Letter(s) to Giannis (Greece)

Letter 1

Hello there! How do you do? I'm happy I have met you on The dating site zooks.com and got your email tonight! but now I'm not a member of the dating site any longer:)
I deleted all the personal information. I should admit that I feel uncertainty :)
But nevertheless I really hope you are ready to make new acquaintances and friends. But let me tell you the most important fact about me and my life.
I think you are interested in it.
To begin with I should say my name is Elena. I'm 28 years old (hope not too old - smile).
I am 167cm tall(I think it is about 5,7 feet).
Don't you think I am too low? Hope not))) My weight,
if I'm not mistaken is 118 pounds. My birthday is July,7
I had been married for two years and then divorsed. I have no kids and now I'm living alone having no boyfriends and looking for a true passionate love.
And what about you? Do you live alone? Are you looking for real breathtaking relations?
I am an openhearted person and kind as everybody says. I always tell the truth and hate lies.
I am cheerful and optimistic. Nobody can convince me that the glass is half empty.
I know for sure it's half full. I am brave enough and always ready to help everybody who needs my help.
Now I live in the Russian Federation in the city of Saransk. I work at school. I'm a nursery teacher.
More than it I teach English little children.I graduated from the University and attended speciak courses to have the right to teach a foreign language. While learning I took part in a competition, passed all the levels successfully and won the grant to go abroad and to share the experience with my foreign colleagues there. I choose the USA, New Hampshire.
If it is interesting to you, I shall speak more about it just ask me.
Maybe you are a little shocked because Russia is too far away from you.
But if people can find something in common distance means nothing. Do you agree?
I like traveling.It doesn't take me long to pack my bags, I visited different countries.
I like learning foreign countries, people, customs and traditions. I hope you will learn me some.
I shall speak about it later. I absolutely love to make friends with whose who live in other countries. Do you? Friendship has no borders and limits.
But enough about it. I feel that I should finish my letter because I even don't know if you are still interested in a dialogue with me.hope you are. But if you have no desire to talk to me anymore, please, at least, write me about it.
I suppose you also give me some info about your country, city, your job, friends and interests.
Each and every fact will be informative and interesting for me.
i would like to know more about you. And by the way, I will be glad to have your pictures! Therefore do not hesitate :) I will write you as soon as you answer my letter. Hope to see it soon !
take care!have a good day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Elena

Letter 2

Hi !!! It's me Elena. Thank you for picture, you are handsome !
I am very glad to get your email!!!!! If you write me it means that you are lonely like me and want to find a friend or even something more. I really hope we will find much in common.
I am thankful to the dating site where I got your profile from.
So I was not mistaken when I did it. It was prescribed by my destiny.
You know at first I did not even want to hear about dating sites when my friends offered me this way of getting acquainted. I was afraid, ashamed, nervous.
But it is so painful to be alone and single in the whole world, to spend evenings alone with TV, when there is nobody who can speak to you, give a piece of advice or just listen to you...
Well I think you understand me pretty well.
At last I agreed to use the dating site to find a real friend or more...
Do you feel the same?
As for the question about the ability to use social nets for example facebook or Yahoo Messenger. Unfortunately it is impossible for me to use them because I do not have a computer at home and use one at work. And at work we are not allowed to use social nets for communication.I hope you understand me.
I am absolutely sure that friendship is a gret thing...
Friendship is an ever-fixed mark that looks on tempest and is never shaken.
It is a star to every wandering bark whose worth is unknown.
Whay do you think about friendship and its role in everyday life?
You know I am very emotional(suppose you've noticed it).
On the one hand it is my trait of character and on the other hand it is the part of my job. as you know I work with children and they pay attention not to words but to feelings , emotions , gestures and body language.
Sometimes gestures and emotions can express much more than words that's why I am so expressive.
My job is my life, my pupils are my children, I spend the most part of my day with them, their parents sometimes say that at home children call their parents my name.
I think it's the highest award for any teacher!!!!!!!!!! I don't have my own children that's why I give all my love and tenderness to my little pupils.
As for my education I graduated from the Teachers' Training University with an excellent Diploma.
Then I attended special courses of foreign languages to get the certificate and teach English.
I work with little children and they like learning English very much.
While learning English I took part in different conferences, seminars and competitions.
I won one of them and got the grant to go abroad. I went to New Hampshire USA to improve my English, to learn pedagogical skill and to get aware of new teaching methods.
I had to work a lot but that was the best time I had ever had.
I am not afraid of work when it is interesting for me and I can get moral satisfaction.
then I had to come back and now I am working at nursery school in Saransk.
What can you tell me about your job? What field do you work in??
How did you get your job? do you like it?
Concerning my hobbies and interests I have a lot of them. I like different music from classical to heavy metal. My pupils and I sing a lot, they like me singing. In my childhood I finished musical school and I can play the piano and guitar.
I even composed simple musical compositions lol.
do you play any musical instruments or sing? :) Please tell me about your hobbies and spare time.
, what are the most important traits of character in a woman for you?
And how can you characterize yourself (if it is possible)?
Well, if you have questions you are welcome to ask. I will try to answer them.
So I have to go now, as I don't have a computer at home I use it at work.
That is why I can't answer your letters immediately. I check my email only when I am at work. My working days are from Monday till Friday and sometimes I come to work on weekends. I often stay up late and do my job (check copybooks, get ready for classes and whatever) so we can communicate when nobody is here at school.Suppose you will forgive me for this.
Well, now this computer will be used for my dialogue with ! :)
Now I have to go back to work and hope to hear from you soon.
Have a nice day !
Elena.
Here you can find some more pictures

Letter 3

Good evening John! Glad to write you again. Hope you are happy to hear from me again. How are you doing??? What is the weather like today in your town? In Saransk it is sunny today. Summer has already come to Russia.
There are leaves on the trees, it seems that the nature wants to start everything with the blank list. Everything is in blossom. Gentle green grass and spring flowers are everywhere.
I like spring. What about you John? Spring is a very beautiful season here.
I would like to know what month is the best there in your place?
I would like to know more about your place. It's very interesting for me.
You know John my town is rather old. There are a lot of churches, cathedrals here. I like going to church because it brings calm and piece.
I believe in God. I am Christian. I was baptised when I was a baby.My parents believed in God as well and wanted me to be blessed by God. My faith helps me greatly in my life. When I don't know the way out I always pray and in the end I come up to the conclusion.I am absolutely sure people should have the faith.
Do you agree with me? What about your Faith?
My city is small but it is very green.
Here we have parks. There are a lot of trees all over the streets and it is very nice here especially in warm seasons of the year when everything is in blossom.
We have a lot of forests around the town.We like going to the country and fry meat or sausages on the grill, sometimes we make fire and bake potatoes (very delicious).
Have you ever tasted such a dish?
As for my family, it was always important for me. I have a younger brother.His name is Vadim.He is 26, married.He is a firefighter.He saves people's lives. His wife and I always worry very much when he is at work. There are always dangerous situations.
Once I lost my parents. I won't be able to live if I loose him.
His wife is a wonderful lady, her name is Marina. She is a librarian. She reads much that's why she is a very interesting interlocutor.
We are friends, spend much time together, give advice each other. They have an adorable daughter, her name is Zina. She is a little angel. they are really the most important part of my life. I think many people don't understand completely that family is a big treasure. Unfortunately we realize it when it is too late and nothing can be done. I know it for sure.My both parents passed away.
I always loved them and now I miss them very much. They died when I was only 14. It was a car accident. My mom was a doctor. She worked in a local hospital.
But also she visited nearest villages to cure people. Once a woman called and implored to come because her sister had been seriously injured. My mom couldn't refused. My offered her to give her a lift, they sat into the car and .....we never saw them alive again.It was a terrible car accident. I will never forget it.
They were not guilty in it.... but they died...... That was why I being a little girl was able to do everything by myself, I cooked meals, sewed clothes to help my brother. That is why my brother is much more than just a younger brother. He is like a son for me. I am a mom, Dad and sister for him.
I had to study and work in the evening to support us.
It was a hard time but that does not kill us makes us stronger.Well I survived and now I can do almost everything.
And I hope I became the very person, lady that my parents wanted me to become.
I think that those pleasures and griefs, successes and difficulties that were in my life made me who I am now. Now it seems to me that I was saying to my mom about my love too seldom, and now I so regret about it.
John what can you tell me about your family? Is it valuable for you?
Also we have grandparents, they are 83 and 85 years old, their names are Victor and Anna,
They live in the country about 100 kilometres from me. I like visiting them. They are too old and it is difficult for them to do everithing themselves. That's why Vadim and I help them. We offered them to move to our places many times but they don't want to do it because they spent the whole life there and as they say they want to die in their old house. We can do nothing to convince them to move.
John in the future I hope that we'll exchange telephone numbers of each other. To hear a voice of each of us. But at first we should find out each other a little bit more. As I consider that telephone conversation will be more serious contact to the man. Therefore I should find out you better before giving you my telephone number. I hope that's not bad for you. Unfortunately I have some bad experience, but I do not want to speak about it. You should understand me. As it's just a question of some time. Ok?
Well, I have to go now. I promised to cook supper for my brother and his family :)
they are visiting me tonight.I am going to cook something special. My little princess Zina likes cakes and pies. When they come to my apartment she is running to the kitchenand looking for something tasty.
I will wait for your next letter with impatience. Have a nice day John!
Elena.

Letter 4

Hello my dear friend John!! I hope I can call you my friend I hope you are not against, and I will be glad to be your friend too.
Darling I am so sorry for not writing you so long. I understand what you were feeling... I am sorry... But I was sick. There were problems with my throat.
At first there was just pain in my throat then I ran a high temperature. And then I could hardly realised the reality and my brother called the ambulance. They hospitalised me and it turned I had a very bad tonsillitis. There was nothing but to operate my tonsils. The situation was really serious... When I became contious I wanted to go to write you darling but doctors did not allow me to leave hospital.
Now I am at home and have the opportunity to come to work to write you.
You know all the time I was in hospital I did not even think about the operation I thought only about you and your horror of my disappearance. I know you worried much but I could not leave the hospital... I hope you understand me and forgive!
If not just tell me:) What's the weather like outside in your place?
Today it is sunny but very fresh. At night it was rainy outside, but in the morning it was clear. I like when the sky is clear.
Ok, enough about it :) But all those words were true. :)
I think there are many other things about me that I must tell you. In general,speaking about me. I have various interests. I like sports, especially tennis, swimming and playing football! Though I have to play different sports games with my pupils during breaks.So it is important for me to keep fit.
I like domestic plants very much. At home I grow plants and flowers. I have a lot of them.
My friends is always joking about this. They say in the nearest future there won't be place for me in my apartment because my favourite plants are everywhere.
It took me 3 hours to water them, I always speak to them, sing and smile and they grow better.
Do you like flowers and plants? Do you have them at home?
Of course I adore cooking like the most part of Russian women. But I don't do it very often only at weekends for my friends and my brother's family.I am interested in the process of cooking but don't like eating it myself though I cook pretty well.I like cooking for somebody!!!!!!!!! I would love to cook for you and watch you eating.
Do you like cooking???????????
I absolutely love reading, I like to listen to music, play the guitar.
I like different books. When I read books I turn into the main character and live his life.Only when the book is read I come back to real life.
Maybe it is so because of my imagination which works well.It was developed due to my pedagogical skills. To understand the world of children you should think like they do, create and imagine, live in the magic world of fairy tales.
Do you believe in wanders and fairy tales?????????????
I decided to use the Internet because I have no time here free from my job. My friends advised me to do it.
They asured me that I will be lucky to find the right person.
Strange as it may seem but I even think about happy future ;) I think I am an optimist.
And maybe my optimism helped me to write you. I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate.
My life led me to the fact that now I look for him in such a way.
And I do not think it is bad. John what are the basic traits of your character? I never tried to describe my character to somebody in the letter. And I have no idea how to do it. But if there is anything you want to know, I will tell you with pleasure, of course.
I am very glad we communicate with you John. I think we have much in common. And it is realy good, it is not easy to find a man Who will understand. Thank you very much for your understanding,you are so attentive, you are a good man. John I want to say honestly. I am looking for a man.
And for me it is not just leasure activity or hobby. It is the only way to find a man who I could not find in the standard ways .I could not find the person who would take my love and give the same.
I could not find such a man among those men who surround me. Anyhow I do not regret about my decision to find a man in the similar way. I had a boyfriend in Russia. But I got only roughness and disrespect.
Before my traveling to the USA I gave up our relations because I cuold not stand it any longer. well let me stop speaking about him now as he does not deserve to be spoken about!!!! I can say, that I want to meet a man with a kind heart;
a man who will respect a lady.I want my man to be reliable, polite and well bread.
And I am afraid of man's roughness very much, I think that true force of a man is in his heart. A man should win love and tenderness of a woman by beauty of his heart, but not by force of a body.
Now I would love to find not only a pen pal but my soulmate, able to share my life with. And all my dreams are about it:) do you feel the same? What do you think about this in whole?
I am ready to continue to write letters to you forever and ever :)
Now it is my favorite occupation, and it is difficult for me to stop, but I should start working... I will wait for your letter!
Write to me soon!
Elena.

Letter 5

Hi John! I am very glad to get your letter.
How are you my friend ? I want to tell you about my friend Nataly.
As you can remember she was injured in the car accident saving the pupil.
Now she is feeling much better and doctors allow her to go home.Of course she will have to spend the whole month in the plaster. But is it the least danger that could be. I even don't want to think what could have happened.Well, it is enough about bad things. Nataly is alive and it's the most important.
We usually go home together, sometimes spend evenings chatting and discussing everything but now I will have to be absolutely alone.
Today my working day is going to finish earlier. I don't have many classes today. Frankly speaking I don't like this day because it is so lonely in my apartament where I have to return after my work. In such situations I walk home because it takes more time than going by bus.I like walking especially when the weather is good like it is now.Today is warm and sunny.
When I am outside and people are around me I don't feel so lonely. When I am in my apartment where there is nobody with me I feel terrible. I even don't get pleasure and satisfaction from my favourite pastime. Of course I watch TV and listen to music but somewhere deep in my heart I feel unbearable pain and loneliness.
Not to feel this I dream. I dream about my future, about my beloved and about the house full of joy and happiness.My dreams help me live, and in my dreams I am an absolutely happy lady with a big family. And I am absolutely sure that one day my dreams will come true! But now I have to live in the world of dreams.And of course my hope and faith are the most important parts of my life.
I suppose you have dreams and hopes as well, don't you.
Tell me please about your dreams John?
To tell the truth I am surprised that I write you all this. I haven't had the person, who I could share my thoughts and ideas with.
But now I have found you, and I am very glad because I can explain you my ideas.
If I said something that bothers you forgive me please.
John I want to hear your voice. Unfortunately I don't have a phone at home. At work I am not allowed to use the one for personal purposes.
I brought my cell phone from the USA but it does not work here :(
But I think that soon I shall get a new phone and I'll inform you about the number.
I have learnt with the people from mail center in our town and they told me that I can call you just from the communication center. You can tell me your phone number and I could call you if you want!
I hope you will understand these things in Russia and will not be angry with me because of it. I still can use email to correspond with you my dear John! :)
But now I should return to the pupils...
I will wait for your letter with impatience. Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have a good day!
Your friend Elena

Letter 6

Hi John! I am very glad to get your letter.
How are you my friend ? I want to tell you about my friend Nataly.
As you can remember she was injured in the car accident saving the pupil.
Now she is feeling much better and doctors allow her to go home.Of course she will have to spend the whole month in the plaster. But is it the least danger that could be. I even don't want to think what could have happened.Well, it is enough about bad things. Nataly is alive and it's the most important.
We usually go home together, sometimes spend evenings chatting and discussing everything but now I will have to be absolutely alone.
Today my working day is going to finish earlier. I don't have many classes today. Frankly speaking I don't like this day because it is so lonely in my apartament where I have to return after my work. In such situations I walk home because it takes more time than going by bus.I like walking especially when the weather is good like it is now.Today is warm and sunny.
When I am outside and people are around me I don't feel so lonely. When I am in my apartment where there is nobody with me I feel terrible. I even don't get pleasure and satisfaction from my favourite pastime. Of course I watch TV and listen to music but somewhere deep in my heart I feel unbearable pain and loneliness.
Not to feel this I dream. I dream about my future, about my beloved and about the house full of joy and happiness.My dreams help me live, and in my dreams I am an absolutely happy lady with a big family. And I am absolutely sure that one day my dreams will come true! But now I have to live in the world of dreams.And of course my hope and faith are the most important parts of my life.
I suppose you have dreams and hopes as well, don't you.
Tell me please about your dreams John?
To tell the truth I am surprised that I write you all this. I haven't had the person, who I could share my thoughts and ideas with.
But now I have found you, and I am very glad because I can explain you my ideas.
If I said something that bothers you forgive me please.
John I want to hear your voice. Unfortunately I don't have a phone at home. At work I am not allowed to use the one for personal purposes.
I brought my cell phone from the USA but it does not work here :(
But I think that soon I shall get a new phone and I'll inform you about the number.
I have learnt with the people from mail center in our town and they told me that I can call you just from the communication center. You can tell me your phone number and I could call you if you want!
I hope you will understand these things in Russia and will not be angry with me because of it. I still can use email to correspond with you my dear John! :)
But now I should return to the pupils...
I will wait for your letter with impatience. Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have a good day!
Your friend Elena

Letter 7

Hello dearest John!
Glad to write you today . Hope you are feeling well. Miss you so much.
Especially this days. I would love you to be here with me.
You know it is my birthday on July, 7.It is already today. I am 29 today.
We have decided to celebrate my birthday in the cafe with my girlfriends.
I have invited my close friends, Vadim with his wife. We are planning the menu. We want to have a very tasty dinner . I bought good wine.
It is my holiday. I hope you also drink a glass of good wine and tell me a toast for health and our friendship which will never end.
My niece Zina wants me to order a cake with 29 candles . She wants me to wish a desire in my mind and blow the candles out to make my dream come true.
I know what desire I will wish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I can't tell you about it because it won't come true.
Thank you that now you are in my life. I know I will get many presents, different books and flowers because my friends know that I like reading, but I am sure that the main present for me - you John!!!
I told all my family that I would like to meet you in future.
My dear if you would like, I will be happy to get a small bouquet, not expensive.
Attention - this is what really important for me. But you know, post office does not work well here and when I tried to send flowers from the USA to my girlfriend for Teachers' Day (the day when everybody congratulates teachers ) and it could not go through also, I tried 3 times with different sites and at least i sent nice flowers in time through this site: www.gift-love.com So you can use the same site if you want.
i do not need expensive one I just hope you understand me.
My address : Russia, Mordoviya Republic
Full name: Bakanova Elena
Street : Lenina Prospekt 41-17
City: Saransk
Postal code(zip code): 430000
Do not get me wrong, but I just want you to care about me and I want to feel that you think of me as I need you. Here is not easy for me now and if you could hold my hand with yours it would make me happy.
Oh, John I wish you were here !!! But I am so grateful for your interesting letters. I am always upset, that I have no enough time to write you all what I want. I shall write you as soon as I return to work..

With kisses
Your Elena.

Letter 8

Hi John! I was waiting for your letter with great impatience.
Thank you so much for your congratulations!!! They are so important for me!
Your letters are just like the portion of fresh air in the dusty city full of smog.It can be compared with the feeling of deep breath which fills my lungs, they open and I can feel that I am living!!!!!!!
I hope your day was much better than mine. It was really hard!!!
You know my pupils are the most important part of my living on the one hand.
I get great moral satisfaction when I work with them. Their feelings, emotions, actions are extremelly essential for me. But on the other hand communication with children takes many forces and sometimes it is really difficult to work with pupils of young age.Today I have to combine all my professional skills and forces and personal traits of character to solve the problem. I am not only a teacher but also a psycologist so I know some ways out of problematic situations. Well the story is the following. one of my pupils is very disobedient.
He is always fighting with classmates. But he is very cowardly. He never offend those who can stand up for themselves. He fights only with girls because they are weak. He is always liing. He is really cruel and a lot of children are afraid of him. Today he hurt one girl. She was crying the whole day. We tried to stop her crying but it was really painful for her. So I decided to speak to his parents and called them to come to school. When they came to school John! you can't even imagine what they spoke and what way they behaved!
They were shouting at me, they called me offensive wordsand said I am an unskilled teacher because I could not find the right approach to their wonderful child!!!
Of course I faced the same situations before and can cope with difficulties but in this very case I was so shocked that could do nothing but ask the headmaster to solve the conflict. The headmaster knows the boy and his family, they have problems with each and every person, their "wonderful" boy has already changed 3 schools (though he is just 8 years old).The headmaster offered them to leave our school and never come again. He was fully on my side and tried to protect me from this very family!!!! The problem has been successfully solved but I am sick and tired of all this staff. I am absolutely exhausted!!!!!
Well John have you ever experienced the similar situations?
Have you ever faced the people who are cowardly but cruel, cunning and make other people suffer? What is your reaction?
Of course when I got your letter John everything became so insignificant!
In our life there are things which are more essential and important than problems at work!!! Very soon I forget about this incident.
The thing I am really afraid of that one day I check my email and won't find your letter. I will die from grief like the beast from the fairy tale "the beauty and the beast" lol
Each time I have a feeling of worry John that you will stop writing But when I receive your letter, everything becomes fantastic, the smile does not leave my face and almost nobody can overpersuade me that this day is a good day!
John you know now I think about the purpose of my being more and more often.
What do I live for? What are my duties on earth? Do I behave the right way?
Maybe I do something wrong? I think there are two explanations of this. The first is I am crazy and need to visit the doctor (joke) and the other is the fact I am not satisfied with my life. I don't have a family ( I mean my husband and children).
And I really hope that I will be lucky to get one and become the happiest lady on earth!!!!
Do you really feel that you need anyone to be absolutely happy?
You know I imagine you John in my dreams. I should say my imagination works well and I see us together. We are doing everything together, reading, doing sports, walking and going to the cinema...
Can you imagine these situations?
Now I think it's high time for me to go home. I have to go home alone.
As you know Nataly is on a sick leaf.

Hope to get your reply very soon!!!!
Your Elena.

Letter 9

Hello my dear John. How are you these days ? :)
I feel so happy when I receive your letters. I try to imagine that we are together, looking at each other and speaking face to face. It would be great:)
Today my working day was much better than that I have told you about.
Today my pupils performed a play for their parents which we have been staging for a month. It was very exciting. Their parents liked the play very much.
My children are perfect actors!!!! Of course sometimes it is really hard to deal with them, they are naughty, disobedient and play tricks.
But they are children. They are so innosent, kindhearted and openminded!!!
And when you look at their eyes they say more than words. I have to work hard and much, stay up late but when I see the results I am so satisfied!!!
I am so proud of my little pupils!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
John are you satisfied with your work????????? Can you see the results of it??????????
One more good news is that I visited Nataly. She feels much better.
We spoke a lot and I dared to tell her about you my darling!!!!!!!!!
I hope you won't be offended. She is a very good and kind person, she is really happy we have found each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Right now, behind window, the summer rain like a tap-dancer beat off a rhythm.
The window glass, deformed by water trickles, reflects like old mirror a gloomy sight of the grey sky. And the wind scornfully whistles among of old trees. And everyone here, glancing through window by indifferent empty eyes silently grumble about bad weather that spoils their mood and changes their plans. And I do not understand these people.
How they can be so querulous? It is simply small rain - the gift of the nature, gift filling the air by delightful freshness, bringing an amazing, almost imperceptible smell of spring. So many people in the world who dreams about rain; how many people who never saw a snow, who is deprived an opportunities to play the snowballs with friends. I always liked rain.
However sometimes, in cold days of me heat memoirs about sea and sun.
I think all seasons are magnificent.The winter covers all around with a delightful white carpet.
Trees and roofs wear fluffy snow-hats and a frost draws by invisible tassel amazing inimitable images on the windows glasses. And when you, John hear snow crunch under your foot, and the sky slowly showers you with sparkling snowflakes or when the delightful gold autumn begins the most beautiful phenomenon in the nature - a fall of leafs? When the leaves, chased by a cool breeze, dances a waltz in the air and slowly fall downwards, undressing trees. And when you hear rustle of leaves under your foot, and when in the sky you see a flock of birds flying away with sad song, don't you want to take a slow walk also with your woman?
Or when you hear behind your window an autumn thunder, or groans of blizzard, would you not enjoy being at home with your beloved, to enfold each other in a warm plaid, and telling each other ridiculous and funny stories?
I think it is a big happiness when people are able to value such things.
And I think, if the couple are able to enjoy such things in a life, it only strengthens feelings. I am sure, now you think that I am rambling on.
Forgive me please John :) I do not know why I write you this.
Probably because I feel conveniently in talking to you about such things.
I will better stop, because I am afraid that otherwise you will simply cease to write me. :)
With thoughts of you I will wait for your letter!
Elena.

Letter 10

Hi John! At last I am at school and have the opportunity to check my email, read your letter and send you the answer. It's a great praise for me afer a hard working day. How are you feeling my dear? I really hope you are very well.
How did you spend your day? Mine was full of events.
Today my pupils and I went to the nearest wood as the weather is very warm and there are many flowers and grasses. My pupils like such days when we don't have classes inside the school. We prepare for such "walkings" very carefully. Some parents take part in these promenads just for the case. In summer we visit woods and learn flowers, herbs and birds singing. My children like it and always do it with great pleasure.
More than it their parents are eager to walk with us because it helps us unite and feel one family and it is really essential in the process of teaching.
When our "Day of nature" is over we come back to school, have lunch and discuss the most exciting and pleasant moments we had. At home my pupils draw pictures about the day and then we have the exhibition of their drawings. we invite other classes to take part in it. So everybody is happy and get pleasure. As for me such days are really responsible.
John do you like nature in summer?
When I came to school I was physically exhausted. And I even could hardly move.
But when I saw your letter the forces restored and I am full of life and energy again. You know when we were in the wood I was constantly thinking about you.
I wish you had been with me!!!!!!!!!!
Some weeks before my favourite day of a week was Friday because it is the end of a working week for me but now I don't like it because at weekends I don't have the opprtunity to write you John! :)
John what do you usually do at weekends? Do you sleep long? I sometimes sleep till lunch. I always visit my brother's family at weekends. We cook a tasty dinner with his wife. For example this week we are going to fry chicken with vegetables, make a fish salad and bake a cake for Zina.As for me I am indifferent to cakes and sweets at all. I prefer fruit and vegetables. Maybe that is the reason I don't have problems with being in a good shape.lol. I have always dreamt about living in a hot country where I would have a garden and orchard. I would plant all the fruit and vegetables I know. And every day I would gather fruit from trees and eat them. it is my dream.
Do you like fruit and vegetables? Do you have a garden? If so what do you grow there?
Zina and me are spending this weekend together because her parents are going to the theatre. We are going to "publish" a book. We are writing the story about a prince and princess ( I will imagine that the prince is you and I am a princess).And Zina will draw pictures for the book. I suppose it will be interesting for my little niece.
John do you write poetry or poems?
Also I am going to the swimming pool at weekends. I absolutely like it.I am rather good at swimming because there is a pond in my granny's village. I spent each and every summer in the village and my favourite pastime was swimming in the pond and fishing.
Now I miss those times greatly and when I am in the swimming pool I remember my childhood. When I swim I can feel freedom and lightness of my body.And this feeling can be compared with nothing.
John do you like swimming? Where do you prefer to do it?
John I must go now, because the darkness has already covered all around and if I miss the latest bus from school, I will need to go on foot and I am too tired after the day in the forest.
Oh, I have promised you to finish my letter, but instead of it I write again and again. Please, forgive me :) I will wait for your letter with hope!
I hope your day will be filled with sun warmth and human kindness!
Your friend Elena.

Letter 11

Hi John, I am so happy to get your letter! How are you doing my darling? :)
I feel so happy when get your letter John, when I come here, open my e-mail box and see it here :)
Our dialogue is an energy source for me. I often begin to imagine - what you do, where are you right now, or with whom you are right now...
There are a lot of kilometers, some hours between us, but I always think that maybe right now you also think: "What Elena is doing, where she is?".
And maybe we think of the same things at the same time. I like thinking of it.
I like to tell you about an incident which took place today. My working day was not too hard that's why I decided to go to the haidresser's. I always visit one the same hairdresser but today when I came she was very busy and she advised me another woman. She said that she is a good specialist. So I trusted my hair to her.
When she cut my hair I liked it and asked her to dye it. Everything was great but when I saw my reflexion in the mirror I was shocked. My hair was blue!!!
I could say nothing and just opened my mouth trying to pronounce some words.
The hairdresser was shocked even more than me.She wanted to explain something but her lips did not follow her mind. At first I was angry with her. But then I began laughing very loudly I knew she didn't do it on purpose!!!! Something went wrong with the colour. I just imagined my brother's family and my pupils when they would see me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know in Russia there is a story about the golden key. In this story there is girl called Malvina. Malvina has got blue hair. That was why I was called Malvina, the girl with blue hair. At first I wanted to stay with blue hair for a short period of time. But my hairdresser advised me to change everything.
So we dyed my hair again.That time everything was ok. What a funny incident!!!!!
I hope You are smiling now. I would love to.
I would like you to see me with blue hair. And I would like you to see me every day.
And I want to come back home and meet you and kiss. What a horrible thing - distance.
Why are there so many thousands of kms? Why you were born there John?
And why was i born here??????????????
Not there ?
But if you were born here and live in my city we may never meet each other? But we were born so far from each other and we are already together, in our hearts, in our souls. If I look in my past I would like to say that I have never met the man who is so caring and kind as you.
You really brought happiness and very good feeling to me, I am sure that this feeling is similar to love, it is not just called "love", sometimes people pronounce this world as other words and do not put anything special, just say "I love you" but does mean true feeling. You know when you have feelings, words are not necessary sometimes, what are words?
What are true feelings? Words are material things and are able to destroy anything, but are they necessary when you fall in love? When people come to me at work and ask to marry... What are they waiting from me?
That I tell them yes? They feel that I am always give them advice, help, I speak to them when I am really interested in them as a specialist.
Do they see the beauty of my soul?
John, we have never met in person, but you are the only man in the this world who feels beauty of my soul, who cares about me. What can I say.
I think My heart is open for you, and I think that my life is open for you.
I can get no sleep this days, my heart beats so fast...
It is a pity, that i cannot continue my letter...
I shall wait for your answer..

a lot of kisses ...
Your Elena.

Letter 12

John
today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried not to show it, I think you have noticed it. John I was sad because in two weeks my pupils and I have vacations. it will last for a month and a week. On the one hand it is great because I can have a rest, but on the other hand I don't want it because I will not have the opportunity to communicate with you as I don't have computer at home.
More than it the school will be repaired so it will be closed and I will not be able to come here to write you letters. I will not live without you and our
communication, I will just exist. I realized that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it is so wonderful.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I spoke to my brother Vadim and said that I should listen to my heart, it will never tell lies and advise me what to do. And when he said it, I understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during a month. And I told that I want to meet you John! I told him that I want to spend my vacation with you John! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Vadim said, that you John and me are such good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightful. So, what will you say John if I offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend several days with me?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of being lonely again without you and our friendship. I just want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit a number of departments, to collect a number of documents for traveling and probably work in your country, find official legal people, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I collect all the necessary documents quickly I will get all papers in two weeks!
And being the best teacher of our school last year I will have the support and guarantees from the headmaster of my school and Ministry of Education of the Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I am in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, and desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I want :) ... John with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will do everything myself. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden for you. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, John?
Anyway, we must meet. It is impossible to wait eternally. We must take the chance.
the life is too short to hesitate.
It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take a new step.
Maybe such an opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - the opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lives and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is the time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you John!
So what will you say? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with impatience.

With Love
Sincere Your Elena.

PS: I hope you like pictures !

Letter 13

John
today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried not to show it, I think you have noticed it. John I was sad because in two weeks my pupils and I have vacations. it will last for a month and a week. On the one hand it is great because I can have a rest, but on the other hand I don't want it because I will not have the opportunity to communicate with you as I don't have computer at home.
More than it the school will be repaired so it will be closed and I will not be able to come here to write you letters. I will not live without you and our communication, I will just exist. I realized that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it is so wonderful.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I spoke to my brother Vadim and said that I should listen to my heart, it will never tell lies and advise me what to do. And when he said it, I understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during a month. And I told that I want to meet you John! I told him that I want to spend my vacation with you John! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Vadim said, that you John and me are such good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightful. So, what will you say John if I offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend several days with me?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of being lonely again without you and our friendship. I just want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit a number of departments, to collect a number of documents for traveling and probably work in your country, find official legal people, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I collect all the necessary documents quickly I will get all papers in two weeks!
And being the best teacher of our school last year I will have the support and guarantees from the headmaster of my school and Ministry of Education of the Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I am in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, and desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I want :) ... John with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will do everything myself. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden for you. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, John?
Anyway, we must meet. It is impossible to wait eternally. We must take the chance.
the life is too short to hesitate.
It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take a new step.
Maybe such an opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - the opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lives and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is the time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you John!
So what will you say? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with impatience.

With Love
Sincere Your Elena.

PS: I hope you like pictures !

Letter 14

Hi my John!
I was waiting for your email with fear and with pleasure at the same time! And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and dance, laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you John!
Thank you for your letter and your thoughts. I am so happy that we can meet.
Now I have the ocean of emotions but I don't know how to express them.
I am worried very much. I really hope that we can spend time perfectly together. I am just afraid, that if we meet, I will ask so many questions and chatter unceasingly, that you will escape from me soon...lol
My vacation will begin approximately in two weeks. This time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately the schedule of my vacation is not flexible.
Therefore I hope you will be glad to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy all the same. I will be happy in any case.
It is better to wait when you will come from work, than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!! Duration of my vacation is 35 workdays. But the number of days which I can spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will order the ticket.
How many days do you want to be with me? I think preparations for travel will be about two weeks. Complexity of approval of the papers, visa will be reduced to a minimum as I will have petitions and characteristics from a work place, from respected organizations and legal people;
guarantee documents and various sorts of the information and inquiry, which will be given to commissions I will get the petition and a testimonial from Ministry of Education of the Russian Federation! Except of that I will pay for preparation for the commission.
Every day I think - what my friend John will tell me today, what mood he will have today? And as soon as I get a free minute, I rush to the teachers' room to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your letter, I start to smile from ear to ear having the best time of my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you all my thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And during these minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except the lines and paragraphs which my mind and imagination will transform into small movies, movies about you, my dear John. And you cannot imagine at all how it's wonderful!
Sometimes I think what would happen if I have not found the strength in myself to write you? What would happen if I didn't believe that I could find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I'm a courageous woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life for the sake of person who is close and dear for me, I am ready to donate my well-being for the sake of well-being of another person but when I think of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the fire's smoke.
I am often afraid to do something, to take some steps just because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the negative answer.
Not always, but it happens. What would happen if you have not answered my letter? Nothing would happen! And grey monotonous days would lie on a way of my life by infinite impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? Firstly, I should tell you that I slept with a smile on my face!
At least when I woke up and looked at the mirror, I noticed that I was smiling! Then I brushed my teeth and I had a smile! Then I jog and I smiled as if actually I watched funny movie. Then I cooked breakfast and drank a coffee with a smile on my face! Then I came to school and I could not hide my smile. I was ready to laugh and I had no desire to work at all! My pupils noticed that there was something strange about me. They asked a lot of questions but I did not know what to answer.They discussed changes in my behavior and came up to the conclusion that something good had happened because I was constantly smiling....
Everything around seemed me beautiful and wonderful. All the day I worked with the smile on my face! My collegues looked at me and smiled as well.
Of course they did not understand the reason, it just made them happy! And when sleeping time comes, I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you till now have not understood why I smile, I will tell you!
I smile because I think of you, John! And it brings me joy! I am so happy that I have in my life such a man as you! Thank you that you are in my life!
I have to go. Now I will not have a lot of time after work because after work I will have one more working day!:) You may ask what I mean?
The preparation for my trip! You cannot imagine at all how many deals I must do for our meeting! I even have asked the headmaster to allow me to take some hours off in the middle of day to do some things, because after 5pm the departments are closed. Thoughts about our meeting give me force and energy! I am sure that everything will be perfect! I will wait for your letter! Please, write me because I need your letters and support more than ever!

With Love and Kisses!
Always your Elena!

Letter 15

Hi My John! Thank you for your letter.
You and your letter became the most exciting moment of my day! John Today I visited Nataly and we spoke much about the events.I wish you saw how Nataly is happy that we will meet!
She is sure that our meeting will make us happy. It is simply impossible to talk to her now! :). She has now only one theme for the conversation - you John!
She is constantly asking about you, what I will do together with you, what I will do at the airport, what I will cook for you.
She asks how I am going to impress you, to intrigue! She even asks how I will tempt you! :)) . She says that I do everything correctly and I should not be afraid of anything at all. To conquer the road can only one who goes on this road. Nataly is very glad that I have found you, and she sends you her friendly greetings and wishes of happy expectation of me!:).
Probably I'm the most successful woman on our planet because I have found the kindest and gentle man who is capable to make so that my heart had been overflown with feelings and my soul aspires to cross space and ocean and to rush into his life, to be united in a single whole with his soul.

My darling! I am not sure about the exact date of my arrival.
Maybe I will arrive a little bit later, because it is an approximate time of beginning of my vacation and it can be changed. Will you wait for me anyway?
Please, don't be angry with me if I cannot write you much now. I hope you understand that I even after my working day at school must do too much for our meeting. Today I will go to Ministry of Education. I think this is one of the most important deals for me right now. I will give them all my documents and tomorrow I will probably get all the documents and forms of petitions which I must fill in as soon as possible.
John today I feel that I start to worry more than I even could imagine.
I am very glad that I do all this. And every minute I think of our meeting.
The meeting at the airport... I don't think that many people on our planet have an opportunity to enjoy such a delightful moment - the moment of the first meeting at the airport. It is so exciting. I feel that it will be a very touching moment for each of us. It calms me down.
I can imagine us together, I see us walking in the park; I see us speaking about serious and silly things, or playing cards :)), I see wonderful dinners at home and outside! I see you sitting on a sofa with a juicy peach in your hand and I see me dancing in front of you a beautiful dance, or maybe even erotic dance:), What about Belly dance? :). I do it perfectly!:).
I see us swimming; I see us on a roof of a house, watching the full moon;
I see us fighting with pillows; I see us in the evening at home, with romantic light of candles; I see us cooking together Our pelmeny and Your pizzas :) ; I feel myself in your hands. Everything waits for us in the nearest future; and I enjoy, anticipating this delightful time together!
Do you feel the same, John? Oh, would you like to make me a massage of my back? I would like to make you massage! But I must warn you, that if you want to do it, you should not touch my ribs! :)
The reason - I'm the most ticklish woman in Russia :) John I am afraid of titillation! If someone tickles my foot or ribs, I begin to laugh loudly, kick and scratch, squeal and jump! Therefore if you will make me massage and you will tickle me, you will feel like a cowboy on a wild undomesticated mare on the rodeo! :) . By the way John, are you ticklish? Do you snore? (Forgive me for this question. Do not answer, if you do not want. Maybe one day I will find out all this by myself:)).
Will you sing serenades for me? I would be happy if you sang serenades and songs for me! I would remunerate you by kisses! :) .
John I should finish the letter. I must do much so that you had an opportunity to make me massage and to get the massage from me! :) . Please, write me because now I need you and your letters very very much, because I worry so much...

Yours, Elena.

Letter 16

Hi my John! You can't imagine how all your words are important for me.
I can feel the emotions you write me with, and your emotions fill my heart.
And I know hundreds of words, that could help me tell you how you are important, dear for me now. And I am waiting for the day when I am able to tell you all these words, being face to face - looking into your caring eyes. I am looking forward to that moment when I see your sparkling smile on your face and read all your thoughts and feelings in your smile.
And now my heart enjoys fine feelings - feelings of awaiting and hope that one day our meeting will come true. And sometimes it is simply impossible to express all the shades of my joy by means of words . How difficult it is to express all the depth and passion of feelings in simple combinations of words and phrases ; how difficult it is to express all tenderness by means of lifeless letters, it's almost impossible to describe the warm wave of feelings which overflows me every day, every minute, every instant - when I am thinking of you John! Any words cannot replace a glance and a smile, any words are not able to replace tenderness of touch.
John I am not sure if I should tell you what had happened yesterday.
I don't want you to be unhappy but I was so terrified that I cannot keep it to myself.
Don't worry too much!!!!I am safe and sound...
Well when I came home and come up to the door of my flat I noticed something strange.
At first I did not understand what the matter was. The door was slightly opened.
I thought Vadim had come and had not closed the door. But when I entered the hall I realised what had happened. Everything was in a mess, my clothes were on the floor as if somebody was looking for something. When I came up to the cupboard where I put my box with jewellery I realised what they were looking for...
The box was empty there were no the jewellery that my grandmother presented me.
She got those rings and earrings from her granny. They were very ancient. They were really precious for me more that it the price was very high...So thieves stole them.
One more precious thing was in my flat and I rushed to the room to check it.
While I was running to the room(just a few seconds) my heart was beating so fast. But there was nothing there. The icon was absent. It was stolen as well.
I sat on the floor, closed me eyes and tears were dropping down.I felt so miserable.
Unfortunately my flat was not insured. My flat insurance finished a week ago and I was planning to do it in some days because I just could not imagine this.
So it was my mistake. But nothing can be done now.
Of course i called the police. When they came they asked me different questions.
But the only thing I was thinking of was the icon. It was made of wood, silver, gold and pearls. it was of the 17th century. And the history of our family is connected with it. One of Russian tsars presented the icon to my ancestor for his service and faithfulness.It was a real treasure for our family and memory of our ancestor. I am broken now... I don't know what to do, I feel guilty because Vadim said to me to bring the icon to his flat but I could not give it away.

Well, John I want to finish my letter with good thoughts. And I will tell you something good! I want to tell you about my feelings to you, if you know, how speedy my heart beats when I am walking here with hope to get your letter, as a child looking forward to getting his birthday present. You gave me hope, you born feelings in my heart, I want you to know that I fell in love with you, and I miss you!
Be with me in my thoughts. I will think of you, so please, think of me as well. "You are an Angel" - TY ANGEL!

With all my tenderness.

Your Elena.

Letter 17

Hi my prince John!!!! How important it is for me to get your letters.
I don't feel well because of the latest events. Vadim had to spend the night in my flat while my door is being restored. We spoke a lot about the misfortune. It is so terrible.
I must admit John I feel comfortable only if I receive your letters.
I wanna to embrace you right now so you can feel my Heart ;)
What about your place John? What is the weather like there now?
however I have good news as well.
Oh, John I want to tell you that I have collected almost all the characteristics and petitions from different people. Soon I will have a meeting with the notary at the notary office to legalize all the documents.
Vadim was able to reach agreement with the municipal department. Now he must get all the documents about my family and me. It turned out that not all the people are unselfish, but the essential thing is that we will get these documents.
The rest is not important at all.
My relatives are very happy, you know they like that we communicate with you. My brother and friends say hello to you! Today while sleeping dreamt my parents. My parents were very good people and Mum always gave me "freedom of choice" mum told me in the past: "Elena, it is your life, you can try everything you want, you can find love, just remember,my dear that your father and I want you to be happy" I loved my parents.
It it so sad they are not with us now.
Well, we walk all the time now and enjoy this season. I think it is very important to spend some time in the open air. Well, my mood is very fine now, I know that soon we will walk outside together, it would be great John :)
Looking forward to being with you tonight in my dreams :)

With Love and Kisses
Your Elena.

P.S. I took some pics for you these days, hope you like them )

Letter 18

Hi Giannis! How glad I am that I have an opportunity to write you now.
My dear Giannis! I have bad news! I became the drug addict! And my drug is you Giannis! :) I have a little time. I came here only to write you some lines. I don't have even one free minute. Now each minute of my day is devoted to you Giannis! Every minute of my day I use to come our meeting true. Every minute of my day I think of you and about our meeting.
I give all my diligence and forces to meet you. I read your letters and cried, because they touched my heart and soul. You hit me in the heart.
I cannot find the words to express all my feelings. I cannot find the words to explain what I feel. You won my heart. Nobody could do that before.
I am happy, that I have found you. I have already found happiness. If I see you face to face, I will go mad. Well, I think that a new feeling was born the in my heart. This feeling is called ...
No, I will not tell you it yet. I will say it when I meet you. I will explain it when I see your deep eyes and when you see mine, and when we hug each other Finally, I got almost all the papers today!!! I am definitely going to Moscow!
It is the most important point for me. I have been preparing for this for so long.
After the interview at the Embassy I will find out the final decision! I don't want to say "IF", but it is really a very difficult and tense moment. And I am simply not sure if I have enough confidence and self-control. But I have to calm down. My worry and fear are our enemies.
I think I am ready. I feel that I can do everything well, and we will definitely meet! And now just be with me in your thoughts! I need it.
I really need your support. I'm so nervous and stressed. I want to put my head on your knees and feel your warm hand on my cheek. For the sake of it I am ready to collect all my forces and reach the goal!!!!!! My family and friends help me greatly, they wanna see me happy.
My door had been restored at last. But I can't feel safe.
However I am well because I am thinking of you Giannis! It helps me overcome difficulties.
I decided to bake a cake,- just to relax after a difficult day. You know I created a new recipe and started the preparations. I wish you saw this cake! There is not on Earth any cake with such a number of components like this! :) Between the layers of soft gentle biscuit I placed mush of kiwi and bananas.
The sour cream with a strawberry and juice of fresh lemon was turned into magnificent cake-cream. I decorated the cake with a cherry, and when I was going to taste the cake, I suddenly realised that I hadn't given the name to it. I do not know if there is such a tradition in your country ,in Russia each cake has a name, for example - "Cinderella", or "Ant Hill" or "Autumn Waltz". So I began to look attentively at the cake, and think what name is suitable for this cake.
But I said that it was too foolish! I tried dozens of names, but I found them either too foolishly, banal, or too ordinary, uninteresting. Finally I said to myself: "All right Elena, if you are so clever, maybe you will offer anything not banal, unusual, not foolish and interesting?" And then I answered: "Look at this cake! This cake is appetizing just like Giannis!!!! I want to name this cake - Giannis!":)
I wish you saw me at that moment!
I love the name Giannis!!!!" :))
What a delightful cake with the name Giannis!!! :) I hope you are not offended that I called the cake your name? It is a beautiful, sweet, gentle, and very tasty cake!!!
sorry, Giannis, I have to go now. I hope you dream and think of me as often as I do it! :) I shall write you before my departure to Moscow.
Please, write me the letter! I beg you, do not forget about me now! :)
and, tell me that you wait for me with impatience :) Please, tell me that you are dreaming to embrace me at the airport! :)
Giannis, if a lady wanted to be with you while your beloved woman won't see you, what would you tell that lady? Forgive me, I have to go. But only because I want to meet you as soon as possible!!!!:)
Your Darling Elena!

P.S. PLEASE INFORM ME MORE PRECISELY THE NEAREST AIRPORT(CODE) WHERE YOU CAN MEET ME, AND PHONE NUMBER ACCESSIBLE FOR ANY TIME...

Letter 19

Hi my dear and beloved John,
As for me it is the happiest day to see your letter. I'm in Moscow! You can't imagine how happy I am because I have already started my trip to you! Moscow is a really big city! I arrived in Moscow by train... it seemed to me that the way was so long...because I can't wait to meet you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When I got off the train in Moscow, the policeman asked me to show my passport and he looked at me as if I were an enemy ))) I think all people here are a little bit crazy. Everything is very expensive here, not like in my city... and there are big crowds of people everywhere!
I feel ill at ease because of it but I hope I will be OK soon.
I couldn't find a cheap hotel, everything is extremely expensive in Moscow.
I managed to find my old friend, Tatyana here... We studied at the university together.
She allowed me to stop in her house. She lives with her mum.
Some time before we lived in one and the same city, but later they moved to Moscow.
We had many conversations, spoke about you much. Tatyana was very glad to see me! She spent the whole day with me..
And then she accompanied me to the Internet cafe, then she went to work.
John let me tell you the most important thing I should!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had the interview at the Embassy!!!!!! I knew that it would be a difficult interview, but I could not imagine at all that I must answer so many questions.At the beginning of the interview I was so frightened, so worried. But as soon as they asked the first question, I became absolutely calm. I just sat, and answered all the questions.
I said what I think honestly. They asked me almost about everything!
They asked me about my life, about my childhood, about terrorism, about my job, about my latest relations. They read all the documents I had collected before. They asked me about my faith.
I often watched their faces and realised that they didn't expect such answers, but I didn't want to tell beautiful lies which are pleasant to listen to. I just answered sincerely and told them everything what's in my heart.
At first I thought that my answers had not satisfied them but they told that it was very pleasant and unusual to hear my answers.
They said that "bitter" sincerity was always better than "sweet" lies. Besides, I had already had experience of getting visa and they were really impressed by the fact that I had such a great support from so many people and establishments. And maybe in some hours all the papers will be in my hands !!!!! I can't believe it.I'm nervous and I have butterflies in my stomach.
But at the same time I'm happy because I feel that I did everything correctly.
John I should also ask you a very important question once again.
When I arrive to you, will there be a place in your house where I can stay?
Or should I stay at the hotel? But I don't wanna stay in the hotel.
I don't like hotels, I even hate them. But I have found some variants. Just in case.
And dear, don't forget to send me all the information.
1. Your full name
2. Your full home address.
3. Also once again the nearest airport where you will precisely meet me.
John today I saw my parents in my sleep-dream, and they smiled to me.
I know that it is their approval. I see my parents in sleep-dream very seldom!
I always knew that dream will never simply fall into hands from the sky. I always knew that if you want the dream to come true, you must do for this purpose all what is in your forces. I know that it is necessary to believe, hope and struggle. And I really struggled John, I tried to do all what in my forces. And I hope God will help us. after all difficulties, after all efforts I believe that Everything will be fine! I really feel that I did everything well.
John I worry very much, but my heart says to me that I should smile.
And I smile today. I feel that I will meet you. I feel that the meeting at the airport will be beautiful and romantic. I will tell you everything what I will feel at that moment, and you will tell me. And then we will leave the airport and we will chatter and laugh. I will tell you how I endured the flight on board the plane and what I was thinking about.
You will tell me how you waited for me at the airport. And then we will have great time together. We will walk, spend evenings, watch funny and scary movies, - and I will hide under your hand at the most scary moments... We will meet together the first beams of the sun and will see off a magnificent sunset. We will sit by the window and drink hot tea while it's cold outside. I do want to have breakfast together and supper with candles. I do want to shout together with you at the stadium during football or hockey matches;
or just lay on bed, and tell each other stories from our lives.

John probably in some days we shall be together:)
SOON WE WILL BE TOGETHER!!!!! But now I have to go! My legs shiver as if I were a schoolgirl! :) . Wish me luck and think of me!

Your Elena.

PS I took a picture. Hope you'll like it)

Letter 20

Hi, my Giannis! My dear, excuse, for a delay of the answer! I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy Giannis!!!!
Giannis today, quite by accident, I saw a tape Dictaphone, in home at my girlfriend) she allowed me to use these devices. I was able to record a voice message to you. I hope you can understand my English) sorry I can not talk with you right now:(
My prince I have not stopped on it and later we with my girlfriend at whom I have stopped in Moscow have gone to office of this airline, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Heraklion Crete and how much it costs. They've told me that the roundtrip flight to your airport cost 1187 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I've asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they've offered. It would be on the August 15 I have learned, that cost of tickets up to in one party will make 385 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the funds this time and the other part later, because other people can buy the cheap ticket and I'm not. But they've refused and I was in despair! I've asked them to help me so long time that tears have come to my eyes! And they've agreed! I have learned, that now return tickets are necessary for the proof of that I independently can return to Russia.
But there is an opportunity to change return the ticket on money in your country, or to change date. To me have told, that if will take return tickets the discount at a rate of 5% is given, it turns out that 385+385=770 dollars and will subtract 5% these are that will make 770 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum of 10% from cost for registration of tickets and meal, it will turn out 832 dollars, 8:00 Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Heraklion, N. Kazantzakis Airport (HER) 20:35 August 15 I will give you my flight number information, as soon as i have it in my hand. The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of an economic class, is cheaper a way to arrive to you I is not present. It was the best variant for me. They have told that I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. it is possible, but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 550 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings In a pawnshop and I got 178 USD. That is all I could do.
I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult.
But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa and all papers I have spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment in three weeks. Besides, I have been compelled to buy new windows for my apartment. But I cannot leave my apartment with broken windows. And of course I have been compelled to pay much for it. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 281usd (187euro). And I must pay funds before August 14, morning. Otherwise I will lose my nested funds and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely.
But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that it is big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 550 $ that I have given for the ticket also I restored a windows in an apartment before departure. It all are huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before August 14, morning.
I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit. I need you Giannis. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have remittance system.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "WesternUnion" and "MoneyGram". They have told that it is the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safety. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Moscow for my name - . For an example, near there is a office: Moscow VTB24 Bank; Aviamotornaya st, 14; Moscow, 125130 Russia.
I send you the view of my ID document. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, we must tell to employee of bank(agent) your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you will send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also hey have told that funds it is possible to send online through a site WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 2-3 weeks. I think about you Giannis all the time! I think about a meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you Giannis. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. Are you with me?

Write to me soon!
With love, Your Elena.

Letter 21

My dear Giannis , how are you doing? I am so happy to hear from you, I miss you so badly all these days, I am so pleased with an opportunity to meet you soon, and I want it very much. I’ll do it because I’ve found you !!! Giannis I’ve done everything I can, you know? If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please help do it as soon as possible! I will be sure in meeting with you if I will have the ticket to you Giannis! And I don't want that they’ll sell the cheap ticket to other people. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of a wife and a husband or a union of a boy-friend and a girl-friend or a union of business partners! I don't want to be hypocritical! That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman who you don't trust, so as I am. It's a first check for us.
And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other!
That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you.
I confused that money plays a great role in a meeting of two people who love each other. So I need your help, because I have some money and I've counted all. It's the best way to buy the ticket because it's cheaper if we will buy the ticket separately. I want to be with you Giannis all my heart and I do all for it, you see! So I need your help and we'll be together!!!! You must always remember that I trust you.
Maybe it's our future and I see that our future will be very wonderful. We'll be together very soon, I must buy the ticket and I will be yours and you will be mine!!!!!! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, PLEASE DON'T FORGET IT!!!!!!!!! Of course if you don't want, you can not help me.
It is bad but not fatal. I will lose you. IT WILL BE TOO BAD...
I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me.
I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger.
It is much easier to go through difficulties and barriers together.
I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a step towards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step.Tell me Giannis, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please do it.
I love you very much! I think about you Giannis all the time!
I think about a sense of money, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I'm sure. And the quantity of funds was, is and will not important to me. I have always not aspired to the material enrichment and don't search specially for rich man!
I appreciate human qualities and relations and I need you Giannis!!!
I love you with all my heart, I want to be with you now...
I want to be with you forever! If it's mutually we will be very happy in our life! I think you love me too and we will meet very soon.
You are my love Giannis. My heart is yours. I'm waiting good news from you, I hope everything will be all right and we will be together soon.
Every day I think about our meeting, and I think it's real, we must use this chance of destiny.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!
Forever your.
Elena