Letter(s) to Scott (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, my new friend, Scott!
First of all I want to apologize for my delay with my answer. Please do not be angry with me. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you sooner. I hope you are not offended. I hope you will write me and will not hold evil. I hope you remember me? I have written to you the short letter and you have answered me. But I could not answer at once, and maybe you don't remember me and my first letter to you.
When you have answered my first message, I wanted to answer at once to not keep you waiting or my answer, but I got access to a computer only now. Please, forgive me if you can. I am very glad that you have answered to my letter. Thank you that you have found time for answer. I do not know what to write to you in my first letter because I never wrote letters and did not get acquainted on the Internet before. But I think will be correct if I will start to tell about me from the very beginning because I was first, who has written first letter. I really dont know as far as my life is interesting to you, but I think, if something will be not interestingly for you, you will tell me about it.
Probably first of all I should write the most important thing. I hope and I think you are not very much afflicted that I live not in your country (I think you already know about it). But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I am the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I am the same person with heart and soul. I very much am afraid that my nationality and my residence disappoint you and you will not write me more, but at the same time I sincerely hope that nationality and distinction of cultures for you is not the most important things in a lady. And if your interest is not limited by distance or borders, I really will be very glad.
My country - Russia.
The capital of Russia is the Moscow. Now I live in the village of Chernokolovo.
It's a small settlement, where live a few hundreds inhabitants. Probably if you want to have the best representation about where I live, I should tell you that my village is located close to the big city - Krasnodar. It is a city located in Krasnodar Territory - in a southern part of the European Russia, near to Rostov Area and to such known cities as Rostov-on-Don, Maikop, Armavir. In the childhood I dreamed to be a translator of the English language. I dreamed to work with our President to know all state and international secrets!(smile). But the destiny has disposed differently.
I think our president doesn't need my services now because I am otolaryngologist, and I think that our president would not allow me to examine his nose, mouth and ears with the help of disgusting metal tools (smile)!
My education consist of three steps: School - College - University. I began to get education in the comprehensive school with a medical bias.
After ending school I entered in the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and has entered in the Medical University. Now I work in a clinic. I work as a otolaryngologist. I already said that my name is Olga. Scott I promised to share with you my picture, I fulfil my promise with worry and with pleasure. In addition to a picture I want to tell that color of my hair is black, though sometimes I like to change color of hair. But I was never blonde (smile).
I hope you are not disappointed very much that I am a brunette, because I know that all men love more blondes? It is a question!!! (smile). My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115 pounds. And of course you should know that I am 31 years old. My birthday - January 1, 1973. Can you imagine how interestingly to have birthday on January, 1? I understand that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesn't conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course. I the optimist at heart and it's frequently helps me in my life. I already adult woman, and I look at the life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I can't do it. I have fine lady friend, I have work and my apartment. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me it's not material things, but spiritual. I have written to you the first and it means that I am ready to share with you my thoughts. I am very glad and grateful to you for that that you have answered me because I have decided to take only one chance in dialogue through e-mail. And if my letter to you would remain without your answer, I think I would not use this way second time. Anyhow, I hope that you, as well as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer. In the end of my letter I want to ask you the most banal questions: what music you like, what movies you prefer. These questions are really interesting for me because I like American movies and American music very much. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job, Scott? Had you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other country? Maybe you more skilled in this plan than I'm? I thank you for your answers beforehand. If you do not want to answer these questions, please do not answer. It is simply my female curiosity.
I will be very grateful to you also if you will send me your pictures.
I will be happy to have your pictures in the computer. I thank you beforehand.
Together with my pictures I send you my first letter that I sent you.
I do it just in case if you have forgotten who am I. I am sorry once again that I did not answer your sooner. Forgive me, but I had no opportunity to take advantage of a computer. I will explain later - why.
With the best regards.

Letter 2

Hi, my dear friend Scott! I hope you not mind that I say so. Thank you for your letter. Day by day I feel more need in getting your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood I hear gratitude from my patients much more often (smile). Therefore, now the health of a Russian people depend on your letters (smile again).
Your Russian is simply fine!!!! Thanks for all fine pictures! I enjoyed pictures of animals and I liked what you have made with my pictures!!!!
I could not see a card till now because I cannot use the Internet. I can only write my letters and receive yours. But I have saved your card and when I will receive an opportunity to use the Internet during several minutes, I will necessarily open a card!!!! Please, do not be angry with me that I did not look it till now. I promise that I will look it as soon as possible. My religion - the Orthodox Christian. I go to church as a rule some times in a month. It not often, but I think it not the main thing if in heart there is a true belief and understanding of Gods Word. My mom since the childhood imparted to me the love to God; but true belief has come in my heart at conscious age. But my belief true, and I try to live observing His Sacred Precepts. By the way I already wrote you my surname. It is Smirnova.
I can give you my address, but you should not send anything with the exception of letters. Please do not send any parcels. Our Territory - the center of terrorism where concentrated a lot of terrorists from Northern Caucasus and Chechen Republic, and their supporters, and getting of mail from other country is unsafely for Russian people living in Krasnodar territory, because some supporters of terrorists can cause me physical harm if find out about sending from America. And a lot of letters and sendings do not reach the addressee. Russian custom house checks everything, and customs officers decide what to skip and what to confiscate or detain. I would not want to think that greedy customs officer have sold or have simply given your sending to any interested person, or simply would open it ostensibly for checking assignment of contents and simply would report to bad people my address. It is simply unsafe for me. For this reason I ask you to send only letters. If you want to send me letter, your package should have the minimal sizes and do not draw attention of custom house. Promise? By the way, when I came to work today, my mood was bad, because my friend Natalia fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But I have already talked with a doctor and I will be allowed to spend evening in her chamber.
In the evening I will bake a cake, I will buy balloons and go to the hospital. I hope very much that she will have good mood on her birthday.
She is my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the clinic. As a matter of fact I have only two real friends - Natalia and Svetlana. Natalia is a lady who is in the hospital. Svetlana also lived together with us in the Saratov Area. She is an alumna of orphanage and she is an orphan. She has arrived here to us several months ago because she could not live in Saratov without us. Now she works here. I and Natalia were very happy when Svetlana has come. We are friends since the childhood. Natalia and Svetlana are not married too. We are friends for 20 years already. Natalia and I are like sisters. Natalia and I like to take a walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Natalia vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. It is the houses which were built before the Second World War, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in the pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so.
We like to spend time in Natalia vegetable garden. There she grows the potato, tomatoes and cucumbers not to buy them in the market.
Every winter Natalia and I together erects a big Snowman in her vegetable garden, using a big snow spheres. We put carrot instead of nose, and potatoes instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbor's children came to see it. By the way, if we want to fool about, we put carrots not only instead of a nose but also below..... (hint and smile) First time we made such Snowman 18 years ago. Since that time we do it every year. It is a tradition for us. We poured it with water to cover with ice. So it could stand for the whole winter. I like Chernokolovo. Almost all people in our village know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 2 floors. Natalia says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning’s of shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfortable, cozy, quiet place, no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there was no criminality, it would be paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. Several times, Natalia, Svetlana and I went to the festival of bard song. This is a place on the coast of the river where a lot of people come from all countryI send you pictures of me, and a picture of festival I talked about.
I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to do it. Today when I will come to Natalia we will talk about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Scott? What was the best gift from a woman you got? Sincerely your, and with best wishes.
P.S. I have no any nickname.

Letter 3

Hi, my far, but dear friend Scott.
Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you.
Thanks for the picture. Every time after I receive your picture, appear traces of lipsticks on the screen of the monitor (smile) I hope you have received my last letter where I have sent to you my feelings together with a cloud of a rain… Please, tell, because I feel that you have not received it. I sent you that letter on May, 19.
I must tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it's a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required two days to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that.
I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), but I am more than willing to learn whatever is need to succeed if it is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel.
I don't know if my word and thoughts make sense to you; and for me so hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to be ready for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life in loving, to better value him, respect him and cherish the love that he would give me; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I wish to know you on the more intimate level, I would like you to share your true dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond simply friendship. Please don't think that I am fool for thinking these things, I believe that to succeed in anything, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you seriously close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams really come true for the people that dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them enough hard, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other.
I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Scott, I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This is what for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of my entire letter only to one thought. I don't know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It's that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every your wish you have comes true one day. I'll look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
I hope that your reply will not have of a harsh nature, and I look forward of its arrival. With tenderness,
Your Olga.

Letter 4

Hi my Scott!
Thanks for your letter. Today I write my letter with special mood and I sincerely hope that this letter become for you good news and will make you happy!
Scott, The day before yesterday my boss informed me that I'll get my vacation approximately in 3 weeks. But I have not been pleased. I didn't expect that I'll get my vacation. But schedule constituted by accounts department can't be changed. I have begun to cry, because it means that I'll not be able to write to you. Then I have found out that lady who gives me to use her computer, perhaps will get her vacation right after me, and if it will take place I'll not be able to use the computer two months. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I'll aimlessly wander on streets. I waited my vacation the whole year. But I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. I thought all day and night. And I said to myself: "NO! It is not for me!" I decided to spend this vacation with you. Of course if you want to see me. It will be such big step to learning each other. I want simply meet. It's all what I want now.. I They have told that I'll visit the set of various departments both in Krasnodar, and in Moscow. It's the usual way of getting the visa and procedure of getting can be delayed for even some months. I said I can't wait so long and I said that I already have the passport. They have asked what is my profession. I have told that I am a doctor and they have told that it is a big plus! They have told that I have chance to receive the visa in fast terms as I am doctor but I should have guarantee documents from Ministry of Health. I have been told that in this case is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms. Since I already have the passport, to get the visa is already easier if to use Full Package of Service (FPS). FPS includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview without trip to Moscow. FPS costs 330 dollars, but the visas agency removes all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excAnd I really have registered the visa application with great belief and hope that you want to meet me. Can you imagine that if everything will be well, in several weeks we can meet? Would you be happy if we could spend some days together? I have some savings. I don't want to cause you a monetary outlay. I'll make all by myself. You can think that I hurry events. But in fact nobody knows what waits for us tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow such opportunity will not be presented. And it's possible to wait eternally. But I am happy right now. In Russia speaks: "The water doesn't flow under lying stone". It means that it's necessary to do a step onward to achieve something. I'll get vacation soon. During all my life I spent my vacation in my village. But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you Scott! It's a big happiness. You my dear friend, and friends should meet. I want to use this opportunity to learn more each other. In my heart never was such confidence. I think it will be wonderful. I hope that you don'But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart.
Tell me please, can you meet me? Do you want me to come?
You will be glad if I will arrive to you?
Much tenderness from Olga!!!

Letter 5

Hi my Scott!
I with trembling heart waited your letter. Thanks for your letter. You have written to me and it means that one more day I'll be lived with good mood.
What a fine picture you have sent to me! You such charming and I so like to look at you. You cannot imagine how I like your picture. I look at you and I want time to stop. You so charming. And when I look at you, I feel that I am a happy lady!
I am so happy that you want to meet me. Now I have the ocean of emotions and at all I do not know what to say. I am worried very much. I very much hope that we can perfectly spend time together. I only am afraid, that if we will meet, I will asks so many questions and to chatter unceasingly, that you soon will escape from me.
I get my vacation once a year. My vacation will begin approximately after June, 19. At this time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately the schedule of my vacation is not flexible. Therefore I hope you will be glad to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy all the same.
I will be happy in any case. It is better to wait when you will come from work, than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!!
Duration of my vacation is 24 workdays. But quantity of days which I can spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will order the ticket. How many days you want to be with me?
I already have submitted the application on the visa. I have registered the full package of service. It will occupy approximately one week. Complexity of approval of the visa can be reduced to a minimum if the applicant will have some petitions and characteristics from a place of work, from respected organizations or legal persons; guarantee documents and a various sort of the information and inquiry, which will give to commissions the confidence, that my intentions is not emigration. I will get the petition and a testimonial from Russian Federation Health Ministry! It is a respected structure and any person working in the field of medicine is under care of the Ministry. Except of that I buy a full package of service, structure of which includes preparation for interview with the commission. All this allows avoiding many problems. I want to describe to you my day completely, since morning and till the night. At 6:15 rattle my alarm clock. I don't love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly rattle, that each time I jump like scalded. I rise with good mood because in dream I saw you. At 6:20 I go to a bathroom and I think of you! I wash and I clean teeth. At 6:30 I dress my sports suit, I go out to street and I think of you! I jog. When in the street is coldly, I sleep till 6:45.
At 7:05 I cook a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and a sandwich. I drink tea and I think of you!
At 7:15 I go to work. Usually, if the weather is good, I go on foot and I think of you! I like to go on foot in the morning. The air is clean and fresh. Into clinic I come vigorous and cheerful.
At 8:00 I start to work and I think of you!
At 10:00 I go onto street and I think of you! I breathe fresh air of 10 minutes and come back to work.
At 12:00 a dining breaks. I go home for a dinner and I think of you! I move home by bus. At 12:30 I eat and at 12:40 I go again for work and I think of you! I go by a bus but I leave a bus sooner, than it necessary, to take again a walk on fresh air and to think of you! At 13:00 I again work and I think of you! (though in my work is impossible to be inattentive and think about anything except of work)(smile)
At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break and we drink tea for have a rest. I was not capable to drink tea because I think of you!
During the working day when there is an opportunity I answer your letter.
At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot, slowly. I feel perfectly because I think of you!
At 17:40 I take a shower and I imagine that you with me! (Smile)
At 18:00 I have supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine that you sit opposite to me! At 19:00 I go for walk with Natalia and Svetlana (but it happens seldom). We walk in park. They think - where to buy ice-cream, but I think of you!
If I don't go for walk, I listen to music, I read the book, I knit, I do various kinds of homework's and I think of you! (of course not all simultaneously)(smile).
At 23:00 I lie down to sleep. Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I think of you! Only don't think that all my days pass so. It's an approximate variant.
Every day is different. But one thing is peculiar to each my day: it's my thoughts of you! Your Olga.

Letter 6

Hi, my Scott.
There is a finest news for me and for you - I got the visa!!! I am so happy!!!! I will get vacation June, 18, 2004.
I went to the company which reserves airway tickets. I have asked to find the cheapest ticket up to any of these airports: STL, MCI, ORD. And they have found the ticket. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket and the beginning of the flight June, 22, 2004. I should fly to airport Chicago (ORD).
It costs $ 1119 USD. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without advance payment. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed but provided that if I will not pay the remaining sum, I will lose already nested money. We agreed that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later. I paid $ 760 USD. But it was little for an initial payment. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my and Natalia’s gold jewelry for $ 125 USD.
It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket is 1325 Swiss International Air Lines
The time of departure from Moscow is 7.15 am.
The time of arrival in Chicago is 12.50 pm.
I will change a plan in Zurich (ZRH), number of the flight
8 Swiss International Air Lines.
After this I will fly to Chicago, to you.
It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything what I could. I paid visa. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. And now I feel so guilty.
I thought that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I have to pay the remaining part. It is only $234 USD. I have to pay this money before June, 12, 2004 evening. Otherwise I will lose my money and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. Now I have extremely unpleasant feeling because I could not fulfill my promise to make all by myself, independently. I remember that I promised it and I always do all what in my forces to fulfill my promise. I am very ashamed to address to you. But I couldn't get money which I expected on my work. It so-called vacation money. It would solve my problems and I really was sure that I can get it.
When we get a vacation, we get vacation money besides salary. But unfortunately this money pays to us after ending of a vacation and sometimes even in some months. I have addressed with request to get this money now because I very much need in it. But unfortunately my inquiry has been rejected. They have told that they can give out vacation money before of terms only in case of serious illness or death of close relatives.
Probably I simply must tell to you that I can't meet with you in this vacation because at present I cannot provide completely my travel. I understand that I should not asked you. But at the same time I can't simply say that I will not arrive to you. I too much have made and have passed to achieve our meeting. If I have simply refused our meeting, all my diligence would be spent in vain. I have made so much to meet you, and I can't now just say that I cannot arrive to you. I address to you and I think in it there is nothing shameful. I understand that it is incredibly big money. Of course you are not obliged to help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. It is bad too but not fatal too. And these $330 that I have given for the visa, and these $ 885 that I have given for the ticket is the huge money for me. But I don't regret that I have made and have given all what I had for our meeting. Actually it simply money and our jewelry it simply metal. Sense of the life not in money and not in this metal. I do not want this all to be wasted. If you really want to meet me, If you can help me to make our meeting, please, send money to the help before June, 12, 2004 evening. I don't want you to doubt my honesty and that's why I send you the view of my visa.
I do not know if you still want to help me or already not. But you have told that I should let you know if there is anything that I need. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit.
If you can help me I send you my coordinates. Natalia said that you can help me with the help of some system. I have addressed in the nearest bank. I have been told that they have system the ’’Western Union’’.
They have told that It is very convenient office for me. There is other remittance system, but at present unfortunately it works not always because at present there is made some renovation and upgrade of the equipment and signalizing system. But they have told that their system - ’’Western Union’’ works always and reliably. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of ’’Western Union’’.
for Olga Smirnova.
In bank I have been told, that to get the money, I must tell to employee of bank your full name, full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number). This number will give to you in your bank if you will send your help. Only at presence of all this information I can get your help.
Please forgive me all my words. I say so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. I understand that it is a very big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all myself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. And of course I will give back all your money at the earliest opportunity. Probably I have offended you.
But I need you. I do not know if my letter have brought to you a pleasure or only frustration, but I have written you honestly and sincerely.
I am waiting for your reply.
Kiss you.
Your Olga.

Letter 7

Hi my Scott! When I waited your letter, I was so tense. But Natalia said:
"If you afraid - do not do it, if you do it - do not be afraid!" It is her motto of a life. She said, if I have opened soul to you and you have opened soul to me nothing can separate us. And I have read your letter and have begun to cry. I really cried because I have understood that now we will be together. Any difficulties only strengthen relations. I do not know how to express my feelings during this moment. I am very grateful to you! I really was afraid to ask the help because people in Russia do not like to help each other. Natalia always helps me as well as I help her. We never ask something in exchange to the help. Now in my life there are two people who I can rely completely on. Now in my life there are you and I feel itself as behind a stone wall. I am afraid of nothing. Now I know that we will be together and I can thank you not by words but my feelings. I can prove to you that you are worthy of most best in this life and if I can give you the best, I will make it. I will make all what in my forces tI am grateful to you already now. Many thank you for your heart. Any your help - the big support for me. I think I nevertheless should explain why I have addressed to you. I want you to understand that I really did all what I could.
I expected that I can convince my boss to give me vacation money now.
If I could receive this money now, I would pay my travel completely. But I was refused. Also I have been compelled to buy a new door in my apartment. I have prepared this money for the ticket. But I cannot leave my apartment with a bad door. That's why I have bought a door and have employed the repairman to fix it. I could not make it by myself. And of course I have been compelled to pay for his work. In Russia nobody will make it free-of-charge. I did not want to tell to you about all this. But I want you to understand that I did not want to ask you. I really tried to make everything what in my forces. But I did not expect all these unforeseen circumstances. I did not want to cause you inconvenience.
Please forgive me. I really want to be with you. I understand that I should make all by myself. But I could not and I leave my destiny in your hands. Once again forgive me. But I so want to thank you. I'm so happy that I will see you.
Simply know, that I am sincerely grateful to you and I will prove to you it when I will arrive to you. I so want to thank you. I'm so happy that I will see you. Now I am sure in it on 1000 %. And it so calms me. I have received your help! Many thanks for everything what you have made for me. I very much grateful to you. Now in my heart all is quiet. I am very glad, that you have helped me. Now I will prepare for departure. I'm so happy that my dream comes true. You have trusted me and not in vain. You a best. I till now cannot understand, how American ladies could miss such treasure. When I will be with you, I will show to all American ladies how necessary to love and how Russian woman able to love. You have the kindest and attentive heart. Thanks for your help! I am so happy! I am happy every day, but now to my happiness the was added absolute confidence , that I will meet you! And it simply a fantastic. I in a fairy tale which already turns to a reality! First you brightened my life and have forced me to feTogether we are much stronger, and to go thru obstacles together is much easier.
Your yesterday, your today, your for ever -Olga!

Letter 8

Scott! I cannot get registration and the sanction in anti-immigration committee. I have been informed that according to the law for Citizens of Russia who leave our country with visa without residence permit, if I go to your country I am obliged to have cash as confirmation that I possess monetary resources. I can't receive sanction to get registration at the airport. I am obliged to show them 500 dollars. If I have 500 dollars I will receive registration and the sanction of anti-immigration committee.
The law obliges me to have money as confirmation, that in your country I will have money resources for existence and livelihoods during that time which I will spend there. I should show 500 dollars. If I will show money, I will receive confirmation that I possess monetary resources and I will get the official sanction to leave my country with the visa.
Otherwise they have no right to let me go to your country. Please, as soon as possible send me 500 dollars. I will show this money and I will receive the sanction. This money are necessary for me only to show at anti-immigration committee. I will give you this money right at the airport. I should not pay anything. I simply should show money and then I can leave customs house. Please, send me money as soon as possible because I have no money. Please, use system of Western Union because here there is several banks, which uses this system of a remittance and I can receive your money. Scott, my nerves on a limit. I got the formal notice, according to which I should have money to leave my country according to the law. I cannot write much because I use the Internet - cafe and I have no money for that. Here only three computers and so many people. I should spend night in Moscow in a waiting room. It is much more terrible than I thought. Tomorrow I again will use Internet - cafe to receive your letter.
I cannot be in Moscow for a long time, because I have no money for a meal and a for the night lodging. I only have slightly of meal that I took at home for my trip in a train. Now already evening. I should receive the sanction of anti-immigration committee as soon as possible because I cannot be in Moscow for a long time. I am nervous very much. With love.

Letter 9

i my love Scott! I write to you this letter from hospital. There was a misfortune. Today I have received in the Internet-cafe the letter from Natalia, and she has written that she asked boss to take the credit in a bank. He did it for me and she has sent me money. I have gone to bank and have picked up money. After I have received her help, I have left bank and have gone to the underground. In the underground there was an accident. I went downwards on a big ladder. At this moment behind of me people began to shout. I have turned and have seen that a very big man tried to snatch out a bag from hands of a woman. He very strongly pushed a woman, he wrested a bag and run downwards on a ladder directly towards me.
I stood like frozen and did not know what to do. As I stood on his road he very strongly struck me and have pushed me forward. I have fallen very strongly and began to fall downwards of stairs. I have flown by some meters downwards. It was so painfully. I could not rise. People which saw it, have called car of first aid. I have been taken away in hospital. I have a strong dislocation of a hand, a crack in an rib and damage of my spleen. It is very hurt. Each breath brings to me a pain. I am glad that that man did not withdrew my bag because all my documents were in my bag. In the morning to me came a policeman and took my evidence. I have addressed to him and have told that I should fly to America. I have shown him all my documents and have asked to help me. He has agreed. I have given him all my documents and he has gone to the airport officially to inform about my problem and officially to receive the sanction to renewal of my ticket on later time. At present the situation is that I should be in hospital for one and a half weeks, or for two weeks, because the spleen is very important organ of a human body and hospitalization is necessary. I cannot leave hospital because I have serious traumas. My stay in hospital will be paid by the Krasnodar Medical Insurance Company because each worker of our clinic has annual life insurance from accidents and death. Here, in hospital there are computers for general purpose, like a Internet - cafe, but I should pay money, and to get access to a computer I should wait in the big queue. Very many people. So I hope you will understand me if some day I cannot write to you. After I will be let out from hospital, I will receive the new ticket and I will arrive to you. Now I do not need anything. I only ask your support. Do not throw me now. I very much am afraid to stay alone. I will write to you whenever possible and I will inform on what happen.I cannot write much because I have a strong pain at each movement of a body and because my time is limited.
Many people wait a computer. I will try to receive your letter, but for this purpose I should find the person who will teach me as it to make because here other computers and I don't know how to receive from you the letter. I will write to you tomorrow as soon as I will receive an opportunity. Forgive me. I do not know why the God punishes me. Please do not throw me because I one in Moscow and only one person with whom I have connection - You. I will write to you later and I will tell in more detail. Now I should go because now I will have x-ray therapy again. Olga.

Letter 10

Hi My Scott! I till now cannot receive your letters. It is so awfully. It is worse than any pain. I at all do not know if you write me or not. Maybe you have forgotten about me. Today the programmer promised to come to me, but till now has not come. But I am waiting for him. I spoke with him and he has promised to help me, but till now has not come. But I am waiting for him more than anything. Today I lay in a bed for all the day. I have not been allowed to move, but I all the same stand up and I go when the doctor does not see. I cannot lay. I also have a pain in a head. But I yet did not tell about it to the doctor because I do not want to have additional surveys. It can take time. I do not want it because I want to leave hospital as soon as possible. I communicate with two ladies who also lays with me in chamber. They are very good. I have told them about you and about me and about what has happened with me. They have told that if the love will overcome all obstacles then becomes immortal. Please, wait for me. When I will recover, I will arrive to you because all my documents are legally confirmed and when I will leave hospital, I at once will receive the ticket. I do not need anything. I have paid for everything. Now I only should wait when I will leave hospital. Most of all now I want to find out if you write me or not. I so want to receive from you even two words. I write as though to nowhere. I am sure that you receive my letters. Therefore I will keep you in course of events. Your forever Olga.