Letter(s) from Lubov Ivanova to Stephen (UK)

Letter 1

Hi Stephen! I want to tell you thanks, that you have not disregarded me. First.. Thank you for your pic. I liked it very much.
I think, that such man as you have many fans-girls. Do you have any more pics? I want to see them very much. You have written to me and now I should tell to you about me. But I at all do not know from what to start, but you have written to me and i should tell you something about me. I really have hope that you still want to learn me, and may be to tell me about yourself because your answer means for me that your heart openly to search of new friends just as my heart is open to that. I want to tell, that I was sincerely glad to receive your answer and I am very grateful to you that you has not left my letter without your attention. I feel itself a little awkwardly, going in other part of my letter because I do not know that to you to tell about me. How to build dialogue, what to tell about itself, what questions to ask so that to not offend by question casually? What is interesting for you first of all? May be my nationality? Or may be - those vital vicissitudes which has led me and you here so that now we write to each other? Anyhow, to answer all questions, to tell about life, about internal world just in the one letter is impossibly. Therefore I think time will help both of us. I will simply begin to tell about myself,- all that I think is interesting to you. Even being confident that you remember my name I will tell again. My name is Luba. I am 27 years old. My birthday is 22 June 1978. I think Stephen, as I have sent you a picture, the first thing that you did when have received my letter- have looked at my picture, do not you? Any picture possesses unchallengeable advantage - ability to tell about the person and about features of appearance better of any words. But I feel necessity to add some words. I am little worried that my appearance is not what you are looking for. But I nevertheless hope to receive your answer where you will tell that my appearance not the most awful that you saw in your life:-))). My hair is dark. My eyes are green. I have average height - 168 sm (I think it is 5.53 foots). My weight about 53 kg (probably 116 pounds). I want to ask you, Stephen. Ñulture and distance between us is important for you?? My nationality is Russian.
I am Russian woman, but I as well have red blood, my heart beats in the same rhythm; and my soul as well needs warmth and tenderness, just as soul of any woman on a planet Earth. But I am sure that the cultural distinctions are not a barrier for friendship, - on the contrary! I am sure that distance in the modern world is not more than simply a length on a map. I sincerely hope that your heart is open to new people, even if it is a Russian woman who does not live in the street nearest to your home! And if you still want to communicate with me, it will mean for me, that the distance and nationality does not limit border of your soul! And it would be wonderful! I do not know if you are familiar with geography of Russia. I live in city Yoshkar-Ola. It is the not big and very beautiful city. It to be in the European part of Russia,
approximately 850 kilometers from Moscow. Did you visit Russia? Do you love to travel? What countries do you visited? I never traveled from Russia, but I went in many cities in Russia. Do you have the Russian friends? I think it's a time to finish a lesson of geography:-))) and to tell about other not less significant things. And the main thing that I want to tell now is that I have written to you not with the purpose to have fun and entertainment. I do not play in games, my purpose it's search the husband. I am serious in the search on 100 .
I hope, that have not frightened off you. I am glad, that you have written me. I think, that we should learn each other better, We will write letters about our life, about ideas and experiences. And if we feel, that should meet, I think, that we should meet. I can arrive to you or you can arrive to me. I think, that even 1000 letters will not replace one meeting. I never considered myself a courageous woman,- and to dare to write to you is was a courageous step for me because it is new turn in my life and I do not know what waits for me after that turn. I can have many things, but I do not want it. Material things never was able to make me happy. I really have serious desire to find a man of my heart, and first of all of course - a friend, because I am sure up to depth of my soul that any relations are based exactly on friendship and trust. My heart is open and I with all sincerity am ready to share my thoughts and of course I would be very glad to learn more about you because I think it - the best way to build any relations. And I really hope that just as I you have desire to try to find in me a friend and may be more. Nobody knows what the future has prepared for each of us, do not you agree? I do not know if you think that I am worthy of dialogue with you. I never had similar relations before and maybe I said something incorrectly. If so, please forgive me. But I also understand what to do it briefly simply impossibly. I will be very glad if you will write me, will tell as well about yourself. What has led you to seeking by such way? Would you still like to correspond with me or russian woman is not for you? Where on a map your house is located? Do you enjoy your profession? By the way, I have forgotten to tell you I have finished pedagogical institute and now I work the teacher in primary school. I love children and my work is pleasant to me very much. What interests do you have? I thank you beforehand for your answers. I as well will tell you more about me if you will write.
And of course I want as well to have some your pictures in my computer, therefore I will be very glad and grateful if you will send me sometimes you pictures. Thank you! I will hope you will not leave my letter without your answer. Wowww, I have written such big letter... I hope, that you understand my English. I studied it in institute. I'm looking forward to learning more about you...
With the best regards... Luba

Letter 2

Hi Stephen! First of all - Thank you! I am very glad that you have decided to answer. I had big hope that you will answer me, but I hadn't big belief that it will happen. Therefore thank you. Stephen,
I hope I write my thoughts clearly.
Thank you for your picture. It is a fine picture. You are a strong and handsome man. I very much like this picture. It is wonderful, when a man combines force and charm. It happens so seldom. Forgive me for my frank words. But I always speak what I think. I think there is nothing bad in it. You have pleasant appearance and it is wonderful.
Dear Stephen, I have no children, but I want to have children. I adore children..
There Can be therefore I began work as the teacher. Dear Stephen, you are right, may be we want the general things in our lives. We should learn each other better.
I wanted to tell so many things, but now I sit and I do not know what to tell. I am simply glad. I know that I simply should tell more about me, about my character, about my interests as I promised. And I really hope that it interestingly for you, because for me as well would be interestingly to learn about you as much as possible.
I have no children and I was never married, though of course I was in relationship and even thought that it will lead me to the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful memoirs.
Earlier i have a boyfrind, but not for a long time. I have left him.
3 years I was lonely and I have decided, that there has come time to find my second half and to create family. I had bad experience with my boyfriend. And I haven’t dated for almost 3 years. My former boyfriend drank a lot of alcohol and became very malicious.
I asked him not to drink any more, but he me didn’t listen to me and even beat me. I didn’t like it very much and left him. In Russia many men drink alcohol. I don’t drink and I don’t smoke.
I could not find a good, kind and romantic man for a long time. My friend advised me to try to find a friend through the Internet. I liked this idea very much. And I decided to write a letter to somebody from other country... .Dear Stephen, how you would describe your character? I never tried to describe features of my character to somebody. Maybe I do it ridiculously, maybe it is not what you would like to hear? But I live with a smile on my face and with hope in my heart. I think I can consider myself an optimist. And maybe it has helped me to dare to write you. I saw a great deal in my life, and for 27 years I have passed through a lot of vital tests. And I know that I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate, love.
And my life has led me to the fact that now I seeks it in such way.
And I do not think it is bad. How do you think? What to tell about me?
I am versatile person and I have many interests. I like music very much and I like to sing. My unconditional favorites - Roger Waters and David Gilmore. I very much like Mark Knopfler, Queen, Witney Houston, Roxette, Sting and many other singers, including Russian, but I think, their names for you will be not the most familiar :-)))). I like classical music. And of course I like movie. American movie outside of any doubts - the greatest. Castaway, Pretty Woman,
Dragonfly, the Scent of a Woman, Stepmother, K-PAX are some my favorites. My hobbies are sport, cooking of meal (I adore to do it),
books, sewing and knitting, camping. How many times you already tried to find a friend or soul-mate in such way? And how many friends you have on the Internet? (I think in the greater degree I ask about women . Do you love your family Stephen? How often you meet your family?
Forgive me please if I have asked something personal. With sincere pleasure and gratitude for your letter.
Luba From Russia

Letter 3

Hi my friend Stephen!!!!!!!! How are you?
I was delighted very much, when saw your letter. You know, your letters are wonderful and I like to read them. Your letters help me better to find out you. I find you by the very interesting man. I am very pleased, that we have got acquainted with you.
Dear Stephen, now I write to you only. When I have made my profile to me have written 5 men, but now I have chosen to you. Other men asked,
that I would send them sexy pics. And now I write only to you. In the Internet it is difficult to find good people, but I am glad, that have found you. Dear Stephen, yes, I had no relations 3 years. It is very hard. You are right. I could not find the man here and I have decided to use the Internet.. And happiness... I have got acquainted with you. I am really glad, that we have got acquainted. DEar Stephen, yes, I almost do not drink alcohol though if we shall meet sometime I promise, that I shall have a drink with you wine or beer. I do not drink strong alcohol (vodka, whisky) You asked more about my work. ok... I already wrote to you, that I work as the teacher. I teach the Russian literature and a history of Russia. I love a history very much. Now I want to study a history of the USA. You know, I very much love the work. I like to communicate with children. I'm not the strict teacher and I see, that children love me. One boy (to him of 10 years), has told, that when he will grow, I shall be his wife:-)))). Dear Stephen, I play a guitar and I sing. But in English I know only Otel California. It is very interesting for me to know what you wait from your future girlfriend. What are your plans for the future? What is important for you in a person? The most important things in a man for me are his kind heart and romantic soul, his individuality. I am interested in what his heart is. I am a usual girl. And it is very difficult for any person to be lonely. I only need someone who will be the best friend and the loved person for me, to whom I would devote all my life and love. I search for the opened and fair person who might protect me. I dream to create happy family with such a man. I would like, that this man would be with me at the difficult moments of life. I would want that in my house there was a cosiness, heat and tenderness. I want, that near to me there would be a favourite man. You may be this person. I want to continue to learn you better very much. It is very important for me.
I can’t find in Russia of the man which loved me and respected. As one wise man has told "when we live we are in search, in search that who can go with you on vital ways, because to one to go very much and very much Difficultly" I think that you agree with me, Stephen? And if is concrete, that I search in the man this that he was kind and careful.
Probably it only children's dream, but I count that you such. For me the purpose in life is to find the man which can cares of me and about ours children. I shall apply to this all efforts to what I am possible and there will be always with this man a leg in a leg that help and support him. By the way Stephen I have asked you about your family in my last letter because it really interestingly for me, as all my family has passed away. My parents were military, mom was the military doctor,
father was the officer and we hadn't constant house because they very often got the notice about new place of service, in places with the military conflict. Therefore my childhood was not very cheerful. Now I absolutely agree that it's correctly said that:"All that does not make us dead makes us stronger". Don't you agree Stephen? When father got new place of service near to Kazakhstan, I have gone to study in the good Pedagogical university in Tomsk. I lived in student's hotel on distance of 600 kilometers from my parents. But we had meeting some times in the year. Three years later my parents got new place of service and have left to live in Yoshkar-Ola. And I saw my parents only once in one year. At university for the first time in my life I have found a true friend (it is Anya) who is my best and reliable friend till now. We have together passed through a hard time when have been compelled to study and work in the evening and at night,- just to support itself. I madly missed my parents because I loved them very much. After ending of university I was to get direction for specialization (intern) in Tomsk area, but I have received the letter from mom where she informed that daddy has been killed in military collision. I will not say what I have felt at that moment, but there is nothing worse than to find out about death of the parent from the letter. After that I began to live with mom because I was afraid to leave her lone at such difficult period. Anya has refused specialization in Tomsk area to be with me and we together had intern period in Yoshkar-Ola. One and a half year ago my mom was killed in the street by some scoundrel who are not caught till now. I will not describe all pain and suffering which I had at that time. Simply I want to tell that all ups and downs, all pleasures and misfortunes that were in my life have led me to who I am now. The destiny was not tender with me, but I am grateful to my destiny for my parents, I am grateful to my destiny for my friend Anya, because it really a gift of destiny. And I hope Stephen you are not angry with me that I talk to you about it? It is my life and it is a part of me. And how you would learn me more if I would not tell you it, really? And I as well would be glad to learn more about you. Your life is very interesting to me.
Are you grateful to destiny for anything in your life Stephen? How often you become tired? Do you like the nature, rivers and lakes,
woods and mountains? Are you religious person Stephen? I will wait for your letter so please write me soon! Sincerely and with the best regards.
Your friend (I hope) Luba

Letter 4

Hi darling Stephen!!!!!!!!!!!
Today I was running to the Internet-cafe to check up a mail in my box.
I was delighted very much to have received your letter. I wait for your letters with impatience and when I get them I jump with happiness.
I am glad that you like mine pics. Yes, they have been made in Yoshkar Ola. I shall send you more pics.
I have no other family. I have the aunt and the uncle, but I do not know where they. After death of my mum I wrote to them, but they have not answered and now I at all do not know that with them. Thanks for warm words about me. I want to admit to you, that I never met such men as you. You very gentle, careful, and I think, romantic man. My plans in the future. I dream to meet a loved person and to have with him a family. I want this person to like and understand me. And I want to have children with this person in future. I have not met such a person yet. The majority of Russian men do not think of it, they do not want to have children and family. But I hope to meet loved man soon. You can become this person. The time will show. Yes, I want to study a history the USA. I do not know why, but it seems to me that they very much have developed in such short period of time.... But unfortunately I cannot find in library a detailed history the USA, but I search.. I think, that I shall order it in the Internet. I am very glad, that we learn each other better. It seems to me,
Stephen, we have much common. I am glad, that have met you. You are a kind and fair person. And kindness and honesty are very important in people’s relationships. I’ve already written to you that want to create strong and happy family. And mutual respect, honesty and love are really important for family happiness, I think.
Tonight I’ll go to my friend’s birthday. Her name is Masha. She has invited me to the party. We shall celebrate Masha birthday at a night club. Do you like to go to night clubs? I hope to have a rest today and to dance much. I haven’t danced for a long time, though I love it very much. Earlier (when I studied at school) I went to a section of dance. What is your favorite dance? You know, dear Stephen, I have bought Masha a small kitten as a gift.
I know that Masha wants to have a cat very much. I hope that she will love it. I have named him Pushok. It means that he is soft and fluffy.
I love animals very much, I have houses cat. him call Barsik. I regret again, that you are so far. We might go together the party and have a fun, to dance much. Masha is my friend. She is very good girl. In general The friendship or love is the important things in a life. To me friendship and love are the most important things a person can have in their life. In any relationship friendship is always *1. If I may it would go like this, first you are my Best Friend, second you are my Lover, third you are my husband. And I really believe in that. Even for a married couple, you have to be their Best Friend. I believe that is why so many marriages these days end up in divorce. Because they are not Best Friends. I believe in fate and I thank God above for the day we met I would of never have guessed things would go this well. For now only time and space will tell just how far we will get.
Dear Stephen , I don't know why, but your letters give me romantic mood. I stood and thought of you. Where is my friend Stephen now?
What's he doing? Who near to him now? Maybe he right now with someone,
maybe he right now happy and cheerful, and even doesn't know that somewhere far, a girl with name Luba thinks of him... Or maybe my dear Stephen sleeps right now, and sees me in his sleep-dream? And I wanted to become a leaf on a tree near to your house to give my life to irrepressible wind only in order that he would take me by his invisible hand and would bring to your window, so that I could peek into your window, even if only for one instant and to whisper:"Good night Stephen!" And in the morning when you would wake up; when you would move away curtains of your window, you at once would understand that this night Luba was there, near to your window; it is she protected your night rest, cared about your sleep and has sent to you sweet-dreams... You would understand that it was she who has left for you this small part of her soul,- hardly observable sign,- fleeting reminder - one beautiful small gold autumn leaf, shivering on the glass of your window.
In the following letter I’ll write to you about the party.
I’ll be waiting for your letter very much, very much…
Kiss you...
Your Luba

Letter 5

Hi my dear and lovely friend Stephen!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to tell you that I was very glad to receive your letter with such warm and good words. Dear Stephen, it's a big pleasure for me to read your letters and to know, that someone also waits for my letters.
Dear Stephen, Thanks for the pictures. Every time after I receive your pictures, appear traces of lipsticks on the screen of the monitor:-))))
Dear Stephen, I feel too, that I want to meet you. I even dreamed of it some times. I closed my eyes and represented our meeting at the airport. And it was always romantic. You can visit me, but I have some idea. Since June, 10 I shall have vacation on work and I can arrive to you for 2-3 weeks. What do you think of it??? I do not know about process of registration of the visa, but one my familiar went to London as the tourist and the tourist visa made out very quickly and without problems. But I want to learn full details. If you can meet me in June I shall arrive to you.
I am very happy to have such a good friend and I hope that this friendship will develop in something stronger and more romantic. I have caught myself on ideas that I think of you frequently. It seems to me, that our feelings become stronger with each letter. It seems to me a little bit strange, you see, we've never met, but with each letter this distance becomes less and less. It seems, that we become closer to each other. I am very glad, that has found out you, dear Stephen. You the very interesting man, and I love to write you letters. Probably it seems to you, that I am too serious person, , but it is not so. Simply I seriously want to find second half, love. I do not want to be mistaken in a choice of the future husband and favourite man. You know, those letters, which you write to me warm my soul and heart. Itso is pleasant for feeling, that somewhere there,
in other part of the world there is a man, to which I am not indifferent. Dear Stephen, I want to learn you better.
Tell me more about your usually day. When you wake up? What do you like eat for a breakfast? Do you like coffee or tea? When you lie to sleep usually? Excuse me, if I ask many questions, but you became for me very , very , very important person. And I would like to know your habits. And I have one million questions to you :-)))))
I want to tell you how we have celebrated Masha birthday. It was funny:-)))) I have presented her a kitten. She liked my gift very much. We danced really much. But I was a little sad. All girls came with their guys and I felt lonely. But I thought of you. I want to tell you, Stephen, that I really missed you and regretted, that you are not with me now. Though you were with me in my dreams. I danced only fast dances, but slow dances I left to you. Now I owe to you and I hope, that once I will give you my duty. I saved for you a slow dance :-)))) I have told the friends about you. They asked to transfer you their GREETINGS.
I am finishing my letter, unfortunately I should go…
I'm thinking of you…
Your forever....Luba

Letter 6

Hello my sweetheart Stephen!!!!!!!!!!
How are you? I am in a wonderful mood today. When I received your letter became hot, and pleasant and wonderful dreams of you appeared in my head. Dear Stephen, thanks for new pics. I want to tell to you some words.. You are so handsome man. I speak that I think... DEar Stephen,
you are the most romantic man in the world. Yes, I want to meet you very much. You can arrive to me. If you will fly to Moscow I can meet you in Moscow... Dear Stephen, Russia is very dangerous place. Here it is a lot of nationalists who do not like foreigners.. I constantly hear in News: Have killed the American, an Englishman, the German...
Therefore I would not want that you one were in Russia.... Though I have learned about the visa in UK. You are right, it's for a long time. It is possible to wait for 2-3 months for approval of the visa.... BUT... I have learned some information... I'm the teacher and I can receive the visa on behalf of the Ministry of Education. It is the unitary visa and it can operate very short time. And I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the the teacher, I can ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Educations, because if the applicant have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being the teacher I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Educations of Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official legal persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in two weeks! The teacher, the doctor, policies{politics} can receive such visa.. .. I really very much want to visit you in London...
It is very pleasant for me, that in London a lot of Russian... Now I shall look webpage which you have written to me about Russian in London...
My feelings are over flown more and more with each your letter. I feel that want to meet you once and tell you “Hi” and to take your hand. It could be a romantic meeting. But now we live in different parts of the world, and I feel a little sad. You know,
Stephen, my friends noticed, that I began to look better and always smile. I feel that I have slightly changed and became more cheerful.
Today I was in a park and noticed one pair. These people looked very happy. And I dreamed that you and I are walking in a park. Everyone looks at us with admiration. I have a bouquet of flowers which you presented to me. It was so romantically. I want to write to you again,
that am very happy, that I got acquainted with such a person as you,
Stephen, in this huge world. You seem to me a unique person. I trust you and it is easy for me to communicate with you. When I read your letters I see sincerity.
I feel, that something has changed in my life, and we became very closely to each other. I love your letters, your words, I love your name, I want to be with you every day and night. I do not know, what has taken place with me. You have turned my life. We never met, but I think about you every minute,
every second. I lie down to sleep and I think about you, when i wake up, all my ideas only about you too. My heart belongs to you.
Stephen, write me about your feelings. I love to read your letters.
I want to learn you better, Stephen. I have some questions to you:
What sort of clothes do you feel comfortable in?
What do you think about Russia?
Are you interested in politics?
I want you to know that now you have a friend who can listen to you attentively, who can share your problems and understand you.
I have taken in video hire the film “The City of Angels”. Have you seen this film? It is a beautiful and tragic story of love, and I want to cry at the end.
I am finishing… All my dreams are about you…
I am looking forward to your letter…
Your Luba

Letter 7

Hi my Stephen! I waited for your letter with pleasure. And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and dance, laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you Stephen! Thank you for your letter and your thoughts.
Dear Stephen, you are the real gentleman.. ok... we should plan our meeting in Moscow in June.. Write to me when you learn about trip more in detail. If my help is necessary for you I shall help you with documents . I can send the invitation or something. And after our meeting it is possible to plan trip in UK. Every day I think - what my friend Stephen will tell me today, what mood he will have today? And as soon as I get free minute, I rush to internet-cafe to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your letter, I start to smile from ear to ear anticipating the best time of my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you the all my thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And these minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except of lines and paragraphs which in my mind will be transformed into small movie, movie about you, my dear Stephen. And you cannot imagine at all how it wonderfully! Sometimes I think, what would be if I have not found the boldness in myself to write you? What would be if I didn't believe that I can find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I the courageous woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life for the sake of person who are close and dear for me, I am ready to donate my well-being for the sake of well-being of other person but when I think of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the fire's smoke. I am often afraid to make something, to take some step simply because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the negative answer. Not always, but it happens. What would happen, if you have not answered my first letter? Nothing would happen! And grey monotonous days again would lie on a way of my life by infinite impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? First off, I should tell that I slept with a smile on my face! At least when I have woken up and have looked at the mirror, I have noticed that I smile! Then, I cleaned a teeth and I had smile! Then, I have cooked a breakfast and drank a coffee with a smile on my face! Then, I have come to school, and I could not hide my smile. I was ready to laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It is a very bad symptom for the teacher :-)))) Everything around have seemed to me a beautiful and wonderful. All the day I work with smile on my face! Anya looks at me and smiles as well. Of course she understands the reason, and it makes her happy as well! And when time of sleep will come, I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you till now have not understood why I smile, I will tell you! I smile because I think of you, Stephen! And it brings joy! I am so happy that I have in my life such a man as you! Thank you that you are in my life!
Yours forever...Luba