Letter(s) from Katrina Efimova to Steve (USA)

Letter 1

Hi Steve!

I'm smiling right now! I waited to receive your email and when I got your letter it was a better time! I was working with lots of stress today. Today we had to receive medicines and all pharmaceutical materials including anesthetics. But for some reasons the bus with medicines again has not come to our clinic. I have declared to all patients that I can work but only without anesthetics. And there were many people who were ready to cure tooth even without anesthesia because there is no guarantee that the bus will come tomorrow. So today was the twice difficult working day because not anyone can endure pain especially children. Anyway I took a break and I have been informed that I got the letter and I forgot about all my worries with work. So, thank you for your letter Steve! Forgive me for talking about teeth and about my work. I bet you got unpleasant feeling while reading about anesthesia! I know that all men are afraid of dentists but let me to assure you that as a woman I am absolutely undangerous and harmless for you!!!

Your house is very beautiful. Very picturesque place. It so beautiful. Likely there very silent and quiet place. I can imagine as far as air is fine and clean. The place seems magic. There are no a lot of cars, not smog, only the nature. Pacifying.

Steve, thank you for photos, I like it. You look very nice! And you very funny at the picture "idaho%20043[1]" It's nice vehicle. =)

Steve, as for price of computer, I don't know. I don't interested some thing, but I'll try to check it.

Also I want to tell you that I've asked you in my last letter about your family because it was always important for me. I think many people don't understand completely that family it is a big riches. Many people understand value of family only when lose it. I always loved my parents and now I miss them very much. Both my parents have passed away. Daddy has died when I was a child. He has been killed in a military conflict. Mom has died when I was 16 years old. After daddy's death she always was sick and spent a lot of time in hospitals. Being a little girl I was doing everything by myself: I cooked a meal, sewed clothes, etc. I studied at school and I worked as a nurse in the evening to support us. It was a hard time but it made me stronger. At this time I have found a friend - her name is Olga. She helped me in any ways she could. She is my best friend now and the closest person in my life. When mom has died I was frightened very much but I tried to do everything to be the worthy daughter to be worthy of her love. Together with Olga we have finished medical university we got the specialization together and worked as interns. I really hope I became a woman that my parents wanted me to become. I think that those difficulties that were in my life have made me who I am now. Now I think that I was not saying often to my mom about my love to her and I regret about it so much. Steve, forgive me that I write about it. It is my life and it is a part of me. Simply I want you to know me more because I would be glad to know more about you as well. I wanted to ask what is our religion? Are you religious? How you spend your weekends Steve? Do you like to spend time at the nature? Steve, did I tell you that I have a dog? He is grey and funny dog. When people see my dog they are smiling. I send you some pictures where you can see my dog. Steve, today was really a good day and right now I'm sitting and writing this letter and I'm smiling. And I hope that right now you read my letter and smiling too. By the way my friends know that I'm talking to you and they start to ask questions about you! Well all my friends are two ladies - Olga and Svetlana. You know one of them is working with me at our clinic.
Steve, I have to go. But I will wait for your letter! I hope you will write me soon. And then I will have again a smile on my face.
Your friend Katrina.

Letter 2

Hi my dear friend Steve!

I'm so waited for your letter and I'm so glad that you have written to me! Thank you. Every new day brings to me stronger desire to communicate with you and to receive your letters. And now my mood depends directly on your letters! My mood is in your hands Steve! I hope my letters do not spoil your mood?

Steve, I do not know how to answer your question. You want me to say exact date of our meeting? I cannot do it. I do not know when I will get my vacation. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in some months. But it is not the most important. We have chance to start relations in such a way, to tell to each other about ourselves, to share thoughts; we can become friends, and the meeting after that would bring much more happiness. Maybe you do not want similar relations, but I searched for it, and I understand that I must have a lot of patience in such relations, and I understand that the chance to find happiness is not great, but if there is even one chance to find happiness in such a way, I am ready to use this chance.

As for your questions about Buddhist Monks, yes I know a little, I like read some literature and to know more about Buddhist Monks.

I understand your request to call you from phone. I must tell that I never was so worried about having phone, as now. I never thought that the serious moments in our life can depend on presence of phone. But now I understand that the fact that I have no phone can deprive me an opportunity to learn a man who could become my friend. And it is really afflicts me. But not everything in this life depends on me.
Unfortunately I have no phone. Please, don't be surprising. In Russia many people have no phone. I understand that for you would be easier to talk on the phone. But alas, the life in Russia is not similar to a life in America, and for the majority of people a process of getting of a phone is too long. If the phone for you is the main criterion for the future relations, I will understand you of course. But I have decided to use the Internet because it is really accessible way for me. And if you still want to continue talking to me via email I will be very happy.

You asked about “I could be happy for the rest of my life with my cinnamon girl” Neal Young I don't sure but it sound as known song.

I do not know what is the time difference between us. But I live in the third time zone. We have Moscow time.

Steve, I want to tell that I am really glad that I have found such a friend as you. And I am very glad to talk to you about everything.
In my life I had always only two true friends - Olga and Svetlana and they always gave me their support. But now I have three friends and I am very glad. Today I have been a little alarmed because Olga has not come to clinic. It is a little strange because only the serious circumstances could become the reason of that. I simply worry that she got sick. Yesterday we have spent evening together and everything was fine. Olga and Svetlana live not far from me. And if we spend evening in our village it means that we sit at home because our village is a very small place. We have only one small grocery shop here the only our pride. There is nothing else out here. I cannot tell that I do not like this place. But here there is a lot of chechens and it always frightens people. But I like my village all the same. And I don't even know what I like more small village or a big city. Olga does not like our village and dreams to live in the big city with cinemas, museums, parks, with beautiful houses and shops and attractions. And I like it as well but I like as well our river and our forest, our air, our silence, singing of birds behind my window...

Steve, what do you like more the big city or the small village? By the way my apartment is in the wooden house. It is the old house but my apartment is cosy. I have a bedroom, kitchen and a bathroom with a toilet. I have a kitchen garden where I cultivate berries and vegetables. If Olga have and I have free time we go to to Nalchik, Terek or Beslan. We like to go to the cinema or simply to walk in the parks. Svetlana is 28 years old and Olga is almost 30 years old but sometimes we simply turn into children. And if in your soul Steve still lives "a little boy" it is wonderful! Every year in the summer we go to the festival of guitar songs. It is named ''The Shlyapsky festival'' and it takes place very far from us on the known river called Volga. It's a very beautiful festival. Hundreds of thousands of people lives in a tents on a riverside. And during several days most known guitar players and singers of russia together with simple people sing own songs for each other. Everyone cook a meal on a campfire and everyone invites each other to test their own meal - delightful atmosphere of kindness and peace. If we spend time here in a village we like to sew and knit clothes.

Steve, do you play chess? I like to play chess and checkers. I think you would not have chances in playing with me! I love sports very much. I jog every morning since the childhood. I like to keep myself in shape and I really have a good health. I have no car and I got used to go on foot! I do not smoke and sport in my life always had a great importance. I like to play soccer, I like to skate and ski, I adore swimming! I am a fine swimmer! And if we would swim together with you Steve you would need some efforts if you would like to catch or to touch me in the water! By the way Steve have you noticed that I'm a very modest? ha-ha-ha) but there is something I want to learn to do and I need your help! I want to learn to box! It would give me biger courage on the dark street! Can you give me some lessons, please? Steve, I have to finish my letter even though I do not want to. Right after work I will go to Olga to find out if she is ok. She will be glad to find out that you have again written me! Steve, do you have any regrets about anything that you did in your life and would you like to change it? What makes you happy? What is one thing you could not live without? I am sending you some my pictures. In one of pictures you will see Svetlana and me on the another pictures you will see me and Olga. I hope I am not sending too many pictures? I will wait for your letter again and I hope you will write me soon.
Your lady-friend Katrina.

Letter 3

Steve!!!
I even do not know what to tell you first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important finest news - I did it!!! I've got the visa! I'm very happy!!!! As well I have found out that I will get vacation June, 15, 2009. I have been to the company that reserves airway tickets. I've asked them how I can reach airport (ATL) and how much it costs. They have offered to me the ticket that costs $1345.80 USD. I've asked them to find cheapest ticket because this price is expensive for me. They have answered they have a cheaper roundtrip ticket and the beginning of the flight June, 19, 2009. It costs $1128.05 USD. It was the best variant for me and I asked them to reserve a ticket but they refused because they can't reserve the ticket without advance payment. I must pay full cost. I have asked if I can pay a part of money now and the other part later. They have told that it is possible but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid $470 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic all what Olga and I could do - we pawned our earrings and gold rings and I got $75.95 USD. That is all I could do. The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket is 47 In-flight Services. The time of departure from Moscow is 12:55 pm. The time of arrival in Atlanta is 4:35 pm. I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties and I have overcome the most difficult. But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise. I am always ready to do all what is possible, to fulfill my promises but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation. To get the visa I have spent much more money than I expected. But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than $650 dollars to get all documents I paid in municipal committee and in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. We get a vacation payment after ending of a vacation. I asked to give me this money now because I need this money urgently. But at the last moment I have got the answer that I can get this money urgently only in case of serious illness or for example in case of death of the relative. I feel so guilty. I must bring all ready documents to Ministry and anti-emigration committee on appointed day because if not I will not be able to come to you at all. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is $582.1 USD. And I must pay money before June 17, evening. Otherwise I will lose my nested money and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you and I'm very ashamed to do it. I understand that probably you have no very strong feelings towards me. And I understand that it is a big money. I know it and for me twice difficult to address to you. But also comprehension of my position convinces me that any person could get in similar situation. I want to meet you and I say sincerely that I need your help. I understand that I put you in inconvenient position. But I'm simple person, I'm the simple woman. I am not the wizard. Any person could get in a similar situation. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely. But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand it's a big amount for you to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And $650 dollars which I have spent to get the visa and $546 that I have given for the ticket are huge money for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. I'm asking you to help me just because I need help urgently. I would never ask you about anything without reasons. If you want to meet me to help me to make our meeting please send money to the help before June 17, evening. I want you to be confident in my sincerity that is why I send you the view of my visa. I want you to see the result of my efforts. I address to you only because I need it right now because the anti-emigration committee waits for me with all documents and I am obliged to come to committee according to appointed term. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Olga said that you can help me with the help of remittance system. So we have addressed to the nearest bank. We have been told that they use the system "Western Union". They have told that it is very convenient office for me and this system works always and reliably. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of "Western Union":
Post Russia
Gugkaeva 6
Vladikavkaz, Russia 362031
Irina Gavrusyowa.
Irina is my travel agent, she will get money and agree my ticket. I can't get your money self cause my passport with all papers in Ministry and anti-emigration committee.

I've been informed in bank about how it works. For picking up the money I need to know and tell to employee of bank your full name, your full address, amount and the confidential number - Money Transfer Control Number (MTCN). You will get this number in your bank if you will send your help. Only with presence of all this information I will be able to pick up your help. I do not know what answer I will get from you. I'm afraid very much that you will not help me but I want to tell you I really need you and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything but I will not meet you. I understand that it's big money. I have given all my forces but together we are stronger. I really ask you to help me. I will give you back all your money at the earliest opportunity. I have written you honestly and sincerely. Are you with me?
Your Katrina.

Letter 4

Steve!
I'm in Moscow now and I have a bad news. I cannot get registration and the sanction in anti-immigration committee. I have been informed that according to the law for Citizens of Russia who leave our country with visa without residence permit, if I go to your country I'm obliged to have cash as confirmation that I possess monetary resources. I can't receive sanction to get registration at the airport. I'm obliged to show them at least 1000 dollars. If I have 1000 dollars I will receive registration and the sanction of anti-immigration committee. The law obliges me to have money as confirmation that in your country I will have money resources for existence and livelihoods during that time which I will spend there. I must show at least 1000 dollars. If I will show money I will receive confirmation that I possess monetary resources and I will get the official sanction to leave my country with the visa. Otherwise they have no right to let me go to your country. Please, as soon as possible send me 1000 dollars. I will show this money and I will receive the sanction. This money are necessary for me only to show at anti-immigration committee. I will give you this money right at the airport. I should not pay anything. I simply should show money and then I can leave customs house. All my documents are in anti-emigration committee now. Without ID I cannot receive your money. Therefore I ask you please send money for Tatyana Reshetnicova - she is the inspector of Health Ministry and she is responsible for me here in Moscow. Her first name is Tatyana and her surname is Reshetnicova. She has met me here in Moscow and I will go in bank together with her. Send money for her name because my ID and visa are in anti-emigration committee now. When we will receive money I will show them this money and then I will get the sanction to leave my country. Please send me money as soon as possible because I have no money for it. Please use system of Western Union because here there is several banks which uses this system of a remittance and I can receive your money. You can send it to any bank in Moscow. There are a lot of banks and I can receive it in any branch. Steve, my nerves on a limit. I got the formal notice according to which I must have money to leave my country according to the law. I cannot write much because I use the Internet-cafe and I have no money for that. Here only three computers and so many people. I should spend night here in Moscow in a waiting room. It is much more terrible than I thought. Tomorrow I'll use Internet-cafe again to receive your letter. I cannot be in Moscow for a long time because I have no money for a meal and a for the night lodging. I only have some meal I took at home for my trip in a plane to Moscow. I should receive the sanction of anti-immigration committee as soon as possible because I cannot be in Moscow for a long time. I'm nervous very much. Once again as soon as possible send money to Moscow for Tatyana Reshetnicova. I will receive money together with her and I will show this money in anti-emigration committee.
With love Katrina.
p.s. The time of arrival in Atlanta is 4:35 pm at your time, June 19.

Letter 5

Hello Steve.

I am sorry that I make you worry about me and for my so long silence, I wasn't able to write you till now. I was refused.

Firstly, I want to ask you, please, read my letter till the end before you will arrive at a conclusion.

I don't know where get to start... The last two days were very difficult for me, I was fall on evil days. I was in auto crash and losed my documents with money... Probably, the bset way it is to tell you all step by step.

When I going to the airport I was make into auto crash and gone to hospital. I can't tell you exactly what happened, but I remember just the next. All night before my flight I wasn't able to sleep, I thought about our first meet, what we will to do and what it will be the day of our meeting. I was sleep just towards morning and after some hours I wake up. I was going to the office of Western Union for pick up your money. When I got it I was call a cab and going to airport. It was long way and I go to sleep. I was dream that I am in the airplane and I am arriving to you and you are waiting me with bouquet of flowers there. And from this moment I wake up hearing terrible scream from weels of braking a car. When I opened my eyes I see the glaringly light of the sun, after a second I see a lorry under the us.
Taxi-driver tried to get a control, but we get a fatal blow. Our car get a drift and we fall head over heels to the ditch. I get a blow by my head and lose consciousness...

I was awaken in the hospital. I tried stand up and get a dismal pain in my head. Some time later the doctor come to me and said that I have a concussion of the brain. I said doctor that I need to go to airport and I must fly today, but he hold me and said I need in additional examine of my head to ascertain heaviness of my trauma. Doctor asked me to give my documents for register and disclosed that my handbag was absent. I save there my documents and money for trip.

Firstly I thought it was taken pesonnel of hospital, but when policeman coming to the hospital disclosed that my handbad was stolen by taxi-driver. He was guitly in the auto crash and he was hidden from the place of crash.

The next day I was discharge from hospital and I was going to police.
I was came to examining policeman and he said that taxi-driver was found. They found else my handbag and documents, but money was absent.
The taxi-driver was a gambler and he was losed a gib amount of money.
He wasn't suffer from the auto crash and when he take my handbag for a profit. Policeman search taxi-driver and found just $250 USD and as for remaining money, it was losed, when this guy tried win back.
Examining policeman said offender will get punishment, but he won't able to pay back soon.

I was taken all my things and going to the airport to try postpone my flight, but I was refused again. They said I won't able to get money back and they won't change my ticket to other date cause it was expire. At this time I was feeling heavy and I wasn't able to control my emotion. I sit down and cry... I didn't know what can I do? I was feeling divastated cause someone unknown to me was broken my future and my dreams. I spent for it all my force but refused. I was crying and can't stop...

Suddenly, someone touch to me. I was up my look and seeing Tatyana. As I already said she is the inspector of Health Ministry and she is responsible for me here in Moscow. Tatyana asked me what happen and why I wasn't able to sit on my flight. I told she all what was happen with me. Then Tatyana said don't worry so much the main thing is you are living and as for other thing it will come true. She said she has a good friend in Delta Airlines and he will help me. We was coming to the Delta Airlines and after long talk Tatyana's friend helped. He said I won't pay for new ticket full cost, but I will need pay tax in 10. It is usual tax for postpone flight. It was first success for a two days. Of couse I was agreed and in next half hour I already have new ticket. It will be the same flight on June 23. The time of my arrival in Atlanta is 4:35 pm in your time.

Steve, I was paid tax in $115 USD and now I have just $135 USD, but for get registration and the sanction in anti-immigration committee I must to have $1000 USD. Steve could you help me again? I can't believe that all this was happen with me, but it is truth. Steve I don't know who will you react to these news, but I want to say you, I was always honest with you and now I said you the truth. Please don't leave me alone at this difficult point. I need in $865 USD and I hope you will send it. I understand that it is big sum, but try to find it someone, just for two days. I will pay it back as soon as we will meet in airport. Send money to Tatyana Reshetnicova as soon as possible. I will more carefully now, I promise. I won't spend a penny from this amount for sure. I have so much difficult for come true my dream that it will stupid if we won't to do it complete. Steve, I don't want to ask you to do impossible things, I just want to meet you and spend my vacation with you.
Steve, I rely on you, don't let me down.

Alway Yours Katrina.