Letter(s) from Vicky Johnson to Paxton (Canada)

Letter 1

Hello, My Name is Vicky 36years, Birth on 31st May 1974, i am 5'4 in Height 130lbs in Weight Green in Eyes,brown in Hair, Christianity single, with no kids, I am interest in you b'cos i like what i read from your profile, and i will like to know how you feel about life. I like the way you type your profile. Do you care to chat? You can send me an email or add me to your messenger list on email address not shown so we talk much better and then i can also send my pictures to your email address and tell you much and every thing about me as well, if you can email me, once again, my email address is v j o h n s o n 9 9 @ y m a i l . c o m

My personal traits are smart, honest, modest, kind, loyal, elegant, gentle, cheerful, optimistic,romantic, I like these kinds of Music Classical,Jazz,Pop,New age , I usually read Love Novel and playing , i Like going out to Theater, cinema, concerts,parks,meeting with a Good nature.friends,nature,travel, my Favorite cuisine Italian and Portuguese I like traveling,Gym and Billiard , i am respectful, independent person with a Good nature ... I'm very dynamic,easy going and hardworking fellow.I have a very calm personality.I love traveling and meeting People with different culture. I want to make friends and I really would love to find a lovely Soul mate. I am seeking for 100% LOVE I am Not here to Seek for a MAN That will be Playing Games Or Toying with My Heart...So I am seeking for a man That is willing and Serious, Romantic, someone That I will Spend The Rest Of My life with, someone That will stand By me when I am Good and During My Times of Needs and Difficulties and That is Really Ready for A woman in His Life and Ready to Take Actions on What he wants and Needs in His Life But to seek for Love, A long term relationship and Marriage Hopefully If THINGS Works Out, a person to be with for the rest of my life, a person who is nice, Compassionate,Loyal,Faithful, caring, trustful,God fearing and also down to earth, Honest, understanding ,simple loving ,above all sense of humor

Letter 2

Hello,
I am using my email address for my yahoomessenger to so try to add me to my ymail, I read your note, I pause and I think "Wow. Is it really starting, this journey of life, this new life" You and I. Yes I have so many fears within me right now after reading your message. The wheels are starting to turn. I now fear I will be of this great dissappointment to you, because I am a realist on life and being a realist, I always prepare myself to expect anything to the negative, as there are no free rides in this life. Life itself is a test always, and always in so many cases things within life are never always as they seem. In all my writings to you and what i wil be writting to you,I have been open and honest with you. Truthfull in all my words, in all that I have had to say. my sweet prince, I have no more to add, I have nothing to correct, and I retract nothing that I have said. My mind is clear, calm and positive, and yes I have a peace within me that I have spoken my truth in all aspects to you and have played no deceipt.I fear nothing when it comes to the truth, but I am no purist. But this fear of the physical world between us, and is yet to materialize, and that's something else.
you have told me about your past and what has happen and I really thankyou for that, but please always know and understand I will never judge you nor will I have an opinion of you as I have no right to have an opinion. Life is life for what it is. Provided you have come though your situation, your health, and you wasn't hurt in any way, then every thing you plan for is still ahead of you. thank you for telling me.
By telling me you would have a small worry of me because you don't know me. I can and do understand that. To me this is natural, and it's up to me to say words to help dispell or minimize your fears if I can. I hear very clear in what you say. Your small fear is of the unknown, a crossroad within your life and perhaps a past bad experience within your life that you fear may repeat itself all over again and you are still going to be on top of everything.

My Sweet Prince, all I can do is speak to you in my own words, my own way so that will allow you to have a feeling of comfort and present to you a picture for dreaming and for you to feel what your heart may tell you. What I want to say is; I am 36 years old, but age brings a wisdom that only age can know. In my older years I know how to love and treat a man; with respect and honor, a courtisy, good manners and good conduct. I know many things about love and life. I know how to love a man; The real question is "What is love"?
To me love is for the other and never for yourself. If for yourself, then is a selfish love and self gratifying. A love of self gratification will never last as there is no bond between these 2 lovers of the world, and will just simply fall apart and destroy itself in small time. Love is a sacrifice of oneself, to live for the other, but not as a tool to manipulate. Yes I know of love and sex. I educated myself to understand what is needed to love, to show love, to make love, to love as the person. Love is also this sexual attraction allowing this blistful sex that creates a craving of want for more. A want of always touching the other, a light pinch, a suck, a kiss, a touch, a hold, a closeness where bare naked bodied witness the flow of their body heat from one to the other.
The younger man believes love comes from his penis to be a great stud lover. BUT to his great shock this is not love at at all. These are just hormones at work. Vicky I am just me, and I do the best I can in this life. I dream beautiful thoughts like any other to have a love affair like no other. Yes! I have my failings, but I can only try to be the best I can be in this life.

My Sweet Prince, I know how to love a man; A gentle soft touch, that soothing soft caress of tender places, Soft slow peck kissing of his neck line, his shoulders, his chest line, those places of the body that are discreat of their exposure. Those special places that create a rush of lust. A whispering of soft love words in his ear. A soft blowing of warm breath over his body his skin and those fine hairs of the skin rise up and dance with excitement. A kiss of the belly line, a touch of vulnerable areas that cause the body to thrust and arch in excited reactions. Yes I know how to love a man, though I am not a perfect lover. Never should a day go by without reassuring spoken words of "I love you" to usher reasurance that a love between 2 people still exits and never should be taken for granted. Without love words, a kiss of passion, a touch of want, a cuddle for comfort to reasure every day, then this great love will die a slow death, and what a sorry sad day that would be.

I am also a realist on life and I know so very well that events of life will happen that will test this great love. Many a great love will fail under this test of life and these stresses that go with it. Life is also full of trickery and in so many cases, things are not always as they seem. The man must never hit a woman nor the woman must hit a man. I have never hit a man. I am not a man hitter. To me as a woman, to have the love of a man is heaven on earth. There is nothing like it. Till i hear back from you. i will also be staying in touch online as from now on, my messenger ID is vjohnson99@ymail.com so just add me i will add you back and buzz you i'll be sending my pictures in the second mail i will be writting now it's some much more about me as well.
Vicky.

Letter 3

Thanks again for getting in touch with me and I am interest in you because i like what i read from your profile, and i will like to know how you feel about life. I like the way you type your profile. Well I'm happy for what I do. To be sincere with you, I'm very new to this online thing and you are the first person that i contact on the site.I know this life from many sides and I am rather mature already to know how to make a man happy. Life is too short to use it only for thinking and dreaming. I try to act but not only to dream................I am 36, Birth on 31st May 1974, i am 5'6 in Height 130lbs in Weight Green in Eyes,brown in Hair, Christianity single, with no kids, just praying to God to provide for me because i really like to take care of kids and i will be happy to be the mother of your kids only if you want me and more kids. I will just give you an idea of who I am. I want to meet serious man who would be like to have strong and loving family in the future. i am single, but am trying to be careful i dont want to be hurt any more. and I have no boy friend at this stage of my life but am ready to and to settle down with a man that will truelly love me and care about me,i did'nt have any kids .I dont work on here. I have a college education and I am rather intelligent. The only one I miss is a beloved person and I want to have a family. I have really many interests: music, reading,books, computers, movies, good conversations, sports and many other things which make the life wonderful. I like beautiful clothes and things, I can't say that I have many friends. I know many people but I am very picky about the friends.Friend is a person who will be with me all my life. And I am lucky to have some really good friends. But I am very sociable that is why there are many people I have good relations with. I am rather independent. And work to be able to pay for the things I want to have in my life. In some words I can tell you, that I enjoy the life as it is and I love the life and i will be happy to here from you.and i want you to know i will like to know more about you as well cause all i seek for is a lasting relationship in my life now and i think you are ready for commitment as well cause that's what i am looking for ,a man that will love me for me and care and be truthful to us...............................So i am seeking for a man that is willing and Serious, Romantic, someone that i will Spend the rest Of my life with, someone that will stand by me when i am good and during my times of needs and difficulties and that is really ready for a woman in his life and ready to take actions on what he wants and needs in his life but to seek for love, A long term relationship and Marriage hopefully If things Works Out......a person to be with for the rest of my life, a person who is nice, Compassionate,Loyal,Faithful, caring, trustful,God fearing and also down to earth, Honest, understanding. what is in your mind, long term relationship and marriage hopefully if things works out, a person to be with for the rest of my life, a person who is nice, Compassionate,Loyal,Faithful, caring, trustful,God fearing and also down to earth, Honest, understanding ,simple loving ,above all sense of humor.

I am really interested in wanting to know about what makes you the special person you are today , I want to know more about your family, your background, your life experiences, past relationships, your goals and dreams, your interests, and anything else you want to tell me. I even want to learn about the secrets you very rarely share with someone!. So come on and share it all with me, as I am not here to talk to you about general things such as partying, the weather, sports, e.c.t. I want to learn about you and what makes up your heart and soul, as the friendship I want to build with you I want it to be like no other you have ever shared in or experienced. This friendship I want to build with you will be filled with substance, quality, spirituality and potential....I hope to hear back from you as soon as possible.
Vicky

Letter 4

I just want you to know that I very much appreciated receiving your letter the moment i check my mail. You are a very special person who I SERIOUSLY want to explore the possibility of building a long term relationship with, that will in time turn into a marriage and family. That is my dream, and I hope to make it come true with you!. In my heart I feel you have all the qualities it takes to make me very happy...

About my past relationship, I have been into 3 relationships and those are also my only sexual partners I have ever had. 2 of my relationships ended because of my partners betrayal and infidelity (cheating) and the other 1 ended because the love was not there to grow. I know this sounds strange to you but as I wrote above I have not been sexually active now for 2 years!!!!. I live my life through the word of God and through my spirituality, and I refuse to have sex with someone if I am not in a relationship with them and my last relationship ended over 2 years ago. My reasoning which I understand is very strange in today's world, but my belief is my heart and soul, and the passion that is in it is very unique and special, so I made the decision and made a promise to God that I would not be sexually active for the sake of just wanting sex, or to have sex for someone elses own self gratification. Knowing the passion that is contained in my heart and soul is very unique, I made the decision to abstain from sex because I want this special gift to be shared with the person I am dedicating the rest of my life to, as his Wife and the mother of his children ...
It is very important for me to build a life of stability, security, and opportunity for the special person I hope to share my thoughts, feelings, experiences, dreams and fantasies with, and to offer the best in opportunities for any children that might be included in my life and that is my focus at this time.

My Sweet Prince, in me you are going to find a woman that was blessed with an over abundance of passion to give to the ones I share my heart and soul with. For you to really know me you will have to experience me, as the love that makes up my heart is like a waterfall, where the water never stops flowing down. In this case my heart is the waterfall, and the love and passion that flows endlessly is representing the water. I am a very unique person for many reasons, but one of those is the fact that I can never get enough of romancing that special someone.

Thank you again for giving me the opportunity to build this special relationship with you. You will be rewarded for it through the passionate love that makes up my heart and soul!. I am so excited to be able to do what I do best and that is romance you with all the passion that makes up my heart and soul!. My special friendship and serious relationship with you is something I want to make permanent and eventually build into a family to call our very own! kindly tell me what you are really having in mind
Directly from my heart to yours!
Your Future Queen! (I hope!)
Vicky.

Letter 5

Hello Again,
Your letter keeps chilling me up with hopes and thoughs of a future plans .At this very moment I am sitting here dreaming and fantasizing about how nice it would be for you to be near, where I could do what I enjoy most and that is being able to romance the special one I have in my life...
In me sweetheart you are going to find the most passionate, loving and romantic woman you have ever met. There are very few promises in life but this is one of them!. ROMANCE is the key to my happiness and to my heart and soul!. It is the single biggest reason I am single today is because I have yet to find a man who will romance me with the passion of there heart and be a giver of there love, and not just a taker. I am a woman who is very committed to the special man I am sharing my heart and soul with. I totally dedicate and devote my life totally to this person 24/7, for he is my King and it is my belief that as long as he is my King, God would want me to treat him as such, by putting him on a pedestal that is reserved only for a King and showing him with an endless amount of affection, attention, passion, and unconditional love. It is my duty as a follower of the word of God to be his provider, providing for his emotional, mental, and sexual needs. It is my responsibility as his Queen to take any problems and stress that he has in his life and put it on my shoulders to free him of it, for I am a woman and his Queen!. My shoulders are bigger so it is my obligation to carry the burdens he has in life on them, allowing him to have a healthy mind, body, and heart and soul at all times. I love and cherish this role sweetheart, and it is because I love it so much, that I feel God has a role for everyone in life, and his chosen role for me is to be a excellent wife, mother, and family woman, because of the way I live my life, and because of my passion to be a great lover and family woman, in addition to the passion I have for children. I believe children play a big part in my life.

You are really amazing.Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into mythoughts.There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you. Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you. Till i hear back from you. iI remain totally in your thought and spirit.
Vicky.

Letter 6

Hello Again My Sweet Prince,
Thanks for the sweet repond to my message, you have so many sweet words that makes me feel so attracted, and I didn't have the courage to approach you in person because of the distance between us, so I hope you consider my letter. I have so much inside my heart that it keeps me from breathing sometimes. I know we just met but these feelings that I have for you keep glowing and growing every day. Now that I am with you, I sleep thinking about you and the next morning I wake up smiling.
It's amazing how you got me and trapped me. I never thought I could love this much but I was so wrong. I just thank God for having you. We are meant for each other and no one can change that. I love you with all that i am and with all that i will ever be. Till i hear back from you soon. I remain totally in your Thought and spirit.
Vicky.

Letter 7

Hello Again My Darling,
Perhaps you will be astonished for receiving a letter from me. I just want that a letter is more eloquent than words. That is why this will definitely speak for itself. I am a little bit confused on how and what to do just to eradicate you to know from my vivid mind your charming and beautiful face. The more time I spend with you the more I like everything about you and the more I want to find out all about you - how you think, how you feel, what your dreams are and everything nice from you. If I could only do something just to persuade you.
Sweetie very thing I wish to do was left undone because of this unexplainable emotion. My admiration was still bubbling within me these past lonely days.
Truthfully, and undoubtedly, I can fool anyone but I cannot fool myself. I would be a great liar if I uttered that I'm not in love with you. No matter what you think or say, all I can say is; I really love you with all my heart and I will not hesitate if you will give me just a little time to prove my feelings of endearment and to prove to you that I'm deserving of your feelings, from your heart.
My dearly beloved, you became so honorable in my eyes, like a precious gem, counted with extremely good intellectual reasoning makes me emotionally struck and speechless.
I am very serious now in telling you that I can no longer endure such extreme anxiety and sleepless nights that I am experiencing right of this moment.
I felt I was living in a new and wonderful world, full of love. And the sun is brighter, the pastures became greener and everything I do was magnificent. You should inculcate and instill in your mind that "I cherish you so much". Such love, like everything, deserves to be given much attention and care in order to grow more and more. Till i hear back from you.I remain Totally in your thought and spirit.
From Your Angel Of mercy.
Vicky.

Letter 8

Hello Again my sweet Prince,
You're always lighting up my heart with the things you say. I feel so happy just being with you this way. You're my baby, and will forever be my baby. You will always be the love of my life, and please never give up, always have faith in yourself and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love you righteously deserve.

My sweet prince, my love, my beloved - I want you to know how much I love you and why.....Thank you for acknowledging my thoughts and feelings, justified or unjustified. I feel safe to be myself knowing I can not be perfect and you will continue to love me.Thank you for the time you take to always be with me online and telling me I am wonderful ...Those silent moments recharge my senses of appreciation for you.Thank you for getting in touch with me at the right time... it shows me that you are genuinely supportive of my goals, which are such a part of who I am.Thank you for answering all my questions without criticism or impatience - you have shown me that my dream of a kind and considerate relationship is a reality. You motive me to expect and tolerate no less and to be the same with you and those around me. You have created calmness and safety in my life which I only ever imagined.
Every time I think of you my heart misses a beat. You're my theme for a dream! Every moment i read from you we grow closer. I'm simply hanging by a moment, waiting to see you so you can hold me so tight that all else fades; I thought upon the distance between us the feelings we had will fade away from my mind, but still everyday I wake up dreaming of our time together.
I will never forget you. I hope you still think of me too. and i hope you still think about the feelings and love you have for me ad i hope the feelings and love are not just in vain, I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be. Please know that my love and I are inseparable and I would want it no other way and if time could express my love for you then it's forever and a day. I can't wait to be with you, see your smile, look in your eyes, feel your sweet touch, hear your perfect words and kiss your perfect lips. The way I feel about you some people call it crazy, some call it insane, but I call it true love. I really love you, Baby Bear.

I love you and only you and want you and only you - I could never have even imagined or wished for such a blessing when it comes to you and me being together and how lucky we are to be in love.
..........., Honey, I love you so very much and I hope this reassures you. Remember to let me have your phone number. till i hear back from you. I remain Totally in your thoughts and spirit.
From Your Angel Of Mercy.
Vicky.

Letter 9

well i'm glad to hear from you as well, and i'll also be on here waiting in touch till when you will get in touch with me online so we can talk much better., Although We are all on this earth to make someone else happy. but for me, am on these earth to make you happy and not someone else, coz you are truly the best i can always and ever think of. we'll talk much better when you get back to work tonight.