Letter(s) to Jim (USA)

Letter 1

I was very glad when have received your letter. But when I have become read it I was strongly upset and sad. I hoped that you will understand me and can help us to meet. And you have not justified my hopes. My friends have said me: don't worry and don't upset, I may find another man, but I have said that I love HIM(I mean YOU) very much and my mood is bad now!
Because we can't be together now. I so wanted to see you! And you wanted see me too! You have spoken: that you would like if I would come to you, I want it! And spoken, you love me! But now I see that you don't want me to see and meet me in your country! I begin to think that all words about love from you was empty (has played in love and enough, yes?). And I all the same still love you, though you have answered to me so. Tell me, don't you trust me anymore? Maybe you afraid something? Are you afraid that I wouldn't come to you? If it's right, why do you think so? In my opinion I did not give an occasion for doubts about me! I love you very much and I will love you always! I am very much upset and is suppressed, and there are tears on my eyes. Please answer me! It is not necessary to speak, that all is over between us, I don't want to believe in this! If all of it is right, you strongly have wounded mine fragile heart! And I don't know at all that I will do further. I am in condition of depressing. Tell me a truth! Are my words correct? Without your help I can't come to you soon, because i have small wages. And I will wait half a year or more till a moment when I can accumulate money for travel. It's SOooo LOoong!!!
I will wait the letter from you. Please, say that all my words were mistaken and you love me and will help us to meet soon!
Don't forget to answer me!!!

Letter 2

Hi, my love Jim!

Today is quite warm here again and how is there?
I would like to come to you for a week I think but my vacation will be for a month. I will take a vacation from my job. I think that if everything will be fine then I could go back to Russia and back to you then.

Today I've surprised a lot that our hopes are coming true! Guess why? I think you would like to know it! Today after my work I've gone to the travel agency which work with embassies from Moscow and they've told me that my visa is ready now! I was very glad because it was so fast! I've asked them to scan it and I send it to you today because I think it's the great news not only for me but for you also! But like any travel agency this one not only prepares visas but it reserves tickets too. I've decided to use their service again because they have a great reputation and respect in our town. I asked them how I can reach Lexington, KY (LEX) and how much it costs. They answered me that the ticket costs 1174 american dollars. I asked them to find cheaper tickets because this price is expensive for me. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket and the flight will be on 24 August. It costs 960 american dollars. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without an advance payment. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed! We decided that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later. I've spent all my money, but it wasn't enough. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my silver and gold jewelry for 210 american dollars. It was my last money! This is the flight information on which I reserved the ticket:
12:25 pm Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Lexington (LEX) 6:28 pm Wed 24-Aug
Duration: 14hr 3mn
Delta 47 / 1674
Connect in Atlanta (Hartsfield Intl.)

Now I've all necessary documents including my visa and want to see you as soon as I can. That is why I need to pay for this ticket now Jim. I've asked about it in this travel agency which helped me to formalize my visa and it will be cost not much if I will get this ticket now. If I'll buy the ticket and visa both it will be cost more cheaper than I can buy it in the other place. So I had the money for a visa and I've paid for it already and I have it! Everything is alright and I must pay now for this ticket. I have bought the tickets to Moscow on a plane. I've paid for a part of the flight ticket. But this money is not enough! I don't have more of money for it now. It is very hard for me to tell you Jim about it! But I've done everything I can! I've paid for a visa, for other documents, for reservation of ticket to you and for ticket to Moscow more than 560 dollars. I don't want to burden you. I thought I could get ticket here more cheaper and can come to you with my own funds but unfortunately I have failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only 660 dollars. I must pay this money before 22 August, otherwise I will lose my money and the flight ticket! If you love me Jim, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please send the money for this ticket as soon as possible! I will be sure in our meeting if I will have the ticket for a flight to you Jim! And I don't want that they'll sell the cheapest ticket to other people. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other! Any serious relations without trust is impossible, it will not have the future without trust! I don't want to be hypocritical! That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give your love and your heart to the woman who you don't trust, so as I am. It's a first trial for us! Many things depend on it, may be everything! We must trust each other! That's why I was the first of us who made the first step. Step to you Jim! I confused that money play a great role in a meeting of two people who love each other. So I need 660 dollars for the ticket, because I have some money and I've counted all. It's the best way to buy the ticket because it's cheaper than we will buy the ticket separately. I want to be with you Jim with all my heart and I do everything for it, you see Jim! So I need your help and we'll be together!!!! You must always remember that I love you and trust you! Maybe it's our future and I see that our future will be very wonderful! We'll be together very soon, I must buy the ticket and I will be yours and you will be mine!!!!!! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, PLEASE DON'T FORGET IT!!!!!! Of course if you don't want you can not to help me. It will be bad but not fatal. I will lose my money and this ticket. IT WILL BE TOO BAD... I say so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you Jim and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. It is much easier to go through difficulties and barriers together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make it all by myself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without a help, and to rely only on myself. I address to somebody for the help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. I hope you will make a step towards to me too. I hope it has not offended you. I love you and I trust you Jim. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step. Tell me Jim, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please help me. I wonder if it is possible to do. I've asked my friends about helping me and they said that have not it at the present moment. I've asked the advice of my best girlfriend Olga and she has told me that maybe you Jim can help me because you love me! I've asked her how you can help me because you are so far away from me? She has said that Jim can send the money through the company which makes this service. I've asked about it in the bank and I know now that reliable and fast company exists which make remittances all over the world and it's called Western union. I has remember that I saw advertising this company on TV. I've taken a directory book and found the address of it. It's not far from me. I've gone there and I've asked them about their service. They've said that a sender must go to the western union branch, give them information: THE NAME AND LAST NAME OF A RECEIVER, A COUNTRY WHERE HE MAKES A TRANSFER AND THEY GIVE HIM THE TEN DIGITS CONFIRMATION NUMBER TO A SENDER. THE RECEIVER MUST KNOW CONFIRMATION NUMBER FOR A RECEIVING MONEY. They say that the branches of it must be everywhere all over the world. I have found out about where is the Western union here (by the way, they have a website, called www.westernunion.com). There is not any branch of western union here, but we have branch of western union in the city named Kurgan, this is about 80 kilometers from my town. It's not be a problem to move there. You can send me money using western union according following data:

Address: ALFA BANK, GOGOLYA 61
KURGAN, RUSSIAN FEDERATION
For: NATALIA GORKOVETC

I must tell them YOUR FULL NAME, FULL ADDRESS, EXACT AMOUNT AND CONFIRMATION NUMBER (Money Transfer Control Number) which will be given to you Jim! Please don't forget to send this information to me, ok?
I love you very much! I think about you Jim all the time! I think about a meaning of money, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the money play a main role in the life but it's not right! I'm sure. And the quantity of money was, is and will not important to me. I have never aspired to the material enrichment and don't search specially for a rich man! I appreciate human qualities and relations and I love you Jim!!! I love you Jim with all my heart, I want to be with you now... I want to be with you forever! If it's mutually we will be very happy in our life! I think you love me too and we will meet very soon. You are my love Jim! My heart is yours! I will wait for good news from you, I hope everything will be all right and we will be together soon. Every day I think about our meeting, and I think it's very real now, we must use this chance of destiny. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

Letter 3

Hi my soul - Jim!

I am glad that I have opportunity to write you long letter today. I hope you will be glad to get it from me. I am always glad when I receive any of your messages. Today is very nice day here. And all day since the early morning and till this moment I think of you Jim!
I have received your letters and I? glad that you help me! I love you!!! I have got your help today!
We will be together soon! I am waiting for it and I know that you are waiting it too! You show me that you want it not less than me! You are so kind and understand me in this situation! I will go to Moscow on Monday morning! I will be on Monday afternoon and write you then!

I want to tell you that yesterday I began to knit a pullover for you. It will be my gift for you. I hope you will be glad. I knit a pullover of Angora wool. Do you like to wear a pullover when the weather is cool? But I am so hope that you will like this pullover. I make it with big love and care. Do you know I can knit? Did I tell you about it? My mom have taught me how to knit and I have some things of my clothes that I had knitted by myself. Would you like if your woman can knit? I suppose it will be the best pullover in your homeland. Ha-ha! The color - is a little bit more dark than white but all the same it's very nice color. I think it's looks pretty good. I want to make on a forward part of a pullover an inscription - a name. At first time I wanted to make name - Natasha. But now I want to make a name - Jim. And I don't know that you would like more. But I believe you will like more your name on a pullover because it will be your thing and only you will wear it. Do you agree with me? I think the name will not be of a big size. But you have 3 days to make the decision - what name you want to see on a chest. Exactly I want to write on a pullover "To Jim from his soul mate" or if you want I can write just "Jim". If you will not write me about it, I will take the decision by myself but I will not tell you. I will give you this pullover at the airport. Do you like my idea? Our hearts are like two great oceans which put together to the one big world ocean. They are vast and very deep like our feelings to each other. Our feelings so strongly as forces of oceans. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a powerful wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, powerful and forever...one heart, one ocean. Jim you have given me much more than you can realize. You are my prayer, my shelter from hopelessness and despair, only you can keep the spark in my soul burning bright. You are my ray of light in deep darkness, you are my dream which will be real soon. I really hope for it. Well Jim, I will finish my letter. I will wait for your response with hope and impatience and I promise that you will get my new letter soon.

Forever your Natasha.
I am waiting for your reply.
Kiss you Natasha.
Still only yours Natasha!!!