Letter(s) from Elena Tokareva to Wade (Canada)

Letter 1

Hi, Wade!!!

I waited your answer anxiously. Once upon a time in childhood I waited train 11 hours. When it has arrived I was very pleased. But presently I see your letter pleased else more.
I lucky that has solved to write you using Internet. When I write you I forget about all problem on work and commonness. Probably it is too frankly but I simply never felt nothing like it. Upholstering with you I can remain most myself. It is much pleasantly. In our country and all over the world too much lies. But I think will not be a secret between you and me. Apropos tell me about your secret. Men always have a different secrets. May be you are Spiderman?J Or you are simply romantic personality which I seem begins like.
Tell in detail, you love what music? The music is very important in my life. When I came home I include the tape-recorder and forget about all over the world. Now in such moments I think else about you.
My favorite foreign singer and composer is Sting.
In Europe and in America
There is growing feeling of hysteria, Conditions to respond to other threats In the rhetorical speeches of the Soviets.
Mister Khrushchev said, ?We will bury you I dont subscribe to this point of view.
Its such an ignorant thing to do, If the Russians love their children too.
How can I save my little boy From up and high mass deadly toys?..
- Mister Reagan said, ?We can protect you I dont subscribe to this point of view.
Its such an ignorant thing to do, If the Russians love their children too.
-We share the same biology Regardless of ideology.
Believe me when I say to you I hope, the Russians love their children too.
You know Sting wrote more songs and most of his fans see him not a pop star but a troubled world, more a philosopher, less a musician. Please tell me about your favorite musician or music group. What importance has music for you? You may be write poetry?
At one of the nearest days I am going to in small journey. Near by my little town there is a very beautiful and calm wood. Fur trees grow there. Its much beautifully when rays sun get through branches and create on herb inimitable drawing. Probably you was interesting see it. Tell me what do you think about it.
In following letter I shall tell you about its journey.

Your travellier,
Elena soul understanding the sorrows and joy of the existence in the modern contradictory

Letter 2

Hi, Wade !!!

Your letter has much pleased me. Each daytime we shall learn of us more.
I promised to tell about my journey. Regrettably I was to remain on work because other teacher was in hospital. I was much sadly. I shall not be able to realize my desire soon. Our family often had long walks in the country. My parents called such walks hikes. We took our rucksacks and the tent with us and didnt think of any tickets. We was not in a hurry and we walked a lot just watching wild life. And what way you prefer to travel? Where do you like to walk? Has you a place where you can to remain in private with your own thought?
I want to ask you how you pertain to alcohol? Simply my friend (about which I already spoke you) has said that her american friend like to drink. Its much unpleasant. Two years back I had a boyfriend who afterwards turned out to be alcoholic. I understand when man sometimes drinks but if it becomes hobby it is terribly. Man must be independent. I hope you exactly such as I think.
When I presently write you I much want to eat. Presently I have several minutes of the rest. Instead to run in cafe I write this letter but I am not distressed by it. We correspond not long but you already became part of my life. And have I importance for you?

You asked about secret in exchange for yours?... Well. But you should speak nobody about it. Promise? I had sexual experience with the woman. To us to school there has arrived on training the woman from Finland. I did not speak anybody about it. At us in Russia traditions are very strong and consequently me could not understand...

Apropos many familiar speak me that I wit to prepare meal well. Really I love to prepare meat dumplings, pies, salads and much another. I consider myself very home person. I like purity in my house. Its interesting if you has invited me on supper what has you offered me?
At present woman has more possibilities than earlier. But however I consider that woman must not concern with serious commerce. It is for man. Tell me in detail about your job. Why has you chose such life way?
I like my work though I shall much tire. Children are such good and funny. Its strange but when they become adult they changes in rough people. Several months back some juvenile criminals wanted to hit upon me and withdrew my hand-bag. One of them even haved time to knock me. Police patrol appeared in this time and they have run away. I have felt real shock. Though in our town it happens often. I certain that you was able me to protect. Tell me what situation with level of criminality in your country.
Regrettably time to finish. My rest is completed. You dont know how I dont want to return to realities.

Anxiously wait your letter,
Elena.

Letter 3

Hi, my dear Wade!!!
I am very glad to read your letter. Your words force to beat me heart faster. You already became for me more than friend... I think, that I can be with you happy...
I go on town and see much young girls and pair. I envy them. While they can be together. They are young and do not know nothing about their future.
Certainly I can get acquainted with anyone. Simply I want the serious relations. It is a responsible step for me. The tempestuous past remained behind. I want to find the tranquillity with reliable persons. What do you think about it?
Well, summer is now. For many russians summer is the time rest. The furlough - I so long ago was on a holiday last time that chief will give me it at short notice ?I also shall receive holiday. It will be in the end of August On a holiday possible forget about my own problem and try be weakened. I want to leave somewhere thereof, get free on air, become the free bird. But regrettably earnings of the russian teacher does not allow to do it. In our country work in sphere of the formation was not valued never. I know that situation other in your country. Working the teacher is honorable.
Speak that in to your country each person can realize his dreams if he will try. You are a lucky person that you live there. Independence and freedom of speech is the main value of civil society. I know that you have it.
When I review foreign films, I see that person working teacher or engineer has get prettier machine and house. I understand that certainly films do not reflect reality. But I think that if it at least share of the truth that it is beautifully. In Russia they are doomed on beggarly existence.

Dreaming,
Elena.

Letter 4

Hi, my love!!!

Today I went to the company which reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach LESTER B. PEIRCESON AIRPORT and how much it costs. They answered me that the ticket costs $2,235 USD. I asked them to find cheaper tickets, because this price is expensive for me. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket but the beginning of the flight 26-Sep. It costs $ 1,733 USD. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without advance payment. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed. We agreed that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later.
I paid $ 415 USD. But it was little for an initial payment. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my silver and gold embellishments for $ 500 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I reserved the ticket is Delta 47 / 1844 Connect in in Atlanta (Hartsfield Intl.).
The time of departure from Moscow is 12:25 pm.
Duration: 19hr 34mn .
It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only $ 800 USD. I have to pay this money 23-Sep morning. Otherwise I will lose my money and ornaments.
If you need me, if you trust me and if you want to see me, please, send the money for the ticket before 23-Sep morning. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or union of boy-friend and girl-friend or union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you won't trust. Also I would not like to give my love to the man which I won't trust. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made the first step. Step to you.
Of course if you don't want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money.
It is big money for me, but I TOLD YOU ALREADY THAT MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. But I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN.
If you can help me I send you my coordinates. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of Western Union: VNESHTORGBANK (name of bank)
IVANOVA 80A (street)
CHEBOKSARY, 428018 (city and post index)
for Tokareva Elena (my name :)

To get the money, I should tell to employee of bank your full name, full address, and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will give you, when you will send the money.
Please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity.
I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all myself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us.
I am waiting for your reply.
Kiss you.
Your Elena.