Letter(s) to Don (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, my Don! My dear, excuse, for a delay of the answer! I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy Don!!!!
My prince I have not stopped on it and later we with my girlfriend at whom I have stopped in Moscow have gone to office of this airline, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Sea-Tac and how much it costs. They've told me that the roundtrip flight to your airport cost 2187 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I've asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they've offered. It would be on the September 7 I have learned, that cost of tickets up to in one party will make 685 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the funds this time and the other part later, because other people can buy the cheap ticket and I'm not. But they've refused and I was in despair! I've asked them to help me so long time that tears have come to my eyes! And they've agreed! I have learned, that now return tickets are necessary for the proof of that I independently can return to Russia.
But there is an opportunity to change return the ticket on money in your country, or to change date. To me have told, that if will take return tickets the discount at a rate of 5% is given, it turns out that 685+685=1370 dollars and will subtract 5% these are 68 dollars that will make 1302 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum of 10% from cost for registration of tickets and meal, it will turn out 1432 dollars, 6:45 am Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Sea-Tac 8:40 pm September 7
I will give you my flight number information, as soon as i have it in my hand. The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of an economic class, is cheaper a way to arrive to you I is not present. It was the best variant for me. They have told that I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. it is possible, but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 770 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings In a pawnshop and I got 178 USD. That is all I could do.
I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult.
But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa and all papers I have spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment in three weeks. Besides, I have been compelled to buy new windows for my apartment. But I cannot leave my apartment with broken windows. And of course I have been compelled to pay much for it. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 481 USD. And I must pay funds before September 5, morning. Otherwise I will lose my nested funds and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely.
But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that it is big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 948 $ that I have given for the ticket also I restored a windows in an apartment before departure. It all are huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before September 5, morning.
I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit. I need you Don. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have remittance system.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "WesternUnion" and "MoneyGram". They have told that it is the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safety. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Moscow for my name - Marta Proskurina. For an example, near there is a office: Moscow VTB24 Bank; Aviamotornaya st, 14; Moscow, 125130 Russia.
I send you the view of my ID document. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, we must tell to employee of bank(agent) your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you will send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also hey have told that funds it is possible to send online through a site WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 2-3 weeks. I think about you Don all the time! I think about a meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you Don. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. Are you with me?

Write to me soon!
With love, Your Marta.

Letter 2

Hi Don! When I waited your letter, I was so tense. I really was afraid to ask the help because people in here do not like to help each other.
Now in my life there are two people who I can rely completely on. Now in my life there are you and I feel myself as behind a stone wall. I am afraid of nothing.
I know that we will be together and I can thank you not by words but my feelings.
I can prove to you that you are worthy of most best in this life and if I can give you the best, I will make it. I ask you the help, and it is really necessary for me. Your words gave calmness to my heart. My dear! Your words have convinced me that I meet you and I will be happy as never before.

Don my time is limited. I am obliged to pay full cost. I spend all the day trying to come up with any help but everything were possible it I got telegram from Maria and she with my brother is sending 5500 roubles ($183) to support me here,it is all they had Also I could borrow 3000 roubles (100 $) from girlfriend here. And we need about 190 more, I ask you only what I really need. But I want you to know, that I would be grateful to you in any case. I am grateful to you already now. Any your help is a big support for me. I will be grateful to you for any help.
I did not want to put you into inconvenient position. Please forgive me once again. The word of honor if I could do without your help, I would not began to ask you about the help. You are the only person to whom I has addressed for the help. I think nevertheless I must explain why I have addressed to you. I want you to understand that I really did all what I could.
I expected that I could convince the boss of mine to give me vacation payment now.
If I could receive this money now, I would pay my travel completely.
But I was refused. Also, I have been compelled to buy new windows for my apartment.
But I cannot leave my apartment with broken windows. That's why I have made a good plastic windows and have employed the repairman to fix it. I could not make it by myself. And of course I have been compelled to pay for it work.
I shall have funds in three weeks and I can compensate to you. I have paid for all papers for travel and a basic part of tickets. I did not want to tell to you about all these things.
But I want you to understand that I did not want to ask you. I really tried to make everything what in my forces. But I did not expect all these unforeseen circumstances. But now I have you, you are my hope and support, and I think that if I ask you the help, it is not a sin. I really want to be with you. I understand that I must do all by self. But I could not and I leave my destiny in your hands. I need you and I wait your answer, your love and your help. Once again forgive me. I so want to thank you.
I'm so happy that I will see you. Simply know, that I am sincerely grateful to you and I will prove to you it when I will arrive to you. I have given all what I could. And all what I have now are my Feelings, the sincerity of which I think I has proved; and Hope that you will not throw me now when the most difficult things are behind. Only $190 and we shall be together.
Please Don I'm happy that I will see you. Now I am sure in it on 1000.
And it so calms me. Together we are much stronger, and to go thru obstacles together is much easier. I really haven't anybody more except of you.
My dear, I long time did not fly in a plane . And I should tell that I am afraid. I so often saw in TV-news about accidents, planes falling when all passengers perish. Are you afraid to fly by plane? I am really afraid.
And I am afraid that I will have feeling of a nausea. You should teach me how to not worry in a plane! I hope for you.
Your yesterday, your today, your for ever - Marta!