Letter(s) from Natalia Alpatka to Henning (Germany)

Letter 1

Hello dear Henning!
Thank you for your interest. I feel you have a very good heart and will make your woman very happy. My friends say that I am very warm and affectionate, I am very doting and once I fall in love I will give everything I have to make the other person sit on top of the world. I am very romantic, love candle light dinners, cuddling and caressing. The only thing I hate about people is when they lie, are not honest and play games.
I am 32 years old. I am from Ukraine. As you now I am nurse. I work at the hospital. I like my profession.
Now I feel I have arrange my own life. My friends advanced me applied to the Internet for finding my love.
I am very simple in my thoughts, love to meet people, am very trusting, have had some bad experiences but most of the time I end up meeting people who are nice, I love my work, I think it is very interesting it makes me meet a lot of different people, I think people are so different but they are the same in a lot of ways and if you have an open mind and are not critical, you can get along very well with people from different cultures.
I am looking for love and understanding which will bring joy to our lives, my best friend, my lover, my companion, with whom I will be able to share all my laughs and sorrows, with whom I can confide in and also he can do the same. I want to build a relationship, where we can be soulmates and life is one continual holiday, where everyday will bring joy to our lives, hopefully I can build this lovely relationship with a such a nice person like you, they say pictures do not say much but I think they do, so, please, send me your picture.
Henning, I can tell you that once we can work this out, I will never let you down, love you with all my heart and make you the happiest person in this world.
I am attaching a pictures of mine( hope you like them) Will be eagerly waiting your response. Take care of yourself and write back soon.
Kiss you

Letter 2

Hello dear Henning,
Thank you very much for your warm and kind letters. I was really glad to hear from you again. You know, it seems to me that we are both looking for the same. I hope you will agree completely that honesty and communication are very important. As for me, I don't want too much I just want for my life, someone with whom I have a close and honest, romantic relationship, always fresh and happy. I am very tender person if I am with the right person, to whom I "allow myself" and to open myself completely. I believe life must be lived with passion, and that applies also to love. I want a person whom I love totally, tenderly, without restraints or barriers.
Henning, I feel that it is a part of my life that is missing but it is not easy to find that special man that can make me give myself completely to him. I am still hoping to meet him. Do you think that we perhaps have already met what we both are looking for? It would be a great luck indeed. And if so, I don't want to miss that chance. You seem to be a very kind and intelligent person, I would like to know much more about you, your life, your dreams and just talk about whatever you want to. It is might be a bit strange that we both decided to find our "half" in such a way, you might ask me, "why did you decide to apply to the Internet, you young and there are a lot of Ukrainian guys over there"...frankly speaking, I don't know how to explain it, but you see every time I met with somebody I realized that this man is not what I need. I was desperate, I start thinking that maybe it was me who the reason, but now I think I have understood what's the problem. Ukrainian guys are very spoiled with good attitude forward them, there are too many beautiful women in Ukraine, who are ready to share their love with them, that they stopped value it. They don't consider they have to be polite and caring with woman and might think, "o'k this girl doesn't like my attitude forward her, but there are a lot of other who will be happy if I look at them".
You know, holidays are coming and I feel myself so lonely. Of course I have friends and my family but at the same time everyone has his own live and I want to have my close man near.
I think if we like each other it would be nice to meet as soon as possible. Soon I will have one month of holidays. Maybe I will come? What do you think? I think that people of our ages can not write each other during years. We have meet and find out how we feel each other together. Create a real relationships and explore all kind of relationships which can be between two close people. I have an international passport ( I visited Poland with my friend's family, her husband from Poland) so I think I can organize my visit quickly. May I ask you a few questions which will help me to know you a little better
What is the best quality of your personality?
What is the most intimate experience between a man and a woman?
What is there about you that most people would be surprised to know?
What do you dislike the most?
What is your favorite color?
What are you passionate about?
I want to delete my profile because I think it will be honest. I want to continue my correspondence only with you and I think it is a right step. I want to be honest with you. Do you agree with me?
So, dear, I will be waiting for your next letter impatiently. Hope to hear from you very soon. Henning, I am very interested in you and will be happy to continue our lettering and then to meet in person. I send pictures of me. Hope you will like.

Kiss you

Letter 3

Hello my dear Henning!!!
What can I say? The last few days I am flying like a bird!!! I feel that I am filled with a very nice feelings. I feel the ability to fly!!! That is incredible. The last time I was able to fly was in my far childhood in my night dreams. Here people say that when a child is flying while sleeping that means that he is growing. And now when I am not becoming longer:)) I feel that I can fly! The wings of love, happiness, satisfaction carry me away to the heaven. I realize that I have found the man whom I have been searching during the whole my life and I am thankful to God to all the events in my life (it doesn't matter whether they were bad or good) as everything what is done is done for the better. Only now I realize that I had to pass all those hardships, difficulties and circumstances in order to reach the minute of our meeting!! Though we are far apart from each other I feel you by my side each second of each minute of each hour of each day... I feel your presence in my heart and from that feeling I am becoming stronger. Now I am ready to everything as I will never stop on my way to you. The only thing we have to follow is to be very very patient. We have been waiting for so long time before we could get acquainted and now when that has happened I will never let you go as I love you with all my heart. This feeling is so huge, so giant that it can rush out from my heart in each second...I want to sing, I want to dance, I want to scream for the whole world that I am in love!!! I want to boast to everybody that I have the best man on this Earth and be sure I will do my best to make you the most happy man in this World. Recently I have forgotten what nightmares are as now I see only beautiful and color dreams, the dreams about us. Most of the time i wake up with the smile on my lips and all these days I am in high spirits. Darling I thank you very much for the atmosphere you have cultivated in my soul. You are great!!! And what is the best thing- you are mine!!! I value that and I will keep the fire of our feeling burning forever as I believe that this fire depends on woman for 70% and that is the biggest part of the one whole. I want to present you rainbow in the early sunny morning, I want to give you the morning water from the grass, I want to make your world joyful and full of colors. I know that I have strength for this and be sure I will do that:))))ups...it seems to me that the feelings and emotions are overwhelming me:))))
Are you still not sure that I am corresponding with you only?:))) Dear I will remove my profile as I don't want anybody else except you!!! I hope you are not against?:))
Thank you very much for the pictures:)) I am always glad to get them. You are always welcome to share your life with me (until we can meet). So, your questions. I will try to answer them step by step.
What made you pick me out? - of course there were some more men...as well as there were other women writing to you.:))I can't say for sure why...did you ever hear about such thing as "women's intuition"?
Dear, I fell very warm and safe with you. I don't need more.
Would you like to meet me in Berlin?- Berlin will be great!! Dear it is the same now Berlin or Poland. I traveled to Poland when it didn't demand visa.
Are you scared to start a new life in a foreign country or do you expect your partner to live together with you in your home country?-I understand that I will need to change my place of living. And I am not scared. Of course I will miss those whom I love here but we live in the time of high technologies. I will be always able to connect with them.
I would like to know your favorite color too? So, my favorite colors are blue, like the spring sky; green, like the grass in the meadow and red...this is the color of love and passion, to my mind this is the color of life.
What is your fullname? -Natasha Alpatka
So, what will we decide? Berlin? Do I need to find out what I will need for the trip?
I'd like to write a love story, the two main characters would be you and me but this story wouldn't be written only by one author, we would write it together. It would be the most beautiful love story ever and it would be ours. If you're ready to take a pen and write this story with me, then write me back. Kiss you tenderly Natasha

Letter 4

Darling, sweetheart Henning!!!
I am so happy to hear from you again, to know that you thinking about me, and dreaming the same way I do. It's incredibly nice to know that somebody understands you, needs you. I understand your wishes and desires as if they could be mine. I feel the same way, it seems that I breath and think the same way. I wish to have one breath, one thought, one day and night for both. I wish all your days to be bright and happy, even you are so far I feel you near, I am dreaming about you when I wake up and go to sleep, when I am at work and when I'm relaxing ...
I am thinking what would you do, if you were me, and smiling as I think you would do the same. I am happy because we have the same desires, the same intentions.
One day very soon we will be together, we will be near - distance is nothing in front of the face of love. I will wait as much as it is needed for you. I will support you and be patient. We have understanding, people looking for that felling for ages, and sometimes cannot get it, we done, and we have to do everything to save it. God blessing people for love, for strong feelings, he giving such present that people have no rights to lose or not to try to use, don't you agree with me?
I'm really happy that you carrying about me, that you warring, that you want me to be happy and have everything you need, it is so lovely, it is very important for me that you trying to be near in the way of helping me, in spite of distance, you really helping me a lot, thank you for your care, for your feature to think not only about yourself but be kind and patient to other :) I am happy, we found each other.
I would like be near, to meet you after work, to feed you from my hands, to massage and to fondle your hair while you were laying in my knees... I think you are very strong, you real man!
My vacation will from 10 September till 10 October. I give you e-mail address of travel agency which will help me to visit your place and you can contact them for all details. Their address is skywaytravel@ukr.net Manager's name is Dasha Garina. She told me you can contact her directly.
About your questions:
What makes you so sure that you already fell in love with me without having seen me yet? your personality, your letters, feelings that I know you many years old
Can you write your letters without any help? write - not Do you speak well enough English to talk to me freely? for me it is better to talk but very difficult to write, only with dictionary and I don't know grammar rules.
Henning, I wish be together right now, but instead, I am sending you warm kisses, and a lot of rays of lights which will make your life brighter, until I am here and you there :) I send you my love, and BIG HEART which is lonely without you!
Always yours, Natasha

Letter 5

Hello, my dearest Henning,

Do you know something my dear? It seems to me that we know each other many years.
How can you explain this my dear? This sense of two souls coming home after being lost from each other for so long. Two souls that when they finally find each other are willing to swim across oceans just to be with each other. I collect all your letters. I hope that years from now we will both reread all these letters full of our shared moments. It seems to me that you will have to build special bookcase just to hold all of those precious memories. ( I am joking a little.) When we are side by side we will not have to write letters to each other because finally we will be able to cuddle and talk to each other without this temporary ocean between us. But it seems to me that we get used to writing letters so that we'll miss doing it. I think we will do it but may be in different way. May be you or me will write little poems to each other and hide them under each other's pillows. Or secretly surprise each other by bringing breakfast in bed with a little note hidden beneath your coffee cup.
Henning, I contacted travel agent again she said already sent you all info.
Oh Henning, it is really difficult overcome all those difficulties but the day we meet, my dear, I will cry of happiness!!! I think that people are not right saying there isn't such thing...happiness is love, happiness is passion, happiness is God. Happiness is life. Happiness is you and I. Once we will be together we will love each other as we never did, we will be lost in each other. We will have this sensation of love forever, passion every night and nice surprises every day. You know we are from different countries with different cultures ,you and I two different minds, two different worlds but just one reason....The real love. My dear, when we are together I will begin my day from telling you how much I appreciate you, and how much happiness you have brought me. That my feelings for You never ending as the deep blue sky, and how my soul is eternally soothed by looking into your eyes and holding you in my arms. I'll be waiting for your letter soon. With all my love to you Many kisses and hugs Your Natasha

Letter 6

Hello, my dearest Henning!
Thank you very much for your letters. And of course thank you a lot for your help with travel expenses. Agency informed me that everything ok and they will start make documents.
Dear, each morning as I begin to wake and pass from a dream into conscious reality there is a moment when I feel your warmth next to me. Even though it is a fleeting moment as my eyes begin to open it sends a gentle wave of love through my heart. Because I know that half a world away a affectionate, passionate, loving man named Henning is thinking of me. Just as I feel the warmth of the light radiating from the sun coming through my window I feel the warmth of your love radiating from your heart touching me with its tender embrace. Each day I wake up and realize we are one day closer to meeting. One day closer to being able to feel each other's touch and I feel more anticipation for your touch each day. Today I am going to spend this day with you. I am going to take you everywhere with me. You will be in my conscious and subconscious thoughts every minute. Its fun to imagine that in some small way you may feel this coming from me half a world away.
I will take a shower and feel you bathing me in your love. Today the sun will be a symbol of you and I feel myself in orbit around your light. I will feel its heat and imagine it to be your passion making me sweat as my heart beats faster. I will breathe in the fresh air and feel you fill my lungs. I will hear the song of the birds and hope that you are happy as they are today. It will be a good day today.
You know, I can't wait to see you sleeping and give you a tender kiss on your closed eye. After I kiss your sleeping eye I will kiss your neck and your shoulder and watch you sleep.
My dear, I have never been so exited in my life.

I send you love,
Your Natasha

Letter 7

Hello dear Henning,
I was waiting for your letter as for the breath of fresh air, and when I get it and read, i was ready to die just to have possibility to see you. I was sitting and I couldn't believe that such love could exist, and that I will be that person, who will be loved by such incredible, lovely man as you are... My love is like a beautiful bottle which was empty until man came and fulfill her with a wine of love, drop by drop. In you I found my sense of life.
You know our mind is studio of wax masks. All the thoughts, experiences are there. I think the most beautiful ones in my collection are thoughts and dreams about you. They are like a wine vine, growing, and becoming very nice. Henning, I'm sure that our dream about our meeting will definitely come true, step by step. You like a good gardener grow me with my feelings as a flower, so now my smell and beauty is yours. I'm your Galateya and you are my Pigmaleon. Do you remember that story?
Henning, have you read "Golden mule or Metamorphose" written by Apuliy. That book consists of more that 100 different stories in one. I like it very much. Dear, agency informed me that our account will over very soon and classes as well. I would like to continue classes but of course it depends of your decision.
My love, you know how much I love you, I want to be your angel, who will be always with you, I want to be the rain, who making you wet, to be your towel and touch your body, your cover and lay near you...I want to be with you always...
I hope my love will take care of you even we are apart until, I'm sending you as many kisses as the stars on the sky, always yours with all my love, Natasha