Letter(s) from Inna Kovalyova to Stephan (Germany)

Letter 1

My darling Stephan...

Vielen Dank fur Ihren Brief! Sie waren und sind die gro?en Liebe meines Lebens. Meine jedem wachen Moment Sie locken mit meinen Gedanken su?en Worten und Taten ... Horen Sie Ihre Stimme bringt ruhigen Komfort und ein Lacheln auf mein Gesicht bei dem blo?en Gedanken an Sie:) Mein Herz schlagt fur Sie allein ..

But why have you received my invitation back???:(( I was waiting for it so impatiently:(( Please resend it to me once again!!!! Ok? I pray you!!! Yes chose the arm chairs carefully, I wish I could be there to help you to choose them... I can't wait to meet you in Kiev soon!

Honey, in your absence I close my eyes and dream of your close embrace, our fingers intertwined and your soft lips pressed against mine. Honey, everything about you takes my breath away... I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to me? All I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever had. Darling, you must believe me that my love for you will either stay the same or grow to be more because without you I am lost! I can't stop thinking about how much I actually love you. I don't know if you have been thinking about the way I do or not, to tell you the truth if I could cry about it I probably would because I get watery eyes just thinking about how much you meant to me and how happy I am with you by my side. I love you with all of my heart and much more... I love you so much... It hurts me so much to sit here thinking about you and knowing that I will not able to see you for now! I became emotional just looking at your pic and thinking about you. I can't even begin to say how much I actually do miss you... You mean the world to me... I am always so lonely when there are long periods of time between the times we chat:(( I always find myself trying to keep busy because if I sit still for too long, my heart begins to ache and I feel your absence. At night, I make believe that you are beside me, caressing me, holding me, loving me. I want to feel you inside me. I adore you and even though I have not looked into your eyes or tasted your lips, I know that, in doing so, it would exceed all of my expectations. Honey, I love you with all of my heart and all my soul and I have no regrets for falling in love with you, even being able to feel the magnitude of this love for the first time, would have lasted a lifetime for me because its so strong. I am really longing for you, want to see you and hang out with you! Sweetheart, if loving you was wrong, I don't want to be right and if living without you is right, I would rather be wrong all my life... I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you. All I can do now is say the words that I couldn't say then: I love you and always will love you..I love you, I love you, I love you, my dearest Stephan... I remain yours! Forever... Tamara.

Letter 2

Hallo mein su"?est Stephan!

Ich war traurig zu wissen, dass Deutschland das Spiel verloren hat, weil es war die Mannschaft die ich habe mich geku"mmert um unsere Mannschaft abgelaufen: -)

Es ist auch ein Erbarmen, das du unwohl geschlafen haben, kenne ich, wie es ist, weil, als ich erwa"hnt habe, bevor zuletzt mehrere Tage ich einige Probleme mit Schlafen gut auch gehabt habe: - (

It's sunny and warm today outside:) So the walk from the agency to my job will be bright and I will have only positive thoughts. You know how much I love to think? I have a very developed inner world which makes me excited always. I'm a sentimental woman:) I depend on the weather as well. Some people say that such emotional state is bad in our world because there are more problems than pleasant surprises and if to react on everything then there will be more negative emotions than positive ones. I agree with that. I react very strongly on everything... but I learn to be not so weak against negative emotions.
I try to be a strong woman.

More and more my days are becoming brighter from your appearing during them. I think about you very often... more often than about anybody else in the world. You are my saver, my angel keeper. You are my everything now. I don't know if you will be disappointed by this letter if it's too small for you? I hope not. You must remember that my heart is not colder then earlier... it's heated specially for you, darling. It belongs to you... it's half:) And when we meet... (if we meet) I will give my other half to you. I wish you a pleasant day and a very calm and cozy night.. with me in your dream:) kisses upon all your face... XXXXXXXXXXXXXX:)

yours Tamara.