Letter(s) from Natalia Morozova to Wouter (Holland)

Letter 1

At the very beginning wish to let you know who you are talking to myself. My name is Lena and I am from Russia. I am 26 year old. I am kind-hearted, open-minded, loving, tender, intelligent, respectful, with a sence of humour. And I hope my email did not disturb you. I I'd like you to know this is not a junk or some bulk email. I am real female who has one purpose. What I want is to find a person who will understand me, who will like me for who I am. I am looking for a friend, my male, and my future partner. I want to love and be loved as I am very tired to be lonely. The internet dating is new and unfamiliar to me and I have never done it before. I was at the internet-cafee and somehow I visited web-site Be2, and I decided to send you an email by means of some virtual programm. The manager who works there helped me as well. As you already know my name - Elena and I am from in Russia. My family is not big and I live now with my mother and I am lonely without my person. I am also make an attachment you my pic for you to know how I look like. I hope you are interested in making new friends and will e-mail me to this write me back. If you are, please message me back lenkalenka{AT}cafecompany[DOT]org
Looking for your reply.
Sincirely yours!
Your new friend Elena

Letter 2

Hi my new friend!! Thanks that my letter didn't remain without attention and I am very glad that you have answered me.
I did not think that you will answer me so soon and sincerely I was delighted when I have found your letter in my mail box. I am from Russia and live in Tikhvin in Lenigradskaya region and there is great distance and a time difference between us, but I do not know what exactly. I have written to you because I wish to find for myself fine man that will understand me and take care about me and will be pleased and experienced together with me. Simply I wish to have reliable the man. I am lonely, fragile woman in this difficult and complex world and I need support and a reliable man's shoulder in a life, maybe it's you?
Sorry if I cannot answer you at once, but understand, I work in the afternoon and I can answer you only using internet-cafe to look your mail and to write to you... Therefore I cannot answer to you at once, but I visit internet-cafe today before work and in the evening after work (if it is not so tired) and I hope you will wait for my letter and I too with impatience and excitement wait for your answer. It is pleasant to read each your letter.... I with impatience wait for yours fotos!!!!
I like them a lot!!!
To tell the truth I have never been in your country...
Is it warm in there? Here it's not very cold: -10 degrees!!!!
Waiting for your answer.... Elena

Letter 3

Hi my dear! How are you today? I am very glad, that you have found time to answer my letter.
I want to tell you more about myself, I hope that you will much glad to hear about my family and my life. I'm 26. I was born 20 august 1983. I was born in Tihvin here I was at school till I am 18.
Then I entered the institute. I graduated from the Saint-Petersburg State University. Now i have the diploma and have received a profession of the manager in sphere of trade and have work in large trading centre "Zhemchuzhina" in Tihvin.
I love this work and i like to contact with people, and this is very important for me. I like sports, I like skiing. And it is a pity, that it is possible to do it in only in winter. I visit sport club twice a week. I like to swim and go to the forest for picnic. Also I like ride a bicycle. In the night I like to look at stars. My favourite season is summer as it is possible to go to beach. I love dogs and cats. I have a cat. It's name is Pusik.
Sometimes on the weekend my friends and me we go to the park and there are some horses there and we ride them. But I think that when I will have a happy family we will have a cat and a dog.
I live togehter with my mother. I have a separate room. It's very small but very cosy. There is a lot of flowers in my room, I like to look after them.
The dream of my life is to create happy traditional family with the man, who loves children. I think, that any woman dreams about this...

I have never been married and I don't have children.

Why do I search for a man in internet? I do it as I am disappointed in russian men. I do not want to have a husband from Russia because they frequently drink alcohol and do not respect the wives and frequently treat their wives roughly. Nearly all my friends who married the russian men were unhappy. Sometimes russian men beat their wives and russian women may have bruises on their hands or body! And I have made a decision - I will never marry a russian man.
I want to be happy, and if we are together someday, I`ll give you all my love. I think, that I can be a good wife and mother because I want it. I'm very simple, kind and frank woman. I don ` t like cheating.
The most simple things can make me happy: a smile, a small gift, or person, who is close to me.
As well as everything, I hate lying, I ever don`t try to contact with people that lie.
I am very romantic woman.I do not see sense in life without love and children, without a favorite person - the good husband.
I think, that this is the most important things in my life. I want to find a person, whom I will spet all my life with. I may be too forthright but I want only one man, who will fully understand me. I want to give my heart to a man, who wil with l love me. Please answer me what are yours parents? What do you want from your life?
Do you like children? How many children do you want? What do you do during your free time? What is your hobby? Write about everything.
Thank you for the photos a lot!! I like the so much!! you are sweet!!!
I hope to hear from you soon. Best wishes from Russia, Elena!!!

Letter 4

Hi my Dear!!!It's me again ! I am happy that you answered me. I read your letter very attentively trying to understand every word. It was very interesting for me to learn something new about you. I think that it will be interesting foryou to learn about me.
My Well, my body height of 169 centimeters and weight of 55 kg, I have a blond hair and my eyes are blue.
I work 9 hours a day, but I like my work much. My workday starts at 9.00. But I may finish at different time: sometimes I finish at 6.00 PM, sometimes at 6.30 PM. But if I have a lof of clients I may work till 7 PM. After work I go swimming to the swimming pool or to the gym for aerobics. Now instead of going to the swimming pool I go to the internet-cafe to read your letter and write you something about me. I have already got used to get your letters and I impatiently wait the end of the each day to go to the internet-cafe and read your letter.

Today my friend Vera and me with several girls from my work are going to the cafe to drink some juice or champaign and we will share with our women secrets.
I do not drink much alcohol and I do not smoke at all. I try to live a healthy lifestyle and I like it much. In rainy and boring evenings I like to read a book or listen to music. I like different kinds of music but I prefer classic and jazz.
During my free time I prefer to walk in the park with my friends in the open air. Also I like to cook various delicious dishes. Did you know that Russian cuisine deffers much from the cuisines of another countries?
I think that the most important traits in the person are honesty and fidelity. It seems to me that if people are dishonest in their relationships there can't be any relatioships between them. I want to find a man, who I can fully trust to.
My mother still doesn't know that we have correspondence. I can't foresee her reaction for this. But I think she will understand me. I will tell her about you soon. I don't have a secret from my mother. My daddy left us when I was 8. It is very difficult for me to think about it. I'm ready to give all I have to make my farther to come back to us.
I am glad that you like Russia!!
I finish here. Can you tell me about your life? I miss your letters and your gentle and tender words! Please send me your photos!

Bye-bye,your Elena

Letter 5

Hi!!! I was very glad when I saw your letter in my mail box. It is so nice of you! I was waiting for your letter a lot!!! I want to apologise for the mistakes in my letters. Now I want to tell you about me, my family in details.

Thank you for the photos a lot!! I like you!!

I think you should go to bed and have a sleep...

I have a friend - her name is Vera. We work together at trading centre.
My mum is very clever and intelligent, she has always been an example for me in everything. Besides, it seems to me that my mum the best mother in this world, I have never heard the rude word from her, and I always follow mum's advices as I'm the the obedient daughter.
My mum is the teacher, she teaches literature. My mum is very cheery person and she simply sheds the festive mood. We have very strong relations in our family, we take care about each other and love each other very much. I was brought up in a very friendly surroundings and I am very family oriented person, because my mother made her best to bring me up in this way. I like to travel but I have never been abroad. I like wathing TV programms about traveling and I read magazines about foreign countries. What weather is now in your region? Here it's -5 degrees.

My favorite color is blue. I love this color very much! I think that you can agree with me because this color is really great and it fits me much!!! Please write me what is your favorite color and why, ok?
I think first of all I need to know everything about my man that I want to spend my life with and then I will decide if he is for me or not. I hope that you can understand me.

Maybe it's not right but I am afraid of making mistakes. I understand that there is no life without mistakes but? Please, try to believe me and to understand me. I would like to know more about your family and to learn a little bit more in detail about your birth and the origin of your family. You probably would like to learn more in details about my character as I want to know more about your character.
When I studied at university, my teacher of the English language said that I was too simple girl and that someone can take advantage of it in his purposes. I can tell aboout myself that I'm sociable and purposeful woman. I love to be in a circle of the cheerful, clever friends. In a circle of the people which I communicate with, I have not found the man whom would be possible to connect the destiny with.
I work in female collective, where I hear about the family life so much that I don't want to get married the russian man. Everyday I hear how someone complains that her husband has not come home or came drunk again. It is too hard for me to listen to their groans evereday day. I don't want to live the life that they live. That's why I want to find a man from another country where, in my opinion, the treatment with a woman is different.

I finished the university 2 years ago. My student years were the happiest in my life. And you, what can you tell me about your student's life? We had cheerful, friendly company which had time to study well and to have fun too. We have fun without drinking vodka, smoking cigarettes and especially without drugs. I treat these problems very seriously. I think this problem is very impotrtant in our modern society. A lot of families in the world don't pay attention to this problem and they can only be pitied. But I don't want to talk about sad things, do you agree with me?
I like to go to the museums and theatres very much. Write to me, please, about your city. What is your city and do you like to live there? I speak English well and I know the rules of spellig. I learnt English at University for some years. But I have nit spoken English for a long time so I want to apologize for some mistakes in my letter. I hope that soonI shall write letters with less mistakes.

I hope that you will like the photo!
I'm waiting for your answer With great impatience! Your Elena!!

Letter 6

My Dear ,Hi !!!!
I am glad that you wrote me back. I want to ask you, how are you doing? Are you ok these days?
A for me I'm OK. I hope that you are ok too. It is very pleasant for me that you think about me. Everyday We become closer.

I'm so happy that I met you. I hope that you want to know me better. As for me I want to know everything about you. I want to know how you spend your day, what do you do and do you like your job. I told you before that I like my job much.

I want to ask you some personal questions. What's your attitude to religion? Do you believe in God? I was shocked when I heard that the leader to Catholic religion died. I to go to church sometimes to ask for the God protection from malicious people, evil and injustice. I have the right to have a happy life, to love and to be loved.

I believe that you think the same way. I want to tell you that when I receive your letters I simply start shining with happiness, my heart begins to beat quickly. It starts beating fast when I think about you. Do you think it's possible? I think yes. Lovely, I want to ask you to send me more photos so I could feel you closer to me.

I love everything beautiful, I just want to have a pure love, without lie and deceit, treachery and mistrust. I will take care about the person I love. A man who loves me must be tender and thoughful. You probably think that I'm asking too much. But I think I ask only the most important things in human life. I think every woman in this world dream about it. You see I was so close to happiness and everything ruined in one second. I don't want to go through it once again.
I understand that it is necessary to trust people but you see there is so much evil, lie and a deceit in this world. My mum says that I should be open to other people. I agree with her as I completely trust my mum.

I will finish here. I will wait for your letter with great impatience. In my opinion we became much closer to each other.
I send you my most gentle kis. Have a good day, that is full of joy and smiles.

With love Elena!!!!

Letter 7

Hi my Sweet, I hope that you are fine!
I hope that you feel well. Today I have a day off, and I do not go to work. Therefore, as soon as I woke up I have decided to go in internet-cafe to write you a letter!!!!
I hope you will like your new job and I wish you good luck!!!
Ah, may I ask you, what kind of cuisine do you like? You see, I like to cook very much, I have got many recipe books. Recently I bought a book about asian cuisine, there a lot of recipes of exotic dishes there. I like Japanese cuisine as well, it's very healthy.

I think that people must eat only healthy food, that's why many people from the orient countries live for so long.
I do not understand people who eat only products from microwave, it's not healthy food. And if you eat food cooked in microwave, I promise that you will never eat it again, because if God wants us to meet you will eat only healthy food that I cook by myself. I cook very well I think that I am the best cooker, that's why i think that my future husband will not die of starvation))

Soon I shall get my salary and I shall try to buy a mobile phone and we will be able to talk with you. Please give me your phone number so I caould call you.

Now I want to talk to you about more serius things, it is very important for me to know what do you think about it, I hope that you are ready. May I ask you to tell me about your dreams. I mean your dreams for the women, what do you expect from your future woman? Can you discribe her? Probably, you'd like to know what I think about that... Well, there are three things which are very important for me. Ancient peolle belived that the earth is situated on three whales, it's so good mathaphor for the gentile relations. The name of the first whale is LOVE, the name of the second whale is RESPECT, the name of the third whale is UNDERSTANDING. I think the relations between a man and a woman are based on all on these three "whales". However it is very difficult to find the man who thinks this way.....
And what do you think about it? Answer please.... It is really very important for me....!!!!

I shall be happy to hear your answers, I want to say that I want to find nice person, first of all the partner of life who will love me and take care about me. I am a normal girl with serious intentions, hope I you understand me. I will not send you my photo today but I promise that I will send you my photo in the next letter. I'm looking forward to see your photo.
Only yours Elena

Letter 8

Hello my Love!
My heart is beating fast when I receive your letters. Tonight I shall bake a tasty pie, I like cooking very much and when we meet for the first time I will cook somethig special for you. Do you like sweet dishes? But I do not eat sweets often as I try to keep fit and take care about my figure. I go in for sports twice a week.

I want to hear your voice very much and I want to call you. I think that I will call you soon. Today I talked to the manager in internet-cafe, and he told that there will be the service of the IP-telephony. It is not very expensive at all and I can sometimes call you. it is very good news!!
I very much like to read your letters, they bring me a lot of pleasure and I re-read them some times. I understand that with each of your letter I like you more and more and more. It seems to me, that I can trust you, and this is main thing. I think, that the trust and understanding are a basis for family attitudes. I know families in which the lie and a deceit destroy family and even love do not rescue a marriage. Sometimes in family someone from spouses does not want to concede in dispute to another and consequently there are scandals. Therefore also it is important to find compromises in life with beloved. You probably think, that I am a very serious person, but it not so. I simply do not want to make the wrong choice of the future husband because I want that my marriage would be prolonged all my life and our family would be ideal, based on the important principles. But any marriage will not be without the present, passionate and sincere love. At present my feelings are more than friendly, but I do not know, that you test to me and consequently I do not want to rush you with a choice because I know as far as it seriously.
In yours words I understand, that you are the person of honour and your words warm and heat my soul. It is fine, when you know that in this world there is a person to whom you are not indifferent. I understand, that each of us has past, the habits. But the present love will help us to recollect together good and to overlook bad. One of the important reasons on which people connect the lives is aspiration always to help each other. Only the strong love is capable to involve one person to sit at bed of another or to be pleased with him. It is pleasant for me to receive your letters and this feeling I cannot put in words.
I finish the letter, in hope to receive a reply from you soon. With love Elena!

Letter 9

Hello my dear!
Please write me as often as you can as I like to read your letters. They make me happy. Reading your letters I'm taking rest after the hard working day. After my work I want to go home to see my husband and to cook some delicious dishes for him. But now there is only loneliness in my life and that's why I decided to write to you for the first time. But now your letters became the important part of my life. But I think we should not hurry up in our feelings so not to make a mistake. And if we decide to join our lives we should weigh up the pros and cons. But nevertheless it seems to me, that if we are together someday with you I shall never regret about it.
I always think of you. No one of my collegues know about you and our correspondence. But they say that I look more happy. And do you know why? Because I have you!!! You are the best man in the world!!! I feel that my feelings to you are becoming stronger every day.
It seems to me, that we are like two distant ships at the different coasts of the ocean, and some day one ship will come to another coast. I will wait for your next letter with impatience.
I should go now, but I hope to hear from you soon .....!!!!!!!

Miss you very much!
Kisses and hugs,

Letter 10

Hello my darling!
How are you there? I miss you very much! How are you doing?
I hope everything is fine there. Recently I felt that I became older and that life goes away. I feel that the next stage of my life is coming and heart is hungry for love. I want to have a family.
Do you think I'm a fool? I want to have someone who will be close to me. I do not want my life to pass on the ordinary way. I want something new. I want to change my life. You mean much more to me than just a guy I write to.
You have become the source of my joy. You are the person dear to me. I can open my heart to you. My correspondence with you fills my life making it brighter. You lighted my fire.
I understand that we are becoming closer and closer with every letter. I think it is wonderful. I am glad and happy to have a nice and beloved friend like you.

You are understand and value me. I want to say that this is a very important point of life. It seems to me you put trust in me because writing you gives me much pleasure. I take delight in feeling friendship between us. Do you agree with me? Tell me your thoughts on this. I want to ask you about photos you have. Can you send me all your photos? I want to print some of your photos and to place them in a photoframe near my bed. It would be great to feel you are near me! So please, send all of your photos, ok? I will wait for them! And you can be close to me every moment!! It is great! I have a strong feeling to you. Tell me what do you feel to me? It would be great, if we could be together someday. How do you think? Do you really want it?
I want it very much. Maybe it's too early to think about it but I really want it. You are the reason I live.
I want to ask you about one thing but I do not know how to tell you about it.
I am so nervious about it and I do not know if I should tell you about it.
Can you help me to make us be together? I want to know do you want to hear about it? I think you can understand what I mean (or maybe not?). I want to be honest with you and with me so I need to know your opinion! I wait forward for your answers!!!

Letter 11

Hi my!!!!
I am very glad to receive news from you again and again. I am at the internet cafe at the moment because i waited for a long time the check my mail from you.
Yesterday I spoke with my mother about you.... I have told her some of your letters, it has been fascinated by you, and your letters. She is glad for me. That I have met the man of my dream. Also say hi to you you !!!!
I shall cook for you the most tasty dishes when we meet. I very much like to read your letters and they deliver to me a lot of pleasure. With each your letter I begin understand that everything will be ok for us and our relationship. I consider our relations to be more seriously. My opinion is I consider that the most important thing between the man and woman is complete trust, I hate when the people deceive each other. You probably think that I am very serious woman, but it is not so, I simply do not want to be mistaken in a choice of the future husband and partner. At the moment my feelings to YOU are already more than friendly to your words I begin to understand that you are the man of honour. Your words you write me warm my soul and heart. It is so wonderful when there is in this world a man to which I am not indifferent.
It is pleasant for me to receive the letters from you and I cannot express my feelings that I have for you. Probably now I shall finish and with the large impatience I shall be waiting for your next letter.
Big hugs and kisses for you. Your Elena

Letter 12

Hi my love!!!!!
It was nice to talk you!!
I constantly think of you. From your gentle letters, I can see, that you also want to meet me. It would be very good for us to meet and to spend time together, have closer relations with you. You are that man, who is important for me, you are good and kind man. There are things in life that are inevitable, I am powerless to control them.
From the moment we met in the internet, I knew that our friendship would develope into something everlasting and precious. Dear, I believe that our love is blessed by God. It is a union of two spirits destined for everlasting happiness.
Thus, you have truly become the star of my life which brings a light in this dark world, and warmth when I need it.
First time, I wanted to offer you to come here in Russia, in my city, but then i understood that it is not so good idea.
And, in general, I think, that the trip to Russia will take a lot of time and money. And it takes a lot of risk.. There is terrorism and nationalism and i do not want you to have a risk.
I want you to know I have never left my country and I want to see world... If I can come to your country it would make me the happiest girl in the world. I spoke with my boss about my holiday. And then I have told to my boss that I have a boyfriend abroad. I wish to come to you. He has agreed to give to me long holiday.
If you agree with me, I can to go to the travel agency and find out how much it will cost for me and what documents are necessary for this trip and how much time it takes. I mean to prepare my documents. For this I will need some information from you: please, write me your full address and full name, ok? Also write me the nearest airoport to your town. I am waiting for this information.
I was alone for a long time and a lot of love and passions has accumulated in my soul and I want to give it to you. I think of you at home and when i am at work. Our meeting is necessary for me and i think that we are two part of the one biggest heart and we must become one heart again.
I'll be waiting for your answer, please tell me what i must do.... God bless our meeting...
Yours Elena forever and ever...

Letter 13

Hi my love ! I am very glad to see and to read your perfect letter!
Your letters warm me and give to energy for all day. My mum tell that I LOVE YOU very strongly! I do not know why it happens but it is the truth I very strongly love you and I can not live without you! Here it's become a little cold but your letters warm me as i already spoke about it! It becomes very boring without you and I want very much to see you very soon! If you too want it so I am very glad to this! Today my mother felt herself not very good and i went to the doctor and asked for the medicines for her! He gave me them. She told me always that she too very much like you! Today I have a lot of work, so I will not write to you much but I very much want it that you write me very soon I wait for your letter, whether and it would be still better, if we could meet with you, I am wait this moment and want it very soon because I grieve till that day when you and me will be together! I very much love you really! I want you to tell me if you not against to see me. Sometimes when I lie down to sleep - I to think of you, and I open eyes and see that you is not present with me and to me becomes so alone because there is no you beside and I to begin to cry.
I will be with you for 30 days!!!
I will go to the travel agency today and find out all about my trip to you...
I am sending the photos that I hope you will like.. Please don't show them to anyone.. these photos are only for you...
this is the way for me to show how much I trust you... ok??
I will finish this letter and wait for your answer my love!
Please write me soon! Millions hugs and kisses!!! Elena

Letter 14

My love!!!
Today, the weather is cold here again, and I'm thinking of you! It was a great day when I received the first letter from you I thank God and I know that I found the nice man and I love you. Today I find out up to the end all about opportunities to come to you.
I miss you!!! I so much wanted to be with you last night! Hope I can be beside you and see the beautiful new year's city! I am pleased with an opportunity to meet you soon, and I want that very much, I think you want it too, your letters was the ray of light in my life. As you know I was not very interested in moving to another country but I will do it. We have firm in our city which makes the documents for people who want to leave the country. They told me that I need a visa, foreign passport and some other documents for registration. We have defined type of the visa - and this will be the visa of the tourist validity for 90 days. First I asked the agency about the visa of the bride, but they have told that it is impossible, as to receive such visa, all over again it is necessary that I was included into embassy in your country together with you. I asked about prices and was very surprised, first I asked about terms of performance and they said that there is many people who wants to make documents and leave the country but if I make the application now, and pay for it now they will make all documents not more than two weeks, and if I'll not make the application, documents will be prepared not earlier than two or three months because there are many people who wants to do it. I was very surprised of its price. It cost 395 euros. It's make me little stressed and disappointed I do not have so much now. I wanted to file an application but I must pay for it. I asked my mother about our savings she said that the money should not be a barrier between two people who love each other. I counted my money and I found out that I have only about 30 euros and my wages will be not soon. I asked my friends to help me and they said that have not it at the moment. I asked the advice from my mother and she said that maybe you can help me because he loves me. I asked her how he can help me, because he is far from me. My mother said that you can send the money through company which make this service. I asked about it at my work and I know now that there is reliable and fast company which makes transfers in world and it's called Moneygram. I remember that I saw advertising of this company on tv. I take a directory book and found the phone number. I have called there and have learned that it is necessary to send money from abroad. They said that sender must go to the Moneygram branch, give them information: the name and last name of receiver, country and they will make transfer and bring the secret code to sender. The receiver must know that code for receiving money. They say that the branches of it must be everywhere worldwide. Here is the information about me: Country: Russia, Index (Postcode) 187550, Leningradskaya region, town: Tihvin, name: Elena Philiseeva. I must know your full name, full address and the exact sum of money you sent.
You might know that I decided to ask you about it because I love you and trust you very much. I decided to come to you because I feel this way and you are very important to me, I decided to come to the unfamiliar country and I have never been outside my country. But I decided to do it because now you are part of my life and I trust you in all. I think you trust me too and love me too.
My love, I need 395 euros. But it is by not only visas. This sum includes cost of the visa, consulate fees, the foreign passport and other expences. And also it will be necessary for me to pass, and to pay for medical examinations. I think you will help me because we found our love and we want to meet closer. You must know we must hurry because I can receive the documents soon and if we lost the time it is necessary for a long time. Now it's very difficult to receive the visa, and it's fact, but if I pay now I think I'll do it.
I think about sense of money, and I'm very sad if this paper can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the money play a main role in life but it's not right! I'm sure. And the quantity of money was and will not important to me I always not aspired to material enrichment and do not search specially for rich man. I appreciate human qualities and relations and I love you!!! I love you with all my heart, I want to be with you now... I want to be with you forever. If it's mutually we will be very happy in our life. I think you love me too and we will meet very soon. My heart is yours. I'm waiting good news from you, I hope everything will be all right and we will be together soon. Every day I think about our meeting, and I think it's real, we must use this chance of destiny.
I send you the photos that my mother and I made for you.... They are only for you!!!
I trust you more and more!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! Your love Elena

Letter 15

dear are you ok?? please answer me!!

Letter 16

dear I am happy that you answered me but did you read my letter to you?? You didn't say anything about it...