Letter(s) to Armands (Ireland)

Letter 1

Hi dear Armand!
Understand, that I plan studies and to work, to pay training and residing. The university will give to me a free-of-charge room in campus. Or I shall rent an apartment.
I shall work and I can pay it.
You do not understand! I yet have not chosen university.
Washing the visa it will be valid 3 months. For this time I will need to choose university and to submit there documents. If I shall enter the university then to me will prolong the visa for 5 years or more.
May be pic which I add today prove to you that I am real.
I made it yesterday to prove to you that I am real. Hope you remember my nick name? (Masyanya). I have written about it in my second letter to you. My friends call me Masyanya.
I think that you have concerns about me real.
I do not lie to you. I am going to get money in WU office or MoneyGram using my passport. If I was not real, I wouldn't be able to get the money!!! Please, understand that I am real!
I sent you a copy of my passport in my last letter.
The problem is that I have no time to wait. I have only 7 days for this.
Please, understand that next time they may not even take the documents for visa, if they refuse me now. And they will refuse me in this if I do not pay in time. They will just tell me what for I try to get visa for the second time if you have no money. So I am just in hopeless situation.
All my thoughts are about one thing now. Then I may not have such a chance again. Your goverment has a limited amount of student visas. And if I miss my chance now, i may not have such a chance again in the future. It is impossible to get another kind of visa. NO one will give me a tourist visa.
It is impossible for a single russian lady to get it. I asked about the work visa. It is a very difficult process. And also more expensive one. I don't have a diploma about high education in your country. And the russian one is not valid in your country. The Fiancee visa is a very long process and complicated process. It will take about half a year to make all the paperwork and if they don't see that we do love each other truly they will just refuse in the Embassy.
I want to repeat. please, understand - I ask you to lend me money. I understand it is too expensive for a preset.
I understand that 240USD is a big some of money in your country.
I don't believe in miracles as I was disappointed many times in this life. You will not loose this money. I will come to your place and will work there. And as soon as I earn I will give you money back.
You can send money through Western Union:
Batenkova Ploschad, 18
Tomsk, 634050, RUSSIA
Govorova 46
Tomsk, 634057, RUSSIA
My full name is Olga Sanarova.
You can receive the information how to send money from a site - www.westernunion.com
I’ve been thinking a lot about us yesterday. I have so many feelings and they are so different.
My heart aches when I understand that you are far from me.
I wish I could lessen the distance between us. I know that I have to be patient and wait.
Perhaps, you will think that I am silly but I don’t want to hold it all inside and I want to share my feelings with you.
I am emotional person and I want you to see my feelings.
Please, understand me. I want to share this with you. I think I am in love with you. Of course, I have to see you in real life and talk to you to be sure. But I have so many emotions about you and I miss you so much. I think about you all the time.
I get up with the thoughts about you and I go to bed thinking of you too.
I feel that I want to take care of you, I want to give you all my love.
Please, don’t think I am weird. But this is what I feel about you. And I want you to know this.
Life goes one. Nothing new happens. I go to work, do different things at home, meet my friends. But any way I do something I think of you.
Please, tell me what you think and feel about me. It is really very important for me and I need to know this.

Letter 2

Hello my dear one Armand!!!
Where you were gone?
I want you to know that I am going to write you letters any way, even if you are not going to send me money. I want you to understand that I communicate with you not because of the money! You are more important to me than money!!! I asked you to send me money not to use you. I hurry you up because I am afraid to loose a chance to get visa. I am sure they will refuse me next time if I do not pay now. Please, don't have any concerns about me. And if you are really serious, please, send me money.
I want to ask you when you can send me money. I talked to people who give visas. And they told me the day I should pay.
It is July 20. And they agreed to wait till that time. It took me much forces to make them agree for this date.
I tried to tell them to understand my situation and wait payment for visa more time. I asked them to wait till July, 20 so much.
It has taken a lot of difficulties to wait money such time.
Please, tell me are you going to help me? Can you send me money during this time? Can you borrow some if you don't have any?
I will give you the money back as soon as I come.
I hope only for you.
In my previous letter I wrote you about the birthday party of my friend. She is 33 y.o. now. The party was rather boring.
It was just at home. I didn't have any fun. They were all with husbands and wives. And I was lonely. That is why I decided not to stay there for long not to bother any one.
I had a very good day yesterday. I went to the cafe after work and there was a book store near. So I went there after that and bought the book. It is a love story. And every time I read it I think of us.
We had the big rain outside today and it took me about two hours to get back home.
I decided not to use the public transport and just walked back home.
I still feel a little sad and lonely. And I wish you to be here right now. You would share wine with me and we would talk till morning… There is so much I want to tell you always and every day I start writing I lose all my thoughts. As my only thought is always about you.
You are such a dear and close person to me. And I feel a little sad as you are far from me. But soon, very soon, everything will be over at last and I will see you.
It is worse to wait and I am patient enough as I know the miracle is waiting for me – meeting with you.
Perhaps this letter is a little bit sad. But I just wanted to talk to you and to share my thoughts with you. Forgive me for being sad with you.

Letter 3

Hi Armand!
I want to start that I got used a lot to you during our correspondence. I want to meet you very much. I asked you for help but you didn't believe me and refused me. It is so offensive. But I understand that it is very difficult to tust the person you have never seen. I just want to tell you that sometimes it is necessary to trust people. There are many honest people in the world. And it was very offensive when you refused to help me. But I have good news now. I have found money for my trip. I am going to come approximately in 1 or 2 weeks. I have sold my fur coat. I have already paid for visa and now all I need is to wait when I get it. I have money for the ticket. They promised me it would be in approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. I do not know exact dates but I will let you know as soon as I know.
I will get visa for 3 months. And during this time I should enter any university in your country. I will choose the one that is close to you. Are you happy to hear this? We will be able to meet but not only communicate through the letters.
Perhaps, our relations will grow into more close.
Please, write me your thoughts. I want to know that you still want me to come to your place.
I will be waiting for your reply.

Letter 4

Dear Armand,
I am going to write about major things now.
I have very little time so I better write you some lines of important things. I want to see you very much. And a meeting with you would be so great!!!
I have paid for visa. It is going to be ready approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. Yes, I have money for the ticket. I shall not your financial help to get to your country. I don't have an exact information now. I only know that I am going to have a visa approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. I will let you know all the details about my coming in approximately in 2 or 3 weeks.
Are yo happy to hear that? Would you like that to happen?
I’ve got up today with the thoughts about you and it is such a happiness to know that I have a close person in my life and I hope you feel the same about me.
So if you want, I can stay at your place. If not, it is not a problem.
I can just live in a campus. But any way I will be very close to you and we can meet often.

Letter 5

Dear Armand!!!
I have very good news!!!
You have to tell me the international airport close to you, that you have met me.
You will not believe me….but I have just got an invitation for the interview. It means that very soon I will get my visa.
The only thing I need to do now is to pass the interview and then I will just buy tickets, take my passport with the visa and will just leave for you. How do you like it? I think it is just great.
I am a little bit nervous about the interview but I think everything will be just fine. Please, think of me during the interview and cross your fingers for us. As soon as I get my visa, I will be able to see you.
What do you feel? I am just happy. I am flying. It is great.
I still can’t believe this happened.
I am leaving for Moscow tomorrow. I don’t know how much time it will take.
As soon as I have all the information and the results, I will immediately let you know, Ok?
I will do my best for a good result.
I need to repeat again. I have to know the name of the airport where to go and where you will meet me. You have to meet me there by all means. Also I should take care of the tickets in advance if I get visa. Till soon.

Letter 6

Hi Armand!
Why haven't you answered me?
I asked you to write me the airport that is close to you.
I haven't left for Moscow yet. I was not able to buy the tickets there. But tomorrow I am going to leave that is why please, tell me the name of the airport.
You didn't write me the airport though I asked you about it in my previous letter. Don't you want to see me? Or you have changed your mind and you don't want me to come to you? Please, tell me the truth. I have to go to the Embassy and I am sure they will give me visa. I told you several times that I was going to get a student visa. I don't know yet what University or college I am going to study in. I wanted to choose it together with you.
I wanted it to be close to you. As I would like to be able to meet with you while I am there. I wrote you that I was going to live in a campus. And we would be able to meet daily.
Or I even could live at your place. I am going to study and to work there. So we could share all the expenses and pay bills together.
I have to know the airport and hope you will meet me.
I want to know your thoughts on this. Even if you don't want to hear me, please, tell me the truth. Just don't keep silence.

Letter 7

My darling Armand,
Where you were gone?
I see that you don’t trust me. It is very offensive. I see that you don’t believe me. I have spent so many forces and money to come to Moscow and to get this visa and I see that you don’t appreciate this at all. You have a very strange attitude to me.
From one side you write to me come there, that I am good and we could have good relations. From the other side you don’t do anything for us to be together. You write that you don’t believe me, or you have no money, or something else. I think that you just don’t want to be happy. When the one wants to be happy he does everything for this. I did everything I could. But my forces are limited too. I’ve got visa, I came to Moscow. I’ve spent so many forces and money for this. But I feel that you don’t appreciate this. When I asked you about help, you didn’t help me. There is only one step left before we meet. You just need to send me money for the ticket and that’s it. I have done so much already and I think that I deserve this. And I have already proved to you that I am real many times. I am hurt and offended that you still don’t believe me. And I see only one way from this situation, to come back to my city if you don’t send me money for the ticket.
Please, remember that there is only one step left for our happiness.
And you should make this step! You should send me money for the ticket.
I want to tell you one story. I saw it on Tv. It was last year.
And I decided to write to you. There was one woman that She was born in Russia and lived in Russia. But she is married and her husband is from Italy , Rome . She told a story how they met.
They were corresponding for some time and then he invited her to come to his place. She was concerned at first and didn’t know to go or not. But then she decided it would be a good chance for them to get to know each other. And she agreed. They did all the paperwork together and he supported her in that and helped her a lot. Ad at last she came to his place. She said it was so beautiful and romantic. When they landed she saw him standing near the airplane with flowers and balloons. There was also a sign in his arms: “My waiting is over. I love you!!!” She said it was so touching that she couldn’t stop crying for minutes.
They spent a great time together and She decided to stay with him forever. They married And at last they were able to be together.
They come here sometimes as her parents live here in Russia.
And they are very happy together.
I like this story very much and I hope one day we will be able to feel the same.

Letter 8

Honey Armand,
I have FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have found money for buying a ticket to come to you.
Soon I will be able to come to you. I have found money to buy an air ticket. Now I need only to buy it and get into the plane.
And in some hours I will appear into your big and tender arms.
My acquaintance gave me money. I am so thankful to her.
Tomorrow She will send me of money to Moscow. I can buy the ticket after that. I need your phone number. Please, write me your phone number so I can call you if I can’t write to you.
Internet cafe doesn’t always work here in Moscow. As soon as I know all the flight details I will call you and let you know when and where you should meet me. Are you happy, my dear?
Soon I will meet you and will kiss you and hug you tightly.
I miss you badly... You even can't imagine how hard it is to be here without you... I need you so much...And dream of our soon meeting.
I also dream of your touch...so tender and passional. I try to imagine how it is to kiss your lips, your hands, your strong body.
I imagine how it is to make love to you...
I love you so much that even have a physical ache sometimes.
I need your strong touch, your lips, want to lick every part of your body.
I know this is only a dream but it will come true very soon.
Everything depends only on us.We just need to be patient and wait.
But how sweet will be our meeting at last.
I think I would kiss you till death. I am hungry for you, my sweetie.
Hungry for your kiss, for your body. I want you to hold me tightly and to be with you forever.
Hope you are not scared with my feelings...
I do love you and need you a lot.

Letter 9

Darling Armand!
I missed you badly... Every day I think of you and our soon meeting and dream how sweet it would be to be with you at last.
My sweetheart, I have news not really good one. I decided to go to the tourist agency to check if everything is alright with my papers. I have the visa and the ticket. But it is not enough.
Well, everything is fine with my papers but it appeared that I would have to have some money crossing the board. I am so tired from all this bureaucratic system. I am having a student visa and everyone who leaves for anothercountry having a student visa should have some cash crossing the board. So I will have to prove at the customs that I have some money with me. Your country is afraid of immigrants. And also Russian people are not really popular all over the world and they will check me any way at the customs.
I have 100 USD but this is not enough. I should have more 300-400 USD with me leaving the country. Dear, please, send me 200-250 USD.
As soon as you meetme at the airport I will give you the money back.
Please, understand me and my situation. There is so much already done, so much time and forces and money spent on all the stuff.
So, please, send me this money. And then everything will be already done. You can send me money to any office of Western Union or MoneyGram in Moscow. You know that I am still in Moscow and I am already so tired from this city and want to leave it so much.
Honey, I need you and want to bewith you as soon as possible.
You are the ray of light in my life. I want this all to be over soon and to get into your arms already. Hope you still feel the same about me and want me as much as I want you.
I love you!!!!!
With tenderness.

Letter 10

I tried to call you. But please, understand me that I am in Moscow and it is not so easy to do it. I tried to dial your number but it didn’t connect you. I asked at the airport to give me some phone number where you could call me. But they refused me. People are very bad in Moscow and they are interested only in money. I will try again to call you. But I am not sure I will be able to do it.
Please, understand that I should have money by all means. I already have my visa and ticket to come to your country. But your government has very strict rules for Russian citizens. They are afraid of immigrants so they ask me to fill in the declaration and to write the sum of money I am going to take with me to your country.
And if the sum of money is too small they will just not let me go through the custom. They can check if I really have this money with me.
That is why I ask you to help me with the money. I feel shame to ask you about it again. But no one can help me in this situation now that is why I ask you about help. At they agency they told me that at the customs they would check it for sure because of the student visa.
I will loose everything, my visa and my ticket. And also the money that I have already spent for this. Please, understand me and the forces I have spent for getting everything. It took me lots of forces to get the visa and to find money for the ticket. It took lots of forces to survive here in Moscow. I saved every rouble just to stay here. I stayed at the cheap rooms for people who had no money in Moscow. I didn’t stay at the hotel as I had no money for that. I stayed even at the airport several times. I did that for you, for coming to you.
I know that you have bills to pay. And that you don’t have extra money. But please, send me part of the money. I will give it back to you and will pay your bills. You will get the money back as soon as you meet me at the airport. You will not loose anything.
I need this money only to cross the board. I don’t lie to you and I have proved you already many times that I am real. I can’t do anything any more. Now everything depends on you. If you really want to see me, then you will send me money. If not, then not.
Please, trust me. And soon I will be in your arms.

Letter 11

You don’t trust me. I am going back to my city. The life in Moscow is very expensive to stay here for long time. You didn’t appreciate that.
It was very difficult to get visa and tickets and you just didn’t appreciate all my forces. But I did it for you. I see no other way just to get back to my city. I will wait for 3 more days and stay in Moscow for the case you decide to send me money. If not, then I am going back to my city and will not be able to come to you any more.
So it is up to you to decide if you want to see me or not.