Letter(s) from Ekaterina Silaeva to Michael (USA)

Letter 1

Hello my dear new friend Michael! To say the truth I haven’t even expect that you would write me because I’m for the first time in the internet and almost don’t know how it is working. But I hope that soon I will be able to understand it better and write you letters every day if you want to correspond with me more. As for me I think that we can find much in common. And what about you, Michael I think we can be good friends. The main thing is to have a very big wish and try to understand each other. Understanding is very important in the relationship between the people. I think you can ask me why I have decided to go to the internet to register on this site of acquaintance. I will try to tell you the truth from the first letter, I don’t want us to hide anything from each other because it is also very important for me to be truth that the person whom I want to get acquainted with knows me and have the imagination about the person with whom he corresponds. I hope you understand me, Michael, and won’t hide anything from me too. Don’t be afraid, Michael, I won’t think bad of you even if you tell me any bad facts from your life because I am such a person who can understand and share feelings and thoughts of other people. Ok, Michael, I will continue to write you the reasons of my registering on this site. It is a very sad story. I had a boyfriend here in my town, his name was Roman. We have been studying together at school in one class and had big love to each other. As for me I loved him with all my heart and thought that we would be together forever. We understood each other without words and enjoyed our love every day. I think you can understand me, Michael, because in my opinion every person has felt it even though one time in his life. We were going to marry after studying at the university and dream about our life together, about children that we would give a birth but when we both were 22 years old a very awful tragedy happened to us. We liked going for a drive on bicycles and one shiny summer day when we were going to the beach of our river Volga to have sunbathe, we saw a very big cargo car that raced on us. We didn’t think that it could be dangerous but the driver of it was very drunk and he misdirected my boyfriend on a bicycle. I was shocked and unconsciousness. I remembered it vaguely but a very awful thing for me was that Roman dyed on my hands because of many traumas he got. It is very very awful to lose the person whom you love and see how he say goodbye to the life. I remember very well his eyes at that moment. He wanted to say to me something but he couldn’t. I cried a lot and thought that it was an awful dream and when I opened my eyes I would have understood that I simply was sleeping and my lovely person would be alive. But it was a terrible reality. I didn’t want to believe in it. I thought of committing suicide because I don’t want to live alone in this world without the person I loved. I was used to him and didn’t imagine my life without him. I still remember this accident. And now when I write you it I cry because remember it again and don’t want to believe it. This tragedy will always be in my mind. After that I couldn’t sleep for a big period of time. I was going to the psychologist and took medicines for depression that I had that time. I hope you will understand my sincerity. Now four years later I feel much better, I understood that I should live in spite of the fact that he is not with me. I saw a dream one night where Roman said to me that life continued and he wanted to see me happy and want me to find a man who would be worthy to share my life with, who would love me not less him and who would take care of me. When I awoke I thought a lot about it and thought that maybe he was right and I really should be happy. I think that he was honest and said it to me with sincerity. But it was difficult for me to get acquainted with new people because I became unaccustomed to it. I was so used to Roman and he was not only my boyfriend but also he was my friend he was everything for me, the person due to whom I breathe, eat, sleep and live. We had many common friends but almost all the time we spent together. That’s why I had no a need to have the best girlfriend. Roman was the man whom I trusted all my secrets, everything that worried me a lot. I loved him…Now I think a lot about for what I loved him and can enumerate a lot of his assets but maybe I loved him not for what he was, I loved him for what I was with him. Do you understand me, Michael I hope I didn’t bore you with my story in the first letter. But I really need such a person in my life who will understand me and will share my feelings and thoughts. That’s why I decided to get acquainted with somebody in the internet because for me it is more simply than to get acquainted with somebody in person. I begin to shy and become nervous. That’s why all my thoughts are about what to say how it to say and the contact become not sincere. But writing letters through the internet can be more useful for the persons who want to become closer, we don’t see our eyes and can tell everything to each other honesty. Am I right, Michael I also wanted you to be honesty with me and to hear your story about why you have decided to get acquainted with me over internet? As for me I have chosen you because after reading your profile I understood that we approach each other. We have some common things in our characters and to be the truth I simply liked you. I decided to try to write you, who knows maybe you would write me back and you have written. I was really glad to see your letter in my mail box today because I was waiting for it with impatience. I’m very thankful for it to you. Maybe we will be able to learn later that we don’t approach each other but we will be able to be good friends, Michael. I hope you are not against it. Ok, I think I have written you a lot today, moreover my time in the internet cafe ends and I should say good-bye to you. I hope to get an answer from you as soon as possible. Take care, Sincerely, Your new Russian friend, Alena

Letter 2

Hello my dear friend Michael! At first I want to thank you for the answer. Maybe you will take it strange but when I sent you the letter I worried a lot if you would like it or not. For me it means that I'm really interested in you and want you to like me. But today when I got your answer I was really very glad to read that you enjoy correspond with me:) I consider you to be my new friend too and when I think about it I become happier because nowadays it is very difficult to find a real friend whom you can trust everything and who won't betray you. Do you agree with me, Michael Do you have a lot of friends? I think that we should learn from our letters more and more. As for me I am fond of learning about your life, about things that you like and dislike. I feel trust between us. I fell so easy and comfortable corresponding with you. Sometimes it is much easier for people to discuss some things not looking into the eyes like in our situation corresponding through the Internet. I think that it is interesting for you, Michael, to learn a little about my family and me. As you have already learned I’m 26 years old. I live in Kazan with my not very big family. It consists of my father, Rauis Ansarovich, my mother, Valentina Aleksandrovna, and my small sister, Tanya. My parents are old and they have already become pensioners. They are 56. My sister is 20 years old and she is a student of Kazan State University. She wants to be a psychologist. Maybe because of that tragedy that has happened to me. She saw how difficult for me was to outlive it. And nobody could help me to inquire with it. I know that all my family suffered with me and wanted to help me. But the pain in the heart was very deep and I think that only time can make me feel better. But I’m very responsible for them for their support. I love them and also want them to be happy. I have no grandmothers and grandfathers because they dyed when I was a little girl. That’s why I even don’t know what kind of care children get from their grandparents. As I’m an elder sister I got less love from my parents than Tanya. They didn’t give me so much weasel and tenderness. But I got it from my boyfriend Roman. He was my soul. We all live in Kazan. It is the capital of the republic Tatarstan. Our city is very big with the population over 1200000 people. I’m proud of my town because it is very beautiful and has a very big and important history. We live in a two-room apartment near the center of Kazan. My sister and I live in one room and my parents in another. We try to live friendly but sometimes we all bore each other and begin to swear. In such moments I go away from home and try to calm down. I like nature very much and when I feel nervous I go by bicycle to the forest and find my sedation in nature. There I can cry, scream, laugh and do everything that I want because I could be heard only by silent trees that take my emotions and bring me relaxation. And what about you, Michael, do you like nature? To say the truth I don’t like to argue with the members of my family because I love them and don’t want them to suffer and feel bad. But you know, Michael, that sometimes it is very difficult to do because some situations in our life don’t depend on us. But I can say that almost all the time we live happy together and always try to support each other every day. Well, Michael, I must finish my e-mail, I hope that we will continue corresponding with each other and you will tell me much more about yourself, and I will try to tell you about myself as much as possible in future e-mails. I want to learn more about your country, please, tell me about your family, about your friends. I hope to see your answer soon. And of course I wait for your photos. Please send me all the pictures that you have. I will be very glad to receive them!! Good-bye, Michael! Take care! Your Russian friend, Alena

Letter 3

Hello my dearest friend Michael!!! Tomorrow after I have written to you a letter I came home and thought a lot about you. I so want us to be real friends because now I have nobody with whom I can share my thoughts and feelings. But to say the truth I’m afraid of being betrayed. I know that there are such people who can do it easily and their conscience won’t disturb them. But I am not such a person and don’t want people whom I come across with to behave in such a way. I hope that you are not such a man because I feel with my heart that you are noble and won’t betray me. That’s why I can easily trust you. But I think of you since the time we have met through the internet and began to correspond with each other and I always wait for your letter with impatience. Today I ran from my work to the internet cafe to see the letter from you in my mail-box I felt that it was there because you, Michael, are very responsible. At first I read your letter very fast to see what you had written. But then I reread it very slowly trying to enjoy every your word. Such moments bring me happiness because I begin to understand that someone in this world think of me like I think of him. Am I right, Michael, do you think of me? When I was at my work today I thought only about you. Oh, I just forgot to tell you, Michael, about my work. I am a hairdresser. I like my job very much. You maybe will ask me why I have chosen such a profession. I will be very glad to tell you about it. When I was studying in the 11th form I didn’t know where to go to study after the school. My mother and father gave me much advice and wanted me to be a doctor but I didn’t like biology in the school and my knowledge on this subject was satisfaction. But they insist on it very much, so we argued constantly. It seemed to me that my parents didn’t understand me because they said to me that hairdresser is the bad choice. But my boyfriend helped me not to doubt in it and gave me a very big support that’s why I decided to study at the Kazan State Technology College. After I have graduated from the college I began to look for the job. At first it was difficult to find such a place where a very good salary and collective would be. But after a long searching I found it and work now there. I suit everything that surrounds me there and very glad till now. My job brings me satisfaction and I do it with pleasure. I’m sure that if the job is the hobby it brings more happiness. And what about you, Michael, do you like your job or do you do it only for the money which it brings to you? So my dear Michael I think I should finish my letter I just don’t want to bore you. I wait for your next letter with impatience and I want you to remember always when you fall asleep that there is a person in this world so far away from you but who thinks of you and want you to be happy and take care of yourself. I will do the same and who knows maybe we will be able to meet in our dreams. It will be wonderful if I see you in my dreams. Ok, Michael, I will stop here and wish you only happiness. Smile for me, I will feel it. Have a good day!! Buy!! Sincerely your Russian friend, Alena

Letter 4

Hello my dearest friend Michael!!! I am so glad that you liked my previous letter again. I think that we have much in common too. It makes me write to you again and tell you more and more about me. But to say the truth I don’t like to write letters because I can’t tell you everything in it. I have no another possibility to associate now. But soon I hope I will be able to speak to you over the telephone. But I should know your phone number and if you can, write me please it. I have no the telephone at home because it is very expensive to install it and then to pay for the bills for it. My family is not rich and now we have no such a possibility to have a telephone at home. But when I hoard a little money I will ring you up. We will be able to hear our voices. I think it is very interesting and I feel a little exciting because I have already had an imagination about who you are and in my head there is an image of you. Do you understand me, Michael Many women have their own ideal image of the man whom they want to see near them. As for me I don’t have it. I’m a person who doesn’t pay much attention to the appearance of a man; I prefer to see in men beauty of the soul. Sometimes it happen that I collide with beautiful people and when I associate with them I understand that they pay too much attention to their appearance that sometimes they forget about their private world. And it is not interesting to communicate with them. It is a pity! I prefer to communicate with clever, wise people who can tell me so interesting things that I will aspire to associate with him more and more. I think you are such a person because you are older then me and you have a bigger life experience then me. You can advice me something like friend and it can help me to solve the problem, Michael. And I can do the same to you too, you can tell and ask me everything you want, be sincere like me, I need it to know you better, don’t be afraid. Remember that you can get my support always. I’m very glad, Michael, that you understand my letters very well; it is because of my good English. I have been studying it at school and always had very good marks. My teacher liked me and that’s why I tried not to upset her. I learned more and more and that’s why I can easily speak English. So I think when I call you, you will understand me very well maybe with some accent. I won’t warn you when it happens because I want to make a surprise for you. I know you will be glad to hear my voice too, and I like to make my intimate people happier and bring them pleasure. I have one poem for you which I liked very much. I want you, Michael, to read it and say to me what you think of the words that are written there. I love this!


There are moments
in life when you miss someone so much
that you just want to pick them
from your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one,
which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

Please send this message to those people
who mean something to you (I JUST DID);
to those who have touched your life in one way or another;
to those who make you smile when you really need it;
to those who make you see the
brighter side of things when you are really down;
to those whose friendship you appreciate;
to those who are so meaningful in your life.

If you don't send it, don't worry, nothing bad will happen to you!!

Don't count the years-count the memories........... It is great. When I read it I was amazing and now I share it with you because you are the man who makes me smiling. I will wait for your next e-mails!
Michael, please, write me as soon as possible! Ok? Good-bye, see you soon. Very truly yours, Alena

Letter 5

Hello my dearest Michael!!! I’m so happy to see your letter again!!! And I even don’t know how to express it in words because sometimes they are not enough to explain feelings and thoughts. I think you understand me, Michael! But I hope that you feel how happy I am when I check my mail box and see your long awaited letter to me. I have a thought at once that there is a man in this cruel world who thinks and takes care of me. Am I right, Michael I hope that I’m not mistaken in it because reading your letters it seems to me that you are very sincere and honest with me. My intuition usually doesn’t tell me a lie. I don’t want you to feel bad and think a lot about my problems but I have no another person in my life who understands me, listens to me and helps me to solve my problems in the way you do it. I say to you it because today I feel so bad and sad because of the client who has come today to our barbershop to have his hair cut. He asked me to make him a hairstyle and showed me what he wanted but not in the picture, he told me what he wanted to have on his head. And I tried to make it but during the process he always made me nervous telling that I did it not in such a way he said, he shouted and I worried a lot because I don’t like to make people angry and unkind. I try not to do harm and offend people because I always feel guilty if it happens and accuse myself for it. I want to be happy and want people round me to feel happy too, I try to bring happiness to them because only in this way I can feel happy too. But today in spite of the fact that I tried a lot to make happy my client he didn’t understand it and in the end he said to me that I’m a bad hairdresser and I shouldn’t work here. He made a complaint against me and I am sure that my boss won’t be glad to find out it. He will give me a scolding and deprive me a little money from my wages. It is not good for me, Michael, because my wages is not very big and moreover I should help my parents and sister with money to buy food for us and pay the bills for the flat. I even don’t know what to do and how to explain my boss that I tried my best but the client was nervous himself and interfere me to do my work. I am so sad and unnerved that I don’t want to go to work tomorrow. But I will do it because I don’t want to lose it. Tomorrow I feel will be a very bad day for me. I will think of it all the evening and my parents will ask me what has happened to me but I don’t want to upset them. I know that they understand me and wish me only happiness but they don’t want to see me sad. But when I tell them about my problems they always try to help me with their advice. I love them for that very much. I feel their support always and I’m very thankful to them for it. Today was a very difficult day for me, Michael, I hope you will understand me. And what about you, do you come across with difficulties in your job? I think that all people do it. What difficulties do you have usually? It is interesting for me to know, can you tell me a little about it. Maybe I will be able to help you too. So, I will stop here and will go home. I will go by foot and think a little about the life that I had. Sometimes interesting thoughts and ideas appear in my head when I’m walking and they help me to solve some problems. I will do it now and maybe I will think up some interesting decisions of the situation that I have now. I hope to hear from you soon my dear friend, Michael. I will wait for your letter with impatience again. Thinking about you, Michael, Sincerely your Russian friend, Alena

Letter 6

Hello my dearest Michael! Thank you very much for your letter and your support. I was really very glad and happy to know that you take care of me and worried a lot about me. It means much for me and now I understand that you are my real friend who can help me to solve my problems and share my feelings. Thank you very much for it, Michael, I will never forget you because you are very kind and careful, you are the best. If such people as you will be more in this world, life will be happier. But it is not impossible that’s why I thank God for that he presented me with you. I believe in God Jesus and what about you, Michael Since we are corresponding to each other your letters became a very important part of my life!! So my dear Michael I think that you would like to learn more about my interests and hobbies that we can find some more common things between us. About music that I like to listen to. So, I prefer different kind of music and can say that always depends on my mood. If I sad I like to listen to the sad music and sometimes when I want to cry I do it listening to very sad music. I like classic because I consider that to think up such a tuneful melody a person should be the great and should do it with a soul. I like to listen to Beethoven, Mozart, Bah and my favorite song is “To Elise”. I haven’t enough words to explain you my feelings when I listen to it, I say to you simply that it is wonderful. I hope you will understand me, Michael! Tomorrow when I came home very sad I listened to it and feel much better because sometimes music helps me to calm down. And what about you, Michael? What do you prefer to listen to? I think that you don’t like classical music because here in Russia men don’t like it; they consider it to be very boring. I am not against it because every person can choose everything he want and like most of all. Among my favorite films there are “The fall in New York” with main actor Richard Gir, “Titanic” (it is a very popular film and I think you watched it too) also “Cruel intentions” and many other films about love. But I also like to watch comedies. I can’t remember my favorite now but I hope that you don’t offend, Michael, and will write me about films you like to watch too. About food I like to eat… Well… As for me I like to eat Russian kitchen because I’m used to it since my childhood and never try another. I cook myself and my family says that I do it not bad; at least they eat always everything I prepare for them. My favorite dish is pelmeni, this is very tasty dish from Russian kitchen which consists of forcemeat of a beef and pork with onions and spices wrapped up in dough and cooked. May be one day I will cook pelmeni for you... But of course this is not the only thing I like. There are a lot of tasty dishes here in Russia. Once I visited McDonalds. I realized that the food there is synthetic but I liked it very much. I would like to visit it one more time. But it is pretty expensive for me. My favorite color is green because it calms me down. Ok, Michael, I think I told a lot to you about my interests and in the next letter I would like to read about yours. About everything you like to eat, listen to, watch and other things you like to do. I will wait for your next e-mails! Michael, please, write me as soon as possible! Ok? Good-bye, see you soon. Very truly yours, Alena

Letter 7

Hello my dearest Michael! How are you my dear? I got your letter and my happy smile doesn’t go out of my face. Many people tell me that for the last time I look happier!! I can tell you that this is you who are the reason of my wonderful mood! Even my colleges at work say to me that my eyes have light. I am so interested in you and you make me feel so comfortable. I am opened for you. I feel understanding, trust and warm feeling from your side. I haven’t felt such feelings for a long time. I am so happy that we got acquainted to each other!! You opened a new world of beautiful emotions for me. Thank you so much!!! I hope that our friendship will become stronger and stronger. Do you remember that I told you about the client who did harm to me? My boss learned it and scolded me a lot. He said that if it happens again, he will fire me. It is awful! Moreover now he said that I won’t get 1000 rubles (almost 40$) from my wages. I get 5000 rubles (200$) a month. It is not a very big sum but I don’t complain. I do my work because I know that if I don’t do it, I will have nothing to eat. Do you, Michael, want to know how my working days pass? I think you are not against it. Usually I get up at 6.00 a.m. and take a bath. After that I have breakfast which my mother prepares for me and my sister and then I go to the work by bus. At 8.00 I am there, ready to service my clients. There are 3 hairdressers in our barbershop and when there are no clients we like to drink tea and dangle. I like my colleges, and we understand each other very good. They are very easy-going persons. We have a very good little collective. My working day lasts till 17.00 and after that I go to the internet-cafe to read and write you a letter. This is my favorite moment during all the day. I do it with great pleasure. And then I go home where I spend time with my parents and sister. We have supper together and then watch TV or everybody does what he wants; I prefer to read the book, listen to the music or sometimes I like to draw new hairstyles which I imagine myself. It is my hobby and I have a lot of drawings of them. Maybe one day you will be able to see them who knows. I go to sleep at 10.00 p.m. and then the next day comes and everything repeats. On the weekends I like to go to the forest, I have already told you that I like nature very much because it calms me down. There I can bring much time. That’s why my favorite season is summer because it is warm and the sun shines brightly. I like to gather mushrooms and barriers in summer, to bathe in the sun and in the river. Sometimes my colleges and I gather together and have picnic in the open air. We spend time very funny and come home very tired because we always move playing badminton or something like that. And you, Michael, how do you spend your time there so far away from me? You have another culture and maybe you are used to spend time not in such a way. Please, write me about it, I so want to compare our cultures and find some difference between us. Maybe after that I will try to do the same things you do there. I will stop here. And will wish you good luck and happiness. I think of you and never forget. You are the best friend of mine in this world. I will never betray you! I wait for your next letter. Have a good day!!
Buy!! Sincerely your Russian friend, Alena

Letter 8

Hello my dearest Michael! I got your letter again and feel better and better every time I get your letters. I am full of emotions and a big wish to live awakes in me. I haven’t felt in such a way since the time when my boyfriend was alive. Now I have you in my life and this feeling makes me happy. I understand everything you write me, and I hope, Michael, you understand everything I write to you. Our understanding helps me to solve my problems and I consider us to be very good best friends. I even don’t know how to express my feelings about our friendship. But I will try to do it in a simple way that you will be able to understand me. I appreciate real friendship very much. Nowadays it is difficult to find a person who will be with you every moment you feel bad and never betray you. Treachery is an awful thing that a man can do in his life because sometimes we can not understand that another person feel bad because of our behavior. That’s why I think we should be honest with each other. I think that you are honest with me, Michael. I feel it. Maybe I recur but I can say to you it honest and I want you to know that I am honest with you. I don’t hide anything from you. I am open to you and can say that you know me more than people here in Russia who round me and consider me to be closed to them. Yes, Michael, I am very closed to them because I don’t think that I should open my thoughts to them. Sometimes people can use it in their own aims. But you will never do it. That’s why I say to you everything that disturb me and don’t feel a need to say it to something else. I need only one man in my life who will be able to understand me. You are now such a person in my life. You make my days happier and better. I began to awake every day with a thought that today after work I will go to the internet cafe and will read a letter from you, Michael. These moments bring me a little happiness! I want you to know it because I think you are glad to know that you can bring happiness to somebody in this life. You can make me smile reading your letters and you should feel how a warm feeling overflows you and your heart becomes warmer and biting stronger. I think that is the happiness. And we should save our friendship. What do you think Michael? Do you feel the same as me? Today my college at work showed me a song that her boyfriend wrote for her. She got acquainted with him over internet and to say the truth it was she who advised me to use the internet for the same aims. Her name is Natasha. She said to me that one day she decided to go to the internet cafe to get acquainted with someone abroad because she doesn’t like men in Russia. Natasha said to me that they don’t know how to associate with women and don’t appreciate them. Moreover they like to drink vodka very much and it spoils many families. Do you know Russian vodka, Michael? It is an awful drink. So Natasha fell in love with Richard who lives in the USA and soon they want to meet to marry. Natasha feel happy and say that he is her destiny and God sent him to her. She did the visa at the travel agency and in two days she is going to him. She has already bought the ticket and tomorrow the last day at work will be for her. I’m very glad for her because she wanted it very much, she wanted to find her love and be with him for all her life. We will do a farewell party tomorrow for her at work and I can say that I will miss Natasha. But she said that will call us as often as she will be able. So I told you it to show you the song from her boyfriend. I liked it very much and think that he has a very big talent. But I want to know your opinion, Michael. Why Can’t We Get Along?

I’ve been thinking lately
About this world where we live
And all the crazy stuff going on
I think it’s time that we changed

Why can’t we, Live together peacefully
We share the same air
Why can’t we get along
Why can’t we get along

We kill for our God
We kill for our oil
We kill for so many stupid reasons
I can’t keep track anymore

Why can’t we, Live together peacefully
We share the same air
Why can’t we get along
Why can’t we get along

We all want the same things you and me
To love and be loved
We want to have control of lives
Before it’s too late

Why can’t we, Live together peacefully
We share the same air
Why can’t we get along
Why can’t we get along

People don’t you know
People can’t you see
The world is a messed up place
But it doesn’t have to be

So come on now
Give it a try
If we can’t live together
Alone we will die

Why can’t we, Live together peacefully
We share the same air
Why can’t we get along
Why can’t we get along

Write me please, what you think of it, Michael. I need to know your opinion. So I will wait for your letter as soon as possible. Blow you many kisses!! Your loved Russian friend, Alena

Letter 9

Hello my dear Michael! Today we bided farewell with Natasha and to say the truth I cried a little because I am so happy for her. She deserved Richard. And she has to be with him. Tomorrow she will fly to his country and he will meet her at the airport. It sounds so romantic. I even can’t believe it. It is like fairy tale. Maybe one day we will be able to meet with you too. I think about you every single day, my Michael. Every minute, every minute I think about you only, about the things you told me. I wait for your warm messages all the time Michael, I wanted to tell you about one thing and thought pretty a lot about the way to do it, my Michael. I realized that I can’t find a place for myself without your letters. I never felt better before! Your e-mails are so important for me, they are a part of my life, they are a source of pleasure in my life, I want to tell you that you mean a lot to me in my life, Michael, you are the best thing that has happened to me for last years, your messages make me feel a great happiness and pleasure, Michael. I look at your picture that I have and look at your soft eyes and your beautiful lips and you so hot body and I know that there is a GOD!! He has granted me one of his best angels!! Hope you always feel as you do now about me. I want to be your only woman and you to be my only man. I have all your letters here and pictures that I will always keep close to me. Please tell me more about what you dream of us doing together... I would love to know. Just know this. You are with me every second of an hour and every hour of the day and every day of the month and every month of the year and it will be that way from now on as long as you want me. You have made me a very happy and proud woman today. My dear, Michael, thank you so much. It became harder and harder because I can't see you, hear you, I can't touch you. It is so pity that we aren't the birds. We haven't got wings and we haven't got an opportunity to fly towards each other. The distance wouldn't mean anything for us. We can meet in any point in the world and to fly together to the stars. I think a lot about you and our attitudes. I don't know maybe it is love. But I know that you are the best man whom I have ever met. But I want to know your opinion. Tell me about your attitudes frankly. What do you fell towards me? What do I mean for you? Is I dear for you? I opened my heart to you and wait for your sincerity too. Don’t offend me, Michael, because it was difficult for me to do it and I think a lot if I should do it. So, in the end I decided to listen to my heart and it said to me that I really should.
All my warm kisses, Warm hugs, Your lady and beloved woman, Alena

Letter 10

Hello my love, Michael! Thank you so much for your kind letter, it is as always brought a lot of wonderful feelings to me! My dear, my love Michael, in my last e-mail I have told you about my love feelings to you, Michael, I was sincere and honest, dearest, I couldn’t hide my love, it was a voice of my heart telling you about what I feel, because it is so difficult to hide my warm feelings, Michael!!! Yesterday I came home from the internet cafe and told everything about my feelings to my mother. She was shocked a little because she has never imagined that I will marry a man abroad. But I said to her that she should calm down because I am not going to marry him now. I told her that I only confess to him about what I feel and afraid to get his answer because I don’t want him not to feel the same to me. I so want you really to love me. My mother was also surprised; she said that she didn’t see me so happy for a long time especially after my boyfriend Roman dyed. My mother said to me that if I was sincere with him he would appreciate it and would love you. I was glad to hear it because I really was sincere with you. I don't stop being surprised how deeply you understand my heart and how much in common I have with the man who lives on the other side of the planet. During the time we are corresponding you have become the closet and dearest man in the world. You have become the true friend for me with whom I can share all of my feelings and thoughts, to whom I can trust all of my secrets and I am sure that you will always understand me. My God! How long I have been waiting for it! How often I depicted it in my imagination! It seems to me that it's just a dream and I will wake up soon and everything will be over. I don’t want to lose this feeling. I want to give you it and I want you to feel it. I want to present you my love and appreciate my feelings. It is already a tradition for me to go to the Internet cafe. But frankly speaking is the best what is going on during my day. I enjoy every letter I get from you and re-read them every night. I want to share my life with you; I want to be always with you, to feel your warmth and care. I am a very emotional, passionate, hot-tempered woman deep in my soul and nobody except you can feel it. Maybe it seems strange for you, we haven't met with you in the real life, we have only letters which I cherish but I have the feeling that we know each another for ages. Hope you understand me. The most important in the relations between two people, man and woman, is love, of course, mutual understanding, and respect. Two people should trust at first, understand, and care about each other. Your life will be my life and I will give you all my love, care and tenderness. I want to do it very much, Michael. Think about you all the time!! I send my hot kisses to you, my love!! Forever yours, Alena

Letter 11

Hello my love man, my dearest Michael! How are you doing, my Michael? I'm doing fine, my honey! I have received your answer, my Michael, I’m so happy to receive your necessary love for me, your warm words, my dear Michael. My dearest Michael, I love you, my Michael, I love you so much that I can’t without you now, my love, you and your messages are so necessary for me, you are the inseparable part of my life, my love Michael. But still I wish so much that it be something more then just e-mails, I really want to meet you in person. But E-mails are the only thing that connects us for now. And day by day I realize how great it is that the Internet was once invented. My mother decided to write you a letter, she understood that I really fell in love with you and afraid of me. So I want to translate you what she has written to you. Dear Michael! I am Olgas mother Valentina Aleksandrovna. It is very unusual for me to write you because I have never associate with men abroad but I hope that you are very intelligent and will understand me and my feelings. I will try to be sincere with you. My daughter Olga is very kind, honest, careful, and tender and as her mother I want her to be very happy. But I’m afraid of her very much too, I don’t want her to suffer. Maybe she didn’t tell you about the woe that has happened to her but I will warn you that she suffered a lot about the accident that has happened with her boyfriend Roman with whom she has a very big love since the first class at school. She suffered a lot and I don’t want to see how she cries again. I see that now she looks happier and I understand that the reason is that she fell in love. I tried to speak to her and learned about you. She told me that she got acquainted with you through the internet. It is strange for me but I don’t want my daughter to be unhappy. If she has chosen you it is her choice and she has the right. I heard a lot about you from her and to say the truth she only speaks well and praise you. I understand that she really in love. I am happy for my daughter and hope that you will be able to do everything that she feel happy too. Don’t upset her. She needs you. I hope that you will be together and make a happy family who knows maybe I will be a grandmother for your children. I dream about the moment when I will be able to bring up the children of my daughter. I hope that you will think about my words and will take care of my daughter. Be happy!! Thank you for all you have done for Alena. Best regards, Valentina Aleksandrovna Dear Michael! You know I have nobody but you in my life. I am so happy that I have you. I believe that you are the very person I have looked for a long time. And I am ready to share my life and everything that I have with you my Love!! Here is the poem I found for you today. Your lips speak soft sweetness Your touch a cool caress I am lost in your magic My heart beats within your chest I think of you each morning And dream of you each night I think of your arms being around me And cannot express my delight Never have I fallen But I am quickly on my way You hold a heart in your hands That has never before been given away I hope you like these poems I am sending to you. I can't wait to get your next letter. I can not wait to hold you and share our happiness together for the rest of our lives. Send you my warmth kisses and love, Forever yours Alena

Letter 12

Hello my love man, my dearest Michael! Thank you very much for your warmth words to me and my mother. When I read them I feel that you love me too. What you say is part of your heart and that warms me. The day we meet will be the day that the sky and earth come together, there will be such an earth quake...my world will shake to my foundation. Our eyes will meet and our bodies will come together and our hearts will skip a beat. Our lips will come together that will be a kiss to die for. I know that heaven is missing an angel and I found him here and he is so wonderful!!!!!! I sometimes think I was born in the wrong country I should have been born somewhere near you. You are an answer to my prayers. I asked God for you and he has answered and his answer was YOU. We have something that I will keep with me forever and no one can take it from me! Thank you for being in my world. I LOVE YOU, Michael. Let me tell you how I see love. I can see us sitting side by side in the morning light and looking out at the future together. What a grand thing, to be loved! What a grander thing still, to love! You know you are in love when you see the world in your partner's eyes, and your partners eyes everywhere in the world. Holding you up, when you are weak, Helping you find what it is you are looking for. Just being there, through thick and thin. Love is like magic and it always will be. For love still remains life's sweet mystery!! Love works in ways that are wondrous and strange And there's nothing in life that love cannot change!! Love can transform the most common place into beauty and splendor Love is unselfish, understanding and kind, For it sees with its heart and not with its mind!! Love can't be bought; it is priceless and free. I hope this will explain my view on love. And now I want to tell you about my dream. Maybe it is very usual but I want it to happen sometimes with me. So, only imagine yourself the cost of the boundless ocean and the sunset. And only two people are sitting on sand embracing and looking into the distant spot. They don't talk to each other because they needn't any words to express their feelings. They kiss and embrace. They are in love. That's all but I have a lot of dreams and it is only one of them. Maybe sometimes I'll tell you them when I will be looking right into your eyes, Michael. I love you my darling and wait for your letter with impatience. Kiss you and wish you to see me in your dreams, Forever yours, Alena

Letter 13

Hello my love man, my dearest Michael! Today Natasha has written to me the letter from the USA and said that she is the happiest woman in this world. Her future husband as she said Richard met her at the airport with a big bunch of flower and gave her a big kiss. They dreamt about it a lot and finally it happened. She was very glad and I heard her funny and happy voice. I am sincerely glad for them. And I also want to go to you to, Michael! You are all for me now, the air I breath, the food I eat. I want to be with you. I am waiting and I am dreaming for a moment of our meeting in your airport. I will cry in this moment, because it will be our happiness my dear. I dream as we will live together my darling, go for a walk, keeping for our hands. I want you to show me your native land, places where you like to go for a walk and you like to spend more your time. I want to be with you my love, I want it very much , I miss you. I want to say to you that I have spoke with my parents about us again. I want to say to you that they have so many happy smiles for us too, they are so happy because we love each other very much, simple they said me that we will happy with each other and they wish us a large happiness together! They see my feelings and my happiness from our love with you, and mom understand me that we with you can't live without each other and wish us a great love in this time and our future life too! A hot hello from my mother and father to you, please, accept the love from my nearest people, my parents love you as a relative son! My life has changed since I met you. Since we started writing, I've been sleeping such a sound sleep I haven't slept in years. In fact, I don't think I've had such a good sleep ever since I was a child. I dream such magical, such colorful dreams, that it's so hard to wake up in the morning, returning back to the real world. And I've begun to see you often in my dreams. In my dreams you're so close to me, that I can feel the warmth of your body and the strength of your hands, the softness of your lips. Seem as if our hearts are being as one and there's no such force that could become an obstacle between us. Like last night I dreamt a wonderful dream. In that dream we were walking together, hand in hand, along the ocean shore. And then suddenly it began to rain, in a second it was pouring heavily, and there wasn't a single soul in sight, and no place, not even a tree, to seek shelter from. In an instant our clothes became wet, and useless. So, we took it off, and plunged into the warm and gentle ocean waters. We messed around in the water like two kids, yet I could feel your strong hands holding me, and I felt so safe, as I never had felt. We laughed; it was the most genuine laughter. As I woke up I thought that I wouldn't be fair any more to say I'd never seen the ocean. After my dream today I decided to go to the travel agency to learn how much it will be cost for me to go to you because I can’t wait for the moment I will be able to hold you and kiss you in your hot lips. Just wanted to tell you also one more time that I am very happy to find you my love!!! I believe that we will be the happiest family! I love you so much, my darling, I'm sure of my love to you and I want to say that every day I want to be with you as soon as possible, my Michael, I love you so much, dear, I can't live without you, my Michael, you are so important for me, Michael, I love you, Michael!!!! I am ready to apply all my forces to our meeting. I think we should meet each other, because we should know each other better. The meeting will help us to make serious steps in our life. Do you agree with me? I was very resolutely adjusted to a meeting with you. I will find out the information as soon as possible. I will inform you immediately as soon as I will have the necessary information. I’m so excited because of our meeting!! I understand that I won’t be able to hide tears when we meet at first. Do not only pay attention if I cry when we meet. OK? Do you promise me that? I want to have sensation of your man's hands with all my heart. So your caress is necessary for me!! I want to feel your care. I will try to do you the happiest man in the world! I want us go towards to our love. I want our meeting to be the first step in making our life together happy!! Let's do our life happy and long! want the union of our hearts to be strong! I want to take care of you; I want to love you with all my female heart!! I do not want that something will interfere with us in our love. But without it, it is impossible, therefore we should overcome all. Our love should overcome everything! Also, my Michael, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I want to go to the church, I must thank God that we found each other, my love, I hank God so much, I know that God helped us to find you, my Michael, I know about it, Michael! My darling, on this I will end my E-mail to you, I will wait for your next E-mails with my great love!! You must know, Michael, how happy I am when I read your messages, my darling! Forever yours, All my kisses and hugs to you!! Very truly yours, Alena

Letter 14

Hello my love!!! LOVE of all my life!! Thank you again and again for your kind letters! My angel, my fairy - tale, my sweet dream! I so want to be with you Michael. I want to be with you, very much, as we have waited this moment. We were meant to be together, and will make each other very happy. You are the man of my dreams, and I love you, just the way you are. We will share everything together, and pursue similar interests. Anything is possible, when you're in love, which is such a wonderful feeling. No matter what obstacles we encounter, we will overcome them, because we have each other, to turn to. You mean the world to me, and without you, my life is meaningless. I want to be everything you ever wanted, in a woman, as you are the man I have always wanted to meet, someday. I love you, with all my heart, and nothing will ever change the way I feel. We will have an everlasting love. But there is a little problem. The reason we can’t meet is that the travel to you costs a lot of money. I have come to the travel agency and found out everything about flying to you. The visa costs 600$...It is a very big sum for me, I was shocked when I learned it. I have no such money. You know that my wages is only 200$ a month and I keep all our family. I asked my parents about the help but you know that they are pensioners and get a very small pension which is enough only for some little life expenses. So I help them with my wages to buy food and pay the bills for the flat,…I don’t know where I can find this money. I called to the bank and was said to come to bank and to talk to the manager. I hoped that they will help me. But when I did, the manager of the bank told me that it is impossible. Oh, you just can not imagine how unhappy I was. The manager told me that I can not take a loan from the bank, because I want to go abroad. And they do not accommodate people with a loan in such cases… Can you imagine it? Oh, Michael!! My dear Michael! It is incredible thing! It is a disaster! My heard is simply dying for being with you, my love, my dear friend, my Michael!! And what will I do without you? Tell me; tell me please, what I should do then!! How can I live without you, my Michael?! You are all that I have in my life, believe me, Michael!! I don’t want to lose you because I love you very much with all my heart. I have no right to ask you to help me, to put it more precisely - to help us. I know that our love is mutual!! My dear Michael, I do not have this right!! But at the same time I have no money to come to you. I do not want us to lose our love, my dear Michael! I do not want to think that 600 dollars will be an insurmountable obstacle to us to be happy together!! So what else can I add? We have a choice - to start a new happy life together or to lose each other forever….What do you prefer?! As for me I want to be with you for ever! God gave us such a splendid opportunity to find our happiness! To be together! To love and to be loved by each other! Can we allow this small problem to spoil our happy future life?! What is money? It is just a mean to achieve our aim, and nothing more. And our aim is to be together and be happy. That's it! I do not have any right to say the next words, but it is really so, believe me - now everything depends on you, my Michael. My dear Michael! Please, do not leave me to the mercy of fate…I pray… Love You, miss You, wait for Your decision, Very truly yours, Alena

Letter 15

Hello my love Michael !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I can name you my love with belief.
Your letter has brought to me this belief.
Also this letter has brought to me hope for which I shall continue a life is not present
In loneliness.
And I can speak, that my life only begins. And this life will be connected with you.
I am happy.
I can tell now with belief, that I love you.
I cannot transfer this feeling in a word, it is difficult.
But my heart beat more often, my breath became rough.
As soon as I read your letter, I have made a decision. We should be together.
I solve it, having executed all the night long in reflections.
I am assured, that we should have a meeting. We cannot learn in nompletely everyone
Another, hoping only on a computer.
The computer has given much. It has given us hope.
And we should not pass this hope. I am assured, that you agree with me.
I have to you true feeling - love.
I spoke you about my girlfriend Elena very much.
In the past to year it married.
I hope, that I can is fast to decorate a white dress of the bride also.
I love you.
With all heart,
With all love,
I send you one thousand kisses and embraces.

With love Alena.

Letter 16

Still I would like to tell to you that I would like to talk to you to phone and to hear your pleasant voice and to talk about my travel. If you give me the number I has tried to call to you. I wait for your prompt reply my dear Michael.