Letter(s) to John (Ireland)

Letter 1

John, hi) So i think that you still remember me:))
I am Oksana i hope that you have not yet forgotten me)))
I think that the first words are too important cause they make the first impression) Could you tell me about yourself? You life goals, likes, dislikes, family, tastes. Then we will see if we are interested in each other.
You may ask me whatever you wish - i will be also happy to tell you everything about myself you are interested in:)
Will be waiting for your reply)
Oksana

Letter 2

Hello, John))
To tell you the truth i did not expect that you would answer my letter, but when today i saw it in my mailbox, i was pleasantly surprised) Who knows..may be it is the beginning of our little common world)
Ok, i think that we need to start from something. I do not have wide experience in letter writing, but i hope that you will be interested)
My name is Oksana i am from Ukraine) To be more correct from Ternopil) Have you ever heard about this city?) I am not sure)))
I do not know wether you heard about my country or not, but many people in the west and other parts of the world consider it to be poor. I can not deny this, but i love it. Many girls of my age dream to leave it, but i do not want) Surely if i fall in love i will relocate easily, but till this moment i have never thought about this.

You know, John, i think that when we love someone, we agree for any changes very easily, without hesitations, we can create impossibilities for our sweethearts) I have heard that people who are in love possess supernatural abilities and a bit crazy)))

As for my daily life, i live with my parents - mom, dad) They are already retired on pension. They are a happy couple, and have been living more than 30 years together and they are an example of ideal relations for me))By the way i am 25 years old. i have never been married, and once has been engaged in unsuccessful relations, so since that time i tried to avoid relations, cause still felt pain in my heart. And just recently realized that have no more it, just emptiness inside - all that i have from those relations. I am sorry if i've bothered you with this)
I work as seller) So as for my work) The salary is not big, but i think that the wages is not the most important factor while choosing your calling - you are a happy man if you like your job)I adore animals they are the creatures that take a special place in my heart and i am sure that sometimes they are better than people..I have a cat, her name is Pusha:)

Among my interests are cooking and sport. I like tasty food and maybe that's why i chose sport, in order to keep myself in a good shape after sweet cakes) What about you John?) Do you like tasty food?))) I am sure that you do, as they say that the way to the man's heart is through his stomach)

I liked so much the pictures that you sent me, darling:)) You look great)
your kids is not a problem for me at all:)

I do not want to be too talkative in order not to tell you everything about myself just in one letter))There must be a little mystery inside of every woman) So i will be waiting for your reply, i hope that icould catch your attention)
Ok, dear John, i have to tell good bye and waiting for your reply)

Yours, Oksana

Letter 3

Hello, my dear John))) I hope that you are not against me calling you my dear?) If you are, so just tell me, i'll call you as you wish))) How are you there??? Hope that fine)
You know, John, when yesterday i came home after writing you my letter, i thought that what if he would not be interested in me..and would not write me back.." When today i came to the internet cafe after my work and sow your name in the inbox...Woow!! He wrote me back))) I really felt myself as a master of the Universe, cause i could catch your attention)
John, indeed i do not want you to think that i am too impulsive and emotional person, i have told you in the previous letter that my experience with men was not successful) I do not know why, may be cause in childhood i had problems with my speech and stammered when was worried and guys laughed at this defect very often, so one day i promised myself that i would never be close with men)))))) I was too little to understand that it is impossible to live without them) Years passed and i fall in love with one guy, and as it appeared my feelings were mutual) But one day he came to me and told that he could not marry me, cause "his parents do not think that our marriage could be successful'...Can you imagine what i felt at that moment? But indeed i think that the problem was hidden inside of him..He did not love me anymore and decided to tell me about this more liyaly using the stupid excuse about his parents. Moreover he was a mommy's boy) I was too angry with him, i hated him, wished him all the worse in his life, cried until the moment when i realized that he is not worth of me and i will find a better man in my life. But our past is just past. Now i am too thankful to him that he left me, cause if he did not, i would never write you this letter))))))

Ok, John, it was just a story from my past, please never mind. I have never had experience in correspondence with men before and may be that's why i do not know what to write you about))) I want to impress you but at the same time i realize that i am just a usual girl not a spiderman or a spiderwoman)))) I think that if you like me, you will do this without necessity of being impressed..if you won't - so i will do my best to change your mind)))cause it seems to me that i like you....ups, i should close this letter))
Thank you too much for reading all this 'raving of a madman")))

Bye)
Oksana

Letter 4

Heeeeeeeeeey)))) John, as you guessed it's me) You know it seems that i took into a habit such life) I mean that this cafe became a part of my life. I love the moments when i come here and my mailbox tells me that he has some surprise for me) This letter is really a little surprise) They always say that we need too little to be happy...

By the way how is your day??? I hope that even if you have bad mood, my letter will cure you) John, i just wanted to ask you. If you think that i put you too many questions, or may be that we still know each other too little to write some private things, just tell me. I feel so, cause i have never had relations in the internet and i do not know how people usually behave themselves here and how open they are to each other) So if there is something wrong, just tell me, agreed???

John, today i got to know a wonderful news) My cousin, Kate called me and told that she is awaiting for baby) And i am going to be god-mother!!!! Can you imagine, honey, a little creature will have his life soon and i will be responsible for it in some way)))Kate is so happy! If only you could hear her voice. She was full of joy and love.
I am so happy for her..I will do my best to take care about her and to support her during her pregnancy.

Honey John, how do you think what is the best present to surprise her??? I was going to buy something, but still have not determined myself with the present) I really do not know what they give in such cases) I rely on your ingenuity))

So i think that it is time to close this letter..just want to tell you something.. John, i think that we became closer with you. I am waiting for each your letter like in my childhood i was awaiting for the cartoon)))I am really sorry for this foolish comparison, but i just do not know how to express they way i feel. It is something like a great interest, but this interest is not like the one that i feel while reading a book or buying new shoes..it is the interest which people feel when they are falling in love..and i am a bit afraid of this feeling. I think that it is too early to tell this and to feel..Ok, it seems that again i wrote you just a heap of senseless words without any bond)))

Bye)

P.S. I took the responsibility on my shoulders and tell you that i miss you a lot))))))

Yours, Oksana

Letter 5

Hi, sweet John)) How is my sweet peach today?? Were you missing me since yesterday?? Want to believe that "yes")))
You know, honey John, i do not know why but today i thought that what if we lived close to each other, for example in one country or, even city..What if we walked the same streets, used the same busses and would never met and noticed each other in the crowd.. Sometimes people live in the neighbor apartments and do not see each other, as my friends, for example) A nice couple, they got married last year, lived in the same yard and met each other just at my birthday - seems to be like paradox))) And today i thought that there are no accidents in life...there are consequence of cases. So may be that we met here - is not a chance - may be it it a beginning of our common future.

Honey before our meeting i lived according to my schedule - i ate my food, went to my work, prepare coffee in the morning. Now i do the same things, but i feel the taste of fresh coffee in the morning. I adore to drink it thinking about you... I go to my work with pleasure cause i know that a the end of working day i will go to the Internet cafe to write you this letter... Many things that i did automatically before have acquired new colors.. I started to observe the couples in the streets - they have shiny eyes, not like others.. I became more self confident cause i feel that someone cares about me, cause someone needs me. I learnt again to smile and laugh))) I became happy... I am afraid to tell myself that i am in love.. But it seems that i am.

Honey i am finishing. I will write you again tomorrow) Will be missing you.
Let's see each other in dream, ok?? I will be waiting for you in the pink dress on the beach)))

Kiss you in your nose)

Oksana

Letter 6

John, hi))How are you, dear?) I hope that everything's well))

Honey you know, today i thought about us..and i thought that every of us should have his own dreams and habits and may be cause we communicate just through correspondence it is too difficult to discuss all the sides of our life..I do not know exactly wether you understand now what i try to tell you)))I mean that every of us has his own dreams and habits (may be good or not) and we need to share them with each other in order not to be too astonished when meet))))
As for my habits)))I have a very interesting points ( whish are too difficult to understand))) in my life))))I hate to wipe my body dry after the bathing))))I do not know why i can not explain this)))I hate to do my bed)))Though i understand that in the morning i need to do this, but it is the terrible occupation for me))))I think that there is no more terrible thing in the world that doing my bed after sleeping))
There are a lot of different and strange things that i follow in this life and i am sure that all the people have such habits)))What about yours???I am sure that you also have them))))May be let's write each other about them in every our letter little by little)))One more thing i hate to drink tea till the cup is empty) I always leave a little in the cup)))

Besides these habits and points i have a lot of strange things that happen to me and i can not explain this))))For example, every time after i have done my eyelashes with mascara i will have to sneeze) And every time the mascara spreads under my eyes making me a black eyed lady))))))) Oh, right now i have remembered the story that happened to me when i was going by buss..
When i came into it, i wanted to hold the handrail but as my height is not too big i did not reach the top handrail in the buss, so i decided to hold the little handrail that was situated near my right hand...When i took it i was shocked cause it began to move in the opposite side)))and then i heard the voices - "Hey, girl, please give me back my crutch")))) Honey can you imagine how i was astonished and scared)))))
Ahahahaha)))I was laughing the whole day after this happened))i just confused that handrail with someone's crutch)))

Ok, honey, i think that i need to cut this letter))) I will be waiting for your reply) Please do not forget that somewhere, faraway from you, one woman is constantly thinking about you)))

Oksana

Letter 7

Hello, my sweet John
Thank you for your letter which I like very much. It became my new habit to get your letters.
I am doing well. Missing you terribly. But it is even good feeling. I always think about you in the morning. Oh, I wish I would wake up in your hands and could say you "good morning") I often think how would it be, to live together with you. More I think, more I want it with all my heart. I hope for this day when my dream will come true.
During my working day I think about you too. You know, what I think? I imagine that during a day we could call each other and just say "hello" or I "love you". Maybe we would also meet on the lunch. We would sit somewhere in a cozy bar, have some food and tell about work, or just about simple things. Then after coffee we should go back to job. Kiss and say bye-bye till the evening.
In the evening I think how would i meet me after your working day.
You would come tired. I would meet you with a warm smile and hot kiss.
All we would do after it would deepen from our mood and things we decide to do...

All these dremas sometimes seem so realistic that i can't stop dreaming.
But i believe, i sincerely believe that one day we will be sitting with you on the porch of our house hugged each other remembering tomes when all we had were just dreams...And may be due to these dreams we will be together. I know this.

I need you,John, and it is my reality i blindly believe in...

Oksana

Letter 8

Hello, my dear John))) I hope that you are not against me calling you my dear?) If you are, so just tell me, i'll call you as you wish))) How are you there??? Hope that fine)
You know, 000, when yesterday i came home after writing you my letter, i thought that what if he would not be interested in me..and would not write me back.." When today i came to the internet cafe after my work and sow your name in the inbox...Woow!! He wrote me back))) I really felt myself as a master of the Universe, cause i could catch your attention)
John, indeed i do not want you to think that i am too impulsive and emotional person, i have told you in the previous letter that my experience with men was not successful) I do not know why, may be cause in childhood i had problems with my speech and stammered when was worried and guys laughed at this defect very often, so one day i promised myself that i would never be close with men)))))) I was too little to understand that it is impossible to live without them) Years passed and i fall in love with one guy, and as it appeared my feelings were mutual) But one day he came to me and told that he could not marry me, cause "his parents do not think that our marriage could be successful'...Can you imagine what i felt at that moment? But indeed i think that the problem was hidden inside of him..He did not love me anymore and decided to tell me about this more liyaly using the stupid excuse about his parents. Moreover he was a mommy's boy) I was too angry with him, i hated him, wished him all the worse in his life, cried until the moment when i realized that he is not worth of me and i will find a better man in my life. But our past is just past. Now i am too thankful to him that he left me, cause if he did not, i would never write you this letter))))))

Ok, John, it was just a story from my past, please never mind. I have never had experience in correspondence with men before and may be that's why i do not know what to write you about))) I want to impress you but at the same time i realize that i am just a usual girl not a spiderman or a spiderwoman)))) I think that if you like me, you will do this without necessity of being impressed..if you won't - so i will do my best to change your mind)))cause it seems to me that i like you....ups, i should close this letter))

Thank you too much for reading all this 'raving of a madman")))

Bye)
Oksana

Letter 9

Hello, my dearest John
How are you there? Honey thank you too much for your nice letter. I am really sorry that it happened and you got the same letter - i do not know how it happened, may be my mailbox was broken((((
You know, i thought recently about us, and suddenly i got a wonderful idea) What if we ...try to meet??? I am afraid to continue, case i do not know what the reaction will you have?) May be we really know each other too little.. But i start feeling that i have more and more feelings for you and i can not understand them when you are so far away((( So i think that i will stop here)))

I will be waiting for your reply with the impatience))
Oksana

Letter 10

Hello, my darling John))))Honey thank you too much for your letter) Honey i want to tell you that i have already thought a lot about idea of our meeting, may be from our first letters. I am not a little girl and i am sure that just through letters it is too difficult to get to know each other - so we need real meeting)

I have a nice idea) What if i can come visit you?))) I have never been abroad, i think that my dreams are starting to come true)))) What do you think? it would be nice experience for me:)))) Please write me back, i am burning from impatience))

Oksana

Letter 11

Hello, my darling John) How are you there? Honey thanks you so much for your nice letter i was so much busy today that even did not have time to have my launch(((
But i had time to go to the travel agency and to find out there how much it will cost for me to come to you))

So honey at the travel agency they told me there it is possible to arrange a tourist visa - from a week for 3 months - it depends on how long i want to stay at your place. Then as for the tickets - i got to know that if we take the Lufthansa airlines (they are the cheapest ones) the airfare will cost about 460$. Then i will also need to arrange my international passport, it costs here about 350$ - honey together it stands about 800$. Honey i do not have such funds, i am really sorry i do not know what to do. I am so sad, but it seems that i am not able to pay for the trip without your help. Please tell me if it is possible for you to help me? Honey i really want to be honest with you and do not want to tell you any other reason why i can get to you..

I will be waiting for your reply, my honey John)))

Oksana

Letter 12

Hello, my love:) Honey it seems that i have a good intuition that i decided to go to the internet cafe once again today and to check out my mailbox:) Darling thank you so much for your care and understanding, i am so happy that very soon we will be together:))

Honey i think that firstly i can come to you for 2 weeks - what do you think?? is it okay for you?? We will have time to get to know each other (what i want so much))). I will have vacations next month so i think that if we can start the arrangements now i will arrange all the papers till July:)))

My love the only problem is money for me, i wrote you that i do not have them( Is it possible that you could me give some funds and i would then start here the arrangements. what do you think?? Please let me know:)) I will get to know how you could send me them:)Ok??

waiting for your reply)

Oksana

Letter 13

Honey i am really sorry but i do not have bank account. I got to know that you may use western union or money gram system - have you ever heard about them?? You will need there some my data and i will be able to pick up the funds here using my id.
Please let me know what you think and i will then send you my details.
Honey i need about 800 $ it is about 645 euros.

Please write me back:) Kiss you

Oksana

Letter 14

Just came here again to wish you sweet dreams:) Darling have a good night:)
Honey here is the details that you will need
first name- Oksana
last name - Lugova
country - Ukraine
city - Ternopil
post code - 46000
address - Ostrojskogo street 29\3

Kiss you my darling:) I am so happy;)

Letter 15

Hello, my darling:) Honey just a short note:) I went today to western union with mtsn that you sent me, they told me that there is not the transfer with this number:( May be you made a mistake, can you check out the number??)) I am sure that everything is okay may be there was some mistake, so you have to check everything once again)

Kisses

Letter 16

The street name is not OstroJskogo, but OstroVskago, i misprinted the letters, Ostrovskogo. You may try this once again.

John, i am really sorry that you can think so badly about me... I did not deserve this. Think well before decide if you really want to meet me or not.

Letter 17

Are you son ready to stay here about 3 weeks until all the arrangements are ready??? I am not sure. Firstly i have to arrange a passport.. it will take some time. If you do not trust me you may firstly send me the funds for the passport and i will send you a copy when it is ready - so you will be sure that i do not deceive you

Letter 18

i have never given you a reason to think that i am dishonest with you. It is too pity to get to know that you appeared to be such a cruel person. I never played any games with you - it seems that it was you who played(
I am sending you a copy and you then will know that i am who i tell you i am. But i think that there is no reason in this, cause i finally understood what a person you are.

Letter 19

you are just a poor man who does not trust anything. darling in western union they told me that the sender DID NOT SEND ANY FUNDS. So please leave your fairytales about 1000 euros for your friends! And please do not worry my "greedy" hands will not reach those "invisible" funds from you... you may sleep calm:) Don
t write me anymore please. you even did not believe me after i sent you a copy of passport - poor you...whom you believe then?? in your "invisible" 1000 euros?)) - dont make me laugh:)