Letter(s) from Rose Bellick to Tommy (USA)

Letter 1

Ohh My love what a nice reply from you dear you really makes me feel so spcial i dont really know what to say anymore dont even know what to write than to say that i really love you with all my heart i really need you dear i want you in my dream i want to be with you wherever i go..i want you to be part of my heart i want you in mybody i want you to make you feel so special all we spent together....my life is needed of you my soul is searching for you cuz they know you are the most caring man in the whole world and my love shall be with you for the rest of my life i really thanks you alot honey you i,ve totally own my heart my life my soul i can't do without you dear i really want to make you feel confortable all time all day and all night.i want you to be the one i'm gonna dream of all night i want to be there with you when to think is better i want to be there with you when it bad i want to enjoy life with you and i also want to suffer with you i want to show you how much i care for you....It's the end of the day and I was thinking about you, as usual. I want you to know how much I sincerely love the times we've spent talking. It means so much to me. It truly seems like I've known you forever and I honestly can't imagine life without you now. There will be no looking back, no second thoughts and no regrets. I want you and need only you ... and that love will only grow stronger. Do not be scared my love. Sometimes life hits you with unexpected things that take you totally by surprise.. All I can say is you're the best surprise life has given me and your capacity for love, caring, and understanding never ceases to amaze me. I've truly been blessed by finding you and I'll never let you go.......It's been a long time and somehow we made it. No matter how much I screwed up, you were determined to keep our love alive. I'll never be able to thank you enough for that. You are the reason I live, breathe, love and laugh. You mean everything to me. Sometimes you ask me why I love you and I don't answer. I know you must believe that it is because I don't love you, or I can't think of a reason, but it's just that when you ask me I don't know where to start.. Our love was meant to be. There's no arguing with fate. Forever....Some of the most superb feelings and tingling emotions come from what love an Angel, such as yourself, and I make. Our world, as we have come to see it, has no bearing and an infinite boundary when we are locked lips to lips. No one person can sever that bond of nothing but pure affection and intimate passion. We are the Angels of Our Heaven and with merely our names to live with. A name, which consists of nothing more than symbols of a language taken for granted. I would soon rather speak nothing. A true test of love of which we have accomplished merely by the elucidation in our eyes....Earth moves with such apathy that only Our Heaven can keep the pace of our devotion for one another. As slow as the heart beat of a goliath at rest. Why would the world seem so passive? I believe it is a chance for us to make our own time to spend together. It is love. It is what binds the thoughts of all beings trying to understand it. It appears that you and I have fallen into love, without having looked for it. This is Heaven and we are the Angels of Our Name....i really need you in my life honey you so much special to me...please honey i want you to do all you can to get this done cuz i can't sleep anymore i have nothing more to say that to say that i love you with all my heart please honey i wnat you to keep on trying all you can to get this so that i can be home with you dear i love you so much with my love and faith i know everything will be fine and alright with us you are the greattest man...and i can't wait to be with you forever and i know am the most lucky girl to find the most caring man dear i can't wait to be the mother of you Son i will treat you like me prince i know you will also do the same dear you are....Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, falling in love with you was beyond my control.....I was on my way to bed and wanted to write you a little note. Thank you so much for having so much faith in me and in us as a couple. Thank you for making me a better person, and for giving your heart to me and opening up so much.... it's been wonderful; I never expected to feel this way nor actually be with you in this way, experiencing life with you. You are wonderful ... to me...You make me really happy and even though we are apart so much of the time, it's made up each time I see you again. The feeling that I get is overwhelming every time that I do get to see you for the first time in such a long time and as time goes by my feelings for you grow dramatically...It takes a strong man to accomplish everything that you have in your life, I am proud of you that you stick to your goals, you have improved your life so much from what it was before and I am so happy that you respect my beliefs as I respect yours. You say that you are going to make me a happy woman ... well, you have already done that, just by being you and showing me love and being so open with your feelings. You are what I dreamed of when I was a little girl, someone with integrity, honesty, love, affection, handsome, and with such a charming personality.. I never thought I would find you, but here you are.....I love you so much, and can't wait to be with you again. I want to give you my heart and soul.. I don't care about anything else in the world because I am in love with you, James. I love you. Thank you James, for you have made all of my dreams come true. I could not ask for more. I am the luckiest girl in the world to be called your girlfriend, I'm truly honored. Thank you.
Love always,

MRS AMANDA

Letter 2

Hello Honey

How are you doing? This is just ramblings from deep in my heart.
I was sitting here thinking about you( it is a very good thing). Well I was just reflecting how nice it is to be part of something so wonderful. it is so nice to know that I am appreciated, and respected. You have shown me this by staying up to send me an email , making time to email me with me when you are working, the positive feed back.. All these things you have captured my heart. . . I am at a point in my life when I want to be married and settle down, I want to give the marriage a few years before kids but kids are something I really want. I am looking forward to giving you the chance to show me that there are real man out there after everything that has happened, and I really hope you are the one to prove it is true. I would know how things will be once you are with me, (happiness and hours of phone conversation, time together) it is some thing that I am looking forward to eagerly. there is still so much I want to show you about me and learn about you, I wonder in a perfect world how long before you want to be married (a week, a month, a year) I wonder how i will feel in your arms, how nice your body smells, how passionate our kissed will be, how soft you skin feels, how cut you look, and how wonderful your smile is when you see me for the first time. All these things are running through my head. I look forward to finding it all out. I don't like all the distance between us right now but it give us time to get to know each other. I daydream about us together, how nice it will be and all the things I want to discover with you, what you will teach me, and what I can teach you. It is strange how you have won my heart so fast, and by just your email on the computer.
I hope you have enjoyed and been touched by what is in my heart, I am a sensitive woman, and love deep conversation revealing what is in our hearts, I hope you are someone who can share from deep in your heart and soul, that would be so wonderful. If you have not figured out already I will give you my life and make things easier. I hope I don't come across as clingy(well I kinda do) I want to spend all the time I can with that special person, YOU. I hope you are somewhat the same way. I enjoy my space but us so far is wonderful, and I think love is an addiction that is hard to get enough of. Other than honesty I am looking for respect from my future Husband. I need to know that he respects me. In the book of Ephesians it takes about role of husbands and wives. I think there is a lot of importance on the "husbands love your wife, and wives respect your husbands"
So far you are everything I am looking for in someone and I hope I am the same to you. I really hope you have enjoyed a look into my heart, I am looking forward to hear what is in your heart. you are wonderful. Hope you like my picture ...cant wait to read from you soon Love always
MRS AMANDA

Letter 3

Hello Honey

Sometimes we search our entire lives for a feeling of oneness with another person. It’s hard to describe, really, what we search for, but we know it when we finally achieve it. Maybe we tire of that dark feeling of being ultimately alone as we struggle through the vicissitudes of life, as every person must. If only there were someone else here, we say to ourselves, who can understand and share these burdens in a deeply personal way. Then it wouldn’t be so lonely. Or perhaps, in our more positive moments, we want to share not just the burdens of life but our pleasures, our strength and beauty. We want the powerful impact of our internal experience to have an impression on someone else, as if to say that we count, we are whole and we want to impart this feeling to another person. We as humans are social beings. Is that why we search for intimacy with others? Is the quest for intimacy the reason we commit ourselves to another person in marriage or other public declarations of loyalty? We experience massive frustration when our committed relationships fail to bring us the promise of intimacy, and this may help to explain the neediness, control, and ultimate option of separation and divorce found in so many relationships. In trying to find intimacy, are we simply searching again for the ultimate feeling of bonding that we felt toward a parent during our infancy? The search for intimacy may be why we form social groups, and it may explain why we quest for spiritual fulfillment in our religious lives. We do not want to be alone. We want to touch and to be touched.
Contemporary society seems to have produced a feeling of alienation for many people. For all the benefits we derive from living in a highly technological world, we still lack ways to form intimate relationships with other people. In fact, our high tech society seems to fragment our social connections, to drive us away from other people. For example, electronic mail seems to make connecting with other people much easier, but in truth our messages are usually just flashes of ideas — briefly written, briefly read and instantaneously deleted — and they barely fulfill our desire for more complete relationships based on our inner experiences. In our modern society, we don’t see, hear, or touch other people — not in person and not to the extent that humans have in the past. What our high tech world has brought us is an abundance of stress in our personal lives. And stress and intimacy are hardly compatible bedfellows.
To have an intimate connection with another person requires first that we have access to our own personal emotions and ideas. We cannot expect another person to insert intimacy into our lives when we are out of touch with our own internal experiences. We must explore and become familiar with our own personal thoughts and feelings before we can share them with someone else. Our intimate experiences involve our emotional, cognitive, social, physical, sexual and spiritual lives. Two people, each of whom is in touch with his or her own internal experiences, may be able to share an intimate relationship on any one of these levels. True intimacy is one of the ultimate expressions of the human experience. And that may be why we strive so hard to find it. I should be back home to the states in the next 1wks and 4 days from now and should live there, i will retire from my missionary work soon, let me know, i really want to get to know you better, cos i feel you will be fun to be with.....How do you feel?? coming back home after my project because, I am basically coming home to settle down and have kids of my own you know??? and i know you are the man???
With so much regards,

AMANDA

Letter 4

Hello Tommy

Nothing will make my day like me reading the sweet words from you ..Your LOVING,KIND,PRECIOUS,EMOTIONAL.PASSIONATE,ROMANTIC ,worlds,my precious one i cant just hold it anymore ,i think i should just be with you where you are at this moment,missing you is a very bad thing for me to stand,though we are far away ,but the love we have for each other keep getting stronger by the day,like i use to say,life is too short for someone not to share it with the person he loves,i dont even mind to be with you where you are now, Honey." i Put you as a sign on my heart, as a sign on my arm; love is strong as death, and wrath bitter as the underworld: its coals are coals of fire; violent are its flames."if i could not see you in person for now all i can do at least for now is to tell you in words how i feel for you and for the day i will eventually see you ,i will be the happiest lady in the whole world, Honey.."Every time you cross my mind, I break out in exclamations of thanks to God" thanking him for having you in my life,i cant just imagine my life without you honey,life will just be an empty hole that has no end ,but at least i thank God that i have the man of my dreams in my life and i cant wait to see him in person,everything that i have always hope and pray for is coming into reality ,though time may seperate us ,but with the grace of allmighty God,we will come to be togehter very soon, The type of love that i have been waiting for in all of my life and you are ready to give it to me ,honey.this words about love and i want you to read it gently cos this is the type of love that i have for you Honey"Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrong doing. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres,caring."... Honey..Now let us play hide and seek. Should you hide in my heart it would not be difficult to find you. But should you hide behind your own shell, then it would be useless for anyone to seek you.
Honey,There comes a time in every life we find the heart we're looking for.now that i have found you and you have found me too,i will guide you jelously till the day i see you and for every day of my life,i will think about you...

AMANDA

Letter 5

Dear Honey,

I want to start by saying that I miss you, and you have no idea how much I love you.
I know you don't need another reminder because I tell you a thousand times a day how much I love you, but I do and that is my only way to show you. I love the hundred ways you show me how much you love me, and I know my simple words can never compare.
From day one, I knew there was something in you that no other man had. You are the most AMAZING man I have ever known. Thinking back to the strange way we met, how we grow so close in just a few short days, and how you were the first one to show me the meaning of true love, it makes me smile and fall all over for you again.
Baby, you make my heart beat faster each time I chart with you, and you give me butterflies when you kiss me. You are the one I want to hold for the rest of my life. In your arms is where I belong.
You melt me every time you tell me about the future that you want to spend with me and how we could show the world the real meaning of being in love with the right person.
I wish the people around me saw you and accepted us being together, because I don't think I could live a day knowing that you are not in my life. I know that anyone that tried to replace you would only be compared to you in my mind, and I know they could never live up to you in my eyes. Every time I look into you. I know that is where I want to live and die, and every time you hold me tight I don't want you to let go because that is the only place I feel safest.Let these words not only touch your eyes, let them travel through your soul, and let them rest in your heart as you rest in mine…I love you.
You're still the one…Words alone will never be able to express the depth of my love for you.In case you didn't know, I'll be loving you always and forever!!Just when I thought it couldn't get better, you prove me wrong! I love you!Falling in love with you was the easiest thing I've done in my life.Hand in hand and heart to heart my love for you shall never part.Even though we are apart, my love you will never part.I'll love the sun for days, the moon for nights, and YOU for forever.Loving you makes my heart explode with happiness.
Rains fall, winds blow, the sun shines... it all comes naturally, just like loving you.
Simply said... I love you...
Being with you is like having every single one of my wishes come true.
Loving you has been the best thing to ever happen to me!
Just had to let you know... you're the best! I love you!
There is no long distance about love; it always finds a way to bring hearts together, no matter how many miles are between them.You are the sun in my day, the wind in my sky, the waves in my ocean, and the beat in my heart.I wish I was there to hold you tight instead of just send this loving, "Good Night."Thank you for being the one who calms all my inner fears.Your love is all I'll ever need.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS AMANDA JONES