considerable and serious man. They think I made good choice. They think that you have good job and hope that you can care about me.
My friends that I have told about you have said we would look great together...I agree! My friends think I'm quite the mystery and that I'm Mis. Adventure anyway, ha ha, so they said me hooking up with a foreigner man just fits my character.
I am missing your letters and hope to hear from you soon.
Kiss for you.
Your Elvira.

Letter 22

Hello dear Peter . How are you doing?
I want to thank you for your answer. I am very sorry that you want to finish... Why? I try to explain you everything and gave as much information as you needed if you decide to continue with me.
You should believe me. All my friends say that I am so sweet, kind, romantic, good… and that they don’t understand why I don’t found a boyfriend. Maybe is true, maybe not! I think for me that I am always optimistic and positive think in every moment of my life and with everybody who are special for me.
I am so simply, I don’t ask so much from my life, not material goods, it’s more important what I feel for somebody, who are my friends, what they mean for me, if they like to stay with me in happiness, to go around to eat, smile, drink, dance, be together and be happy !!!
For happiness you don’t need so much, I like to walk in a wood or beside the beaches, on sand, without shoes (super!).hand in hand with somebody dear to me…
Go to restaurant for eat something special like seafood, look my dear in the eyes and say: «You are my world, I live for our LOVE, you are all my life!», and repeat this in future every day to the last day of our life. Never stop to love my second-sweet half! I believe in love and eternal LOVE!
I need somebody to love, I need somebody who want to be with me when will be good and also in bad moments of our life, life is not only « milk and honey».
I want to respect my man, and I like that he respect me, absolute freedom, but not lies, never lies! This is for me not possible to accept.
I need somebody who stay at my side, look together the fire in «kamin» in winter and feel warm inside for each other, somebody who believe in LOVE ! Love is not only «option», love must be forever! I am very optimistic type, never be «down», only sometimes sad, when I go at evening outside and other people ( couple) are happy and smile…. I stay alone and think: « Why I am not happy, why for me is not possible to find somebody who will love me, real love…??? I believe that one day in future I will find my LOVE!
For me is difficult to explain myself. The best «modus» is to meet me, and try to know me better every next day…
Well, I am finish for now dear Peter and tomorrow will write you again and will wait to hear from you,
I am sending you my little kiss,
Your Elvira

Letter 23

Hello, my dear Peter
Thank you for the letter congratulation. Please don't feel depressed and disappointed. The luck comes to people with patience. We should talk and discuss all the variants of our future meeting. I believe together we can decide all the obstacles.
But It is so pity to recognise that you do not trust me. We have correspondence more than for month and I think I should win your trust. Do you really think that I am able to cheat you and don't come? I want you to believe that I am really serious about creating family and want to find my only soulmate and caring husband.
You know, I am looking for man who will be able to give me his support and who will care about me like about his wife, who will trust me and listen me. I am not feminist and I am not looking for someone who will be dependent from me. The mentality of Russian women is that her man should be responsible for her needs. I am just little and defenceless woman and I don't want to be strong and provide life things by myself. I want my man to be real guarantee of my life. I want to be certain in my future and want to be protected wife.. I want to feel strong shoulder of my husband in sad moments... I want to be keeper of hearth home. So I am waiting trust and support from you. As to trip to Germany it is expensive adventure for me. And as I explained you I need to order passport and all kind of documentation for visa. Even if you think it is less expensive for me, I still should provide a lot of money and the sum is above of my usual limits. Germany is so far from the place I live and I have to spend a lot of money to get there.
Ok, you wanted to know about my work. I work as a manager in company which name is "Stroylux". The address is Izhevsk, Asina Str, build.4, office 401. Tel: 341290388. It is rather small construction company and the basic direction of activity of firm "Stroylux" is construction of inhabited and public buildings. We also make reconstruction and repair. I do a lot of different work, working with clients, but mostly with papers. There is always a lot of work and I am busy person. My work at office consists following thinks. I carry out a lot of paper work, watch business correspondence, take part in negotiations and meetings with partners, I accept participation in drawing up business of plans, I control performances of chief’s tasks to divisions of our firm. I can’t tell, that I carry out lieder functions on this work, but frequently my work demands from me high concentration and skills to be coordinated. That is all about my work.
Waiting for your letter.
Your Elya

Letter 24

Hi Peter
Thank you for the letter, my love! And more of all thank you for trust!
We are learning each other already for a long time, so I think that we are close to each other, like real couple. Sometimes I even think that we have already been together and now we just have short separation before our final meeting, which will bring us to the happiness. I like to recognize that I am your girlfriend and I am not along any more. You are just somewhere far away from me now, but we will meet each other and we will be together. I agree that we should learn more about each other and probably organise our first meeting in summer or autumn. I understand the gravity of situation and agree to wait as long as needed. Always! But on the time we are not together we should take every chance to learn our personalities, our feelings and emotions …
What I can see in your future is me continuing to write and learn all I can about you.
I have said it before and I say it again, why is the man I want to be near, so far away? The answer is this: because this is a test. Many people never go to the trouble to talk to and learn all they can about their special one. They only learn so much and then they stop talking and listening. .And do you know what happens next?
They start drifting apart. They lose interest. Suddenly, they forgot what it was that made them fall in love in the first place. The relationship becomes boring and predictable. Soon, there is no talk at all, and the relationship is doomed.
We are learning so much about each other. Little pieces at a time. Day by day, week by week. When we meet, you and I will be so comfortable, so secure in our feelings for each other. It will feel like we have known each other for years. We will have a huge advantage over many other couples.
You and I will pass this test. Then there will be no question about us being the one for each other.
I do not know why fate has done this to the both of us, each of us so far away from each other, perhaps it is the way of things in this world. You are right about couples or people not communicating effectively, I see it everyday. Listening, really listening is a learned process; some people are better at it than others. The key is to be truly interested in what other person has to say and not be judgmental. Boring relationship will not last. How could it!! How would you prevent a relationship from becoming boring?
Talking is an art that requires two people who really love each other the means of expressing their feelings, good or bad towards each other, communication is the key and two-way communication is very important!!!
My husband would be my best friend, someone whom I could tell anything. Unconditional, and faithful, I would also be the same and expect the same in return. What is a relationship without trust and faithfulness? It is nothing!! It would be like a leaf in the wind, to be blown away by the first windy gust that comes along. True trust would stand against the tests of the wind or anything else.
To be able to truly trust someone is a rare thing in this world. I would cherish my loves trust above all else. It would make me a complete person. It would make me the happiest person in the world to earn this trust; it is a very rare gift to receive.
All I ask is that you write when you can. If you are too busy, I understand. There will be times when I will not be able to write everyday.

Dear Peter, it is time to go. Let me say one last thing.
I want to be with you like crazy, and I keep thinking positive thoughts about us.
My kiss to you.
I hope you will too!
Elya

Letter 25

Hello my dearest Peter
My sweetheart, how are you?
I am ok. My weekends are going very good. The weather here is just wonderful! The sun shines brightly and warmly as in spring! It gives me cheerful mood and romantic thoughts about you...
This morning I spent some time walking outside and inhaling fresh air.. I looked how the snow shines, the pools and thawed patches appearing... I also visited one of my friends and tried her mother's home cooking, and we had a great time chattering on trifles and discussing the news. I told them about us. However, I have been thinking of you and decided to write a letter and share my sunday's mood with you.
I look forward for the time we can be together. I want to have romantic evenings together this will be so wonderful. I think that you indeed have done an excellent job in regards of telling me about yourself, so I am sure that I have made right choice with you. I too think we are meant to be together, and look forward for the time we will meet.
I know it is a bit hard for us both because it for now we can only send emails to each other, but like I said before it is worth it if we are meant to be, which I do very much believe. I hope it is ok to feel this way, I am very happy that I am so lucky to find someone like you, and I'm not afraid to love you and to have you as my husband! Understand please, that I do want you, and I do have hopes that we will be together but don't be so hard on yourself and us, and like I said all we have for now is what we feel and our emails. I know we both would like to have more but again we must be patient I am ok with this, but I hope you can be. I feel like everything I have said since we meet may not be understood, I can only hope that I am wrong. When we see each other don't be worried about me not being comfortable with you or your environment ok? I love you very much please understand this. Everything will be alright you will see. I can't wait to touch you, kiss you, and to love you with all my heart!!! I promise you will feel this from me, I promise.
I want you! I want to be with you, I want to make love to you, I want us to be so in love that people can plainly notice that are love is very special, and strong. That is what I want I hope that that not to much to ask because it is very hard to find in this world, and I would Rather stay single than be with someone and not have this in my life I'm tired of games, I just want the real thing! I am not by any means the typical woman and I am not and cannot be for every man, only one and one who is like me unique and special. I believe that you are this man. Also just so you know If I had a hint that you where not unique and special, we would not be talking at all. So for what ever that is worth to you, it is everything to me.
My dear Peter, I must go and get ready to the next day is soon to come and this will be a busy week for me. I hope you understand me a little more, and if perhaps you would like to tell or ask anything then please do ok. Sorry for the long letter. But I just want you to know me and I hope this helps, talk to you soon, and I love you very much, hope that's ok.
Kisses...
Elya

Letter 26

How are you today, my beloved Peter?
Thank you for letter. I find myself missing you today...
I hope you are fine and have easy week. As to me I am ok, working in office, assorting some documents. I decided to take some time off from my work and write you this letter. I can't stop my thoughts about you. I believe this is the smell of spring excites me and directs to romantic spirit!..
Here finely the snow starts to melt and it starting to cause many problems, because it is slippery and wet. Usually in spring it may cause many floods. I like snow but I just don't like it when people get hurt, or there homes flood, but now it's just starting to melt! I hope the weather in your country is not cool. But if so, I wish I could be there to hold you, and keep you warm, and to keep your lips warm with my sweet kisses and tight embraces! I guess you would like that.
I am grateful we feel the same way about us and we know what kind of relationship we want. I look forward to us meeting and to start a wonderful life together, really look forward to this happening! I want you to know our time will come for us to be together, I as well want you forever and I glad you still want me too, this means a lot to me. Having you, my dear Peter, has been something wonderful and special to me!
Peter, I have so many dreams of you, and I am sure you have a dream of us. I'm not ashamed to tell you that I love you, but only you and God knows your heart, God more. You and I have something that is very powerful and wonderful, I already know that your private world as deep as mine. All the time I think of your touch, as much as I think of touching you and loving you. You are my heart because there is a part of you that is simply me. I'm not looking for someone who is perfect but one who is able to understand, and have honesty, tenderness, and sweetness. Just be yourself but don't be afraid of being you ok? In time you will know more about me as I will know more about you.
I love you more than you could know. You bring much peace to my heart, I want you, and need you.
Much more to say, but for now I must go I have a people coming and then I need to finish some paper work and other projects this I must complete today. I will be waiting for your letter Ok? I Love You, and will talk to you soon.
Take care, Elya

Letter 27

hello my dear Peter,
Thank you for your letter.
Today is Monday and it is beautiful day here. I am at work, it is about lunch time here.
Oh, I just remembered that today is the second day of spring... I love spring very much! It is my favorite period of year. The period of updating and blossoming. I hope this spring will bring us closer to each other.
Is your first days of spring is just as pleasant as mine? I hope so... But of course they would much better if we were together.. I wait the time when we can see each other. I didn't apply for visa yet. I need to prepare a few documents to be able to apply for Shengen visa. I guess there are a lot of time for me to prepare everything. Summer is too far..
I can't wait until we are together and are able to go to different places and just enjoy every day together. Holding hands or a quick kiss while we are in a public place.
To look into your face and just say "I Love You". To be able to see so many different places and see the smile on your face and to hear you laugh at something or even at me. These are what builds a loving and lasting relationship. I want to do all these things with you and be the best part of your every day. When you lay your head on your pillow I will want you to be thinking of me and the wonderful day we have had together. I want to go to nice cafes and eat a nice meal and have a glass of wine and just talk until our throats are sore. When we are alone and together I will want to express my love to you in a very passionate way, so you will know how much I care and appreciate you. There will never be a day goes by that I will not tell you I Love You.
I feel in my heart that there is nothing that we can not do that will ever separate us from each other. To tell someone you love them and not show your love will not work. Love is an action word and one must put action behind it to really show someone that they are truely loved. I am happy that there is an Internet in our life. If there was no Internet, we would have never met each other. There is something good in everything, good or bad, that happens in our lives. We will not have any problems if we are committed and dedicated to each other. If we instill and keep the lines of communication open in our lives and express our desires to each other in truthfulness and honesty. I feel for you and want so much for you and your love in my life. I don't want half of your love I want it all. I don't think I am selfish in wanting this do you? I know you want the same thing in your life. You want to know beyond any doubt that I will be there to give you my total love to you and to you only. If we work at it we can have the perfect love, and have that inner peace that everyone is looking for in life.
As to my work, everything is ok. I work very hard every day. Actually I don't like my job very much. I would like to change it when I relocate to your country.
You asked me some questions. Do I like to physical work? Yes, I like to work. It is good exercise. I help my parents in their garden; sometimes I help my father with some carpentering. What do I eat on breakfast, lunch and diner? Actually I am not choosy type, so I can eat almost everything. On morning I drink coffee and eat some sandwich. In the lunch time I try to go to cafe and usuall take some soup or porridges. In the evening I cook at home. I can cook meat, vegetables, fish...
As to flowers; I like all kind of flowers... I like them, but don't buy often. in spring I have allergy and try to protect myself from superfluous smells... My favorite color is blue.... It is color of sky and sea.
I will close for now and in closing I want to say that I truely love you with all my heart and I want the best for you. I will write tomorrow and let you know how my day is going. Until then I send you warm and passionate kisses and all my love.
Your loving russian woman,

Elya