Letter(s) from Anastasia Belyanina to Dan (USA)

Letter 1

My love Dan!
Some your words have brought tears into my eyes. How you could think about me as about the bad woman, after everything what I did for us?
How I can deceive you if I have made all that was in my forces for our meeting. I do not want you to think of me such a bad things. All this time I lived for the sake of you, you have opened my heart, you have won my heart. I have given all what I had for the sake of you. I have feelings and I want to be with you. I have opened to you my heart. And if I need help it mean that I am a bad and insincere woman? I always was sincere with you. Please, understand that I dream to meet you. I worry not less than you. But I want you to be always such a gentle and kind as you were all this time. I do not want you to think of me bad things.
I still hope for you. You my hope. You are my man. I believe you.
I simply should show money and then I can leave customs house.
Today I have received in the Internet-cafe the letter from Darja, and she has written that she asked boss to take the credit in a bank.
He did it for me. Tomorrow in the morning she will send to me 450 $.
I have 100 $ after your help, it will together 550. But now i will need only 450 dollars. Please, do not throw away me now. If you will not help me, I will simply die of sufferings! I have given all, and if after this I do not meet you, my heart will simply stop.
I cannot move mountains, but I have really given everything what I could, and I have made everything what was in my forces. But nobody is insured from unforeseen circumstances. And I really hope for you.
We have time, but this time is too quickly going away.
Your Julia

Letter 2

My love Dan! It is my turn to use a computer! It was bad night.
My dear. I thought I will go crazy here. I have spent night at the airport, but I practically did not sleep, because here only rigid armchairs and all the night I sat in this armchair. I could not fall asleep because here very terribly.
I was awakened by policemen some times and they checked my bag.
They spoke that if I want be here all the night long I should to be cautious.
I do not know that such the flight confirmation number, but I see on my ticket number form and serial number is number 512-2420164302-3.
3M5N6B this is the confirmation number?
I am still in Moscow at the airport. My dear! My plane in 5 hours. We still have time.
As soon as I will have money to show in anti-immigration committee, I can arrive to you. I cannot be here for a long time. My dear, I very much am nervous and I hope that you really can help me. Please, as soon as possible send me money, - I will show it in anti-immigration committee and at once I will arrive to you. Here, at the airport, there is a bank where I can receive money.
As soon as I will receive the sanction to leave my country, I will arrive to you.
I will give you this money right at the airport. I should not pay anything.
I simply should show money and then I can leave customs house.
All I need to do - to show money! I hope to see you soon.
Your Julia.

Letter 3

Hi, my Dan.
Probably I the most successful lady on our planet because I have found a kindest and gentle man who is capable to make so that my heart have been overflow with feelings and my soul aspires to cross space and ocean and to rush into his life, to be united in a single whole with his soul.
Many thanks for your anxiety on me. It was really awfully. My neighbors never will go to help or ask what's happened. People in Russia seldom help each other. It is necessary to shout the FIRE to interest someone.
If to shout KILL, nobody will go for the help. But if to shout a "the fire" then curious people can become interested in supervision of a fire and can go out from apartments. If near was Darja, we together would not become puzzled. She very courageous lady, much more courageous than I. Together we would think up something. But I was one and very much was frightened.
But it was not my EX. He two years lives in the other city.
I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy!
The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy!!!!
I as well have found out that I will get vacation November, 06, 2010.
I have been to the company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Los Angeles (LAX) and how much it costs. They have offered to me the roundtrip ticket that costs $1429 USD. I asked them to find cheapest ticket, because this price is expensive for me. They have answered that they have a cheaper roundtrip ticket and the beginning of the flight November, 10, 2010.
It costs $1038 USD. It was the best variant for me. I asked them to reserve a ticket.
But they refused, because they can't reserve the ticket without advance payment.
I must pay full cost. I have asked if I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. They have told that it is possible, but I will be limited by term.
And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses.
I paid $ 550 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what Darja and I could do - we pawned our earrings and gold rings and I got $ 104 USD.
That is all I could do. The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket is 31 Delta Airlines. The time of departure from Moscow is 12:10 pm.
I will change a plan in New York, number of the flight 2363 Delta Airlines.
After this I will fly to Los Angeles, to you. The time of arrival in Los Angeles is 8:22 pm.
I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult. But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise. I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa I have spent much more money than I expected. But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. We get a vacation payment after ending of a vacation.
I asked to give me this money now because I need this money urgently. But, at the last moment I have got the answer that I can get this money urgently only in case of serious illness or for example in case of death of the relative.
I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting.
But I must pay remaining sum. It is $ 384 USD. And I must pay money before November, 03, evening. Otherwise I will lose my nested money and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. I remember you said that you had bad experience of dialogue with other lady. I know it and for me twice difficult to address to you. But also comprehension of my position convinces me, that any person could get in similar situation. I want to meet you and I say sincerely that I need your help. I understand that I put you in inconvenient position. But I am simple person, I am the simple woman. I am not the wizard.
I only ask you do not compare me to bad people and to think of me bad things.
Any person could get in a similar situation. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely. But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that for you it is too big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 654 $ that I have given for the ticket are huge money for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, send money to the help before November, 03, evening.
I want you to be confident in my sincerity, - that is why I send you the Scanner of my visa. At least you will see that I am completely honest.
I address to you only because I need it right now, because the anti- emigration committee waits for me with all documents and I am obliged to come to committee according to appointed term.
I do not know if you can to help me. But I have no other exit. I need you.
If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Darja said that you can help me with the help of remittance system. So I have addressed to the nearest bank the agent ''Western Union''. I have been told that they use the system ''Western Union''. They have told that it is very convenient office for me; and this system works always and reliably. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of ''Western Union'':
The name of bank: BINBANK
CITY - Rostov-on-don
STREET - Budennovskii, 55
ZIP - 344002
for JULIA OSIPOVA.
In bank I have been told, that to get the money, I must tell to employee of bank your full name, your full address, exact sent sum and the confidential number - Money Transfer Control Number (MTCN). You will get this number in your bank if you will send your help. Only with presence of all this information I can get your help.
I do not know what answer I will get from you. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I understand that it is big money. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. I really ask you to help me. I will give you back all your money at the earliest opportunity.
I have written you honestly and sincerely. Are you with me?
Your Julia.